In the mood to jump in front of a train so feels thread
Post what you got or just talk, cause I dont have much
someone else post please, post your story or something
My own story I wrote a few weeks ago, haven't done shit since... Kill me /b/
might just neck myself soon bros
don't jump in front of a train because that will involve the driver and passengers in your drama.
Just end yourself quietly at home without discussing it further, we aren't interested and we don't care.
Goodbye. You are doing the right thing and the world will be better for it.
Hey guys, I am here for a short happy message.
I know you all come here to hold eachother crying but I just made a pregnacy test. Happy to say it was negative (I am a lady).
I'll be here and listen to y'all 'cause I'm happy and can spare some of that today.
ok I was looking for this one and now I found it finally
if op of this pic is reposting, you could become like yoda or something. not to make a meme out of your physical condition, but people i know who have gone through experiences of this caliber, if they can shake off the swing of their circumstance, tend to become some of the wisest, gracious, and most caring individuals i have had the pleasure to meet.
Saw this earlier today, wasn't even a feels thread.
It's long as shit but it's worth the read if you haven't read it before.
so what happens to someone with ms as it develops? apparently he has (or had) ppms which worsens over time. I mean do they stop being able to think clearly as well as breaking down physically?
My friend's dad has lived with MS for many years now. He's not in great physical shape but he used to be much worse. It's not always a 100% debilitating disease, but he can't work anymore due to it and has to live with pains.
I ruined my fucking life, /b/. Long ago, I was the person I wanted to be. That which will approach a person in the street if they look sad. One that will go to your house if you even hint about feeling bad. Had a lovely girlfriend that I loved back, had the best friends that I thought would stay with me forever. And I ruined it all. I never really thought of how people react to what I try to give them; that little place of comfort. But that all changed with one person. Will greentext.
>Be me, 18 YO student.
>New year of studies begins, meet with friends and gf.
>Happy to be back with them every day.
>Arrive at first class, know and love everyone.
>Suddenly notice new student.
>Let's call him H.
>H sat alone, probably because he didn't know anyone.
>Approach him, greeting him with a smile, asking for his name and giving him mine.
"O-ohh! Hey anon! I'm H!"
>He sounded really happy and smiled brightly.
>He considered me his best friend from that moment.
>Continue a few days forward.
>H doesn't leave my side, no matter where I go.
>My friends are a bit uncomfortable, specially my gf, but ohh well.
>I start studying H.
>He seemed like your typical R9K robot.
>No friends, not much socials skills, usually a loner, etc.
>Don't really mind, dealt with people like that before.
>Give H lots of motivation, talk to him every day, make him feel wanted.
>H seems a bit selfish, but don't mind.
>Fast forward a few weeks.
>H has become a bit too comfortable with everyone now.
>Says whatever he wants, even cringy, annoying, and sometimes disgusting things.
>Insults start to fly in.
>He can't say thank you or please, ever.
>Never says anything good about anyone.
>Quite the opposite, has quite a dirty mouth.
>Feels as if he's above others.
>People realize that and start getting away from him.
>Slowly losing friends.
>I'm his only friend now.
>Fast forward to nearly the end of the year.
>Kept up with H's bullshit all year.
>Really getting tired of it.
>And I finally did.
>H starts with his bullshit again.
>Only sit with him because none of my friends want anything to do with him.
>A day before, a friend asked me to bring him something.
>Friend says it's fine.
>H stands up and says the following:
"That's what you get for asking anon for something and not me."
>People don't really mind what he said.
>Lash out at him in front of the whole class.
>Yell everything that's wrong with him into his face.
>Literally 3 minutes of yelling.
>Finally calm down.
>Everyone looking at me in utter shock.
>One minute of silence.
>H starts crying and runs away.
>Everyone go back to normal routine.
>Friends tell me I might have overreacted.
>Don't fucking care.
>Felt way too good, not having done anything like this, ever.
>H doesn't come to school the following few days.
>Life is just a short flick of nothing in a universe.
>You are just a slightly inteligent monkey, standing on a rock rushing through the universe 30 kilometres every second.
>Every day, you can die in a flick of the second due to bilions of different reasons.
>All the feelings; Hapiness, love are just biochemical reactions in your brain. Nothing more. Just dopamine in your fucking brain that could go off any fucking time. You can get the same effect by getting druged.
>There's no god. No heaven. No hell. People like to lie to themselves so they can hope that there will be something after they die. But there's nothing.
