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Feels thread
>>680742009
>why i have 5 cats
http://www.citynews.ca/2016/04/22/exclusive-goose-euthanized-after-being-attacked-by-man/?show_id=1738
>>680743276
dumping btw
keep thread alive, anons.
>>680743366
>>680743029
fukin kek
>>680743426
i'm lurking, keep posting
>>680743642
>>680743682
>>680743736
>>680743668
I gotchu anon
I'd like to talk about my life again. But it has never done me any good. I'm thinking about suicide.
>>680743773
>>680743844
>went to the doctor a few months back because of a lump on my testicle
>doctor checks me out, says that I probably don't have cancer, but they can't be 100% sure unless I have an ultrasound
>I don't have insurance, so I have to delay getting an ultrasound until I can get insurance because without it, an ultrasound is pretty damn expensive
>finally get insurance, but it's still expensive
>have to approach my parents for help. As soon as I tell them and ask them for help, they don't act concern at all and just shrug it aside
>here I am alone, fucking feeling like I'm gonna have an anxiety about this shit and they don't even act like they care
If this was happening to any of my other siblings, they'd be freaking out.
>>680743892
>>680743870
Story pls
p1/2
>>680743366
This one always gets me a little bit, because back when I was living alone my dog was the only thing that kept me from becoming an hero, because I know he would never understand why I wasn't there anymore.
>>680744012
>>680744006
p2/2
>>680744070
>>680743870
>>680743940
http://www.examiner.com/article/devastated-man-grieving-over-death-of-his-dog-shows-emotional-bond-of-our-pets
>>680744103
>>680744148
>>680744141
Thank you
>>680744204
>>680744246
>>680744415
Alright anons, thats all I got
>>680743773
thanks to you and everyone else. had been having a good run after this laptop and haven't really been frequenting these threads, but nowadays I feel myself needing to make another baww folder
>>680744238
this hurts. getting older is the worst feeling. i just can't accept it.
>>680743642
I should get some hermit crabs.
I install, configure and test medical equipment all over the US and sometimes internationallly.
Constantly away from home in a hotel room alone somewhere. I have to be over 500 miles away by Monday morning for a job which will take a week.
That's another week alone spent isolated and working with people I'm not really friends with.
I hate my life anons.
>>680744238
"The Jews conned us all into a life in their service"
pls bump to keep thread alive anons
1/4
>>680743800
Used to talk about mine too, but you never accomplish anything.
Few times you get cheers from anons here=>but you forget it next day when you wake up from the resetting sleeping time.
Most times you get insults and attacks ("it's your fault", "you deserve it", etc)=> you feel worse than before telling about your problems.
Solution? Getting solace from videogames, music, your dogs (if you have them) or yeah, death.
>>680744517
I know exactly how you feel. Whenever I get aware that time continues to pass and that eventually my consciousness essentially will evaporate, it puts me into a complete state of panic...which will begin now.
>>680744703
Would you like an internet friend?
>>680745490
>>680744238
I feel as this with 31. That I never could live my youth and that my future is very dark makes it worse.
>>680745655
Is turning 30 as scary as I make it in my head?
>>680745145
Idk anons have gave me some good advice, I use it and the end up in another shitty situation. We just always end up in the same situations because that's all we know, because that what makes us unique. You have to look at other peoples life's and copy theirs if you want to be happy. I got a fucking convertible that a drive when I don't ride my Royal enfield. Year ago I made fun of people who drove motorcycles and convertibles. I cut my long hair and started to wear polos. Now I get women to fuck, not to really love. Since they are the kind who you should not love. Idk.... I miss who I used to be but I know that guy wasn't really happy. He just didn't know how miserable he was.
>>680745577
What good would this do?
>>680745580
Try again anon.
>>680745865
Nowadays it is not. Physically I never looked as good as now.
It is just that if your life is shit it sucks big time because the '30 is supposedly the best part of your life. But if your life sucks, you aren't young enough to have hope though.
>>680745865
I turn 30 this year. All I can keep thinking is "it's the end of my youth... and what do I have to show for it?"
>>680746008
You can rant and talk and overall just not be lonely and have some stability. I will just say that there are definite perks, without going too much into depth.
>>680746636
Are you male or fem?
>>680746117
I'm sure you won't believe me, but judging by what all old people have told me, by the time you get to ripe dying age you don't have very many regrets and you remember things more fondly than they might have been, so I wouldn't worry too much about it. It'll get better because your perception of it also will.
Stangers > Friends > Best Friends > Lovers > Strangers
>>680745580
quit fuckin up bro
>>680746538
I'm in the same boat brother.
Turning 30 this year, and I have fuck all to show for that 30 years of life. Those are supposed to be the exciting years, the dangerous years, everything after that is adult years till death. Never been in a relationship, shitty job, take the bus to work.
I look to the future and what the fuck am I supposed to see? Another 50-60 years of this? I cannot fathom being 40 years old, I cannot fathom things will have gotten better.
>>680743892
>two controllers
my heart broke
>>680747046
I am 39 yrs old and virgin. I am abandoned for 10 years now. I have never touched a girl for purposes of pleasure before
>>680747046
That's me, only that wihout the shitty job because I live in a nation with +20% unemployment. At least with a shitty job I could focus on videogames, dating other girls working in dead-end jobs, etc. But not even that I can have.
I hope you get happier anon though.
>>680744006
>>680744097
As a Type 1 Diabetic myself, that just fucking hurts to read
I need to leave this thread now.
Good luck to all of you. I'm being honest I truly wish you well, I don't care if your problems were your fault or not.
These threads are getting harder to bear. They just kill my hope even more, and on the other hand I suffer for the people that is as me or even worse. Especially when I see a lot of you are more valuable than me.
