Continuing my thread
Ask me anything
I haven't showered or left my house in half a year
Anons from the old thread, help me out and answer a few basic questions for me, since new people will join
I didn't and I won't in this new thread, because I don't want to give you anon a reason to jerk off.
I just want to answer a few questions.
I'll update when that happens.
Alter... Ich kenn den scheiß. Ich wog 135KG mit 1.96. Immernoch nicht so dick wie du aber dennoch dick.
Ich war aber in der Schule schon so. Allerdings war ich eine Art Klassenclown und habe trotzdem gestunken wie ein schwein. Ich hab mich nur gewaschen wenn es nötig war. Durch meine 8te bis zehnte und dann auch noch durch meine Lehre hab ich das gemacht.
Und nun bin ich für ein Jahr in Neuseeland. Immernoch fett. Aber ich habe gelernt mich zu pflegen und nehme auch gerade ab. Ab und zu kann ich sogar ein Mädel mit nach Hause nehmen. Und immer noch bin ich irgendwie depressiv. Wenn ich nicht wüsste, dass die Ollen hier meinen Schwanz nicht in den Mund nehmen wenn ich ihn nicht wasche, würde ich es wahrscheinlich auch nicht tun. Oder mein Boss der die Nase rümpfen würde.
Aber am Ende glaube ich, dass wenn ich wieder in Deutschland bin, mich diese Reise wieder hygienisch gemacht hat. Ich werde bald 22. Das sind nur ein paar Jahre Unterschied Chris. Du kannst das echt noch rumreißen. Und am Ende kannst du dann vielleicht auch den Wert deines Lebens sehn. Ich wünsche dir viel Glück Chris. Da hast die Mittel. Mach was daraus.
I'm 26 and i have severe social axiety but im not as big of a mess. I got prescribed zoloft for a few years and now im on seroxat. The pills really help give you back the motivation. Have you tried seeing a psychiatrist?
because i have zero friends and i thought coming to an image board and only posting 1 pic while rejecting all other requests for pics was a good idea, basically i'm just begging for the attention i haven't got since my dad stopped sneaking into my room at night and stuffing random objects up my asshole.
Social anxiety, depression and paranoid personality disorder.
I order it from online supermarkets.
My rooms are clean, I don't use them, really.
I don't smell myself. I got used to my smell.
160 kilograms, but I am 193 cenimeters tall.
Subhuman? That could be my superhero name!
Ich werde mal schauen. Danke!
My social anxiety is not my biggest issue at the moment. And yes, I even went to a few mental institutions. But they don't really do something for me.
To give some insight. I thought, that people might want to know something about my "lifestyle". And they did. My last thread died with 330 replies.
Too afraid. Also, I don't feel the need to. If I die tomorrow, okay fine. But no need to commit sudoku right now.
Not right now, sorry
My teeth are just yellow, not extremly disgusting and they don't even hurt yet yay
Why don't shower? Really, just turn music on, jump into the shower and enjoy a hour. Life quality will go up 500%, also start using medication, it helped me a lot. I had drugs for motivation, for stress, for concentration...
Good luck bro! It's your decision.
There are paper towels, y'know?
Glad you're better
I'll think about it
As >>683273536 said, money is not an issue.
Depression makes me not care how I look
Oh hey I could be like you too but I usually don't shower for weeks and I go out just strictly when I really need to. I have very similar disorders... Are you on autismbuxxs? Was it easy if so?
You sound like you have decided to never get better. It isn't complicated. Maybe not easy, but it's simple. You don't have to live like this. There is no magic fix. Is that what you're waiting for?
OP why are you doing this to yourself?
i know you have problems but you're just making everything worst for yourself.
today can be the start of a new better life for you.
all you have to do is have a shower. it'll suck for a few minutes but then you'll feel slightly better. then maybe tomorrow you can go outside at a quiet time of the day or night. just walk a few yards from your door and back.
take baby steps every day and you will eventually be ok.
Why would someone even ask such a question?
These 'would you for 1000000000000000000 million dollars'-questions are so lame.
I mean...if someone says yes to it...wow...nothing.
And if someone says no to it...wow...nothing.
