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My story is as follows
>be me, finally touch my first pussy.
>instantly in love
>live with this girl for over a decade, she cooks for me, cleans for me, even let me suck her tits every now and then
>graduation, "hey anon, I think it's time you move on with your life. Don't you have any ambition? I feel like I'm holding you back."
>no, please why are you doing this
>a few years pass and we don't see eachother very often
>holidays sometimes she comes by around Christmas etc.
>find her phone during one of her visits with my family and realize she's texting a bunch of guys
>why am I jealous, we haven't been together in years
>ask her about it
>learn she's been fucking the same guy for behind my back for nearly 30 years
Fuck you dad, you took everything from me.
So what's got you bros feeling down tonight?
I'm here if anyone wants to talk. I can add you on Skype or Steam.
STILL LOOKIN FOR PEOPLE FOR KIK CHAT
PLDTRYP
everyone needs someone even if its just a friend, better to have someone who understands what you go through than people who will never know
>>681765628
She was cheating on you with your dad?
>>681765760
Don't have either one, but we can talk here, what's on your mind?
>>681765886
She was his mom you autistic illiterate.
"shit soaked life anon" here from last thread.
Believe it or not, I always debated with myself of commencing a dump of the nudes I have of her, but I'm not the vengeful type. Thanks for sharing thoughts.
She's the main reasons I happy but at the same time the main reasons I am sad
>>681766128
Don't be a selfish prick you shit soaked sissy. Share the wins, or forever be alone in your despair.
Is worse to being sad or don't feel anything at all?
Is it even worth it? Any of it?
>>681766236
Shut your bagel hole.
>>681765974
Nothin much, just making beats on adderall. You?
>>681766367
I'd rather experience the latter. Life would be so much easier, don't you think?
>tfw you occasionally have dreams about having a perfect qt gf
I wake up sad and my day is ruined
>>681765886
Ahh I see, a friend of mind recently found out his wife had been cheating on him with his dad and his "son" is actually his brother l, guess I had that on the mind.
No feels to share, got a new job, made some new friends and things are actually going semi ok in my life right now. I will drink a beer for my /b/ros though.
Cheers and keep on keeping on anons.
>>681766473
Someone's got pastry issues. I've got a Danish sausage for you if you're down for some brown town throw downs
>>681766157
What's her name? What happened?
>>681766527
Nope, just me fucking my mom and finding out she was cheating with dad. American Classic.
>>681766367
Only speaking for myself of course, I'd trade in both my happiness and sadness for a complete feeling of utter apathy. I don't want to feel anything for anyone, not even myself. I want to be completely emotionless and live my life as robotic as possible.
>>681766484
Actually crashing after a 2 day adderal binge, smoking some weed. You make beats often?
Are women cheating trash who love chads or are we all just pathetic entitled betas?
>>681766587
Good to hear man, stay optimistic.
>>681766850
I have this idea that foreign women who are rich in culture are far more superior than any girl from the US. Perhaps the same might be said where you live.
>>681766803
Yup. I think it's a fun way to relieve stress. I took some pills for schoolwork, but fuck it. What's 2 days like on this shit?
>>681766515
and actually is pretty easier,
i'm honest with the other people even if that mean saying thing they don't like it,
I don't feel alone and i don't feel in company,
and the best part is i only feel fear for one thing (that thing is a secret)
>>681766687
You ever meet another woman who you felt the same about?
>>681766605
I don't like sausages, you jerky faced bagel.
>>681766612
Her name? Not important for you.
It' that her smile helps me to get though the day. But the fact that she doesn't smile at me is killing me
>>681767077
California, so yes, probably. I desperately want to believe that the neckbeards are just salty and that it's only a handful of "trashy" girls who like being treated like shit by idiots, but I have difficulty finding many real life counter examples.
Nice dub dubs, by the way
>>681767079
Not bad, eventually you do get to the point where all that's left is the insomnia. I'm not a huge fan, but it keeps me off the meth.
