Fuck it, lets Feelthread
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Fuck it, lets Feelthread
worth the read u fucking faggots
>>675907789
OP here, have been drinking this night plus the day before. I have been completely antisocial the last 3 years. I have been thru the hole thinking ocean that you probably think you are the only one being swimming in. How are you /b/
21yo faggot here. It's 5 am still in a dont sleep lets just say fuck it-mood
>>675908404
tie a cinderblock to your leg and go scuba diving in the ocean
Thread suckks
>>675908404
OP here.. oh god... I just realised how big an attentionfaggot i am... i am so sorry, i really diddent think i would ever give in to this
>>675907789
>>675908016
yeah, but
>asking for likes
>>675909168
Haha shitty comic lmao...
I'm so sad
>>675909285
You're in a feel thread bro , so feel free to vent , no matter what the newfag // redditfag say.
>>675909168
i dun wan it
>>675907789
I'm visiting my parents and I saw my dad do exactly this, only he was pouring McCormick vodka into homemade wine. It was horrible.
>>675909907
thanks your are right.
I am tired of being tired
I want to love someone, not that big of a dilemma compared to some people here but still.
>>675908829
No one really cares. They just don't want you to hurt others when you fall.
>>675910602
Yeah I'm tired of everything...
22yo associal , diagnosticed with sever depression , borderlines , psychotic disorder and shyzophrenia disorder.
I'm really lonely and it just kill me inside... No job nor willing to have one.
*sigh* that's my life.
>>675911324
fuck forgot the pic
>>675907789
I wish it was easier just to die
>>675911737
If only we could...
>>675910852
All my life I have seen people persue love and always end up getting hurt
Is it worth it? Why?
>>675911324
very much the same. I don't want to say anything cliche like 'hang in there man' or something dumb like that... but, i feel for you.
25 year old skydiver, wingsuit instructor and base jumper here. Life's not so bad just don't be such a whiney anti social bitch and do some shit.
Pic related being that I'm in it
>my everyday life at my home in a pic.
>>675912367
thanks bro
>>675912363
I used to love music. I owned a bunch of records n CD's, obsessed over finding new bands.
Now I can't stand listening to music, It makes me feel so alone. The only thing that stops the panic are some vlog style videos on youtube, I can trick myself that someone is talking to me.
I wish people weren't so temporary. Everybody parts ways eventually.
I cannot wait until the will to die overpowers the fear of the unknown
>>675908030
Faggot
>>675912911
Currently 5am... I'm log in a chatroom just to feel less lonely tricking me that there is people around just by looking anon talkin in the room
Sounds stupid but I feel less lonely than if I wait in the dark without this...
>>675913372
I get ya, I spend hours on facebook everyday, and I don't have anyone on there to talk to, it just feels less lonely.
>>675913103
we in this thread are temporary. Still feels nice to have a lasting impact on people
>>675910357
i look at this image for a good 10 minutes everytime its my birthday
>>675912196
Because eventually through all the wrong people they'll find someone who truly loves them, and who they truly love, and thats one of the greatest feelings in life.
>>675912814
I can't wait until your chute fails to deploy and you wind up a pile of giblets in an isolated field. It's doubtful anyone will even bother to recover your remains, other than the vultures.
How do you forget someone?
...Without a bullet to the head.
>>675913992
ask the person you are trying to forget, because they learned quick how to forget you.
>>675913992
You never trully forget someone, you just used/learn to live without...
>be 22 year old me
>had a great childhood
>high school was ok
>decide not to go to college because I don't want to spend my life paying debt
>I take work where I can but always fall back on my cooking skills
>I have a good winter job
>I have good summer job lined up
>no ambition to get better
>nothing I love enough to be passionate about
>I have a great place to live and set myself up well financially
>no debt, no great struggle to get by
>why do I feel so empty?
>itsanabstractkindoffeel.jpg
>>675913889
Had one cutaway before, really not that big of a deal as long as you don't have autism. Maybe it's best to keep your feet on the ground where they belong whuffo.
>>675908016
That's a nigger, I really don't care. Why the fuck is he posting everything on facebook anyway, stupid nigger.
>>675913883
My dog got back from surgery a week ago.
This hit home pretty bad.
> 21st Birthday today
> "What do you wanna do today anon?"
> Nothing I just wanna stay home and play osrs
> "too bad we planned all this gay family shit to do"
> mfw have family who care about me but i dont give a rats ass FeelsBadMan
>>675914333
find a partner. you sounds like you need someone to come home to
No use lookin' out, it's within that brings that lonely feeling.
>>675913877
I don't understand, but ill keep ot on mind
For now, I don't feel like getting hurt or hurting anyone else, so I'll stay alone. I'm so used to being alone in my own head that I am not really sure what it feels like to love anyone... Odd eh?
Even surrounded by all of these people, somehow I can still be alone.
>>675914699
boohoo look at me i'm a privileged faggot
>>675908234
legendary if true
>>675914333
Checked
>>675915210
not rly, im not fully white, grew up in the hood, dad that left when i was a kid wants to take me to some run down shack
left to grow up with non white single mother, blah blah blah mental illness, growth on my head yadayada
I probably have the same amount of privilege as a trans nigger tbh
>>675915386
What anime is this from? I keep forgetting to watch it.
>>675916004
I want to say 'welcome to the nhk'
>>675916004
Welcome to the NHK
>>675914857
Eventually we all find someone like us, the fact that you aren't falling for every slut means you aren't getting hurt wrongfully, it's the people who say they "love" everyone who end up getting crushed.
But when you find a person you'll know, we can't all be alone.
>>675913788
I know that feel. I know it all too well
>>675907789
The Simpsons has become total fucking shit. I feel you.
