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I have schizophrenia. Ask me anything
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>>683755038
do you take amisulpride
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>>683755109
She's a suicide girl and there's a list of her pictures in imgur. Sorry I don't have the link anymore
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>>683755168
I don't take medication. It doesn't sit well with me as I have other mental illnesses that get fucked with. At least that's my experience with meds
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>>683755038
have you ever put a sharpie in your pooper?
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>>683755038
Ask yourself anything
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>>683755038
I am afraid of getting it. My family had it. I have DPDR and loads of anxiety tho. How do you know you have it? Do you forget where you were and so on?
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>>683755319
No but maybe one day I will be able to convince my girlfriend to sharpie her pooper
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>>683755356
kek
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>>683755038
>When did you know you first had it?
>How are the voice different from voices coming in externally?
>Do you get visual hallucinations and if so what are they usually?
>Can you find a positive about this whole thing? (Ignore society and its rules for this last question.)
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>>683755356
Do crabs think fish fly? I fucking hope so

>>683755387
That's how I got it, it runs in my dad's family. I have a voice in my head, audio hallucinations frequently, and visuals not as often but have been picking up recently. Nothing super clear in visuals, just a flash here and there. The audio hallucinations are very clear. I'll think I'm eavesdropping on someone and walk out, no one there.
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>>683755038
Which part of your personalities should we ask?
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i have schizphrenia
shouldent that be we have schitzophrenia
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>>683755575
So you could be hallucinating complete conversations?
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>>683755038
Are the voices in your head familiar to you like, something that reminds you of your uncle, father, mother etc?
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Do you have a good potato salad recipe one of your personalities can share?
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>>683755038
Do the hallucinations make you feel like you lose contact with reality? Do you ever question what's real or not or how do you cope with that? I've been through psychosis once and that feeling makes me question everything at times.
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>>683755575
Do you realize that your hallucinations aren't real when they happen?
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>>683755483
On my phone replys may be slow
It didn't really connect with me until High School, that's when my dad told me it ran in our family. I have always had a second "conscience" which feeds me information of things I learned. It's as if I'm hearing my voice in my head except it's completely seperate and feels deeper. The external audible hallucinations feel like its legit sound coming in to my ear if that makes sense. I can't see the visuals clearly, it's just like a creature thing running by at the corner of my eye. The voice helps me with tests and reminding me of things. So it's pretty sweet.

>>683755632
Only one personality and that's mine. Not like that

>>683755670
I don't hallucinate talking to people but hearing them outside of my doors, yes.

>>683755758
Nope same tone as my voice but feels deeper

>>683755787
My great grandma has a dank recipe, will ask sister in the morning and post again 8pm tomorrow. PST
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>>683755939
No my visual hallucinations aren't strong like that.

>>683755948
Right after I turn my head to look. I realize it was just another vision. It scares me sometimes, I can almost see it's eyes.
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>>683755967
Creative minds make awesome cooks, thanks!
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>>683756103
What about the audio? You know instantly or realize after? You said you could feel like you're eaves dropping, is it always the same type of voice/does it feel the same?
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>>683756170
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>>683756330
I don't realize until I check. Im pretty sociable so I generally try to go join, but then yeah no one's there
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>>683755967
Im really interesting by the fact that you say your other voice feels like its coming from a deeper place, that place is probably your lizard brain, which is basically the bedrock of your brain. Somehow its getting its word in directly. Thank you for answering my question's, I hope things go well
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I had broken my foot, I had rather large cast for it, and had to use crutches to walk. My skitzo younger brother thought I was a killer robot sent to kill him. So in the middle of the night he had grabbed a kitchen knife and started stabbing door and screaming I'm going to kill you before you kill me.
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Is The Shining like your documentary
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>>683756533
It feels like it's coming near the center where as my voice in my head is near the top/front. No problem and thanks man

>>683756534
At least His logic is intact. Its pretty smart to kill a killer robot before it gets you. He should've been quieter though
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I'm also schizo.

Do you ever stare at your self in the mirror and you start morphing and get uglier and uglier till you eventually become completely hideous?
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>>683756738
I've never seen it. I also don't like scary movies because of my anxiety. My girlfriend loves them though so if you think it's worth a watch I'll suck it up with her.
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>>683756738
lol
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>>683756819
Nope. I think I'm a pretty attractive guy, could lose a little weight but honestly who wouldn't want to? My visuals aren't that strong yet but have been getting increasingly worse. If that does happen I'll definitely come back to /b to update.

