confess to thoughts you have but would never mention IRL, even to closest companions.
sometimes I fantasize about getting cancer, or a loved one dying, and relishing the attention that I would get from it
I sometimes wish my pee would freeze faster so I wouldnt have to wait 2 hours between urinating and fucking myself.
I fantasize about being raped by a female.
I have this fantasy where the world's muslims have all been rounded up, and I have a job killing every single one, in a slaughterhouse. They come around on a hanging conveyor, screaming at me or begging me or pretending to be dead already, and I slit their throats, or their femoral artery or their descending aorta. Sometimes I use a bolt gun to liven things up. Every now and then one of them labelled "leader" comes around and I gut them, then burn the wounds closed with a blowtorch.
This is how I fall asleep about half the nights of the week.
No, I'm not jewish or israeli.
I fantasize about fucking a hot brunette or blonde all night.
I want to be surrounded by attractive women, able to choose whoever I want.
But I love my girlfriend so much and in the past year have let myself go a little bit. I used to pull chicks and that was great, I'm 22 now and I need to settle down and I know I can do it. I'll never be happy otherwise. I just wish I could wake up to a different girl everyday.
I often imagine all the things I would do if I had the ability to stop time (started when I was young and I seen a show where this kid could stop time with a pocket watch). Odd thought I know. But think of the possibilities. You could fuck anyone and be the best at everything. Everything would go your way because you could rig everything to do so.Win every fight cause you could avoid every punch. Be rich because you could steal without anyone knowing. Or just win big in Vegas cause you changed what happens in roulette or blackjack etc. Each time I think about it a new possibility comes to mind. It's quite fun actually
I got into a fist fight with my father and moved out, had a black eye for a couple months. People always either respected me instantly or wanted to fight me.
I used to walk around downtown everynight from 12am -4am going past bars smoking and drinking, praying someone would call me on.
Ended up getting hit on a lot.
To put it into perspective. I was working one day and a customer told me that I must've been an asshole to a guy to get a shiner like that. I got pissed off and the guy told me he wanted to fight in the parking lot.
It's unavoidable. I'm not being a fag, I'm just saying I liked to fight, I was in a tough spot. I was an alcoholic.
I do this to op. Sometimes I fantasize about my fiance dying in a car accident and how it would change my life. Sometimes I also fantasize about her dying in the delivery room and how I'd use the baby and the story to get more pussy.
One time I put 48 army men figurines up my ass just to see the look on the ER doctor's face when he saw the x-ray
When I was growing up, many father was severely and endlessly abusive to me, my siblings, and my mother
Now I'm noticing some of the same patterns of abuse in my boyfriend that my father shouted, except he's never hit me, and he always manages to stop before saying something too fucked up
But part of me craves him to just start beating me senseless and play every mind game on the planet with me. The thought/ fantasy scares me but I love it ATST
>unable to use your words
>hurr durr u h8 us cuz u aint us
>I aint you because I'm a rational human being who's not controlled by emotion
>be more edgy fagit
>I got mad n had to hit something
>someone was mean to me and I could do words to explain why I was dick before so need to be dick again now'
Holy fuck, kill yourself. A teenage girl has better grasp of her emotions than you do.
Sometimes when i need to shit, but my sister is already on the toilet i break down the door and shit in her vagina. Its best when my parents are watching to make it more of a family thing.
Most of my thoughts are the kind I would never tell anyone, for fear of being judged. My insecurities, my anxieties, my desires, all of it.
The fact that I have any insecurities or anxiety at all is a heavy blow against me in the eyes of my peers, as that means I'm weak. The actual content of them would just increase how pathetic I am.
My desires would cause me to be locked up.
I hate men and masculinity.
I respect homosexual for disrespecting this identity.
I think feminine behaviors could contribute to improve society
I think feminist are missing the point in sex equality; rather than asking for women to level-up to men-level, they should advocate for a society founded on feminine principle rather than masculine principle.
Fantazise about leaving everything to become a hitman but in a fashion of Blackjack. Everybody I know says I have most of the aptitudes to be a movie-like blood-money worker and I always say "nah, son", but inside I enjoy everytime they try to hold me or beat me sparing and I can hold my ground effortless against all (some do martial arts and other self-defense, I just train muscle and strategize every step I take and every posible outcome)
I wanna see tits and a piss-cock in your ass and pussy: A golden DP if you will. I need to fap and this is just weird enough for me to get a nut.
