Feels thread? feels thread.
Can music be included into the feels?
>>675904365
Always
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=txq7zznzZ84
She was real
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQiibdwDm0c
>The obstacles in sight should never have the right to be part of the problem.
>>675904531
Damn this is hitting me.
>>675904648
Liberals love free speech. Until someone disagrees with them.
The word autistic gets thrown around a lot, but this dude is actually autistic
>>675907618
I would go to his party.
As I'm typing right now, I had to make the biggest decision of my live, along with my mom.
My dad is a jealous asshole with ptsd and for the past months he has been under the assumption my mom cheated on him and it's been hell. Arguing 24/7 with him mainly being the aggressor, calling my mom a whore, then when they lay in bed he wants to have sex and when mom doesn't want to she calls her a whore,slut, fucked the half of town for a pack of cigarettes. I'm 18 btw still in high school living with parents.
If she succumbs to his pestering he gets mad that she didn't enjoy it while she says what he did is borderline rape.
3 days ago my mom told me she's leaving (who would've guessed that) and will keep in contact with me. She has to leave low-key since he won't let her leave (he's very aggressive). She quit her job 2 days ago.
Today he found out, and she told him how she's leaving. He harassed and assaulted her in public and she called the police afterwards. There were many witnesses who can support her claim on him saying he'll kill her (which isn't really surprising for him, he has a gun).
So crime police came with my mom and interviewed me about everything. I obviously told everything, not leaving out 1 detail, mom told them about his illegal gun and all his hiding places (where he hid it currently)
They leave, few hours later dad calls telling me to beg mom to sign some release thing to let him go of all charges of he'll end up 30 days in jail(custody). I talked to my mom and she said what would I do. If he goes to custody for 30 days, mom will leave anyways. I will live alone with my sister (21) and will have to sell all our animals and I will finally learn some responsibility since I'm a spoiled fag.
I told my mom that I'd let him be in jail for 30 days to learn his lesson, she leaves but keeps in contact, and I live with my sister. Which is the best solution really, since I can't let my mom sign that shit saying she basically lied when he is an aggressor.
cont.
>>675906578
Do you think conservatives are any better?
>>675905691
There is no more need for me to live, not if I can't be with you
There is no more need for me to love, not if I can't love you
The words I need to say to you Are held back by an indominable force
I'm letting you go slowly
I'm putting you down gently
I'm letting you leave me for some asshole
Nevertheless, I will still love you
And I will always be here for you
No matter how much I want to RIP out my own heart
And give it to someone more deserving
I will never leave you
I will never do the unthinkable to myself
I promise
I will be here for you
Forever
I may find someone else, someone lower, yes,
But someone else
But I will still be here for you
I love you,
Forever.
>>675908352
But, they will search my house in the morning and find his illegal gun. He can go to jail for like 5 years because of that if not more. I don't know if I want that.
And to note, my mom has been dealing with depression for more than 12 years now, is on high medication.
The reason I can't hide/throw the gun (or wont) is because where he hid it is unreachable. It's a cesspit?
What the fuck should I do? Did I do the right thing? This is fucking hitting me hard and I have literally nobody to talk to. Please help /b/
cannot connect with these feels
y'all so lazy, so selfish, so inexperienced
>>675906069
When I was around 15 or so, my brother got a dog. A husky I called Zeke. It was a stupid name but my brother liked it. He went off to join the junior cadets so I ended up taking care of it. He was always excited about shit and always outran me when I tried to race him. It was weird but knida funny how he would stay just in front of me and look at me the whole time when I ran. Summer was very hot where I lived and the sun never set during that time, so it was pretty hard on Zeke when I took him out. He'd drink water like a beast.
Eventually, though, he got sick. He went under the house to die and I couldn't reach him because there was no space to crawl under. I hated him for it. I yelled at him, calling him a stupid dog, berating him for wasting my time and pissing me off so bad. But I didn't, I loved him. I was so angry because he wasn't going to be around for long. As I yelled at him he looked at me with pleading eyes. Maybe if he could speak he would have told me to leave, to not watch him die. Let him go with dignity. Or maybe to say goodbye, that he loved me too.
I've never had a pet since then. When people ask I just say I'm not a pet person. Not that when you give a simple creature your heart they eventually break it.
