why is there no feels thread?
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why is there no feels thread?
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>>678375993
damn..
>>678375993
sometimes i wish i could talk to like-minded people like you in real life. i feel like there's no one i can truly relate to
>>678375993
i'm a no-life loser and video games make me very happy.
>>678375993
Shit man...
>>678377009
You feelin what I'm feelin
>>678376800
What is this, a greentext for ants?
>>678377498
click on the god damn file name
>>678377498
ctrl + scroll is your pal
>>678377584
ctrl + 0 = actual size
>>678377079
>>678377799
>>678377869
>>678377930
>>678377985
>>678378018
Well dear b im depressed as fuck as I litterly regret leaving my ex but its to complicated to tell her how I feel, litterly havent told my current gf how I feel and such because worried about het to freak out...
>>678376506
Therapists show the same level of acceptance you find on like minded persons :P
btw. Im going through a horrible time right now
>be 23 yo traumatized guy(Raised by Narcisstic Borderline mother, and brothe rwho is shit aswell)
>had only a few one night stands mostly with ugly or mentally ill girls(had first sex when i was 21)
>after 1 1/2 year therapy i realize that im emotionally fucked regarding girls... they trigger my trauma sometimes, im often the nice guy because i don't know any boundaries.
>still alive though, getting my appartment in the enxt 1-2 Months so i have to never see my mtoher again.
>have to relearn that i can show my own emotions not the ones my mother wants me to have.
>have to learn to express the emotions properly
>Have to live with a fucking huge hatred against my mother and brother for the rest of my live.
>can't work in stressfull environemnts, or at jobs where i have a boss over me. If so i get triggered.
>Only way out for me is becoming artist or something, luckily i live in a country with awesome healthcare and jobcenter... they want me to study at the movie acadamy... othe roption is also becoming an actor, since not expressing my own emotions, and wearing a mask is probably my biggest achievement.
>hope i'll ever find a girlfriend that accepts me how i am, especially with my lack of masculine behaviour, something that i never learned in my live and i perceive it as weird and unreflected(i have some shizoid tendencies)
>my life is a mess. But im still here. Sometimes i'm so down and full of hatred and sadness that i cry... its pretty much everyday or second day. And i dont want to take any meds
>my only motivation is to achive a way of earning enough money to make my Brothers and mothers live somehow completely miserable so i can watch them suffer.
>>678378073
Saw this in another thread. Shit got to me.
>>678378073
Fucking little bootlicking faggot
>>678378018
I know this feel
>>678378091
i have also a stupid story :/
>meet hot girl(has borderline and bolemia though)
>have sex
>sex relationship
>i develope feels
>tell her
>she rather want to stay friends and no sex anymore
>mfw i friendzoned myself
>i supported her several weeks, cuz of her problems she often cried daily
>dumped her anyways since i couldn't take this shit longer.
>i wish i would have behaved better so she could imagine a Relationship with me... the stuff we talked about was so deep i thought we are soulmates or something.
>going different paths hurts me till this day. but she made me suffer.
anyone got anything they'd like to share?
>>678378208
this always gets me.
>>678378577
Thanks mate for sharing made me feel a little better, but to be honest my story is more cringe then stupid shameful but true :/
>>678378142
>triggered
>>678378882
yea by writing this i want to talk to her again... i dumped her a week ago... :( and every day i know she is crying... her therapy starts in 1 month. so she is completely on her own. ANd the thought that she cries every night and hates herself(now even more since i stopped friendship) is just horrible. But i guess thats what borderliners are known for. Never had a girl that was so passionate while sex.... i gave her multiple orgasms, and she spazzmed like a goddess. She did stuff with my dick i never knew girls could do that :(.
>>678379348
>tfw I don't even have to pretend because no one cares that I'm completely alone
>>678375993
Could that guy be any more melodramatic?
>>678379509
I wish i wouldnt have fucked up the sex relationship
>>678378223
>>678377391
The one with the fucking kid covering himself and his dead sister man, I fucking lost it.
>>678379732
>>678377676
Hahaha, I'm told this like 8 times a day.
>being married
>feels good man
Bawww threads have much less power over me now.
>>678376372
That would be fucking amazing to have a window like that.
>>678379348
Holy fucking shit
>be me 13
>used to play ban all,was youngest in the team
>Tournament
>My brother takes me to the bus stop bcs we going to other country.
>Bus came,everyone got in
>I think he left I sit alone by the window I look out see him sad,looking at me,sad becaus ehe knows I have no friends
My heart broke
It's been many years and ibstill have no friends
>>678378259
Fuckin shit, the final straw.
>>678377248
Goddamnit. Can't handle this right now
I'm going to try to explain something I experience frequently. It might sound confusing or stupid or fake but I honestly don't know how common this is or if its healthy. But here goes:
I sometimes get bouts of sadness that can last for days or even weeks. I like to write about my emotions in a journal I keep to try and quell those emotions. But that's not what I'm going to describe. Kind of. Sometimes, if I'm writing stuff down, I have the urge to write down strange questions like "Why am I here?" and "Who did this?" or "What's going on?" but it's not like I don't know the answers to these questions. I do know them. I just don't know why I feel compelled to write them down. Other times, if I'm very stressed out, I'll ask these questions too. But I'll speak them out loud. Is this normal or no? I feel like I might need help but idk where to even begin googling this symptom.
