Feels thread
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Feels thread
My girlfriend just broke up with me over idek what so ye ill contribute
>>684020427
her daughter is but an empty shell of her former self, sad how people change so fast
>>684019978
Whats a gürlfrend anon?
Contributing, Hello Anons
I merely observe people around me living
>>684018274
Got diagnosed with thyroid fuck-up. Satan damn I'm not even 30 yet. I can't travel the world and lug around a box of pills !!! I can't even type how I feel.
>>684022180
Sometimes someone notices me. Wondering who this silent being may be. Then I just fade away. Scared. I continue observing, dreaming, haunted by missed opportunities and chances.
2/2
Anyone want some greentext stories?
>>684024884
Yesss
>>684024709
more?
Here's a personal favorite, anon.
>>684025132
Dumping the rest, all worth reading.
>>684025390
Ill dump some of what I have.
1/6
2/6
3/6
4/6
>>684021224
kek
5/6
6/6
1/15
2/15
>>684026879
Okay i am crying
3/15
>>684026895
lmao
4/15
5/15
>>684026879
That's women for you.
6/15
7/15
>>684027211
Will dump what I have got, its good to cry bro
8/15
Got a new Girlfriend. I really like her and she's really down to earth. She squirts too.
>oh sorry, looking for something depressing?
9/15
10/15
>>684022399
That's good no? I had issues with my thyroid being off balance for a while, fucked with everything. Went on some pills for a while and haven't had issues for almost 3 years
>totally down with incest, don't understand the taboo if you're not having kids
>there's not a single attractive female in my family
My natural instincts tell me that life shouldn't be this horrible.
11/15
>>684025559
Ouch :c
>>684020137
fantastic little game.
12/15
13/15
I've been crushing on a friend of mine since freshman year and she's graduating in a week. She's going to be moving out of town, fairly soon it seems. Never been able to make a move because she broke my best friend's heart. So, do I tell her I love her before it's too late?
tfw no loli gf
end my life
14/15
15/15
>>684027868
Maybe look outside of your family to fuck, you insecure basement dwelling hick.
>>684021224
top kek
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4gSh7_P1saM
>>684021224
I feel like half a man after hearing that sorrowful passage.
>>684028440
Yeah, but nobody else ever wants to interact with me. It's not even that I'm dislikeable; people like me once they start to hang out. It's just that I have a hard time breaking the ice to get into social circles.
>>684025559
This hit me really bad in the feels. Well played, anon.
>>684018274
I just want someone to hug me or someone to talk to in real life.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_P-v1BVQn8
>>684028172
Source?
>>684029754
I'm not sure really, I saved it from another feels thread several years ago
classical music is great for these threads
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7dOnkcFjO6w
>>684029633
I can relate. Living with my cat for a few months now. It kind of helps with the feeling of not being loved. because of kitty snuggles.
He never answered my question.
>>684028401
Quite a ride. Thanks anon.
>>684030901
its ok
its hard for a mango to hang himself so he probably gave up
>>684026895
Kekmao
i wasted probably half an hour reading this shit, i have work to do but it was worth it
you will never have this
have some wonderful Mozart. it will help you feel better
>>684030727
am leaguefag
>inb4 fuck off
personal favorite song to listen too
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QVtvPXVysiE
>>684032126
ahhhh fuuuuuug
>>684032057
i used to play
but quit
this is a lovely piece of music for the login screen
good work riot games :)
obviously they have a very skilled composer on their teams
check this out.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=izzXp0aOL2I
its a similar ensemble to this
>>684028644
Fuck man, you got me
>>684032820
did you listen to the music with it?
it lines up with the story pretty well people have told me
>do/did you have a dog? what was its name?
>>684027018
>john
>green
>>684028644
fuck you made me cry
>>684033048
>decides to listen to music
not >>684032820 mind you
>Victor Entertainment
>Not available in you country
>'murica
>>684033048
Nah, I never listen to the music, words are enough. My mother keeps adopting rescue dogs to give them a better life. It's so nice to see them happy and playing, but I get too attached to them. When it's time for them to go, I fucking die inside. Shit man, i'm just thinking of all the little doggos that i've raised over the years and I was there for every moment of their lives up until the end. I haven't cried this hard in a while.
>>684033578
lol oops
its an ost from welcome to the nhk and is really nice and sad
try this link (if that doesn't work you could just change your vpn)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eoEb4XrXtpI
>>684033958
time to open vpn
>>684033768
sorry to hear about the doggo's
they had a good life with you im sure
>>684032057
the piece i sent and this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8VStRc-tgik
are really beautiful and i think you would like them if you liked the league piece
>>684026879
fucking heavy
this album is just feel after feel. caan barely listen to its without teaaaring up.
also, I know radioheaad is kind of meme status right now,
but im talking specific to this album... man...