>>680742151
true but only because we are neets that go for 8,9, and 10's. I'm pretty sure a fatass chick would do this for us or an uglyass chick.
>>680747720
Smoke some weed man, get a high tolerance you'll be good to go
>>680746760
guess you'll have to find out
>>680748024
No thanks.
I have people I can message but don't really like having to type shit all the time.
>>680748024
>>680746760
it's a trick! he's a jew and wants to have gay sexs
>>680746926
right in the feels man
I've been contemplating suicide lately and honestly, it just seems like a better and brighter option for me. There's a lot to take in in this world and it's too much. There are things that will go wrong and in the end, I'm just going to be biting the dust when the family I have won't be. I'm a fuck up and a dumb one to add to that. Lately, every night is just full of fear of the future and what comes after death. Religion only scares me and my family only makes it worse when they talk about the end times. I'm not worthy. Suicide seems like a bright idea and it's the only stress reliever I can think of. I used to think that I could find a girl who could take my mind away from this but I've given up hope on that. I'm a loser. Everyday I seem to just hide deeper in my mind and I'm losing touch with reality. I'm not worthy.
>>680748024
I'll take another person to talk to
Snapchat is bosssnikrot
>>680749213
Know that feeling bro, you are not alone out there.
>>680749738
I still feel alone. I've made efforts to be out there and make something of myself. Even as simple as being with old friends. I'm still alone. Everyone is caught up with everyone else.
Later guys.
>>680743366
>>680750698
A good way I've found if you need someone to talk to about basically anything is Whisper. try it, trust me, it really helped me through a lot. You just have to remember, you are definitely not alone with this stuff. Just being around other people or talking helps
>>680751096
I'll try it out
>>680750966
>>680751258
>if you need a hand with how it works, give us a shout, i'll be on this thread
>>680751258
Plan killing others. You will find it is not as easy as you think and you will resume your old ways. Always keep self defense as a secondary and you will achieve your goals.
>>680743283
moar and sauce
so what's got you up late and contemplating life anon?
>>680751545
see this isn't sad because he prolly called every time he texted that's what I do with my dad
I'm really lonely tonight, /b/.
>>680752277
Yea same here, feels shit as
>>680752277
I feel ya bro, what's on your mind?
>>680752277
>>680752414
>>680752417
Not the same anon but do you guys ever just go home alone and stay that way and act like a dick for some reason to ur friends then only talk to them when you have no one else to talk to?
>>680745145
while no ones told me I deserved it they don't know how to respond other than "shit that sucks" and "stay strong".
>>680743921
sry m8. for what little it's worth, I hope you don't have cancer and are ok.
>>680752570
I used to do that in highschool. Then I lost all my friends and here I am. I think we do it just cause we're angry and sad with our own pathetic lives.
>>680753014
thats funny. im diagnosed with stage 4 leukemia. its pretty much gg from here. 2 more weeks and ill just be in a hole in the ground. its been a fun ride /b/oys
>>680743276
ouch
sigh... it's time to catch up with her again. She was pretty much my best friend for a few years, but me being in love with her made our close friendship too awkward, so we only catch up every 6 - 9 months or so.
Now I have to pretend like I haven't missed her literally every day since we last spoke... Usually the manic side of my manic depression goes into overdrive and I seem pretty happy when I see her, but I've been going through a phase of depression for the past few months. I want to say I miss her so badly but I'll just feel like I'm guilt tripping her. And I think her only ever finding time for me once or twice a year makes it pretty clear she gets nothing out of this friendship anymore.
Why does she suggest to catch up at all? She's so good at pretending there's nothing weird between us... I just don't know if I can keep it together this time...
This website is the only place that I feel like I belong. Goodnight, anons
>>680752570
Sometimes, really I'm more of the kind of person who people only seem to hit up when they need something. I'm always there to offer people rides, spot them a favour, or to hear them out and be supportive when they're going through hard times. The problem with this is that when people see you that way they really don't have time or care to reciprocate that.
Basically I'm lonely because I'm just useful to others. I've been feeling an odd blend of lonely and antisocial lately. Like the feeling of wanting to reach out to someone, but simultaneously knowing there really isn't much point. When you realize just hoe instrumental and contingent relationships really are there really isn't much motivation behind them any more. Realistically I'm probably being used, but being useful in a group may be better then being useless and alone.
>>680753289
damn /b/ro, would cure you if it was legal....
>>680752570
That's actually what's on my mind now. I see people as very hostile and exploited, even when they're behaving civilly, so I feel like I have to be a dick to them or else they'll take advantage of me.
I'm very isolated as a result.
>>680753383
In a similar situation man. Shit hurts. For what it's worth I'm wishing you the best of luck in your scenario. Tell me a bit about her. What makes her so special to you?
>>680753289
See you, Space Cowboy...
>>680753547
its stage 4. 200,000 been put into this fucking treatment. not gonna burden anyone else anymore>>680753743
thats where i hope i end up,. space
>>680753815
you don't know what I know.....
>>680753815
I'll meet you up there, /b/rother
Do you believe in true love /b/?
>>680753879
oh do tell as 2 weeks is a short time
>>680753926
hopefully not too soon
say your goodbyes. ive written about 50 letters for each person that needs one
>>680754073
i did once, but it just becomes a cruel joke at a certain point
>>680754073
Not for me.
>>680754146
worked on t-cell therapy... could create the modified t-cells necessary to eradicate your cancerous cells if I had access to the technology without any roadblocks, just pure science
I know better now and I cannot help you without firearms or a shitload of money.
>>680745511
Same here, the thought of absolutely not existing and having no consciousness ever again is the scariest thing. Makes my stomach drop and my mind race when I think about it deeply for a few seconds and fully understand what it means.