>>678377422
Suicide or martyrdom are the only choices left
Sometimes, I'll be in a room and feel like I'm alone, even if it's full of other people. I want to cry, but I can't. I ran out of tears long ago.
>>678375993
One solution. MOVE. MOVE THE FUCK AWAY FROM THERE. Leave your old life behind. Doesnt matter where you go, as long its not a shithole. Make a plan. Just go somewhere else. I was in the same situation as you. Ever since I moved away my whole life changed. New place, new people, new YOU. Make a plan. Do it. Change wont come unless you initiate it. Dont give up. Never give up. You can do it I believe in you. Nobody believed in me and I made it. I had nothing. It was hard. Extremely hard. There where moments where I just wanted to give up. But I fought. As long as you dont stop fighting you can change. 18 is not that old!! I was 24 when I the desperation was so high, that my motivation came from fighting the desperation. You are not weak anon, society made you believe you are weak. There must be things which interest you. Go after them. Interest and curiousness is the biggest motivator, believe me. Follow your interest and you will develope goals. Its NEVER too late! Life is like a wave, you will have bad times, but if its so bad then it can only get better. But you gotta do something. The biggest mistake you can make is, do the same over and over and expect change. It wont come from itsself. Just try something new.
>explorer the world
>find your interests (ANYTHING)
>learn about them (easy if you're interested in them)
>become an expert in them!
>find a job where you deal with your interests
>low pay? doesnt matter! As long as you can survive!
>new job= new people you meet
>fun job because it interests you? when you have fun at what you are doing other people will see this!
>some may like you! dont give a shit about the rest!!
There are people out there that can help you. Find them! I seriously believe that no human deserves it to feel like you feel. And remember, it could always be worse. Always look at the bright side, even in the darkest moments. You do have strenghts, everyone does! You just havent found them. Save this! Read it again and again!
>>678383358
this one's kind of ylyl/cringe/feels mixed
you could perceive this any way
>>678383358
In thinking about pulling an Alexander supertramp. That or suicide. On already going to be homeless so why not hitch hike around the country. Or just kill myself. One of the two.
>>678383819
I kek'd a little
>>678383885
Do it Anon. Do it ( The tramp ofc)
>>678377248
actually brought a tear to my eye..
Anyone have a couch i can use for the night? I can bring anything but alcohol, it's too close to 9 to buy anything.
I'm in the Twin Cities, btw
>>678384584
if you were in mid FL, sure
>>678384511
Well I can't stay homeless where I'm at. I'd probably get raped.
Gf dumped me today
RIP Tim...
>>678379732
Fucking saved
>>678378022
Jesus Christ...
>>678378142
Hit the weights pussy
Trigger till there's nothing left to trigger.
>>678384752
Let me tell you something, Anon. I know you don't know me. But if you're homless, I have a solution for you. It may sound weird. But the thing is. You dont have to do anything for the solution, other than survive. Survive long enough until something will happen. That something is a big event. This event will be global. It will be during the next decades. I cannot tell you when this is going to happen. 2030/40 THE LATEST. Maybe even earlier. But please trust me when I tell you, it will happen. This event will change the world. It will change every single life of every single human on earth. This event will be the greatest financial crisis the world has ever seen. It will change the world like no crisis before. It will change everything. Then the cards will be redistributed. Trust me. I dont know when or whats going to happen after that. But it will be a different world. Just survive until it happens. And trust me, you will know when its happening.
>>678377248
Reminds me of Clannad. Sad.
4 years from now. I'd like to know how he's been since then.
>>678384791
gets me everytime...goodnight sweet prince
>>678384752
You can stay in my car with me :)
>>678378073
>Oh hey, look at us pretending to give a shit about cancer boy
>>678378091
>>678385676
Why the hate?
>>678380297
I understand this
>>678378259
Poor dude.
>>678384752
>>678385414
You until the event
https://discord.gg/0n9lIV2j8nqhP73v DQDQDQDQ
I have my ACT test tomorrow and I'm nervous
>>678385899
I don't know if this is an American thing, but where I'm from, this whole circus about swearing him in, tailoring a little police suit, having a giant funeral with hundreds of police officers would be seen as ridiculous, not heartwarming.
Feel thread + this music= Depresion
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_vi67SHU4E
>TFW you don't want to kill yourself, but you don't see any other option
>>678386515
The more people who show up at your funeral and the more passionate the emotions (either morning or celebritory (think New Orleans funerals)) the more impact the individual had. In his case, though, it would be more about making sure his family was shown their son in fact nade in impression.
A large swearing in for him would be mostly for him, so he could get caugyt up in it and really enjoy what it was suppose to represent.
Maybe it is an American cultural thing, but that's why we do it.