Also wtf captcha?
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join the government anything hierarchical/warset loves these types of menatlities

>as long as ur functioning
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>>683757012
Recently moved to a new town, looking for a job. Going to College in Fall. Pretty average guy except I have a cheat sheet in my head and hallucinate
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>>683755038
How old are you?
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>>683757106
19 really but I normally just say 20 cause at this age there's no difference
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>>683757096
>hallucinate

like you've got an over active pineal gland spitting DMT perma or something?

smoke some cigs to suppress and swollow ur toothpaste

or find more directional energies; to create
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>>683755281
What the fuck are you doing in the garage? Your ass should be in the kitchen.
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>>683757195
They put fluoride in the water here but I was raised out in the country on well water. My pineal gland can be pretty intact. Parents used to do a lot of psychedelics too so that may have gave me a boost. I use natural tooth paste with no flouride, id rather not become a zombie. Recently started smoking so it may help not sure
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>>683757195
>smoke some cigs to suppress and swollow ur toothpaste

Great advice you've got there, mate...
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>>683755038
I would blow a load just trying to get the head of my dick between those pussy lips. I wouldnt care if this bitch was my cousin, Id start play wrestling her and somehow end up with that pussy in my mouth.. beee leave dat
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>>683757457
Fucking same. I fapped to her set for so fucking long. She's in to some kinky shit too, definitely do not mind.
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>>683755038

OP here

I dont know what happened, I went to get food while waiting for some questions and when I came back someone was pretending to be me?

Anyway, I'm back now so AMA.
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>>683756819
Fellow schizo here.
When I'm looking into a mirror I often can't recognize my face. Not that it's warped, I just doesn't feel like my own.
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>>683757452
Well if I was looking to get rid of my schizophrenia that would be pretty solid advice, at least he's helping

>>683757587
This guy
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>>683757663
As if you were looking at a mirror in your dreams? I hear you can't see clearly, I wouldn't know I suck at lucid dreaming
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Have you ever "woken up" with a complete stranger fucking you?
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>>683758099
Nope, I have woken up to a blowjob but it was no stranger
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OP,

I'm 31 and I'm starting to have visual as well as audio hallucinations. With audio, I could swear to god there's somebody talking near me even though nobody is, and with visual it's letters switching around, or I'm not understanding words that I'm reading.
Is this anything similar?
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I worry often that maybe I have something. I don't really see why though and maybe I'm just paranoid about being mentally ill. The thought seems scary.

Are there any symptoms that really stand out? What do you have to go through everyday that you'd consider different?
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>>683755038
Who's that looking in your window?
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>>683758231
The audio you're having sounds very similar to mine, but the visuals aren't the same. Can dyslexia be dormant and come out with age? Are you seeking help? Are you in a relationship?
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When I was about 9 years old I had some audio hallucinations, some female voices whispering in my ear, something like "don't be afraid". Of course I lost my shit, I was alone at home at that time so I ran all the way to my uncles house 1km away to feel safe. That happened only once to me and I'm 22 now, is that a sign I might be f*cked up?
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>>683755356
Underrated post.
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>>683758423
You straight up see and hear things that aren't there. You pretty much know, I have heard that you can trick yourself in to having schizo symptoms of you do worry about it too much

>>683758459
I'm not religious but sounds like an angel. Could have been just a fluke. It could be a sign but if you haven't had anything else for so long I wouldn't worry too much. If you do start seeing things, obviously seek help.
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>>683758669
I zozzled pretty hard, couldn't follow that shit up well enough but I did answer
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>>683757555
>>683758777
Don't know if schizo or just trippin
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>>683758722
I think I'm good then. I'm good at reminding myself about reality.
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Probably going to prune soon. Thanks for the questions
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>>683759228
Yeah man as long as you don't lose grasp of that. Always check things, that's the most valuable advice I can give you
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>>683759360
I mean, does that not work for you though to calm it down a little? Can you not just keep reminding yourself that there is a reason for odd things you may experience? Or does it somewhat take control and convinces you?
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>>683759485
When it comes to Schizophrenia, you really need to understand that sometimes, there is no reason. Even in life, many things happen without a reason. I think why I don't have problems in society is because when I realize it's fake, I don't let it bother me. I don't consider if it's happening for a reason and if I think it happens just to happen then I don't stress man. Stress kills more people than schizophrenia man, and with my anxiety, I can't risk that.
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>>683755109
Her name is alorali.

Faggot ass OP>>683755038 can't be bothered to look anything up.

FUCK YOU OP! YOU HAD ONE JOB!
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Do the voices force you to be a fag or are you just a fag
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>>683759871
Sorry can't reverse image search on my phone. Was pretty useless there. Thanks for the sauce though

>>683759882
I'm not a fag, more likely you probably just don't like me very much. Its cool though
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>>683760060
nah, you are worthless.

I hate you more than your family does.
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>>683760381
I think my net worth is about 2700$, obviously not good but broke college guy. Families fine, they just wish they could see me more. I'm not too fond of them. Is there a reason you targeted family without any other history of knowing mine? Do you have some issues with yours? I'm no psychologist but Alice has a thread and she's very good.