>>675908972
You did the right thing in my opinion. Your father needs counseling, he has a mental illness and I wouldn't say it's 100% his fault. PTSD is a serious problem. Make sure you keep in contact with your mother, she has been dealing with depression and having to leave her kids to a mentally unstable husband is so much to take in. I'm sure pre-PTSD your father was different, he needs to look at himself in a 3rd persons prospective. Hang in there man
>>675907618
Shit is almost like my birthdays the only diference is that my mother makes me cake in hopes of cheering me up but for fuck sake i dont think I will be able to pretend again tomorrow, fuck why did we end up this way
>>675911052
I'd go to your parties man. Just know, your mom really loves you dude
>>675908352
>so crime police came
>crime police
nigga wat
>>675911554
thanks, and I know that's what makes it worse, because I fuckign hate myself and I feel like shit not being able to make her proud
>>675910496
Thanks a lot anon, I just needed someone to agree with me. Eases the burden by a lot.
>>675911756
In my country, there are different sections from what I know. If it were normal domestic abuse, a few officers would come and do the questioning. But since my moms life was/is in danger and threatened, special section of detectives who deal with shit like that came.
Didn't know how to translate it properly.
>>675911052
Your mom loves you. I wish I had an invite to your party she threw for you. Im 25 and don't get along particularly well with my mother, but thank god every day that she loves me and would do anything for me even if she uses that favor against me down the line.
>>675911052
I'd come to your party anon. We'd play shitty retro games and have a great fucking time.
>>675908443
No, but they don't get the same acceptance of their ignorance.
Remember Lonestar from a while back? That song, "I'm Already There"? It's supposed to be a song about a travelling business man that calls home while far from home.
Well... I've been listening to the song for many years. Every single time I hear it, I sit and wonder if I should take it at face value. Underneath, if you listen closely and look at it differently... What if the call home is the lingering wish of a deceased man that just wants to go home?
It really does shine a whole new light on several of the lines.
>"Just to hear her say "I love you" one more time..."
>"Daddy, when are you coming home?"
>"I'm already there."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJEP5sWuDi8
>>675905357
>>675905578
Some times, I internet shop for guns. Mostly cheap shotguns, because if I don't go through with it, I'm not out a bunch of money.
Somehow, though, I always get distracted, and I stop browsing.
One of these days, there'll be nothing to distract me, and I'll have that gun.
Then when the day comes where I'm in my mood to browse, I won't need to because I already have it.
That day, I'll be looking at a loaded gun, waiting for a distraction.
>>675913411
I'm home alone until Sunday. Drunk as shit. There are several shotguns and a .45 in my house right now. I don't know why I won't just man up and do it.
>>675913668
It takes hellanuts to suicide. People call them cowards. I tell them to put a loaded gun to their head, or a knife to their throat.
"but why, Anon?"
Because, you will feel the fear. The fear to stay alive at all costs. That deep, ingrained instinct to keep going.
And they fought that shit. The shit that's been instilled in life for billions of years.
They won the most difficult battle anyone could possibly face.
It takes a lot to go through with it. We're too resilient. We're too damn stubborn.
>>675914303
I don't fucking want to be stubborn. I'm sick of being miserable. I'm sick of struggling to find happiness and having it ripped away each time. I don't give a fuck if I sound edgy, that's how I feel. I hate my instinct to survive. I don't want to fucking feel.
Yesterday I posted a picture of a lump near my balls and and asked if anyone knows what it is. Basically everyone said it was cancer, so I went to my doctor today and after he lloked at it he had a worried look on his face abd said I need to get a CT scan done because it might be cancer.
Loosing my balls at 16 is gonna suck.
>>675914481
Deal with it. It's gunna be there. It's not going away. The world definitely sucks these days, and it keeps getting worse with money and power being filtered to fewer and fewer people. I personally blame technology.
We weren't meant to be so connected. We're a social creature, but there are limits. Prides, packs, pods or whatever only reach a certain size for a reason. We've grown too large, and we stop worrying about ourselves. We worry about everything, and do nothing for ourselves.
We're self destructing.
>>675914812
I doubt it's anything. Doctors love to jack up the bill.
But don't trust me, I'm just an asshole on the internet. I don't need to blow smoke up your ass. Also, go hang out with your friends, it's a Friday. Don't waste your youth on 4chan like I did.
Dear Pasz/E
Hey it's been a long time right? For me it seens like we last talked a whole life ago, remember how we'd talk everyday even for a little just to check on each other and catch up? Yeah, I really miss that, since that day nobody really asked how my day was.
Enough about me I am still the same piece of shit that fucked your life I just want to know how you are holding up even if I don't deserve to. So how is Mr.U I bet he is huge by now, hem ust have grow to be a truly majestic pet, does he still steal your food?
What about your mother is she fine? I hope she didn't have any complications. Did you move back home with her? If you did how is your job? I mean I know mostly you didn't do on site or simutanious but you enjoyed your time as a teacher.
Oh I almost forgot how are your siblings? Are they alright? Things still going the right way with your sister?