>>678387035
One solution. MOVE. MOVE THE FUCK AWAY FROM THERE. Leave your old life behind. Doesnt matter where you go, as long its not a shithole. Make a plan. Just go somewhere else. I was in the same situation as you. Ever since I moved away my whole life changed. New place, new people, new YOU. Make a plan. Do it. Change wont come unless you initiate it. Dont give up. Never give up. You can do it I believe in you. Nobody believed in me and I made it. I had nothing. It was hard. Extremely hard. There where moments where I just wanted to give up. But I fought. As long as you dont stop fighting you can change. 18 is not that old!! I was 24 when I the desperation was so high, that my motivation came from fighting the desperation. You are not weak anon, society made you believe you are weak. There must be things which interest you. Go after them. Interest and curiousness is the biggest motivator, believe me. Follow your interest and you will develope goals. Its NEVER too late! Life is like a wave, you will have bad times, but if its so bad then it can only get better. But you gotta do something. The biggest mistake you can make is, do the same over and over and expect change. It wont come from itsself. Just try something new.
>explorer the world
>find your interests (ANYTHING)
>learn about them (easy if you're interested in them)
>become an expert in them!
>find a job where you deal with your interests
>low pay? doesnt matter! As long as you can survive!
>new job= new people you meet
>fun job because it interests you? when you have fun at what you are doing other people will see this!
>some may like you! dont give a shit about the rest!!
There are people out there that can help you. Find them! I seriously believe that no human deserves it to feel like you feel. And remember, it could always be worse. Always look at the bright side, even in the darkest moments. You do have strenghts, everyone does! You just havent found them. Save this! Read it again and again!
>>678387035
Exactly how I feel. I've been depressed for about 16 years and I feel like suicide is the only way I can end my suffering but I really don't want to die.
>>678378599
My mom kept how my dad is a scumbag from me. And I'm freaking out about it with my cat next to my head.
>>678377422
Damn... Read the whole thing... way to close for comfort...
>>678378599
I feel extremely stressed out about law school and this combined with depression brought on by a number of other factors has made these past 3-4 months particularly terrible
>>678384734
Thanks, if I'm ever forced homeless I'll use my last bit of cash to move south where it's at least warm year 'round
These threads are the only ones I regularly visit anymore.
>>678387675
me too, anon
>>678387035
This is how i experience depression
>>678386579
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l8P7_VEtDjU&nohtml5=False
>>678384791
fuck dude...
>>678387335
Weekday did he do?
>>678387638
I hope it's worth it in the end
>>678387675
Saved
>>678387289
thank you anon... thank you
>>678387228
To me it's just a sap story.
Like I'm watching a really bad Disney movie with some forced message about the value of life.
>Be me
>Be 20
>Be in love with my neighbor
>She is 15
>I send her anonymous letters to her window
>There is no way back
>Today one kid ask me for my signature
>they are suspicious
>Soon or later all this shit is going to know
>I'll wish die
>But i can't
>>678388362
Why would you give him your signature?
>all this shit is going to know
You're grammar
>>678387993
My dad had cheated on my mom. I had cried in a fair after learning about that. And now I had learned he threatened to bury her in a bog before.
I'm upset because I tried to be kind to him after the divorce shit happened. And now I don't want to acknowledge him as a human at all.
Anyone have that pic wit the the guy with anxiety and her
>>678387993
It's really not. I want to go into corporate finance law and I can expect 10-12hr work days for the first several years after I pass the bar and get a job as an attorney. I already have a very limited social life and I feel like dying. There's a whole host of other reasons I feel empty and hopeless but they're not really related to this. They just compound the already burdensome effects of law school.
>>678378133
Fuck man, that hit me hard
>>678387291
I hate thinking of other people are like that too. It kills me to think of anyone experiencing this too. That someone out there has a gun in their hand, shaking like a mother fucker. That struggle between just ending it or having "just one more cigarette first." They end up deciding to wait. Something small gives them hope, so they hold off. A short time later they're back in the same position, except this time their life is worse off. Fuck, if only they had ended it last time they wouldn't be having to go through this. The cycle keeps repeating. One day they'll do it though. One day they will finally realized that their is no hope, that it's just going to keep getting worse, and they will finally be able to rest.
Tfw when you only think about her but she doesn't even care about you
>>678389319
I know this feel too well
>>678388648
>Why would you give him your signature?
They suspect and they want to know my handwritting.
TFW your life is a fucking mess and you think about killing yourself on a daily basis but they only people who care are the occasional anons on a feels thread, but all you want is someone to talk to in real life.
>>678388792
My mom was too nice to her ex husband (my dad was her 2nd marriage) and while he hadn't hurt me specifically i didn't want to be around him too much. She was so forgiving because He was so sick and frail at the end.
>>678389041
Could you go some other route, like open a practice of your own? Or is the money too good at corporate? Could you quit after a few years of saving?
>>678389235
>>678389319
You two are my kind of people
>>678389652
Did some kids just come up to you and ask for your signature
>>678389319
I had a crush on a grill and I later came to know she was completely apathetic about me. I didn't love her I guess, I realized I was more in love with the idea of being with her rather than the girl herself. That has kind of helped me get over it. She's really vapid and I have no idea how I ever came to be attracted to her, but I am. she's smart, kind of funny, very resourceful, opinions I agree with, but it's like she has NO emotions at all. she's just an empty person. I didn't try to ask her out or anything, the more I spoke to her the more I came to realize this girl is fucking off her rocker. She also shows absolutely no interest in me, which hurt. I need to get over her really badly.
>>678390123
i cant read this one again
i cant go through this again
Life is suffering,
Living is meaningless.