>>683757900
Here you are
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>>683755038
fellow schizos i have some questions:
my dad had some severe schizo but my mom didn't, about how much probable it is that i also have schizo? how can you even tell that you have schizo? im 21, am i too old to even have schizo to begin with?

also, i always have this weird feeling of pressure in my chest but i hope it's unrelated
ps: sorry for broken english
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>>683760935
Not sure what the ratio is but it can skip generations. Being 21 and having no prior issues with it can mean that you're in the clear. Although I have also been told that schizophrenia TENDS to develop as you get older. Be wary and get help if you have immediate concerns
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what sort of negative symptoms "if any" do you have? eg do you have trouble getting things done, motivating yourself, maintaining your hygene and so on? if so how badly?
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>>683760935
Also I can tell cause I hear and see things. Its pretty obvious to me atleast, sorry forgot to answer that part
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>>683761360
My hygiene is fine, there are no direct side effects besides the symptoms. I have been told that schizophrenia could alter my mood and actually be creating my depression and bipolar symptoms but those run in the family too so I'm pretty sure I just got the full cocktail
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>>683761360
Also keep in mind my bipolar disorder, depression and anxiety have all been profesionally diagnosed. Doctors orders, the whole thing. The only thing that hasn't is the schiz but I hide that for obvious reasons, and in fine with that because of the lack of negative effects
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Thanks for the questions. Be back again
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>>683755038
How is schizo a bad thing?...It seems like it would be a enjoyable, thing life can be real boring at times...visual and audio hallucinations would be sweet? no?...btw I'm the type of person that enjoys having nightmares...
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>>683762859
Well in extreme forms it can impair social aspects of your life and rip you from reality making you unstable and a threat to society. Basically if you don't see what everyone else sees, people will fear you
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Interesting thread OP, thanks!
Looks like you're doing good with a supportive girlfriend and starting college.
What country do you live?
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>>683763235
USA, West Coast. This is actually the best my life has ever been, thanks for noticing
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>>683763052
My uncle has had this for 2 years due to mushrooms. Stuck in a different world.
He even triend to kill a family member and had highspeed chases on the highway because he thougt he was being followed.. He makes it pretty good tho.
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>>683762859
For this guys reasons, it's bad

>>683763446
Only done shrooms once, wasn't bad. Just a long bus ride home. Does he take medication? They just let him be a member of society?
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>>683755038
does that mean you are into traps but you say its not gay?
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>>683763766
That's sexual orientation confusion. Close
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>>683755038
How can I tell if I have schizophrenia.

I've got DPDR and anxiety and my doctor thinks I'm schizoaffective, however, I show no positive symptoms.
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>>683763977
How is it he thinks you are schizo but show no symptoms? Also what is DPDR?
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>>683764077
http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depersonalization-derealization-disorder/basics/definition/con-20033401


I only have negative symptoms

Trouble with motivation, isolation, etc.

I think he's wrong, but many schizophrenics don't accept their disease. I'm trying to give this a fair shake.
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>>683764349
That sounds so trippy man. I'm not sure how you would differentiate DPDR from schizo. How long have you had DPDR?
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>>683755038

a friend of mine has it and thinks he's God. I've tried to make him realize how fucking insane this is. Is there anything I can do to make him realize he's just fucking insane?
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>>683764759
If he truely believes it then you can not convince him otherwise. If you were able to I would be worried, destroying the reality of a schizo is sketchy business. I wouldn't want to be there, could set him off. I suggest you find new friends
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>>683755038
ask yourself anything
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>>683764604
4 Years

DPDR definitely isn't schizo. It's more related to anxiety and trauma.
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>>683764921
Simpson's did it
>>683755356
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I live on campus at university and there's this as guy I know that has schizophrenia. He's always bugging out really hard, and it astonishes me that he believes the things he thinks. Any advice on how to talk to him or interact? I'm psych major, so it's pretty interesting. One time he told me that he could hear the buzzing of a fridge in the shop near our accommodation. The fridge was like a fucking kilometer away.
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>>683764901

he has believed this for god knows how long now, he started telling me since about a year ago. he does a lot of drugs.

i've tried to convince him many many times how ludicrous this is. he's started telling other people too and even claims to me he "has followers"

i stress here how i am NOT kidding. he LITERALLY believes this, i talked to him about it many times since he keeps mentioning it, or trying to steer the conversation towards it, basically driving me nuts with it.
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>>683755038
Really don't think that Acid Bath tattoo was the best idea
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>>683765128
Ask him about his visions but play along. If he's in his own reality he will want to explore it and keeping his head going could cause for quite the show. I'm actually quite interested

>>683765020
Do these things run in your family? Or have you been through some shit?
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>>683765347
The first album was great tbh
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>>683765353
>Anonymous 05/11/16(Wed)23:35:40 No.683

I only gave you a minor example as well, he's also told me that he thinks his mother is poisoning his food. He thinks the government poison cigarettes. This one time he smoked weed in the forest (Psychoactive drugs and schizophrenia are a bad mix) and told me that there was a demon trying to kill him. His dead father's voice had to guide him out of it alive.