I dream about fucking my sister in law. I've been with her sister for 8 years. We're 27 she's 22, been married just for a little under a year. Doesn't help she's lived with us for a few years cuz she goes to the college nears us. I've done some stuff with her but I think she's scared/may feel guilty and i havent been really pushy, considering most stuff that has happened has been under the same roof when wife/sis is asleep or passed out.. meh idk, ask me more or comment.
Always imagine that I gonna forced her anal, i want to see her suffer. to mention that she is small size, my dick would total destroy her ass. just want to know what u guys would imagine her suffer?
Idfk, Google it, I'm a windows fag. Hurry my boner needs your depravity.
sometimes when i wanna fap even though i know i would feel better i just to take a nap instead to make the feeling go away because I'm so disgusted with actual women knowing how they really all are.
my biggest sexual fantasy is to get tide up and left in a room where i'm repeatedly fucked and used by numerous strange men (am girl). i know i could never make it happen because i'm too much of a pussy and i'm mormon
>Why such hate. Is it only terrorists or all muslims in general?
The thing is that islam is pretty much a hate filled religion. If it were not for all the extremists (counting terrorists but also idiots in shitcountries) these opinions most likely would not be floating around.
Her sis/my wife is gorgeous. She's like a 8 or 9 on some days.
The younger one is like a general 6.5-7.5 depending on the day. Light hair brunette with an body like Angelina Jolie just shorter like 5'4 face is unique.
I've seen her naked multiple times some on accident, some spying, some like I asked to see her pierced tits etc. She's Bi more unto girls as of late. She used to talk about a lot of inappropriate stuff and say sexual stuff cuz she was single for a year.
So yeah back to it. Seen her naked all those ways. I've given her full massages with everything off besides underwear that lasted for hour or so, would play with tits and nips didn't touch her pussy really though, just graze over the underwear. We play fight and that'd result to touching, most of the time me more. She never really touched my dick maybe just graze it quick or on accident. I've never really kissed her. Just on the neck or grazed her lips she'd be into it quick then turn away. Most of this stuff happened when we were drunk. She'd never bring it up or talk it about it. One time I tried to and she ran away from it quick and didn't want to...
OP here, I've had the same exact thoughts about my gf. Sometimes i actually daydream myself to tears thinking about what I would say at her funeral and shit like that. I kind of wonder if it's a defense mechanism, like your brain is going through the worst case scenario to make sure you have a backup plan so you dont kill yourself or something. or, if we're just fucked up.
I often imagine I'm a superhuman, with strong armor, inhuman strength and speed, and a heavy sword. I would wear a helmet so no one knew my identity so I could kill, hurt, rob, steal, rape with absolute impunity. when the police come after me, I would either hop rooftops running at 55 mph or I'd just slice and dice any who challenged me
I just turned 18 a week ago and before that I had never drank alcohol. It's quite common for people to drink from about 16 where I'm from. I don't know what it's like in other countries but it's normal here. So at parties it always naturally fell upon me to look after that one person that got too drunk and was vomiting all over the place. I don't really get disgusted by anything to be honest so I don't care. After a few times of doing this however I started to feel the girls up who got too drunk and passed out when nobody else is around. Got a few pictures of some of their boobs as well but need could get vagoo. It passes the time when I have to clean the vomit/drool from their mouths. The next day they always thank me for looking after them and tell me I'm so nice
Nothing particularly edgy, but I constantly think about how much I fucking hate my friends and how I want them to leave me the fuck alone. However, I'm already pathetic socially and I feel like if I tried to cut off ties with them I'd just end up killing myself.
Also, I wish I had a dad lol. No, I'm not a nigger, just a son to a young mother.
hey just friendly advice from the other side (met up with a guy online while in a srs relationship with gf) --- don't do it bros. so much guilt and shame. either 1) commit to keeping that shit in your head, ideally replacing it with something else that wont tempt you to meet up with someone, or 2) get out of the relationship and do it without as much guilt (there still will be some, trust me, it's very shameful regardless of how you rationalize it)
>I asked to see her pierced tits etc
Her not being mad about you asking this and showing you, have you thought about that?
>She used to talk about a lot of inappropriate stuff and say sexual stuff cuz she was single for a year.
>I've given her full massages with everything off besides underwear
I need webm. Fuck I'll take a GIF. Gimme something. At least put it in your ass.
I genuinely have trouble looking at that pussy for more than a couple seconds.
