I used to have "episodes" once or twice every week
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I used to have "episodes" once or twice every week and today is the first time in six months I've felt like this. Don't know what's causing it, thought it would have stopped for now. Let's have a feels thread, want to tell us why you're feeling down?
>>675301251
Can relate to this
>>675301456
>>675301251
Me too...
>>675302139
Why do you feel like this?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMyDK3VHYPw
Pat sums it up pretty well.
>>675300637
Drink bleach faggit
>>675302358
BEcause I'm currently in a "no state" ... or like in "
hibernation"
I do nothin all day , I have no job nor real degree...
Actually I'm a psychiatric center because I've some trouble (schyzophreniac , psychotic , borderlines... ) but still I would to find a purpose in my life , a goal and a job I woud like...
But my life is just fully empty , chaotic and dark
I have no friend, nor familly
No one to speak to , days after days I just waste my time on computer with trolls or video game...
How many month I will continue to do that ? I mean I need to get the fuck out and find something to do with my existance...
But every time I try , I just fail... and go back to this point...
I'm just to cry everyday and do nothing but wait in the dark...
>>675302887
> I'm a psychiatric center because
I'm IN a psychatric center* sorry for that
>>675302758
Seems pretty painful. Have thought about going out shooting but the problem is how to do so without people blaming the media I consume and my political opinions. The fact that my family is going to get shit thrown at them also sucks
>>675300637
I get really sad randomly. Doesn't help that this shitboard is boring as fuck and probably is 50% of the trigger.
>>675302644
;__;
>>675303327
I usually get rid of it by playing video games. It's an escape from being myself
I'm such a faggot. I tear up reading this thread knowing that fellow /b/rothers out there feel like they don't have any options. I will miss you. I will miss every single one of you when you're gone.
>>675303857
i won't miss me
>be me
>be yesterday
>good friend starts avoiding me
>wtf
>Text her asking her what's wrong
>ask her to her face
>she doesn't even look at me
>be today
>She's been really stressed with relationships apprently
>doesn't like that I flirt with her
>okay I stopped that already
>ask her if theres anything else
>obviously there is and won't tell me
>ask her if I even have a chance anymore
>"No... Im sorry for leading you on"
>Some fucking apology
>Had a fucking tirade prepared
>I send her an extremely long text
>I end up apologizing because I feel like it's my fault with these things because I'm a beta cuck
>Not even a minute later get a reply
>"I appreciate you apologizing my friend"
>She didn't even read it
>more of a reason to an hero now
>too much of a pussy to get it over with
>started smoking and drinking heavily as a slow suicide few months back
>alcohol helps the pain
>>675304395
pretty sure I know who you are, beta fuck
>cannot use "cuck" correctly
Didn't read everything but i felt a lot like that before. I pushed through with immense work efforts for having a job, problem is it didn't really changed the thing : i'm still sad inside. But thanks to that job, an lot of bad things and good things happened and lead me to understand how to let go sometimes. Just do some stuff without overthink it. And i met a girl. A genuine girl. Now she's my girlfriend. I could met her not by changing who am i, but by seeing things differently : its not always our fault, rarely even, but if you have a negative behavior it gets you in negative shit. I'm not saying to fake happiness, but try to be open minded and curious about the little things, and maybe youll find a new hobby, maybe a passion, maybe someone youll appreciate.
And eat better anon. Bad eating is one of the most terrible cause of depression. Eat some fish and fucking fat. Have you seen fat people depressed ? No. They are just down from being fat, but theyre not depressed :D
>>675304581
Niggers
>>675304237
I will. I will probably never see you in real life or even know your name but God fucking damn it will I miss you. Without you this place will lose one of its best, when this place dies out I will miss the times I've spent here and I sure as hell will miss every single anon
Here you are thank me later.
>>675304395
No matter how you feel now just know its better that she is out of your life. she doesn't deserve to have someone like you Anon
>>675304821
you're in school, stop being a sadboi
>>675304882
i know anon, he is goodboi
sorta
but she's kind of a bitch in this manner
>>675304395
I know this feel. This isn't a nice feel and I can only wish you the best of luck to overcome the sadness that will consume you
Requesting the Tf2 one please
>>675300637
remember you have people who care about you
>>675305716
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>>675305740
Got my girlfriend but I can't stand to know that she hangs out with others and go to events without me. Just makes me feel like she's going to hookup with someone and I fucking hate it. The only person I really love is my one and only true friend who I barely hang out with. I've been thinking about breaking up with her and just tell her that I can't handle a relationship at the moment but at the same time that will fucking destroy her and make me feel like shit for hurting her. I got people who care for me but I barely care for others, that's the problem
>>675305716
>>675305784
>>675305903
The first time I read this it hit me. It hit me hard
It's hard when you're putting in your very soul into trying to work things out. Going to school part time to better yourself, going to work to buy things that make you happy, and trying to keep a relationship going. I've kept going on knowing that hard work pays off and that it's worth constantly being tired and having someone that loves me.
Until she told me it was beginning to be to stressful on her life to try and make us work out. That over time she's felt more distant because of my work and school.
All I was trying to do was make our life better. I grew distant because I could hardly stay awake or pay for our dinners.
This whole time I was doing all these things that mentally and physically broke me down and delt with it because I thought it would be worth being loved.
Just not sure what to do anymore.
>>675306321
Have you told her before about how you feel neglected? Sometimes people don't realize what their doing hurts people.
>>675306661
Have you tried taking some time off from school so you can have time for you? The grind is a fucking killer sometimes all you need is a break.
