serious question, how many of you are depressed?
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Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.
serious question, how many of you are depressed?
>>678529126
Depressed? Why would I be depressed? I have 4chan to go to whenever I feel like and 4chan is full of magical things that I will never stop enjoying for there are too many of them accumulated over the years. So many memes and I'm enjoying every single one of them from Rage Comics to Pepe I love them all. I have no reason to feel depressed when I have such a wonderful site to visit.
>>678529126
I am. I might be getting meds soon at least. If not I live on the 7th floor and can jump.
at least three of us in this thread
>>678529126
Never diagnosed with depression, never went to any psychologist. Why?
Me over here
>>678529126
very depressed. I see a therapist
>>678529126
Oh yea, big time
Think about suicide atleast once a week
>>678529676
>that I will never stop enjoying
>rage comics
>Pepe
Turn back while you still can. You're young; you still have a chance.
>>678529126
yup I am and ?
online relations are not enough to "cure" depression so why even bother sharing it
>>678529126
count me in bruh
I used to be really depressed, but medication helps a lot.
There are some side effects, but they become less of an issue as you get used to the pills.
i am but you guys didn't hear this from me
I'm not sure what I am. I was very sad every day for about a month, I went home from work and cried a lot of days, I held in tears while at work a lot of days, I talked to nobody and I loved miserable. Then, suddenly, it was gone. I've been fine now for the past three weeks to a month and I don't know why. It just, went away
People tell me I'm depressed, because of stuff like low self-esteem and suicidal thoughts but I've never seen anyone about it. Might be, don't self harm and try to avoid self-destructive behaviour so it doesn't really matter i guess.
Guess I'am. But I guess my shit is more of 1st world shit problems etc.
>>678531239
***and I looked miserable
>>678529126
Major Depression/ Schizoaffective/ psychosis
>>678530561
fucking hell... is it wrong that that evokes more emotion in me than the image of the twin towers burning?
>>678529126
being depressed is evolutionary advantage btw
Depressed with social anxiety. I'm back on Zoloft and currently taking 100mg. Last time I was on it I was taking 200mg.
Yeah. I hate my life.
>>678531067
You're gonna die, and everyone you've seen will die. Eventually our whole species will be extinct and this planet will turn to dust. And if that wasn't enough you still have the impending heat death of the universe. Nothing you do matters, at all, so why not just share anyway ?
>>678531560
How is it an advantage? (Serious question)
Just curious
>>678531171
kek
I am! I just live every day with an abundance of fake enthusiasm and exclamation points so I can try and forget my soul-crushing pain!
>>678530513
Depressionfags will never understand true despair, although that's not to say it's worse.
It doesn't even feel bad, it's just an absence of everything. Depression can be the feeling that things are hopeless, but despair is the knowledge.
At least, in a twisted way, depression's entertaining to the sufferer (the same way you couldn't say you were bored while running from a lion, I guess).
The real problem with despair, though, is that the cure isn't in having better moods. The only way to get out of despair is by being proven wrong, which may prove to be easier or harder case-by-case, or going full Übermensch, which you can't expect of the average person.
>>678530215
because I think it matters. if /b/ can make room for cock-rate-threads and random furry threads surely we have room for a depression thread.
Ye. Feeling okay lately though. The worst for me is after work when I am alone.
>>678529676
[sarcasm intensifies]
i want to die every waking moment of my existence
>>678529126
Major depressive disorder here. It's like swimming with a 50-pound rucksack some days. Would not wish this on my worst enemy.
>>678529126
i just want to fall asleep and never wake up again
>>678532125
But yoU don't have a rope, man, YOU DON'T HAVE A ROPE
>>678532081
Stop being a pseudo-intellectual deep-fag. That makes no sense.
>>678531441
Nah. it just means you're more sad about being alone than you are about death on a large scale.
Hardly an uncommon thing when the casualties aren't related to you in any way(I would imagine)
Just recently got diagnosed with bipolar. I always thought I was crazy but it feels weird having it verified
>>678532081
>>678532125
Why though ? Can =/= Should
>>678532642
Which part of it doesn't make sense?
I could explain it to you if you don't understand what I posted.
Depression is a thing psychologists made up to describe gender dysphoria. Start wearing skirts and stockings and you will find happiness anon.
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>>678532125
>cock rate and furry threads
Honestly, while it is kinda more /soc/, rate threads aren't absolute cancer. Furry threads on the other hand just need their own board and can go the way of /mlp/ so we can stop seeing that shit.
>>678529126
me i guess. i've been on medication for the last two years and tried ending my life twice within the first few months
>>678532792
Nigger, what?
I'm going to give you a tip, and this is for those of you with access to a local doctor or some sort of free clinic.
Have your bloods done, and check for low testosterone. Low Testosterone can be a major cause for Depression, Anxiety and some other health stuff.
I was right there with you guys, until I started getting treatment for it. It's given me a boost of energy I never thought it possible to have.
Trust me. There's options. Have some dildoes.
>>678532792
>125x93
I was doing ok for a few weeks, lately I'm back to wanting to kill myself 24/7. Doesn't help that my only real friend is distancing himself. I've been in bed pretty much all day.
>>678533057
wrong one bro
mfw
Yeah, if complete depression or just borderline im feeling pretty shit.
What are the side effects to the drugs though?
>>678533224
Friends don't let friends distance themselves. He's probably only doing because you've been a bummer lately, not because he doesn't like you all of a sudden
does mdma help?
>>678532642
it does make sense actually, alot of the time depression is a psychological mechanism from the pain of a meaningless existence. depression makes you numb and being numb is better than feeling the pain of hopelessness.
>>678532843
because maybe through us explaining to others our suffering and why we suffer it can have more meaning beyond inflicting pain on ourselves. I dunno, I just know its gotta be more worthwhile than aforementioned cock-rate-threads etc.