I want to thank you guys. Tonight some bad things i had swolload for a long time got out. Thank you
>>684028291
No. In difficult times always respect the code over your emotions. A man who compromises his values is no man.
>>684034494
i don't know what the fuck is up with my "a" key
>>684034752
no problem
sometimes its nice to let my gaurd down and be amongst friends on this site
i feel like i've resolved some things too tonight (emotionally)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JlMHjo7Jwhk
thank you for the thread guys
The girl I've had a crush on for about a year and a half or so told me she had a crush on my best friend, who knew about my crush.
A couple days ago she told him this, and the next day he said that she's cool but probably not,also said he's not really interested in a gf (courting her and like 4 other girls btw)
Today she went to a concert we had
Obviously for him, not for her good friend that she's confided in as much as, if not just A lot as him and friends that are actually around her more
I was kind of afraid of what would happen
We talked, whatever. Gave her a souvenir from a trip we just got back from
Probably the only person to do that with anyone besides our moms, as we came back just a couple days before Mothers Day
He got her neither jack nor sit
Sure I didn't give her anything special, but it looked nice and was SOMETHING
He said yes, she was really excited, she barely talked to me besides the bunches of messages she sent me about the concert before this, both before he said yes and after.
Really excited.
She told him bye and hugged
Said she'd say bye to me but we'd see each other on the bus
Okei
Tells him I barely acknowledge her on the bus
>yeah a little bit since you crushed my heart, before that I talked to you all the god damned time
Whatever
They hugged right
She was super excited about that the little pleb
>how many times
>how many times did i hug you or ask to be hugged or whatever
>remember that one time like 2 years ago, because we've known each other that long, connected with each other on virtually every level for that long, that you ran up to me, excited and hugged me randomly
>but when it's this fucking kid
Ugh
I'll continue a bit more one second
>>684027070
holy fuck..... that was the most intense thing ive ever read... teared up like a bitch
>>684035865
>more athletic (which she's not very), just as smart as me (I'm smarter than him on some stuff, and vice versa, even on the rest) really, just as emotionally withdrawn half the time as me, just as fucked up emotionally, if not more, and just as fucked up in humour and shit, but more disgusting about it and other things, better at music but not as good taste, neither of us are that attractive, hes taler though, and a bit more built, whatever.
>this kid you've known well for probably about half the time you've known me
>arguably not as close as we are, possibly a bit more on some things because they're apple fags and FaceTime
>this kid is your like one love you hype it so much
>why.
Different stories later maybe.
>be me
>be in middle school
>be really self conscious
>about to fail algebra
>mfw
1/8
>>684036234
You're not entitled to anything. Grow up, move on.
>>684030727
such a great story
>>684036234
>they care
>no they don't
>they both have said that
>the girl many times, even in more ways suggesting that we could eventually be more than friends
>no they don't
>no they fucking don't
>they have never shown any ability to care about me
>I can talk to both but it doesn't matter.
>with the girl we both just talk about our problems and eventually I'll say stuff to help her and she'll respond with something completely random the next day
>with the guy he uses the same tactic he uses with the girl drama he gets into, which he accidentally revealed to me: just act like you care, take their side completely
>they don't care
>the next time they text me I'm just not
>if either talks to me I'll just ignore it, respond like a fake bitch, or just smile and nod
>I have no plans of interacting with either go a while, I'm just done
>the only place I can take my problems is you /b/
>speaking of
Let's talk about other crushes in a bit. We'll get into what caused me emotional trauma even later or in another thread.
I'm going to brb a bit and let my phone charge, hope you guys are even interested
That'd be 1/like 8 or 10 or something people in my life
>>684037640
Never said I was but nice one
>>684032270
crying like a little girl
>>684035276
That's not funny! My brother died that way.
La cucaracha, la cucaracha
Ya no puede caminar
Porque no tiene, porque le falta
Un cigarro que fumar
La cucaracha, la cucaracha
Ya no puede caminar
Porque no tiene, porque le falta
Un cigarro que fumar
Con las barbas de Carranza
Voy hacer una toquilla
Para ponerle en el sombrero
Del famoso Pancho Villa
La cucaracha, La cucaracha
Ya no puede caminar
Porque no tiene, porque le falta
Un cigarro que fumar
Ahí viene la cucaracha, Ahí viene por el camino
Ya se mira muy aburracha
Con su botella de vino
Ahí viene la cucaracha, callendose en el camino
Que si Adelita se llama la joven
A quien yo quiero y no la puedo olvidar
En el mundo yo tengo una rosa
Que con el tiempo la voy a cortar
Que si Adelita quisiera ser mi esposa,
Que si Adelita fuera mi mujer,
Le comprarí un vestido de ceda
Para llevarla a bailar al cuartel
Que si Adelita se fuera con otro
La seguiría por tierra y por mar
Si por mar en un buque de guerra
Si por tierra en un trén militar
Que si acaso yo muero en campaña
Y mi cadaver lo van a sepultar,
Adelita por dios te no ruego
Que a mi tumba me vayas
A llorar
This song always gives me major feels
this song always makes me cry like a toddler that lost its balloon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEOn8o1Nb1A
Actually, first crush doesn't matter. If she doesn't care about me, I mean, I can't change it whatever.