>>675910997
This describes me too well
>>675912814
Oh piss off. I spend all day trying to be happy and doing shit, when i come here i just want to feel for awhile. Dont take away the one place i dont pretend
>>675916354
Thank you. I'll remember that.
>>675912814
How'd you get started?
>>675916155
>>675916261
Thank you /b/ro's
I am slowly stagnating and rotting away. I wish the Illuminati would approach me online somehow with an offer that will turn my existence around and make it so that I do something that benefits people.
>>675916465
I used to be funny, I used to have charisma.
>>675916857
Go do a tandem skydive and see if you like it if so follow through and take an AFF or STP program and get your student rating done.
The rest is just putting in the work and having your shit together.
>>675917012
I hope you're not my buddy Aidan. He was like pic, lost himself in college tried to kill himself. Me and his family were the only ones to visit him.
>>675908354
10/10 would read again.
>>675918010
I don't have the guts to really try to kill myself
>>675918264
He felt worse about himself afterwards for making all his friends and family go through all of it. Lost contact with him after high school.
>be me
>Girlfriend cheated on me an left me
>She claims i raped her
>Dad is a lying stealing drug addict
>Mother is too delusional to see anything wrong
>therapy going nowhere
>new medication always increasing in dosage
I dont have enough time in the world to write everything. I'm just so fucking done. God damn it why am i so dead inside.
I'm tired of feel lonely , alone , worthless , useless; broken, empty...
Why can't I be normal /b/?
Why can't I care, or even pretend to care about my health? Why do I drink too much, smoke too often, and workout too little?
I just want to have friends. I want to be in someones thoughts, to find joy in talking to other people and not just feel pure anxiety.
Why am I the way I am? Why do I have to constantly be looked down on by my family for not being in a relationship? Or having a job because I have emotional breakdowns in social situations.
I want to be someone else, someone normal.
>>675918533
people say that because your depression scares them and makes them uncomfortable.
>>675918661
>therapy going nowhere
>new medication always increasing in dosage
Fuck man I feel you... 14 month of therapy and nothing improved , it only get worse and worse...
Meds always do nothing in the best case , and in the worst case it make me tired as fuck but with no improvement on the problem...
Always changing meds or incrasing the dosage..
And I'm feel so alone and empty...
>>675918661
kill your gf if you ever decide to kill yourself
>>675910997
I was the clown in my friend group. Started drinking at 16 because it felt good after my dad's cancer came back. Kissless virgin that wants to be a bioengineer but could never amount to my brother/father/mother. Brother got scholarships and guaranteed acceptance to pharmacy school and I'm very close to failing out of school. Get heavily intoxicated every time I was with my friends because it was "funny." But really it's just to try and forget.
>>675918993
We're outcasts anon. We're the ones with no place in society. As sad as it is, we will never amount to anything. We'll either die alone, or die unhappy.
Never usually contribute to these threads. Usually just sit back and enjoy them. Something is possessing me to share this time though, so here we are.
>be 14, secondary school (britfag)
>lock eyes with girl, first time seeing her, smile goofily
>instantly think i know what love is in some clichéd form and work on getting girl
>skip a few months
>girl is dating my long time best friend, known each other all of scholarly life
>feel shit every time i see them together, hold hands, smile at each other
>every time she looks at me or i at her, same feeling
should i bother to cont?
>>675920051
Yes
>>675920051
kill them both
>>675920051
go ahead anon
>>675919262
Im taking 300mg of anti depressants daily, I'm seriously considering Od'ing when i get my prescription
>>675920051
Alright, cont.
>skip a year, 15 years old
>girl and i begin talking a lot, become really good friends and she shares everything with me
>i was a recluse, only talked to two other people bar her, both my long time friends since primary
>decide i'd do anything to be with this girl even if it costs my friend
>girl and my friend break up, i play shoulder to cry on for both of them, girl and i hit it off
>we start dating, all so quick, try to maintain friends with my other mate but doesnt work out
>year forward, given up literally everything to be with this girl at her request. i speak to nobody but her, 16 years old and only one person that knows i exist any more.
>had a fucked up childhood, never told her much about it until then
>used to watch parents hold knives to each other, smash up the house whilst arguing, shit like that, since i was maybe 4/5
>every time i try talking to my parents how i still feel shit and weird about that stuff when people argue near me they just say they don't do it any more
>they don't, got to give them that
>as a result every time me and the girl argued i'd freak out big time
>i was a really, really shitty person, used to yell loud as fuck and punch walls and shit, usual angsty teenager bullshit
>every time an argument ended we'd just cuddle and everything would feel okay again
>found out she cheated on me, wanted to go vent to somebody about it but had nobody.
>as a result i stuck with her, forgave her and moved on like a cuck.
skipping another year
>16 years old, relationship has gone to shit and i dont even recognise myself any more
>she was my first kiss, first girl, first everything really, clichéd but true. would do anything to keep her.
>same time, i was a shit person to her. couldn't help myself any time i got angry at something, never hurt her physically though, only ever myself when laying in to a wall.
>she began to get bored of me, started saying stupid shit to provoke me, she derived fun from it.
I'd like to express myself through song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xkXA12mVgh0
>>675921214
Feel you , I can't overd'in mine but I consider suicide everyday
I do nothing all day , just waiting... music doesn't help anymore , I'm sick of beeing tired empy and broken
>>675919919
The realization of that terrifies me to no end. I don't want to be alone, I don't want to die. So obviously there's some kind of driving force keeping the instinct to live active.