>>678532890
>At least, in a twisted way, depression's entertaining to the sufferer
Doesn't strike me as true but as something provocative to say that would sound meaningful because of shock value
>The only way to get out of despair is by being proven wrong, which may prove to be easier or harder case-by-case, or going full Übermensch, which you can't expect of the average person.
Again, doesnt seem like a statement of some truth but as some provocateur-ish claim. Also Nietzsche may have some interesting ideas but he didn't prove them empirically, so I don't get the value of acting like "going full Ubersmansch" has any meaning to it.
If you ever read "The Picture of Dorian Gray" you're Henry/Harry.
>>678529126
Depressed faggot reporting in
>>678533828
in the short term it can destroy social anxiety and allow you to experience extreme beauty. the memory lasts but the side effect/risk is flashbacks. or atleast thats been the case for me. seeing the light is beautiful, but if you stare too long it burns your eyes.
the setting is essential. maybe micro-dosing is a better idea.
>>678533319
Are you blind ?
>>678529126
define: depressed
>>678531239
Somebody was feeding on you and they stopped
>>678530725
Same /b/ro...
Listen up, fags.
We are insignificant. One anon is insignificant to 4chin.
A hundred anons are insignificant. The entirety of 4chin is insignificant to the human race, which is insignificant to the universe.
>But listen.
We may be insignificant, but every person has some people, friends, family, rivals, complete strangers, significant others, who make us feel less insignificant. This may sound empty, cliche and verbose, but it's so damn true. And it's important to keep these people close to you.
>>678529831
If you really want something you'll do it. Simple as. If you wanna move to China you'll do it if you wanna make a million you'll make these thing a reality
>>678533828
I'd go with weed, as much on the sativa side (not indica) as you can get where you are.
>not harmful
>organic
>never wanted to kms while even a little bit high
>>678533892
Yeah Sigmund Freud, please explain to me what proof you have to back up your claim.
Maybe seeing cocks makes people feel better, might even have more meaning than us doing this.
Me over here, hola migue :D
>>678529831
Do a flip faggot
>>678530725
Same; if you really understood life you'd understand it doesn't matter if I
>>678534440
>>678534679
You are still objectively insignificant, and those 2 people will eventually leave. It is empty, and cliché and it would be verbose if I knew what that was.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nlABFsv72Lg
Only way out.
>>678534818
I want to not be able to do something. Check mate
>>678531723
Under rated.
>also this
>>678535305
/b/ can be that thing, anon.
Just don't be that guy.
I know I'm fucking insignificant. But It's drugs mate.
I love you anon.
>>678535260
thx
People use depression as an excuse to be a fucking pussy loser instead of actually growing into a human being that is useful. If you claim to be depressed all that says to me is "Hi, I'm a pitiful fucking loser and I live to bag your groceries. Please have pity on me." Grow the fuck up.
Me. I see nothing in humanity, no hope, no faith. I want to kill myself already, I don't know what am I waiting for.
>>678535512
I have no fucking idea what you just said.
>English OP
>>678534864
seems rather self-evident doesnt it?
why do we give people anesthetic? to make them numb. why do we make them numb? to prevent the sensation of pain.
depression is a naturally occurring form of anesthetic that numbs mental pain but also cuts us off from our passions. this brings short term benefits but in the long term it becomes destructive and creates stagnancy that can turn into rot that eats away at your sense of self.
im not saying cock threads should be banned, I just think if theres room for them theres room for a depression thread.
>>678535900
Thanks man, that completely cured my suicidal thoughts and low self-esteem. Where did you get your degree btw ?
>>678534159
>First greentext
It's not true, but it's a feeling of longing for something that's mutually awful. I was actually sent off to a special school for kids with extreme depression and anxiety, and although they were often jellous of my carefree nature, I was always jellous of their passion and constant state of engagement. I know it'd be awful if I actually had it, but I can't shake the feeling nonetheless.
>Second greentext
I'm assuming you're not talking about the first part,sot what I meant by the straw-nihilistic comment was that you'd have t move on to create a world worth living in for yourself, but that the ambition required to do that doesn't naturally occur to most people. It could just as easily be the absurd man, enlightened person, etc. with such a vague usage.
And I've never Read Dorian, but I'll look'm up so I'll know what to look out for. I'm always way to heavy-handed with my pots online.
>>678535462
That pic is so accurate, I'm at boredom
>>678532081
You are foolish my friend. You either have no understanding of depression of you only have an understanding of your own depression and make the assumption that all depression is the same.
>>678531239
I go through phases like that as well, weeks at a time and then the feeling goes away. Never been diagnosed with anything so I have no idea either
>>678529126
ITT How many of you are emotional faggots, with bad dietary habits and a stagnant lifestyle that makes your brain feel like shit?
>>678534159
This wasn't me, for the record:
>>678533892
>20
>friends all moved off to university
>lost contact with everybody
>I sit rotting in this shit tier town
>no job
>no prospects
>feel like killing myself every day I'm so lonely
>going back to community college soon
>will be with a bunch of 16 year olds
>fuck my life
>>678529126
yes. considerably depressed
>>678536128
Yeah Tyler Durden, that really does make sense ...
No one forces you to see cocks, chill.
>>678536146
Consider, instead of dreading life, the only one you will have, that you could actually enjoy living it and not bitching about insignificant nonsense. Stop dragging ass and rise above. It doesn't really take a degree to know this. If that doesn't work then just overdose on heroins like the other "depressed" pieces of shit.
>>678529676
I wish i had this anon's energy.
I just hate my life and don't want to talk to anyone IRL
I am
>>678536259
I don't have depression. Again, wut. Why are people with depression so defensive when everyone acknowledges there shit as true? I'm defensive for the sake of discussion, but you're going to have to be a lot more specific if you actually want your comments to say something to me other than "I disagree", because that's all I really understand from reading that.
Many people self-diagnose themselves, yes.
