Feels thread, /b/?
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Feels thread, /b/?
Almost forgot,
>be me
>have a small group of friends
>skype all night and play vidyas
>one by one, they all go to bed
>all but me
>stay up all night worrying about existence
>please just kill me now
>>683558104
I'm in the same boat anon.
>>683558831
How can we really exist if we're just specs in a never ending universe? What the fuck can we even achieve?
bump
>Convinced myself into talking to her
>She just gave me a blank face
>Next day expecting to get some sort of reaction
>nothing
>Even a "Fuck you" would have been better than this nothingness
>but hey at least I did what most anons dream of doing
>>683557813
So they filled a bath tub with water, no doubt intending to slit wrists and ease bleeding with warm water or drop plugged in thing into water. Then said, fuck that takes to long, and cut their stomach open to disembowel themselves. Said nah this is to slow as well, and shot themselves in the head.
This image is fucking retarded.
>>683559689
Never looked at it that way. Just liked the aesthetic.
>>683560105
Every time. It gets me every time.
>>683559689
I guess it's supposed to artsy? Like there are metaphors are shit in there but fuck if i know.
>>683557813
lol what a stupid image.
Pathetic attempt for the creator to seem "artsy"and express their love for gore.
https://youtu.be/mCSxbIvpE4Q
I'm just lonely. Got turned down today. Such is life.
I hate the feeling of loneliness.
Just wanna say, you guys are almost always here for /b/awwing or feels. Almost always, 24/7 someone who gets it and knows the feelings.
And that's pretty fucking cool.
>>683559689
Or they fell getting in/out and hit their head. Then the cat being a piece of shit cat started eating her
I'm tired /b/
>>683560391
Never read that one before, good one
>>683557813
I recently realized how fucking pathetic of a human being I am. I got cheated on 5 years ago and it hit me real hard. Since then I've had 22 gf's. I've cheated on each and every single one of them. Fucking kill me.
>>683561868
Why'd you cheat, anon?
>>683559617
Didn't his mother die the same day as well?
>>683562128
cause he is fucking retarded
>>683562128
Idk. I just can't emotionally connect. I try to cycle through women in hopes of filling the hole in my soul. I really hate myself for doing it tbh.
>>683559660
Alright, you got me.
>1988
>New Mexico
>Had a stray cat we picked up named Pavlov
>Hung around our place for a several years
>My dad got a new truck and wasn't used to driving it
>Was coming home from work one day and was backing into the driveway
>Ran over the cat
>We took the body out to White Sands to bury it
>Was pretty young at the time so I didn't remember it all that well growing up
>2010, I'm about to get married
>Mom wants to show future wife all my cute kid videos
>Pops in a tape
>First thing I see is Pavlov on our old dining table
>Immediately feel uncomfortable
>My mom catches on to what it's about and tries to skip past it while joking with waifu
>Almost every scene includes the cat up until just before we leave
>it's a shot of me sitting on the back of a uhaul trailer asking when Pavlov is going to come so we can leave
>>683559617
>>683562332
Fuck anon, I'm sorry.
>>683562574
Thanks. I kept my cool but had to explain everything to my wife later on. You would have thought it was her cat that died the way she reacted.
>>683559338
Know that feel. My ex was also my best friend. The last time we spoke she told me her mother died, and otherwise she has avoided speaking/acknowledging my existence.
I think about all my exes. Not really in the "holy fuck I love this person, why'd they leave me" way, but more like "this person was important in who I have become, and I wish I could speak to them."
The only girl I still could call a friend was, oddly enough, the one who abused me at a young age. Our sense of humor clicks fucking perfectly, so even though we hadn't spoken in 5 years, when I saw her at college we were laughing in seconds. Things like that amaze me..
Really I just need to ramble for a while. I have no emotional support group. I have no one I can speak to about what is on my mind. I have no one. I have little interest in others on an emotional or even physical level. At this point I jack off so infrequently I'm more liable to wake up jizzing in my sleep than I am to rub one out before I sleep.
I'm so full of emotional shit I'm empty. I struggled with depression for years. I cut for a long time. I don't regret my scars because, again, they made me who I am. What I regret is not being able to escape my depression. I got a job some 6mo ago. At first I felt on top of the world. I though I wasn't depressed, anymore. I even stopped saying "I'm fine".
But now, once again, I wake up every morning and wonder why the fuck I bother. I am going to do the same fucking thing every week. This is the treadmill of life, and it sucks. There is no progression.
I'm fine. I've told myself for years. I'm fine. If I say it enough I'll believe it. I'm fucking fine. Fine is subjective, and my relativity is fucked. i'm fine.
/endramble
>>683562326
This is what many people do
>>683563115
>We went from a housing community in New Mexico to a trailer park in California
>I actually miss our old trailer
Sometimes I keep up the charade long enough to forget that I'm unhappy. But then it hits me, that i'm not actually happy, why is it so natural for me to pretend? I lie to myself and the world around me every day. for a while I can become content, I can laugh, I can sometimes even put on a genuine smile. but I catch myself. I can't fool myself for very long. I know how good of a liar I am. every day. every single day of my life, on the outside I'm stone faced by myself, around people, I put on my mask, but no matter what my expression, on the inside I want to cry , scream, vomit, collapse and do nothing all at the same time. I feel so much, yet nothing at all.
>>683563699
Fuck
>be me
>only one in group of friends with gf
>everyone is jealous of me
>secretly i am jealous of them
>she locks me away and makes me avoid them
>they dont notice
>just think i'm a dick for 'leaving' them
I've got some feels for those who want to listen
> Be me
>Be having a great life
>GF
>Good friends
>Pet dog too
>Last year I got laid off
>GF got really upset, she didn't want to work and I couldn't find another job
> She breaks it up with me
>Feels like garbage for days
>Weeks
>Friends don't visit me because of my depression.
>Finally get a new job
>It's a really demanding job so I don't get to spend a lot of time at home
>My dog is also very demanding
>Have to choose between a job and my only remaining friend
>Come home one night
>My dog jumps on me
>He was upset that he couldn't see me as often
>He had the goofiest grin
"Wanna go for a ride?"
>Take my dog to the pound, crying
>Park in the lot and don't move, only crying
>Dog licks my face
>Can't do it
>I take her tags off and I open the door
>She turns her head at me and nuzzles my leg
>I start to ball again
>My dog whimpers, walking over to me
>I shake my head, calling her to the building
>I give my dog to the people at the pound
>They give me some tissues and try to consul me
>I'm still clearly sad
>Come back home
>Lay on my bed, tears streaming down my face
>Try to ask some friends on advice
>No one picks up
I've lost everyone in half a year
I'll never see my dog again
>>683563772
Supposedly this is bullshit and a few of her siblings showed up after her.
>>683564671
Why'd you give up your dog?
>>683564743
get your facts straight, for fucks sake. the story was on every news channel!
