>tfw home alone on Thursday night
>everyone is out drinking with friends except for you
Fuck you, sir. I fucking despise anime. I gave this movie a fucking chance and now my heart aches because I put myself in the same fucking shoes. Now I'm fucking a lone. I lost the girl I loved and I won't settle for fat chicks. Fuck I want to settle but I can't. I can't settle. I wish I could have her back back but now she is about to have her second kid and shit. I'm just sitting here getting prepared for a job interview tomorrow. I'll have money in my pocket but what the fuck does that mean when you're alone? Lying to yourself that things are going to get better? Nah nigga you just got used to it. I would have never posted a single fucking thing in /b/ but then this fucking picture right here. This fucking movie. I forgot it even existed. But I remember now. Fuck fuck fuck fuck...
One more time, one more chance...
Seriously tho, what can a beta like me do about it? I already called two girls to see if they wanted to have drinks and both declined. Should I just end it?
Don't feel bad, OP. I pretty much live, day in, day out, waking up, going to work, coming home, and getting on my computer. the only useful thing I do with my time is make shitty music as a medium to ventilate the frustration i feel for how mundane and boring my life is and how lonely of a person i am.
Keep trying anon. There is at least a billion girls on the planet that look good. Keep trying.
holyfuck nigga that's quite good, what do you use ?
copped a 10/10 number today, we're getting to know eachother as we speak but the point is, don't give up bro, you could spend 5 years of solitude only to find a someone that's right for you or just dtf lol. It'll happen eventually, have some more confidence in your intentions too
And general loneliness/depression/>tfwnogf like the rest of us
How can an Anon stop being beta? I am very calculated and very shit at improvisation; if I don't expect a conversation and plan for possible responses I shit myself. I have a long story about fucking up with the girl of my dreams 2 times and I am trying not to go for the 3rd.
I appreciate the kind words from you guys, but comparatively it's quite amateur in my opinion, especially considering how much time I invest in making it...
And to answer the two anon's questions, I use I just fuck around with FL Studio and only have what's on my soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/whooutsmartswhom
I have the shittiest luck with friends
Travis: Arrested for meth
Dalton: Arrested for gta
conrad: Became hermit
Watson:Kicked out of house moved up north
Now there all gone guys and it seems every friend I make ends up going away just as quick.... But you wont go away /b/ros Right?
it's 517am over here and I have to go to work in 2hours
same I even plan when I go out somewhere I don't know, I check google streetview around so I know where to go so I don't have to ask my direction to anyone...
love you too
So I go to meps meet this fucking awesome bro, think "dam made a fucking friend maybe ill go through basic with him" He doesn't make it in the navy because of some stupid shit reason.
it only gets worse bro, i feel u in every single word. no matter which female i get with; none of them will ever be at her level. its been 12 years, sorry bad englando hope u make it tomorrow
Damn man, that sucks.
For the most part I just can't communicate well. Small talk and introductions are bad for me. The last close friend I had was toxic, and I let them stay around for 2 years before I quit that shit. After that it was hard to talk to people.
You're not missing out on anything but a bunch of drunks that just wasting a whole night acting like a bunch of fake, Mexican faggots who will wake up tomorrow with a shitty hangover, $80 less in their pockets and friends posting drunk pics on Facebook that nobody really gives a shit about.
I'm too scared to kill myself. I really hope I'll have a dream where I'm happy and I just won't ever wake up from it. I'll be gone to my peace. I'm tired of it all. College, job searching and just being in the bible belt. I want to forget her anon. I want to forget her so bad. I don't know how much longer I can take. I'm thinking I'll just go death by cop after my Grandma passes away so she won't have to deal with me.
Im fine with communication great in crowds though I feel as though I am Toxically and Abrasive the way friends disappear I am to the point where I dont even want to bother with "friends" at least in the traditional sense...
Like my father said...
>>Anon The only thing best friends are for is Eating your food and fucking your wife...