Real depression, in small doses, is actually completely normal. Almost everyone (not severely disabled people) goes through it at least once in their life. So, to answer your question, most people here should say yes unless they're trolls, severely autistic, or are just too young to really have lived and learned what depression is and can be.
It's the people that let depression define them that really make me cringe.
However, we live in a very strange point in history unlike any other in that we can live life completely detached from other humans without much issue and waste our lives away without much consequence upon the world. Not enough to cause concern and therefore action, anyway.
For every Chad being a Chad, there is a NEET living their life completely off the physical radar, on the internet.
>>678536575
3edgy5me
Shizoid/Schizotypal here.My life is a nightmare.
but I'm curious has anyone ever cured himself from severe depression?any positive stories?
>be 19
>attending college
>started skipping lessons to do drugs with my bestfriend
>"these classes are easy anyway"
>start to realize that I'm fucking up college
>Can't attend classes anymore because I'm too far behind
>Do more drugs
>Do drugs everyday
>Tried 20 different drugs in 4 months
>feel like shit when I'm alone
Seriously feeling like shit now, constantly worrying about everything, getting major anxiety everytime I'm alone with my thoughts. Doctor prescribed me some xanax which I'm getting addicted on too. I feel like a fuck up
>>678536157
Still seems like you're being fairly dramatic here (Read dramatic as a genre or plays or films and not a white girl) but I guess you'd know more about it than me.
It doesnt matter if you read it or not, but Oscar Wilde was a cool fag, wrote some cool stuff.
>>678536918
>REAL depression
You guys realize that Major Depressive disorder only takes two weeks of symptoms to taxonomize, right? Or do you guys have Dysthymia?
Fuck lm alone alot barely have any friends or people to talk to i dont see a real reason to live other than some ilussions but yet i dont feel fucking depressed sometimes a bit sad yes but thats nothing my life is
Shit but im still happy even if my life
Consists only of pc games university online friends and work
Manic depression signing in...as the joke goes...its great, half the time.
Alcohol is holding most of it back but just found out i have a fatty liver, only a matter of time before sirosis kicks in (fuck spelling, im drunk).
Luckly, my kids are young enough to not know me when ive done.
>>678537250
You shouldnt feel that way. Youre doing great! Very logical and meaningful actions.
>>678529126
i cut myself with rusty spoons
>>678536422
We are all no one. It matters not my friend.
Yes. I try to mask it as much as i can though
I have a pretty shit life. A lot has happened in recent years.
However, I haven't been depressed since my teenage years. So I simply can't understand how anyone can get depressed.
Unless of course, you're all underage.
>>678536899
I wasn't being defensive at all, I was simply highlighting the fact that you have little to no understanding of depression.
Yes. I try to mask it as much as i can though. You wouldn't be able to if you met me but deep down i feel like nothing matters i don't know what to do with my life
>>678536575
Yeah, I am, the reason I am like this is clearly because I enjoy feeling bad, and conciously make that choice when I can choose otherwise. You failed to mention where you got your degree btw.
>>678537345
Okay, so since this is my personal brand of autism, would you mind telling me how to avoid seeming like a baiting edgelord next time I give my two cents? Because this happens with one out of every two posts I write. I know I can't put the counterarguments or justifications for the statements I'm making in the post because that'd be TL;DR as fuck, so what is it about my posts that is so inflammatory to bullshit detectors?
>>678538268
Edgelord detected
>>678537844
To be fair, most people with depression don't truly understand how they can be depressed either, they just are. That's the magic of being mentally unwell, it makes no fucking sense at all for the most part.
I'm depressed op. Been this way ever since I was little. Life has never been all that great. I would never commit suicide though. I couldn't do that to my family. I've been off my meds though and I won't lie. I've definitely thought about dying once or twice.
>>678538153
I don't have actual depression. I haven't been diagnosed but i feel like i am and feel miserable everyday. I try to make jokes to make myself feel better it doesn't really work though. It takes the edge off at least. I really don't know what to do
>>678537992
I was only trying to highlight the usage of the word "despair" in a context that I think devalues the word. It's like those autists who get butthurt when you call a frog a reptile or an otherkin a furry.
>>678538368
SHIT
>>678534159
Epicure proved it, should read
>>678538686
Relax m9 just banter
>>678536432
make the most of it and fuck one
>>678531239
>>678536345
You're bipolar. Go get it checked out.
>>678529126
I guess I am. Can't really find the light in anything any more, and every day ends exactly the fucking same.
>>678537349
It's not necessary to fit a MDD/dysthymia diagnosis to feel depressed
>>678538268
I'm just another retard, so I can't help you much here. Maybe read "The Picture Of Dorian Gray", see there harry/henry character.
I would say it sounds too melodramatic, like a caricature of life and not a description of life.
Call people fag and sound more coarse and dumb, would help you fit in here.
>>678529126
Let me just cast an alternative perspective on this for a minute.
Firstly, no-one is "unmotivated". "Unmotivated" is a label that others apply to us (or we apply to ourselves) when we aren't motivated towards meeting society's expectations of us. At the moment you are motivated towards isolation. Once you reject the "unmotivated" label and accept that you simply have motivations with which most other people don't agree, you can start sorting out the whys of it all. Whatever you are currently motivated towards is fulfilling some unrecognised need. Discover that need and you can begin to identify other ways of meeting it. Then you will have more options.
Secondly, depression is a perfectly natural response to a fucked up existence over which we had no choice and in which most of us have very little power. We are enslaved by capitalism and governments and manipulated into meeting expectations that often directly violate our own values and ensure we have little or no opportunity in life to pursue a truly meaningful and fulfilling existence. For most of us, life is at best filled with obligations and responsibilities thrust upon us; at worst, it is a daily struggle for survival. Given this, I think people who are depressed are among the most sane of us, and people who seem to be always happy are either ignorant of the true nature of existence or liars.
(to be continued)
>>678531441
It's easier to get emotional from a picture of a suffering animal than from a picture of two inanimate towers.
So no.