>The thing is that islam is pretty much a hate filled religion.
It was relatively peaceful until the Mongolians came in and stomped the shit out of Babylon back in the 13th century. Much of their culture was lost and never really reached their peak since.
Thanks for that. Nice to hear that side of it. I don't think i've ever seen an honest opinion from that side of the story. Are you still with her now?
I feel like it's a lesson you have to learn the hard way, but i'll keep away for now. I believe you lol.
I really want my friend's business to fail. She failed out of college and always talks shit on how college is for followers and she's an artist. She makes meme and other trite t shirts and sells them on etsy. If she ends up making more money than me with my two degrees I just might kill myself.
Haven't done anything with her for awhile. Haven't gotten drunk with her for a while.
Couple weeks ago was her bday weekend, she came home drunk I went to talk with her cuz we always share our bad dreams said I had a bad one, she said aww come lay next to me, I did, she just talked to me and laid together for maybe an hour ended up falling asleep within that hour but that was before I touched her tits for prob 15 mins. She was breathing heavy maybe sleeping her nipples got hard, but that's not always a sign of being turned on... she then stopped my hand held it for a few mins then she got up to get water and I left.
Are you literally retarded?
I cba to search for anything right now but wasn't it Muhammed who killed a bunch of males and held their wives husband to rape them after forcing them watch the execution of their husbands (and sons?)
I hope for the apocalypse just so I can see everyone suffer. I'd like to feel special, as if I would be immune to the suffering or really "onto" something because of the enjoyment I'd get from, but at the end of the day I know I'm just another dime a dozen edgy shitbag who is as much of a human as the other humans he'd like to feel better than for hating.
I hate my life.
That sounds like an awful business model. Pretty sure if you majored in anything other than gender studies or african history, you'll make much more than her... at least with that business venture.
But most religions are shit and most people are just raised to like 'em because their parents did, and their parenta before. But I feel that Islam is getting more shit than it deserves. That doesn't mean I support extremists but 'cmon. Is there any religion that hasn't been missused to gain power and justify crime?
>If she ends up making more money than me with my two degrees I just might kill myself.
What are those degree in? Some bullshit, or moneymaker careers? If bullshit, how dare you have studied that?
Stream your an hero.
>hear that a friend had a break up
>text her and get in contact
>met & fucked twice within a week after her break up
>she went back to her ex after the 2nd week
>still texts me after 3 weeks
>always wants to see me and gets really happy about it
>also goes kinky sometimes
i dont know what to do
Over the course of history? No, of course not. Over the past 100 years? Islam is the only one that is really projecting this terrorist shit. But that hasn't been that bad until the taliban took over the middle east.
You're completely right.
>But I feel that Islam is getting more shit than it deserves.
Well it's obvious why that is, it's pretty much the only religion that's trying to destroy our first world lifestyle.
>Is there any religion that hasn't been missused to gain power and justify crime?
No idea. Buddhists seem pretty peaceful but again, cba to look anything up.
>are you still with her
No, I broke up with her later but for different reasons, because I couldn't live with the guilt and also didn't want to confess that I cheated in such a perverted way. i hate myself for doing it, but yet, over time I constantly find myself thinking about doing it again, and have. then I hate myself again and repeat. wouldn't really mind if I was just a fag and could have normal gay relationships but I have zero desire for anything romantic with a guy, it's just this perverted fetish to me that I dont see ever being able to integrate into a normal straight relationship
>Muhammed who killed a bunch
Yes. He and his followers did some pretty brutal things, but settled down after a bit and did things like laying the basis for modern mathematics, doing incredible architecture, etc... Europe didn't really catch up to them until the Renaissance.
I really want human beings to change. I want us to evolve beyond this horrible mentality of survival we have. I want more for the human race. I want us to transcend our pettiness and division based on superficial and trivial concerns born out of this needless survival instinct. I want us to create for the sake of creation and take advantage of this insane unlikelihood of even existing without it being so fucking horrible.
We have enough. We could all share and get along. Black, brown, white, purple, whatever. We should be more cooperative for one another if only to ensure the survival of the species, and maybe even thrive and explore the stars.
It deeply hurts me that I will never see us transcend this ugliness.
I completely understand that. I feel the same way. The thought of kissing a guy makes me queasy, but the thought of him bending me over and fucking me makes me horny. I'm not gay in the sense I could be happy in a relationship with a man, but it's such a constant perversion that I feel I can't be completely straight.