>Neither you nor me will matter after we die.
>No one will remember us.
>No one will remember who we were.
>No one will remember this site.
>Last month of the school year.
>H comes back.
>No one cares.
>Everyone ignoring him.
>H doesn't talk to anyone.
>Finally hang out with my friends again.
>Fun and laughs.
>Notice that at some points, H is following me and watching me from afar.
>During breaks, during free time, etc.
>Still don't care, keep ignoring him like everone else.
>Few days later, principle calls me in his office.
>Guessing I know what's it about.
>Walk in, school psychologist (Yes, we have those.) sat with principle.
>This is bad.
>Sit down and they start talking.
>Tell me H went to the psychologist to complain about me.
>H said I bully him, harras him, give him a bad name, and humiliate him.
>Go on about how I should behave better, and that they didn't expect this from me.
>Next things they said are blurry, too angry to think.
>Enough is enough. Time for revenge.
you fucking nigger do somthing, stop worrying about the other beta motherfucker and get yourself that woman, shes creaming for you and and still are telling yoursef that youre not really sure about it, fucking nigger
>People believe me pretty easily.
>Start rumor that H tried to rape one of the girls in class a while ago and he told me about it.
>Class goes apeshit.
>Everyone outside, waiting for H.
>H goes out of the door and stares at everyone in shock.
>People circle around him, myself included.
>Everyone all together start yelling hate at him.
>More than anything I could possibly imagine.
>H already broken down crying.
>People keep going.
>Teachers arrive and move everyone away.
>Best fucking feeling of my life.
>Think about it all day with a grin on my face.
>Can't recall that amazing feeling I've gotten.
>Want more of it.
>Next day, school time.
>Friend found out what I did. (Kept them out of it.)
>Tell me how wrong that was, and it was way too extreme, and whatever.
>Suddenly that urge rises again.
>Lash out at all of them altogether.
>Know them very well, press all the right buttons.
>Never seen so much shock and sadness in one place.
>They just walk away.
>Gf confronts me.
>Tries talking to me too about it with an angry tone.
>Fuck your shit.
>Do same to her. Break up with her on the spot.
>This goes on along the month with anyone who tries to tell me I did something morally wrong.
>End of school.
>Sick of everyone's shit.
>Can't even recall how I loved without this feeling.
>Go the same rout with family.
>Live with them and don't talk to them at all.
>H didn't come the next year.
>No one speaks to me.
>Became what I always tried to avoid.
>Hate everything and myself.
>Don't care, still have good feeling ever time.
And I don't see this changing at all, any time soon. And to think I could avoid all this, and have friends, but miss out on one of the greatest emotional peaks of human nature.
Thank you for listening.
nothing that you can attack, anyway. that's the realization that comes from this. you can perpetually thrive off of destroying people's egos until they realize that their ego never existed to begin with. You are a blessing to others. Jesus did this to many men whom he came across. perhaps not as maliciously as yourself but he always spoke of how no amount right doing can save you from sin, because the striving to do right is what creates the tension. You cannot force yourself to be better, or good, or positive.
It's hard, eventually it goes away
Had the girlfriend of my dreams for about a year until I found out she cheated on me, this ended around September or so. Still sometimes just sit and think about how I felt better back then
Not at all. He did it unintetionally, and suffered from it. I do it intentionally and love very bit.
That's quite thought provoking. I did, in a way, force myself into the greater good, always had that little tingling of wanting to spit on someone's face instead of talking all nicely to them.
Absolutely not over it, sat down only last night and thought about all the shit that we had in common, and that a year long relationship went down the toilet all because someone else was there and I wasnt
I finally met the girl of my dreams, and i'm slowly dying and she doesn't know. Anyone want my story? I've posted it before, and I know someone screencapped it but I don't have it. I don't mind starting over, it helps to talk about it.
not only that, but your sheer honesty reveals to others what they fear to recognize in themselves. everyone maintains two (at least) aspects of themselves. one could be called figure, and the other shadow. no matter how hard you try, your figure always has a shadow that cannot be caught or repressed. it is just as the waves of the ocean have crests and troughs. to have a negative you must know positive, and vice versa.
For me it's always been something
Bullying from classmates and teachers, stress and harassment from parents to do better when I cant, not being able to be as successful as others, getting a girlfriend too late, getting a job too late, losing girlfriend, losing normal friends, no hobby no interests, drinking frequently
There's always something wrong
Bumping thread cause I don't wanna go to bed