God knows I can't find out what it is... I feel empty, emotionless. I've never been in a relationship, and I've only ever had one friend. He was sent to his death in the army through an "unforeseeable accident". He was my only friend for over 14 fucking years and he's dead now, gone.
Everyone I knew and loved has either died or grown distant. I sit alone in my apartment doing nothing every single god damn day. I want motivation, I want a purpose, I want love, I want excitement, I want comfort, but most of all I just don't want to be alone.
>>675921405
GAYYYYYYYYYYY
>>675921335
[cont]
>she used to use my anger to work in to kinks, would taunt me, say shit about what had happened during youth
>didn't care, she was perfect through my eyes, this went on for the rest of our relationship
>she cheats on me again and i finally have enough, split up with her and don't listen to her pleads to take her back
>bitch just wanted to screw me over more, enjoyed watching me break down
>felt shit every day away from her, fell in to self harm, used to cut shoulders and thighs until i was too weak from crying to continue, then fall asleep
>had to hide scars didn't want anyone else to know
>hear a rumour around school, she was telling people i used to beat her
>go mental at school and decide i need help, start speaking to pupil support unit
>they aren't helping
>start speaking to her, it works
>or so i thought
>over skype calls she'd continue to taunt me, bring it on
>encouraged me to self harm, would laugh at me when i said i wish i was brave enough to just kill myself
>i was a stupid cunt, what more can i say
skip to 17, in and out of counselling over the months until my birthday, decide to stop altogether
>still self harm not as frequently, not because i don't want to, because i don't want to waste time on me
>spend my whole day just not speaking and sitting in darkness when i can
>no friends, stopped speaking to her, nobody.
>someone i used to know well starts talking to me, realises i'm in a bad place, hangs out with me all the time
>never told him i self harmed but told him i felt shit, he sticks by me, went out on longs walks and let me just vent my shit to him
>shit gets really bad at one point, ex hadn't collected all her stuff from my house so was picking it up
>i forgot, parents were out, good time to delve in to an old habit
>fasten belt around my neck, decide this is the time i won't turn back
>crying on floor bleeding, bedroom door opens just as i've fully fastened the belt
>can hardly see, eyes too watery,
>>675915386
holy shit.
I read the manga and watched this when I was 13/14.
Thought it was iight.
Watched it again at 21 and could relate to everything. couldn't believe how well it was written.
I still had hope then.
Now i'm almost 24, older than satoh, and even more pathetic than he ever was.
>>675914333
at least u have thoughs trips
>>675908354
Godspeed anon.
Holy shit
OP here
i was gone for an hour or something.. I felt like shit and diddent think this thread would survive.. I just stumpled upon this again..
watching this shit please watch it with me and tell me that you agree on this guy being fucking awesome
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQcNfFJxIOs
If i could do anything i would drop my social anxiety and depression right now just to do whatever this guy is doing in this video, i would dance sing and make a fool out of myself in front of everybody, and make people laugh and have fun and improve my own life at the same time. (sorry my english is rusty)
Cheers!!
>>675922684
Bro , fuckin same... read it years before and find it funny , reread it this year and fuck I can relate... 22yo and more or less fucked up than him...
>>675908354
Had a nice, good read
Holy fuck am i sad
>>675922620
[cont]
>she shouts at me, unfastens belt, picks me up
>says its just because she didn't want to be dragged in to my death
>could do without it on her head
>gets her stuff and leaves expressly
>bitch stopped me, i could've been dead, was too scared to do it again.
>nearly 18 at this point, slowly getting better with therapy, no longer angry, no longer a dickhead to people
>just go about my life doing my thing, best mate is still there
>decide never to look back
skip to now
>nearly 19, (youngfag), see ex engaged to some guy she cheated on me with.
>just smile and wish her and him the best, hope everything is good
>nice to literally everyone i meet, still get funny looks from people and don't know why
>three months ago i find out she has been telling people i raped her and beat her
>break down, shit isn't fair, people believe her because i was a cunt when i was younger
>best mate believes me, only one who does
>small town, everyone heard her shit, believes her
>can't interact with anyone two years within my age either way
>constant stigma about my name when mentioned, every girl uninterested and scared of me
>i do nothing but be nice and smile at everyone, offer them advice when they need it, joke about, rare occasions when i can at least
>have heavy drug habit, use of cocaine, MDMA and constantly drunk every weekend
>feeling shit today because I haven't had my fix
>is the only time i feel happy and like a person
on the contrary i've got a place to a good uni, good future ahead but I just can't get over this shit. My childhood has left, I'm not too bothered about it. I just spend a lot of my time sitting wondering what the fuck I did to deserve the stigma about me. Still try my hardest to help everyone out. Literally have £1 in my bank account and no change out. A lot of painkillers, warfarin and antidepressants about my desk. Every time I look I consider swallowing them all. Only reason I don't is because I don't want to cost my parents money.
>>675913883
....fuck.
the feels.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FJmvvZk4C1A#t=34
just leavin this sound here
>>675924241
not playable in the US...
/b/rothers my gf of 3.5 years cheated on me and is with the guy she did it with right now. Im dying on the inside what do i do
>>675924519
kill yourself
>>675924241
>>675924375
And with this link ? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BqFftJDXii0
>>675924519
I'm sorry. That's hard. How'd you find out?
>>675924519
slap her faggot
>Be me age 22
>had rough childhood
>my father would spray bleach on me screaming telling me this is what they would put in dead people
>Never finished school due to bullying
>Nobody ever gave a fuck about me
>I'm still a fucking loser
>I'll never be successful
>I'm not scared to know I'll probably end myself.