And lastly I'd like to apologize, this time not because of what i did but for making you remember them, I am sorry for being selfsh again I just hope you are alright, maybe one day I will be able to make it up to you.
Umi.
>>675915410
You have to have friends first off, which i doubt whether he has, seeing as he's here/a underagedfag
>>675915863
Everyone has friends. Even bottom dwellers have friends, even if they're other bottom dwellers. Unless he's mentally retarded or something.
https://youtu.be/UWf2oFoF-B4
So you got a case of the feels huh? I did too till I got a pocket pussy. Shit is so cash man it's like putting your dick to sleep in a pussy made of rubber clouds that are ganja clouds. 420 blaze it faggots cashish 4 hashish.
>>675916052
Sorry to burst your bubble but there are plenty of people without any friends (zero friends).
>>675914812
Don't worry man I'm sure your balls will be safe. Worst case scenario save a shitload of sperm in a sperm bank and get implants. Never get a chick preggers and still will have kids when ready
>>675914249
true...
>>675917873
Ex sent me that without the third panel. We broke up at the end of January, I found the full picture in a feels thread a couple weeks ago. Fucking wrecked me.
>be me
>19
>try to make feels thread on /b/
>tell everyone how my gf left me and friends abandoned me slowly over time because I'm a joke
>continue to bump topic 10+ times
>no one replies
>make another bump
>5 seconds later thread 404s
>fucking mods removed my feels thread
I mean, how pathetic can I be? It's not that I don't try to make friends or even get in touch with old ones, it's just that ever since my gf left me everyone has sort of ignored me and treat me as an unimportant loser. I don't complain or act depressed. I'm always with a smile and try to make people laugh, yet no one does, and I'm left here alone. Each day I grow more disconnected from people, and all I want is just 1 person to be with, to laugh with and shit. But life kicks me down before I can even get back up. Fuck every single one of you, I haven't met you, but I know even the most pathetic people wouldn't give me the time of day, so for that, fuck you.
>>675908972
How would you feel if your aggressive abusive dad killed your mom with that same gun no one knows about?
>>675918186
I dated this girl for 4 years then she just stoped, it ended over a year ago now and I still can't go a day without thinking about that bitch... but oh well life goes on, supposedly it gets better
>>675918409
I'm a pathetic fucking alcoholic NEET anon and I'll give you the time of day. Spill your guts to me if you want.
>>675918687
>supposedly it gets better
It doesn't.
>>675918809
ya i know...but I try to keep up the lie, so it's not as bad to think about
>>675919445
You and me both anon. I'm sorry you're going through this hell too.
>>675918687
>>675918809
>>675919445
>>675919718
It does. It takes a long ass time, but it does.
I can think about the one girl I fell in love with now without feeling so tore up. Took about 4-5 fucking years, but hey.
>>675920119
>Took about 4-5 fucking years
Fuck.
>>675918409
>ever since my gf left me, I became a bitter bitch and started making others around me feel uncomfortable
>I'm only 19, but I'm still gonna feel sorry for myself and expect other to constantly cheer me up
>>675919718
thanks
I just keep thinking if I wait a little longer it'll get better like I'm 21 in the Navy gonna see the world
but seems like thats all I've ever done wait and nothing changes..
>>675920119
>>675920293
>Took about 4-5 fucking years
well got nothing better to do maybe I'll actually go out tomorrow and meet someone new even if just to talk
>>675920119
About the same time for me. I was around fifteen and I was twenty one when I finally got over her. I was drinking with my cousin and I broke down with him. I'm not sure if it was love, but it was much more than I feel now.
>>675920810
>>675920882
>>675918688
My story is filled with cringe and is way too pathetic go even tell on /b/, I've only ever told part of it, but fuck it, I have nothing to lose anyway.
>be around 16
>meet beautiful, funny, friendly girl online in a game
>yeah, online
>fast forward 2 years
>we're still great friends
>Skype a lot
>I get my own home
>starting my degree in networking
>make a lot of close friends
>they come over my place regularly
>things are good
>I tell this girl I've known for 2 years I love her
>she says it back
>we start a LDR and things couldn't be better
>I start ignoring my friends
>spend less time with them
>2 weeks later online gf cheats on me
>confesses to cheating
>stupidly I stay
>over the next year I grow further and further away from my family and friends
>this girl manages to drain £1,000 out of my bank account in a year
>online
>a few weeks back she left me because she's dependant on me or some shit
>made so many plans to go visit her
>had the passport, money, everything
>she still leaves me
>no one talks to me or replies to any of my messages
>only people who do idk in real life
>online friends start ignoring me too
>family never messages me
>drink whisky every day
>falling behind on my degree, so far behind I've basically failed already
>no more money coming in
I have nothing left and only myself to blame. My story is pathetic, just like my life, and I don't have the smallest clue on what to do.