>>683563609
Oh that reminds me. Same anon as >>683562332
>2000 Korea
>Knew a kid named Fernando
>He was really introverted, very sarcastic
>Not a particularly popular kid because of that
>Would usually hang around the school library playing chess or starcraft on the school computers
>He didn't have a lot of friends because he was kind of dick to strangers
>His birthday rolled around
>Because he pretty much refused to talk to anyone, no one knew it was his birthday
>He got home from school and saw his parents hadn't done anything for him
>Assumed everyone had forgotten about him so he hanged himself in his closet
>Turns out his parents had planned a surprise party for him and told everyone they had invited to play dumb
>The school had a huge memorial service for him and even then most people didn't even know who he was and were calling him by the wrong name
>>683564814
I couldn't force her to be alone for the rest of her life. I was at work for half the day and I only have a couple hours to give her
>>683564988
I'm sure she's with a happy family, now anon.
>>683564917
wow that's fucked up that people didn't even remember his name, i hate how people pretend to care after it's too late
>>683564671
Fuck man, this gets me
>>683561693
This is also what Jacques Lacan and Freud say
>>683565144
It was a riot man. They had powerpoint shows going with pictures of him, shitty music, the whole nine yards. They had people calling him Pablo, Juan, Miguel, damn near anything you could come up with. All the while these were the same people that were shoving him around in the hallway because he was "that nerdy kid" and short.
>>683564917
Hope this was made up. :(
>>683565478
I don't get how people can be at peace with themselves when they act so fake and pathetic
Guys I am in way over my head and I'm kinda scared. I think I fell in love, a little bit.
I am the type of person who wears their heart on their sleeve and usually if I think someone's attractive, I make the first move and if rejected, am able to move on with my life with a shrug. I would like to say I am a confident person who would like people to like me, but is completely fine if they don't. That being said, I pretty much always remain a few steps detached from people and friends as a learned defense mechanism.
But this one person, this one stupid insignificant person, who I will probably never see again after next September, hell, maybe even after May, somehow wormed their way in me, past every single wall I have built up. He didn't even do anything special. He's just been doing regular friendly just-friend stuff that dozens of people have done with me before. It's never meant anything other than peasantries to me before.
I don't really know what happened. One moment he was driving me home after a late night showing of Rocky Horror, we were talking absentmindedly about what would realistically happen should he lose control of the car and he launched into this matter of fact explanation of why I would be screwed... I happened to look at him, and he looked different. He looked differently than the hundred other times I have seen him, and it wasn't a late night horny thing. It was I wanted to just sit forever in the moment, in the passenger's seat of his truck, just looking at him and half listening to him jokingly predict our chances of survival.
>>683565743
I feel...scared? Idk. I have put so much effort into protecting myself, but this guy just effortlessly and unknowingly barged in. In any other situation with any other guy, I would straight up not have anytime for bullshit and would lay my feelings on the table. Hey, you're pretty cute, want to get coffee? But this guy, this person who is no different from any number of people, made himself unique and memorable and utterly unapproachable. I get fucking butterflies when I talk to him. What the fuck.
Seriously what the fuck do I do
>>683564917
Hung*
>>683565479
>>683565723
I'll see if I can find a pic of the kid for you guys. It was a goddamn shame.
>>683564671
Thats some rough shit man, my dog whom I've had for like 8 years ran way this Feb while I was here at University. I spent like a week with no sleep since I LOVED that dog Lori, and she loved so much too. I'll miss the days when I'd get back from work or school and she'd run up to meet me. I hope you hold up well dude.
this all starts about a week ago. Short and sweet I guess
>meet a girl through facebook
>we start chatting
>it's immediately obvious that she's into me and she's cute and funny so I keep chatting her up
>she asks me to call her that night so I do.
>we talk for 6 hours straight
>It's like love at first sight but instead of me seeing her it was just hearing her voice
>god her laugh is so beautiful
>her ex is crazy jealous
>he did some fucked up shit to her
I feel like it's important to note hear that I live in Oregon and she Lives in North Carolina, so about 2000 miles away.
>4 days after we start talking I'm laying in bed and I get a call from her
>she's crying
>her ex broke in and raped her
>at first I believe her wholly
>but the longer it goes on the less I do
>I finally get him to leave her alone earlier tonight but on the condition I meet up and fight him when he's in Oregon next for holiday or some shit
>stupid fucking kid
>I asked her to report him to the police
>for some reason she says she can't
>we spend a half hour on the phone and neither of us say anything
I am just so overwhelmed by all of this, and I don't know what to do.
I'm taking my car to my dad's house and I'm walking into an Army recruiter's office and I'm doing whatever it takes to get out as fast as I can.
I don't wanna leave her but the more I think about it the more I think about how I barely even know who she is, and I seriously don't think I can handle this too much longer.
wish me luck bros. I'm halfway between hoping I come back and she'll be able to come to me and hoping that I just get blown up and remembered as a hero.
I feel like I have no purpose in life, I'm just here to work my ass off and die some day, no will to live, too much of a pussy to an hero, can't talk about my depressing feelings because everytime I tried in the past no one cared, so now I have just too hard of a time opening up to people. Don't even want to be around people, just want to die, I always feel empty inside, came to this thread to try and cry hoping it'd make me feel better, sad stories yet to mkae me cry. Don't even know who I am anymore...
>>683565778
it's hanged. just for this method of death. any other instance like hanging up a picture would be hung
>be me in high school
>sophomore year
>typical group of friends
>always laughing and enjoying life
>at night we skype
>waste the night away playing CSGO and LOL
> this goes on for a while and we are happy as can be
>there is one kid in our friend group, lets call him anon
>we all loved anon
> it was almost as if our friendship revolved around him
>One day he tells us he has to move to L.A
>we are really sad and shit and we say our goodbyes
>we still skype every night
>this does on for months
>we showed us a website
>Lostallhope.com
>dont give much thought about it
>we go on the website and its about suicide
>we dont pay much attention because anon is always laughing and kekking around
>the website was super interesting btw
>he would come visit us often
>he came around during Halloween, we had tons of fun rejoicing and trick or treating
>he leaves back to LA
>At this point every time we were sad he would bring up lostallhope.com
>it started bugging me
>i didnt think much of it
>11/21/15
>i get a DM from his bigger brother anon
>asks me when the last time i talked to anon was.
>tell him yesterday and he tells me to call him
>"anon killed himself"
>those words seared into my mind forever
PT 2 is being typed up now
>>683565778
no retard. someone is hanged, clothes are hung.
>>683557813
>Be me, 11th grade, school year just started
>Finally get my Driver's license after being 16 for a while
>Got a job as a CNA during the summer
>Got over my old crush, took way too long
>Start talking to this one girl on the bus, knew her a little bit since she didn't live far from me
>Talk to her and start to flirt a little bit
>Eventually we hang and go to the gym together after school
>Worked 4-9 that day at work
>Got yelled at for not going home that day before work
>Worth it, hit on girl a few times, eventually agree to hang out at her house
>Fast forward to Oct, 26th, 2013
>Girl and I play Black Ops II on her PS3 together
>Eventually we're hanging on her couch in the living room
>Her sister and my little sister literally in next room behind wall of the couch
>Ask her if she wants to go out with me
>She says yes
>Fuckyea.png
>Go through a lot of my firsts, including kissing, sex, all the new stuff cuz i'm a social retard who couldn't talk to girls easily at the time
>Struggle sometimes
>Get mad at her a little but brush it off because I care too much
Cont'd in a second.
>>683565777
This story gets me every time.
Also, trips chekd.
>>683559111
Well, I can make a pretty good pancake.
>>683565778
Sausages are hung, people are hanged.
