/b/ why do I always feel sad and wanna die? feels thread, why do you hate your life?
>>675055379
cause im useless
Bump.
>>675055379
>>675055646
Go anhero please
I hate my life because I can't live life the right way.
>>675055992
thats crap, i'm not going to kill myself, there's still a lot to do, life is short, but damn it's hard.
I just wish I had a girlfriend of some sort. I end up falling in love with any girl that juat says hi to me. Then I end up making up realities in my mind where she feels the same way I do to her, thus I always disappointing myself. I never got to experience having someone to love and care about.
Anybody else feel like they don't belong anywhere anymore?
I'm trying to give up on being attracted to 3D woman since I'm literally autistic and will probably never be in a relationship. It's kind of hard, though.
I always feel out of place
Im trapped in a toxic relationship.
She's suicidal. It seems like nothing i do or say helps the situation.
We live in an apartment together. Struggling to get by, since we're both students. I can't continue to live here alone.
Money has been tight, and we have been getting desperate. I ended up stealing some money from my work. I was caught and got fired, and am now dealing with the following lawsuit.
Finally got a new job, but still have a suicidal girlfriend who it seems constantly needs supervision so suicide doesn't come.
It's toxic. It's destroying me. But I still love her. Don't ask me why.
If I leave her, she will kill herself. I couldn't live with myself if I did that to her.
Damned if I do, damned if I don't.
I don't expect sympathy. It feels nice to let this out.
>>675056459
>>675056699
Fuck off with your problems about being alone, if that's all that's making you depressed, you really think having a girlfriend will solve all your problems?
>>675056505
yeah, my thing is that i don't have any kind of problems, actually my life it's pretty great, but don't know why, i always feel terribly bad and sad but there is no motive, should be happy and ok instead.
>>675057297
this
>>675057064
You should really leave that relationship. Any actions she does after that is never on you, if she really chooses to kill herself then that's her choice. Don't let others dictate how you live your life.
>>675056459
I'm the same way anon, you are not alone
OC story
>be me 5 years ago
>friends with girl. In love with her for at least 6 years now.
>never said anything to her because im a betafag
>shes super depressed due to her brother commiting suicide at the age of 17
>be the most nicest, caring, loving person I can to her.
>try to make her happy to the best of ability
>we get close and I finally feel like I can confess my feelings
>b4 I can she disapears for a while
No idea where to. Cant even get her to answer phone or text back
>2 months later. She tried to commit suicide by pills
>dad took her and moved 2 states away
>at one point she meets this guy
>mentions him to me all the time over fb
Fast forward 5 years
>browsing her page
>mfw I see theyre engaged now
>mfw I never told her
>>675057297
I think you missed what my post said. I'm trying to put myself in a state where I don't care about a relationship.
Loneliness is not the core of my issues at all (that would be self-loathing and anxiety) , but it certainly doesn't help.
>>675056459
I got a girlfriend a few months ago
Met her online
She lives a few states away
She was just like me looking for love in strange places.
I visit her every few months.
In love with her
Im sure youll find someone, friend.
>>675057317
I'm the same way anon, I have what seems like a great life, but I can't seem to find the motivation to do anything with what I'm given. I've always strived for mediocrety because I can't be as disappointed in myself if I don't do amazingly.
>>675055379
My life is actually starting to get pretty good.
>>675057064
I was in a relationship like that man. She always made me feel bad and would hurt herself whenever I did something wrong, which was often since I'm schizoid and she tired me the fuck out. Everytime we got in a fight I had to approach her to fix it, but one day I didn't. I thought that if she actually cared and wasn't just using me she'd approach me. I was wrong though and she was a Fucking gold digger. One of the best riddances of my life. Get out if it's toxic anon
>>675057710
this is very strange...just plane odd
>>675056505
15 year olds have felt this way since the dawn of time. Get used to it, bud.
>>675055379
I often feel the same way and don't understand.
Right now I am on a pilgrimage to become the strongest. Hope you find a way to focus on what's most important. It's not always so easy and it feels like giving up when peeps be cuttin ya down.
That picture is so funny and awesome. Good find OP. It does a great job describing meh feels.
I'll go anhero tonight
>>675058552
Eat a dick, faggit
>>675055379
I wrote this up a while back. Please have it OP
>>675057743
Maybe, but you have to realize that that'll never happen, you can't just completely disregard what you've always longed for just because you want it to end.