Why even bother asking?
>Completely ignore the point that matters cause I'm such a stupid swine
I'm not an angry person but you don't understand from the perspective of someone who struggles to sustains a family and then there are people like you
Take this from someone with social anxiety and long term depression, taking a shower, or anything really that is for you, be it getting a haircut or shaving, w/e, will make you feel better, if only because you actually achieved something for the day
What are those? If you mean meds, no I am not.
But nice to meet you.
No, used to be good looking when I was a teen. Had a few girlfriends and sex.
I have more money than I will ever spend. So, no.
Nope, i am not waiting at all. I make money, I have an apartement and well, I hate socialising, so I choose not to do it
normal porn for normal people
I don't feel like it
I cut my hair once in a while myself. It is greasy, but it's not too bad, and idk why.
The thing is that I don't enjoy living a social life, I enjoy living inside by myself very much
Underwear - every week because it kind of gets wet down there from sweat which rubs on your skin and hurts
T-Shirt and Shorts - every 3 weeks, maybe
No, I don't think so
Everyone has different things to fight for and problems
Thanks, I don't even feel THAT bad, there are people who have it worse
Maybe I am a bathtub
reading op's replies is the most frustrating thing ever
please just do something to fix your life. jesus christ
>there are people who have it worse
keep telling yourself that
But I don't feel the need to achive something
Thanks for your advise, though
Answered this already. It is gready, but it isn't very greasy either. Just looks kind of darker and well, not clean
k alpha boss
sorry that you feel that way haha
I will, sir.
I don't really know to be honest. I always thought because I do not brush often enough but all of my corner teeth are partially or completely broken off/fallen out, front teeth are starting to get real fucked too, especially the one thats nearly only rot at this point.. I don't brush often, but you brush never so really, no idea man.
Why do people allways think he has to "fix" his live?
Whats so wrong with his live? It`s not the norm but he isn`t bothering anyone, he works for his living and isn`t leeching society and welfare for it and he isn`t (physically) ill (as much as i understand). So whats the big deal? There are tons of depressed people out there that have "fuctioning" lives on the outside but no one is telling them to fix it.
Just because he lives alone and stinks, i don`t think there is the need to tell a person to fix something that is not more or less broken then most other lives
I dont get it...
You're right. OP's living the dream, I'm sure.
>No, I don't think so
seems like you dont do much thinking in general.
really, you are the worst person i've ever heard about. you wanna know why? because you have a shitload of money that could help a lot of people who actually WANT to live on this planet. and you spend it to longer your pathetic existence that brings absulutely nothing.
do the world a favor and either kill yourself and put all that money for some charity shit, or get your pathetic ass together and start actually living for something
I'm glad you made another thread.
Do you have the impression that most of the strange things that happen in Germany that get into the news happen in Nordrhein-Westfalen?
I had severe depression up to the point i tried suicide twice. This was coupled with one sort of social anxiety. Then i kinda by accident met my wife of today. I would only go out in the dark and only inebriated. Today I still hate going out and socializing. My wife literally has to drag me outside so i leave the house. But today i fear dieing as opposed to when i just hoped to be terminally ill and die on the spot.
So OP do yourself a favor. Just wash yourself. Make a small improvement. I know you dont want to, i didnt want to either. But today i kinda think inlost 3 years of my life during the time i secluded myself from the outer world for most of the time. I am 25 today.
You get used to being disgusting
It is awful, but I am not super sad all the time, I do my thing, watch videos, browse /b/ and get money. And I don't have to face my fears
That's my life motto
I won't post a pic because well, i have a reason
but it's greasy
too afraid and too addicted to the internet lol
I actually make 4000 euros a month. I am a programmer.
So einfach ist das alles nicht
I kind of agree with you
Thanks, you too. I meant social security benefits... I still think about getting them but I dunno.
I think meds help, I had a very nice therapist but she was more like a buddy that gets paid to hear than any real help, I might try again soon with another maybe I can get better meds this time and someone more professional, because of the meds you could get I'd say give it a shot they might give you good stuff.