But the other girl.
Her history with me was:
1. Pretending to care about me (we greeted each other one time, and she turned right back around like I just wasn't cheery enough in my "hello" and was like "are you okay?" Like all serious like and concerned
I wasn't but I said yeah, and the period in between then and weeks afterwards when she did it again consisted of)
2. Simply ignoring me
3. Or responding but like really short and "whateverish"
Like I can deal with caring people and uncaring people easy
But pretending to care is just rude and stupid
She probably did it for her mom, who thought I was depressed 90% of the time
Not entirely wrong but still.
Not saying I'm ENTITLED to anything, sir, but either care about my wellbeing, ignore me, or be just someone I occasionally talk to, who you really just say "hey" to then forget about. But don't do all of the above.
>>684039448
Please translate because google translate is some shit
>>684039814
look up la cucaracha
>>684039814
it's the cockroach song m8
>>684039448
>La seguiría por tierra y por mar
>Si por mar en un buque de guerra
>Si por tierra en un trén militar
>Que si acaso yo muero en campaña
>Y mi cadaver lo van a sepultar,
>Adelita por dios te ruego
>Que a mi tumba me vayas a llorar
Spanish feels
I'm not going to write this as a greentext. I just don't know what to do anymore, /b/. I have a decent life, but I fycked it all up. I came out to my family and they rejected me. Each and every one of them. My brother hasn't returned a single call, and my parents swore they could never love a faggot. I'm sitting in a McDonald's right now using the free wifi. I have nowhere to go, no friends to stay with, and a minimum wage job (at this McDonald's, actually) to support myself. I've suffered from depression and have had suicidal tendancies for a few years now. The last time I tried to drown myself I suffered some moderate brain damage, and the only reason I'm alive is because my cunt of a brother found me. This was before I came out. I bet you are probably wondering why an attention-seeking faggot like myself would post this on 4chan, aren't you? Well, it's because I always felt like I belonged on the chan (kek). I had fun for a while. When I would fight with my parents about equal rights for indians and faggots, I would blow off steam on /b/. Now, however, I don't think I can elicit the same joy from here anymore. Anyway, I was thinking of ending it abruptly, no dragging out this shit. There's a railroad that passes through my city, only a block away from where I am. I think I'll spend a bit more time on /b/, at least until the battery on my phone dies, then I'll wait for a train. Goodbye, /b/, I think you are the only cunts I'll miss.
>>684039814
Castilian speaker here.. I'll try to translate it'll take some time
>>684040891
Thank You
>>684026895
what the fuck is this cancer
>>684030886
>Lonely as fuck
>Have never felt the feeling of being loved
>Just want a hug
>cat won't stop shitting on my bed
fuck cats
>invite qt to sister's wedding
>she said yes
>told her i would text her the info the next day, it was late
>text her the details, nothing
>next day, text her again, nothing
>text her today, nothing
Feels bad man, why do bros? She's a total qt and i really don't have anyone else to ask. It just sucks getting my hopes up for nothing
>>684040670
Hey man, I know that I'm probably just a random anon to you. Just a person on the internet to you, nothing important right? Well, you may think that but from one person to another, hear me out?
Did you hear me right? Thats right, I called you a person.
And that's what you fucking are.
And if you say that you "belong to the chan (kek)" then you know what that makes you? A brother, and in my family, we are always sticking up for eachother.
So linger a bit longer and tell me your story, because I will listen. And if this thread gets pruned, make another one and continue.
>>684019689
What are these called? My emo friends used to post them all over MySpace and I just pretended to know what they were because I was too afraid to ask
>>684024771
>>684024771
What's the message?
>>684041386
i was stood up once, i ended spending the whole night pacing around an outdoor mall, and determining if i wanted to walk out into traffic, i ended up calling my mom, and going home and staying up till the morning
>>684041712
Plus, fuck your family. Family is suppose to stick up with you no matter the dislike, and love you unconditionally. If you can't leave because of dependency, then stay until you can shove shit down their throats.