>>675055992
What fucking gay ass shit is this.
Heres some faggotry for your faggotry, faggot
>>675058650
holy fuck, that's beautiful, i love /b/ and don't know what would happen to myself without it
I hate my life too.
So much is given to me and I do nothing with it.
Isn't that sad? I don't see the point in living. I don't think there's anything that I could ever do to give my life meaning.
I would've killed myself by now if it wasn't such a selfish act.
>>675059618
It's not that epic, it's alright at best
Sup. Meet Javiela, my fucking bitch of an ex. She fucks some nigger while her friends watched and I figured it all out. She liked to get in the ass and she has a really nice pussy. It's payback time. Here's some fuck videos we have https://mega.nz/#!GdgiRLAI!pcmfB60MhqSIiFLfcWGfY1p5Deort3Stu2h-Z82olvQ enjoy /b/ 1
god what the fuck!
why cant she just be straight with me fuck.
I dont even know what we are anymore
I wish i was depressed at least then id be able to deal with that fucking pit.
how the fuck do people do it?
sometimes I'll think shits going good and then she'll throw me a fucking curveball that tells me shit is not good.
Fuck man. what am I doing
>>675059754
:c
Gtfo asshole.
This is a feels and comfort thread not be a jerks thread
>>675059926
Shut up
this may be cliche but has anyone tried or thought about just taking a train or something away from town and finding different places to eat and sleep and just looking for events and all that without actually planning it
>>675060002
No fuck you
>>675060019
What the fuck did you just fucking say about me, you little bitch? I’ll have you know I graduated top of my class in the Navy Seals, and I’ve been involved in numerous secret raids on Al-Quaeda, and I have over 300 confirmed kills. I am trained in gorilla warfare and I’m the top sniper in the entire US armed forces. You are nothing to me but just another target. I will wipe you the fuck out with precision the likes of which has never been seen before on this Earth, mark my fucking words. You think you can get away with saying that shit to me over the Internet? Think again, fucker. As we speak I am contacting my secret network of spies across the USA and your IP is being traced right now so you better prepare for the storm, maggot. The storm that wipes out the pathetic little thing you call your life. You’re fucking dead, kid. I can be anywhere, anytime, and I can kill you in over seven hundred ways, and that’s just with my bare hands. Not only am I extensively trained in unarmed combat, but I have access to the entire arsenal of the United States Marine Corps and I will use it to its full extent to wipe your miserable ass off the face of the continent, you little shit. If only you could have known what unholy retribution your little “clever” comment was about to bring down upon you, maybe you would have held your fucking tongue. But you couldn’t, you didn’t, and now you’re paying the price, you goddamn idiot. I will shit fury all over you and you will drown in it. You’re fucking dead, kiddo.
>>675055379
because you feel like you want more in live.
But you are to afraid or lazy to work for it.
I cheated on my girlfriend twice two different girls and I sext tons of others and receive nudes and phone sex and what not
I know I'm scum because what she doesn't know won't hurt her but when she even looks at another guy I get so jealous I want to kill her
Someone explain why I'm like this
>>675060445
Probably because you're a colassal faggot.
>>675060519
Wow jeez that explains thanks man life is so much more understandable
>>675060637
No problem, always happy to help.
>>675060637
you shouldn't let him talk to you like that.
>>675057064
life's tough sometimes.. i can't give you much advice but just do what feels right not what seems right..
>>675060744
Lol what am I gonna do? Do the ooga booga and scare him away? Lol nobody on this website has a clear head, everybody here is a lunatic
>>675055379
rebosting some stuff from the last thread
>>675060269
This isnt that same guy but who dont know who is on this thread. you go contqct your SS buddies and tell them to come to ME. my IP is easily traceable. I'll be waiting.
>>675061083
>>675061578
>>675061648
>>675060029
I want to run, to try something.
I can't afford it. I've got obligations where I am.
I want to die, but I'm not suicidal. My death can't be for nothing, for my family to end for my selfishness.
Can we have a war? A revolution? Something of meaning?
>>675061789
>>675061924
>>675060445
you're not scum. you need change.. get a phone that cant use internet or get a new gf. you're going through a stage. get yourself out of it.