>>680753454
yeah true dude, goodnight anon
>>680754146
Rest easy you wonderful bastard
What keeps you going? I'm starting to lose hope and I'm not sure what I'm really even living for anymore.
>>680754407
that sounds nice and dandy and i do appreciate the thought,
im ready to go at this point. no more pretending to be happy just bliss, and to all anons that read this
you've been the best family i've ever had.
>>680754667
I keep going because she wants me to, and even though we're not together anymore, I still value what she did for me.
>>680754667
the fact i can end it at a moments notice
>>680753720
>What makes her so special to you?
There's too many reasons. Just being in the presence of her personality means the world to me.
>>680754754
We are all ready to go. Do not kid yourself.
>>680754761
How do you manage to maintain a "do it for her" attitude even if you know you aren't together, nor will be? That sounds like it takes a lot of personal conviction. How long have you been living with that motivation?
>>680754953
oh well thanks for the info. and its kinda funny you said kid because well i still am one and i find it odd im ok with going out. i just dont wanna burden anyone anymore,
>>680753289
sry to hear that m8, i dont know what else to say other than that sucks.
>>680753815
See you on the other side, bud.
>>680755128
The only way to live is to accept death. Now go do it.
>>680755215
its alright, i dont need anymore people lieing to me. saying how they'ed switch with me at a moments notice when i know its not true, people who i barely knew wanna be my best friend and im sick of people telling me off and lieing to my face, telling me its going to be alright. for who? you maybe. oh thats too bad becasue i used my entire fucking college fund trieng to survive this fucking disease. but ya know what, its already too late, so fuck them and fuck me. its been fun /b/oys but for the last time this is jynx signing out
gonna go spend these last 2 weeks mending open wounds and living it to the fullest because ill be damned if i dont kill myself before this disease does
>>680755123
How do I maintain it? Well I guess, she taught me that I had been through enough and made it out, so why give up now? She taught me I was better than that, and deserved better then what I grew up with and how those around me have treated me. Its been a couple years now, I don't feel any different from the day I decided "Do It For Her"
>>680754863
It's funny how once you meet one person that means a lot to you nobody else compares. Like you know she's just one of millions of other girls out there, but for whatever reason she's irreplaceable in your mind. You know she probably isn't all that unique or special in the grand scheme of things but it's still not hard to think "goddamn they don't make em like that anymore".
Love's harsh. You let someone get real close and you being to worry about their well being. The hardest choice is deciding whether you want her to be happy, or if you want to be together. It's hard to know if you can be the one to protect that smile of hers. The question of how she feels grows on you and worms it's way into your everyday thoughts to the point where it becomes maddening.Part of you wants to keep that feeling forever, and the other part wants to run like hell. It's a complex set of emotions; uncertain love.
Sorry for the rant, I'm in a similar boat and I've been drinking a bit. Helps to let it all out every now and again, you know?
>>680750966
Kek, fuck you anon.
>>680755690
That sounds pretty admirable anon. Honestly I'm a bit jealous of your motivational power and steadfast conviction. Did you love her? Do you still love her? Does the situation between you two ever make you feel lonely or think fondly of what could have been?
I hope you guys all have good nights. It's good to let your feels out every now and again. /b/ is pretty much all I do anymore. So, whether you know it or not, you /b/ros mean a lot to me.
You're better people than you think.
>>680755634
in that case god-fucking-speed jynx, hope ya have a blast.
>>680756032
I still love her, and of course I feel sad about us not being together, but I try to push past it. At one point in time I was sure I'd spend the rest of my life with her, I even came up with how I was going to propose, she always wanted to go skydiving, I was going to take her one day and purpose and push her out of the plane. Which knowing her, she would've freaked about. We almost had a child together, but we lost it, and deep down I know thats what ended things between us, it was to much for her.
>Grew up watching films where the monster or ugly character with a good heart always seems to win in the end.
>For a little while begin to truly believe that inner beauty is what matters.
>of course outer beauty is important, but being a good person and staying true to your values will get you places right?
>Constantly get screwed over and abused.
>Come from an abusive background.
>Go out into the world telling myself I can overcome all of that.
>Still treated like a monster despite my good intentions and kind actions.
>I don't know why I even bother anymore
>Inner beauty is a lie. The beast never gets the beauty in the real world.
>even if you love someone unconditionally you will always be treated as the monster you appear to be.
>why aren't I worthy of being loved or cared about by anyone?
>There are no places in this world for gentle giants, or beasts with good hearts. We're unwanted anomalies.
>>680756409
>>680757364
>>680752277
I feel you dude
>>680757257
you're not alone
>>680756539
That's some real heavy stuff there anon. Thanks for sharing man, and sorry to hear about what happened. I wish I had something more substantial or helpful to say, but I really can't offer much. Thanks for sharing your insight with me, it was pretty interesting to hear. It's hard to think that people have to move on from that kind of thing, but somehow you've managed. For what it's worth this internet stranger is proud of you. You've accomplished something pretty praiseworthy and difficult to do in my book
>>680757442
>>680755792
Part of my dilemma with catching up with her is I want to be honest with her but I don't want to depress her... I don't think there's a way I can say I miss her everyday without doing that, and I'm kind of worried I'm just going to break down crying lol...
I guess I'll just ask her a bunch of questions until she's telling stories. Hopefully we can just avoid talking about my life and I can go back to being a ghost for another 6 months
>>680757560
I don't even consider the times with her bad even though they ended that way, and in more ways then I said. I've been through worse, and I consider my time with her the best in my entire life. I hope who ever shes with now can make her happy, she deserves it.
>>680743426
this has to be the worst fucking thing I've read lol why you pussies need someone else to stay alive find self sufficency stop thinking you need someone else to fix you when you cant even do it yourself. Why you convinced someone has to fix you?