Dumbass
"I know I'm old, anon... My motherboard buzzes and pops loudly whenever I'm running... It'll probably short out soon...
But I want you to know... the time we spent together... I loved every minute of it.
...I wish I could keep going for you. I wish I could run all the new software for you. All the new games... I wish I could play 1080p videos without stuttering... but I can't.
And that's why... that's why I understand... I'll understand that when I go, you'll need to get a new computer. It's okay... The most important thing to me... is that you're happy...
And that's why I'll keep working for now... So please... just for now... be patient with me. I might get overstressed and crash a lot. I might forget what I'm doing and terminate your programs. But if you save often, it'll be okay... right? It'll be okay and you can keep letting me work for you until my last breath...
Maybe... Maybe you could even use some of my parts? I know you upgraded my video card a couple of years ago... It's probably out-of-date by now, but if you could use it in a new computer... that would make me happy... It'd be like I was still working hard for you... But if you don't... that's okay, too. I understand...
It hurts... It h-hurts, anon... no, no, I'm okay. I don't have to go. Not yet... I still have some time left. So please... use me... let me work for you... until the very last moment... my darling..."
>>683565723
>>683565479
Sorry to disappoint you guys but while I was able to find him, his picture was taken down. He's listed in the online yearbook but without a picture.
>>683567010
Pt 2.
>Senior Year
>Prom is coming up
>She wants to go, her mom wants her to go with me
>I say No, hardly anyone of my class is going anyway. Our prom is a waste.
>Graduate
>Move away in August, an hour south from where I used to live for College
>It's harder this way, working a new job in assisted living and college
>Gradually see her less and less
>Worked on her 17th Birthday, feelsbadman
>Valentine's day rolls around, 2016
>Agree to go to Deadpool the next day
>Had a lot of fun, really the last really fun thing I remember doing with her
>Early March
>Tells me our relationship is starting to get shaky
>She has feelings for someone else
>They kissed
>Sad, Mad but mostly completely numb.
>Been a few months now
>She went to prom with some guy I used to know a little bit
>The guy she kissed is dating someone else
>She's trying to date some guy now, they could be dating for all I know
>Hurts everyday, not back in college yet, can't even talk to new girls
She says that the guy was mostly for me to move on but it hurts a lot. It's easy for me to say I need to move on and get over it but it's so difficult once the sun goes away and i'm alone in the middle of the night because I can't sleep.
fuck these feels man
>>683564917
Pretty sure the reason people weren't calling him by his right name isn't because they didn't know him, but because this was in Korea and all Asian people look the same.
>>683567582
Hits too close to home... pretty much same except she's still with the guy she kissed. I still stalk her facebook and she looks really happy with her new guy, even though its been one month. Sitting here drowning in my own tears.
>>683558104
Are you still up? Do you want to chat on Kik?
>>683567871
It was an American school. A vast majority were military family members with a small percentage of local nationals.
I'm considering cutting for the first time. Just thinking about it both scares me and excites me.
>>683568275
don't be a teenage edgelord, find a better solution
>>683568275
I did. It's painful and made me feel worse. Just felt like an emo faggot. Crying makes me feel a lot better.
>>683560686
damn, that's strong
>>683568353
I don't really have any other means of expressing my feelings and I can't cry.
>>683568133
I try not to stalk her on FB. I even deleted her but I keep going back and it hurts every fucking time.
I'm sorry, man. I want to say it gets better with time, but that's only if you're active about getting better. So, if you have any chance with other women, take it. Because I don't have that much in this town if i'm not going to college.
>>683558104
Same.
>>683567696
well, that's quite a downer, isn't it ?
self pity is the most destructive of human traits
>>683568275
Self harmed really bad for almost a year. Eighteen months clean now. Some of the scars healed, some still haven't. Felt good at the time but made me feel worse after. It's much better to put on Joyride by Transit or Deja Entendu by Brand New and just cry.
>>683559753
Thanks
>>683568133
Actually, this picture represents how I feel.
>>683564641
>shit soaked life anon here
>>683564671
Ouch /b/ro.
>>683565020
I have this too, fucking cry every single time.
For the rest of the /b/ros, here is a pic.
I'm 21 making 12/hr 70 hours a week and I haven't spent time with someone outside of work since high school.
>>683564917
fuck.
![IMG_3805[1].png](https://i.imgur.com/sQE590N.png "IMG_3805[1].png")
>>683566731
pic related
>flash forward to 12/5/15
>day of anons funeral
>open casket
>i walk up to the casket
>it hit me like a train
>anon is never gonna come back
>no more late night talks with anon
>no more games with anon
>i cried
>i wouldn't stop crying
>i delivered my eulogy
>i whimpered and choked at every word
>after the talking i put on my white gloves
>this was the part that i dreaded most
>i waited in a side room with my friends and a few of his family
>my heart dropped when i heard a scream
>it was anons mother
>she bent over the casket wailing and howling
> she just wanted her baby boy back
>we all wanted anon back
>we carried his body to his grave
>it hurts so much
>we saw them lower the body into the ground
>goodbye anon
>ill see you in the hereafter
>we then go to the spot where he killed himself
>it was on top of a parking garage (PIC RELATED)
>he jumped
>every night i still beat myself up
>i wish i didnt take it as a joke when he brought up Lostallhope.com
>i wish I talked to him
>he would always help me with my problems
>i never asked about his
>im sorry anon
>i love you
>we all love you
>rest easy anon
>>683568275
Do what this pathetic guy has done, masturbate chronically. It's both a distraction and pleasure. Only down side is that even on the off chance I can get a one-night-stand, the sex feels like nothing at all.
Little by little, one by one, every person in my life is drifting away, and the thing that hurts the most is that I realized it just recently, it was too slow Bros
Now I don't care, or I don't wanna care, it won't get better with time
I'm intelligent, good-looking, doing very well in college and have plenty of friends. I am happy and outgoing and known for always being calm and happy. I make jokes and make people laugh and when people need help, I am strong for them and I am a leader.
But nobody is strong for me. I can't show my sadness or anger or else I just become another person. Nobody wants to hear problems from others, only to have others hear their problems. I'm very kind to everybody and make people happy because I don't want anyone else to ever have to feel the way I do inside.
All until 12th grade, I had no friends and was consistently bullied by both my teachers and classmates. I was raped in Boy Scouts. My mother did not and still does not respect me. She provides me with things I need and acts kind to me usually, but views me as inferior to her and generally stupid and a loser. Despite my life currently being far ahead of where she was at her age. And despite my ability to act like a decent fucking human.
She doesn't care that I'm depressed and only made me feel like even more shit because my depression is affecting my sleeping habits.
I have a boyfriend who doesn't take me seriously and the only people I have to talk to are my three rabbits.
I'm double-majoring in biology and chemistry and attempting to dabble in politics and do art as a hobby. I am a junior in college and have job offers from environmental companies already. I recently joined an art honors society in recognition of my contribution to the arts. I consistently score as being more intelligent and knowledgable than most people in my generation.
I'm a fucking deity and yet, one can't brag about ones abilities without people viewing you as narcicisstic. I have mixed anger/depression issues.
being a man and wanting to kill yourself, no one cares, men commit suicide 3x more than women, but no one cares, no one talks about it, no one understand that us as men can't show that we hurt emotionally, it's not manly, how I can we deal with something that we can't talk about, that's why we choose suicide because it hurts less than knowing no one cares about our pain
>>683558104
>>683558831
At least you guys have friends to play with
>>683568775
Leaving thread with this, going to try and sleep.