Ah well I dont have to worry about that with you guys and im fine with single serving friends... I am fine.
i saw you post your stuff before here. i always really liked this https://soundcloud.com/whooutsmartswhom/8-bits-of-blue
thanks for posting again and like the others said you should take more pride in your work it's pretty awesome!
I was friends with this girl. Seriously no attraction. But she is a slut and always tells me about all these guys she is banging, very explicitly. I always help her out. Again, no attraction so I don't think I'm really a beta orbiter. She's not that hot.
Finally she and I get dinner one night and she starts sobbing about her ex-boyfriend. i comfort her and we go back to her place and fall asleep together, maybe some light fondling but nothing major. because she has herpes (she's a slut) and i dont want to get it.
this week i'm talking to her
and she ignores me
doesn't want to talk about the sobbing and the spending the night
i get drunk
am going through some shit myself
she ignores me
finally i get super wasted and call her a half-breed bitch and hope she kills herself
now im blocked on facebook and we dont talk
analyze my aspbergers life anons
i saw my crush today she and i havent been very close with her like were. we got close to dating but she started seeing other guys etc.
she and i are talking and outta no where she says
"i wanna hangout with you this summer"
well ive been trying to go on a single fucking date with her since 1 yr ago almost exactly.
whats the best approach? any suggestions? should i bother now
I hope so, anon. I hope you're cool with that.
I can't help the feeling of wanting friends. Not a bunch of people I just chat with, just a small group of close people that will make me feel like second home. Another fam.
It's hard doing that when you think that everyone is out to stab you in the back or use you, or forget about you in a week's worth of time.
Man, I'm beta as fuck right now.
Life is a lie, they say its about surviving but you can't survive when you're already dead on the inside.
>shit soaked life anon here
Love you /b/ros
Well, you seem nice, I hope you get through whatever is going on for you. I wouldn't worry about her, it's not your fault and you shouldn't feel responsible for the friendship breaking.
Cheers OP, we have friends in strange places.
>try drinking for Mexican holiday at bar.
>I know everyone honestly. Go there a lot.
>realize I'm not really friends with these people as I have nothing in my mind to talk with them about.
>come home and drink with OP
it's a good day to be alive OP.
Just because you don't have something to say to them doesn't mean you're not friends. Though also being friends here and deciding to tonight drink with us is also fine, cheers anon.
>TFW behind by abput three weeks at work and so burnt out that I just can't catch up
>TFW still partially dependent on abusive parents, i.e. my phone and car
>TFW people who didn't try in school or life at all have independence and solid jobs while I sincerely tried and have nothing
I've gotten bad luck where most people I know have gotten good luck. I was so depressed a couple weeks ago tjat I couldn't even figure out how to wash my dishes. Seemed impossible.
And my parents taught me all this stuff about how to eat that was so unhealthy. Trying to teach myself to cook before my body is permanently ruined.
my advice: move on.
to be honest, i doubt you can salvage it. shit sucks, but eventually you won't even think of her. which, of course, is a cliche, but not untrue. just try to learn from your mistakes for next time.
in the meantime: exercise, eat healthy, spend time with friends, try to do nice things for people. usually makes me feel a little better, anyways.
im here for you man, i feel your pain
there is such a thing as luck
and some people get it
some people don't and have to make do
keep your fuckin' head up
life is total war and you're a damn fine soldier anon. a damn fine soldier.
Well, as the worst that happened was you called her names, I wouldn't be too worried about your anger.
Just remember that though you want to help and make every situation good you're not beholden to it, it's in no way selfish for you to realise that you're a person too and the upset and stress of trying to repair some things on yourself is not worth the outcome, if even there is a possibility of repair.
Also, don't just think you are nice, know you are, people who aren't don't either bother doing as much help as you seemed to, nor be upset by the current situation. Though the later you can move on from, just remember that it's okay to feel upset about it without having to let it consume you.