>>681767240
Eh. Love my wife, but I don't have the same level of hate in my heart for her as I do my mom. I need to get this hate fuck out of my system, bc I feel it's tearing me apart.
>>681766236
Not in a feels thread.
>>681767336
God dammit. Are you a femanon? If not I'm getting gayer or something bc the way you're talking to me right now is doing something pretty impressive to my dick area.
>>681767594
I'm a dude. I don't look the slightest thing like a girl.
>>681767146
What are you afraid of man? I've suppressed my emotions before and it didn't work out in the long run.
>>681765516
That one hurt.
>>681767805
>>681767470
I have family in California and hear a lot that California girls are extremely superficial and mainstream into their own ways. I'm sure not all of them are like that, but I feel like you should move to a different area of the US to experience a better life elsewhere.
>>681767836
>>681767512
Hey at least you understand what the issue is. That's always the first step in this shit. You got any plans to try to help it?
>>681767895
Good night /b/ros. Thanks for the feels threads.
if any anon wants to talk, fuckmethemonster said on kik
i'll help you vent, give you advice, talk, anything if you want to contact me
we can keep a friendship or just chat once, i don't mind
>>681767934
anyone got any more images about relationship feels?
>>681767981
Peace out brother.
>>681767594
Kek, you're such a sausage.
feels thread just when it's needed. evening /b/oys.
>>681768124
Hello, lad
>>681767484
Maybe someday I'll try it. I feel like adderall helps better than a therapist.
That's not a good sign.
>>681767079
What type of school you in?
>>681768190
opportunities to meet girls are not showing up for me.
Id really like to have a gf at some point in my life, and waiting to meet the right person just isnt happening.
where can I meet chicks?
>>681767869
Gratias tibi, amice. Have a good one
>>681768215
And what am I supposed to say
>>681767720
I'm afraid of the person who turned me into a hollow person (nothing about love)
>>681768278
tinder. i've had lots of success with it, plus it's confidence booster on a daily basis.
>>681768278
Bar, club, any social gathering of a nightlife that includes alcohol. Extroverts love to party. I wish I was one of them.
I really need these kinds of pics right now guys if anyone has any...
>>681768203
High School.
inb4 underage Im 18
>>681768198
Drugs helped me much more than any therapist. I'll never condone them though. I lost my best friend to that shit and nearly my life.
No therapist can help you, only you can. They can tell you what to do all day, but until you are willing to put in the neccissary effort, it won't help.
>>681768565
How do you acne?
I am sad because I don't have a job I can't a job because I am not looking... Q.Q
When I do my failure of a resume prevents me since I have no experience or since I am not coming from a job in recent years.
I am a worthless piece of shit in that sense and I will drink to that. Probably will lose my girlfriend in the coming year because of it, just gonna pick bottles when I can to drink and eat.
Hopefully fix up my resume and get a job soon too so I am not such a failure at 22.
>>681768695
You're 22 and you're worried that you'll never find a job? You got a whole lot of growing up to do, son.
>>681768565
Her name?
So can we all agree that bagels are the inferior pastry?
It'll make my day complete.
>>681768675
The only drugs I do are adderall and I smoke weed occasionally. Never done anything harder than that. Fuck this petty high school drama though
The sun's gone dim and the skies have turned black
Coz I loved her and she didn't love back
>>681768695
Nothing you can do about your past failures except learn from them. You always know what you need to do, you just don't do it.
>>681768849
Yeah I am a man child, I just gotta stop being this.
>>681769028
>reads the words on the image
Actually, my niece is always that happy to see me.
>>681768941
Inferior compared to what?
>>681769153
My penis?
>>681768941
yes anon bagels are inferior
>>681768881
hurts too much to mention it.
>>681769153
Compared to other pastries.
>>681768989
What's been going on?