>>678539303
Probably not, manic episodes are hard to hide. Someone would have noticed
>>678538709
I dont look up to the helenic child fuckers that much, but tell me where he proved it and ill check it out
>>678539396
(continued)
Irvin Yalom, Jewish psychotherapist and author, developed a therapeutic model based on the philosophy of existentialism. Existential psychotherapy (sometimes referred to as "psychcosophy" due to his unique perspective combining psychology and philosophy) is centred on the four "givens" of the human condition: isolation, meaningless, mortaility and freedom and the ways in which we attempt to reconcile the dread we sometimes feel in response to these givens.
Isolation means that ultimately we are all alone. No-one else has the exact same experience of life as another, nor can others truly know and understand everything about us. The dread of isolation is often reconciled through intimate relationships in which, although we know that ultimately we are alone, we can both share our experiences and expand our understanding of the world through others sharing theirs with us. Intimate relationships are also an important source of pleasure, providing companionship and if we are lucky, intense sexual connection. The dominant culture and capitalist system don't want us to have intimate connection. Our culture is hugely individualistic; it promotes separation and disconnection from each other because it doesn't want us meeting each other's needs for free when they can be sold to us in the form of services.
Meaninglessness refers to the fact that our existense has no ultimate purpose. We do not have destinies, nothing is "meant to be", nothing "happens for a reason". The dread that comes with recognising this meaninglessness can be addressed by accepting that we are responsible for creating our own meaning and purpose, while being careful to ensure that in exercising our chosen purpose we are not impeding others from finding and exercising theirs.
all of us
>>678539570
(continued)
Mortality is the understanding that we will all die and we all die alone. The dread that arises from this particular given comes from fear of extinction, the extinguishing of our identity and our inability to control or predict it. This fear can be mitigated by seeking meaning and purpose in life and by connecting with others on an intimate level. In this way, the memories that others carry of us, the impact we have on their lives and the world around us is a defacto immortality; our actions make a permanent ripple in the world that is celebrated by those we love and who love us in return and whose lives are changed as a result of having known us.
The final existential given we have to address is that of freedom. Yes, our choices and opportunities in life are seriously curtailed but within that framework, we make thousands of choices every single day, most trivial but some are hugely impacting on our lives and on the lives around us. Even within a system of limitations, we still have freedom of choice, even if the choices we have available to us aren't very appealing. The dread associated with accepting this given is the realisation that if we have freely made one choice over another, then we must also accept responsibility for the consequences of those choices. One way to address this dread is to clearly identify our values when we create meaning for our lives and allow our choices and behaviour to be guided by those values. When unexpected consequences arise from our choices, no matter how noble our intentions may have been, we accept responsibility, learn from them and use our newfound wisdom to expand and increase our choices in the future.
>>678539340
True, but sincemost people here are self-diagnosers, so I thought I'd be worth pointing out. I have no problem with the post I was responding to.
>>678539552
>epicurus
>a child fucker
lol no
>>678539357
kk, preciate it man. Will do.
Diagnosed at 21, started meds at 28. Just about 31 now; no end in sight. Not sure what the point of trying is. Don't really give a fuck, would rather not die because then my bf might be sad. That's pretty much the only reason I haven't killed myself. There's no light at the end of the tunnel.
>>678538925
I haven't responded to a text or call from anyone who isn't my mom in over a year and I only leave my apartment to get food once every few days and spend every day getting high/drunk. so yeah probably depressed
I'm not depressed, i'm crazy and i have psychotic features. Depression is not for me i fucking love life, but my brain is fucking weird
>>678539953
Agoraphobia?
>>678536575
You're right. I think the only reason I haven't killed myself is because I have family members that would be devestated if I was gone. I'm barely even a human being anymore and I just want to end it.
>>678529126
Depressed and a diagnosed high functioning psychopath. Pulling myself out of this hole, it's getting better. Slowly.
>>678539747
a diagnosis consists of a 5 minute conversation with a doctor which amounts to:
dr: whats wrong?
anon: ive been feeling down, I dont enjoy the stuff I used to, I sleep too much/too little, life feels meaningless, I feel like a failure
dr: how long have you felt that way
anon: a few weeks/months
dr: you have depression I prescribe you citalopram maybe you should speak to a therapist
anon: thanks doc
you dont need to attend medical school for 8 years to know you're depressed, but theres no reason not to see a doctor about it.
>>678539803
Athens had a lot of older man who fucked teen boys in exchange for tutelage or something.
I clearly don't know that much about it, but you should check it out. Also, you didnt mention where he proved anything.
>>678533828
>>678534835
I hate weed, used to love it, get paranoid from it now.
mdma is the way to go, if you want a cure to a past trauma or just social anxciety step 1 is mdma. If you got real depression (this is rare) it would help... for a short while... maybe
>>678529126
i really wish my country didn't have gun control. Then i could just put a gun to my temple, pull the trigger and drift off to Hades, no pain, no fuss. One click and then sleep.
But no. I have to learn how to be really good with knots, or ruin some train drivers day.
Depressed reporting in
>>678529126
Me. On Tevavenacyclin.
>>678532897
this
>>678540917
no drugs? what about exsanguination? or did they take away plastic knives and spoons, too?
>>678541000
nice trips
>>678534564
how serious are you with this
>>678540917
Dude fuck pain, just get a loan. If you have to from a loanshark.
Buy a lot of heroin, and OD.
>>678529676
You're obviously too young to realize any better
>>678532272
Yup, I hear ya anon.
>>678541000
A little gift from heaven
>>678529126
cheers up guys, watch fnny videos
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DKzHh55gcfE
>>678541231
>>678532897
sick fags pls go
>>678531723
Knowing I'm going to die one day brings me comfort.
Everyday is closer to finally naturally dying.
>>678540746
This, but if you know what the root of the problem is but you don't want to confront it, just do it. It's obviously leagues harder in practice, but the people who pill up who are depressed for a confrontable and realistically "solvable" reason seem to die a little inside.