>>675920963
>>675920882
>>675920810
well they/we gonna man up and get her?
Where to begin. I can start by saying that my life is nothing but near constant stress and trying to keep myself sane. I could also say that my life, up to this point, has been pretty rough. I mean, daily mother and father fights about the stupidest shit. They were always yelling about sex, money, food, or other stuff. They broke up, my mother got with a meth adict, my father with an abusive girlfriend. Mother started to do crystal meth on the down low, but she couldn't keep a good secret. Father got with the spawn of Satan, yelling, hitting, emotional abuse, and she made my father her bitch. Her kids weren't the cream of the crop either. In my mother's house, she completely fucked up the keeping of the house. Black mold, always a mess, mounds of cardboard in the garage, and disregard for the yard work.
Fast forward three years, mother is still doing meth, and is taking a "hands off approach" to parenting. My brother is a fucking scumbag, due to an improper upbringing. My dad was kicked out of his ex's house after she smashed over 1000$ in expensive shit. He now lives in a trailer at a campground. My grandmother is stressing the fuck out about the house, mother still is on meth and feels targeted by the people trying to help her, my brother and I are struggling to survive off of bread for our meals, live in a constant slop of a house. Mother is now emotionally abusive and is constantly deflecting blame onto her kids. There's black mold in the house (picture will be attached), and everything is always a mess. And just got news today that we may be kicked out of the house and onto the street.
Plus, add in all the times when I've had good friends screw me over on everything, new found knowledge that my good friend has been gang raped.
The worst (or best) part is, is that I'm miraculously not depressed or not suicidal. And it's just a cluster fuck of everything all at once. So, should I be depressed or suicidal? I am stressed out, but not suicidal or depressed.
>>675920963
Although I may not have it as bad as many of you on here, I always feel shitty at night, even if I've been hanging out with friends, or gone to a party, always at around 2 am I just begin to feel horrible. Perhaps it's because i have bottled up my emotions my whole life, or because of recent deaths in the family, I don't know, but sometimes it just becomes too hard and I do not know how to deal with this other than tell myself that others have it much worse.
>>675921107
/pol/ is building something over there. Eva is her name. RIP in pieces Tay tho
>>675921111
Nice quads Mr
>>675921055
Shit anon... I'm sorry. My LDR wrecked me too, not in the same manner but still.
Shit fucks you up. I'm sorry you've gotta go through it and I'm even sorrier that I can offer no words of comfort.
>>675921111
I'll tell you what, the times when I felt most depressed in my life were the times that I didn't feel anything at all
>>675921567
Goddamn it anon.
>>675921704
But I feel fine. I still feel happy, sad, the whole range of emotions. But it's the not feeling depression or the other things that come with it that's bothering me.
>>675905120
That ones rough.
>>675921111
Here's the picture
>>675921111
nice quads
man am I fucking glad I wasn't born in the midwest
>>675921971
Oh, so then, essentially you're alright dude. This just means that you're a well-adjusted guy (that somehow ended up on /b/). Roll with the punches and be nice to people and you'll make it through just about anything.
OR, you're a sociopath and totally lack empathy. But you seem self-aware which sort of rules that out.
My guess is that you're just an essentially good dude with a healthy sense of self. Things will get better for you and your family, promise. In the meantime you seem like a dude with not only confidence but healthy self doubt. You're gonna be fine
>>675905120
I fear the day when this happens...
>>675921111
I had a not as bad but pretty shit up bringing as well. my father was abusive and my mother was SUPER PARANOID. I was reprimanded alot for not agreeing with them or saying they were wrong. My father beat me and my sister a lot for the smallest stupidest shit when we were younger and my mother would basically tell me I'm going to die a bloody death if I don't stay inside and study. They never really taught me life lessons, the birds and the bees, or even encouraged me to be curious or social. Sure they feed me and sent me to school but I went out in the world paranoid and scared of everything. It's like my parents conditioned me to be a fucking cuck. Am I a terrible person for saying they were terrible parents?
>>675904966
gaaaaaaaaaaaay
>>675907618
shit really hit me
>>675925610
To me, depression feels like being a ghost. No one can see you. You can go a hundred days without talking to anyone.
One thing that pisses me off more than anything else is how some people 'brag' about their problems. One guy at work talks openly about his 'crippling' depression and the medication he takes for it. I honestly can't say if its true or not, but I sure as hell wouldn't talk about my problems with coworkers. I don't even talk about them with friends unless I'm really drunk.