Love is emptiness,
As am I.
It's snowing on Mt. Fuji.
>>678389235
>>678389838
can you please read this >>678387289 anons I wrote it just fore you. It is no copypasta. It is my story. It is the truth. Dont let the system destroy you, you dont deserve this, no one does.
>>678389891
My uncle runs a fairly large firm (about 80 attorneys) and I plan to work for him once I graduate since his firm mostly specializes in the type of law I'm going into. Starting salaries for corporate finance lawyers are are usually between $110,00-$115,000. I don't think I could easily quit without harming my reputation as an attorney. I feel like ive kind of fucked myself over by deciding to go to law school. Being an attorney is something I know I'd be good at, and I know I could find bearable, but it also means throwing a lot of my life away and killing myself to work for someone else. It's very enervating to think that the one thing you're good at will cost you most of your life between the ages of 25-35 and you'll never get that time back. You'll have a shitload of money, but what's that worth if you don't have anyone to share it with?
>>678389235
If people have to endure these cringy comments of yours, you should rather end it sooner than later.
>>678389891
>Did some kids just come up to you and ask for your signature
One kid, he had glasses, he ask to me for my signature. I remenber that i was walking to take the bus, i think i'm paranoid about this shit.
It's the first time i'm in love for an underage.
>>678389235
I don't have any addictions actually. I feel obliged to stay alive because I keep thinking my life can get better but it's never gotten to the point where I don't think about dying.
>>678390280
Lol, if you're really generous, then it's not technically a copy pasta.
But the message and tone of your comment is so unoriginal it might as well be.
>>678390280
Thank you for the gift anon.
I'm going to talk to my mom about moving to rochestor.
>>678390653
Share it with me, the anon you're chatting with :)
I buy stuff for my boyfriend when i have money, i want him to know how special he is to me.
You might try quitting after you have some money saved, moving some place no one knows you, and then trying your hand at Elder law since it seems pretty laid back. Just don't kill yourself for a job that takes so much and gives back so little.
>>678390802
Why did you give it to him?
>>678391145
It may sound weird but english is not my first language. This is what I kept telling myself in my darkest years, they gave me hope... it may sound silly i know.. but i just want to help
>>678378599
Finally told the girl that keeps fucking with me emotionally to fuck off. Feels good man
>>678391748
>I buy stuff for my boyfriend
you are a keeper
>>678391925
Tell us the story
>>678391933
Thanks
>>678391748
>i want him to know how special he is to me
by buying stuff for him? typical cunt, only care about money. How about you suck him off once in a while instead of buying him useless materialistic bullshit?
>>678391748
I was a little bit nervous, i made a false signature, but it's not normal that a kid ask me for my signature.
Why the fuck did you do it Ryan.
God damn it man you promised me you'd be here for my eagle court of honor.
But no. You blew your fucking brains out 6 days ago... a year..
its been..
a fucking year.
Ryan. You left. You left and didn't say a word. not a note. nothing.
...
why
Why couldn't you of asked help...
you were my brother you were like family to me. ..
but...
youre gone now...
..
I'll miss you ryan
>>678392352
*hug*
>>678392183
I'm literally not a cunt. And the stuff i buy isn't useless.
>suck him off
I try but, admittedly, I'm not very good at it; i use too much teeth
Etc, etc with the rest of your bs.
Now stop it, your prejudice is showing
>>678391224
You are welcome.
well im doing better guys, nearly got into a fight last night cause some guy was chatting up my girlfriend in a pub made me feel alive standing toe to toe with someone been years since i've actually been in a fight, got back into bmx again, moving out of home and in with my friend. still looking for a job though.
life feels a bit better than last weeks feels thread, feel happiness deep inside my core which is good, gonna go for a ride and a few beers. thinking i might try a backflip tuck today. till next time.
signing off,
anon.
p.s heres a picture i like
My friend overdosed last night.
I'm gonna miss you buddy.
>>678392509
Thank you anon fuck..
I haven't said anything about his death in a year.
I've been quite I haven't vented.
He just...He just fucking left man. We talked the day he did it too. He was fine, he seemed happy he was smilling laughing while we played video games...then I got the news. They took me out of class for it, took me to the office and told me he had died.
I think I have a green text of the story.. maybe I'll re-write it.
>>678392920
How close where you two?
Why was he depressed?
>>678392975
re-write it for us
you'll feel better after
>>678378599
Sometimes i consider suicide and every time i do it i become.... happy, it makes me feel like i am a kid again.
But i love my mom and dad too much to let them find my body
my uncle would get so drunk he'd pass out on the streets and my young self and aunt would drive around town looking for him.. it brings tears to my eye when i remember my aunts sobs and how she kept asking herself "why, why, never before he did this his was always so happy we were always so happy" then the abuse started. it hasnt stopped.
>>678389891
Your mom sounds incredible.
I'm serious. She sounds like an angel.