I'm obsessed with a girl, to the point of stalking. She liked me briefly, and it felt like I beat the system because I am a loser and she is a 10/10 (physically and because of her ability to socially connect with me, an autist). Eventually I judged her (for liking cuck porn haha) and she wanted nothing to do with me any more cause I made her feel like shit.
Now I have a girlfriend and I haven't contacted this girl in 4 months, but I still think about her all the time. And I feel like I'm using everyone in my life
I know that many have worse problems, but that's what's been eating me for years
>>680757799
sounds familiar.....
>>680753815
See you on the other side /b/rother
>>680757877
some of us let our emotions out, your gonn bottle yours up and die with regret and shame. atleast we had the balls to tell someone
>>680757877
it's not thinking somebody else has to fix you that starts this. It's meeting somebody who makes you realise you were broken all along that does it.
Everyday i wonder if i should just eat the gun but i find strength in the hopes that maybe i can make the world a better place for the people i care about. This past month they have slowly broken down as a result of their childhood traumas and 3/5 are suicidal. My lining of hope fades away a little bit everyday, but i'll still stand tall for them.
>>680757686
It's funny how having feelings for someone totally makes things difficult. It's hard not to get caught up in what they may be thinking or feeling. Every action you take goes through a set of cost-benefit analyses it seems. Like you're constantly self policing to make sure you don;t do anything to potentially upset her or ruin your chances. People in love sure are strange.
Honestly in these situations is always the hardest part. People rarely want to admit their feelings one way or the other. If you love someone it's hard to admit to that other person that they mean a lot to you and potentially hold a lot of sway over your thoughts and actions, and if you don't feel the same, nobody wants to hurt someone like that, or in a malicious sense maybe they could gain an advantage by keeping that knowledge secret.
It's hard either way to say you do or don't love someone. Somehow if we could all be a little more honest maybe love would be easier. But I feel you so much on that man. It's interesting to think just how much of one's life that kind of thing infiltrates and takes over. Hope it all goes well for you though anon. I hope you can both be happy.
>>680757780
That's really admirable and mature of you. You seem like a real cool person. Hope that you can find someone that'll make you happy someday too. Best of luck to you anonbro.
>>680758426
Best of luck to you to buddy. Thanks for listening.
>>680757877
Humans are social creatures. We rely on others for what we cannot always provide. In this case, we can't provide our own happiness. If nobody else wants to make us happy, clearly we aren't worth anything, are we?
Don't get me wrong, you shouldn't expect people to cater to your problems your whole life. You've gotta learn how to be alone and how to make yourself happy. But for now, we don't care about ourselves enough to fix it. We make ourselves feel better through surrounding ourselves with people who may share our thoughts. This way, we may not feel so alone in the world.
But this is probably bait and I took it.
>>680758235
I hope so too anon... thanks
What does it feel like to be loved /b/?
>>680758823
i wish i knew
heard opium felt like it...
>>680758823
It feels like everything makes sense and that life isn't a shitty existence. Up until they leave you anon.
>>680744204
The last time I heard "I Love You" from a girl was when I was 16 years old... That very girl cheated on me... I'm 25 now... been single for a few years now... My last relationship was a joke... I think I'm done with dating... It's too much work and I'm always the one putting forth the most effort... It's not worth it...
>>680758823
Its pretty comforting, after a while you start to take it for granted though...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zDwhwP87-x0
>>680759108
So coming on here makes me keep that in check.
Faggot.
>didn't find out she was dating anyone until she offhandedly mentioned she got dumped
>Think this may be my chance
>realize that if she never thought our relationship was meaningful enough to tell me about such an important life event of hers that I probably don't have a chance anyway.
>This girl sends out a lot of mixed messages.
>half the time she's super appreciative and goes above and beyond to let me know just how much I mean to her
>The other times it's like I don't even exist
>Why'd I have to fall in love with her?
>I just need some closure on this. Rejection would be fine by me at thins point if it meant I could finally be free of the not knowing.
>tfw trapped in purgatory of feelings where you don't know if you mean anything or not the the girl who means the world to you.
>>680758823
You're a child again. A sweet, innocent little child who knows nothing of the cruelty of the world. You are, deep down to your heart, truly happy.
>>680742151
>have the hardest boner right now
I think I need to see a doctor soon
>>680741935
>>680744355
This makes me so pissed
>>680758977
escapism only goes so far unfortunately. I do the same with alchohol to lower my inhibition enough to the point where I can pretend for a moment that someone cares.
>>680759069
Is it worth it even after they leave. Is it truly better to have been loved and lost, than to have never been loved at all?
>>680759108
What makes you take it for granted. Does it just get old after a while?
As fucking stupid as this sounds, we all have a light behind our eyes whether it be from humor or anger or happiness or whatever drives us, we have life behind our eyes. Life can beat us to our knees and kill us, but that light that life in our eyes: it will continue to burn as long as you feed it. Don't give up yet /b/ros
Yea I'm drunk. Fuk off
>>680759560
It doesn't get old, you get used to it, that comfort becomes familiar, and that in of itself lessons the effect.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zDwhwP87-x0
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>be me
>text to the same girl every day
>we know each other from 2 years ago
>she was 14 and i was 20
>now she's going to turn 17 and i 23
>somehow managed to talk almost everyday in these two years
>she liked me when we first met, also i really liked her too
>in two year i've had like two girlfriends (like one or two months relationships) and she had 1 boyfriend
>all our contact is texting
>the times we've seen each other can be counted by the fingers in a hand
>although these things we never stopped talking
>she even has said to me "i love you"
>now our relationship is more cold, she obviously doesn't see me like before
>she has more close relationship with other guy now
>i still love her in some way
>mfw nothing will ever be the same anymore
>mfw she will never love again like the first time, even like at least like me
>mfw she's the example of what i want in a woman
>mfw i preffer to be alone loving her even knowing i will never be with her
>>680744246
This is why we need Obama pinatas.