>>678529126
hello OP depressed fag here
>>678531441
People dying can be sad if you know them, otherwise it's not. Seeing an animal suffer like this hurts because it reminds you of how horrible we are as a species. We put these things on display for personal profit, and ignore how shitty it must be for the animal. I hate going to most zoos for this reason, they make me depressed. I haven't seen a single zoo that didn't make me feel disgusted.
>>678540746
i used to fucking love citalopram, but it's made me feel suicidal lately so yeahhh
any recommendations for replacement?
>>678533828
If you are on antidepressants DO NOT do mdma. It can kill you.
>>678539711
i love you for that information. currently i am motivated to sit around, not care too much about my diet and not shower for days. last year this time, in this exact situation, i hated myself for that. now i love myself no matter what (thank you meditation, also might have to do with the fact that i am needed at the place i currently work at (full caretaking of seriously disabled children)). fuck what you think society demands from you. its mostly cruel and not fair at all.
Posible, never seen anybody about it though
>>678530725
Me too.
>>678542674
Dis.
>>678533016
im a bearded man and a very hairy one. im not saying i have al the testosterone in the world but i dont feel like i have it low. i dont have big muscular mass nor adams apple but i think that is just normal
>>678540746
shit is terrible in the netherlands man
you have to wait 2 months (because of a waiting list) to "gain access" to a clinic, unless its an emergency (if you're full schizo, you're in immediately), then it's 1 month of filling in forms and questionnaires to rule out the obvious shit ("have you experienced strong halucinations in the past 12 months? No? Good, no schizophrenia) and THEN you get the 5 minute convo, and you get your meds and you go check in with the shrink every 2 weeks (for 5 minutes again)
>>678532081
you cant cure depression with "good moods"
I think I am depressed.
Nothing I can really do to be honest. Every time I try to make my life better I end up spiraling back to a fattening, sleeping marathon, with copious amounts of porn and alcohol.
I'm just hoping I die of a terminal illness so my pathetic existence will cease. It would probably be a much better world without some autistic, beta, pseudo-comedian prancing about, making everyone feel ill.
>>678529126
Only reason I haven't killed myself is cuz it would kill my mom
>>678534835
I smoked shit tons of weed and yes, it makes me not want to kill myself but the entire "harmless" shit I dont buy
>it's natural
snake venom is natural as well
smoke is still smoke, it contains all kinds of carbonized shit that sticks in your lungs
>>678543545
>>678541294
>>678541484
Yeah i know theres other ways if i tried hard enough. A gun just seems like a real problem solver. I make fun of Americans, but its just sour grapes really. I'm jelly that they have access to a sure thing. Every other technique just seems like a shot in the dark, whereas a shotgun in your mouth would blow your head clean off.
> depression for 2 years
>take prozac
>lack energy
>indifferent to everything
Today I heard Michael Jackson for the first time in a long time. Holy shit did that help.
>>678543766
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5B0itw6rmmI
>>678532081
that's a difference without a distinction. all you do is turn the argument around another definition.
>>678529126
My fucking shrink is "worried about me"
bitch I'm just fucknig tried of playing this game
>>678543545
I love faggots having this "honor" belief xD why is this not a meme yet it's been said in this thread alone 9/10 of the times someone is describing their "depression"
I'm depressed, have been for more than a decade. I've spent the best part of the last 5 years isolated from the outside world, rarely venturing outside. I've lost all of my friends and even the relationships with my family are breaking apart now. Because of the idle life I live my body is slowly falling apart now and I can feel it happening. I'm socially dysfunctional and constantly tense, twitching at every little noise in the night with the belief that someone is in my house and trying to hurt me. I've tried to kill myself two times over the years, both times with alcohol and tablets. I often have what I think are panic attacks in which I genuinely believe I am dying in that moment and those thoughts stick with me for a long time afterwards, occupying my mind, making me believe I am still dying. A few days ago I was sat thinking about things and I came to the conclusion that my life is so worthless that I may as well be dead, but then I figured I might as well give it on more try before calling the shot. So for the last couple days I've been spending the early hours of the morning just walking, in an attempt to give my body what it needs, maybe even my mind. Walking doesn't seem like much of an achievement to most but to me it's a very big one, it's more than I've done in a long time and it forces me to confront my anxiety, paranoia and health. Hopefully this is going to be a stepping stone to a healthier mind and a better life so I'm going to see it through for as long as it takes and, who knows, maybe in 5 or 10 years time I might find myself in a place where I'm happy with the way things have gone. I guess it's better to have a late start than an early finish.
>>678543491
get fit and meditate. once you are, youre gonna notice not much has changed, life is still poitnless and cruel. but youll be stronger in body and mind and take it like a man
Some of these half assed human excuses need to go out for a healthy run or two
>>678543405
But the idea is that the "goal" of people with depression is to raise their emotional state, since it's characterized by a low average emotional state. Not the means, but the ends. The same can't be said of despair, where the ends would theoretically be concrete "hope" (not that that's always harder to find or anything), but the suffers are rendered too indifferent to classify it as such.
Then again, most people use despair and depression interchangeably so who gives a fuck amirite
>>678544074
walking is an awesome start man. stay strong, get stronger.
id say 99.999...%
happy people dont use 4chan
>>678531722
im taking 4 meds and my life slowly begins to look brighter
>>678544074
You're kinda like me except for the fact that i'm more positive and i don't dwell on all this bullshit. Start running, get good at running and then get good at other stuff , 3km is a good run to begin with. I use it as a tool to cleanse my mind and start fresh whenever i need
>>678536365
>implying depression solely relies on physical cues and that depression can't be existential in nature
>>678543545
Same. Considered committing suicide in a foreign country, so she can tell herself that i just disappeared. Maybe that would hurt a little less. Pic related.
>>678531728
Only the non-depressed reproduce.