>>678391925
inb4 she want's your dick now
>>678375993
i miss my ex.
she'd come over sometimes while her boyfriend was away after school.
once the door would close she'd almost instantly get naked. most times she'd put on her favorite song and start sucking. then she would cry. her tears and makeup would drip down her face onto my dick. its surprising how cold tears are. eventually i finally asked her what was wrong. in between licks she told me that her favorite song was also her bfs favorite song. so even though she loved hearing it and it totally got her pussy wet, it also made her think about the fact that she was cheating on her boyfriend. i dont think i ever came harder down somebodies throat then right after she told me that. she was beautiful. we dont hang out anymore. wanna get lunch?
this was the song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EVI4Knz24CQ
can I have a hug please?
>>678377498
You need to go deeper
>>678391925
nice one, anon. would you mind tellin us?
>>678393490
>>678393490
>>678393490
No you cant
>>678393490
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>>678391748
My concern is most people get married in the time span I'm going to be forced to spend working my ass off. I'm single right now. I will miss out on the point in which a lot people's lives "culminate," so to speak. Admittedly, 3 years ago I enrolled in law school because I knew I could make a lot of money as an attorney. If that sounds like I was neglecting pretty much everything that makes life worth living over something materialistic- it's because I was. I really regret it. I might just an hero honestly. I feel like I've come so far in life only to realize too late in the game that money doesn't make people happy. Like I said, I will have money, but no one to share it with to keep me happy. And I graduate this May, so dropping out and getting employment with my bachelors in business would be stupid. Sorry if I sound pretentious or melodramatic, idk how else to explain what's made me upset.
>>678393649
Thanks for this
>>678393575
>>678393632
>>678393679
thank you, anons
>>678393663
it's ok, anon, you can have hugs too
>>678393490
I don't have any pictures of hugs on my computer but please know that I'd hug you if I could.
>>678392860
Glad things are picking up for you anon. I hope they continue to.
>>678393555
checked
>>678393813
No i cant someone posting an image of 2 people hugging doesnt mean y feel the warmth of a hug
>>678375993
Thxa
>>678394161
I know.. but for some of us, this is all we have
>>678392658
I'm 14 and this is deep
>>678376563
This
>>678394436
Well i have nothing then
>>678394442
>>678393131
>be 17
>Still in highschool, Junior year.
>In math class, dont care, gave up. Too much stress
>Test today. Fuck.
>Teacher comes in, (family friend of 9 years) and she is about to teach class. All teachers are called to the office
>Lolwut?
>This has never happened before.
>She comes back 10 minuets later. She seems really off, something is on her mind
>She comes straight to me.
>What did I do, oh fuck.
>Anon, I need you to go to the office
>u-uh. ok sure. Should I bring my stuff?
>yes.
>I get up, take my computer, backpack and shit.
>Walk down the halls. Look around, hear people crying
>"ok...why?" I ask my self
>Keep walking, fucking all way to the end of campus.
>More crying, louder sobs.
>get to office and sit down. People crying everywhere
>around 30 minuets go by, I'm still there, confused, trying to help this girl stop crying.
>Never told me why she was
>I get up, I'm pissed, I can't miss this test.
>I go to one of the women at the front desk and ask
>"whats going on, Why wont anyone tell me whats happening?"
>Lady calls over a consuler and they bring me into the room. Shut the door and sit me down.
>"Anon, do you know the person named Ryan ___?"
>"uh yeah. He's a good friend of mine. he's in my troop. Everything ok?"
>"Oh...anon I'm so sorry.."
>"Wait why?"
>"Anon. Ryan killed himself yesterday"
>It doesn't dawn on me for a few moments, then, I bust into tears.
>Never cried so hard.
>I sit there crying and crying.
>We were just talking the other day
>I call my dad, he and Ryan were close.
>He is in shock, tells me if I'm ok
>I say no
>It dawns on me.
>No one in my troop knows.
>I grab my emotions get them in check and go get my scouting friends
>Finally after they all arrive.
> "Guys, I have. Some bad news. I am. Sorry to say we have lost a brother. Ryan...is no longer with us"
>whole room cries.
>Hugging and sobbing.
>Goes on for 20 minuets.
>We start talking about our memories of him.
>Smiled and laughed.
>be 17
>have car but never go anywhere
>get gf
>have great times sitting in nearby golf course field at sundown with her
>spending everyday together
>she starts smoking weed
>i have some here and there but not often
>she starts doing some pills on occasion
>fast forward like ~3.5 years
>she ends up being high all day everyday
>starts changing
>different drugs start coming in
>pills, mixing pills with other pills.
>she gets a job to support her habit
>job doesnt pay enough for habit
>realize i'm watching her go down in flames
>she starts banging her dealer for free drugs
>hear the news through a friend of a friend
>fast forward a year
>she gets arrested with her dealer bf for trying to kill their dealer
>fast forward to now
>she gains 100lbs+ in jail
>I'm just sitting here thinking "when or where did It all go wrong?"
>>678394161
if you close your eyes you can feel it
>>678393490
>>678375993
You ever hear a song and love it, but you're driving so you miss the title? And then just assume you'll hear it again, but then you never do. Was it an old song? Was it a new song that never made it? Was it even real? Was your radio even playing? A week goes by and you forget about it, life unchanged. Day in day out same bullshit on an endless loop. Nothing will ever change for you, and here's why:
>I'm that song
>you cold have loved me
>but you took me for granted
>you didn't even care to listen
> you were selfish and lazy and just assumed I'd be there for you
>you're the reason I left
>it is your fault we are not together
>i hope you never find happiness I'll be in someone else's car
>but the saddest part is you'll never even know what you missed
>>678394880
how the fuck do you gain weight in jail
>>678379835
fuck that ;_;
>>678395149
severe drug withdrawel
Fuck it, I've pent shit up for a while, I have no one to talk to, so what could really posting shit here do to make it worse...