>>680759560
I would kill to be loved again, shit feels right you know? Like you go home and you sit down, she asks you how you are, rests her head on your shoulder and puts her arm around yours and genuinely cares about your existence. Made me feel happy as hell. I looked foward to it every day. Maybe one day I can feel like that again.
Nearly the 11th anniversy of my father's death, he died back when I was 11 years old. Not sure but I think I might do something on /b/ for him, saw a sad post by an anon about his Mum saved in a feels thread and though it'd be nice to inspire people too.
I wish I could recognize her. It's hell being in love with someone that you can hardly recognize. It's ironic really, someone who means that much to you and you wouldn't even know if you came face to face with them. What do you see in the faces of the people you care for /b/? What is it that's reflected in their eyes?
Treasure your memories of close friends, don't ever take it for granted, life's a bitch when you realize that you'll never remember the people closest to you. I'm in love with a girl I can hardly remember what she looks like.
>>680745865
I turn 39 in a few weeks, so I can tell you the current state of dating in your 30's:
The pussy flows freely. Be careful because there's too many chicks that aren't worth shit that want someone as stable as a guy in his 30s. Fuck lots, make the gym your hobby, but marry the most sane chick you know before you're 40. I got mine at 36 and I pretty much won the love game.
>>680760103
How'd he go? Tell me about your father anon. He sounds like he meant a lot to you.
>>680757257
There are people out in the world that do appreciate whats on the inside, it's a dying breed, but they still exist.
>>680760692
>Be careful because there's too many chicks that aren't worth shit
This is solid advice for anyone at any age. A good girl is worth a thousand bitches. The hard part is finding one, and keeping her around though.
This is pretty cool advice to hear though, it's somewhat encouraging to hear it isn't all over once you hit a certain age.
>>680760698
Lung cancer, 8 days after my birthday. Don't know too much about him sadly, he never wrote anything but boy did he read. I never how much exactly he'd collected but I went through his books after my parents moved and I was visiting. He loved to learn about military history, animals, fossils. He was in the military, he was a prison guard... he loved me.
Sucked seeing him die... if I ever want to have a good cry I just put on Lonesome Doves and listen to the last scene music. Breaks my heart every fucking time.
>>680760895
I think the hardest part is wondering if you really are a kindhearted beast, or merely just a true monster. Walking that fine line between monster and man is a challenge. Knowing you could instrumentally use people with nary a second thought, but choosing instead to be gracious and helpful.
What makes a monster? Their thoughts or their actions? Perhaps their outward appearance?
>>680761194
Sorry to hear you had to go through that anon. He sounded like a real good father and an overall cool guy. That's something to be happy about. I'm sure you'll grow up to be the kind of anon that'd make him proud. It's sweet that you take the time to remember who he was and what he did. Hoping for the best for you anon. Hang in there man.
>>680761356
Many things constitute a monster in different perspectives. To me a monster is someone who would cause suffering for their own gain and does this with no remorse and constantly, the people who feed off of an innocent persons pain .
How do you get over someone?
>>680761758
You don't
>>680761734
Would someone with that potential who refuses to use it still be a monster?
My son died at 2 years old. One month ago today. Im an alcohoclic now i dont care. I dont have to balls to walk itno traffic. Ill kill my liver, it will kill me
>>680761758
A trampoline and a lot of math. Or just do things you enjoy doing with other people you enjoy being with.
>>680761625
Thanks anon and oh don't worry I've learnt over this past decade to be happy, I love making people laugh and I've finally gotten back into reading which is great. Looking forward to ANZAC day since I'll be wearing his medals and marching for the last time in our home town before we move
>>680761843
This, real heavy truth right here.
>>680761843
This really, I still think about her 3 years later, maybe I'm just a loser, but fuck it.
>>680761857
define potential. Potential to do what?
>>680761926
That's sweet anon. Glad to hear it. Sounds like you've become a well adjusted young adult and are going places in life. Glad to hear that you were able to turn such an event into a learning experience and better yourself as a result. I hope you can still be happy in the future. Shine on you crazy diamond.
>>680743870
Just the picture fucking jabs at my heart.
>>680762189
Thank you
>>680762068
Potential to take advantage of people. Take for instance the hypothetical example of an intentionally benevolent sociopath. They have all the potential to use and abuse people should they truly wish to, but make the conscious choice not to do so. Are they still a monster of sorts, or are they somehow praiseworthy? Perhaps neither.
Is a restrained beast still a beast if they refuse to allow their potential or nature get the best of them?
>>680742009
Sure you could write poetry about your depressed animal, or you could just have two cats.
>>680759316
Ask her out and get rejected.
I was in a pretty similar situation about a year ago.
>in love with this girl
>crushed on her hard for a while
>shared the same class
>stayed after one day and asked her out
>"Sorry, I'm already going oit with someone."
>hurt pretty bad but got over it
>crushed my feelings down and channeled them into rage
>fucking owned next wrestling tourney like it was koon in the 1700's
>fast forward few years
>gamer friends bring in a girl they think is pretty cool
>same fucking girl
>hardcore avoid group for a while
>eventually come back
>fucking wrestlers are gay af and I couldn't take it anymore
>fucking weeb group too.
>eventually start talking to her more, gwt pretty chummy.
>she doesn't even remember me outside having been in her class.
>only remebers that cause she recognizes my shirt.
>kinda glad
>used to me stubby fat kid with a patchy beard
>sports drove my testosterone to the limits, caused growth spurt.
>now 6'1", 190lb jock
>little bit of a belly but look pretty good.