And make a thread telling us the story so we can enjoy it too
>>684041386
She's ignoring you. Cunt move. Move on before you get too invested emotionally. You'll do yourself a favor, really
>>684039814
The only stanzas that matter are the last two:
(The song takes place during the Mexican Civil War)
If Adelita left with another,
I'd follow her by land or by sea
If by sea in a ship of war
If by land in a military train
In case i die on campaign
And my corpse they will bury
Adelita by god i beg you
That to my tomb you will go
To cry
>>684042345
Goddamn, Thank you for translating
I act like an autistic retard around my friends, but that's not who I actually am. I can't be who I wanna be because if I do, all characteristics are gonna and I'm just another nobody.
>>684025665
https://youtu.be/27ReHQ7jPp0
>>684042558
That's impossible.
You have mass, you take up space
So you matter
And therefore you are somebody
>>684041712
Not much more to say. I've had a strained relationship wih my family because of ideological beliefs for years. I couldn't move out because I didn't have the money to support myself, but I guess I don't have a choice anymore. I can't just get a gun to an hero because Canada. I figured a train is a quick, relatively painless way to go. As for the belonging thing, 4chan just doesn't do anything for me anymore. All I've learned is that I'm not the only lonely bastard in the world. Anyway, if the train schedule is accurate, I ought to get going.
>>684040670
not sure if real or pasta or trolling but don't do it, man.
I can't pretend to know what you're going through but I can tell you that you've got so much time ahead of you. If you've been reading the other stories in this text, I'm sure you've realized that so many other people have gone through some of the worst, most painful things imaginable, but they're still here to talk about it. Their lives aren't perfect, and neither is yours, but neither is anybody's life. We all have our struggles, and some are worse than others (like yours: that sounds terrible, man), and it's not fucking fair and there's no reason for it, but ending it all is not the answer.
If you JUST told your parents, yeah they've over-reacted and they're just in a heated, overemotional state, but when they digest everything and let it sink in... shit won't be great, but it will be better. And any case, if you're working a steady job, maybe just try to find a roommate (even if its on craigslist) and cut your family out of your life if they're that fucking cancerous and hostile, because you don't need that.
I would also suggest making stuff. Writing poetry, music, drawing, painting... whatever. It doesn't matter if you're any good, and it doesn't matter if you even show anybody, but it just gives you some sort of creative outlet and can make you feel more accomplished.
I'm kind of drunk and rambling here, but, tl;dr:
don't fucking kill yourself. it'll take some time, but you can heal.
see you around, /b/rother
>>684040670
Sorry to hear /b/ro, hopefully it takes awhile for your phone to die. Ey?
>>684042645
didn't he die?
This girl and I were talking before the semester ended but she decided things were moving too fast even though we never fucked. Anyway we talked for a few weeks after but haven't spoken in 3 weeks. We have 2 classes next semester. Am I foolish for being optimistic that maybe things will reignite? We didn't end on a bad foot. I've gotten over her and am leaving in 8 days for 6 weeks because Marines. Sometimes I just think I'm stupid to get my hopes up. I would just hate to see a potential something turn into nothing
>>684042558
>If you don't act stupid nobody knows you exist
>nobody takes any interest in what you say but expect you to hang onto their every word
>Act like a moron
>People interact with you but end up pushing you away because they think you're actually
>Act like a normal person
>Become forgotten
>>684039814
>fist art is the original stuff
The cockroach, the cockroach
Can't walk anymore
Because it hasn't, because it lacks
A cigarette to smoke
The cockroach, the cockroach
Can't walk anymore
Because it hasn't, because it lacks
A cigarette to smoke
With the beards of Carranza
I'm gonna do a "toquilla"
To put on the hat
Of the famous Pancho Villa
The cockroach, the cockroach
Can't walk anymore
Because it hasn't, because it lacks
A cigarette to smoke
There comes the cockroach, there comes by the way
It looks so "drunk"
With it's bottle of wine
There comes the cockroach, falling down on the way
And if Adela is the name of the young lady
The one I love and can not forget
In the world I would have a rose
That with time I will cut
If Adelita would want to be my wife
If Adelita were my woman
I would buy her a dress of silk
To got her to dance
And if Adelita goes with other man
I would follow her by land and sea
If by sea in a war ship
If by land in a military train
And if I die in battle
And my body would be buried
Adelita, for God i beg you
Go to my tomb, and cry for me
>>684043410
think you're actually stupid*
GF broke up with me exactly 9 months ago today. I see her everyday. shes got some new boyfriend and i just sit there and act like its nothing. it kills me everyday to see them together. i still love her. shes the reason i became and still am a /b/ro. she's the reason im numb.
>>684042964
Not yet bro, we can still talk. Like I said, we are brothers in arms with many things to talk about. There is still so much to do for yourself, so much to experience!
You know what I was always told?
It will always get worse before it gets better, and that's why you have to keep pushing.
