Can we have a feels thread /b/ros.
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Can we have a feels thread /b/ros.
are those smiths lyrics
those are smiths lyrics
>>676408381
yes they are my friend
>>676407593
>Run with me into the setting sun
>Laugh and play before the day is done
>Lay with me when the night grow cold
>sleep and dream as we grow old
You will die alone and nobody will ever love you
how is everyone feeling tonight
>>676408681
don't i know it
>>676408716
Feeling used to not doing anything
>>676408681
Thanks for reminding me
Kill me.
It's a sad existence.
You know guys this thread just makes me sad because you forgot how to talk about your problems and just give pictures to each other instead of talking
>>676410171
i guess a lot of people on this site just struggle to convey how they feel. Maybe seeing other people post like this makes them feel atleast they're not alone in how they feel, idk
>>676409357
I hear ya fam, confessed today and they didn't even say anything they just walked away.
>>676410171
>have pain in my shoulder
>read article about how to identify rotator cuff injury
>"if you raise arm and your shoulder hurts, you may have an injury"
>raise arm
>whole body hurts
>pain everywhere
I think you guys gonna like this... https://youtu.be/DPFgpy4iBcU
>>676410428
im scared of those kind of feelings now, i know it'll either be just i feel that way or even if it works it never does for long, i always fuck up something
>>676410171
You know what's even sadder? I've tried to talk about what's killing me inside in a few threads and got 0 responses.
So I post pictures because then someone sometimes posts a wojak or says "this one got me" so I don't feel like I'm completely alone.
Fuck you, anons, but I still love you.
How about all you fags stop circlejerking in your own misery?
Maybe then we won't need these ridiculous threads.
>>676410769
I'm gonna hear you. Tell me what do you want.
>>676410769
What's going on anon, i've got no place to go
>>676410422
You may be right but you don' have to be an expert in writting to say what happened that makes you hollow
>>676409616
Spot on
>>676410769
We are here for you always
>>676410992
abusive childhood, neglect from mother , physical father. Only person i felt close with was my cousin , she died when she was 9. I've been heavily depressed for 4 years, my girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me because i was too distant after my best friend killed himself. Thought i'd beat my depression but i can't stop sitting until the early hours of the morning with my heart racing trying to stop being a depressed little fuck, apart from that im alright i guess
>>676408522
I'm 17 years old and I turn 18 in August and I don't know what to do. I don't have any friends (I did, and I was even sleeping with this girl who was actually my best friend and we had this whole movie romance thing going on and it was too good to be true but then she got with her ex and screwed me over), but the only friends I had are dating and/or assholes who screwed me over. This one guy who I thought was a good friend of mine threw me under the bus and started a fire and blamed it on me, and I got arrested for felony arson. The little fucker is only 14 so he got off just fine. (Especially because I live in a little redneck town in Texas where the justice system is shit). Anyways I've never had a job, and I don't know how to make a resume. I also struggle with Aspergers (not that its an excuse; I mean its really not that bad in my opinion but its just another thing that makes shit harder, you know?) My dad is too busy to help me and I'm not very close with my family, even though we have good repoir. I almost fell into secret drug addiction but I didn't even have access to further drugs bc of how cut off I am from human interaction. I haven't had a nice conversation with anyone in a while, maybe since January? I haven't seen any friends, and I'm in an online program to repair my high school career and get my diploma because the principal of my redneck highschool fucked me over. Most of them think that vaccines are satan, and that Aspergers is a myth. I was in a special ED program at the school, but it was pretty shitty. The special ED teacher was an asshole who hated his job and hated the kids he had to work with, and his assistant was a fundementalist baptist. It was something I had to put up with until I pissed off the special ED teacher, and he slammed my head into a wall, but I got expelled for some bullshit about trying to fight a staff member. (The special ED teacher is like 6'9 and I'm like 5'8?)
I hope I'm not just being a sissy, but should I continue?
>>676411361
I want to hug you hard right now, anon.
Ya know I used to come to feels threads and mope around about how shit my life is and how terrible it's going to get and how I shouldn't even bother with life because it sucks. Now my views have changed and I now realize that back then I was an idiot and I didn't understand anything that was happening. I guess my point is you can sit around and mope all day about how life just gets worse and worse or you can get the fuck up and change it. You think today sucks, tomorrow is worse, the next day is worse, etc. Fuck that. Go up and make it your mission to make every single day better than your last. You guys can do whatever the fuck you want whenever the fuck you want so abuse that privilege and live your life to the fullest instead of rotting in your own self hatred.
>>676411683
thanks anon , i'll get through this i know i will i've been doing it for the past 4 years but it still hits me just as hard everytime
>>676411361
I'm sorry i sound rude or ignorant but..
There's always a light on the final of the tunnel.
I never had depression, sorry if i offended you.
>>676411361
You need to make deppresion second in life and you first contemplating isn't going to solve it
>>676411361
I wish the best to you, anon.
I never was abused or lost someone, i never felt the pain you did, still... I wish you the best.
My biggest fear is that my best friend is going to replace me
Sounds cliche as fuck but if you really think you've hit bottom, there's only one way but up. Shit get's better eventually. Stay strong and keep on crawling.
>>676411795
We know
But knowing all that and still not being able to do it makes you feel even worse. I know theres a billion things i can and should do, and every day i dont makes me feel worse
I lived my childhood with my half-absent father, mostly never there, dead when I was 13, a week in a coma. He had an affair with some woman about 3-4 months before. I witnessed it all.
I still come home everyday, hoping he's sleeping on the couch like he did on the lazy Tuesday afternoons.