Friendship doesn't need to be anything, which whilst that makes it easy to doubt if you count as a friend to others, generally you're going to be right if you go with "do they count as friends to me?" and apply it as vice versa.
I actually just got separated from the Navy when I was three days from graduating boot camp because of "failure to adjust".
That was my last plan for how I was going to make a halfway decent life for myself and that's all gone now.
He kissed me and I'm in love now, again, with my child hood love. He already has a relationship, and I'm exiting mine, but I have to convince him to make me into more than a very quiet friend with benefits.
I can't quite explain it, /b/, but every time he has entered my life over the past 10 years, he has transitioned my life into a better state, but every time I gave him a chance, he got nervous and flaked over and over again.
We're adults now. I'm not playing games this time, and it doesn't seem like he is either, but I'm walking on thin ice, all around.
What the fuck am I doing.
>shit soaked life anon here.
So do I /b/ro, so do I. Sure we are talking about two different people, the feeling remains the same. I don't know your extent, but mine was my first love.
keep yourself guarded, keep your armor on
it sounds like he is toxic to you in the end
like any good drug
don't get addicted again
or do...that's what addicts always say, right? "This time it will be different."
I advice some of the people here to reach out for some people. Or if you are imcapable, then there is some support groups online. Try to talk with people with a face for once.
We've never had a chance though, it was always bad timing. He doesn't care about the other girl or her feelings at this point, and she's apparently so vanilla that she (20) won't even wear a thong.
My armor is highly guarded, but I've never been held so lovingly, treated unselfishly. He's kind and courteous... It's almost strange because I'm used to datimg assholes.
Thanks man. I'm trying to wait for a day she's not here and get them out. It's just the anxiety until than. She gave me a new bed and it's still not on my to and I'm afraid she will say freak and demanding to help me put it in. Then I'm homeless probably.
Drinking with friends was never that fun to begin with. Everyone just tries to hog the spotlight and there's always a subtle animosity permeating the entire event.
I just hate that I get lonely as a byproduct on understimulation, but I hate the aggravating complexities of human interaction moreso.
Also currently bummed that a girl who's genuinely into me I have zero attraction towards and the girl I'm into has zero attraction towards me.
1) if he wanted you before, he probably would've made time.
2) not feeling for the other girl does not imply that he has feelings for you.
3) unrelated, but some of the kinkiest girls i've ever met never wore thongs.
4) it is possible to treat people lovingly and unselfishly without being in love with them.
5) you just admitted to being used to dating assholes. how do you know you don't just like being treated like a human for once?
i'm not going to say rule out the possibility entirely that things will work with this guy, but heed the advice of this anon: >>682882027
Feels from Portugal
If you were going to go "Gus Van Sant" on a movie, and remake it shot-for-shot, beat-for-beat (unauthorized, mind you) - would you go for.... 1985's 'Secret Admirer'? Also, would you then dare say that this remake is not a remake, but an original idea of yours, and think you can get away with saying that even though the movie that you plagiarized is available on YouTube in its entirety, for free? Meet Puerto Rico's Eduardo "Transfor" Ortiz and his 'baby' (as he called it): the mercilessly mocked, Twitter-hashtag inspiring ( #peliculasdeTransfor ), Spanish-language monstrosity known as 'Vasos de papel'
Lies. You just don't feel confortable with your friends.
Humans are social animal
Got some other honey nut feelios, tho
Well, you're here for a reason (as in this thread), you don't have to want the same kind of interaction as is "normal" but I'm sure you can find some happier path than loneliness or being annoyed by drunken friends. Just focus on what you like about people, and what you like doing, and work from there.
>shit soaked life anon still lurking
Here you go.
>tfw browsing /b/ same as last birthday
But statistic says that you possibly aren't one. Just try to either find a new group of friend you feel more comfortable with, or try engage your friends in other activities othher then drinking
>i'm not playing games
Our life has no purpose other than being an extralarge experiment with many random events, in other words a game. Love is basicaly a game in the main game wich will affect the main game aka life.Be aware of that, you are not adults, you are players who are starting to understand game rules in other words you're now playing to win the mini game inside the game so you're walking on thin ice cause you have to win to get advantages in the main game.
