Feels thread.
>be me
>crippled leg since 14
>got diagnosed with bipolar 1 when 15
>lost all friends pretty much
>mom gets beaten half to death by my father
>father gets off with no prison time
>left with my nerve damaged mom and my lithium ridden ass
>be me now. Not better in any way.
>"at least I have my best friend!"
>friend tries to kill self
>sent to mental hospital
>gone for like a half year
>comes back and won't talk to me
>finally figure out she went full retarded and got schizophrenia
>no friends or family here for me
>leg gets worse
>have to usea cane at fucking 22
>a cane
>pain pills are my like a breathmint for me now
>"amputation may be your only good option now." Is what I'm told.
Why live? Literally nothing gets better.
>pic unrelated sorta
>>677253005
>be me
>have serious issues
>post on /b/
>wonder why shit doesn't get better
>>677253246
Lost
>>677253005
So is your friend like retarded now? Can schizophrenia even kick in like that?
Whats wrong with your leg OP?
>>677253671
Schizophrenia usually kicks in, especially around your late teens to mid 20's.
>>677253790
Thanks!
>>677253684
Nerve damage.
>>677254546
Any specific cause?
>>677254618
I fell off a small cliff when I was a kid. Leg got broke pretty bad.
>>677254618
Some sort of gas that is in 99% of the gifs/webms in rekt threads.
Diagnosed with terminal depression. chances are I won't see my sister give birth to our son
>>677255092
Probably this too. Wouldn't surprise me at this point.
>>677254984
Sorry to hear that OP.
>>677255190
Same.
Walking around with a cane is pretty cool though, I mean it sucks ass to not be able to run or walk properly but you'll look different AND have a legitimate reason :)
optimism!
>>677255190
>diagnosed with terminal depression
Kek you fucking retard smoke some dope and your depression will be gone. Depression is what teenage girls have when nothing is going there way.
You deserve to die.
>tfw i rarely ever use my legs anyway.
just cut it off fam. they'll give you a wheel chair for free with the procedure i bet. if not you could just steal it from the hospital.
>>677255356
>:)
you don't belong hear
>>677255356
If they lop my leg off I'll use the cane with no shame. But until then I hate the damn thing. I don't want to use it and have to look like some hipster faggot.
>>677253671
Coming from a schizophrenic, its a rough road. It can be triggered by drug use, extreme shifts in mental state, or abuse usually. There's other circumstances but its not something thats incurable like aids. I got over mine after a few years of excersizing self control. I still have some after effects and bouts of fuckery but to the outside world im a normal everyday 23 year old fuckup who drives an audi and dresses nice but is going nowhere very fucking slowly in life.
Oh, and my tastes change almost seasonally. Its a bitch. Imagine your "teenage phases" flicking by a few months at a time. It doesnt make you retarded though.
>>677253005
man up, amputate leg, get awesome bionic leg, stop giving a fuck and become awesome at life, become an example of overcoming life's obstacles to others, get mad puss
>>677255438
Careful with those edges
>>677255662
This.
>>677255526
Like I want some ran down nigger abused wheelchair.
>>677255662
You could get an Assault rifle prosthetic
>>677255599
Have you looked into your own brand of physical therapy? like training yourself to use it even with the damage?
I know its a small shadow compared to a crippled leg but ive recovered from some pretty debilitating shit myself. I can only use 1/2 of my right pinky (more irritating than debilitating) and my back is fucked.
anyway my point is even if its only a few minutes a day try doing some normal walking with your cane/crutch nearby for help only if you need it. People with bad eyesight buy glasses instead of exercising their eyes to be better you know?
>>677255638
Most of the time schizophrenia is genetic, not triggered. Its also incurable. Treatablr, but not incurable.
>>677255190
>sister
>our son
>>677256271
Tried a lot of actual physical therapy. Actually moving it feels like I am fucking dying without taking pain medication. I could try this but I honestly think amputation might be the best way to go.
>>677253005
Lol man, same here, two herniated discs and painkillers 24/7. Problem is, pain starts at the buttcheek and goes all the way down through the sciatic nerve, so amputation is complicated (cos at the level of hip and shit).
Sometimes pain is so hard I can barely get any sleep, and people make fun of le me 'cos I look like walking with a fucking wooden leg. I feel you, bro. I really do. Btw, almost three years with this shit.
>>677256335
For genetics to really transition from dormant to active there needs to be a reaction. I'm not disagreeing with you to an extent, but it doesn't happen the way you read it. In the same way reading on driving manual vs. really driving a manual differ, theres plenty of facts, some things that are off/inaccurate, and a handful of things that are just not said.
I personally see it as a blessing and a curse
>>677256639
How long have you been taking pain meds?
>>677253005
nobody told you? grills love whole the messed up thing.
>>677256819
Been taking them on and off since I was a kid. But in the past 3 years I have taken them consistently.