>>681769232
Awww thank you, you just made my day. <3
the doctor called me sick
i said tru
>>681769233
What happened with her?
>>681769257
So I live in a pretty big city with lots of little neighborhoods in it. I was friends with this big group of people but in high school everyone kinda split up to either go smoke weed or become an SJW, so I'm kinda stuck in the middle of that.
>>681769028
The song played in my head as I was Reading
like most everybody else, my life's a fucking mess, but it's the only one i've got. so here we are.
>>681769392
all good anon
>>681769446
I guess the real question is which do you prefer, or would you rather do something else entirely? You've got to have friends but some friendships aren't worth getting into a situation you don't feel comfortable. There's always more people out there.
>>681769478
I broke a lot of girls hearts, but I had mine broke in return. Call it karma or what you will, I know how it feels. I don't know why I end up rejecting girls after a first date or stop calling them. I think I feel like I deserve more, but no one can really fill in that empty void inside of me. I'm all alone no matter who I'm with.
>>681769423
What do you mean by sick?
>>681769996
he saw my sick sk8r moves
>>681765886
Nigga...
>>681769927
Everyone here is pretty much the same, sadly. I usually hang out with the stoners because the SJWs are annoying.
>>681770095
You show him that sick Ollie?
>>681769758
That's the spirit, just try to make the best of a messy situation and hope things start getting better, :)
>>681770285
hell yeah bro i sure did
>>681770265
Honestly don't really know what a SJW is. I was all about that stoner life when I was 18.
>>681770371
they won't, unfortunately. regardless of my emotional state, my health and body'll continue to slowly deteriorate before they should.
>>681770529
An SJW is one of those over sensitive fat tumblr feminist things.
>>681769981
Gotta stop worrying about shit in the past. Shit happens, learn from it. Keep looking, there's a lot of girls out there.
>>681770645
Is it because of drugs, if you don't mind me asking?
>>681770705
Ya l, I can't see that being a good time. What's your plan after highschool? Shit changes fast, so don't get too worried about your current situation.
>>681770803
no, several health conditions. joints are fucking and nerves are fucked. OCD doing a good job on the rest. drugs are pretty much the only thing getting me out of bed. 23 going on 60.
>>681770645
What's the problem?
>>681771044
joints are fucked*. ha.
>>681771044
Sounds rough brother. Do you have a job?
>>681770968
Music shit
>>681771044
Awww i'm sorry to hear that, I really hope you start feeling better. But in the meantime try to smile and find something else to get out of bed for instead of drugs. <3 <3
I'm rooting for you. :)
>Gives internet hug
>>681771433
it's alright, i shouldn't bitch too much. life could be worse. i do my best to torpedo my shit, pushing away girlfriends and all that cliche garbage.
yep. i'm a journalist. really passionate about it, but very demanding job in a tenuous industry.
>>681771433
I live in mortal fucking fear that this is going to be me and my son when he's older. Fuck.
do y'all ever feel like your life is just hurtling toward a brick wall? you're not sure what's going to happen when you hit it, but you know it's going to happen, sure as shit, the wall's waiting.
>>681771470
Like a band or what?
>>681772290
All of it, production, performance, recording.
Hey guys. How's ya'lls late night going? Can any of yall spare me some advice? I had asked out a girl I had some interest in with the help of my bros, mainly so I could get to know her better but she flat out didn't respond after. I pushed it to the side and went after another for the same reason. Get to know her. She ignored me too. Here's the convo of the 2nd. What did I do wrong?
>>681772346
What type of music?
>>681772383
need more context than that, bro. but just those few texts make it seem already like you're more invested than she is.
more importantly though, and this is a cliche so im sorry, but don't fuck with people who blow you off like that.
>>681772546
What more do you want man? I'll provide it, just tell me.
>>681772653
how long were you talking before you asked her out, who seemed to be driving the conversations, how'd you meet her, how well do you know her, etc.