We had a depression once in America, but we got out of it. Things get better
>>684040670
We're all faggots here /b/rother. We're a family. Don't end your life because your blood family is close minded. Get help, see a therapist for your depression, live a good life. You're gonna make it out okay.
>>684043441
Thanks compadre
>>684027096
I like these comics. Got any moar?
>>684040670
Really please don't go. I know what it's like to be rejected. It sucks but all you have to do is find new people, ones that will accept you.
brother passed away yesterday.
>trying to hide all of my emotions behind a screen.
>>684043538
>Been 6 years since SHE left
>Still not even remotely over her
>Been 6 years since I've seen her
>Still look at her picture every day
Best of luck to you. It's gonna be a shitty ride.
>>684043538
Sorry /b/ro. You'll find somebody else to fill the void. I know that feel man
>>684043833
You're welcome..
It would be more like "thanks mae" I'm Costa Rican, actually had some problems with Mexican slang
>>684044345
>>684044236
That's your brother man. You've got no reason to hide shit. Sorry for your lose
>>684040670
Don't end your life, anon. This might sound cliche, but you have so much to live for, so much that hasn't happened yet. You could miss out on the best years of your life if you choose to end yourself. A quote I always like is "Before others help you, you must help yourself first" (something along the lines of that). Work hard, anon, hard work always pays off, you may even find a partner or someone who makes you happy while doing so.
>>684043705
I'm standing by the railroad right now. Fucking Canadian Pacific, the least dependable shipping service. My parents can't end my mobile plan until the end of my contract, so I'm going to rack up as high of a cost in roaming charges as possible as a final fuck you. I don't have the money to support myself, so I'll be homeless for a while If I stay alive. I don't have a home or any money, food, or friends around me. I'm just listening to some Vampire Weekend and lurking a bit here until a train comes. It may be concieted of me, but I kind of want to see what you /b/ros are saying before I an hero.
don't know if this is a good reason to hide shit but, i guess i dont want to worry my friends as much? idk. i'm all fucked at this point.
>>684044779
This is it. Make the choice. You can go either way. You have so much you can live for. You don't need to end it. We're still here with you. You can start over. You don't need your family. Homeless is better than dead. You can always kill yourself later, why not wait to see if it gets Bett
>>684044779
It's not too late to stop, man. Walk away. You can make it.
>>684045311
*gets better
>>684044779
>so I'm going to rack up as high of a cost in roaming charges as possible as a final fuck you.
>being as big of an asshole to them as they were to you
You do know, the biggest "fuck you" you can give them, is by living your life happily, right? They'll eventually pay off those bills, and forget all about you. But if you LIVE, they'll always remember you and hate you, and just knowing your a happy faggot will torment them.
>>684044779
If that's what you want, just do it.
I won't judge. Your life is yours.
>>684018274
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOKJkjYMzN8
Thanks USA for helping communist soviets in WW2 rather than Germany you fuckwits. Now we have communist influence everywhere.
I typed this out in preparation for the train. I've finished the captcha and stuff. Just going to press post when I hear a train coming. One final kek.
>>684045466
Nothing gets better. Everything ends.
>>684044779
Your fate is in your hands. Before you decide, realize that your life cannot get better once your dead. Think about this. Do you want to leave with your last thoughts being of how shitty things were, or do you want to see them get better?
Another Spanish feel because Español is the best language for feels:
¿Dónde esta el atrevido jinete
Vengando a su pueblo y su gente?
¿Dónde esta el solitario insurgente?
¿En que niebla oculto su vestuario?
¿Dónde están su caballo y sus rayos?
¿Dónde acechan sus ojos ardientes?
Galopa, Galopa
Le dice la arena
Que tragó la sangre
De los desdichados.
Galopa, Galopa
Le dice la luna
Que ahí va la venganza
En esa montura.
Va certero y seguro ese rayo
Vengando en la noche a los suyos
Sin bandera, sin ley, ni destino
Solo tiene un dolor asesino
Hay nocturno, chileno distante
Azotado por daño incesante
Galopa, Galopa
Le dice la arena
Que tragó la sangre
De los desdichados.
Galopa, Galopa
Le dice la luna
Que ahí va la venganza
En esa montura.
>>684037130
Listen man. One of the best things you can do for yourself is to leave this place. Failing algebra isn't the end of the world, but becoming one of us may be. Good luck in highschool kid.
>>684045632
good luck
>>684044779
>>684045545
This anon speaks the truth. You still have many years ahead of you, don't just throw it away. Find someone you love, live happily, work hard, it'll be the biggest "fuck you" you can give to your parents.
>>684045632
Rip attention whore. You know this faggot probably made this up, right?
>>684040670
Shawn is that you?