>>683559234
I didn't need that...
https://youtu.be/nBobmn_u98w
If this doesn't make you feel anon you're dead inside
Goodnight guys, it was nice to be reminded that people like us can still connect despite not being able to do so with the people in our lives to the same extent.
>>683569194
why'd he do it? depression?
>>683569899
i was not prepared for this
>>683559234
Fuck
>>683563947
I can relate.
Everything suck /b/ros
>>683570236
The loneliness got to him. Ever since he moved to LA things went downhill. Online schooling didn't help either. He told us that he was happiest when he was skyping us. It took his mind off of things.
>shit soaked life anon here
>>683570119
/b/ros forever. Love all of you. Going to attempt to sleep. Even though I only got to this thread after so many posts, I still give you guys my feels.
>>683569899
gOD FUCKING damnit
first time I actually cried in these threads
Probably too tired
>>683561557
go to sleep, wake up fresh tomorrow. have a coffee, listen to the birds.
>>683569899
to bad I cant feel anything anymore
>>683570438
What's wrong anon?
3:45am here. Have to take a final tomorrow afternoon. Time to get off. Goodnight /b/ros.
>>683571640
Goodnight /B/rother
>>683571640
Good night, sleep well
>Be me in college, away from home
>Hopeless romantic
>Meet gorgeous woman at orientation
>Lets call her Homegirl
>Gets the balls to talk to her
>Every word that comes out of her mouth makes me want her a little bit more
>Has a boyfriend
>Lets call him Homeboy
>Homegirls current relationship & my past relationship are too similar
>Predict events in homegirls relationship before they happen due to my past experiences.
>Predicted every event correctly word for word.
>Can tell homegirl really loves homeboy
>Homeboy treats her like shit
>Homegirl still tries 110%
>Decides to try to give homegirl advice on how to hopefully make their not end like mine did
>Don't want her to go through the heartbreak I did
>I'm way too fucking nice
>Fast forward few months
>Still predicting the demise of homegirls relationship and how each fight will pan out
>Still hang out as friends on the regular tho
>End up getting so close that we understand every little thing about each other
>Homegirl is still with homeboy
>Closest I've ever been with anyone
>Shared scar stories
>Shared darkest moments in life
>Shared darkest secrets
>Shared. Fucking. Everything.
>Start falling for homegirl
>"If I wasn't dating him, I would 110% be with you."
>Kthx
>Homeboy still treats homegirl like shit
>Constantly complains about boyfriend to me
>Friendzone
>Tried to tell feelings to fuck off
>Still want to be her friend
>Eventually get over it
>They're gonna break up anyway with how my predictions are going
>If it's meant to be, it'll happen
>Loljk this is fucking college.
The story continues if anyone is reading.
>Be me 2.5 years ago
>Senior
>Smartest kid in school (35 ACT)
>Plenty of friends, couple of close friends
>Been dating the girl of my dreams for 3 months
>Playing hockey at a very high level, full ride scholarship to Divsion 1 University
>Love life for the most part
>Making out with gf, keep trying to say I love you
>Finally squeek out "i love you" in a voice so soft I wasn't sure I actually spoke
>She immediately responds "I love you too!" in the cutest voice ever
>Happiest moment of my life by 1000 miles
>I replaybit over and over in my mind as I fall asleep because it's the only way I can
>2 months later, get kicked off team for fighting
>Hockey was legitimately my will to live
>Complete plane crash from here on out
>Do drugs all day every day for 3 months
>Cheat on gf
>Get dumped
>3 more months of drugs
>Drop out of high school 1 month from graduation
>OD and call the police on myself while getting the shit beat out of me
>Have a heart attack
>Now
>alcoholic
>addicted to cigarettes and caffeine
>Exasperated heart
>terrible circulation, racing heart, chest pain every day
>tell no one ever because too ashamed
>can't quit drinking and smoking because worthless
>grown apart from friends because depression
>date girls, leave them when I start to like them because I don't want to hurt them
>work shitty factory job
>brain doesn't work right anymore
>act crazy
>can't sleep unless wasted
>never too wasted to think about her saying "I love you too"
>only time I feel happy
>stick handgun in mouth on a weekly basis and try my hardest to pull the trigger
>too much of a pussy
>no interests apart from shitposting
>no friends
I don't know what to do :(
Too fucking worthless.
All you guys were dealt a shit hand
I was dealt 4 aces and still fucked it up beyond repair
I could've been great
I am worthless
first time I actually cried in these threads
Probably too tired
>>683569899
fuuuuuuuuuck
>>683572059
Almost forgot best part. 6 months ago got a girl pregnant.
2 months ago starting to feel less depressed. Looking forward to having a purpose in life.
Girl hates me but idgaf gonna have a baby boy
Hopefully he likes hockey
Girl tells mom and gets kicked out
Baby dead , dreams died with him
She was gunna name it after me for some reason
>>683572038
I'm here fam
>>683569899
The fact that my dad broke down telling me not to kill myself this weekend made this worse. First time I've seen him cry
>>683572038
Waiting for this then going to sleep.
She doesnt love me but still dreaming with her
It hurts like hell, my subconscience hates me and i feel like crap
>>683572594
I know what it's like, my girlfriend broke up with me about two weeks ago and I've been contemplating suicide ever since. She was the one thing that made life worth living and I lost her. I got no one to blame but myself
>>683559753
Thank you, i will save the pic
>be 15
>closeted gay in a christian school
>been there my entire life
>known most of the students and faculty on a personal level
>come out to my best friend summer before sophomore year
>tough road ahead
>school starts
>really fucking proud of myself
>i don't hate myself anymore
>i can finally be who I am
>a few months pass
>only best friends know I'm gay
>develop crush on this preppy junior guy who's also a friend
>write him a letter cause I don't see him that often and I don't have his phone number
>"hey anon I'm gay and I'd like to be friends"
>week passes
>get called into principals office
>smug cunt tells asks me if I wrote an "inappropriate letter'?
>lady goes on this whole spiel on why being gay is wrong and I should feel bad
>"Anon was VERY upset by your letter"
>leave office with a warning
>go to bathroom and cry harder than I think I've ever cried before
>all the confidence
>all the pride
>all gone
>with nothing but loathing and disgust in its wake
>started off chain of depression and suicidal thoughts
>honestly fuck that school
I'll try to keep it short.
About a week ago, last sunday, I had my first kiss with this girl I met on tinder. I was smiling the whole train ride home. She later says that she would love to be my first for essentially everything else as well, but as long as I'm not looking for anything serious, because she wanted something casual (friends with benefits, essentially). We make plans to meet up again at her dorm on Thursday. Thursday comes and we're making out on her bed, and eventually I start to kiss her stomach and keep going lower until I start to eat her out. First time I've done any of this. I tell her I'm going to go to the restroom real quick, and come back about a minute later.
I sit down next to her and move in to kiss her when she gets an "urgent" call from her friend who apparently desperately needs her help at that exact moment. So, she essentially kicks me out, and I'm 100% sure she texted her friend to call her in a minute or so while I was in the bathroom so she would have an excuse to do it. She proceeds to ghost me and block me on all social media afterwards.