Alone With Everybody
the flesh covers the bone
and they put a mind
in there and
sometimes a soul,
and the women break
vases against the walls
and the men drink too
much
and nobody finds the
one
but keep
looking
crawling in and out
of beds.
flesh covers
the bone and the
flesh searches
for more than
flesh.
there's no chance
at all:
we are all trapped
by a singular
fate.
nobody ever finds
the one.
the city dumps fill
the junkyards fill
the madhouses fill
the hospitals fill
the graveyards fill
nothing else
fills.
>>676411949
I had feel alone since 4 years, since my friends left me behind. At the school everybody emotional hits me 'couse I'm "weird". I am 17 now, and I'm living the same shit as 14. Sounds pretty stupid, I'm fucking know, but this shit hits me every and everyday and makes me feel so fucking hopeless.
>>676411949
I always wonder how many people around me feel like this
Anyways so I got expelled and the principal screwed me over because she knew the truth but was covering her own, but luckily the district administrator understood and helped me out.
Still though, i don't know. I'm just lost. I feel like I'm very quickly coming towards a brick wall or a cliff. It's this looming thing on the horizon.
I also tend to leave out a lot of the other more personal shit that gets to me but since this is anon I guess I can just talk
I got sent to a private boarding school daycare type thing in 2nd grade and I got abused pretty bad at the school but when I was in 2nd grade I was really mute about stuff and I barely talked and had crippling social anxiety (still do tbh) so I had a lot of trouble communicating what was going on but it went on for a year and I've struggled with depression ever since. My ex was a heroin addict who lived in Tampa, Florida, and ended up killing herself, so that kinda sent me down a worse path
fuck i feel like i sound like a mopey little shit but at the same time i really needed to get all this off my chest
>>676412488
Just wait it out, don't force yourself too hard. One day, even if it'll be years from now you'll realize you've made good progress. Wait it out.
>>676412618
neat.
>>676410970
>>676410979
I've been depressed for years, almost a decade now. I often go to sleep hoping I don't wake up. I've felt like I don't belong ever since I can remember, I was always the odd guy out, the third wheel not invited. I don't think anyone has ever called me, just to talk. Or to even ask how I'm doing. I mean I get it, I struggle to hold up a conversation. I'm not an interesting person. But even then, when I get to talk to someone, I try my fucking hardest because I want to feel like a human being.
And I did once for a while. I met someone and for some reason, I was able to talk for hours at a time with her. She was the kindest, smartest person I've ever met. She seemed to be interested in who I was and what I liked. She made me feel happy every time I saw her. I looked forward to seeing her every day, to hear about her day, how she felt, to make her laugh and see her smile.
As you might guess, I fell for her pretty hard but she didn't feel the same way. She even moved to a different country last year. I can still remember when I hugged her goodbye. I remember the smell of her perfume on my jacket when I sat on a park bench by myself, realizing I'll never see her again. I still feel the same emptiness.
I've never felt this lonely in my life, I didn't imagine it could get worse. I'm not sure how long I can take this anymore but I don't want to make my mom go through me killing myself.
I hope whoever is with her appreciates her smile as much as I did. I hope she's happy.
>>676411795
i do try, i do things everyday i hang out with my friends i've took up new hobbies to get me out and about i break into abandoned buildings and check it out with my friend and it's rad as fuck but that's just not how it works, i lead a good life don't get me wrong my past was bad but i do love life but depression just crushes you , i know my life is good but i still can't stop myself from wanting to die. i can't help it my friend.
>>676411995
it's fine man i know there's better than i feel now 2 days ago was a great day and im sure tomorrow will be too but today and in this moment i can't stop my heart pounding through my chest and my hands shaking, i can't be happy but i know i will be on another day.
>>676412122
like i said in the other two i don't let my depression control my life it's just moments like this when i have nothing else to do where it really grips me.
>>676412253
thanks anon
>>676412618
not every poem is good
like wtf,that thing is like linkinpark lyrics.
The lone droplet fell from the clouds above,
slicing the border between Earth and Sky.
Spurred not by purpose but a lack thereof,
separated from a dark plume up high.
Its sudden plunge backdropped by darkness,
illuminated by distant stars.
Its size dwarfed further by the vastness
of the black canvas it dared to scar.
Pieces of it separated;
the rapid descent took its toll.
Then the pieces dissipated
leaving their host no longer whole.
It crashed among sand and dirt
where it's now for Earth to keep.
And although lonely its birth,
sad its end, Sky did not weep.
>>676412618
WAKE ME UP
No words can describe this sadness
I want to die. I had a bit typed out about it but it just felt whiny so I guess thats all I really have to say.
>>676410915
every time
>>676413395
Hey, it's me!
My father had an affair and I saw it all through his cellphone. If I told my mother she'd think I was crazy. I watched him take photos with me and send them to his lover.
But I was just naive,
>>676412968
i really do know the feeling anon, when me and my ex broke up i was broken the worst part is when i lay face down in my pillow wanting to die i could still smell her on it. It crushed me even more. im not going to tell you it gets better and all that you've heard it before but i know that's not how depression works. Try to keep busy try to fill your mind with something else keeping busy and like you said your mum are the only things that have stopped me killing myself
>>676413046
Not every poem is meant to be good or even read.
>>676410825
This is 100% me.
>>676413340
Its fine man, were all in these threads to whine and share our stories man.
These feel threads feel like a cozy bonfire in dark souls, a place to rest, a place to find like minded spirits, a place to just be ourselves before we fight our demons again
why?
>>676413620
Not every poem needs to be posted on an armenian goat herders club website.
Hi guys, my mum died and as a result i'm gonna be homeless in a couple of weeks. I see no further purpose in life, and being homeless i'll only be a further burden to society.