>>678544651
>existential in nature
Enjoy that "life" of yours faggot
>>678543991
>Depression: Consitently low average emotional state, which can lead to flight of hopelessness despite the constructive (supposedly) nature of emotions, usually characterized by internal tumult
>Despair: a logically(as opposed to emotionally)-oriented acknowledgment of a hopeless state of things, usually characterized by indifference
>>678544682
nice meme
>>678544661
Ya I've thought about making it look like I left and and just leave a note. But really just go off and end it.
>>678544651
I am
therefore i'm existential in nature
le depression
muh emotions
very intellectual
>>678544509
The only thing that makes me depressed is that I'll never get past the second boss of the first game.
Jesus fucking christ.
I am.
>>678529126
Right here mate. Just moved from California to Colorado. Don't know anyone here. Moved for the money. Left everyone and everything back in cali. Plus I already got into it with a meth head. I'm sure my insomnia will be fun tonight
>>678544651
>Existential in nature
Actually is a relative term, so no.
Also, fucking wat
>>678544651
well, it is related to reduces serotonin activity
so that makes it kind of physical
>>678529126
I tell myself I'm not.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PD3hTWMx9jU
95% of the people in this thread
>>678544971
>>678545217
>>678545432
I forgot that no one on /b/ is capable of critical thinking
>>678545587
beautiful
I'm never in a really dark place but I'm never happy. I don't enjoy anything and I'm not good at anything.
I have no friends, no phone, no social media presence, kissless virgin, failed school, no job etc.
The only thing that keeps me going currently is trying to plan an effective suicide in a country without guns.
>>678532081
I believe I understand what you mean ... in the end i am always right
>>678529126
Pretty much any inconvenience big or small in my life is immediately met with the thought of "I should just kill myself".
I don't even know why anymore.
So yeah, I guess so.
All these anons without depression desperately trying to explain what it is to be depressed while all those with depression are quietly sat trying to understand what it means to be alive.
>>678545607
You mean nobody is capable of critical thinking but you m'lady mrs. intellectual
>>678540683
You can't be diagnosed a psychopath nowadays. It's also not very common for psychopaths to be depressed
>>678545757
i know that feel, bro. You looking at train tracks too?
I am. Just got a letter form the doctors saying they can give my CBT for it and some other shit, but that they do it in groups.
My problem is social situations involving groups of people.
My therapist/assessor knew this.
Looks like I won't be getting help anytime soon.
>>678545798
You even threw in some depressed commas in there goddamn that was beautiful such an artistic expression
>>678531239
Puberty bro, it continues until you're like 20 or so
>>678544651
>>678545432
I'm sorry, but did you mean depression regarding existential crises? Because we thought you were talking about an existentially-imbued depression, given how fucking obvious the formal is.
>Actually though, greentext your sobstory
Every single one of us.
>>678545757
In a list trying to describe why your life is worthless did you really just include "no social media presence" ?
We got ourselves a fat case of beautiful snowlake over here damn you are fucking pathetic
>>678545953
Okay, I'm sorry, but this makes me confused as all hell:
Are there people who call themselves intellectuals out there?
If so, what the fuck?
>>678546345
dont be a dick
>>678542674
I don't think suicidal fags would even care tho
>>678546408
You tell me m'lady i am but dust in the wind compared to your existential greatness
>>678546033
It's pretty funny when you on a site supposedly listing effective suicide methods when it's really obvious the true purpose of the site is to try and convince you that no suicide method actually works.
Jumping in front of a train does sound worthwhile, if a bit messy.
ive been lurking on and off since atleast 2009 and this is my first successful thread. thank you, I feel slightly less worthless.
>>678543620
Then use a bong/water pipe, the water filters out carbon (the only cancer-causing shit in the smoke)
Or if you're still concerned, make tea or edibles
>>678532081
I am this guy and what is this
>>678545798
Also what the fuck is this
>>678546150
It's been discussed, stop replying to old shit
I am every day I see a world that is going into the gutter, I worked so hard for all the things that I have yet I stand to lose them all if this election fails. I don't want our streets of AMERICA littered with turbin trash, I want proper vetting, a wall on mexico, and the tax plan doesn't look bad either to tell the truth.I am depressed about life about where we are going as a country. I hate to see poor people on the streets because we don't have the ability to employ our people, our system is shit. I am sad that reality is polls are rigged Hillary already won a liar, trash nothing but trash. Would she say hello to you on a subway? nah she would huddle up in the corner as if we are not good enough to be in her presence. If I couldd have one wish come true I would wish for trump to be president.
>>678546345
Don't be fucking dumb, not having a social media presence in the current year is a pretty big fucking deal.
>>678546670
I don't know who you are. I came to this thread late. I haven't read what's been going on, I just came in to vent myself.
But whoever you are, you're not worthless.
>>678529126
Almost all of us, I'd imagine
>pic related, this is what I look like in my worst depths of hopelessness
>>678546552
I'm not the guy who posted that. I was just reminded since you said the magic word.
>>678530725
This.
Been seeing therapy for a while.
My question is: how many people also have some form of anxiety?
They generally work hand in hand, so just curious.
>>678545854
this
>>678546678
also don't smoke through plastic bottles buy a propper innert glasspiece and treat her well.
and definitely dont smoke (often) out of aluminium foil cone pieces or can strat
>>678546479
Dont be a dick? don't be a dick?
My psychotic episodes puts me in my bathroom for hours trying to figure out where they have put the listening advices and why they are spying on me. My fucking life is one day about trying to get my shit together and work out and educate myself and the other day about understanding what tools i used when i killed my friends on a rampage ( delusion)
So shut the fuck up with your "don't be a dick"
Most of these faggots are hobby depressed because they're weak individuals and they're walking around using it as an excuse to not live the life that they enjoy, i'll live an more extraordinary life than all of these shitheads because i put in the work and i know nothing else than the will i have, so fuck all this and all these people trying to identify themselves with these "issues" that easily could be solved with a good diet exercise and hobbies. jesus
>>678534679
it would be still so nice if I could have the two of em close but circumstance are such that i cannot do it so yea , I feel more alone then ever
>>678530725
But never on Thursdays
I have all the symptoms. I guess?