>>675904966
A cute girl would sooner tweet about you killing yourself than try to stop you. Then forget about you in half an hour.
>>675926551
I hide my problems from everyone except my three closest friends, and I never actually go in depth unless I'm wasted as I am now.
People who brag about their problems and medications are usually attention-seeking cucks. It pisses me off to no end.
>>675907618
You don't need to be autistic for no one to celebrate your birthday.
At least I don't think I'm autistic...
>>675923429
Well, it's better then scrolling though some other social media now a days. I'd rather scroll through 4chan than be on Tumblr or some shit.
But thanks for the reassurance Anon. I'm planning on calling my grandmother and seeing if my brother and I can stay there for now until it all blows over.
>>675925223
You're not a terrible person, I can assure you. They were just really piss poor parents.
>>675926551
That's why I absolutely despise tumblr. All they talk about is how they're depressed to the point it's cool or a fucking joke. While here on /b/ or another board, we do this shit anonymously, just as a release, not for attention.
Happened a few years ago buttt...
>be in highschool
>meet grill
>mutual attraction
>live in different cities
>become close friends despite distance over text
>would like to start a relationship but she's too far away and parents won't let me drive that far
>starts telling me when she fucks a guy
>offer support but low-key feel like a cuck the whole time
>eventually things taper off and we don't talk anymore
>damn
What could've I done better /b/?
>>675927841
Disobeyed parents and snuck out to see her.
Barring that, nothing. Bitches ain't fucking shit but hoes and tricks.
>>675921055
Fuck do you expect, virtual relationships do nothing at all. She probably never loved you and just wanted your money. You're an idiot for falling for it, and I lose alot of respect for you for falling in that dumb of a situation. Grow the fuck up and pursue something else.
Or go and waste the remnants of your bank account and buy a gun and blow your brains out.
>>675928183
Some people aren't as bitter or jaded as you. Quit trying to be hard, faggot.
>>675928340
I'm not being bitter or jaded I'm shedding harsh reality.
If you're sending money to someone you've never been in the same room as, you're a beta cuck.
She was probably always fucking someone else why would she tell you the truth.
You're an idiot for thinking otherwise. Say what you want but as long as you feel pity for yourself you'll still be in a rut.
the girl in the corner was more interesting then the slut in the front of the class
i spent so much timechaisng pretty girls that i never noticed her right behind me, and now its to late boys. shes long gone and i will be shortly.
the moral of my story is that you should take every oppurtunity no matter the outcome or youll beat yourself up for not trying to get one, just do it or youll live with regret. she died last week and now i am dead inside, so good night /b/ this has been a hell of a ride
>>675928631
Most of this is probably true. Never sent money to someone I've never met myself but I can understand how someone would, especially one as young as that guy claimed to be at the time.
>>675928804
The guy claimed to be of drinking age, have his a career, and his own house.
That's a man child, pure and simple.
I really don't like these feel threads because it makes me ashamed of the way guys are growing up now.
>>675929032
Nigga claimed to be 16+2 years which equals 18. Not a lot of people are "mature" at that point. Quit acting like everyone needs to have the same mindset as you.
>>675928040
I suppose I could have snuck out...
>be me
>fall in love with girl June 2013
>serious relationship until Christmas 2015.
>somethings off.
>she says we need to take a break so she can figure her shit out and me to do the same.
>ever since I have been working 2 jobs and entered welding school
>late January rolls around and we check up on each other. She is very proud of me and I think she will take me back.
>mfw she spent the whole time getting high and being generally unhealthy and unhappy
>she tells me she is addicted so I tell her that if she comes back to me I can help her kick the habit as I have experience with drugs.
>says she doesn't want to
>mfw she would rather get high than get better
>fast foward to last month. I come home from vacation and she wants to see me.
>I tell her I don't want to see her unless we are getting back together
>tells me she does
>we go on a date
>she ignores me for a few weeks after our date
>hear through the grapevine she is seeing someone else.
>refuse to believe it. Still convinced she will return. She promised she would. She has to
>she texts me last night and tells me we need to hang out again.
>text back telling her that she is a liar and a shitty person for dragging me along for months even though she made up her mind weeks ago
>she is a completely different person now.
>tells me goodbye and that she will see me around
>Tell her that I never want to see her again
>now have to adjust to life without somebody I spent the last 2 and a half years depending on.
>the worst part is I would take her back in a heartbeat.
>>675907618
I'd like to pretend that I would go to his party
>>675921230
She left us too soon, if only they waited to see if she blossomed
>>675908340
I'm not too sure why people find these sad, on the boy's side at least. I stopped having birthday parties when I was like 14.