>>676414026
Gaily bedight,
A gallant knight,
In sunshine and in shadow,
Had journeyed long,
Singing a song,
In search of Eldorado.
But he grew old—
This knight so bold—
And o’er his heart a shadow—
Fell as he found
No spot of ground
That looked like Eldorado.
And, as his strength
Failed him at length,
He met a pilgrim shadow—
‘Shadow,’ said he,
‘Where can it be—
This land of Eldorado?’
‘Over the Mountains
Of the Moon,
Down the Valley of the Shadow,
Ride, boldly ride,’
The shade replied,—
‘If you seek for Eldorado!’
>>676414222
That sucks dude don't you have any other family or a job?
At least you got trips
>>676409211
Doesnt make me feel, I don't get it. Why is this one ALWAYS here ?
Forty five degrees of separation,
the longitudes of the Atlantic Ocean
A farther distance you wouldn't know,
but it wasn't that far too long ago
But its continental drift, is all,
See where the ocean meets the shores?
Well that once was grinding divorce
that once was grinding divorce,
and, oh, my dear, your bones are sore
you didn't know this love would hurt
you won't believe the things you'll learn,
you won't believe the things you'll learn
More than twenty years ago,
we were both in school, so much we didn't know
like how to love and make it last
the geology of this land mass, and that land mass
But its continental drift, is all,
See where the ocean meets the shores?
Well that once was grinding divorce
that once was grinding divorce,
and, oh, my dear, your bones are sore
you didn't know this love would hurt
you won't believe the things you'll learn,
you won't believe the things you'll learn
You won't believe the things you'll learn,
tectonic love is bound to hurt
your shins and shoulder bones,
from keeping these two islands close
and then, there's nothing you can do
Except just feel the planet move
Sit and gaze in schoolhouse wonder
At the map on the wall and think
How did they ever, ever fit together
>>676414586
Family is almost all dead, and the ones that live have rejected me. Since i'm 18 i earn almost nothing and it's really hard to get a job that can afford me a house at my age.
My friend was committed to a mental hospital over the weekend because her roommate was afraid she was going to kill herself. I can't get into contact with her. I feel scared and helpless, bros.
I've never done this before, but I've got nothing to lose.
Last year I lost my best friend of suicide. He walked past me, ran up the train rails and jumped. Scared the living shit about me. Have been crying into sleep for months, seeing the image of him dying in front of me. Tried to suppress my feeling to gaming, didn't go to college anymore and lost my very few friends. My girlfriend left me because I was a wreck and there I was, totally alone. After a few weeks I had a light heart attack and went to the hospital. It was caused by my bad behavior. Right there it hit me. I was a lonley piece of shit who lost everyone and everything, and was pretty much done.
I wanted to give up. My mind was telling me that I wad worthless. Felt like society rejected me. Even my best friend didn't want me. But I didn't give up. For the first time in my life, I asked for help. And now, 3 months later, I am in a rehab process to stop gaming and start living again.
Everyone here who feels terrible, like shit, even if it lasts a decade... There is always someone in the world who accepts you. Maybe not today, but it will happen. Don't give up. You can do it. I did it. And i believe in all of you.
>>676415051
spot fucking on
>>676413556
Appreciated, anon. Hope it gets easier for you.
i have a heart defect because my mother took birth control while she was pregnant with me, she didnt know she was pregnant. she blames herself, and has basically destroyed her life with horrible decisions because she feels like a piece of shit. life expectancy is ~35-40 for me. cant have a family, ill just die and leave kids without a father. if i dont have kids then at best ill leave a wife with extensive medical bills. if i kill myself my father, divorced and alone, will most likely off himself as well. or will live the rest of his life wondering if he could have done something different, if he should have seen a sign of depression. oldest child, siblings have always looked up to me. cant condemn them to the shame of their main role model offing himself. they have a stupid inflated view of who i am. grew up with an extremely abusive step father and i always took the blame and beatings for them for the stupid small things kids do normally that just happened to set step father off. they think i was protecting them but really i just didnt fucking care if he hurt me, ill die early anyway. wasnt about protecting them. every road ends in the people i love getting hurt. i dont want to end my shit just to clarify. i just feel forced into isolation.
>>676414954
>I feel scared and helpless bros
Gee, I wonder how your friend who just got admitted to a mental hospital feels right now.
You guys are all fucking pussies for giving up. I've been depressed for 5 years and i've managed to work myself out of it. The problem is you guys let the sadness flow over you. You gotta fucking ignore that shit and push through. Set goals, and improve your life, it isn't fucking easy i know but this thread feels like y'all have given up on life and it makes me sad.
Gf just dumped me and I feel like shit, thanks /b/ros
>>676415051
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4coK3DLDkR4
>'scuse me, 'scuse me, you were looking beautiful tonight. I was hoping one day I might be able to put my hands on your tit-tays.
>>676408744
Ouch...
>>676415561
She's probally fucking that dude right now.
>>676415335
Don't be shitty. I can't compare what she's going through to my reaction, but it doesn't mean that I can't have negative feelings about it.
lol you crybabies ...xD
>>676415051
This is how I lost the love of my life. And that she said she liked me in front of everyone.
I'm glad my life's shit now. 31yo, no career, no job (+20% of unemployment here), no money. I can find solace in the fact I wouldn't have been good enough for her.
And It hurts to see people achieving things, while I do nothing at all because I can't. And I read the problems of others here and I think either that they still have better lives than mine or they are more valuable human beings who accomplished more.
Guilt, resentments, regrets, pain, bad luck, anxiety (from birth) and depression (since 2003). I need to end it this year.
>>676413919
Thank you anon. Really.