Such a predicament.
Yes but then the solution shouldn't be killing them because then they come back angry. Maybe the "world police" should build some schools rather than weapons then. The surronding world is actively abusing the middle east and not giving them a chance to progress.
Kill ISIS? Of course but help them create a stable society when you're done killing the ones gone Fubar.
Deep. But my sentiments exactly. Although i tell everyone this daily.
>We could all share and get along. Black, brown, white, purple, whatever.
I really wish humanity would go in the direction you described.
But well, muh merica is voting for this..
Are you trying to say there was a peroid of time during islamic warefare where it was justfied to rape their enmies? Because thats like the complete opposite of what is considered Jihad but oh well.
>The world would be much better off run by women.
Men make the best women. Nothing like a feminine body with a delish boiclit instead of a stankhole. Would love to marry a hottrap and adopt babbybois to raise happy traplet family and continue the race.
Gender is a social construct, and nothing is more masculine than topping a feminized man. BTW they give much better head.
>A lot of people argue it's not really a religion though.
I would argue that even atheism is a fucking religion.
>compulsive believe in not believing in a greater being
When you have shit like Cologne and Brussels happening, whether or not you WANT unity, it can't happen at the moment. If all the muslims coming in are raping your women, maybe a temporary halt of muslims coming in isn't a bad idea. Maybe, like he said, if we took a minute to figure out which ones are seriously looking for asylum and if we vetted them properly, we could bring unity. If we let anyone in and then we get attacked, it will only cause the divide to be greater.
I believe most religions are just a product of early human evolution trying to self discipline.
If you look at the laws that are in place in relgions the majority of it is about very praticale shit that matters to that certain culture/place where that religion is from. For example muslims don't eat pigs because ages ago travles would die super quikly because they wouldn't drain the blood propeply (we can now butcher and process the meat safely)
If you look at any holy texts a lot of it is just boring shit that has to do with living your life peacefully with others. This is due to the fact thats how humans succed the most. So i think subcounsly we develop these werid rituals and clubs to bring us closer together.
I want to fuck the freshman girl I called my friend's fuckbuddy. Only called her that to him is cause I wanted to duck her but she's a loser. Only redeeming qualities about her are she's a cheerleader and has some of the thickest thighs and best ass I've ever seen
It's hard and will take time but it the only direction that will make it better. Since the US has been bombing the middle east for so long it's gonna take more time.
Fuck man, I whole heartedly agree with you. Getting really sick of all the hate and people jamming sticks in to the wheel taking us forward. I'm not a hippie but some peace and love to get humanity forward would be really nice with todays events going on.
Yeah they defo spread their shit through violence but since Islam was running on an optmised version of the just war theory developed from chrsitains during Roman times they had various laws and shit about how to treat civies and shit. Like not to rape was one of em. Not to kill as well. Intrestingly UN sactions just war from Aquinas own theories of the just war theory. Im very very high right now sorry.
Anyone else fantasize about starting over? Start over as a kid again. Try to have the most fun as possible. Take care of my skin. Socialize as much as possible. Don't turn down when invited to go out. Actually ask girls out. Just not giving a fuck. I gave too many and now my life sucks.
Not the OP, but I mean come on, gender literally is a social construct...everything you come out of the womb with is final, hard biology, what you're told to do with yourself as a result, is what you're told to do with yourself as a result...sure you have different levels of things, hormones, whatever, between sexes, but those are rather insignificant big picture wise.
Religion is hard Annon. To atually follow all that shit you would be qouite a good person but its like, if everyone did their hwk and studied the recommend amount of time most people would get a's and b's and shit.
People can't be arsed or misintrepert or reinterpert the scriputre for their own needs. Honestly people don't take this shit seriously.
I feel it kinda pisses me of when christians say shit like "oh if you hate religion why do you keep talking about yours". Atheism is not a religion. I'm gonna stop saying I'm an atheist from now I go with the Not-Give-A-Shitinism.
I have a horrible memory from drug abuse and I want to kill myself.
I could have been a brilliant and prominent person but I wasted my best years getting high and trying to be cool. I hate my life and no one gives a shit.
I genuinely have an alcoholism problem and the past 8 years of solid drinking since my 14th birthday have contributed to it.