As a person who has gone more than six months without a shower or leaving my house, how the fuck are you so dirty? Do you dance in puddles of your own shit or something?
It takes a lot more than just not showering to get that dirty.
>no more or less broken than most other lives
And that's exactly it. Most people need to get their shit straight. OP's is just a more obvious example because they made the thread all about it.
I would answer you, but I am too lazy to think of an answer, sorry
Glad you're better
I'll see about that
I watch all my series in english
German is kind of a cringe worthy language when it comes to movies/threads tbh
I am self-employed and have health insurance
I walk around bare foot and well, idk.
Nope. It's kind of difficult to explain, but not only my anxiety is stopped me. Loyalty is everything to me and I could literally kill a wife who cheats, who is not even mine
I eat, listen to music, read books. Basically the stuff when you're ill and have to stay in bed.
One doesn`t need millions to have more than one would ever spend.
If you live a humble live and spend about 2-3k every month you will get by really nice.
OP makes 4k a month. A guy that never leaves the house, doesn`t take drugs and is afraid of what hookers may think of him (lol - nichts für Ungut Chris).
If you live like that, there is no need for millions.
The logic in letting yourself deteriorate is kind of mind boggling. If you have so much free time and money why not do things you are interested in? Or make your home into an actual sanctuary and start working out and at least taking care of your self physically and mentally. Then you can slowly start adding basic personal hygiene like flossing mainly brushing does nothing really unless you hate the stains. But you are given an opportunity to actually find out what you like in life and get to experience it. So why do you chooses to just deteriorate in your home? Depression can only be an excuse for so much. Then after that its mostly just will power and finding things you enjoy in life. Also you clearly look for some form of interaction by posting on the Internet. Also if you use tv, video games, or radio you are just getting your human "interaction" over a screen. You are over stimulated by life that you cant get enjoyment out of social experience.
So hopefully you figure something out, life is a strange thing and can surprise you. If you continue to always do the same thing everyday, you will always end the day with the same result. So you repeat everything in the day that ends in depression so the next day will be the same if you refuse to change.
Do you wash your hands after going to the bathroom, like even No soap just running water at a minimum?
No soap, no washing hands
But thanks for your kind words
Nobody at the moment but I had many girlfriends and well, you know.
Faking me like a boss, I see
Not really interested in story books, but rather books about programming and psychology (ugh, the irony)
haha ja, ein paar leute wollen, dass ich noch einen thread mache
Yeah i want to stay and read but unfortunately i have things to do. So i will just attend half-assed from now.
But i have another question- do you own your flat or are you renting it. And besides the garden- how many rooms do you have?
What caused this OP? I mean I get that you have social anxiety, paranoia etc... was there a triggering event? Tell us more about yourself.
Do you ever hope to have a relationship with a girl in the future? Do you have family? Do you live alone? Do you have pets? What country are you from?
What do you want out of life, really?
P.S. There are always people who care and are willing to help, when and if you want to change there are people out there, believe that :) Everyone has value. I wish you the best.
Weird angle, but nonetheless I am fat, yes
Renting, 2 rooms
Never tried meds, no
I use my phone to watch youtube in bed and I use my computer with 2 displays to program and browse /b/, also watching series and youtube.
There wasn't a trigger ever, it just got worse as time progressed and yeah...
I don't plan on getting into a relationshop, no.
I have this thing where I get jealous all of the time even though my gf is loyal af.
No family, living alone, no pets, Germany
I want nothing really, just trying to do fun things inside and yeah...
And thanks! :)
Nope, but I never had to, it's quite weird.
I don't really grow hair on my legs.
Sure! But I don't want to buy a pet because I don't know if I could take care of it.
well op i read most post...
still, i cant help but find it a bit dumb, and well you ignored the rest of the post as well so thats no different
but true,, you really could just get a shower etc.. and still live like that, just mm ?look better? i guess,
i mean with that money you could build a gym at your home [as in buy some machines to train on, that fit in your house]
i wont change your mind sure,,, but i just wonder why not?? like not just "meh...cause" [or if you write that whatever] but on a more elaborate answer...
like wtf keeps you from getting a "better quality" of life. So you could become some [well you said you were good looking so you probably still would be if you make effort] rich, smart guy who just sit at home and you could feel like.. haaah faggots im all that and you are not
altho i kinda agree that never leaving the house, would kind of defeat the purpose of becoming better, since it would literally worth noting.. unless you yourself care about that... not like you go out to get girls... sooo yee
This faggot decised to feel be like this, he literally just gave up because of his problems, i have problems as well and i want to give up from time to time but still i dont, Op deserves the shit life he is living for giving up.