Like, I just can't begin to fathom how someone could be that disconnected with reality. It blows my fucking mind.
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>>683765308
I'm also not joking when I say that, that is his new reality. He sounds very fragile, destroying that probably wouldn't be too great. If he is destroying himself, don't let him take you down too. Be wary anon
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>>683765353
Both.

The strange thing is, I feel myself getting better.

Getting back into school and trying to socialize has made everything a lot like before I started isolating. My head feels clear and I'm almost a normie, but earlier detection is so important for treatment; I don't want to dismiss my therapist's concerns about the sustainability of a non-medicted recovery.
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>>683765565
Sounds like a dude who has lived more than his share of a life time. Get to know him, just be careful. Unstable people are scary. The kind can create more powerful things than any man made drug could ever. I wouldn't ever doubt the power of the brain
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>>683764349
not OP but another schizo here.
I had nothing but negative symptoms for 5 years before I had my first positive symptoms...
I would say avoid all reality altering substances... and I don't just mean drugs, but also some types of sleeping pills... they can send you over the edge
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I have BPD. We can all be friends.
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>>683765841
Keep up with appointments, find distractions. If you can feel improvements then that's great, keep improving. Never stop. Keep going out with people. Your mind creates positive chemicals when in contact with others so that will help regardless
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>>683765649

he's very fragile i mean i told another friend this too, one minute he's ranting about "how great it is to be so powerful" and the next he's literally crying (he cries a LOT) telling me how much life sucks.

he's 18 years old, and does a LOT of drugs and even sells it.
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OP, any instances where your life was put in danger by these hallucinations or audio occurrences? Like driving a car and something distracts you or something like that.

Stay safe fag.
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>>683766035
>>683766240
Thanks /b/ros.

I'll take your advice.
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>>683766272
Could be bipolar as well. I've done my fair share of drugs and I can definitely say it did not help in the long run but felt good in the short. The problem with drugs is getting hooked, this guy is going to be 100% depended on drugs and will probably end up in jail or just crazy
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>>683766400
Nope but that is a concern of mine. Luckily i live in the city and can walk most places. Just worried my visions will get bad one day and I'll walk in to the middle of the street
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>>683766130
We already are friends
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>>683766007
Yeah he's pretty large as well. Really tall guy. Lanky, not that physically imposing. Really blue eyes, it's a shame he's so crazy, he could have had a good life with a pretty wife and kids, you know? Pretty brutal.

We're friends. I like to be nice to the guy and have chats with him, because I don't think he gets to see people very often. He's very loyal and appreciative. I don't think he would ever try to hurt me, unless he had a full mental break. He's almost childish in his behavior, but still quite intelligent. The breaks come in his delusions, not his day-to-day behavior.

I guess the thing I think about most is what'll happen to him, he's a good person deep down, but he just can't function in society.
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>>683767172
He sounds a lot like me. I'm very childish but being 19, I'm basically still a kid. I don't want to grow up though, fuck that. He sounds like an average Joe who just got the wrong genes. Its a shame cause sometimes you're just born in to it. Will probably live off our taxes for the rest of his life. I dont mind, At least he's not raping kids and stealing from people
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>>683767480
Yeah that's the thing, he's just a person that got the short straw in life.
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>>683768409
Sometimes the one with the shortest straw, gets to have the most fun. If he is enjoying life then don't feel sorry for him, pity isn't for those who are living in the now
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if your 2nd personality wants to kill your
primary personality, is it suicide?
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>>683757317
vintage joke all the way from middle school
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>>683755038
vy prinimayete narkotiki?
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>>683765347
She's hot af but I really question the judgement of someone getting acid bath records tattoos
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>>683769003
Seeing how personalities are illusions created to understand individualism, yes if it did kill you it was suicide.

>>683769128
Sorry amerifag here, not culturally diverse enough here for the need to learn a seperate language. Lucky enough you can ask me in English
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>>683769195
What if her judgement was sucking your dick? You would probably stop questioning it as much
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She tattooed album covers? I find that pretty cringe honestly
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>>683770119
Eh hot chicks are hot
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>>683755038
Was there an event that brought it out in you? My uncle is schizophrenic and I think he got it from smoking a ton of weed in high school.
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>>683755356
kek
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>>683755038
Once for a split second i saw a green fetus screaming and crying blood on the floor. It looked mutilated, every vein popping out all over the entire thing.