>I'm not asking for pity
>I'm not asking for help
>I just want you to know that everyone Anon here is in my thoughts
>You're all amazing, and I know you can do anything you want
>I've failed you Anons for not being apart of something bigger
>Thanks Anon... You given me that slightest amount of light I need to carry on...
>>675914333
You feel empty because society made you feel like you're supposed to have some ambitious goal lined up. You're doing fine.
OP the only person not talking to anyone in this thread probably. How ironic.
Just wanted to say cheers
>>675914464
shots fired
>>675924991
she told me things werent working out with us and ive been kind of a shitty boyfriend, not paying attention to her, but more recently i thought i was doing things right. that night she said things werent working out, i asked her to stay the night at my place, and the next morning i went through her phone. she slept with the guy 5 times over the weekend because he visited our university and i even met him. feels bad man
>>675924060
I...I'm sorry, anon. I don't wanna be "that anon", but I at least hope it will get better. It has for me and many others. Good luck.
>>675925570
........fuck that whore bitch! Post her pictures. Tanya what you should do. Blast that bitch here.
>>675926126
***that's. Damn spell check...
>>675926126
she was too insecure about herself to send me any nudes. even though i told her she was beautiful everyday. she said it got old and it meant nothing when i called her cute or beautiful. i dont understand why she would do this to me and its tearing me apart
>>675924519
Hey man, I feel you. My gf of 6.5 years cheated on me. When I found out, she had been doing this for at least .5 years, probably closer to 1.5 years. She got engaged to him 3 months after she left me. That was 2 years ago. It took time, but I moved on.
Actual advice:
Don't expect to move on quickly. It'll hurt like hell, and it will hurt for a while. It took me over a year to get back to my normal self.
Don't talk to her. If possible, cut her out of your life for a couple months. If that not possible, try to interact with her as little as possible.
Block her on all social media. Otherwise you'll get super sad one night, look her up, and feel even shittier.
Tell your friends. Hang out with them a lot. If you are able to open up to them do. I held all my pain inside for a long time, but when I finally talked with them about it, it felt so much better.
Work out/get a hobby. It'll keep you busy, and it'll make you happy
>>675927084
>>675927164
i just want to know what i did wrong and im probably dumb for thinking about wanting her back. for valentines day she got me cage the elephant tickets and we still went and spent about 5 days together in tennessee. those 5 days were amazing and i just want to have her back. i know im a dumbass but shes all i know
>>675927164
also, thank you for the advice. it really means a lot
>>675927084
They don't have to be nudes. Just us her face.
>>675924060
Good luck anon.
>>675927988
Definitely talk to your friends and be with them as much as possible.
>>675927529
Spend time away from her and look back. After some time you'll start to remember all the little things that you dismissed because you loved her. All those times she hurt you, or annoyed you, or made you feel uncomfortable. And eventually (it will take a long time trust me) you will be able to see how it was a good thing she left you. But if you are around her, it will be much harder to remember these little things.
Also, even though this is suuuuper shitty thing to go through, you will learn a lot from it. About who you are, how you handle things, what you like and need, ect. And that knowledge will help you live a better life.
>>675925899
Yeah, I hope so too. Thanks Anon.
Also recently got news that I have HOCM and ventricular fibrillation. Refused surgery, just going to take it as it comes. If it ends me before I grow up fuck it. Been told with my current habits of alcohol and drug use it's very likely. It's scary. I no longer actively seek out to die, but I don't care if I do. At least if I die this way it'll look like an accident and I died enjoying myself.
Well you wanna hear my story /b/?
>this last year i been studying so hard and saving money to study animation that has been my dream since i was little.
>everything was good when suddenly had to deal with my grandma's cancer not only hers ut one of my best friends too my other gandma and granpa are dead sick too.
>my mom and dad are always out and my brother is sick of the house and just makes things worst
>i had planned to go to america looking for a better life but that would mean leaving my boyfriend and i love him so much
>>675928653
Yeah. You will think that being alone is the what you want, but it's not. Be around your friends as much as you can. Because while one person hurt you bad, not everyone wants to do that to you. And you want a constant reminder of that.
so ive only had one true love in my entire life and i had fucked it up, so we had been together for a really long time and i got the feeling that she was losing interest it just wast the way it had been, so i had met this cunt through some friends and i ended up dumping the first girl to get with a total cunt and ik that then but i was scared so after realizing what a fucking cunt i was i dumped the whore and i was lucky enough to get back with the girl i loved, so we were fine for a bit everything was fine but then one night when we were talking she said that she worried that we wouldnt work and felt that sometimes she worried that she "didnt deserve me" and the worst part was that since it was a fairly long little speech she had i didnt adress that not deserving thing but i told her i loved her etc and then several weeks later on 2/12/15 she broke it off and now im a reclusive mess ive been diagnosed with depression im commited to killing myself as slowly as possible i.e with drink i became a masochist cutting myself for fun, this isnt for attention or any bullshit like that i haven't told anyone and no one will know this is purely to send the message DONT LET FEAR FUCK YOU
>>675928989
I was saying don't be alone =X
>>675928653
I have only told 2 people because i fell like if i tell people they will think im a shitty boyfriend and will look down on me.
>>675928314
pic related its her
>>675929847
holy shit im bad at cropping pictures
Hot chick at my work won't even give me her real phone # so I can contact her about work related shit like covering shifts etc. About done
>>675928827
Well, just so you know, anon. Others may not have nor will they, but I Anon will be here for you always. See ya round space cowboy.
>>675928888
Not wanna be moralist or shit like that but remember that, sadly, love is not eternal...
What if tomorow your boyfriend doesn't love you anymore or for whatever reason you break up.
You will be without him and not in the USA. That suck don't you think ?