Barely knew her for two weeks, but it still stung like a bitch because she was the first girl I've done any of that shit with. Honestly would have preferred for her to have told me to fuck off instead.
>>683571345
other tired anon, that didnt work and never will work
So I've been signed off work with depression for 2 months now with no end in sight. I just sit around drinking and watching shit I don't even care about on YouTube. I don't enjoy anything anymore. I used to be a beta fag playing vidya all the time but I don't even enjoy that now. Don't have the balls to an hero but I cut sometimes just to feel something.
>>683573083
Hahahahaha you cuck
>>683572038
>>683572038
>Fast forward a few months
>Fall into crazy depression, health issues cause me to fly back home for two months to recover
>Didn't talk to anyone back in college town while I was away, including homegirl.
>Homegirl is pissed
>Apologized to homegirl
>Homegirl says fuck off and cuts me off
>Fast forward 2 months
>Homegirl texts me
>Homegirl and homeboy broke up
>Called it
>Fast forward a week
>Be at homegirls house catching up on things
>Catch feelings for her again
>At least now she's single
>The break up sinks in
>Homegirl finally has a panic attack and breaks down
>Homegirl cries and screams for what felt like an hour
>Comforts homegirl, assuring her everything will be okay
>Homegirl stops crying, says she feels better
>I reassure her that she'll feel better and things will be okay
>Start talking shit about homeboy with homegirl
>Homegirl explains how he sucked in the sack and she never felt appreciated
>Hooked up with homegirl
>Both agreed it was for her to get over him
>Okay anon, don't catch feelings
>Caught feelings
>Homegirl says she'd never felt how I made her feel before
>End up spooning and watching a movie for the rest of the night
>My emotions are through the roof
>Want to tell her how I feel
>Homegirl fell asleep
Final stretch. One more post.
I know it's kind of pathetic, but whenever I'm up too late, I look up my first ex's profile on Facebook. Just curious how she is doing. I havn't even seen her in person in maybe a year, except for a split moment once. And since she was with her fiance, I avoided her like the plague. And I havn't even texted her since November. It's been about 4 years since we were intimate, but I still think about her so often. I wish I could get her out of my head.
>>683569194
This hits home man. Really does
>be two months ago
>riding my bike
>at stop sign intersection
>drunk asshole comes speeding in his van
>hits me
>jolt forward on to my handlebars causing me to fall backward violently
>hit head, black out, don't get plates
>wake up in hospital
>fucking respirator down my throat what the fuck?
>nurse notices I'm awake, they take respirator out hours later when doc comes
>notice something's up
>I'm manually breathing and when I stop, I stop breathing
>whatthefuck.jpg
>get hungry
>ask nurse for food and tell doc about breathing problem
>they say I might have acquired central hypoventilation syndrome
>gr8m8
>30min later nurse brings food
>can't taste food at all
>tell doc
>"well anon if that's true you might have ageusia your whole life"
>fuck me, can't taste anything forever
>try crying because of this shit
>can't even cry anymore
I can't cry, I can't breathe without thinking about it and I need a CPAP machine to sleep at night, and I can't taste food. Probably gonna an hero soon, life doesn't seem worth it anymore.
Sorry for godawful green text, just thought I should get this off my chest.
>>683573128
wow 2 months! That's an immeasurably long time, all those others that have had fake depression for years simply cannot compare to you, you are undoubtedly the most unhappy and deserve to be given everything in life for free so you can be happy
>>683567582
>>683568133
I wnet through some similar shit a year ago anons, best advice i got was from b
you gotta treat it like a toxic waste, you want to fix it but the more you mess with it the more fucked up your gonna get
best option is to just let it sit, ignore it, her, them, everything
fuck em all, you're the only one that means shit
eventually come back and fix it when it doesn't hurt, or if it always does never look back
i know it's hard, my ex cheated on me with my best friend for months and I didn't know, had to cut both of them out
waited a long time, he and I shook on it, will talk, nothing more, I never acknowledge her
thats how I dealt with my toxin, how are you gonna deal with yours? you gotta decide that..
I'm there for everyone to help with their problems and listening to them but when I have problems, nobody wants to hear it. So I keep my sadness bottled up inside. I have for years.
>>683573474
That's fucked dude
Hope shit gets better for you ;_;
>>683561557
I hate sleep because I love it so much I hate waking up I want to go back to another reality fuck this one just wasted potential that all it is just a waste
>>683557813
love her, she loves me back, distance breaks the bubble, she is thousands of miles away, fighting everyday to finally find a way to reach her, afraid of losing her if I fail to acomplish it, afraid she will forgot about me every single day, await her texts like a starving dog await it's food...... I think about you so much " C" ....
>>683563197
You are never alone
>>683573520
I've been signed off 2 months. Diagnosed 3 years ago. It just didn't get so bad until recently.
Try not to be a cunt.
>>683563609
ahh shit, i would go to this kids birthday just because i hate to see a child so hollow
>>683573596
What's up dude?
>>683569899
Shit I miss my dad so much. I haven't thought about him in a while and this video hit me so hard it made my fiance think I was having a heart attack
>>683573353
>>683573353
>Next day
>Plan to tell Homegirl how I feel and hope for the best
>Walk to homegirls place
>Homegirl opens the door with one hand, swyping right with the other
>Homegirls friends convinced her to make a Tinder
>Decide to let her do her thing and get her rebounds in
>Fast forward a week
>Homegirl about 5 - 10 dudes deep from Tinder
>Notice some things off about homegirl
>Smile isn't the same
>Laugh isn't the same
>Constant blank expression
>Reading her like a book
>Homegirl texts me at 4am
>Homegirl had a bad tinder date, says she's done with Tinder and she wants to talk to me
>Walks over to homegirls place
>Homegirl is putting on make up
>Says she looked ugly without it
>I disagree
>Low key thing she's the most beautiful girl I've layed eyes on, makeup or not.
>Homegirl gets a match on Tinder
>"I thought you were done with tinder because of a bad date?"
>Homegirl says it was a misunderstanding with the date and she overreacted.
>Says we can chat for like 20 minutes because a new boytoy is coming over
>Try convincing her out of it
>Doesn't bother listening & says I don't need to worry about her.
I worry about you constantly. I know the old you is in there, somewhere.
I want the old you back. Not even on a relationship level fuck all of that. It doesn't matter how hard I've fallen for you or how much you've hurt me without knowing it.
I just want my best friend back.
>>683573474
Jesus fuck dude. Some people are thinking of you. At least you're not tetraplegic. don't despair
>>683559887
Mfw when I realize I've been coming here for half my life and I don't know what I will do when this happens
>>683573664
Thanks. I have a small inkling of hope but its dwindling. I can't exercise much anymore because I can't breathe right, so I'm becoming fat. Makes me kinda wanna an hero more, thinking of myself as obese. If I do become obese, I'll probably just off myself.
>>683569660
holy fuckin' debbie downer
>>683574408
you gotta love yourself more than you love her anon.
>>683573474
You're missing out on a huge opportunity. Start eating random shit and post it on YouTube, get paid and fuck bitches
>>683559689
Maybe she was murdered faggot
>>683573596
Lets talk homie
>>683559234
My best friend left me after she let her boyfriend block me through her facebook account for three whole years. I go on a week ago and notice that she unblocked me, engaged in conversation to realize she had broke up with him and now Shes pregnant.