>>676415301
I wish I could give you my heart. You'd do better with it than I did.>>676415968
1/2
I feel so helpless now
My guitar is not around
And I'm struggling with the xylophone
To make these feelings sound
And I'm remembering you singing
And bringin' you to life
It's raining out the window
And today it looks like night
You haven't written to me in a week
I'm wondering why that is
Are you too nervous to be lovers
Friendship's ruined with just one kiss?
I watched you very closely, I saw you look away
Your eyes are either gray or blue
I'm never close enough to say
But your sweatshirt says it all
With the hood over your face
I can't keep starin' at your mouth
Without wonderin' how it tastes
I'm with another boy
(He's asleep, I'm wide awake )
And he tried to win my heart
But it's taken
2/2
>>676416423
I know the shape of your hands
Because I watch 'em when you talk
And I know the shape of your body
'Cause I watch it when you walk
And I want to know it all
But I'm giving you the lead
So go on, go on and take it
Don't fake it, shake it
Don't second-guess your feelings
You were right from the start
And I notice she's your lover
But she's nowhere near your heart
This city is for strangers
Like the sky is for the stars
But I think it's very dangerous
If we do not take what's ours
And I'm winning you with words
Because I have no other way
I'd love to look into your face
Without your eyes turning away
Last night I watched you sing
Because a person has to try
And I walked home in the rain
Because a person cannot lie...
>>676408432
You are here forever
Remind me again just what you were saying
When you walked in the room when the music was playing
When I was lost too, but in my own thoughts
and I could not find you
Tell me your story, I'm listening this time
I can get us some glasses and a bottle of wine
We can sit on the carpet, sit on the table or sit on the moon
You can reach for my hand
You can say what you like
or just what you can't stand
be a boy or a little old man,
be what you want or even nothing at all
Be with me
Why not forgive us quit holding your breath
you with your right hand like it's all that is left
With a knock of the door
but I love all your ankles
You fall on my floor
You roll your eyes
You're so sick of this
Jaymay the bracelet I placed on your wrist
you lost it lets face it I think we both lost it
a little bit
I know you're living in London
Cause you keep on complaining where is the sunshine, it always is raining
that's all I am hearing, skies are not clearing
Your eyes keep on tearing
You're missing New York
I'm on a road shaped like a figure eight. I'm going nowhere and I'm guaranteed to be late.
>>676417306
But do you miss me
Do you miss our talks
Do you miss our touching and our midnight walks
Do you miss the ocean
Do you miss the sand
Do you miss me at all
Miss you man
I have to laugh like crazy
I really think you're crazy
You might as well ask if the hot day's hazy
You left our navy have I ever laid lazy with you on the grass
Lets get something straight
Cause I really do hate
This feeling that's growing
You think your not knowing
Wherever I may run
Even if it's dumb
I love only you
You are the only one
So it really doesn't matter
If I'm sorta having fun
If your cool or even second
I get a glimpse of the sun
Whether singing on the stages or filling up the pages
Somethings undone
And the song ends here
Cause you're really not near
We haven't said a word in over a year
It just gives me hope
like music gives you rope
to hold you right here
And I'm sorry for these lines
I'm sorry for my crimes
and I'm sorry for the oceans I sails all the times
if i ever gave you something it probably was the notion
I never gave you nothing but a very hard time
>>676413644
This one really gets to me
Please continue.
>>676412316
Do not keep up with them. Let them disappear but also dont block them out of your life.
It is normal to drift away from friends
>>676407593
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vjxm90mEhs
cried yesterday for no real reason. don't know what really is going with me right now...
I should know
Who I am by now
I walk
The record stands somehow
Thinking of winter
Your name is the splinter inside me
While I wait
And I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to stay this way
If only I would wait
The walk has all been cleared by now
Your voice is all I hear somehow
Calling out Winter
>>676419272
Your voice is the splinter inside me
While I wait
I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to stay this way
If only I would wait
I could have lost myself
In rough blue waters in your eyes
And I miss you still
I remember the sound
Of your November downtown
And I remember the truth
A warm December with you
But I don't have to make this mistake
And I don't have to stay this way
If only I would wait
I wish i could travel back in time when i was happy.
Moved from Massachusetts to Idaho when I was 4 because dad got laid off. No money, parents get divorced when mom had affair. Mom moves to mass again. Takes me with her, none of my siblings though. Live in grandmothers house who has dementia. Dude who she had affair with moves in. Mom very alcoholic, didn't understand this until I was older. Shy, awkward, never made any real friends. Fast forward 4th grade. 3 siblings in college already, dad is alone in idaho. Feel bad for him, he's all alone living in shit apartment. Visit every summer, decide to stay with him 5th grade. Things went better in idaho for a while. Was happy. Then turned back into weird kid. Everyone feels bad for me but dislikes me. Always felt unwanted. Self pity. Dad loses job again, move back to mass, this time to dad's dad, my grandpa, who is aging and is alone as my grandma passed years earlier. This is no 7th grade. Not weird anymore but no one likes me as it was the same small town and people chose not to give me another chance. Hate my life. Get crushes on girls, they never are interested, always ended up making idiot of myself. Continues into high school. Start smoking pot at 13.l before high school starts. Mom catches me, crazy alcoholic tantrum. Fucked me up. Dad more understanding, still bad experience for me. Get back into pot, more careful now. High school starts. People think I look weird and think I'm shady. No one likes me again. "Friends" talk behind my back and I know it. Feel betrayed, alone, nothing I can do. Like a girl for a while now, never made a move. She never even acknowledges me. Give up. Mom and dad are also both dirt poor. Don't have enough clothes to last me through week, wear same shirt and pants at least twice. Hate my life. Not enough money to smoke pot anynore. Pondering suicide. Now 15. Know I shouldn't be on this site but I was looking for this thread so I can share part of my life story. Hope your lives get better out there.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4zLfCnGVeL4
May I have the pleasure of your hand to lead this dance?