Is this schizo sympton?
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>>683755038
Are you someone else?
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>>683755038
did you get it from the weed?
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>>683770984
Was born like this. The visuals though could have been the drugs I did

>>683771474
Could be, pretty intense. How real was it?

>>683771525
I am who I am who I believe to be; who is me
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>>683771620
More likely I got it from a Spice binge I went on for a solid half of a year
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>tfw overcame a 2 year long psychosis

Same eavesdropping stuff

>would hallucinate entire conversations coming from outside

>different voices in my head

>when overhearing the news they would be talking about me

>convinced I was constantly being camera'd

Shit was real fucky.
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>>683771681
I saw it for a second, still burned directly into my retinas.. it was completely real to me, untill it dissapeared and i went into the living room shakingly smoking a cigarette.
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>>683772004
It's pretty nutty how it can be. And it just went away for you?

>>683772027
Sounds like schiz, were you in anything that day?
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>>683772027
I meant on anything, phones auto correct
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>>683772193

I went on meds for 2 months. Started with risperdal, too many side effects. Went to abilify for another 2 and cleared out alot. Stopped with meds when I started feeling better and tried picking up life. Going outside more, even for a few minutes helped.. but it was a long process. Now its been 4 years since I last heard voices and everything. But the ordeal has still left traces of anxiety and generally makes things like going out for groceries harder than they should be. Neadless to say I stay away from weed, salvia and the likes as they will fuck me up entirely.
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>>683772258
No i was not using any drugs, but i was cut off from the last of the family i had left.. I suppose the mental stress could be the trigger.. Also have heard growling coming from my hallway. I was not using any drugs during either episode.
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>>683772547
Basically faced and conquered your fears? That's amazing to hear man. I'm quite lucky as I've always been like this. I never had to experience that sudden transition. You're a strong man anon, much respect
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>>683772956
Could be stress induced illusions, but if it was as real to you as you make it out to be, then I'd be slightly concerned. Have you talked about it to a professional?
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>>683755038
Which of you am I asking?
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Same here voices tell me things so i can scope the lands with overview, meds i don't take. Not much visuals with me either some bright lights and shadow figures however.
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>>683773127
I was seeing a psychologist at the time, and his opinion was, that it might have been a manifestation of my inner self, a depiction of what i truly felt like in the moment. Although i thought it to me a bit heavy, for an explanation like that. The "illusions" materialized themselves into reality for me, this would be the best way to explain it.
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>>683772982

Somewhat conquering fears, but it has to be maintained.

Thanks bro. This peek behind the curtain was quite something. It was living hell for me, and its frightening that people have to deal with this every day. I have to say it's no surprise so many schizos choose to end it and my deepest sympathies go out to people battling with their own mind every day.
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>>683773557
IM GONNA FUCKING WIN
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>>683773557
"The biggest battles I have fought were not on a battlefield, but in my head" youre no longer fighting anymore. You're constantly winning

>>683773455
If so then I think you need to figure out why you see yourself as a dying fetus. Do you feel helpless?

>>683773340
Scope the lands? Your voice sees what you can't?

>>683773334
Wouldn't matter, all from the same source
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they are gonna get you OP!! Their watching you right now! RUN BRO!!
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>>683774274
Not paranoid, but thanks for watching out for me
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Just curious, anyone lurking? Or is it only the few people here involved with the conversation?
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>>683774158
Not one but myriads of voices and usually they are accurate, years back they were shouting at me constantly telling how shit i was and that i pretty much was a lazy turd at the time, so i had to go into a comalike state for a year and not think at all. Today they co-operate with me, from that ordeal i learned how to clear my mind into a state of non-thinking that helped me with my meditation in the future.
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>>683774158
I feel helpless yes, i have my entire life. Society makes it hard to give a fuck at this point though.
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>>683774635
it didnt ever occur to you that you just took the form of another to tell urself how worthless u were because of ur self inherent patheticness to be unable to even come to the point to confront urself with straight talk?

go try do something big and accomplishing like run a marathon or help a homeless shelter or something stick it on ur resume
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>>683755638

fucking moron cunt. schizophrenia doesn't mean that you have multiple personalities, god damn you stupid fuck.
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>>683774635
That guy isn't me fyi. Schizo isn't a condition that will just go away always. Learning to live and live with it are very important, I'm glad you could find improvements to your condition. Does meditation help?