You are playing, you just enterred a stage of tryharding,every game, every experiment has its end we are all players with a timer on our head trying to pushthe experiment as far as we can, cause as long as we remember we are just part of this game wich is all for us, we are addicted to love, living, happiness sadness etc... addicted to the game
i've been there dude
it gets better
the withdrawals go away. you WILL sleep again you WILL feel normal again
also consider an antidepressant, it did wonders for me
fuck benzo's, never touching that shit again
>fucking terrified for my life
don't be, life is meaningless,just an experiment on a large scale, just play along with us & quit the table when you're done, it's all just a game.
definitely don't an hero
that shit goes away with time
give it a good year
also...build your happiness by yourself. you don't need a girl to make you happy. you need mental clarity and purpose and a healthy life
Past few years I've just felt used, unappreciated, stepped on and borderline hated and now whenever someone tells me they care my first thought is they don't give a fuck and I'm always right. Every time someone tells me what they're studying and what they want to be I just wonder when the day will come when the last person who ever heard of them has died and all their accomplishments and dreams are erased. I'm sick of living and at least I wouldn't feel anything if I die and if I do it certainly won't be regret.
Appreciate it man, i really do. i've been trying to taper down but i've nearly ran out of bars so i'm fucking scared dude. I've been smoking alot of weed that helps alot but im also pretty much out of weed too. Can very much agree with your last statement, this shit is horrible. How long was you on them and did you have any seizures?
i was on them for a year, no seizures, i was rapidly detoxed inpatient 5 days with ativan and BP medicine, after that had some depersonalization for a month but got on an SSRI and was fine
point is, shit will be better given time.
Every life has a minimum of three loves.
The first one fucks you up. This is so that you learn what pain feels like, and how to defend yourself.
The second one you fuck up. So that you know what not to do in a relationship.
The third one works. You get it right.
There's no way of knowing which love is which until you look back on it.
There might be 5 relationships that you fuck up. There might be 7 relationships that fuck you up.
They might happen years apart.
They might happen years from now.
You might want to give up because you're tired of being hurt.
But some day.
Some day you find that love that works.
It's just a matter of holding on.
Ah I see. i've been on xans for about 2 years now and had my first seizure like 3 weeks ago. Was honestly one of the worst things ive ever gone through I won't lie. i'm too scared to tell anyone or go to an ER. Thank you again for sharing and the kind words I really do hope I get through this shit.
Sorry man it's hard to get started without support. I recently called a mate that I hadn't spoken to for a couple years and he has supported me more than anyone else. He let me live with him, got me a job at his company, and now I moved out three months ago into a studio. His place was way nicer but it's awesome to invite HIM over for a beer.
You got this shit /b/rother. Just stick to the course. I went to detox because I was afraid of the withdrawals. Think about that because it was awesome. It's way easier and you get a better facility if you admit yourself. In a lot of places its free. It was like a vacation honestly. But the benzo and opiate addicts were annoying. So it may be harder for you.
man dying is like living, meaningless, we will all lose to life so who cares if you are 1st or last to lose? you lose anyways and there is no way to change that cause we only exist cause "we live", in other words, we only exist in the game and to transcend taht we would have to defeat life & death at the same time, destroying the way the game makes us lose (death) & get out of the game (destroy life). Surely we can find ways of staying in the game (life) forever but we will never escape it, we are the game and a game where you can't win or lose is simply not fun, so let's try things before we lose so that our game was at least exciting and worth playing since we can't play to win.