>>678546812
thanks. it sure feels like it sometimes.
as stupid as it sounds when ive made threads that I thought would be successful in the past and no one has responded Ive felt completely dejected because I thought I had some understanding and something in common with you anons. I know thats retarded as fuck but its true.
>>678547195
Go away, fag.
I just wish I could talk to people like a normal person.
God left me unfinished.
>>678529126
I used to be, then I quit visiting 4chan and it actually helped.
(This isn't a joke/shitpost)
All the Anons depressed enough to kill themselves should form a militia.
I bet you would have enough to take a small country.
>>678535900
idk about other people but my depression is a result of being a fucking loser not the other way around
>>678547380
>I know thats retarded as fuck but its true.
Well next time you feel that way just remind yourself that, chances are, we've all done it too. Think how many anons have posted in this thread, basically screaming for help and disguising their posts and just a rant or something they want to get off their chest, when really they're asking for help and not got a response. Think bigger than that; all the anons in all the feels threads that have ever been, with their questions and help unanswered.
We've all felt like shit after it. But we've all got that in common. But one day we get our questions answered, in another thread. So next time you feel like shit because no one replied to your thread, don't be sad. Make a new fucking thread. Because there are always people on this degenerate website that need help, and only by making these kinds of threads can they eventually get the help they need, whatever form that may take.
Ooohhhhh me
Not depressed, but feeling miserable at times
I'm fine, cheer up you depresso cunts!
Very depressed, very suicidal. I don't want to kill myself, just short on options I guess.
>>678547507
That's the spirit kid
emotionaaal emotional yeah
>>678529126
I don't think I'm depressed, but rather angry at the world.
>Be Me 19
>Fat as fuck, Unattractive
>No time to work out
>work Overnights at Fast food
>Clean grease for 8 hours
>No Love life obviously
>No Motivation for a better job
>Repeat
To be honest, I shouldn't bitch, there are Anons out there who have a far worse situation that I am in
>>678547861
I'm 6' even & still don't see many options.
>>678539910
You were actually fine and right on. I know depression, and at its deepest level in my experience, comes despair. Which is the absolute absence of hope. It's difficult to make these things sound humble and down-to-earth because they're towering emotions.
Depression is always enjoyable. You want to fling yourself off a building, you make the gun hand gesture to your head, you throw yourself into worse and worse thoughts just to see what's in it for you. You act out your sadness. But despair brings apathy.
It's like you feel yourself dying and, contrary to depression, you can't do anything against it. It doesn't hurt, it just feels awfully grey and dusty and old. And you hold onto it because in that moment, that's all you know. I've been in this state for more than two days so far, I know people worse off and I don't wish it on anyone.
You're right about the cure, too. It comes with palpable solutions to your problems. And it may seem funny, but masturbation may have saved my life because it shows me that there are different emotions. It's awkward when you put just your body in it and not your mind. But it helps.
>>678547810
good feels anon, I know them feels.
Honestly I don't know why I keep going on.
>>678529126
me tbh, deadbeat family no future, broke up with gf, excessive masturbation, only friends are EXTREMELY autistic as well as myself being autistic.
>>678548055
If you dont have time to work out, change your diet.
cut out soda and other bullshit. you will see results just from that.
>>678547682
>>678547682
>>678547682
>>678548129
Are you taking care of your body with regular exercise? are you engaging in meaningful hobbies ( that make you feel a sense of belonging) every week?
If any of these questions are no you should get off your ass and stop being a faggot
>>678546670
You're okay in my book.
Also, depressionfags rock, we know how to roll.
>>678547810
well put
>>678548554
>one off
kms
>>678548055
Ride a bike nigga
Me. GF broke up with me 9 months ago. Depressed af. Eat food everyday be a fat fuck. Started smoking weed. In pain every fucking day.... Quit the gym. GG. Also my only friends are autistic as fuck. Btw. Send me your pepe's.
>>678548394
I have, I've limited sweets and junk to a very minimal, greasy shit has been dead to me since the first month I've started working.
I've been at my job for almost a year
I guess I'm pretty depressed. I saw a therapist, but then my dad made me stop because he said that I was just being a pussy.
>>678548612
Got mine stolen, probably by you, Nigga
>>678529126
Diagnosed though coping well on Sertraline.
>>678547380
>>678547810
But you know what else? Let's say 9 times out of 10 you don't get a reply. So you make 9 pleas for help and get nothing back. That's fucking awful right? That feels like no one gives a flying fuck about you, right?
But guess what?
You make the 10th fucking post. You fucking do it anyway - in your head, it's because you've got nothing to lose. But in reality it's because you're fucking stronger than you think you are. You've sat through 9 rejections, 9 times being ignored and getting nowhere, and rather than give up you fucking push for that 1 time when you get a reply and someone makes you feel better.
And that's all it takes. 1 god damn reply can and will make the other 9 failures worth it. All it takes is 1 random act of kindness, one motivational thought or sentence from some fucking anon on this site and it can help. So when your time comes round and someone makes you feel better, like it has in this thread, you make another fucking thread and you give that god damned kindess right back to the anon praying for their 10th post to get a response. We've all got our problems, we've all got shit in common. Some of us have experienced help on this site, some haven't. Some need it, some want to give it.
So make another fucking thread. Every god damn time anon.
>>678548679
Dude i feel for you, keep going nigga.
>>678548880
I dindu nuffin
>>678548450
What's your fucking problem? I have two jobs and a girlfriend, I am slim and I eat healthy. Just because I have chemical imbalances I don't necessarily have to be a worthless idiot. I'm also a senior in college and the best fucking German/English translator in my entire faculty.
I pull my own weight and I'd pull yours too.
But I have my issues and they're all family-borne. I have never once attempted suicide because I prefer life.