>>683774677
Seems like thats what was being portrayed here to me. Society is made up of everyone. We are a small group, you can't always expect to fit in with everyone. But you can't let that hold you back. You just need to be the best you, that you can be. I think if you find your self worth, that you can then find you're cause. Try to do things you enjoy, have any hobbies?
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>>683774899
I think youre on point, you can appease the voices with doing the right things that you should be doing. Nowadays i only get positive and uplifting messages so i more or less like my voices.
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>>683775402
True but you could imagine a seperate personality. I'm sure it's uncommon but I'm just trying to keep an open mind as to the joke he was making
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>>683775417
I will try my best to somehow cope, believing in nothing is at least to some degree freedom. I like poetry.

I am the river
My flow is hate
All i do
Is Masturbate

ty for listening.
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>>683775559
Less if a asshole is trying to cross boundaries or interfere with my life
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>>683774899
OP here, took me a minute to understand what you were saying but this seems pretty plausible. If you thought of yourself negatively often, your mind may have just made its own way of reminding you.
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>>683755038
who am i talking to?
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>>683775794
That picture actually is making me feel

>>683775990
You can call me Sciz. Just some kid who wants to help others
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>>683755038
do you realize all those tattoos make you look like a filthy, undesirable, degenerate whore?
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>>683776252
the dreadlocks too. fucking repulsive. i'd rather look at an obese chick.
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>>683776252
Some people like poop, some people like filthy, degenerate whores.
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>>683776252

>1459851351056.jpg
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>>683755038
I'd be more interested in you answering questions from the voices in your head.
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>>683776457
I'm sure he knows it's not me. If not.. Then.. Idk
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Sometimes i feel like i am talking to "myself" inside my mind on the nights. But i give myself different answers than "I" would usually do. Is this a sign of schizo?
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>>683755038
I was admitted into a mental facility 9 yrs ago
Ever since than my life has gotten better and better for the most part
I sit back and worry a lot
That maybe I never left the facility
And I'm just wondering the halls
On heavy meds
Mumbling to myself
And when I think I'm having g sex
Maybe it's just the nurses sponge bathing me cuz I shit myself

Is this real life?
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>>683755109
Drink and be merry /b/ros: https://imgur.com/a/g1gC9/embed#0
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>>683755038
Who's that person behind you?
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>>683776252
>>683776393
>picture is obviously not OP
>this level of autism, it's impressive
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>>683776679
No one in a million years could make up a face like this, if this does not proove reality to you, nothing will.
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>>683776489
The one other voice in my head besides mine is just for information. I've explained it a few times now, lurk more?

>>683776655
Schizo is a very broad term for a lot of things, but in my opinion yes. It does seem a little bit schizo, but more like multi personality disorder.

>>683776679
The term real is relative to those stuck in reality. What's not real is the better question. Moving forward is very important to the schizophrenic, dwelling on the past can make things a lot worse. You're in a better place now, the sex is sex. That's more than what most on the Chan can say
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>>683776854
that's fine. i wasn't thinking too hard when i replied anyway.
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>>683755038
Who is "me", and have you ever told
OP to kill himself?
if so, gg honoured.
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>>683777157
>683776655

It's really weird because I sometimes like think: "Wtf i am not talking to someone else in my mind." And then i "hear"; "Yes you do."
Fucking hell it's creepy.
Maybe just paranoia
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lol this thread is reassuring. I used to get pretty high on pot and that combined with living with a psychotic narcissistic alcoholic led me to fucking flip and act crazy. As soon as I was away from the son of a bitch I was fine, but the phaggot head spastic went on a crusade saying I was paranoid schizophrenic. Which is definitely not true as I have not and have not ever had any of the symptoms listed in this thread.

Motherfuckers have been pursing me for 6 years, I refuse to co-operate with them and they call the police on me and throw me in "hospital" full of other raving lunatics. They chase you around and corner you like a fucking animal, which gives me panic attacks which they insist is fucking schizophrenia.

Motherfuckers came by today because the tinea ive been treating broke out in horrible sores and they think its a reaction to their fucked up medication, so I dont have to take it anymore

only plus side is ive been receiving 2000 a month off the government, other that that those bastards can go to hell
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>>683777188
It's cool dude, I knew you weren't talking to me. More at the picture.

>>683777244
I only have one body so refering to my second voice as a separate me, would still mean that me is me because I am me. Nope I don't ever post unless I make this thread. I'm pretty new here, only been lurking for a couple years

>>683777383
Could be you secretly wanting to hear those extra voices so you imagine them. If they start to become violent or controlling. Seek immediate help
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>>683777473
Just saying though, a paranoid schiz would say what you just said. The difference is, the rest of your logic is sound. Seems like you got the short end of the stick. Why are people so quick to accuse others of paranoid schiz just to get them in trouble? Its things like that which make it hard for people like us to want to seek help.
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>>683777997
I know that sounded pretty homo, but seriously. Why wouldn't normal people want every schiz to get help? You think normal people get scared from another human seeing shit? Imagine how freaked out the schiz is
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>>683777997
sure whatever

what did I say that was remotely paranoid or schizo? the bit about the room mate? you should meet the motherfucker...
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I'm currently 18 years old and I feel like I might have schizophrenia because I've noticed that I'm starting to develop more and more symptoms. Few of my father's relatives have/had some mental illnesses.
Could it be that I really have it?
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>>683777473
Sounds like a lot of complications have led you to where you are, maybe if you don't get so inveigled by what fascinates you, and focus on creating something stabile?
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>>683777660
>>683777383