>>683574656
I literally have no one to play with, it fucking sucks
>>683574707
After that ordeal, I'm aware of that. Attempting to work on this whole loving yourself thing is quite the challenge.
life is crumbling BAD
>>683574796
Do u have ps4 u can play with me !
>>683574778
Well she's a huge bitch, anon
don't fall for it
>>683574527
Hang in there.
I believe in you
I believe you can make it through this
>>683574931
I know dude but i just always had a thing for her and i can never stop thinking about her
>>683574470
>Some people are thinking of you
That's the only reason I'm still here. I don't wanna pass my depression on to others by killing myself, but if things don't get a little better I don't know what I'll do.
>>683574796
I'll play with you. What system. What games?
>>683572966
It's all yours my friend!
>>683574408
i'm sorry anon but i have very little sympathy for you. what was up with all that arrogant bullshit like "yep i called it", or "i know where this was heading". what you should have done from day 1 was respect her and homeboy's relationship. if it didn't work out then go for it; otherwise from the start you should have just told her he's not good enough for you.
>>683574913
I do
>>683575088
Black ops 3, destiny and overwatch beta
>>683574796
im up wut platform
>>683575156
Aw man I have all those games. But I play on Xbox. I'm level 350 on bo3 lol bit of a no life.
>>683574974
I hope so. For some reason I still have hopes that I'll be able to breathe right one day, that I'll be able to cry and taste food too, but it's a pipe dream.
>>683575225
poorfag got x60 thats it hml
>>683573968
I can't help being a cunt, just like you can't help crying because you're depressed
>>683575156
(Original anon who asked) i have Black ops 3, watch dogs dbz xeno naruto uhhhhh mgs V gta V
>>683575134
I did respect her and homeboys relationship. I never tampered with the relationship at all in a negative way. They got into a fight, I told her how to resolve it peacefully because I didn't want them to break up. They broke up on their own terms. She told me they broke up after two months of not talking to me.
Like I said, both of our relationships were way too similar.
>>683575319
I'm too bad to level up that high tbh
>>683575331
That sucks, it's okay though
>>683575345
I've only got black ops of those games
>>683575425
I also have the division and destiny (original asker lol forgot what i had)
>>683575425
>That sucks, it's okay though
I wish it was
Had a bad reaction to some antidepressants I didn't even want to take. Now I may have schizophrenia. My dad is my best friend in the world and just got through serving out a five year sentence but I can't even stand to be around him because he's on Xanax all the time and I practically have to baby sit him while I'm with him. I'm 19 and stress is causing my hair to fall out prematurely. I'm 6ft. 2in and have pectius caranatum from which I slouch to hide which has given me many back problems and pain. I'm constantly thinking about suicide and how I'm never gonna have a future because I'm too broken of a person to even go outside and cut the grass or anything. even as I sit here my dad is nodding off trying to talk to me. when he's like this he hugs me and calls me by childhood nicknames.
>>683575532
Well I have black ops, overwatch and destiny taken king, that's it
>>683575425
Whats ur user? On ps4 Idk if u wanted to say here or on kik or something
>>683569531
you know, if anybody asked me who i thought was secretly depressed, i would point a girl i know just like you. just because you have it good doesn't invalidate how you feel. im here you for you still
>>683575355
The problem is you described yourself as a "hopeless romantic" etc. so straight off the bat, when you first met her, you already started having expectations from her. I don't blame you as I think many on this site are.
However, when you realized she has a boyfriend, you should have just backed off from there, especially if you didn't know her well (why did you commit to being her friend apart from simply the fact you found her attractive, and perhaps eventually expected something out of it?).
>>683575425
Yeah that's one of the reasons I stayed with Xbox. The multiplayer community is much more tryhard and ps4 community is more casual.
>>683575328
Dude i thought my problems were bad
some fucker just basically took your life away, for no reason, I couldn't imagine not being able to even cry, in your situation that's all I'd want to do.
I can't save you... but my god I wish I could, I wish I could just heal you and take the pain away, breathe life back into your lungs. but I can't, and you're probably right, damnit ;~;
life just fucks you, but you gotta fuck back bro, fuck life back, and if you don't make it, I'm gonna fuck life on your behalf, you're beautiful, stay strong.
>>683575607
Add me on kik, my username is DoYouLikeMelons
>>683575669
Yeah I guess, I'm just not that good
>>683574997
>shoulder to cry on
best friends with a girl. LOL
>>683564671
You're a dumb bitch, you deserve that guilt faggot.
>long distance girlfriend broke up with me after cheating on me for almost a month
>started drinking a lot, getting drunk every night
>this was a few months ago, dont think about much anymore
>dont drink much anymore, but constantly craving getting drunk all the time
>now im started to like another girl, but too scared to ask her out in case the same thing happens
>it doesnt get better anons, the pain just comes from something else
>>683557813
>Feels thread, /b/?
Okay this is gonna sound homo ish...but what if we made a group somewhere where all of us can talk man because all.of us here seem to get eachother. Too bad we dont know eachother in person....
>>683575666
>However, when you realized she has a boyfriend, you should have just backed off from there
Waste of triple 6's. This is terrible advice. All girls want to meet someone else while they are in a relationship. Guaranteed she doesn't love the guy she's with, she's bored af and waiting for someone else to swoop in.
>>683563699
alien gf
thats the only thing that explains it.
this anon got to live my fantasy life.
now im sad
>>683565775
You like him, stop trying to make yourself seem like a special snowflake. It happens to everyone.
>>683575958
make a discord text server
>>683569531
I am not that good like you at everything you say you are, but, about listening the problems from everyone around and stay strong for them, while ignoring my own, we are on the same boat, you are not alone in this wolrd, cheer up
>>683566330
keep doing your best, anon. all any of us can do.
>>683565238
Me too dude
>>683575952
My bitch broke my heart after many years. I like this emo chick now but she's getting married and I'm too scared to make a move.
>denied highschoool
>420
>working in a warehouse for low wage
>no perspective, IQ halfed.
>broke up contact with family and friends.
> dis gonna end well.txt
>>683575666
We met from orientation and we ended up having quite a few mutual friends, so we became friends. Probably should of mentioned that.
Ended up shortening the story because I'd still be telling it rn. Probably should of just told it in its entirety.
I never really expected anything out of it. Obviously I had hopes, but ruining the relationship was never the intention. Yeah, I had feelings for her. But I still put those feelings aside and respected her relationship.
I respected the fact that she had a boyfriend and tried to fix their relationship so it wouldn't fall apart like mine did.
My boyfriend is controlling and extremely jealous. He doesn't want me to take birth control because he thinks I'm having sex with someone else.
>>683576324
Tits or GTFO
>>683576149
believe it or not theyre going to die too
no one gets a happy ending
>>683576324
What else does he not permit you to do?
>>683575958
Make a kik group?
>>683576502
This, I have kik and no one on it to talk to
>>683569899
This makes me wish I had a dad
>>683575979
I agree with you. But my point is it's a waste of time with those sort of girls from the start, unless the only thing you're looking for is some casual sex (but even then, I don't think it's worth it: call me old fashioned, but I think if that's all you're after then respect their relationship by staying away in the first place).