>>675061814
I want to be brainwashed, just anything to forget her
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDGuNWu9WSo
Bcuz youre being chemically poisoned by the illuminati through gmo food, vaccines, chemtrails, cell phone radiation, fluoride in the water, tv patented hypnotism, wifi signals and radio and cell phone tower antennas, not to mention music frequency diverted from 440 to 430 to disrupt your electromagnetic waves coming from your brain and heart, also subconscious manipulation through society itself
>>675060269
Read the comment before and suddenly realised you're all talk.. piss off, I don't have time for shit-talkers.
>>675062080
Thanks man, what if I stopped cucking my girlfriend and just let everybody else goooo
>>675062611
You do need a new start, but if i were you just keep your gf and let the others go..
>>675062852
I'll try man, pussy is so overwhelming
Am I a bad person if I fake being sympathetic towards others?
I know the world is a cruel place you shouldn't be upset when what you want isn't going that way.
>>675063287
I know.. I'm giving advice because I'm in the same situation.. try having 4 girlfriends and yet still sext others etc..
>>675063393
I would say so... but that's just an opinion.
>>675057064
Define suicidal.
Diagnosed or just saying/acting like it?
Either way she needs therapy. If she can't understand the impact it's having on you, probably a personality disorder, it's less about her feelings and more about manipulating you. If your damned either way, leave.
>inb
>feel sad
>post feels thread
>you have sad life
>>675057710
RNGesus is a bitch. Find another girl and re-roll.
>>675063905
I've been there, left it and never felt better! Ican finally get on with my life :)
>>675063653
I tried that once
For simplicity of explaining this there was girl a, b, c, and d
I'm still with girls a and b
I actually love girl a and c
I used girl b for some sweet nood
Girl d was just for entertainment tbh she got annoying and I dumped her
Girl c broke up with me and I was devastated.
The worst part is I was kinda a good boyfriend, I hate my self for doing this too. I always feared that they would cheat on me as well, even though I was cheating on them.
>>675055379
i hate my life because i wasnt born incredibly smart or good looking and therefore must fake my way to the top. ironically once i arrive i will be more miserable then ever knowing my entire existence is a facade.
>>675063393
Everyone does that, society is shit as a result.
>>675063847
I just say the usual,
> Oh I'm so sorry that happened to you
And
> That's so terrible, I'm here for you if you need me.
I just want them to feel better but I'm not sorry for them at all. They didn't deserve it but life is life. Shit happens and you have to deal with it
>>675064296
when things get too complicated start over.. it will take time but it's worth it. just run if you have to. I'm trying to as we speak.
>>675057710
At least she's alive and probably doing better now.
>>675055992
I don't want someone to save me, I want someone to push me to do better than I am doing in a similar way I push others
>>675061814
Details?
>>675064615
> Shit happens and you have to deal with it
Saying that'd be more meaningful than lying to them.
>>675064661
Should I end things off with girl b?
What do I do with my lingering feelings for girl c?
She was so sweet and innocent, I loved her the most.
I thought I would be able to be with girl a forever, but day by day my fears get stronger. I know most young relationships will fail, I know online ones barely ever work aswell, but I actually love her.
>>675064615
Yeah I know but I try help when I can..
>>675064936
If I just straight up told them that it would be mean. It's not like they would ever find out thag I'm faking it and only pretending to be sorry, I care for them though, I just don't feel sorry for them.
>>675064995
Is C online?
>>675065050
Is it better to lie to them so they are happy or to be straight forward with then and tell them not not be such a pussy about it?
>>675065228
They all are online because I'm a huge spaghetti boy and I'll will drop that everywhere if I approach someone irl
>>675065228
C is in the us somewhere I forgot where
A is in Michigan
B is in us somewhere too
D is in Europe
>>675065244
you have a point. I am in a situation where i need to wait for the right time.
>>675065407
make a new alias acc and block the old. add C and tell them you must delete the old acc. delete the old acc.