Yeah it's only creepy sometimes, but i think it's my ego really. Becuase 95% of the time I think to "myself" I am fucking hillarious.
I've had bacterial meningitis and operated in my head and was sedated for 11 days. So i think it's just my brain plaing tricks with me.
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do u docks swallow cums
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>>683778199
I was just poking fun at the fact that he called you a paranoid schiz, I wasn't really being too serious. Id rather not if he was an asshole to his roommate and is trying to lock you up for being a schiz. I'm an actual schiz, I could actually get locked up lol

>>683778336
It's a possibility but don't jump to conclusions. We are also very young to the point our brains are less developed than a lot of these other people. This could just be an episode of your life, or it could develop and get worse. What are you hallucinations like?
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>>683778379
haha lol, i said that I dont have any of the symptoms its just what that idiot shrink cooked up then they put me on a treatment order

It was a one of occurance because my life was going to shit and I lacked the ability to get myself out of the hole I was in

Ive never had a hallucination, audio or visual, and im not paranoid. The guy I was living bashed down doors, drank like 200 litres of alcohol and beat his girlfriend, it was a nightmare.

I was glad it happened initially but the mental health people are literally like the gestapo if you dont do what they want
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>>683778600
>2016 and not having big cums
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>>683778678
Sometimes it seems like something moved at the corner of my eyes.
Sometimes I hear "loud" sounds which are not there, they are like high-pitched drilling noises and very short.
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>>683778859
Mental health works aren't exactly the best bunch of people always. Some shrinks when I looked in to their eyes I could see them looking down on me. As if I was less than human. Also pill pushers are gay so fuck em
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>>683778859
I read what you said.. Never said you were ill bro. Nice to be away from filth, I know what it's like being around thoose types.. You come to expect nearly anything, at any time..
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>>683778936
I get the movements out of the corner of my eye. What do you mean drilling noises?

>>683779289
Sounds like one of my mom's childhood boyfriends, scum.
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>>683779289
thats EXACTLY right

It was the expecting nearly anything at any time part that led my mind to overload, i was so panicked

I said that to them in the asylum til I was blue in the face and all they could think of was to put me on this horrible thought slowing medication that made me feel sick

mfw having to deal with these idiots for 6 years
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>>683779549
The sounds I hear sound like someone is drilling something but they are louder, higher pitched and too short for someone to be really drilling and nobody in the house hears them.
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>>683755038

is schizophrenia like this?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ob5vubKWIac
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>>683756534
should have beat the fuck out your tard brother. schizophrenia is no excuse to overreact.
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>>683779764
Interesting. If they start to develop in to clear sounds, could mean it's getting worse. Same visions, if the frequency begins to increase, seek help. You being so young though, I would wait a little while before you get too worried. Let puberty finish
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>>683779684
I can't think of anything that remedies this, having a clear cut picture of society cut out for you like that, is a permanent scar on the psyche.
At this point i just think normal people are oblivious to their environments.. You seem passionate, maybe that's the way forward?
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Seems like a lot of people these kinds of threads. Guess it depends on the day though
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How are symptoms of schiz comparable to a medium mushroom trip? Did them first weeks ago had the thought that metally ill are really fucked if a shroomtrip is comparable
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>>683780361
Not sure, I've only had one mushroom trip. I think it was an eigth. Pretty sure that's just a basic amount. Nothing life changing, everything just kinda melted together to me
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>>683780319
what the hell are you talking about
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>>683755038
Will your condition allow you to pee on my face?
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>>683780688
Not entirely sure but at least it's positive
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>>683779847

Yes, pretty close, depending on the individual.