Also stay with a relative point of view, america is not that great , so if you planned to go here for " the american dream " , you will be disapointed.
Now it's all up to you.
>>675930380
Not that anon but I wish we wil all see each other in space...
>>675930380
Damn man, that reference. I appreciate it. I'm here for you too if you ever need me.
>>675911324
Sounds like you need to find something that can help you feel like you have accomplished a goal, and makes you feel better about yourself. Try picking a skill you're not good at or something you never though of trying before and practice it. You might surprise yourself you have a knack for certain things and it will make you want to continue doing it. For me it was cooking. I thought all o could really do was rice and eggs. Turns out I was pretty capable at cooking different types of meals. Now people want me to cook for them all the time.
>TFW you used all of you super sea snails on rerolls and get no trips on splatoon
>>675930824
Problem is that I don't have any motivation for nothing. I have "talent" in a few thing , but no motivation to work out any of these things
I just cry all day waiting for nothing really... I don't know what to do.
I know a lot of people will reply "move your ass" but I don't know.. my lack of motivation let me stand here and do nothing but wait time to flow...
>>675929847
Dude....don't be afraid. She is the one who is a piece of shit.
>>675930630
Me too, anon...me too...fuck
Have a goodnight guys. Just in case I don't here anymore you. I'm gonna lurk till it 404's, then go to bed.
>>675908016
Those feels.
>>675913788
its my birthday today. no phonecalls, no wishes. i love you anon, even though everyone here is a faggot; no homo.
>>675908354
Pics of ella ? I want to fap on her
>>675913883
>>675932030
Happy birthday then
>>675913788
It's my 30th in a few months. This feels closer to home than I'd like it to.
I've had no where else to talk about this, so fuck it i'll just post it here. My father has been cheating on my Mom, she's going to leave him within the next few weeks. I'm a few years into college so it won't really affect me, but it will affect her. On top of that, she sound a lump on her so now there's a chance she has cancer on top of that.
I've never felt this distraught, everything has fallen apart all at once and I am powerless to help. I just needed to get this all off my chest.
>>675912814
>Life's not so bad
>My life has been nothing but handouts, pull yourselves up by your bootstraps
How's that silver spoon taste you pathetic cuck faggot?
>>675912911
This shit cuts deep.
>>675913883
Had to put my little lady down recently. Not prepared for this again.
>>675916924
You can always look into joining your local free mason chapter?
I could do anything but I feel like I'm gagged, bound, and blindfolded.
I could be whoever the I wanted to be, but I don't see myself in the mirror.
I could have changed the world.
But I could not be motivated.
I hate everyone except you faggots. I hate chick I'm dating, I hate my best friend, I hate my fucking self. You're all that's fucking good in my life you fucking pieces of shit.
>>675913883
The happiest day of that dogs life had to end in his death. Fuck man
My boyfriend got really drunk in my friend's party.
He puked everything, even himself.
I'm so embarrased, and angry and dissapointed with him...
He is older than me. He told me he was responsible and that shit. I just can't take his shit anymore and I feel like crap too.
>>675934464
Fucking faggot, get some real problems and come back.
>>675914333
>>675914808
This. But be careful, find someone who fits in with your wants and needs and wont try to do the woman thing of disrupting and controlling your life.
>>675934551
The problem is that I've been dealing with drunk people my whole life.
But well, u're right. I'm being a real faggot.
>>675934863
Fucking join them, me, and the club.
>>675934998
I will. Thanks.
Feels are feels anyways.
>>675925377
See ya later ,Space Cowboy.
>>675918661
I don't know you and I never will, but your shit hits close to home dude.
You need to find a way to get out. Burn the rickety shaky bridges and get the fuck out. You owe these people nothing and you'll only stagnate and die if you stay where you are.
Sell your shit, get on a vehicle going anywhere and start a new life. Find a shit place and work a shit job, but at least you wont have the negativity of your current situation eroding you.
Change is good man, change makes us stronger and lets us develop. Sometimes forces us to. I moved across the country getting away from my loser family and cheating gf and it's done me nothing but good.
>>675925377
I don't think they put bleach in dead people, if that helps it all.
<3
>>675913883
Biggie?
>>675924060
>I just spend a lot of my time sitting wondering what the fuck I did to deserve the stigma about me
Not a damn thing anon. Shit's just unfair and doesn't have a single thing to do with who you really are.
>>675924060
Bitches be crazy. You're better than her, she's a fucking psychopath and she will snap one day and kill herself or end up in jail or some shit. Start telling people she hosts open house orgy's at her house late at night on fridays and that her husband likes to watch.
>>675907789
I feel like i'm always in a dark room where I can't see anything and just when I feel like taking my life, a small light appears. And I stop and stare at it and then I hear voices telling me to stop. Then I go after the light of hope, and it always flickers away. The cycle repeats.
My fiancé is suicidal and has attempted 10 times by my count. Usually she will ask me a few times a week if she can, sometimes while crying but a lot of times just casually. Every time I tell her no, but sometimes I feel like I'm just making her suffer more. She is happy with me, but we literally have the earth between us. She's in Japan, and I'm in the US.
Am I doing the right thing by stopping her?
Am I making her suffer more by prolonging the inevitable?
>>675909983
kill yourself
My older brother is a drug addict and I blame myself.
>he used to beat the shit out of me when we were younger
>didnt know why
>hated him because of it
>later realized he was molested then
>we become very distant even though 4 year age difference
>he turns to drugs and alcohol
>I knew about it but didnt say anything
>he goes to college
>drops out
>has heart acceleration
>eventually sent to rehab
>loses 12 lbs from withdrawals
>comes home
>relapses
All along I realized he just wanted to be close with me after awhile but I pushed him away and I feel like I am partly to blame because I wasn't there for him
>>675914624
almost cut myself on that edge
>>675941148
This hit too close to home
>>675941413
thats shiet,completely, fucking files from searching ¨sad images¨ on google
>>675941036
So simple but so beautiful.