>>675306706
I don't want to become a bossy boyfriend who tells her what to do, like I said I might not even be her boyfriend for much longer. Thinking about doing it during or before the summer so I can hang out with my friend and suppress the feeling of worthlessness with drugs and alcohol. I just fucking hate myself sometimes
>>675306321
you obviously cannot stop her from meeting her friends and she cannot stop you from meeting your friends
also if you feel like she destroys you, destroy her too (but that would be pretty childish)
you just said you love your true friend, why did you say you barely care for others?
good luck in the future anon
>>675307206
It's not her destroying me, it's the thoughts i get when she's not with me. He's been with me since 2nd grade and i couldn't imagine leaving him behind or living without him. I just don't care that much about what happens to other or what they think of me. Good luck to you too, see you around
>>675307089
There is no need to hurt yourself any longer if there is something you need to say to her you have to say it to her. Has she invited you to go with her some events in the past and you declined?
>>675307623
I'm not doing anything hurtful to myself at the moment and yes a few times, maybe once or twice
>>675307812
Maybe she she doesn't invite you because you have declined to go and it hurt her so she just doesn't bother inviting you anymore so she doesn't have to feel that pain of being turned down.
I used to have episodes too anon.... Last one I was a lawyer who couldn't lie for a bit because of my sons birthday wish.....
>>675308378
I see you jim
>>675308153
I don't know man, gonna play some games to try and feel better. Replies might be slow
>>675302812
If I was forced to have that day then I wouldn't waste it. If I had a choice to never exist I'd have taken it before I existed.
>>675307569
do what feels best for you, but remember that kind of relationship is not really healthy, but you can always solve these problems by talking/ending it
>>675306988
And do what? Be by myself? Already dreading the lonely summer nights in my apartment. Going to get a second job to keep me occupied.
>>675307206
>>675305740
>>675309036
it's me, gonna go play games, wish you best luck m8
>>675309152
Find something that enjoy and get good at it. Lifting, Martial Arts, all most any type of exercise. Even going outside for a walk. Exercise has brought more joy into my life than anything else i have ever tried.
>>675306321
Is this your first relationship by any chance? Really recognizable for me.
>>675303670
Ah that's a feel right there. Medium sad when she said feels like you're going to text hey(:
>>675309978
Nope
Any Lurkers here have anything they what to talk about?
>>675310779
She said she cant do it anymore
>>675310779
With regards to the feels generated by depression and effective, practical steps one can take to deal with it, right? You the OP, by the way?
>>675311106
Sorry Anon. What led to her decision?
>>675302887
not lying anon I have basically the same scenario as you apart from being in a pych ward now, but was in one for being a skitzo
I have literally spent all day in bed on my laptop, I do this often.
i cant be fucked to explain everything but i feel for you.
only suggestion I can give is just do stuff. go to a bar/club go to a rave, walk in the park, gym, anything. just do something.
>>675311229
Not the OP, just want to let the people that feel like they don't have anybody to talk to that there are people out there that care to listen.
>>675311229
He's not, I'm the op
>>675303670
Fuck i'm crying right now.... My uncle past away last night at 63years old
>>675311877
It's okay to cry, better to do that than to just keep it inside you. Sorry for your loss anon
>>675302675
everyone have to make efforts, grow up faggot
>>675311307
a long story that starts at my birth. sorry for replying so late
>>675311727
>>675311747
If only such fantastical people existed in my real life
Yea anon, I have a prblem. So im currently in highschool. I have good grades, im kinda popular, all in all my life is good. However, about a year ago, I found out the genuine hatred my father has for me. He has neglected me all my life and refused to pay child support even tho me and my mother (who was still at university at the time) were so poor we couldnt afford the eat every day. Still, she at least tried to bring me and him back together. I at least had the illusion of a normal family and life. However when I visited him and his new family, I saw his new fiancee worked half dead with my little half sister. Him cheating on her and never beeing home. And I ended up sleeping on the streets for the weekend, comming home and telling my mother that things didnt work out, and I broke contact with him. Did I do the right thing? I want to help my little sister and her mom out, but I cant stand to see any of their faces. I dont know if im doing the right thing or if im just an irresponsible shit like him.
>>675313461
I feel you
>>675313289
I have nothing but time. Let it all out keeping it bottled in is going to do nothing but harm
>>675313624
You're not as bad as him and never will be. I'd suggest you try to forget about them or you could face your dad and tell him what a piece of shit he is and try to help his wife and kid, there's no right or wrong. Just do what you feel would make you the happiest
>>675313834
Well, apparently the fact that i was too much of a beta. I didnt go out to have fun, didnt watch tv, spent too much time on computer playing vidya nad browsing /b/. didnt have that many friends.... blah blah blah the list goes on. But she was the first person i had really liked. I dont want to have any sort of relations with girls, or boys for that matter but this was the first time i had ever dared to talk to anyone like her
>>675313967
If I forget about them, Im no better than him and if I meet him again I might not be able to talk to him, I feel too weak, i might get agressive and that helps no one...
>>675314377
The first time always hurts the most. It sounds like you two weren't right together, you didnt have every much in common it wasn't going to last from the start. One day you will find your vidya recluse counterpart.
>>675300637
Hey op, how did you manage your depression? I've been trying to find ways to get past mine and do shit with my life.
>>675315338
i sure hope so
>>675315534
Im not OP, but exercising has helped a lot. Just getting up and going for a walk has helped me a ton.
>>675315534
I just stayed inside all day playing games for 10 hours straight and then eat and go to the shitter then continue for 8 or more hours but that's a shit way to do it. I'd suggest what >>675316078 said, I started doing it a little bit and I felt better. Just don't try to escape your problems but face them and get shit done, the best you can do is to seek help
>>675317082
This my life the past two years finally took some steps to improve it. One of the biggest helps was coming to these feels thread I read through a couple of them and it made me realize that i wasn't alone. I hope all of you find a way out of this dark spot of your life and become the best version of you.
>>675318094
Thanks, I wish the best of luck in life for you too