>Have crush on girl in 6th grade
>We hung out all the time since 2nd grade
>She gets killed by drunk driver one night
>Devastated for years, believe she was the girl I was going to be with forever
>Every girl I met since then I always compare them to her at some point
>13 years later I am still not over it
>>681772762
The first one? Pretty much the entire year but both of us have gotten busy (her with school and me with both football and school, in college) so haven't seen each other too often the past month or so. It would be about even conversation wise.
2nd, little over a month. She's always smiled at me and would often look my way. She's very shy and introverted, so I would drive the conversation. It's almost the end of school and finals so I felt like it would be good to end on a good note with her and spark something.
>>681772827
Honestly bro, you have no idea what would have happend. It probably would t have worked out ,and it definitely wouldn't live up to he standard in your head. You are obsessed with the idea of what you could have had, it's never going to happen, got to move on. Good luck.
>>681773033
1st convo btw.
>>681772461
I like old school hip hop, psych rock, bebop jazz, and funk. Pretty much anything that isnt top 40.
>>681768941
Yeah, pretty much.
>>681773033
i'm not an expert, to be clear. in general, though, unless you're on some tinder shit, i'd try to ask a girl out in person.
having only seen like snapshots of this, to me it seems like emma isn't in to you. i dunno why, i've only seen what you showed. but 24+ hours not replying to that kind of text seems to be a dead giveaway. judging by that one screenshot, maybe being too earnest? she could also be really busy, but...
which leads me to this: you asked two different girls out in the span of 5ish days. it seems more like you want a girlfriend/slam piece than either of these specific girls. yeah? not trying to shit on you, bro. but the line between being earnest and romantically desperate is really thin and easily perceptible. in any case, fuck it, you're single and in college. life is pretty dope.
>>681765751
It's okay anon they forgive you
>>681773064
best advice, 10/10
>>681773705
The reason I went after the second was so I don't get too caught up over the 1st, a fuck it kinda move, and yeah, I maybe should have tried in person. I'm not interested in fuck pieces, but got a little desperate tbh. Low confidence does that man.
>>681773275
Nice, I've always liked music. Especially 90's and early 2000srap. Those morherfuckers had the right idea.
>>681773978
i know what you mean, man. no sweat. most fun i had in college was when i was single, so enjoy it. plus, getting in relationships with people you're only sort of into is a fuckin nightmare.
rejection sucks, but college campuses aren't exactly wanting for attractive women. but, like i said, desperation is a huge turnoff.
>>681773507
Tanks. :)
>>681773747
Thanks brother.
>>681774253
Alright, thanks man. It's why I wanna get to know a lot of people during college.
>le feels xD
kys
>>681769028
i remember that song from the trailers for battle los angeles. such a melancholy tune. fitting for that picture. that pic tho. gives me enough feels.
>>681774175
Hell yeah
>>681771433
did his son die? or the son is simply ignoring his dad?
>>681775076
No idea. I always assumed that the son just isn't responding, I can relate to that.
>>681774588
anytime, /b/ro. good luck.
>>681775202
That's sad. Don't give up trying though.
>>681772383
dude I went through a similar thing recently, don't waste your time on someone who isn't as interested as you. it's not even logical. i know its hard, i had a though time realizing that myself. there's plenty of girls out there man. you didn't do anything wrong, she was just the wrong one. the world is vast. you'll find someone. 7.5 billion people can't be wrong.
>>681775312
Thanks brother.
The supermarket I'm working at is closing down in a couple of days. It really hurts,I don't care that I'm out of a job,it's more that I'm losing my only real chance to talk to people. Plus I don't do anything really except sit in my room
No matter how hard I work at my job, or how positive i stay. People always doubt me. People continue to mock me as if I'm some idiot, and I feel like im a constant let down to my mom. I'm 28 and take care of her, and she constantly praises me, but i always feel like I could have done more with my life and she knows that and secretly shes disappointed .