>we start texing pretty frequently, shit gets deep regularly
>have a few intimate moments on school trips and random encounters
>find out she was in a dying relationship
>end up convincing her to end it
>spend a few months playing nice
>we end up flirting
>text her about first guy who ever asked her out
>"it was some guy after class a few years ago"
>mfw that was me.
>end up confessing it was me.
>we laugh about how thay was the reason I avoided her at first.
>we end up sexting a few times.
>kind of end up in this purgatory where I cant leave because I both love her and rely on her, and she doesn't want to date me, but doesn't want to lose me as a close friend.
>eventually ask her out plainly
>she tells me she doesn't want that kind of relationship.
>we start to text each other less frequently after that.
I tried to go back to being friends but stopped caring after a little while.
>>680762436
Thanks bro gave me a much needed laugh. It's the little things sometimes
>>680753815
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CJsiTpr9_7A
Just something to listen to if ya want
sweet dreams /b/ro
Really long read, but the feels is strong.
>>680762417
Well that is what separates the monsters, the ability to direct the potential either into something else or just not use it at all. A monster has no control and no restrictions.
>>680762496
>Ask her out and get rejected.
I wish it were this easy.
She knows just how I feel but she refuses to say anything one way of the other. It's really a toss up of weighing the probabilities to the hopes I have for things. If she didn't like me it would be all too easy to say so, yet she hasn't said anything. It's the whole mixed messages that get me, even when I try to be direct she somehow plays it off or makes it way too vague.
It's the not knowing that kills me. I love her but half the time she treats me like I don't matter and the other half of the time like I mean quite a bit to her. If it were as easy as just letting her know how I feel I would be done with this ages ago. I may just push the issue and ask her out to get the rejection so I can move on with my life.
>>680743736
I'm crying so hard...
She said hi to me yesterday. First time we've talked in 4 montgs. Feels weird
>>680762848
This is probably true, but perception is different from potential. A calf and peaceful coyote still looks like a predator to a rabbit. Perception and action are two separate issues sometimes. It almost seems like if people think of you as a monster, anything to suggest the opposite is irrelevant. Sorry if I'm getting a bit odd with this discussion, I've been drinking a bit but I really do appreciate your insight.
>>680744486
It's one thing to realize you've never had love, it's another to realize you never had friendship
>feels particularly bad tonight /b/ros
>>680763101
Do you still love her?
What's her name?
>>680743736
That hit me hard, fuckin poor bastard, probably an hero'd.
>>680761920
very poetic, anon. genuinely
>>680763520
I hope not. After we broke up we started talking again I hinted that I liked her. The feeling wasn't mutual. So I told her I didn't want to waste my time chasing her and I stopped. Best decision of my life
Why can't I stop thinking about her /b/. I want to but I can't
>>680763199
Well perception is important but also irrelevant to my point. My point is that your status as a monster to yourself and others should be only based on facts and actions. Just because a rabbit thinks something is a predator doesn't mean it is, it just means the rabbit is ignorant. Just like people, just because someone looks scary does not mean they are a bad person, it would be ignorant to assume so. Obviously there are exceptions to this since humans are a lot more complex than rabbits. You know like if a guy walks into a bank with a ski mask and a gun, you probably are safe to assume he isn't there to open a damn savings account.
>>680763776
Glad you could move on, sometimes that's the hardest part.
>>680742009
Human
I am cat
Feed me cunt
I shat on the carpet
Pat me
Don't pat me Ill bit you cunt
Pat me
Now i will scratch the couches and piss on them
brb going to kill native wildlife
Cat
>My friends are all going to the party tonight
>Nobody invited me
>They were all talking about it yesterday, literally NOBODY said a thing to me
>Tried to hint out that I would love to go
>They change to topic every time
>Don't wanna go there alone
>I guess you guys will be my company for today
>>680763858
Yeah she texted me a couple months ago and asked if I was still mad. We used to be eachother's best friends but I wanted to be more than that and she didn't. And I knew I didn't want to put myself with that constant wanting to change when it wouldn't
>>680763853
But the question of perception comes up when that coyote wants to prove to the rabbit that they aren't actually a threat. Can a canine and a bunny ever be friends in a metaphorical sense? It's hard being seen as a monster when all you actually want to do is be close to people. You make a valid point in that the status of someone as a good or bad person is based on their actions, but if people assume the worst of you from the get go what use is proper action if you're always assumed to be a beast anyway?
You may not be a monster truly but if you're isolated like one what's the real difference?
>>680763684
That is what i do. If i have a bad day i go shooting because that is my thing. The best thing everyone here cab do is go to Walmart buy a 2pk of G2 fine point pens and a full size sketchbook (about $8 total) and just draw, regardless of your skill or if it is ''good'' just fucking draw until the book is full.
>>680764040
I know that feeling \B\ro
>>680763804
In the same boat anon. If we could just forget about her that easily she probably wasn't that special to us in the first place.
What is it about her that you keep thinking about?
>>680764040
They aren't your friends. Sounds like they tolerate you out of pity. Know what that feels like. Sorry dude.
Hey anons, how are ya'll doing? Can I get some advice? My first year of college is wrapping up and I've had a pretty good year, met a lot of bros, talked to some girls, drank alcohol for the first time, learned a shit ton from both my professors and classmates, and am continuing to build muscle via football workouts and heal from an ACL tear, but one thing remains to be done. There is one girl I talked to, Madison. She's an 8/10 with the best bubbly personality I've ever seen. We hit it off most of the time but I do sperg over myself here and there, which is somewhat uncommon. I just like her. But I need to get her number but I haven't seen her in a while, mainly due to how busy I've been. Should I try talking to some of her friends for recon or go to different places? Also, what would be some good lines? I know some but I wanna see ya'lls opinions.