>>675931278
A lot of people think it's just that easy.
>Just do it
>Just man up
It's hard to get motivated when you're depressed off your ass. Then you blame yourself for not doing anything about your situation. Which makes it worse.
>>675941631
Is it?
Pretty sure I got it from a different feels/baww thread.
Says it was created on January 15, 2014 on my computer...
>>675913883
Oranges make dogs' eyes swell up?
>be me
>last year of high school
>in this group of me and three other people
>three guys and a kinda larger chick
>"best friends"
>used to be really close
>stopped inviting me to shit because I worked on the weekends
>onlytill5.mp4
>just ignored me altogether
>went on a road trip without me
>the girl actually liked me but the guys had raging boners for fat chicks and thought I was competition
Kinda ruined that year for me but I got better friends and made up for it by:
>those three faggots were selling donuts for youth group
>they pay after the donuts come in
>write down random name and order 20 dozen
>they order them
>they realize nobody is going to pay for them
>church makes them pay out of their own pocket
>church wont let them take the donuts home since they didnt order them
Fucking faggots deserved it.
>>675941552
That was...beautiful ;(
>>675907789
I miss her so much, it pains me a lot. Im so heart broken and alone. After 5 years she wanted something more.
I wanted to travel the world and marry her. But now all i want to do is crawl into a hole and seal myself off.
For the past three years, not one person has told me happy birthday on Facebook. Not one friend called or texted. I threw a get together and nobody came.
>>675941479
Fuck, reminds me of this chick I stopped talking to because I got tired of her one word replys and we used to have a thing. Then she just gets a boyfriend loses her virginity and onto highschool where she just ignores me when I pass her....god damn it.
I read somewhere that sleep is useless if it's the soul that's tired.
I'm so tired /b/, no amount of sleep can refresh me. I'm slipping into depression and it scares me to think no one can help me.
this always gets to me, the innocents of a young child, not knowing whats ahead of him...
Switched schools recently and I'm just going to an hero. My friend barely talk to me anymore and they all have new friends. Doc put me on 125 mg sleeping pills and I think I'm going to overdose on them tommorow night.
>>675941036
That's brutal. I almost lost it on this one.
>>675943161
I'm so sorry man. Fuck social media sites honestly. They always make people feel like shit than good. I hate it.
>>675941071
>Meet super cute girl
>Funny
>Smart
>Kind and cares about everyone even assholes
>She likes me too
>Lives in Australia
Fuck me dude.
Anyone else had a similar situation?
>>675943381
Don't dude it gets better. Just hold on man
Brutal anxiety all week from drinking too much.
Finally feeling ok the past two days.
Had a tallboy an hour ago.
Have a panic attack.
Shit happens every year or so.
Feel like im looking at the world through a wall of glass.
>>675941036
>>675943503
That's not even half of it. within the past two years my life has went to shit. I've literally contemplated ending it. If it wasn't for my nephew or my dog I would have done it a long time ago.
>>675912814
> implying u didnt get a small loan of a million dollars to start ur career
I'm more or less worried about love, because to be honest i'm okay with living alone my whole life. What i'm more worried about is the afterlife (if their is one), and what may come after death. This hole point revolves around my head at night, and due to this I haven't been able to get sleep for the past 3 months. it really shakes my world, and scares the living hell out of me, and I haven't told my girlfriend about it yet, but its starting to get more and more difficult for me to put to put on a fake smile for her to keep her safe and happy. iv contemplated finding out the answer on my own, but the ambiguity of it all really scares the living shit out of me, along side the fact that I don't want to hurt my family, and remind my mother about how her brother left this world... I'm at a triple point, and my world is on fire, and I don't know what to do. please help /b/
>>675944733
Same
If it wasnt for my younger brother id've probably done the same or similar
>>675915906
>implying you're not a trans nigger
>>675916212
>>675913883
Fuckin' hell, I did good up till this one...
hey guys i just watched braveheart. we're all gonna die one day, the only thing we can change is how we're gonna die and why.
>>675939908
Am I doing the right thing?
>>675945212
I'm a strong person... meaning I can sometimes rummage up the strength to got day to day with said information, but it still gets hard, and I don't like to outcry, like at all. the people that I've lost in my lifetime '6' continue their life along side mine, but its hard to carry that weight, and to be honest, I really want to go out quietly, with out anyone knowing. i just really wish that my parents never had me
>>675945212
>worried about the afterlife
dude. out of all the things u could be worried about, you're worried about something u have no control over. We don't know if an afterlife exists, and I doubt you could change your afterlife in this one. dont worry about it
>>675913883
My dog looked exactly like this . this is exactly what happened except had in terrible terrible cancer. She waa my childhood dog and she took my childhood with it officially. I tried grasping onto it after my best fiend killed himself. But after years of trying to hold onto the happiness of being young. Having to put her down made me a depressed adult with a mentally insane mom im 20 now and im just sitting here cryinf remembering my poor midnights face as we killed her. Im snuggling with my dog annabelle right now. I hate my life right now it needs to change. But it wont ever will it?
>>675943249
=[... What is it you want help with?
>>675943353
>fuck fucking fuck fuck fuck fuck
sooooooooooo edgy
>>675910997
Same feeling if i can't be happy i'm going to kek until i die.
>>675945846
thats the thing, its so fucking scary to think that we might live such a wonderful life, just to have it end and all come to a black, empty void...