>>681776275
You planning on getting a new job?
>>681768365
when I'm all choked up and you're OK?
>>681765164
I FEEL ONLY GREATNESS FOR I HAVE CONQUERED MYSELF SAD LITTLE MORTAL
I don't know how to make men like me. And I'm so tired of over sexualization.
>>681776352
The world is full of good people bro. If everyone is doubting you, then you are probably giving them a reason to doubt you. You need to work on whatever that is.
COURAGE AND HONOR WILL SEE YOU THROUGHT THE DAY
LO, THOUGH THE TIME IS DARK, MY FAITH SHINES
>>681776738
I'm not giving them a reason. They just like to bash on good people.
I work with a smile and try to make others laugh. Work is stressful enough as it is, we should smile.
This world needs more people to smile.
>>681776679
How are you tired of over sexualization but get no attention from men?
>>681776575
We should all aspire to get on this guys level.
>>681776679
Men like all sorts of shit, it depends on what type of guy your trying to attract.
>>681769606
What's the name of the song?
IN THE SERVICE OF MANKIND
WE SERVE ONLY OUR FATHER THE GOD EMPEROR
THUS THE UNIVERSE AND HUMANITY IS PERFECTED AS ONE GREAT WHOLE
>>681776869
Trust me brother. There are assholes out there but the average person is not doing to try to put down good people. Either it is something you are doing to cause it or you are misjudging their reactions. It takes more than good intentions to be someone that people like.
>>681776880
Like the only thing anyone ever wants from me is sex. I hate it. I can be funny and really nice but I get treated like a ho even though I've only had sex with one man in a year.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-gf491i3B3Q
>>681776505
I have a second one at the moment, I also work i an EB games that a few stores down. But I don't care for supermarkets anymore,this one was laid back, plus the mates I've made here are second to none.
I do plan on applying for a JB-HIFI thats coming to replace it. I'll still miss this store a lot
>>681777241
do you have kik? we can talk if you want
>>681777241
LONDON
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THE GREAT ENEMY WILL TEMPT YOU TO DOUBT AND SHAME
NEVER GIVE IN FOR YOU CARRY THE LIGHT OF HUMANITY WITHIN YOURSELF
>>681777241
I've been on both sides of it, and that's pretty common among men. The average guy is usually just looking for sex unless they are just blown away by someone. Get to know them, let them get to know you, you'll find some who actually like you for you
Perfect timing OP.
I just woke up, and i've been dealing with homicidal and suicidal thoughts for the last few years and they're really bad today. I feel like killing myself or someone else and the only thing stopping me is I have nothing to do it with (I'm in a protected environment).
Help me, /b/. I need to talk to someone.
How men talk to me
>>681768941
the only ones i can get are like rocks! bagels fucking suck
>>681777315
Good to hear. Always rough to lose a job like that where we feel comfortable. I've been off work for several months, and I miss it.
>>681777969
WHAT AILS YOU BATTLE /B/ROTHER
>>681777969
What's been bothering you? What caused these thoughts to start?
Why wasn't I enough for her, anons?
>>681778058
>>681778216
I don't know guys. I just woke up like it. I've actually been very happy lately because I just got out of a mental hospital for the fourth time.