>>680764256
Well if you are trying to associate with a person that assumes and wouldn't be open to associating with you then i would say that is not a person you want to even be around. Fuck those people.
>>680764162
That's rough. In an ideal world I think we'd all just marry our best friends. Funny how romance and friendship are so similar yet so different. The heart and intentions of people are quite mysterious really.
So you feel like you're really over it, or do you still wish you could make things work romantically?
>>680764040
Fuck those tools.
I remember when it was ok to openly hate niggers and queers o /b/
>>680764572
Fair enough, the problem seems to be that most people operate on this principle. Often people judge before they even get to know you. It's kind of cool to be able to talk with someone else about this kind of thing. You have a very interesting perspective and some pretty insightful knowledge on the topic.
>>680764040
Sure doesn't sound like bros to me. If I were you, confront them the next day. No matter how awkward it gets.
we're the rejects
>>680764040
You must be a teenage, because no one cares about friends inviting them to parties when they are adults
:(
>tfw I´m so desperate for love I halfway fell for a 4/10 that talked to me for 10 minutes about some exercise after class...
Honestly, I´m quite surprised I managed to get to a point where I`m willing to give up on almost everything else just to be loved by someone at an age of 19.
I could get a pretty good job but whats the point of it, money won´t help me except for rent and food.
>>680764615
I'm over it. It's a lot more fun not worrying about having to please someone. I would have liked things to have worked the first time but as of now I don't want to get back together because I feel like what already happened would happen again.
>>680764893
What makes you a reject anon? I'm sure you belong somewhere maybe you just haven't found it yet.
Thanks /b/ros. I haven't felt this way since I realized I would never get to talk to her again. Do you ever wonder if you cross their minds at all? Or if they have moved on completely
>>680764980
How'd you manage to get over it?
>>680764394
I don't even know, mate. Her smile? Her beautiful eyes? How gorgeous she is?
I want to stop thinking about it, but whenever I got over it I just start again.
How about you, man?
>>680764929
wow this is fucking sad
>>680765040
I'd like to think she still cares, but if she made that obvious I probably wouldn't be in a thread like this. Sometimes all we have left is our hope, so don;t lose sight of the /b/ro
>>680764842
Well i mean a lot of people buy an iPhone but a few people don't. Just because the majority do anything doesn't make it right. I guess i do, i have just never been a trend moving person, i just do shit for my own reason.
>>680764361
Sorry to hear that, man.
>>680764432
I suspected it earlier but this just makes me sure I was right
>>680764859
I think I will. Well, somehow.
>>680764903
18, but it doesn't really matter wheter it's a party or something else. They just never invite me
>>680765100
Everything about her. Her personality, her honestly, and her genuine nature. She's a real sweetheart with a fantastic body and an even better personality. They don't make em like her anymore that's for sure. Once you think you've found perfection nothing else cuts it. Her laugh, her smile, the fun conversations we've had. God I wish I mattered to her. She's the kind of girl who makes you wish you could have grown up with her, and that you want to spend the rest of your life with.
She's a sweetheart despite her troubled past. In all honestly I really look up to her and have made a lot of positive changes because of her. She seems like the kind of gal who challenges you to better yourself and in turn she tries hard too. Regardless of what happens I truly just hope that she's happy. She's a good girl in a world where that kind of thing is all to rare. As far as I'm concerned she deserves a little happiness.
>>680765064
I realized that if I kept trying to think of a way to make it work or tried to make it work I would just beat myself up because it wouldn't work. The hardest part is trying not to do that necause I've always been the kind of person to try and fix something before throwing it away. But if you try and make it work when the love isn't mutual you'll just waste your whole life trying to do something that will never happen. You might feel lonely at times but since you are here loneliness is no stranger to you.
Another way is to just totally hate her, which sometimes isn't healthy, but it works.
>>680765673
>But if you try and make it work when the love isn't mutual you'll just waste your whole life trying to do something that will never happen. You might feel lonely at times but since you are here loneliness is no stranger to you.
Hit way too close to home. Story of my fucking life right there. I'll drink to that. I think the hardest part is convincing yourself that it's time to move on. It's so much easier to pretend you still have a chance and some type of goal to work towards.
>>680765302
That's a good point. Perhaps it's just a matter of finding people who are willing to think and act of their own accord. Self awareness and critical thinking and all that fun stuff.
>be me
>have a group of slype buddies
>we play vidya's all night, laughing and having fun
>one by one, they all leave the call and go to bed
>i'm always last, left to worry about my existence
>please just fucking kill me
>>680766015
I just might be willing to play video games with you bud. Im always up late
>>680765103
Only for the gold digging whore, he was a cheating sack of shit that deserved what he got
>>680766015
The important part is that you have skype buddies to play vidya with. Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. But i hear you on always being the last one around. Shit's existential in it's own right really.
>>680766015
What videogames do you play?
>>680765971
Well i have a bitch of a drive to make, you can email me if you please at [email protected] and i will redirect you to a better method of contact (its just a bullshit account i set up)
>>680745580
This one used to give me feels but in thumbs view it's just lost.
Anyone pitching in for good old times?
>>680765363
Once you get your own place you can throw as many parties as you wan, and you don't have to invite them unless you want to, now buck up little guy
>>680766572
It's funny how in the age of social media and internet communication that we've never really been further even though all the possibility of connection lies just at our fingertips.
>>680766572
>>680766688
Sorry didn't mean to make that a reply. A bit drunk at the moment so you'll have to excuse me.
>>680745145
This is /b/ and there are bound to be insults and provocation to an hero etc.
If they get you down choose another place for venting.
Just know they are not made to make you feel bad, it's just /b/
>>680765363
What if there was a conflict of interest, like someone you didn't like, and/or didn't like you was there?