Aware that you may tread upon my toes.
In hopelessness I spin you.
And suddenly I'm lost.
Aware you tear the tethers of my skirt.
For I've waltzed this hurt a few times
And I've heard this band before.
I don't know the notes and I
Don't know the time.
Don't know the steps and I'm trying to hide.
This marble floor is shaking.
These perfect steps so wrong.
Aware I close these ballroom doors from the truth.
Just play that soft sweet music.
Just stay a while with me.
I don't know the notes and I
Don't know the time
I don't know the steps and I'm trying to hide
What I have in my hold
What I have in my hold.
I waltzed with you in dreams...
>>676414963
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uGcsIdGOuZY
>>676416022
Here for you man, we all are
Racey days
Help me through the hopeless haze
But my oh my
Tragic eyes
I can't even recognize myself behind
So if the answer is no
Can I change your mind
Out again, a siren screams at half past ten
And you won't let go
While I ignore, that we both felt like this
Before it starts to show
So if I had a chance
Would you let me know
Why aren't you shaking
Step back in time
Graciously taken
Oh you're too kind
And if the answer is no
Can I change your mind
We're all the same
And love is blind
The sun is gone
Before it shines
And I said if the answer is no
Can I change your mind
>>676420141
Dont do this to me
>>676419721
i pray for you.
greetings from vienna/austria
you gonna makeit bro
>>676415301
If any of those people knew they'd be grateful. Living for other people is way harder than dying for yourself would be so if nothing else I think you're a good guy.
>>676420141
Fuck man
Why do i keep reading feel threads when its super late and i should be sleeping and not feeling depressed, but i just keep coming back
Once upon another time
Somebody's hands who felt like mine
Turned the key and took a drive
Was free
Highway curve, the sun sank low
Buckley on the radio
Cigarette was burning slow
So breathe
Just yellow lines and tire marks
And sun-kissed skin and handle bars
And where I stood was where I was to be
No enemies to call my own
No porch light on to pull me home
And where I was is beautiful
Because I was free
Once upon another time
Before I knew which life was mine
Before I left the child behind me
I saw myself in summer nights
And stars lit up like candle light
I make my wish but mostly I believed...
In yellow lines and tire marks
Sun-kissed skin and handle bars
And where I stood was where I was to be
Once upon another time
Decided nothing good in dying
So I would just keep on driving
Because I was free
I have an enormous amount of fluctation in my feelings. I can go from feeling damn great to shit back to great in like 1h, which can be very annoying. Especially at social events when i suddenly snap and become silent and introvert, which im not at all otherwise.
>>676420902
greatings fellow vienna fag
>>676414255
Poe.
Nice
>>676421781
manisch depressiv
>>676416442
just had to bring that one in here didnt you
A lot of you fucks are just getting over bad breakups or rejection. I get that your problems are a big deal to you because its you, that's normal, but god damn.
I can relate in this way. I'm an American middle class white male. I'm 26. I've got a stable job, and a nice apartment. And guess what? I'm unhappy. No idea why. I've tried changing as much as I can, and goddamn does the existential crisis hit hard. It hits so goddamn hard because I know there are millions, more than that, who deserve what I have, and I can't appreciate it. I feel undeserving. I'm not special, but I haven't seen anyone say it yet, so I will.
Some of us can never be happy with ourselves, and every day I pray for death, but don't wish to spit in the faces of those who suffer.
>>676422544
get your hormones checked
low serotonine n shit
>>676422544
You don't need to be depressed to have depression.
Wish you the best.
How to weigh a soul swimming upstream?
Are there angels listening? What am I to do?
I'm still in love with you.
If I told the truth, you may be gone.
Painfully, I'd carry on. Buried by the sea.
Love rest in easy peace.
He is all I've waited for.
A love I cannot leave.
Let us be.
Fill a special chest, fit for our love, with memories I'm thinking of.
Toss it out to sea. Love rest in easy peace.
I know I must wait here on the beach, til it's far beyond my reach.
Buried by the sea, love rest in easy peace.
Only 22, met love of my life when I was 14.
At 18, she got cancer.
She was real extroverted, loved to talk / run / hike / whatever as long as it was outdoors.
She now has a hole in her neck and can never speak or even get her neck wet ever again, chemo fucked her up so bad some days she can't even get out of bed.
She's attempted suicide 5 times in the last year, and I stopped her each time.
I didn't want to stop her, I wanted her to know peace again instead of pain. I hate myself for stopping her out of selfishness, because I couldn't let her go.
Now she's just waiting around to die.
There's even more, like other relatives dying and I developed fucking epilepsy, but all that shit is nothing compared to her.
We got married half because we wanted to, half because if nothing else, she'll have been my first wife.
>>676422544
You sound like you need someone to say to you that you deserve it, you accomplished this, and you will find meaning somehow man
Thoughts on this rare image.
I took too many drugs last night and i'm feeling the after effects now. Still haven't slept and i want to die. Feel my feel /b/ros.
>>676416384
>>676416442
Fucking hell that is to much
Does anyone have the picture where the top panel is the guy clouded with dark thought, words like depression and hatred, and then the bottom panel it's cleared up and there's just the word "Her" and a girl holding his cheek.
>>676423755
That's a sad man.
>>676423755
Reminds me of Scarface in the beginning of the film
>>676411610
Cont
>>676414905
Sounds stupid, but I'm pretty sure there are official places you can go with your problems, just to get a place to sleep and some food. Google it!