okay here it goes
>be me couple of years back
>going to this elite privat school for "super intelligent"
>in reality it's just for the rich with average kids but I got a scholarship for being "not able to adapt to normal environments"
>got slight depression and diagnosed with schizophrenia
>new girl in class
>just your average slim qt3.14
>she doesn't know anyone
>we become friends over time
>like really good friends
>she has anorexia and cuts herself but I just want to help her
>she doesn't bother with me being a loner and sometimes a bit off
>eventually developed a huge crush on her
>fall in love
>be together a couple of months
>I deal with her shit and even get her to eat on regular basis and she stops periodically cutting herself
>always when I'm with her the voices seem to just shut up
>then about a month before our first anniversary she tells me she doesn't have any romantic feelings for me anymore
>heart broken me still tries to get back together
>eventually we agree on just being friends
>fast forward a couple of months
>we decide to give it one more try
>best weeks of my life
>then a day before Christmas she tells me she is a lesbian
>I am shattered by her telling me she always assumed the feeling she had was love but it wasn't
>after countless conversations she tells me she can't cope with seeing me anymore
>at this time I already changed school so no way to see her anymore
>voices come back pretty hard
>now severely depressed
>decide to visit old school on a day I got off
>she sees me and runs away crying
>couldn't even talk to her
>get told by old classmates she is now dating a guy from other class
>the feeling of betrayal weighs heavy
>but still love her so dearly that I cannot really be angry just disappointed and kind of sorry
>call her that evening
>talk again since two months or so
>I promise her not to try to kill me and to delete her number
>I do
>never been able to truly trust someone after this
watch this.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rPtmgIvIsic
>>681778008
Has every man you've talked to been the same way?
Its hard for me to express myself to people because I was raped by my neighbor when I was eleven. I don't want to have sex but I don't know how to say no and every time I have sex I want to cry.
I want to kill myself because I'm so alone and no one understands that I physically cannot communicate well and I'm only 19 and feel like I'm losing my mind because I can't even have a conversation with someone because I just can't concentrate on a single thought anymore.
I don't know how to fix it.
Shall I skip the whole porn part of skip directly to feels?
>>681769028
This makes me feel better
>>681777969
Do you have a religion?
If so, go talk to a priest or equivalent, but rather thoses that are truely religious (i'm talking helping the poor and stuff) they are great listeners and give good advice
If you don't want to do it, find a psychiatrist or go to a health care center
If you just want to cheer up and get ou of this will to die, you need to do activities that are meaningfull to you, join a club whatever it is. And go there at least once a week, you'll meet new people and have something to look forward to
and as a final thought, the reason why you didn't kill yourself is that you don't want to, being in a safe environment is just an excuse you're giving yourself
I thought I was so smart but I fuck everything up and I can't figure out who I am because I feel like my whole life is about being sexualized and pretty but I mean nothing now.
>>681778328
>got out of a mental hospital for the fourth time.
I have a feeling that may be related to your thoughts. What were you in the for ?
I'll post the whole thing then, cum and tears are a nice combo... right?
>>681778564
When did you start feeling this way? What makes you no longer think you are smart?
>>681768565
Yes, few times. Actually I once had a dream about her, woken up in the middle of the night, felt like puking and rushed to the toiled.
>>681777969
whatever happens, do not kill someone else. that's incredibly selfish and fucking fucked up.
ending someone else's life.. we hear it in the news, see it in movies all the time, so much, that it seems like to me that it has lost it's meaning..
It's almost four am and I have to be at work by 10am..another day of hellos to strangers, people don't even bother to small talk with me, less they're asking something of me. I smile occasionally, but every time I do I feel like when people smile back it's because my face is funny or something.. A lot of eye contact from women, but I'm pretty sure it's because I'm hideous.
>>681778659
I messed up in college because I couldn't concentrate on school. I felt too hazy to get out of bed. Would be at the bus stop for class and be confused and not know where I was all of a sudden. I just could not do it at the moment and I don't know how to bounce back. I don't even think I'd be ready to go back if I could because I feel even worse now than I did last year.
>>681777969
WE ARE HERE /b/RO
gtg now
>>681778870
ty man cya
I catch myself not able to sleep and the next minute I'll be in my car at 4 AM driving and I'll be right down the road from my apartment and I won't know where I am.
I just want to be normal and go back to school and be in love but I can't do anything.
>>681778816
I know that feel. Plenty of people fuck up, it doesn't mean you aren't good enough and doesn't mean you aren't smart. Depression is rough, especially when you don't know how to deal with it.