>Be me
>be a kid of like 4-5years old
>Everyone I know has an older brother but I don't
>I have an older sister and two younger brothers, but it's not the same
>I would complain to my parents that I wanted an older brother (not knowing how it worked)
>After a while I figured my not so much older uncle could work as my older brother
> I did everything like he did
>He was 16 years older, driving a motorcycle and going out partying a lot he was the coolest person in my eyes
>My uncle being the cool guy he always was, would bring me along when riding his MC
>It is still the best memory for me
>Everyone says I grew up to be splitting image of him, both in looks and personality
>Fastforward a couple of years
>I move to Sweden from Lebanon with my Mother, father and siblings
>We live in this country well assimilated enjoying life
>My uncle would constantly say he was going to visit
>He couldn't afford a plane ticket and when he could he would either give it to my grandma or save it
>He wasn't well educated and barely knew how to read
>He had been told he wasn't worth much but he did his best to save and afford a business of his own.
>he opened his own Car repair shop, also selling spare parts
>My grandma, hated his motorcycles and made him put it up for sale
>He was a fully selfmade man
>One day he called us all excited telling us about how he could afford to take care of the whole family i Lebanon
>He said he would be able to come visit this summer
>I wasn't home for that call
>when I got home I tried to call him but no one would pic up
>Since he was constantly working I didn't think much of it, he probably had some customer
>After a few hours we get a call telling us there had been an accident
>The date was the first of april
>We all thought it was a horrible joke
1/?
>>678375993
OC greentext
To preface this, I've already been depressed for a while.
>be me
>starts crush on girl
>9/10, smart, cute laugh, great personality
>be a total beta
>realizes I have to stop being a beta
>tries talking to her more
>nothing happens
>keep trying
>months pass
>find out she hates me, afraid to be around me
>half the people I know feel the same way
>they felt this way for several months, just found out
>mfw
>no friends, no gf
>even more depressed
>no one gives me a chance
tl;dr nice guy tries to stop being a beta, screws up, ruins his life and everyone he cares about
>>678379835
fuck thats sad
>>678377676
>never in my life
doesnt really matter, im happy for some reason
>>678378599
Girlfriend of 3 years broke up with me a month ago, and I feel like ass
>>678393781
3rd year law student here in Chicago. At least you got a fucking job. I have nothing lined up post bar.
>>678396034
It gets better, dude.
>>678395866
how the fuck would that make you gain weight? they give you like 1500 cals/ day
>>678396034
we're here for you man. I've never had a girlfriend, but I know it's hard to go through. may the feels be with you.
>>678395948
I have the same problem, anon
this shit really hits me hard also feels music:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D_P-v1BVQn8
>>678381808
I feel you man
>>678395927
>There weren't any noise on the other end of the phone, so we tried laughing it off
>after a moment we heard uncontrollable crying
>It was for real
>My mother went white and my father fell to his knees
>I couldn't wrap my head around it
>MY Big brother, my uncle, he was going to come to visit
>I kept repeating "This is a joke right?"
>I couldn't cry, I waited for the reveal, the joke
>There were no answer on the other hand until a doctor took over the phone
>I was the only one still listening to the phone call
>The doctor explained that he had been broadsided by a bus, on his way to sell his motorcycle
>I just hung up
>I didn't want to believe
> I still don't believe it
>I am still waiting every first of april for him to walk through the door
>Saying he was joking all along and he was here to visit
>I can't visit my grandma since she starts crying as soon as she sees me
>I can't visit the grave as that would prove that he aint coming back
I miss my brother.
A very cute girl I had a crush on asked me out around six years ago. Then she and her friends yelled april fools, laughed, and ran away from me. I was 13.
When we were in High School, I pretended to like her, she gave me head, and told me not to tell anyone. lmao.
I told cut ties and told everyone. Word got to her Catholic Parents.
10/10 would do again.
>>678391113
I would kill a man
>>678396569
>>678396649
I feel you. this song hits me in the feels.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGrM1sh-8pE
>>678394442
KEK
>>678393781
I may have, probably would have, made your decision. At least you aren't broke and depressed like me.
Go the self-emplyed route, you'll be broke but you'll have lots of time to stay in bed. (Sorry to beat that horse so mercilessly).
I'm just tired of being hungry, or not knowing what to do.
>>678397373
>7373
I'll share my chips with you
>>678384765
sorry to hear that, do tell.
I'm suicidal most of the time. Like most people I distract myself from it. Then every now and then I rerealize my life. What my existence is, and I just want to end it.
>>678397572
no you're not kek
>>678376800
That Was one story...