Maybe your friends didn't want to hurt your feelings by telling you they were going but you couldn't go.
>>680766314
>>680766451
League
>>680766831
Oh, fuck off faggot
>>680766572
I guess I will, as soon as I move my ass to the college next year.
Does anyone here dream of getting married to a sweet girl who you get along with? I feel so old fashioned and perhaps out of it for having such a simple dream, but it seems harder and harder these days to find a decent girl you want to settle down with. Anyone else feel the same way, or am I just a fossil or relic of an earlier time gone by?
>>680766750
Don't apologize, people don't like people that throw apologies around
>>680766781
I don't really know about anyone who would dislike me that much. I am pretty much trying to be friendly with everyone and/or remain neutral as much as possible.
I guess they just aren't really my friends so they don't want me there
We're a community, I can't see you guys but just know you're never alone in this world.
>Be me
>28
>Mediocre job for mediocre salary
>Barely scraping by
>tfw no gf.avi
>tfw no friends
>everyone's living a happy life except me
>no family
>go to work
>"what do you drive anon?"
>public transportation
>come back home
>basically a shitty ass room I call home
>workout to stay sane, push ups and stuff
>watch anime
>feed my dog
>fap
>sleep
>repeat
>>680758742
Holy fuck, I need to translate this, it will be a nice poem in Spanish
>>680767040
But we are alone. No matter if there are bilions of people out there, we are alone
>>680766930
Haha ain't that the truth? I come from an abusive background so it's a bad habit of mine. I used to have to apologize way too often, even for shit I wasn't responsible for. It's funny how that thing becomes ingrained after a certain point. If there's one word people know me for it's "Sorry". I should probably work on that anon, that's some pretty insightful thoughts about people that apologize too often, never really thought of it that way.
The ballad of ella. Amazing feels story. It's a bit too long but you won't regret reading it.
http://imgur com/gallery/jNOru
>>680764040
Been there dude. One night my best mate at the time left me stranded in the city and refused to give me the name of the club all my 'friends' were at because my cheating cunt gf was there with them, and he said me being there would "ruin the energy"
Needless to say I found new friends after that. Remember anon, before you consider yourself depressed, first make sure you are not in fact, surrounded by assholes.
>>680742151
tfw
>>680767057
What kind of dog you got anon? I'm in a similar situation though I wish I could have a dog or two to help me through things. They're sure fun animals to have around.
>>680767203
But we are communicating with each other on the wired now.
>>680765666
>Seems like even Satan has been broken down
I know, mate. It sucks knowing that you can't make her happy for she doesn't want you to make her happy.
>>680767203
Fuck people, this right here, right now, is fucking real
>>680767301
Thanks, man. I am considering that but I have to see those people almost every day. I will confront them tommorow and see what will happen
>>680743940
ah fuck
>>680743283
wrong thread faggot
>>680746609
That really sucks.. Goes to show that having a few solid friends is better than having 20 shaky ones.
>>680767354
Just a generic mutt I got from streets 6 years ago. I'm her only friend, and vice versa. Kinda makes me sad when I think about it. But hell it does help, at least there's another living creature who enjoys hanging out with me, and is sincerely happy to see me come home.
>>680750966
underrated kek
It's 4am and I have work in 6 hours. Fuck
>>680767392
We are communicating. We are helping each other. But the doens't mean that we are not alone. Loneliness is the main reason most of us are here, isn't it
>>680767415
even satan was a fallen angel. Good intentions gone awry are some of the most dangerous.
Perhaps the only thing we can do is hope that she finds her happiness someday. Honestly I wish I could be the one to provide that joy to her life, but if she manages to find it elsewhere who am I to be upset? Honestly at this point all i really want is for her to be happy. Maybe it's a bit pathetic but she seems like she deserves it. Deep down inside I hope I can be the one to protect that beautiful smile of hers, but even if i"m not the one, that's alright. I just hope she;s happy someday, maybe that's what unconditional love is all about.
>>680743642
I swear that one tear dropped
If the hermit man is reading now, don't let that bitch decide for your future
>>680767638
That's pretty sweet anon. Glad you have a pupper that means a lot to you. I'm sure you mean a lot to her too. It's funny and a little sweet to think how much it is that dogs matter to us and how much we matter to them. I hope to have a dog or two someday, they're such sweet little animals. Treat her well alright, I'm sure she cares a lot about you anon. Be a good friend to her alright?
>be me
>get married August 2015 to a girl i been with for 7 years
>6 months later getting divorced
>been bouncing from house to house
>she already moved on and happy while im miserable
How do i move on from this? I tried banging other chicks but its not the same...
>>680754146
Good luck man. Rest easy.
I hate to ask this but... How hard was it to accept that it's coming to an end? What are you hoping to see when you die?
>>680767675
Loneliness and rejection from others
>>680742151
Rekt
>>680768003
Sounds like you need to realize things are over man. It's a hard step but a necessary one. What caused the divorce? Sorry to hear it happened.It's a matter of mindset rather than just sticking you dick in someone else. You need to forget about her and remind yourself that there's still potential out there
>>680767987
Will do.
Someone should make a new thread. There is still much to talk about
>>680763658
you can possess a live flower if you plant it
>>680764461
Be yourself anon
>>680766859
Have a mac, it's practically all I can run sadly.
>>680768264
She thought i was cheating on her... but i never did.
I said the same thing to myself but i just feels weird going home to an empty house
>>680768303
you posses it perhaps, but does it ever reciprocate the care you had in raising it? I think the quote is more or less supposed to highlight the idea that love is based in a appreciation rather than strictly a possession of another. Certainly I think we'd rather have both, but when that's not an option maybe all we can do is ap[appreciate the other person for that they're worth.