>itt nigger OP gets a cast taken off foot/leg, takes pic and anons are bamboozled
keking my ass of at /b/ now
Dad died when I was 5 yo. Mum visited me 2 months ago.
It's kind of hard to understand for someone who isn't in my spot. I just don't care, I feel okay and have fun with living a low standart. So I just say fuck it, I am not motivated.
Yeah, I wouldn't say I hate life! That's a good thing, I guess. Thanks for your words!
See above, I enjoy life :)
My place is quite clean. And no, not afraid of bugs
That's so cool
They know me, yes, but I haven't seen them in half a year
great, glad you're enjoying my 101% bait thread
how are you not sick by now?
Like fouled teeth or something from never washing hands after taking a shit (bacteria and stuff)
This probably was already asked, but can't bother to read everything here:
Why don't you wash yourself at all? And I don't mean for looking/ smelling better.
I have depression and some other shit myself and avoid washing myself as much as possible, but I still do it once in a while, simply because at some point greasy hair, too long facial hair and stuff get annoying to me...
that i cant settle with.... adopting.. nor good or bad...
what not bad??
his teeth will probably rot to hell eventually, and never showering will surely have some effect eventually also...
never mind that he WILL eventually get old as well... what will happen then? Like... well,, shit himself or something .. so bad things like that... his life quality will deteriorate to such a fucking level, that he probably would just better be off dead... and all his days will be just suffering from then on... and by then it will be to late to change that
And really... a fucking shower? its not that hard.. he could at least do that, and wash his teeth, noo need to work out or anything,,, but i really cant say
"oh okay, sure dude, your cool.. i hope you like living alone then"... no, i mean i dont care if he do that... but i would not like to meet him [well he wouldnt either ..ahaahahaa..] he probably stinks , he just dont feel it as he said
ohhhh.. and what if something happens.. like a broken arm? huh? i guess that half a year inside will be bye-bye.. unless OP can treat himself.. which i would doubt in a case like this
i mean i dont want to be an asshole, but seeing as OP doesnt appear to be a complete retard.. he is going by a pretty retarded way about this.. getting a fucking shower etc,, has nothing to do with him adopting to..." the situation "... he is just an idiot [in that case]
I read some chunks of this and it's pretty disgusting reading OPs responses. Like seriously
Your body makes their own 'cleaning bacteria' since the western society showers so much we dont have alot of it anymore (after a month of not using soap it will be back at full capacity). But you dont HAVE TO shower technically. Once a week is the best tho.
Oh, sorry. I overlooked that question. I clean them every month or so. Toilet: every week or so.
idk myself why I am not sick tbh
and well, I guess I just gave up cleaning myself because, "why would I", yknow, just like you but more extreme
Ne, wieso? Man kann im Internetsupermarkt bestellen. Habe ja Geld.
Already answered. No.
make sure not to puke on your computer
freelance programmer with his own website, I have many customers
You got points in there, but the showering doesn matter that much. I assume OP doesnt eat shit for dinner so he should be fine.
The teeth thing is a problem, teeth need cleaning.
And ehm if he breaks something, thats all to his judgement. People live with broken arms not treated. It only regrows terribly haha.
Hey i just saw that the guy in Mr. Robot also has a little pet. You should get urself one too.
Dsungalische Zwerghamster are lone rangers anyway. They are cute and lieb but it doesn`t bother them if you don`t play with them for days. Just feed them once a day, when you feed yourself and your good.
Ok, hey, du meintest, du seist auch aus Deutschland, vllt hilft dir dieses Forum hier:
Ist nen Selbsthilfeforum ohen Zensur und die Leute da sind ziemlich nett. Vielleicht bringt dir das was :)
ok, thanks for the answer.