>>676415013
Really glad it worked out for you anon! Keep going!
Back on the depression train.
Recap: my grandpa, grandma and dad died of cancer within nine months of eachother. This is now 3 years back.
Tried to fill the void with girls, didn't work. My emotions have shut off completely. Not even sure if I was depressed back then
The next genuine emotion I felt was when my 11 year old sister was killed by my friend. He raped her while we were on a holiday vacation last year. He drowned her in a lake. We found out during the autopsy.
I just don't see any light in life anymore. Nothing fills the void of anger, hate and sadness. I am not the type of guy to kill himself but I don't see any point in living in this hell.
So, general question to all you poetry writing guys and gals. I wirte some music from time to time, but I'm shit at writing lyrics. Would it be okay for you if I used some of your stuff as lyrics? Won't be performed live anywhere.
>>676407593
>>676412316
My best friend replaced me a couple of years ago. We're still friends but now I don't have anyone who I truly connect with (maybe I never did). It's hard to cope without him but I guess that's because I relied on him too much for too long. It's really hard to deal with the memories of how close we used to be. Even though he never knew about most of the shit that has gone on in my life (molested by my older brother was the only male role model I had after growing up without a father and having two other brothers leave during my childhood was a small part of it) he would still support me and I felt like one day I could talk to him and tell him about it. Now I never have anyone to really talk to and I will take those secrets to the grave.
I just want someone i can be with, you know like in the movies all the lovey dovey shit, i don't even care about the physical side i just want that.
>>676425878
The ones I've posted are lyrics to songs by different artists.
>>676409706
i especially like the anarchist memes watermark XD
>>676423930
MDMA?
Does the emptiness every subside /b ? I feel so numb, like i'm watching my life from the back of my mind.
How can you guys still loves your girlfriend that has been a bitch with you, like cheat or treat you like shit? you got luck that this fucking slut is gone and not using like you like a stupid doggy money bag
>>676424154
Help me /b/. It's 1:30 am and I'm alone with my thoughts.
I'm so scared.
>>676429091
why are you scared friend-o
>>676407593
Fuck off with this shit.
>>676429091
Haha hello fellow gmt fag.
>>676410825
Felt.
>>676429423
I don't know. I guess I'm just scared of myself. Kinda dumb. I don't wanna die. I don't wanna get up tomorrow. I'm scared of people finding out.
The usual bullshit.
>>676429615
Hey dude. How come you're up this late?
>>676408381
Some one took smiths lyrics and put them in peanuts cartoons and it was amazing
>>676411610
Sure bud go ahead, a listening ear is present.
Every time i think about my emotions i cry
>>676407593
Charlie Brown's such a faggot lol. Half the girls want his dick, he has two parents that love him and he has a bunch of close friends but he still tries to pull off shit like this while the rest of the characters have actual life issues.
>>676409706
It's not like it would be much better without it.
Imagine Fallout, but this time you don't heal broken limbs just by sleeping.
Pathetic story
I have an attraction to this girl, the first girl ive looked at in that way in about a year after i nearly died in a stupid accident, we made out at a house party a few weeks ago. Feels good man. Speak to her next day and conversation is less than ideal but not terrible.
Cant stop thinking about her over next few weeks literally one of the only things i talk about to my best friends when we are in private.
House party yesterday speak to her a few times throughout the night. She says she didn't want to comment on the possibility of a relationship until she was sober. Ok then. Later that night say her kissing a girl she knows but isn't close to. Feels bad. Drink more alcohol. By the end of the night there is only about 7ish people staying over me and her being some of them.
Two single beds that are basically beside each other one of my best friends is in one with a girl who is good friends with the girl i like trying to sleep, me and her are in the same bed. She starts getting all touchy and has her leg over me and we are holding hands etc. eventually we end up kissing and making out. We leave the room for 15mins makeout go back to bed cuddle and fall asleep for like an hour.
Leave, go home, get some sleep, and fairly late at night message her saying hey to start a conversation she reads it instantly and doesn't respond. Now just on this cancer site self loathing it appears.
What the fuck is wrong with me why is it that i just want to be with someone, the cuddling the talking that shit seems more important to me than the sex ect.
>>676430494
Well, what should you stop doing then?
>>676414677
I'm not sure why it's always here, but it happened to me, might have happened to someone else
>>676412968
i'd like to understand how u feel but i never talked to a girl alone :(
>>676429041
Thank you.
>>676431047
Got me.
>>676413707
thank you for the feels :/
>>676429358
That guy got the feels he deserved.
>>676431047
Yeah, but the thing is I'm pretty sure most of the people on 4chan are dipshit morons.
>>676407593
>last night i dream that somebody loved me
Faggottttt
>>676408681
Maybe.
Maybe not.
The result's the same.
Try and enjoy the ride.
Just wanted to get this in before the thread died.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gxEPV4kolz0
>>676433298
I wish this thread wouldn't die.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7zHZrcHdxg
>>676431047
I'm just gonna leave this website for a while now.
>>676431047
I'm just gonna leave this website for a while.
>>676412618
Charles Bukowski. Great fucking poem. Only better one is The Laughing Heart
>>676410001
This hit me hard, excuse me while I go an hero
>>676434911
Just read that, I think I'll do the same, devote some more time to my github and fitness.
>>676435183
No anon. Green text why you want to an hero instead of an hero'ing.
Shes so close yet so far. I want to spend every second of every day with her.
She toys with me, saying she envies her brother who snuggles with his gf on the sofa next to her. She says she wants a boyfriend a ton. I had a burger with her on thursday.
I can't tell if shes just winding me up or actually wants me. I want her so badly, its been years since I have felt meaningful embrace.