Why commit emotionally to a girl who's already committed to someone else? Why actively cuck yourself from the start? If you're honest with yourself you would realize the only reason anon got close with a girl he barely knew was because he had expectations for something to come out of it (being the hopeless romantic he is); if you think you can swoop a girl away from someone else, then there's no reason why eventually someone else won't swoop her away from you (as happened in Anon's case).
Rather long-winded, but my point is basically, it's a lose-lose situation. Don't go for them in the first place, they're not worth it.
>>683565775
Well you could ask him to stay with you for a few more months if possible
>>683575156
shit taste anon better an hero
>>683576502
Fucking this.
>>683558831
eh i guess i've always known
besides not being remembered is a gift you can do whatever the fuck you want and people might care for a week or two but you'll be forgotten. just use it for humor and it's good
pretend you're insane for a day you might like it
It's like 4chan your post's are deleted a little while after you write them unless they're well written than someone might screen shot it
but who gives a fuck it's not like people will be able to identify you by username
so call whoever you want a faggot
start a shouting match with a crazy guy
flame war over over whatever you don't even need to give a fuck about what you're flaming over the difference between the internet and real life is on the internet people think you can't find them again but in real life the chances of running into the same person twice is tiny and the chances of them remembering you are even smaller accept on the internet people will be able to go back and see exactly what you said
and most people don't run around recording everything and if you are recorded saying fucked up shit for keks people will forget in a few weeks or months
>>683576674
Add me
>>683575744
>>683576873
yea but even the happiest person needs others too, humans are social animals. the reason we exist at all was our ridiculous, beautiful attachments to other people
>>683576774
>there's no reason why eventually someone else won't swoop her away from you
this is inevitable with women. Realistically, some day some one will probably take her away too. You have to live in the moment with women. It's not about being a cuck, it's just about appealing to the female mind.
>>683577035
dont think theres such as thing as "the happiest person" and its not like you are going to be alone forever either.
>>683577035
>beautiful attachments to other people
Lol. You mean using people for your own satisfaction and then discarding them when you're bored?
dfw
finally jumping the gap between you and your best friend that you're secretly in love with, suddenly forgetting and leaving behind all sadness and doubt and side by side walking into a bright future of love understanding and teamwork
>>683577339
>psychosis
>>683577438
>12
>>683576970
Anyone want to start a group?
>>683577161
so what's wrong exactly with pursuing single women rather than putting yourself in that state where you're waiting on their relationship to end before you have a shot, like that anon did?
> this is inevitable with women
No it's not. Based on the relationships of many older couples I know, it's really not.
>>683566268
are you retarded just take a bat and beat him
>>683568981
What a waste of time reading that shit.
>>683577548
Nothing wrong with pursuing single women, it's probably a safer bet tbh. But he should go after her, if he wants her. He can make the relationship end himself. People do it all the time and no one seems to care.
>be me, 8 y/o
>grandpa buys me Super Smash Bros for N64 when it first comes out
>we play all the time, for years
>grandpa loves Captain Falcon
>that fucking Falcon Punch sound is burned into my memory
>becomes an inside joke with me and gramps, say it all the time and throw fake punches at each other
>gramps continues to do it to me for years
>becoming a teenager I stop finding it so funny
>stop going to gramps house entirely for a while
>still see him at holidays and other places for a short time every now and again
>more years pass
>get a call from mom while at work that gramps isn't going to make it much longer and I should come say goodbye
>he had been sick for a while with cancer and was basically just being made comfortable with a hospice program
>haven't seen him since it got bad, since I moved away after college
>drive in to old town and go to hospital to see gramps
>everyone is crying
>he is just laying there, he has lost so much weight I can barely recognize him
>immediately start to cry
>everyone is saying there final goodbye while gramps just lays there with his eyes barely open, not saying anything
>finally, he motions over to me and I stop crying long enough to walk over to him
>"What is it gramps? I just want you to know I love you and I'm going to mi-"
>gramps cuts me off mid-sentence
>his arm is extending towards my face, slowly and his arm is shaking so bad
>curls his hand into a fist and tries to exclaim:
>"Faaalcon Puuuunch!"
>it's barely a whisper
>his fist lightly touches my cheek and his faces tightens up into a smile as tears are rolling down my face
"I love you gramps!"
He said a few more words to my mom and grandma, but that was all the had left in him. He passed away a few minutes later. He made sure the last thing he said to me was our very own inside joke. It had always meant so much to him, even though I thought be both had forgotten.
>>683573883
i feel you anon
>>683567582
Im really sorry for you. You'll get over it, it takes some time.
>>683577840
> He can make the relationship end himself.
> People do it all the time and no one seems to care.
This is exactly what I don't understand though. Most of these feel posts are basically, girl I liked chose another guy over me; gf cheated on me.
Hence, despite the anon who posted the original story being a b/tard, I have no sympathy for the fact he basically tried to be that guy, whether he overtly admits it or not.
>>683564988
You're a bigger man than most of us. You did the best that you could for your friend, even if it was hard for you.
>>683568275
Dont do that
>>683577538
I would but Im scared of being in there with one or two people, im not great at talking that much
>Be a geology major
>Hating it
>Not sleeping well
>One massive project after another
>No solid answers, just theories and hundreds of explanations for bullshit and I can't get a single one right
>Too far in the major to switch
>I want to die
>>683578132
I have no sympathy for anyone. I'm just saying he could initiate the end of the relationship himself, he shouldn't stay away. Women seem to be attracted to what they can't have, like a shiny, expensive fucking diamond. They are materialistic creatures, so embody that to get one.
>>683578132
if a girl leads you on, but then chooses another guy over you, then you can feel hard done by.
if a girl is already in a relationship when you meet her and you're trying to worm your way in, then no sympathy for you.
>>683578455
you seem to be a bit disillusioned by women my man. unfortunately there are many like that but there are many who aren't.
>>683578455
You might benefit from adding a few more dimensions to your thought process.
>>683578655
>>683578686
Tits or GTFO
>be me
>like to play vidya
>havent played in a few days because my sleep schedule is all fucked up
>watdo
>>683558104
I do this pretty frequently. It doesn't bother me so much.
>>683578455
your problem is that you see yourself having to make yourself desirable to women in order for them to like you. make yourself better for yourself, and find a girl who likes you for you. that's the only way to get a keeper (someone who likes you for you, and not what you have).
>>683578739
killself
>>683559617
Theodore...had a hard life.
>>683578882
no
also i bought the witcher 3 like 2 days ago and havent had the chance to play it help its 5am where i live
>>683578876
I had one for a very long time. She met someone new and ended every thing we had for nothing. I've met many men with the same fate. Women initiate almost all divorces.
>>683579021
I heard that game is gay.
>>683579021
How would you like someone to help you? you don't have a problem.
I mean I could mail you a slap in the face if you want?
>>683578735
Perfect response.
>dont have any friends at all
>have some people i talk to on skype occasionally but they don't even like me
>entire family hates me
>>683579144
Its really cool actually
>>683579082
>she met someone new and ended every thing we had for nothing.
I'm so sorry to hear that anon. Tbh I'm worried if I'll ever find a girl who can really love me forever. But I don't want to resort to hitting on/waiting for girls already in relationships because I don't want to be "that guy".