Listen /b/ro I'm going to tell you about myself In hopes that you see you're not alone and need to stay strong I'm 23 I have had kidney stones all my life but ever since the first one I've had a constant backache I have no education at all but in 7th grade I took the sat when I believe the max score was 1600 I scored 1300 the point is I'm not an idiot but in the eyes of society I am. Fuck everyone else bro worry about you because the pain is worth you still being alive I have been on pain medication since I was 16 and I know I need to stop and lose some weight get more healthy go back to school but if we let our thoughts of suicide consume us we are just as good as dead brother stay strong
>>677256840
Except when you cannot manage to make them scream in bed due to your dick not gettin' up because of pain.
>>677253005
no prison time also gets me off
>>677256840
>be drug abusing crippled manic depressed faggot
>fucking tons of grills
Something here isn't right...
4am. I miss her
>>677257074
Op here. My sex drive is usually ded because of the pain. I doubt pussy would come my way anyways.
>>677256985
Disregard what I said then unless you want to suffer tremendously before recovering.
I had to deal without pain meds partly because I refuse medical treatment unless i perform it myself. Its a long process but after a while of chronic pain your body adapts to it. You still have the pain you just dont feel it. Honestly its pretty miserable taking pain meds because your body adapts to outside sources for management instead of natural healing but at this point im not sure the wait would be worth it for recovery. That is solely up to you
>>677253005
Why would they ever amputate a leg that's still somewhat functional? Fake.
ex kicks me out of my own apt
move in with parents
crash car break hand
heals
fall over and break arm
i miss my ex gf's cat
>>677257742
This, OP's a faggot.
>>677253005
You're gonna have to take some responsibility when it comes to being more happy. It really comes down to making a mental effort to be more positive. You might have been dealt a rough hand but go around and around in agony about shitty parts of life just leaves you in a cess-pool of shittiness where you just want to kill yourself. Its not easy and takes time and id say a big key is to stop trying to control things so much especially when you really have no control because that will only bring suffering dog. if you could get past your ego you'd see that the way you have it isnt so bad after all and then maybe you might be able to have a decent life
>>677257742
>I dont understand how anything medical works
>fake tho!
In a similar situation OP. Feel like a 70-year-old at 18. Use a cane, curmudgeonly, groan frequently when moving. Get a simple hobby, that's what's helped me. I discovered my passion for writing fantasy fiction, very therapeutic. Try writing or drawing, something like that.
>pic unrelated
>>677257601
I'm leaving the thread now, but last advice to OP. You're life will never improve unless you consistently make the best decisions in an attempt to do so. No one will make your life better for you. Make logical choices that will lead to the life you want/person you want to be. Good luck.
>friend keeps inviting me to friend parties
>keep making excuses because I just dont feel like it
>tells me my ex and his friend hooked up
>no_fucks_to_give.gif
>friend asks if I keep avoiding because of that
>now it looks like im hiding from pain over ex
Fucking hell shit's annoying. There isnt a day that doesnt go by i dont want to bash myself with a shovel for dating that hambeast, and not only do I have the mental image of my disgusting ex sucking face with his disgusting friend, now Im in the position in which I would look like Im avoiding it out of awkwardness.
MAYBE I DONT WANT TO TRAVEL THE FUCKING 40 MILES EVERYWEEK TO A SHITTY PARTY WHERE I MAY OR MAY NOT LOSE MY LUNCH.
Life is really farting in my face this year.
>>677253005
Get money. Its not hard.
Look at all the imbeciles getting bank. Why wont you?
terrible advice, you can only be semi-functional by doing what people control you to do, good luck op
>>677258019
It is fake, you fucking retard. They would never amputate a leg if he can still use it. It's simple logic, is he better off without a leg? No? Then don't amputate. "Oh, his leg is shit and he has to use a cane? Better amputate it, then he wouldn't have to use a cane anymore". You're a fucking idiot.
>>677258515
>leg is deformed and hurting 24/7 but still attached to you?
>better call OP a faggot since I'm now a doctor!
>>677258515
I don't know if this is b8 or if you're actually retarded. The issue is that he may be in constant pain whilst having his semi-functional leg and therefore the doctor suggests an amputation, to free him from his agony.
>>677258515
>be me
>b8 master of le 4chan xdxdxdxD
>get dankest memes
>call everyone a faggot if i dont get somehing
>xdxdxdxdXDXDXDXDX
>>677258826
>Depressed? Better get a lobotomy! That's obviously the best solution!
That's exactly the same kind of logic. Believe it or not, we don't all live in the Middle Ages or in an African shithole like you and actually use medical practices to solve problems.
>>677259358
>>677258988
>>677258826
Samefagging cuz he just realized he's wrong and he mad
Shock therapy is nice too this time of the year.
>>67725300
U need to know that everybody and everything has its challenge. I am sorry to her all this but God has its ways. Dont give up. Relifag out
>>677253005
I'll feel for you tonight mate.