But I once heard about, that when you take a shit, you can get bacteria from your gut on your hands and when you consume them (like not washing the hands and eating something afterwards) they can cause diarrhea or stuff like this.
What's up with this?
>not showering isn't a problem
You are disgusting fuck mate, for real.
>i assume op doesn't eat shit
He might be tall but he is still vey fucking overwieght.
Basically you are Op's dick cheese sucker.
You can get every help and tip from me if you want.
If your ham is a clean one he has designated shittings and pissing spots too. So you only have to clean those. Minimalizing the work you got with him. Im a painfully lazy bum but a hamster i can manage. Really gave me something...
If you have some questions about it, ask me next month in the next thread
Ecoli, its only a thing with major amounts. Also normally I recommend washing your hands after you dump your dump but if you dont wash yourself, even with water, its not a big deal. The tiny amount you might get (microscopic tiny, not a shitstain hue) is not that hurtful. Also your body might get used to it over time.
meh... OP is like a giant stone/or something tower, you cant go around or anything... it just stand there..
you cant convience him he acts like an idiot, he can't be bought, bullied, reasoned, or negotiated with, he just want to... well i dunno, nothing.. just read stuff, and browse 4chan and Youtube forever...
i guess if he would not make 4000 euros but say 400 [just some number,, so low income] things would change drastically ...
as right now... its totally pointless to talk to OP, i mean you could probably tell OP you have everything he got,, but you are not fat, etc.. but what it matter? nothing...
I guess i just keep asking random questions if i feel like it,, or just read on the .. well basically same answers all over again
then again... i doubt OP will keep this up for long.. if nothing else, his teeth will rot to nothingness,, then real fuck time begins
Came in here cuz OP presented himself as scum of the earth, and I like to laugh at such things.
OP then uses his threads convincing he's a perfectly able and functional member of society who's faults are only that of being slightly overweight and avoiding to clean himself.
OP I'm so sorry that your life turned out this way.
Reach out to people who can help you live a meaningful life.
I sincerely hope you sort out your crippling problems and can finally have a half decent existence.
OP, have you considered to go on some trip? Like to see the world. As i read it earlier, you say you have too much money in your accounts. Its pretty hard to understand for me how could you not take advantage of the money you've got.
nice to see you finding a lifestyle that's working for you Anon. I think it's nice that you're creating thease threads. I guess you're suffering a higher risk of certain things but who cares - some people live healthy lives and die in car crashes so fuck it. i wish you the best!
>give you anon a reason to jerk off.
i'd love to live your life, being a freelance programmer - making 4k euro's a month is like exactly what i want.
but I'd take a shower 2 times a week and brush my teeth, you'll regret it later on when your teeth starts to ache OP.
What are you experiencing when youre going out? Like you only have to buy some tickets online, then get a cab to airport and leave the country and get some nice rest, even if alone. You would only have to talk to few people.
Please answer this OP
>Do you have the impression that most of the strange things that happen in Germany that get into the news happen in Nordrhein-Westfalen?
Are there things you deeply enjoy? Or is it more of a "things to do to get the day over" thing?
I am asking because when i went into seclusion it was more of the latter and it kinda is still today. I have no hobbies today but my wife always finds something to do for me.
I actived a service online, so that the postman just puts my package in front of my door and I get notificated by email
hard to explain but yeah, not really motivated
he just has an alternative way of thinking
C++, Java, Python, Ruby, PHP and so on, everything the customer wants basically (if I can do it)
Gimme a sec
Read, my child
I don't really get your first question.
I enjoy programming and, well, the internet in general
I don't really care since I don't go outside lol
if that's how you think about it, fine
Why not just like, not be disgusting? You do realize after you shower you get a natural high right? How stupid are you? You don't get used to it, you just forgot what being clean feels like.
1. I can understand that you dont go out because you have social anxiety and depression
but why dont you shower?
2. have you ever though of seeking professional help from a psychologist or something?