>>675946044
read this
>>675945680
>>675946105
>>675943381
C'mon man switching schools...you're soo young. Give it time, don't do it.
>>675913889
Jealous faggot, get off your ass and go sky diving
>>675946044
you need to shut the fuck up. you have a GF, your literal only problem is worrying about an afterlife.
live life, do what u want, if theres an afterlife, deal with it then, not now. stop being so fucking pety and creating problems for yourself and move on with life
The hardest part is the things that did not happen. Love never experienced, because you were too much of a pussy to ask. Children that never were. Grandchildren that never will become.
>>675946345
not everyone HAS THE FUCKING MONEY!!
FUCK YOU SILVER SPOONED CUNT FUCK OFF
NOT EVERYONE HAS THE TIME EITHER FUCK OFF FUCK OFF
I miss him. He left for the Air Force recently, and I miss him. And because I'm a pussy, and because he's in another state (knew him in high school tho) I didn't tell him I liked him when I thought I did, and then he started Internet dating this younger than me pretty red head in an even further state, and he never even met her. I confessed my feelings after he got his gf. He knew and understood. We cybered and sent nudes a few times. But turns out I think I more than like him. I want to say I love him. I liked him in school a bit, got to know the adult him. I did not tell him just how deep my feelings were tho. It felt useless.
>>675946436
get a fucking job
>>675932030
Happy birthday my /b/ro. Love you. No homo.
>>675946706
THE REASON SOME OF US DONT HAVE TIME IS BECAUSE WE'RE STUCK AT A FUCKING 9-5 ON MINIMUM WAGE BARELY ABLE TO PAY RENT AND PURCHASE 3 MEALS A DAY
>>675947107
You known anon. You realize we arent just made to work pay bills and die right?...
Go do something faggot.
>>675946706
Move out then to a better state that pays more by the minimum you mongoloid
>>675946706
open ur fucking eyes man, people who work harder than you, who work longer hours than you, with more qualifications than you, will never get to be in the position your in. they are put in a situation where no matter how hard they try, they cannot grow (at least not materialistically) it's not fair but thats how the world works
>>675947265
read this
>>675947384
>>675943505
Kinda, I just ended up dating my perfect girl for more than a year now
>>675912363
Fucking hell this is me right now goddamnit
>>675947265
nobody wants to do that, but some people dont have a choice, usually the only way to break their cycle is by a shot in the dark like winning the lottery, becoming a superstar, etc etc. which is why some people turn to crime to try and break the poverty cycle, and it works for some, but most others end up dead or in jail. open ur eyes anon
>>675947107
I know it's easier said than done, but if you really want something, you can get it. Now, givin skydiving or something like that may not be your thing, but if I may ask, what is it that you'll day dream about that makes you feel alive inside?
>I wan't to become good in almost one thing that i like, but i keep bitching how about hard is it, i get anxious and angry when things don't work,
I'm poor, i'm anemic, i really don't have any skill, i'm a pretentious piece of shit, my city is a horrible place full of gangs, but if i get enough money i will take my family (dad and mom) out of this horrible place. i know that i don't have the worst life, yeah but i'm not lucky.
My only complain is that i can't stop bitching about things.
Why do i care about the other people opinions?
Why do i have to use excuses?
why i can't just DO IT
i mean i can get killed tomorrow in a shooting when i'm buying food, then there's nothing to lose
There's some way to suppress the feeling of being "mad" about how the things don't fucking works?
how you overcome you reality anons?
>Be me
>Be 20
>Be sexless virgin
>Solid 3/10
>Nobody told me college was a lie
>It's just starter debt
>Get a shitty job a little over minimum wage
>Pays dad half the bills to live in the house
>He finally is moving out
>Now I have to pay all the bills myself
>He still comes over and bitches about shit
>He left his fucking dogs here too
>I fucking hate these dogs
>Use the bathroom at 6 AM every night
>2Tired4Work every single day
>Hospital full of hot as fuck nurses
>SJW culture taught them that all men are rapist. So I don't even talk to them.
Last weekend on Saturday, I was dangling my feet from the top of the 7th floor stairs. I wanted to jump, so bad. I put on my best suit. I just wish someone would show me a way to middle class life.
I'm sick of being at the bottom of the barrel with nothing but Student loan debts to look forward to.
At least Wednesday looked nice.
>>675947680
>not the anon you were replying to
i dont day dream about the future. I dont think about the future at all to be honest. I just live life how I want and with what's given to me. I try to grow as much as I can, even though others definition of growth or success might be something else, i know and im ok with how i grow. I dont have any dreams, probably just gonna join the marines and get shot and die.
>>675941071
But for me she in a another universe
>>675918661
do you have almost somey job skill?
do you have some thing that you want to do before you die?
i do you, go do that shit.
>>675943505
>Be Me
>Play CoD MW2 on 360
>Meet Cool girl online
>Friend her
>Manage to get her skype
>Manage to get her nude
>Manage to mutual with her
>She lives in Memphis Tennessee
>I live in Chattanooga Tennessee
>I was 16 at the time
I saved the nudes. I'll never lose them.
>>675946706
>>675907789
21 year old virgin, not because I'm ugly or anything, I'm just afraid of rejection/embarrassment. I'm so fucking lonely on the inside, I hate my job, I have hardly any time to myself because of night classes and I'm just so fucking depressed at home. I think about suicide often.
The light at the end of the tunnel is going back to school full time in the Fall and leaving my job in May. I just have to make it til then. I just need to get back in school and work towards that physics degree, I need to start approaching girls, I need to get off these drugs, I just need someone
>>675948145
>>675910852
I love someone and we've been off and on for 4 years now and she's starting to move on. Sucks bruh
>>675945990
I feel. Sometimes I just want to wake up from this sadness, but unfortunately I can't wake up.