>>683569899
man it was a nice day. now im terribly sad
>>683579367
Everyone always tells me too, if I like a girl that already has a bf. So fuck it I guess, that how humans act, like shit heads.
>>683579304
What do you do?
>>683563609
*sad beep*
>>683578079
nice story anon
>>683573883
I figure that at least when I die I won't have to experience the current reality anymore. That freedom is exciting.
All y'all niggers need to surf or skate. The mind grows stale.
>>683564671
implying someone on Craigslist wouldnt of loved your dog too. jackass
>>683579604
Says you.
I was with her for a year /b/. After 3 months my job took me away. She was never interested in sex. I figure it could have been her head, she always had headaches and her one eye always stayed dialated. Maybe she has a brain tumor is what the doctors said. I'll never know, I left her. She wasn't interested in anything sexual, didn't like skype, and I couldn't see her often. I miss her anon. I should have never left. She said we could be friends. I believed it because I know she's different. She hasn't talked to me since. It's been a month. It hurts. I fucked up. Her family fucking hates me, she fucking hates me, I fucking hate me.
>>683579604
You know it's gonna be like that movie Groundhog Day. You'll just keep waking up as yourself every time you die.
>>683579501
Dude there's a reason everyone tells you that. It just isn't good for anyone.
Can you give any validation for hitting on a girl already in a relationship other than "fuck it I don't care" or "girls are just like that".
I just wrote this on a note pad.
Its basically what im going to tell a doctor when i ask for something to help me.
>graduated high school in 2011, and i just got out of a 2 year relationship
>shortly after graduating my Mom fell down stairs, and broke her arm. Our family gave her a lot of support when she was in recovery but after her recovery she left a note for my dad saying she wants a divorce
>The divorce and my break up affected me for two or three years till i pretty much got over it
>since the divorce and losing my girl friend, i for some reason dont have the motivation to do anything with my life and its been like this for 5 years since i graduated high school
>in these 5 years iv spent 90% of my time just playing video games. Which I feel this made the way i think a lot worse.
>i am now a really pessimistic person, i see everyone and everything as stale, fake, and selfish. I too am also guilty of this. (music, videos, meeting people)
>I pretend to be happy when im around friends just to try and keep them around, but im pretty sure some can see right through it. I feel like im losing all my friends except for one.
>lately a lot of pressure as been put on me to find a job, which is fine. Its a matter of finding a job i hate the least.
>when i look for a job, i always think about how if there was a light switch i could turn off that kills me instantly, and everyone forgot about me instantly, i would rather do that than go to a job i hate.
>The same thought crosses my head when i need to do simple house chores as well because i am that lazy
>I dont think ill ever kill myself because the process is too painful and inconvenient, but the MAIN reason i wouldnt is my family.
>lately iv experienced my first ever mild panic attacks from financial and family pressure.
>I recently experienced a new feeling that made me want to see a doctor, which is the want to shave my head, and pull out some of my teeth.
call me a bitch if you want, its how i feel.
>>683579772
Validation is that it works.
>>683578079
I'm about to spew sodium chloride and H2O from my ocular organs.
>>683579754
Plenty of Otha Fishes my nigga
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=p8vQF5eLfrM
>>683578446
It's okay man, you can just add me if you want to
If I made a kik group would anyone really join?
>>683572059
Fuck Drugs man.
>>683579501
No anon. Shit heads act like shit heads and they all band together in their shit headery and you want to be a part of it. You're the shithead, nice people don't want anything to do with people like you.
>>683579834
Also for those wondering about the hair/teeth thing, i feel as if my teeth are the physical manifestation of the pressure i feel. And if i were to pull some out some of that pressure would go away.
Hair is almost the same thing.
>>683580013
Damn dude. I think they make pills for that.
>>683572473
Why would you kill yourself?
>>683580010
Go ahead and deny nature. Women love that shit
>>683579850
Riposte is that if you're after anything like a serious relationship, you'll never get one like that.
Also, you'll fuck over the guy who she's with, but I can see your attitude is basically idgaf
>>683580010
this. not all women are like that; it's a shame his previous partner was and made him so disillusioned as to try to become a shithead.
>>683579989
I'd join anon. Add me. Bananaguy404
>>683573474
Hope you get better
>>683558831
Now that you know the basics, it's time to choose because the world won't change.
Jerk off with microwaved salami and then tell somebody about it.
>I love my mum and dad
>They divorced when I was young
>My dad started having an affair with a local slag
>They married and moved 90 miles away
>while my dad was away working she was entertaining male friends
>My mum moved us across country and lives a few miles from my dad and his slag of a wife
> My step-mum persuades my dad to mortgage his house give her the money so she can buy a house to rent to one of her children
>My mum and dad start seeing each other again. I hope they will get back together.
>Step-Mum has massive heart attack and then a massive stroke and spend 2 weeks in a coma.
>Mr Dad is stuck now looking after this whore. He doesn't have the courage to leave her as he is now virtually her full time carer.
>All his money is tied up in a house that is in this sluts name.
>I was praying she would die so my dad would get his money back and he would then get back together with my mum.
>>683580617
shit anon. hope it works out for you & she doesn't have to die for that to happen.
>>683572324
Do whatever you can to get off the chemical addictions. They don't make you yourself anymore, you turn into a different person when you are under any type of heavy influece like drugs/alcohol. What you feel and see and do under that is not your baseline state. Misery is a huge part of life and that will never go away. If you have ever laughed at something in life, as stupid as it was, that was what made life worth living. At least, that's what keeps me going. Laughing and thinking and wondering makes this insanely detailed simulation somewhat worthwhile. Mostly just laughing though. Even if it's at a stupid fucking meme or something. That tiniest grain of elation made all the shittiness I feel worth it. And if I can laugh or smile at some dumb ass thing again tomorrow, I'll keep doing that until it's no longer possible. When that time comes, I will choose to leave on my own terms I hope. Maybe onto another journey, but at least it will be the end of the current one. I'm 99% sure there is nothing after this life, but that's ok. It's not like I can control it anyway.
>>683559460
hm.. maybe "come on Z, it won't suck itself" ?
>Had I friend named Owen.
>He had leukaemia
>Kids would always make fun of him for his lack of hair
>Kids made fun of him for his breathing tubes
>One day some faggot even pulled them out
>He ended up dieing
>Dipshit mom wouldn't let me see him at the hospital because it was past my bedtime
>Cry about it for weeks
>Current bitch principal does nothing
>She leaves and a better principal comes
>She learns about his death
>She plants a tree in the playground in honour of his death
>Almost no one knew who he was
>I yelled on it when kids broke the branches on the tree
>Still did up to when I was in 6th grade
>25 now
>Still feel bad for not seeing him before his death
>>683559617
Tuesday, May 10, 2016
>Read a post on /b/
>Even shooting a rhino in the 4head can't get me away from these feels
>>683580807
Graduation is on July 25th I have to present the final work of all these 4 years, I haven't started it /b/ I can't even start it, I'm just ignoring it and feeling bad as fuck, can't get sleep, I'm not even hungry anymore I feel I already failed but most of all I'm ashamed of my parents who still believe in me
Please someone knows how the fuck can I leave this pit and hopefully finish some half assed shit before the deadline so I can scrape my fucking diploma and not make my parents waste another fucking semester, I also has class in 4 hours kek