>>678545854
^^This
>>678547195
Every muh depression kid in this thread needs to read this
>>678548179
I've wondered that myself, I guess you get used to the passing moments of happiness however short. I'll do it eventually but when I do I don't want to hurt anyone especially my GF.
>>678549085
gtfo this thread faggot
>>678548938
This
>>678549218
Why?
>>678549085
I don't have a problem just trying to help! you seem to have good shit going for you so enjoy it you are meaningful and beautiful, look at all the things you have around you! they're full of meaning.
Appreciate it, it's all the meaning appreciation, look at all that, look at her ass and feel it, cum inside her and peel it
>>678545262
It's not that hard anon. You can do it
>>678549399
huh.
>>678536432
This was basically my life three years ago.
A sense of direction is absolutely necessary for getting rid of that feeling. Start trying to get a plan for your life, and work hard. Things will turn out better than you'd think, anon.
>>678545947
Quoting you on that, anon.
yo guys, how do I stop being lazy and get my shit together any tips bro's? <3
>>678549571
I may not have given up on life, but thanks to you I'm prepared to die.
I guess I know how I'm spending my Sunday.
>>678532081
This thread's gonna 404 soon. I've got to go to bed anyway.
Whoever the fuck you are reading this, whether you're an anon wishing your post got a reply, or an anon wanting to give advice to someone but couldn't because of the 404.
Make
Another
Fucking
Thread
Every god damned time. Peace out.
>>678549399
Thank you, that makes more sense than questioning random things. I said I know despair, but I also know true happiness. And currently, while my life is going to shit because I can't scrape enough money together for an obligatory semester abroad and I may have wasted the only chance I have to academically prove my worth, I am learning about all the wonderful things in the world, I am looking for new things to do and new people to help or be friends with because my life may suck, my psyche may suck, but hell, I'm not gonna.
Also, she has that ass and it makes things better. But she doesn't understand and gets really helpless when I lash out, feels like shit.
On new year's, I wanted to break up and she cried for the first time in the four years I've known her
>>678547195
there's something seriously wrong with you
Kill me now please
>>678545947
Joke's on you, you're trying to describe what it's like to be depressed
Ha
>>678549763
Start running everyday, start with a short run so your lazy ass won't feel like giving up on it. take it to heart and see it as a challenge, if you can't even do this for yourself just go and die
>>678529126
I would just like tons a I don't think half these ppl are actually depressed just to lazy to give a shit.
My father was a H.A biker that beat me and screamed in my face from the day I was born. Then he raped my 12 yr old babysitter got her hooked on drugs and whored her out. My mom was a stripper that wasn't around ever. Dad went to prison on my 4th birthday. I grew up with a dislocated shoulder and broken collar bone. I'm literally crooked. And it has caused problems all through my arm. I cannot even lift 10 pounds without being in extreme pain.I got expelled from school in gr 9.
My younger brother died 3 years ago and my long term gf left 3 weeks before that. I'm completely alone and broken as fuck. And I live on cheap pasta.
I smoke a pound of weed a month. It's the only thing putting me to sleep and keeping me from killing myself.
I'm 25 years old.
That my /b/ros is depression.
>>678545947
It is now fashionable to have a mental illness, people wear it like a badge of honour.
I can't say anything or I'll be branded the oppressor.
I shouldn't care, if anything it will drive me to do the deed.
I've dreamt, thought, and fantasized about killing my self for the last 8 years. I do not have depression because I do not want to stoop to the same levels as 'Normies' I can't think of a better term for them.
My friend I think is fucking autistic, went and got diagnosed as bipolar. I think it is a load of bollocks.
I can't even argue that everyone is clinically depressed. I'll be honest I'm a gen z fag and the statistically 1 in 10 people have add/adhd.
As if any of you lot give a shit. I could moan and whine paragraph after paragraph and achieve nothing.
So you cunts on the other side.
>>678529126
3 years running.
Also diagnosed with multiple personality disorder.
>>678550085
Don't enjoy girls that "understand" because most don't, just enjoy their cunts
>>678532081
If that's TTGL, that is not what the anime was about it was about a boy a nobody who went through life. His father figured died can be related to RL father he had to nut up or shut up. He nutted up but in the end it was luck that gave him the courage to defeat the universe.
>>678550373
Do you want to talk?
>>678537844
so i was a happy little chap grew up with friends
the ones that started thinking differently got distant the rest were alright
then life kicked in had to go to university
failed it tried to start work
applied to some legit jobs as i have graduated highschool as a programmer and I was having
some CISCO training as well
then tried for some common jobs they take students like bars restaurants and shit
tried at shit tier jobs
got denied from KFC , McDonalds and twice from subway
found a job at a call center
job was trash but paid good
found great people
job got worse as conditions changed - no internet and cell phones allowed
no social life outside of job
people started leaving and then i was away from my crew in a different team
found out that my old "friends" are not really my friends
job got really fucked up have to leave
no1 respects me at the job
my requsts got denied
my life is a circle from home to the job
living the life of a loser
apply for other jobs still get the middle finger even now that i have some experience and some background
tl;dr the universe just decides not pick me
>>678548938
op here, seems like a good framework for life. perseverance and endurance is key. I never thought this day would come but it did. maybe b isnt terminally cancerous after all.
>>678550303
Thank you man. I will consider this <3
>>678529126
I want to be a pretty Jaoanese girl. \(,'_',)/
>>678550881
*Japanese
>>678550377
You do not choose to be depressed. You do not choose to be too weak to get out of bed, out of the shower, out of the house, to work or school, to family and friends. Don't fucking tell me that it's my choice. Because if I had been there for my brother when I could have, maybe he wouldn't have drowned his brain in pills. Maybe they wouldn't be thinking about putting him in terminal care where they're not even trying to fix him anymore. Where they are just going to give him a place to die.
>>678550503
Talking won't help anything.
Thanks tho.