>>676435827
Just ask her.
If she's just toying with you it won't be for much longer, and if she isn't then you just bagged yourself a girlfriend.
You can't lose.
>>676430200
hey man you still there, fellow gmt fag here, manchester to be precise
>>676435827
FUCK IT ANON! GO FOR HER! JUST DO IT! If it doesn't work out, you didn't loose anything anyway.
>>676413644
for fucks sake lad
>>676436115
I don't know anymore anon. My mums gonna die, my brother is cutting himself and my dad is crazy. I'm the only relatively normal man in the house.
>>676408716
lonely. you my good man lol?
This thread like all things dies. Death is something I've come to accept. I'm going to die one day. I can't stop it, I can delay it, and I can run from it. But I can never stop it. So you know what, fuck death. Live life without the fear of death anons. It's one thing that you can't stop, you just have to live with it. So accept it, deal with it, and live the best life you can motherfuckers. Don't let anybody hold you back. Fuck the labels you get, fuck what others think.
>>676409789
love this guy lol. don't forget to put a lot of paint on your brush now. paint the trees, little tree, they need the light now, dont be leaving them out.....
>>676436138
Yeah, still here. I'm in Portugal. Britfag like yourself though.
>>676436897
And fight for yourself and those you love to the last drop of your blood.
>>676436471
I don't know what to do with them, but if she's causing you this much trouble, it's only gone help you to clear the air.
I deeply sympathize with your mom dying, I've lost 2 so far and the last one hated me. I lucked out with this one, but I still remember how the others hurt, especially the last one. She took a little piece of me that I'll never get back.
Don't lose hope, you can make it through this.
A girl is basically mentally torturing me (love thing) but the more it goes on, the more I fucking like her...Why?
I love her with my life, she is all what i want but she is still in love with someone who hurts her and only wants to manipulate.
>>676410428
Is she 12? I can't imagine an adult actuing this way unless they are severly mentally handicapped.
>>676409451
/thread
>>676437437
Maybe you think you deserve it.
Don't fuck around with a girl, they'll eat your soul move on to the next one if you let them.
But don't grow too cynical, some people are worth it.
Just make sure you aren't wasting your time.
>>676436471
Anon... Listen /b/ro. I have nothing but the internet as far as my life goes. I have lost nearly everything. I think about going hero everyday. I wonder how many people will show up at my funeral. I wonder if anyone will regret ignoring me when I plead just for someone to come over and maybe eat some chips with me and watch a movie. I never ask for much. I often contemplate what did I do to get in this situation. Anon, I was living for other people and not for myself. I was living for my dying grandmother, the love of my life who hero'd herself, my ex fiance who pushed away all my friends, my grandfather who passed, my crazy brother who could go to a nut house any day now... There comes to a point you must live for yourself and not for others. You have to live for you and not for them. You want this girl, go try. Rejection might hurt but you go try again with someone new. It'll work out eventually. As long as you remember to live for yourself. And while you're living you find something that makes you happy. You do your best /b/ro... Don't end up like me alone every night wishing he had learned to live for himself before it was too late. I believe in you. Go live the life I couldn't.
Didn't want to create my own thread, but I just wanted to post this.
So I'm a year out of high school at uni and there's this girl who's a senior in high school and we've always been sort of into each other.
I never went to prom while I was in high school and guess I was always kind of curious and asked her. She said yes, then changed her answer to no a month later saying she'd rather go with someone in her grade.
I feel like a bitch saying it, but I know I'm going to feel like shit when I hear about her being asked by someone else and agreeing and seeing all the pictures.
If I had any confidence, answer's simple, just cut her off and move on, but she's one of my only friends.
I know this doesn't seem bad at all compared to many others, but it's been bugging me for weeks...
Night /b/. Have a good life, anons.
>>676437353
She likes me, I have been good friends with her for a year. She has had it bad too, she was bullied all through school. I've read the messages of people telling her to kill herself. I don't get her, she is the most wonderful woman I have met. Shes so kind and caring and beautiful. Shes the only girl to really pay much attention to me ever.
I told her about my dad, a sociopathic narc. He used to beat me a bit, but luckily I am bigger and stronger than him now. My mum fights so hard, I have to be up at 4am sometimes to make sure he doesn't beat her.
Sometimes I wish I was born some other time and place, and then I remember how strong it has made me.
>>676438107
You said it yourself, cut her off.
It's worth making the effort to make some real friends.
>>676437925
Thanks anon im saving this
>>676438394
Thanks for the laugh anon.
>>676437796
I dont want to forget her, we complement each other, we have a lot of common. I only want a chance, a fucking chance to try to help, to help us.
>>676438655
Anytime. Nice dubs. For the dubs, I'm gonna keep on trying to see if it gets any better. I mean what do I have to loose?
>>676411030
Fuck you man
>>676439014
Keep fighting anon
>>676437903
But she is basically fucking with my head. I mean she already fucked with my head and right now, the more of her bad side she shows me, the more I like her and the more I miss her, somehow...
I'm sitting here at 2:30 in the morning. The fuck am I doing with my life. I'm going to bed, goodnight anons and good luck.
The only thing i can do is wait... Wait for her to realize that he have someone who would any for her, i dont want her to be broken, to be sad for someone who doesnt love her at all.
>>676438771
Anon... I understand. However you got to understand she is doing this to herself. You have to move on. It will hurt but not as much as it will hurt sticking around. There is some one out there who is begging to be helped. She however is staying with this guy knowing what is going on. You move on and you find someone new. Who knows, eventually maybe she will seek you out but...