Sounds like you've got a lot of self hatred. That shit will mess you up. Get to know yourself, your real self. Figure out your problems and work on them. You can get over this if you try.
>>681778870
tnx man I enjoyed this
>suicidal with a big amount of social anxiety
>gets hospitalized
>meet the perfect handsome bf
>we get along so good, he understands my disorders
>months pass by we slowly start to fight
>he becomes physically abusive even in public
>I fall for him even more
>he gets so distant, so cold, wouldn't care if I want to break up
>he gave up so easily on the relationship
>inb4 fag but still have feels.
Here I am, /b/ros,I know it's sad that he was the only thing in my life but he left me when I was the most vulnerable for no apparent reason.My depression went sky high and I think about killing myself everyday.
And I have friends and culture today makes it seem okay for men to touch me unwarranted and approach me in a sexual manner.
I don't want to be a prude. I want to be naughty sometimes but I panic everyone and start remembering what happened to me as a kid and don't know what to do besides put a mask on and just try to be the person I pretend to be everyday.
This ain't about a girl or an SO, and some of you fucks will probably laugh at me, but whatever.
> be me
> over the summer holidays one year, I decide to stop being a beta fag and go for a run everyday
> end up going in the mornings taking one of my dogs (a small toy poodle, only about three years old at the time)
> i don't need to leash her because she's trustworthy enough
> we both enjoy the runs, she sniffs shit and goes exploring whilst I run on the road
> i end up getting resentful of the runs
> get lazy about it
> i almost completely stop doing them after about four months
> i feel guilty about so i kickstart them again
> go slowly at first
> end up taking my dog with me again
> after a three day laziness streak I decided to go out again
> this time i take a bike
> my dog follows along as always
> i zoom off ahead because she usually does her own thing
> i get to the end of the road and turn the bike around to head back
> dog is no where in sight
> car comes up over the hill at speed
> as the car comes up to pass a driveway, my dog runs straight out in front of it
> i sit on the bike and watch as she gets crushed underneath the front left wheel of the car
> she gives the most terrifying help
> i furiously pedal towards her lying on the ground as the driver gets out
> i end up throwing the bike to the side of the road and sprint towards my dog
> i get close enough to realises she is definately dead and i just break down
> i fall to my fucking knees like a faggot and start bawling my eyes out
> i take her body to the vet to have her cremated
> i pat her body as the vet gets ready
> i look at her one last time before she is taken away
> i swear to god her tail wags slightly
> i honestly feel like i've been gutted
> my heart is just dead for weeks after it
> to this day i can never go for a run because i just fucking break down
I have to go to gym now. Call me a faggot or whatever but this dog was supposed to live for about sixteen years, but she only got 3.
>>681779471
I'm sorry man... When my dog got hit by a car I didn't get out of bed for days and just sat in bed screaming at the top of my lungs for hours and hours. Its hard to lose a pet. :(
>>681777241
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DezCXcX1X8A
threat your woman right and buy her flowers!
My gf of around a year dumbed me .. over a year ago. I still feel like shit cause of it. How do you make this stop seriously? I just wanna move the fuck on but nothing really seems to work
>>681779764
Try to find a rebound girlfriend?
>>681779454
I don't know what happens to you as a kid to cause these issues, but you talk about it if you want to. Always makes me feel better.
>>681779471
Why would anyone think your a faggot ? Losing a dog/cat/pet is losing a member of your family
>>681779295
You'll get through this shit bro. I know how it goes, but you know you are better off without him. You've got to move on and get some new things going for you.
>>681779800
That wouldn't really solve the problem though would it? Everyone keeps saying you need to be happy by yourself and that sounds logical to me. Afterall another gf would eventually just lead to the same situation again
>>681780075
Just depends on what the problem is. If having no gf is what causes your issues then he a gf. If (more likely) your issues are caused by your own insecurities or problems, then work on those.