>>684045796
this.
godspeed anon
>>684045632
Hey, look at all of these anons posting in this thread telling you to not an hero. If your family has no fucks to give about you, then you do the same to them. Live your life and experience it. Shove shit down their throats and be a happy faggot. We care about you, man
>>684045796
This
>>684044779
sorry man..
Everything will eventually become nothing.
>>684044779
NOT IN MY FUCKING THREAD!!! GO HOME DUDE
>>684046627
Entropy is one hell of a drug
>>684040670
See you on the other side, faggot
>>684046738
nihilism; not even once
>>684045755
¿Esto de qué trata?
>>684032126
This is ground control to major tom
>>684045796
Genuinely these words made me rethink what I´m doing right now. Thank you anon.
i want to tell you guys that i love you and you mean the world to me, i am anonymous
you are anonymous
we may never meet each other in reality but in here ive never felt more at home
in some way youve saved my life
6 years ago i was living with a father who'd always try to convince me how terrible my mother was when she was struggling to survive even on her knees he'd strike her down and berate her just to spite her
but after the court gave custody to my mother he never showed his face again
id always go to the local library to use the computers and thats how i discovered 4chan
it was a fun and interesting place to be at times
it kept me positive through the shit ive gone through
thank you for this /b/
thank you for this anon
>be me
>August 20th ish
>dicking around on kick
>be rp ing as dragon, end up doing a five hour chat with girl being neko
>having the time of my life, instant love
>end up talking everyday
>month or so later we trade pics
>is qt, me:not so much
>we say "i love you everysingle fucking day to eachother
>be in oregon, shes in canada, no chance of meeting in person
>one day drama ensues, find out she has boyfriend who demanded she make up a story about parents blah blah blah and cut off talking to me
>and i thought she was just bored and making exuses
>cry myself to sleep, i really fucking loved her
>wake up hour or two later
>sixty messages and a full paragraph explaining everything, she loves me too much to stop talking, loves her bf too
feelsgoodman.gif
>mostly we just do sexy rp's and shit
>she has a few issues but nothing bad
>died in january, found out while i was taking finals
>no idea how, just that shes dead
>i miss daisy /b/
Everyone I love lives far away from me and have long since moved on. I've lived in desolation as a social outcast for the past 4 years, and those I previously loved mean more to me than they know. The smallest form of interaction will make my week, but nobody cares.
When you are happy with yourself and enjoy your own company, every time you realize it you just remember how sad and alone you had to be to accomplish it. Everybody already has friends and people that care about them at my age, there's no coming back from this. I've tried and tried.
>>684047919
I love you too anon
>>684018274
>>684045755
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=twEGSGpLiyc
>>684040670
>>684042964
>>684044779
>>684045632
RIP anon. We tried to help you.
>>684047919
>>684047919
hit me hard fam
>>684036234
You sound like a winey bitch. I'm not even going to sugar coat this. Fucking do something and stop being a bitch Why the fuck would she want you when you're such a fucking bitch. If you sound like this over the internet, you're bound to be worse in person.
>>684028401
this just made me depressed.
why cant my life be this happy
>>684047757
I'm a senior for the next 2 weeks, so let me give you a little advice for the future. Get involved. They will probably tell you this all the fucking time when you reach highschool, and if you're like me you'll ignore it. My biggest regret is not meeting my friends until this year, and all I had to do was join the fucking choir. And again, don't worry about your classes too much. I dropped out of calc this semester, and its one of the reasons I'm still alive.
>>684024884
Yes please deliver
>>684047919
why does life hurt
>>684045632
Another /b/rother gone. I'll miss you fags.
>>684047925
I had a Daisy once. She made me feel like i was on top of the world. Never did figure out why she stopped talking to me tho.
If I stay on 4chan I'll just get worse
If I leave 4chan I have no where to belong
Life is something I just can't win.
>>684027533
Jesus fucking christ.
>>684049296
You still in school? If so, highschool or college? I know its really cancerous, but in highschool all you need to do is smoke pot and the stoners will let you in. Its how I've been making it through.
>>684049296
You'll find where you belong soon enough, comrade. It would be wise to not let it become here. What's troubling you?
>>684049251
truest from of love i think i will ever know, i actually got to skype with her for two hours about two weeks before she died only time i ever heard her voice, i dont even remember it. She ruined rping for me too, nothing is quite as good as what we had
>>684047919
I want to, I really do. I want to tell everyone I see that I love them. Especially those who seem so fucking happy. I mean, they walk around holding hands and walking their pups. They share flirty glances from across the table at restaurants, and they'll later share drinks and laughter. It all seems so lovely, and I love it. I do.