Here's the funny thing about a lot of women I've met. When you want them, they would rather be with anyone else but you. Partying around, fucking and what not. And when their party days are over and they're ready, they want to come to you to "settle down". Fuck that anon. You make the rules now. There are a good number of overlooked people who don't want that shit and just want to wake up next to someone. Go find that person, not the person who is sticking around a situation they choose to be in. Don't waste your love nigga
>>676438243
It sounds like your in misery, but you know you're not powerless.
It's great that you know this, and it's so important that you never forget this.
You're going to make a lot of people happy if you hold onto that heart of yours, and make sure it doesn't grow cold.
I know words can't express this properly, but even though I do not know you, even though we'll probably never meet, I care for you.
Stay strong.
Found out my friend killed himself today.
So how was your day /b/?
>>676440000
>QUADS
You handsome bastard you better not wait like some shit tier server. You're the chef. You decide when the dishes come out and whether to spit in them.
>>676413470
I actually took my time and read this ...
actually crying like a bitch now ...
>>676411361
Listen Anon, if you want to save your life from this shit, check into the nearest hospital. Tell them you're suicidal and seek treatment. Tell them if they don't help than you'll kill yourself or some shit like that, and they should help you out.
Godspeed, anon.
>>676440217
That melted me anon, I can't put into words how much this means. I care for you too anon. Remember, regardless of what shit you get into, 4chan will always be here to make you laugh, cry, and give you a reason to live
>>676439751
Try out some basic Zen.
The best way I've found to clear my mind is to actively not expect anything, it shifts your attention to the outside world and away from the shit going on inside your head.
Just remember that: it's all in your head.
Does anyone have that one greentext story where an anon proposed to a girl in their college graduation but she ended up fainting?
>>676440514
Monkey Island gets me every time...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkLz5_55Sh0
>songrelated
>>676440131
Its impossible for me to forget her, she's The only one who give me attention, i know she will step up with The same rock again and she will end more broken than before, she knows that i like her and even after that we were still talking and having fun, but all remains in her now, its her decision
>>676422544
I live in a third world country, I want to live your life. I have no hope
>>676441283
Which one anon?
>>676414428
god damnit man. i lost it here
>>676440983
No but I got this other story
>>676440741
Right on!
How about some feel good tunes.
We all need a little bit of that sometimes.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-LX7WrHCaUA
>>676434114
Fuck you, guy.
Hi /b/
I'm in pain. I have a disability and i feel pain on my right arm from time to time.
I'm bored. Can't think of something fun to do.
>>676422544
I feel you bro. Treat yourself to something nice sometime. Reward yourself so you feel like what you are doing matters, because it matters to you. You deserve, tell those thoughts to fuck off. Buy a nice new bike and ride that shit.
>>676440743
Well the thing with the girl is, i can tell you a short story. So I met this girl, i have liked girls before, no big deal but this girl. I fucking like her so much, it's like I cannot give up on her somehow. So we were having contact all the time, when we were meeting eachother, she was grabbing and holding my hand, hugging etc. Then I started noticing she didn't contact me that much anymore, she "couldn''t" meet me for a long time. In the end I asked her what's the deal and she told me she's not ready but i told her I understand and so on, still no contact with me for many days, it's like she told me to fuck off in a nice way.
Continued
>>676442352
Fap?
Ole lefty needs some practice too.
>>676441475
Paraguay
>>676442348
Sorry anon... It was the only thing I had before I found my feels folder
>>676442628
Look on the bright side anon, at least you don't live in venezuela
>>676409451
This has become my boyfriend. I ask him how he's going every day and he never once stops to ask how I am. It hurts caring so much.
>>676441228
And im still stalking her and her ex because i want to know what The fuck is going on but it only hurts me, even if its a pointless comnentary or a joke i took it too serious
>>676442109
Thanks a lot anon. I will remember that song.
>>676442432
So I stopped contacting her aswell, I kind of gave up in the end. So 1 day she and I have alot of connection, we speak and then we don't have contact for several days in a row. So I spoke to her, we discussed everything, I truly told her how I felt, that everytime she and I communicate nowadays I feel very unsecure cuz I think she is fooling around with me. Then in the end she has just "Seen" the messages, and didn't respond. I stopped writing aswell.
Now I haven't had contact with her in almost a week, we still have eachother on Snapchat so she views my stories etc.
I saw on some story of her like an hour ago where she was drinking with her friends (girls) and she just said...
"I love these girls I'm hanging out with. He thinks I'm annoying but I love him so fucking much"...
Now...who the fuck is "he"?
I have been suspecting she has someone else from the moment everything started going to shit, but in the end i asked her a week ago and she denied it everytime.
So wtf do i do?
>>676443035
I envy psychopaths for this reason, it's just so easy for them to disconnect.
Also, they know how to have a good time.
>>676442536
I have boner. Start watching porn. Lose interest. Limp dick.
No, fapping is boring.
>>676443461
Learn programming anon.
Are we doing this to ourselves anons? As if so we can say, "Out of the billions of people in the world, I am alone. I am special."
>>676419721
Been there done that anon. In just 3 years you can be out of there. Got to school and reinvent yourself. Sometimes we need the geographic cure.
>>676415297
This sums it all up for me right now. No matter how much love I show him, it doesn't matter, because she was there first.
>>676407593
Last night I dreamt that I stabbed my dad and my dog. Shit was weird.
Thread theme.
I challenge you to find a sadder song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ODTv9Lt5WYs&ab_channel=AliceInChainsVEVO
>>676416384
>>676416442
looks like a young john cena
>>676443583
Not really, we just need a place where it's okay let our pain out without looking weak.
It's not that we're special, it's that we're so irredeemably human.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RiAbzhIGc1U