>>681777241
Let me give you an advice
Don't trust anyone, no matter what he says.
A thing that scares me the most about myself is how casually I can make jokes about suicide. I'm always in a "Hoh, boy. Haha. Wish I could finally pull the trigger, ha."-mood.
I don't know myself that well. I don't know if I actually have problems or if I just have bad humor. I am scared of the answer.
I feel like I'm covering everything up with a wall of terrible jokes and the few people I talk to don't know how I ACTUALLY feel. How it kills me inside. On the other hand, I don't wanna open up. I can't. It's like a physical blockade.
Everything feels messy. I don't know what to do. Life is probably not the worst for me but I can't stop feeling bad.
>>681779295
No wonder he left you. How fucking dare you burden someone with all your shit and expect them to carry you through everything. Did you cry at night thinking how if you killed yourself how bad he would feel? He wouldnt because you were emotional baggage that offered no positive at all. Fuck me at least pretend to offer something aside from your misery and your stretched hole to him. Least you know he is happier without you
>>681780810
How long has his been going on! Does it seem to be getting worse?!
>>681778414
So why are you posting here?
>>681780949
The last 2-3 years, Not sure if it got worse but definitely not better.
I think. I'm trying to ignore most of the negative feelings I have.
But I catch myself doing things like cancelling appointments with friends constantly just to hurt myself and then I lie to myself saying 'It's ok, ha. It's alright. Wanted to stay home and play vidya anyways,haha.'
>"What happened to you, Anon? You've changed so much..."
>>681780939
>>681778414
You know how to fix it. You just don't do it. You repeat the same mistakes and every failure makes the cycle that much worse. You know you need to stop letting your past get the better of you, but you don't.
What you have to realize is that you can. The world is full of shit we can't control, but we can control our own efforts. If you really try your best you can do it. You can stop doing things you regret. Your past has shaped you whether you like or not, but you can refuse to let it bring you down.
>>681781223
What type of negative feeling are you having?
Trying to repress this shit won't work, it will get you you eventually and it will be even worse.
>>681778008
not sure if your still in the thread but thats fucked up if you get talked to like that on the reg. You shouldn't of replied at all, or at most with a "fuck off"
>>681781712
Thinking about suicide a lot. Not even in a sad manner. It just appears to me as completely obvious that this is a good solution for everyone.
I feel like I'm just an annoying burden to my friends and I keep getting more and more distant. I'm isolating myself for god knows what reason but I keep telling myself that this is completely ok.
I don't know where I'm going with this but at this rate, I'll lose everyone in my life, finishing up with myself.
>>681780949
carry on.
>>681778054
Thanks Anon,I'll keep at it. At least I have the deli girl to talk to,shes pretty awesome.
You'll find a new job anon,then it will be all good again :)
>>681782281
It's depression brother. If you are seeing suicide as a good choice, then you are not in a good place mentally. Figure out what it causing it and work on it. Figure out things that help you and do them. You'll get through this shit.
I think I have anhedonia. Even the only thing that I used to enjoy now I get bored of it pretty quickly. I just sleep or lurk the internet the whole day trying to pass the time.
Too tired mentally to study and can't even focus properly.
Anyone can relate?
>>681782862
Thanks, anon. I'll try to keep my shit together. Maybe even give therapy a try. I have no idea how to deal with all this on my own.
>>681782856
Thanks man. I still might get the old one back, but I dunno if it's worth it. At this point they know far too much about me. Probably better to just move on.
>>681769106
Why? Having a 40 hour week job fucking sucks.
>>681783327
Np bro. No shame in asking for help, you've got to do whatever you can.
>>681776679
Focus on yourself
>>681783640
It's not that bad. Gave me structure in my life, have me a reason to wake up in the morning. I can't be trusted to my own devises.
>>681783528
I say do what will put you at ease. But moving on will open up more,either career wise or on a personal level.
Stay strong <3