3. Do you have any family?
Why would I, if I don't plan to socialse?
freelance programmer, customers give me their concept and money and I give them the finished program/website
nope, german is my first language
hard question, i know that nothing will happen but, well... Still, I think people are talking behind my back and I fear to fuck up in conversation or something
books, when I was a teen
and now, the internet to learn new stuff
rarely talk to my mom on whatsapp
dad is dead
Samefag, what's wrong with Zoloft being used for anxiety. Probably 1 billion times better than benzos
You seem to be confused, you don't lose weight or shower for other people you neckbeard, you do it because it makes YOU feel better. Learn about how the brain actually works. I'm not talking about feeling good about yourself like a confidence thing, i'm talking about dopamine.
Natural high? If I want to get high, I just order some weed.
1. answered 5 times already
2. been to mental institutions when I was younger, didn't really help
3. no, besides my mum
tried, but it does nothing for me anxiety wise
>the postman just puts my package in front of my door
it will be so weird for you when you'll see someone again
anyway, i get the "i prefer being alone inside" thing but you're still on 4chan which is a website where people go to talk to other people. why?
Wow you are really stupid. It's a different kind of high, how about taking a shower AND smoking weed. You do realize ANYTHING you do while clean will feel 500% better right? That includes being a disgusting piece of shit, sleeping, eating, anything.
I think your depression will decrease by 20% if you take a shower
I like talking to people, if it's not in person. I'm still human. And yes, it would be so weird.
my mental illnesses and life in general
go take a shower then
a life alone and without fear
she does know
she did care
she tried to help
now she stopped
shit. what would have to happen for you to go to shower? just get in there and clean yourself man. you might be a decent man. now get to shower, clean your shit up. clean your apartament. then get high on some good dank, get out for a beer and meet someone.
Get clean and take fish oil. I'm not positive if that is actually what changed my life, but like a month after doing that my anxiety pretty much went away and I worked myself up to now be making close to 100k.
It was nice answering your questions and I hope you had some fun.
I will go eat something now, because I am very hungry.
Maybe, if the thread will still exist, I will answer more questions, but I assume, it will 404.
So, I'll make a thread every month.
Next thread 8th may 6 pm
So people wanted me to
Well, have a good day, I'm out
Dann versuche ich es auf deutsch:
Falls du Zeitung liest, liest du mit Sicherheit immer wieder so ein Zeug wie "Navigationsgerät führt Mann direkt in einen See und er ertrinkt". Ich habe das Gefühl sowas passiert mit erhöhter Häufigkeit in NRW. Oder eben was gerade so in den Nachrichten ist, das mit dem Ehepaar aus Höxter (ich hatte bis ich es eben gegoogelt habe keine Ahnung wo Höxter liegt - aber siehe da - NRW)
Hast du das Gefühl auch? Oder ein anderes Bundesland in dem deinem Empfindenn nach besonders viel solcher "seltsamer" Fälle geschehen?
Und nun wieder englisch, da du das wie du sagst bevorzugst:
Are you a regular poster on 4chan or more of a lurker?
Do you frequent other boards except /b/?
Don't fall to the peer pressure OP. Don't shower and let's see what sort of weird shit grows on your body. It's gonna be like a Simpsons episode.
Or the futurama episode where the civilization grows on Bender.
I am still confused how this idiot gets money? It is either government (hopefully europe so I ain't paying for it), mommy and daddy (please be this so again I ain't paying for it and they suffer with the shame) or from his 'programming job' (which I highly doubt exists but in his mind he is a hell of a coder).
Anyone know the answer?
OP said above he has and smokes week occasionally. Did alot of MDMA too according to him.
People who are shut ins like him lie like a motherfucker though. They don't even know they are lying but have lost the normal social blocks to prevent such obvious bullshit.
A friend of mine was a shut in loser like this guy and used to tell me how he was a secret agent for the government and shit. I was all' yeah I am sure you are delta force with your no education and training ass'
Ya these shut in lie big time.
So it is either mom and pops or government. Is this fucker in Europe? Please please be in europe I hate paying for people that should obviously be dead.
I dont know man, only mentally retarded people or extreme basket cases dont shower for so long
OP says he has a job, can stay alive on his own and he seems to be able to have a conversation