>>677258515
You are literally retarded. Im not even close to college but ive done enough research to know that 1: you are a fucking moron and 2: yes they would opt to remove a leg
>>677261620
>Im not even close to college
underage b&
>>677261620
>"Im not even close to college"
>Yet claims to know better than me
lol k
>>677253246
kekd
>>677261856
I dipped out of high school in 9th grade.
>>677261938
>implying im claiming
Please let me know when your IQ exceeds 127. Then we'll talk
>>677262282
>Please let me know when your IQ exceeds 127. Then we'll talk
You first. Unlike you, I didn't fuck up high school like a retard.
>>677253005
Literally if I was you I'd scream into the sky until my throat wore out, but then I've half done that for much less,
Anyway, stay strong OP
And if you decide to end it, do it in a ridiculous way taking some fuckers with you
>>677255190
Wtf
>>677253005
what quack diagnosed a teenager with bipolar disorder? that was even against the ICD 9 standards....
>>677262453
IQ138
28 years old
unemployed
virgin
antisozial
nice to meet you
>>677262282
you talked about owning an audi, how'd i know you'd post an outdated one.
>>677263628
Mybe because I bought an 04 with 75k miles and plenty of problem to fix
>>677262282
>>677262282
>"Please let me know when your IQ exceeds 127"
>doesn't realize that 100 is average and 127 is close to genius level
>didn't even finish high school
>"don't talk to me unless you're a genius like me who didn't finish high school"
>>677257383
lost
>>677263839
>I still have some after effects and bouts of fuckery but to the outside world im a normal everyday 23 year old fuckup who drives an audi and dresses nice but is going nowhere very fucking slowly in life.
you forgot to mention that its an 04 sedan and you dress bad
>>677256840
If that was true, everyone on /b/ would get laid daily.
>>677263983
yes thats the jist of what i said
>>677263882
hurr durr its a fucking sedan
>>677253005
Go for a jog
>posts very similar storyline to house
>Not related to house
funny op
>>677253005
>>677253005
don't let them take the leg, fuck them
don't let them win, bi polar doens't mean shit
just live life, go to school
>>677256335
>Its also incurable.
>but not incurable.
lolwut
>>677253005
>be me, 16
>chronic anxiety disorder and ADHD
>like a pretty girl in my class
>ask her out, she says yes
>everythingwentbetterthanexpexted.jpg
>we go out for a while, things get pretty serious, we're in love, everything is great
>one day, get a call from her from out of the blue
>"Anon, I can't do this anymore. "
>ohshit.jpg
>"Anon, I love you, but I just don't feel ready to be in love. I'm traveling across Europe soon, and I can't take the guilt of leaving you behind."
>ohgodno.jpg
>life goes downhill, feeling shit 24/7
>spend at least one hour a day in the weekend crying and sometimes suicidal
>too proud to tell my friends how bad I feel
>resort to posting on feels threads at 1 in the morning so I can talk to someone about my problems
>>677265839
House is not bipolar
>>677253005
The infraorbital foramen is upper.
>>677253005
Don't let other people define you (even doctors) If you have the time, read books and articles that will help you out with problems you are facing. I've been down the road of disability, pain and drug addiction, even close to an hero but I learned the more obstacles you overcome, the stronger your character will become. If a knights armor has no dents in it and he has no scars then has won no battles.
Op start flatwater kayaking you'll like it its well fun
>>677255599
See, all your trouble stems from giving a fuck what others think. Fuck that noise! Did Stomach Penis give a fuck? Nun uh! Just did his shit and enjoyed his life.
>>677269829
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>>677266896
MODS
Life is so boring without drugs. wat do? If I can right now I would doing drugs but I cant right now and for a few months. and drugs even weed if doing too often it will anyway somewhat ruin me. but I cant feel the real feelings and cant find anything interesting without drugs anymore. shit.
>>677270309
You could always try to not be a faggot.
>>677270427
it's not me in the pic unfortunately (?). and I love only traps and feminine boys so it's not gay.
>>677270309
Life is boring with drugs.
Cos youre not really living when youre on em.
>>677270309
Listen to good music
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nfmaALfxVGM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g9hwjQBQFIo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayfv0SOjvRs
>>677253005
I'll lay it on the line anon. Life isn't fair. Stop feeling so fucking sorry for yourself, pull your fucking self up by your bootstraps and get on with life.You'll be a lot more content if you accept that which you cannot change and change that which you can
>>677270665
listening to music is so much better when high or drunk.
>>677270505
He was referring to the fact that you can't deal with life when sober
write a book about your life
>>677270581
Truth. I was able to use drugs (many kinds) for years recreationally for years then I slipped up during a bad time in my life and got addicted to morphine pills. It was great at the start but then I started to become an anti-social recluse because the morphine was giving me everything I needed. As always happens with drugs, my supply went dry and I had to go through opiate withdrawal cold-turkey without medication to help. It was a month of pure hell. It's been a year clean now and I avoid drugs like the plague because I now how that ends.
>>677272143
Faggot