I'm friends wother her at school
>Inb4 underage b&
I'm 17, but so was thomas chatterton so fuck all of you.
the girl I love is a semi-shy 18yo senior girl and a lot of people say she's not that pretty but I think she's a goddess. I talk to her some but not as much as a truly should
Yeah they really are a wakeup call. I'm just afraid of being judged and shit, also if my parents found out it would break their heart and i couldn't handle that. I'll definitely keep it in mind though if worst comes to worst. Thank you again for supporting me anon I don't really have many people to speak to about this so I appreciate it fam.
I've known her for a solid 2 fucking years in high school, and she hasn't had one single fucking recognizable boyfriend. I've passed through rivers of pussy only to see that she's dry on the shore. she might be lesbian tho
addict in recovery here (though my drugs of choice were psychedelics, weed, and alcohol primarily).
you're going to have to go through some form of embarrassment, judgment, basically just pain to get clean. if you tell people, though, then they can help you. not a big fan of AA, personally, but the idea of getting a sponsor is good. i'm too lazy to go look up actual articles on this, but it's pretty much common knowledge in psychology that a strong social support system is crucial to recovery.
The most I did in one day was like 20mg, I eat them up like candy dude. It varies alot daily, my tolerance is super weird but after the seizure i've been trying my hardest to get off them.
i really hate to sound like a dick, but you can't do it yourself
you need a doctor and you need a regimen of daily tapering with inpatient
and then social support and lifestyle changes
god i wish getting clean wasn't such a FUCKING BITCH
but it is
i've been right where you are minus the seizure, keep your head up soldier
>mfw you didn't read it
I seriously appreciate everything you anons are saying, got me tearing up a little. I'll take your guys advice and get myself into inpatient asap. I'm not sure how ill break it to my family but I guess its what has to be done. Man I have super bad shakes writing this, thank you anons sending love your guys way.
Ive posted my story before but not much has changed I need some more advise
>Girl friend killed herself 2 years ago
>was about to propose
>was madly in love
>havent done much at all in two years
>cried myself to sleep every night for two years
>could go into more detail if you want
Since I told /b/ my story things have changed in my life a little
>talked to family for first time in two years
>got a job minimum wage but still a job
>am social (just watching hockey games at bars with random people, no friends)
>still want to kill myself and join her
>still hate life
>still cry myself to sleep
>star wars day
>son is 8 months old
>can't wait to introduce him to my favorite things, hope he likes them too
>want to get him something to commemorate his first one
>pull it out of the bag and he lights up
>reaches right for Chewie, wants to hug him, hold him, laughs like crazy when I make the noises and move the arms
>is even good about not putting him in his mouth (impressive... most impressive)
>having so much fun
>so many hugs, kisses, burning into my brain
>my hour is up
>get in car to go "home"
>only 167 hours until I get to see him again
Reminds me of the time I decided to throw my first birthday party
>Was turning 18
>Decided to invite all of my close friends for a party to celebrate and as a last get together before we head off to college (birthday being in July)
>"Sorry anon that I couldn't make it, but hope you have a great day."
>"Don't worry 'bout it, and thanks for calling."
>Mother felt bad so she invited some cousins that I used to hang with to keep me company for the day
>Pushed through the day with a smile
>Cried myself to sleep later that night
no one has txt'd me for the past week and half
my 'friends' and i were suppose to go see bridget powers (houston - moments strip club), but they never txt'd me back.
civil war came out yesterday and still nothing
got center isle, center seat. then black couple sits next to me. feels rising.
previews almost over. bladder decides 'fuck your feels bitch'.
don't want to lose the best thing i have going for me (which is best seat and possibly the movie that will raise my spirits)
turn to female and ask. 'mind if you watch my seat'
she smiles, 'no prob'
go to bathroom.
as i slowly shuffle to my seat, her date takes out phone to illuminate my path.
back in seat and watch movie.
no hollering, no whoop whoop.
nice movie experience.
as movie ends and they're about to leave, tell them that there's 2 after credit scenes. they smile and sit down.
come back home.