But I can't tell anyone that I love them. I can't say that I love anything in truth, because the weight of resentment serves as a muzzle. I know they're not at fault for enjoying life, but I can only feel hatred when I see that which I desire so badly in the hands of Jake, Chad, Brad, or Brian. Meagan, Haley, Emily, or whomever. They have it all, but they're careless and they let it die in front of them while they convince themselves that they're too busy having fun to care. It disgusts me, and I have to watch the real thing be thrown away day after day. Love dies in the hands of the beautiful and fortunate.
>mfw it could've been me
>>684045632
Another anon gone
Throwing in some happy feels
>>684018274
>be me 24
>married to love of my life
>travel the world, have great sex, can't spend a day without each other
>6 years later
>notice she gets called by a blocked number every morning/during her commute to work
>ask her about it, says it's some automated telemarketer/survey call
>go through her phone when she's sleeping
>call history deleted
>few days later, check phone again when she goes to bed
>blocked calls on call history, all marked as "answered"
>check texts
>last message she sent before going to sleep "I love you." to some random phone number
>cry myself to sleep
>confront her, and finally admits that she's been cheating on me with her boss
>also find out that she fucked her ex a day before our wedding
>rough divorce
>takes me 3 years to get over her
>meet new girl, she's cute, smart, funny, sexy, everything
>start dating, she's also divorced
>date for 3 years, we move in together and shit
>im just so in love
>i propose
>she says yes
>happiest man on earth
>fast forward march 2016
>walk in on her fucking her ex-husband on our bed
>feel destroyed
I don't know what to do anymore. I feel numb. I lost all my trust in women. I don't want to be heartbroken ever again. So many years of my life wasted that I will never get back. I'm almost 40 now, so there is almost no dating pool left for me anyway. It's just me and my dog, Tony.
>>684026879
This isn't a rage thread
>>684043538
Been a year since me and my fiance of 2 almost 3 years split
Been four years since the love of my life died...
I miss my fiance but no one will ever touch the love of my life. My fiance cheated.the only one who never hurt me was my love of my life but knowing I couldn't stop the love of my life from killing herself, I consider dying myself every night. Every single fucking night...
At least she's alive /b/ro... it could be worse...
>>684050097
Jesus, man. I'm so sorry.
>>684026895
Next Tuesday will mark 2 months of life I didn't plan on living. Not sure if I should be happy or dissappointed by my inability to become an hero. Right now, just numb.
>>684024506
>be me
>7years ago, in 9th grade
>Lunch break, sitting alone as usual
>across from lunch table where all the girls sit
>they all are talking about what they think of guys in our school
>"What about anon"?
They all bust out in laughter for a solid 10 seconds then go to the next person
This was one of the worst feels
>be me, 13
>middleschool
>life has been a bit hard, nothing too difficult
>moved to Virginia
>cunt of a cousin (who went to the same school) spread rumor about me being faggot before i got there
>didnt really care but had no friends
>mfw i have 4chan
>fast forward 3 year
>7/10 girl new to school
>she is in my home room
>talk with her, get to know her
>we get really close
>ask her out
>yes.gif
>in a strong relationship
>lasts 3 years even when we go to diffrent colleges
>over winter break she wants to meet up and talk
>walking up to her at the park
>"Anon, Stop. Dont get any closer. I never loved you. I never cared about your stupid problems. I just needed someone to use, to make my stepfather upset, to take me to dances, etc. You are garbage. We are through. I never want to see you again."
>i am destroyed
>one week later
>phone call from her
>"I'm sorry Anon. I wanted you to be able to move on but i couldnt leave without saying goodbye."
>Drive over to her house (she had been suffering from depression)
>Pull across the street because ambulance is in driveway
>She had put a bullet in her head
It happened a few years ago. Its hard to keep going.
>>684051307
god damn...
>>684019689
CUCK
>>684051307
Need a drinking buddy for tonight?
>>684051665
yeah. yeah...
>>684051853
Alright. Stay strong, /b/ro.
>>684027878
fuck that, anon. fuck.. that..
i always feel like some sort of sick twisted parasite reading these threads, having the feels is intoxicating for some reason, i dont get it..
>>684027625
>>684044236
I feel it
How do you deal with the inevitability of death and the ultimate pointlessness of everything?
>>684052368
It's nice to just feel something.
I haven't left my house in over three years. I know sounds dumb but I can't bring myself to look out the window sometimes. I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety as a kid but never got any real treatment until after a failed attempt my freshman year of college. I couldn't handle the pressure. My parents had always drilled me about the importance of education and that it was the only way to be successful. I barely passed high school. Not because I didn't understand the information but because I didn't want it to kill me. I got stuck in a cycle.
I told myself that college would need different. I didn't want to keep disappointing them.
The crowds got to me. I stopped going to classes. I just held museum in a corner of the library.
I made friends though. Kind of.
I lost my scholarship but I still wanted to try so I went back the next semester.