>>675947958
I hate sjw's propaganda. Keep your chin up dude, you're still young. Even if you weren't still young, just never give up. Don't let the whores, cocks and naysayers keep you down.
>>675948553
what drugs are you on bro
>>675914333
That's normal, being happy all the time is not.
>>675911643
what absolute horseshit. this isn't true at all.
the problem with depression isn't that it's hopeless, but that it plants hopelessness in your mind and refuses to let go of it. even people who have gotten out of it before can still succumb to the feelings and forget that there are ways out of it (other than suicide or self-harm).
it doesn't automatically get better, not even with time. but there are ways to climb out, and even though you might end up giving up for a small while, you can't ever, ever give up for good.
fuck dude, all the rest of this shit is ok or at least can feel true, but this one isn't even cathartic; it's just fucking stupid.
>>675948722
i know anon, it's not a dream, it's the real life.
>>675948794
poppy seed tea. It's been an on and off thing for the past 3 or 4 years it seems, but it was always only ever once a month if that. Past few weeks it's been nearly everyday because life's really getting me down now. I'm throwing what I have left away tomorrow and never looking back though, if I keep at this, even keeping it at weekend use, I'm going to develop a serious habit
>>675948455
Also met a girl through online when I was young who lived in TN, except I live across the country. Fell for her, then we just drifted and I still think about her. It was probably for the best. We were close and I was always there for her but she wasn't for me.
>>675948884
>off by 4
>maybe you SHOULD kill yourself after all
>>675908354
Fuck. I just... Fuck. Speechless.
>>675925377
I'll keep trying if you do
Well fuck man I guess I'll contribute
17 yr old me just chillin in HS feelin like, not even shit anymore. Just nothing. My friends have abandoned me in the last month because I've made no effort to text them or get them to hang out with me. I guess that doesn't make them friends then. They won't even look at me in the hallway because they're a bunch of cunts. They are afraid that if they look at me and be fucking nice for once then the whole world is gonna fucking crumble down. My gf dumped me about 2 weeks ago and now we're just "friends" but I haven't got the balls to tell her how I really feel and that if she doesn't want to date than I'm done. I haven't told her yet because she's the only person I talk to. I have one other friend but he has another group of people he hangs with. We're going to prom in a month but just as friends. So I got that going for me. Therapy is garbage. Paul you fucking old faggot you're retarded. If I had to guess I'd say I have anxiety I nearly died of a fucking anxiety attack when I get scared/anxious. Also I'm 99% sure I'm a sociopath so that's great too. I don't cry anymore. I just sit at my computer looking at stupid shit that doesn't matter. Looking at other people make things happen and do good with their lives because maybe that will give me hope but I just feel like I'm going to be doing this forever. Just being by myself.
>>675949012
i feel you the first opiate to pull me in was poppy pod tea. then codeine, then much worse haha. pod tea is great though.
>>675948145
>ponyfag
pls go.
>>675949052
I was young. I had no concept of how big the world is. I kept telling her, that any day now I'll make it over and we'll fug.
Shit never happened.
I'm the same poster as
>>675947958
This was about as close as I ever got to sex.
>>675949266
Yeah I've done tons of opiates, but PST keeps me coming back. Time to go back on kratom I guess, I could do that for months everyday and stop and suffer next to no withdrawals, hopefully it will help with any withdrawal I might endure after I kick this habit.
>>675949394
Guess I'll dump these.
>>675949204
thought the same, well if i do i
>will take a bath.
>play All Star.
>Visit a dubs thread
>And hang myself
>>675949534
>>675949567
>>675941552
This will always be the saddest shit. I can't even read it or else I break down into tears.
>>675949607
Same, that's why I posted it.
>>675949603
>>675918661
Shitty stuff dude. I recommend leaving everyone and marijuana
>>675949695
Last one.
>>675949494
i was taking some fentanyl analogs which is roughly 20x stronger than heroin. I made the decion to dump what I had down the drain and ordered a bunch of kratom for withdrawl. it's kinda making me sick now so I don't think i'ma do it much more. maybe I just don't know what I'm doing, I have about 25 grams left.
but just poured myself a class of sprite with some codeine I will never learn lol.
>>675949265
Hey man, this will pass. Those shitty ass friends you have won't matter in 1,2 years. I met some of the best people after high school not through some dumb college, just going through life. You're friends are in a cunt/shit brain state of mind right now. You will meet better people who will left you.
>>675941510
Oh god I almost lost
>>675914699
Fucking white people.
>>675918993
Anxiety sucks dude. Mary Jane really helped me with mine and things are going way better but a ladder out of a hole doesn't help you much when you're trying to fill the hole in. I think the important thing to remember is fuck people saying that life has no meaning. Life has the meaning you make for it.
>>675949394
I know how you feel. I'm also in the lower class margin. Family has been through a lot and we're still struggling but everything will work out. For me, for you. I mean life is always going to suck and not necessarily get better per se, but it will get easier to handle. That's the reality. Just keep your head up.
And about sex, it'll happen. Nothing to rush to be honest.
>>675949960
lmao this is me exactly.
>>675942652
Same. Had a group of three other friends, we were best friends. Dunno what happened but suddenly I was out. I though I was part of your second family, why?
>>675949494
i always get an upset stomach from kratom, any tips?
>>675949540
>nigga thinks he's dubs checkum
>scrub rectum
>>675949874
last batch of kratom I had was tearing up my stomach, but this other strain I got for withdrawal has actually been pretty smooth on my stomach which is great.