WHY FEEL ANYTHING LESS THAN GREATESS OP
It's is the best way dude. Your going to cry when you tell them how you fucked up. But own it and you won't be judged too harshly. They may even support you and inpatient is a great thing. Just ignore the dicks and if you smoke bring a carton and don't give a single fucking one away.
It could have been a lot worse. I've been extremely lucky in many ways. I've made some horrible decisions. I should stop making bad decisions. I feel sorry for myself, but plenty of people in the world and all through out history have had shitty educations and lived with crooked, propaganda spewing governments.
idk what but this picture makes me feel awkward, like nostalgia about someone I dont even know but I really want to know her so bad. feels like a fantasy i can even imagine about a great girl I wont ever meet. Interesting picture
I've never told anyone I know in person about her killing herself only /b/ so maybe telling a theorpist would help even if they're only listening cause of my money, maybe I can get meds out of it too
you can do it! for what it's worth, my parents were obviously pretty upset and disappointed when they found out i was taking drugs (they're devout mormons, so like, when i say pretty upset...you get the picture), but they also saw that i was hurting and they desperately wanted to help. it actually brought us much closer together in the long run.
Please don't resort to meds anon, it will bring nothing but more trouble I can assure you. Seeing a therapist would be a good idea yes, if youve never told anyone it will be especially good because you can get everything off your chest.
Robin Williams' death was the first celebrity death that truly fucked with me. You'd always hear comics make jokes about depression to lighten the mood with dark humour. I took comfort in it knowing that I could eventually come to terms with my own depression, have kids, a family and be an all around funny guy that people say I am. Then he killed himself and I realized it doesn't get any better. You can only hope to tolerate it long enough. Here I am, drinking alone. I just finished my degree and I'm unemployed. Both of my parents, never married and no longer seeing each other, are going through financial difficulty. They did everything they could to make sure I made it through school and university. Now, here I am. Educated, but still broke and depressed, unable to help them out the way they have helped me for 24 years. I feel like a failure.
>At my job there is a girl that I think is into me
>she not as good looking but my standards are so low at this point
>she has the same name
I don't know if I could ever love again but do you think it's worth it to try
I'm just so scared she'll kill herself too
Just check it out man. Probably saved my life. Was in a really bad place where I would just sit there holding an unloaded gun just thinking. Never ever hold a loaded gun when in doubt is what she taught me. It really helped man just knowing that I have the power but not the means. And I just never went and got ammo for some reason.
It's sobering when you make the realization that nothing makes you happy anymore. Some days are better than others, but when you've forgotten what happiness feels like or maybe never knew what it felt like it's a damn empty feeling.
Just been listening to this on repeat for the last hour or so.
Seriously bros is there even reason to try,
I am 20 yo, kissless virgin I wouldnt even say that I am ugly, I just cant be bothered with all the bullshit you have to up yo know people after trying for so long and always getting the shitty end of things. Also I have this fucking obssession over this girl for like 5 years now and I can't forget her no matter how much I try.
My Mother see me as a burden she is always saying how much she sacrifices for me to just fuck thigns up even though I try my fucking hardest, I cant recall a single compliment she made for me, wheres she keeps sucking my fuckign weeb retarded brother's dick because he wont shutup abhout how hard it is to do ANYTHING and I mean it he wont lift a finger to do shit even if its benefuicial for him, then she goes about how she's worried since he mentioned depression recently, guess what you fuckign cunt I'vbe been dealing with this shit since highschool. fuc k you you dont even work, you ubgrateful cunt.
Then there's university where no matter how fucking hard I study I cant seen to be able to score on tests, I know the subjects but I just seen to screw up during the exams. I dont even know why I am here there's nothing I want to do, nithing I find interesting.
Ans guess fucking what I guess since I failed not only as a man but as a human I've been feeling like a trans for soem years.