>>678377463
Jesus fucking Christ. This hit me way too hard.
im 18 atm but this story happened when i was 17. There was a girl i liked in secret for two years. we used to hangout through friends of friends nearly every day and life was good but last year i started to grow apart from my friends. I never made the effort to socialize and lost contact with all of them becaming a loner. Gradually my old squad disbanded and only hung out if they had classes together. Now i only saw her in the halls and it depresses the hell out of me how i'm too cowardly to even make eye contact with her let alone ask her out. Next semester rolls around and jackpot i have a small class of 10 people with her. one day we are alone working in the halls together as most people were away on some field trip that day. 70 minutes of class has just started and i get to spend all 70 of it with her (i'm so excited) we converse for 30 secs about the project then we sit in silence for a bit. I start thinking of how i will start up the conversation again. think up something simple (a question about the project) and tell myself to say it. at first i thought i was waiting for the right moment but then over and over again i am telling myself to say this one line and after 70 minutes the bell rings and i couldn't say one thing to her. walking home the reality hits that i will never have the balls to ask her out and i start holding back tears as i walk in the deserted streets and as i was about to jay walk across this busy road like i would any other day, instead of waiting for the traffic to let up i just cast my eyes down and kept walking and i was very nearly hit as a car sped past seconds after i crossed with its horns blaring. I felt regret as soon as i got to the other side and that near death experience has led me to think more positively. nowadays i go out for long walks on nice days with the small thought in my head that i might run into her but high school's over and i don't think i will ever see her again.. Im a shy beta but i did love her.
>>678397711
I'm the opposite. I get suicidal, then look at my life on the whole, and feel good.
Now suddenly I feel like shit.
>>678392154
Well here it is. I'm on mobile so keep thread alive
>>678377500
That just hit home.
>>678398517
>be me, 17
>meet girl and she cute as fuck. Bit blunt tho
>other girl likes me, she sloot so i had to decide between her and, let's call the girl i like S.
Cont
>>678396849
>girl pretends to like you for laughs
>sucks your dick
what.
>>678397212
I'd say I'm depressed. I can't remember persistent emotion but sadness ever since I was about 7. I got bullied a lot as a kid, and that really hurt my self-esteem going into middle and high school. I didn't do much in those years. I hated it. I met a girl my freshman year of college and we dated for 3 years before she passed away. Those years are the only ones I can really remember where I was happier than before.
>>678376939
Unreadable
>>678399077
any persistent emotion.*
>>678398916
>lost virginity to sloot
>finallyitsover.webm
>dump her because i was a punk back then
>tell S i would have asked her out and if i did, would she say yes
>apparently yeah, she said i was cute
>cool beans
>she invites me to prom later on
This is where it gets bad
>>678386408
just remember if you're stuck fill in a random bubble and move on. then when you're in a better position go back to the troubling question and try and figure it out.
>>678375993
http://bit.do\BLOWJOB
>>678396060
uchicago law is a great school though. i'm at GULC. I'm sure you could find something fairly soon after the bar, right? not trying to be flippant.
>>678390123
i punchedd a fuciking hole trhough my wall my hands are shaking
>>678392227
Can you elaborate on how you fell in love and what kind of notes you leave? I'm curious. And I'm not the anon you were talking to. Also i suggest maximizing anonymity like don't handwrite your letters and all.
>>678377329
Yep.
>>678399622
>prom sucked
>i told her lets dance but she wouldn't budge
>went to snack bar and moped with a friend of mine
>when driving her back home, she called her boyfriend and says how she misses him and wish he was there with her
>plsdontmakemecrashthiscar.gif
>drop her off and she tells me she had a great night
>yeahandimblack.jpg
>go to university and forget about her
It gets worse
>>678400133
You remind me of this *emotional* faggot that literally never stops talking about how his life is filled with sorrow and makes a bunch of cringy posts yet he's dating my crush. Girls are fucking weird.
>>678375993
does anyone have the pokemon soulsilver feels thread
>>678386408
It's not that bad, if you've prepared. Sorry to sound cliche but all you should need to do is get a lot of sleep tonight. I hope you do well anon. Good luck!
>>678397714
Does it matter faggot?
>>678378018
I know this feel very well.
>>678400082
I'm not at UChicago. I wish i was. I'm at a T2 school IN Chicago.
>>678399042
I was awkward looking in JHS. Fast forward four years- I'm fit, no longer socially awkward. Good looking. She's still the same bitch. I ask her out. Goes well. I drive her home, stop somewhere, make out with her, and she gives me head but tells me not to tell anyone. So I tell everyone and their mother this bitch gave my head.
>>678378410
fake and shitty because not logical
>>678375993
Whenever I feel happy I feel like it's all a lie and that I'm just trying to cover up being horribly depressed. It keeps me from ever being really happy, and whenever things are quiet, no matter what mood I'm in, that voice telling me to kill myself always creeps back in
>>678397711
same
>>678400325
>i get back home early because of academic probation
>dungoofed.jpg
>she hears I'm back and hits me up
>tells me how she misses me and wants to hang out with me soon
>how i wish i would not done that
>she invites me to the movies to pick her up and eat afterwards
>was decent and my best mate was there
>she then ask me to watch 50 shade of grey with her
>sweatingman.jpg
Cont
I don't forget when people wrong me I fuck them over. eye for an eye.
>>678380693
I do remember. The last person to truly hold me was my mother. She passed away 5 and a half years ago.
>>678377985
Wasn't ready for this
>>678401319
yea, she is the only person to have ever done so
>>678388362
Dude youre creepy as fuck.