As for a video representing schizophrenia it's pretty close
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>>683780892
I could pee on your face with or without my schiz. Schiz would make it more fun though
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>>683755178
>She's a suicide girl
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>>683780077
I recently checked which symptoms I have or at least I feel like having while talkign about this with a friend.
I know those sites are not supposed to be professional diagnosis but they have some part of truth.
Even though I did this 2 days ago, I feel like I have some more now.
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>>683755178
>a suicide girl
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>>683780659
>>683781105
I'll remember to use a more vanilla girl as the first photo next time
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i suffer from almost the exact same thing this is the fisrt time ive ever seen anything like this. it being explained from someone elses point of view is really interesting. ive always found it really comforting but the only thing it really strivedfor is for me to inevitably snap and either really hurt someone or kill someone. i crave that day just as much as the voice does.
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>>683755038
Sauce for OPs PIC

http://imgur.com/a/g1gC9
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>>683780688
I wish people knew..
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>>683781151
Here's more.
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>>683781151
Stressing about it can cause symptoms to show up. You're young man, you need to let your brain finish what it's started. Not until then can you make an exact judgement. Unless you straight up see something then definitely get help. The way I see it. If you have it then you got it, no sense in worrying. If you don't have it, well no need to worry to begin with
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>>683755038
Who is she mad guy?
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>>683781549
And the last of them
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>>683755178
sauce?
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>>683781281
It's not something you can talk about in your regular life without being judged harshly. And since there are so many variations of schiz it would only make sense if a few schiz got together to collaborate and help better understand each other. A shrink can read all the books they want, if they don't have schiz, then they won't ever feel us like we feel each other. No homo, well mostly no homo
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>>683781772
Just some pic I saved from another anon, no clue sorry m8
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>>683781969
yeah no i talk to people about it a lot and they often dont know what to think. some can be scared. while reading this right now especially reading up on symptoms its really fucking with me almost making me realise how fucked up i actually am. but definitely to collaborate ideas and thoughts on the idea. because quite honestly i find it just as interesting as others do.
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>>683781673
I read all of them and so many of those symptoms are the same you have from depression and anxiety. Hell one of the symptoms you can develop just by visiting /b/ desensitizing yourself with gore threads can make you socially awkward and respond innapropriately. If you're truly concerned talk to your doctor
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>>683755038
i am a paranoid schizophrenic
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>>683781646
It's kinda nice to know that I might not be done for but something's wrong with me one way or another and I would just like to find out what it is without the risk of going to shrink and getting locked up in clinic or something.
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>>683782448
Don't stress too bad. You're not that fucked up if the only thing you have wrong with you is schiz. That's one thing in your body malfuctioning. I mean it's a pretty important piece but for the sake of ratios, thats only 1 to many other perfectly fine things. It could be worse. You could've been born with aspergers and just been completely autistic and cringeworthy towards girls
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>>683782512
ive spoken to lots of doctors i dont know why none of them take me seriously. its something to do with me being young. they often dont dignose it to someone who is younger that 18 so ive never been back becuase i can function quite well in soceit and i have lots of friends and people that actually like me (im a normie wth am i doing on /b/) but i just cant be bothered at this point
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>>683782512
The problem is I don't really have a doctor to go to.
And I'm not sure how to tell my parents about this.
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>>68378282
yeah thats true thanks anon i actually think the fact i have it is a good thing. sets me apart. makes me different.
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>>683756819
when i talk to people, depending on the mood i get this weird ting noise and their faces morph into monsters, often hariy faced long haired creatures, only theirs eyes remain similar.
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>>683782663
From what I was told, as long as you're in no immediate danger they won't lock you up or send you to a clinic. Just don't say anything that would make you seem unstable. Use words like annoyed rather than angry, terms like feeling pretty down rather than horrible. Things that make you seem more sensitive and feely. The real problem with schizos is when they lose that ability to blend and just go bat shit
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>>683783190
and no its not like i can run around and still see it, its like if i shake my head smack my self, i will see them normal again, its like a pull or a distortion of time and space, like im stuck in the line of horizon of a black hole, and when i snap out of it they are normal
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>>683782982
I brought it up with my dad, that's how I learned that it ran in my family. They are your parents so they will help you. Assuming they are like legit parents. Just don't let them think its extreme. You need to sugar coat crazy, cause crazy doesn't sit well with people
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>>683783379
Just a reality check gets you back? Sounds like your kind of day dreaming but how real are the monster faces to you?
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>>683782982
Oh and yes it is because you're so young. Mens brains don't stop developing till around 25. That's 7 years for your brain to figure it's shit out. Hell in 6 years I may not be schiz anymore.
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>>683783782
the people completely morph , a reality check help the visual but not the mental aspect, i get extremely careful and paranoid when it happens
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>>683783559
My mum knows about it and she has no idea why i would have it (no family history) and she thinks she understands but doesnt she is little naive in the sense. but i dont blame her its a pretty abnormal thing
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>>683784115
Lol that's called being scared. Totally normal human response. Think about it like this, after someone jumps out and scares you, are you instantly calm again once you figure out it was nothing?
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>>683784333
She won't understand it completely but she is being understanding of the situation which is great. Some people are just born with it. Not to sound like it was just meant to be but shit happens man. Not everyone with diabetes had family with diabetes
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I feel kind of bad because I've given out all this advice today and have answered all these questions. Yet I still haven't told my girlfriend of 2 years that I'm schizo.
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