Come on tell me one reason to not an hero
Similar situation here except that i told her how i felt i told her everything and she mocked about me and told me to grow up that there's worst things in life than being heartbroken by a girl and to move on maybe she's right but i still feel the same way i still love her and always will
My current gf has been paying more attention to her friends and her recreational sports than me lately. I would get into her sports, but they're really not for me. We haven't had a good night out in a long while. She's been holding back physically as well. At this point, I feel somewhat insecure about the future of our relationship. We're about to hit one of those year anniversaries and I don't want to be that guy that break up with a girl on their anniversary. There's another girl who's made me feel nothing but good. I know she's into me, and I don't know how I really feel about her. I haven't been in a negative situation with her yet, and I'm afraid she'll be really messed up when she's mad or upset. She knows about current gf, but gf doesn't know her. It's not like I'm evaluating my options just yet, but I don't know how to carry on with this mute, physically lacking, emotionless relationship, nor do I know how I could start fixing it.
My fucking sides are blasting off into the stratosphere
Happy /b/irthday /b/ro, if it was my birthday there's no place I'd rather be than with all of these faggots in YLYL and feels threads since most of my friends ditched me out of college. Stay strong man, you always have anons there for you.
I feel similar anon. Kissless virgin who can't be bothered to even try to enter a relationship. I want one, but it just seems like too much work. I really don't trust people either. Maybe I get too invested, or my expectations are too high of the other person.
I'm just tired of people letting me down. I do my best not to let others down and do the best I can, but I don't ever expect anyone else to do the same.
My cynicism of people has kept me from forming relationships, but I find when I'm cynical I'm more often than not correct.
It's a vicious cycle, but I just can't kid myself into thinking people are anything else but selfish.
In my opinion social media has destroyed a large part of your generation.
Therapy could help, but you have to reach out to people. Also while I think the media is convincing people they have trans issues a therapist will also help with your understanding of that
Well, I am out drinking with friends. But it's a friends birthday and this is a rare situation. Normally I just isolate myself because I don't like being around large groups of people and having to be social. Not many feels to be had, but I guess it's sort of sad that I'm 29 years old and I'd rather spend my time alone sleeping all day or drinking by myself.
I have lived my entire life isolated from normies. I have been at home every thursday and friday and saturday since forever. I notice it when i talk to normies at work. As they mouthbreathe through the plot of the scifi novel they are wrighting i actually have intelligent questions about intelligent scifi writers writers who created the genere and they have no idea about what im saying. The whole time they were out nailing retarded girls with coot diseases i was putting interesting and subtle stuff about art, music and science into my brain. Get rekt normies.
Being in your 20s without a GF is completely normal. Intimacy vs Isolation. You have to put aside your vain notions about beauty and seek out someone that you can open to otherwise you will always feel lonely.
one more thing I used to have this perception that everyone out drinking is doing something right well I'm doing something wrong. This this mindset messed with me for a long time when in reality I just had to seek out others that didn't want to getshitfaced drunk Thursday-Saturday. I completely stopped using social media and just focused on myself for a while. The bar scene is a waste of time and you people will soon mature out of it and realize just how empty it is
>bf is always busy
>too busy for sex, romance, anything that doesn't involve work
>literally just get to see him after work play vidya games
>too wrapped up in games to even want to touch me or acknowledge me
>drink and go to bed before him
>plan days in advance to go on a date night
>the night before he says he has plans to go golfing with cousin
>I remind him about us so he cancels
>talk about how excited I am for over 24hrs prior to date
>the day of he picks me up and we drive to Canadian tire to get batteries (okay?)
>ask him about date after
>mfw he fucking non chalantly cancels the very last fucking second
>we go to his cousins house so they can play vidya and I sit on porch and drink
>be today and go work in a restaurant (kitchen staff)
>been taste testing and nibbling food all day
>get home and that dumb fuck asks if I wanted to go to dinner on a whim
>been nibbling foods all day, too full
>wished he would've told me sooner and I would've tried to avoid eating
>now drunk and miserable
>I just want some romance
I love this guy (or I did, I think) but I swear he is an absolute fucking idiot. I need to get laid.