Why did you give the kid your signature and not just tell him to fuck off?
>tfw when you have more reasons to die than to live.
>>678401480
I have fewer reasons not to, but they're bigger than the pros and scarier
>>678401225
>she stood me up, that bitch
>she then tells me she will make it up for me soon
>whatever
>she calls me up new years eve and ask if i can go to her house
>sure, because I'm lonely and desperate
>she never gave me the address
>tried calling straight to voicemail
>fuck you too then
>i forger her again
This is the last run here
>>678401319
I also remember at her funeral I wasn't able to cry. Not because I didn't love my mom. But, because I knew I had to move in with my abusive father. The happiest time I ever had while my dad was around was when he was put into a cop car.
>>678378096
That was some pretty heavy feels man. That one struck deep.
>>678393555
I started already anon>>678398916
I can't turn my back to people I love.
I can't get out from there lifes even they hurt me so much.
> 24 yo
> Never feel alone
> Have a circle of friends for 7-8 years
> Lost virginity at 16.
> Banging hot chicks is never ever a problem
> Having feelings for a girl, thats where I fuck up.
I have never ever cut my ties with anybody. I can't do that. When girls realise this, they allways trying to use me.
>>678400675
Oh, I misread your post. Even so, Chicago has a pretty good selection of law schools. The lowest-ranking is John Marshall which is a T4. My uncle went to ubalt law which is also a T4 and he's a pretty successful guy. If you're going to Northwestern, then the same logic applies as for uchicago (at least IMO). I wanted to say something about Loyola also being a Jesuit school but I can't find the words :p. All in all, if you're going to one of the T2 schools in Chicago, you might not be golden, but you certainly have a good chance at finding employment.
>>678400573
yeah it does, sgt fgt. u the kinda nigga to get cum on his face and then burn himself with hot candle wax while singing ashlee simpson's pieces of me
god ur so Gay
>>678402427
Thanks, I suppose. Yeah, John Marshall isn't even ranked anymore lol.
>>678375993
>tfw when you are the reason your girlfriend died.
>tfw when all your friends are addicted to drugs/dead or crazy.
>tfw you are addicted to drugs
>tfw you want revenge for your girlfriends death
>tfw you cant have it
>tfw you never find any answers
>tfw you browse /b/ every day looking for something
>tfw Ive become crazier than my friends
>tfw I Want to kill myself
>tfw I'm going to kill myself
>tfw theres no hope
>>678402750
>>678401856
>she hits me up again admitting she likes me
>finally
>tells me i have to wait because she has issues to resolve
>wut
>later on she tells me to hang out with her
>finally
>i fuck up and she hates my guts
>tell she fucked up more than me so what's different then and to fuck off
>she hasn't replied back yet
Maybe she read it and said good riddance but whatever. She was holding me back and now i can live life. Lonely but better than hoping for a chance to never come. Sorry if the story suck, I'm on mobile
>>678402541
No it does not.
No one cares you fucking cunt, kill yourself.
I had a fair amount of friends a month or two ago... But then I became close friends with this guy's girl. We were already friends, but we have just been talking more. So him being a dick-wad (and she even knows it) more and more has evolved into him twisting my words and others against me. I'm not sure how much longer I'll have people to talk to, and I can see them slowly fading away without anything I can do. And because of unknown reasons everyone but his gf believe him over me. I guess this is what I get for wanting to talk with my friend...
Story time
> Me
> Yesterday
> I feel alone because I struggle to even make acquaintances
> Get a new message from kik
> Hello my dirty cum slinger!
> Of course
> I decide a fap will cheer me up
> Find a good pornstar
> Click on first video
> She's masturbating
> I am well into it 10:00 mark
> A random black dong is up her ass
> Lose boner
> Rage close all my porn
> Lost will to fap and go to sleep.
>>678401464
At that point i just ignored him. He seemed to be, more likely than not, too be some troll
>>678400583
The story makes me cry
>>678388362
Fuck em, there was a 5 year age difference between me and my girlfriend, I met her when she was 15 and I was 20. She is my ex now, but not because of that, and we had a long and happy relationship. Unfortunately she's also a big part of why I frequent feels threads.
>>678402973
u sound like uve had ur SHITTTT PUSHED IN BROOOO HAHAHA
>pic related; u didnt see my sick burns coming like sand to the face
cum guzzler
>>678402750
shit.
>>678378599
Ok fuck it. I'm feeling really feely right now but I refuse to greentext.
Right... I had an false-uncle who I loved to death, more than my Mom and Dad really. I was... seven around that time I think and my parents were fighting a lot back then. To vent my mom would visit her best friend and her husband (No cheating I assure you, both my parents were faithful until the divorce), the couple there were much more well off and had two kids already. i got along swimmingly with both of them but that's irrelevant. What's relevant is my Uncle. Uncle Eric.
He was fun, charming, active, and just a all around great guy to be with. I was honestly jealous of the two kids he sired that they had such a great Dad unlike my own. Still... Uncle Eric was like a second father to me and I loved him to death. I always fondly remember that he'd always call me "Delinsky" whenever he saw me and he'd always call me that no one else. This made me special, wanted, especially since I was adopted.