Yeah, I know. I'm starting to. I just feel like I missed out on so many things, especially during my teen years. Like car sex in some abandoned parking lot, skipping class to smoke weed, shit like that
That woud be great but with are own racist party in Sweden (yeah cuck-swede here) I feel that these easy solutions like: "Oh well let's just do double checks" are shortcuts to winning the people. If I can take our party SD as they are called. They say the want to control immigration and a no tolerance to racsim but then they applaude when the nazi party emerges in germany.
It would seem like a simple solution to just to checks but the ones with simple solutions are often the ones with other plans in mind.
I am starting to resent my parents. If they just fucked off a little bit more I would have turned out so much better.
I hate their hypocrisy. They like to think they're these laid back, super cool people, but what they're really about (and they're too stupid to know it) is sitting back and trying to get validation for their dumb fucking opinions at all costs, even if it comes to fucking up their children's sense of independence by trying to constantly tell them what to think by shaming them out of free thought and thinking for themselves. They don't give a shit about me... they just use me for their narcissism.
God damn I just wish I had had different parents sometimes. I don't even know how to be my own person at this point.
I've thought for a long time that i might be a pedophile. but everytime something irl remotely hints to a scenario i get reeeeally discusted, leaving me assured that this is not the case.
I now know it is porn... porn started as a "illegal field" for me, as for many, and because im smart, i dont like to depend on other ppl so relationships never happen.
Porn drove me further and further. I've jacked off to beheadings, child rape etc. and its all for a rush. I would never hurt. I could never tell
Yeah it's true that it's mostly people and not the actual religions. Take the "thou shalt not use gods name in vain". It's doesn't mean you can't say "oh my god" as a curse it means that you shouldn't to stupid shit and use religion as an excuse. That's my enterpertation atleast.
>I'm gonna stop saying I'm an atheist from now I go with the Not-Give-A-Shitinism.
Well I keep saying that I don't believe in anything, not any -ism.
>you fucking retard your not clever.
>your not clever
Is this a meme or is he actually retarded?
>because im smart, i dont like to depend on other
Those two things aren't mutually exclusive. My girlfriend isn't the most dependable person when it comes to getting shit done, but she's a great person and I love her. You can be in a relationship anyways bro.
Also, you just have to lay off the porn. Your urges will go away and you'll find normal porn/women turn you on. You don't need beheadings lol
But then christians go "BUT THEN YOU ARE RELIGIOUS!!!". You took my post way to fucking seriously though. Of course I'll say I'm an atheist to people who understands words but I feel like as soon as you put yourself in a category people judge you. I fucking hate that, that's all.
>resent my parents
>dumb fucking opinions
I don't look at all women as purely sexual objects and sometimes actually like to communicate with them because I like their softness and it's not a constant dicksizing contest.
They are a lot more pleasant to talk to even if you end up just kind of being agreeable with one another.
5 years ago during senior school i started stalking this grill in class. I watched her whenever i could see her. I followed her out of the school gates a couple of times and found where she was getting picked up from
After i learned her pattern i recorded her license plate number and route it takes as far as i could see it go. I then used the white pages for last names, narrowed the results to a local area and tracked down her house using the car she had been getting picked up from
I stole my brothers car, slept in front of her house and returned before sunrise. The next day i discovered the side gate was unlocked so i let myself in. The door was locked but i found a key in the verandah framing above the door, i walked inside and watched her sleep. I did this for a few nights until i realised what i was doing
I haven't done it since, and i deeply regret it, but i have never told anybody this because i dont want to be persecuted
I tend to find the hotter a chick is the dumber they are so during conversations and such i tend to stick with the 5 out of 10s as they seem to be above average intelligence or at least not superficial.
I'd like to think you are 95% normal.
I'm pretty sure most people have a level of anxiety that they are afraid to express.
I almost think it would be more of a sign of strength to express it than not, considering withholding out of anxiety just kind of plays into the whole idea that insecurity=weakness.
Anyone else hate having their photo taken? Some drunk people at work wanted to take a picture with me so they could show they had done some charity stuff. I refused and they genuinely freaked out as if im the biggest cunt in the world. Im not beta by any means and told them straight i dont want to but the couldnt understand it. Also i rarely look in the mirror. Im not a fat disgusting dude either. Go figure.
Same. I'm like dying (haha) to know what happens after death. I didn't really think about it until one of my closest friends passed away early last year, and just wonder what he might be doing if there is an afterlife.
You disappear. You are just energy. A collection of cells trying not to die. When you do you just rot and the energy is converted. Id like to think my energy will make something nice but it will probably just fertilize some soil