I lasted longer this time but the same thing happened. March 26 of that year. I stabbed myself in the shoulder in frustration. My fingers still get stuff sometimes. March 27 I woke up and went to campus to reach out to someone. Anyone. I even drove to one friend's house. Went home and that night I decided to call the suicide hotline. No help. Went the pills route and woke up in the hospital three days later. Found out the hotline had sent an officer over. Went to therapy got a shit ton of pills for a year then stopped leaving the house.
I'm living life as a parasite now. A burden on my parents.
They were working on their Will today.
When they die, everything they worked for will either be lost because I can't support myself or sold off my by drug addict sister who's already on her sixth kid.
The house that they build with their bare hands. The land that's been in our family since the 1800's. All lost because I'm a waste of space.
>>684052274
>>684051665
Actually, i think im just going to go for a walk. No vodka tonight. Just walking. I don't really know where to. Maybe to the train tracks. Anywhere really. Good night /b/rothers.
>>684051853
I've got a new bottle of Gibson's Finest Canadian Whiskey. The good shit. I guess it's time to crack it open and drown out my problems.
>>684026879
WHY JUST WHY
>>684052542
How do you deal with the daily monotony of life knowing you mean nothing to anyone and no one would attend your funeral except for the few family members who feel obligated to.
How do you deal with hating yourself more than anything and not even being able to make friends online let alone in real life
>>684050097
rice pirate?
>>684027878
you poor bastard, i hope one day you can be happy
>>684052758
Good luck my friend
>>684052758
Don't. The rest of us need you here.
>>684027533
oh my god
>>684053363
why is that?
>>684022180
>>684023219
i feel those feels, anon. i notice people like us
>>684053689
fuck
every thing I look at just makes me sad
everyone I know is going to die and I am too and yet we're all just slipping by counting down the seconds
>>684053463
makes me think of NGE
>>684026212
Based anon
>>684053524
>>684045632
I don't think we wanna see anyone else go.
>>684050097
Wow... I'm never trusting women. Fuck that shit.
It hurts to live tonight.
Sacred thread.
>>684050097
Hey man, my 3 months pregnant fiance miscarried and then broke up with me the same day. I didn't get to say goodbye, she just decided she didn't want to be with me anymore. I started going to church though and met a really nice woman and we got married. I am in a good place now and I think you can be to if you don't give up.
>>684053524
I'm sure you dont want to hear this, but I was thinking about doing pretty much exactly what your girlfriend did. She's moving away for college next year, and I don't want her to be worrying about me. I know I'm going to break after she leaves, and if it would make it easier for her, I would do anything. But hearing how you feel... I can't put someone through that. /b/ro, we need you here because if you weren't, some of us will make that mistake.
It does not get better. It will not get better. This is how things are for me. Life is, and always will be giving me the sour end of the stick. This is just how things are for some of us. Distractions are my only relief. I enjoy nothing anymore.
I hope you anons have some joy you can still cherish.
>>684053914
Yea, well thats not the worst of it, m8. The worst part is the moment you realize you're never going to really experience the joys of life because some rich boy is sleeping with your soul mate who is convinced that female empowerment is achieved via overly sexual behavior. Or because the career you've been striving for turns out to bore you. Or because helping people isn't fulfilling whenever the good is undone by insurance companies, pharm companies, and attorneys. Or because you realized this before you reached your twenties and decided to shoot yourself in the foot to avoid running a race you know you'll never win
>my life in a nutshell
>>684054884
Shes leaving all too soon. Still, its been a good 4 months. Im not ready to go back.
thanks for being here
goodnight /b/ros
>>684055581
Goodnight
Haha hey look my childhood
haha wheres my mom
ha
Shitty week myself. Hope things get better for all of you bros.
>>684028401
>>684048759
same...
>>684045755
Mierda, me llego al alma ;-;
>I sit here on a thursday night in a college town, just as I sit here on any other night of week.
>ts raining and I have the window open because the rain makes me feel something.
>I can't describe what it is that I feel when it rains.
>I don't mind when my floor gets wet or if the window pane rots
>I just want to feel something
>I hear the voices outside as the music booms
>I hear the arguments of careless lovers
>I hear a natty lite can tumble down 3rd avenue
>I wish I had something to feel alive for
>I wish I had someone to invite me into the fun, but I know I'd disappoint them
Been there, done that
>"Friends" learn not to bother with me
>they come and go as it suits them, making requests for favors and using my things
>I know they use me, but I weighed the costs and benefits
>decided I'd rather have that than no human interaction at all
>need to find an outlet
>need to find a source of joy
>fill myself with hope
>convince myself to try
>trip and fall
repeat
Have to be up in 6 hours, time for bed. Nobody else dies while I'm gone, deal?
>>684056316
Easier said than done.
>>684056316
We'll try.