>>675065475
Tell your situation
>>675055379
it sounds cliche as fuck but adopting a more nationalistic P.O.V. has really changed me, been more dedicated to working out, my general appearance, trying to find a chick, everything but my nihilistic view on life, it's fun OP try it
>>675065653
But c doesn't like me anymore she's moved on, but we're still friends ish
>>675065244
Anon listen to me it is so much better to lie to them and keep them happy because why would you tell the truth and devastating damage others permanently just for the sake of moral right it's a no-brainer fuck it let people call you evil and scum, and a pussy for not telling the truth but I'll be damned if I couldn't prevent the people I care about the most get hurt
>attempt an hero via asphyxiation
>wake up next day
>fuck
>take 60mg of zopiclone
>hose from exhaust into car
>wake up next day
>fuck
>get very drunk
>take a shot glass full of zopiclone & citalopram
>wake up in hospital
>fuck
will try again when I get more drugs, this time I will make sure I won't be found in time to be saved
>be me, guy, 20s
>go out earlier tonight with sister and my friend I don't get to see as much anymore
>don't have too many people I feel that close to
>this guy shows up we were sort of expecting
>gets in a playful tickle fight with friend
>the past couple days I'd just been thinking about people who are close trying more physical contact
>mfw i realized I'd been wanting to have that sort of thing with someone
>and it literally unfolded right before my eyes
>to ask for a round after would be weird plus unlike that guy it wouldn't even last ten seconds even if she was tired from him
>as the night progresses I realize she might be looking out for me because I tend to avoid late night outings which is really nice but I fail to secure even a hug to shut it out of my mind
>mfw I suddenly feel more disconnected from her than I have in a while, almost sort of gross for even wanting a hug, and can't stop thinking about play fighting with someone like that
>>675065653
I've confused my self with the letters too
A is Bre
B is Madi
C is Elizabeth
D is Raven
>>675065660
4 gfs. 1 I see quite often. another I see barely, other 2 are out of the country. all of them quite well inlove with me.. but I only love the one I see quite often..
>>675065785
Start a new then.. it's the only decent decision.. Just learn from your mistakes.
>>675065790
You and me think alike, I just want them to be happy and okay, I don't want to make stuff worse and tell them to grow a pair
>>675065790
not the guy you replied to but let them down slowly. even if it mean lie. make sure you don't do the same though.
>>675066188
I'm fine with leaving Raven and Madi I don't really give a fuck about those two, I was just using them.
But I truly care for Elizabeth and Bre. Bre is somewhat stable but I know Elizabeth is not, she cracks under pressure so easily and I don't want to leave her like that.
>>675061578
Actually teared up from this.
Fuck, man.
>>675065982
Elizabeth is the one you like but dont like you isn't it? just start a new..
>>675066594
Yeah, she dumped me.
I can't bare to start a new without them, tbh they're why I wake up
>>675055379
I DO NOT HATE MY LIFE, LITTLE MORTAL.
TELL ME, WHY DO YOU HATE YOURS?
>>675066566
wait so who like you? brb
>>675066225
Precisely anon I think that sacrificing my conscience because believe me I think about how much of a piece of shit I am everyday and when I see my girlfriend kiss me and look into my eyes and tell me that I'm perfect and that I'm everything that she ever ask for, don't you think I just want to scream from the top of my lungs, "I fucked 2 girls behind your back!! I got blown by your acquaintance and I still phone sex with my ex and share nudes with side hoess!!!" But I can't because then she will die and so will my world but returning to what I was saying
Essentially, we're quite considerate just a little and if saying that makes me delusional fuck it man fuck it
>>675066937
Raven, Bre, and Madi all like me.
Elizabeth only likes me as a friend
>>675067007
Nice to meet you Mr.Bond
I don't want to tell my girl what I'm cheating on her, or that I know I'm far from perfect. She knows I have struggled with hating my self and she doesn't like to see me like that so I pretend I've changed and I'm better now.
If she is happy I am happy.
>>675067385
We are exactly the same people I always tell her how I believe I do not deserve her and that she should leave me and then I'm a bad person and then she says she doesn't see it that she sees an angel that she sees someone so beautiful and what can I say what can we do you know what can we do but you're right absolutely if she's happy I'm happy
It's so relaxing so nice so soothing to talk to someone who understands what I'm going through
>>675066937
well simple.. stick with bre get rid of the others.
>>675067789
I'm convinced you're my twin.
We should game sometime, so you have a steam account? I'll give you games to play with me I don't have any friends
>>675068033
I don't want to leave Elizabeth, I still love her even though she doesn't love me.
She's emotionally unstable too and I don't want her to turn on her self.
>>675064808
Classic depression, really.
Only child to bear my father's name, poor, skilless, jobless.
I'm an idiot who had a plan. Join the Marines, get an education and a pension, maybe get to blow up some Saracens while I was at it. Figure shit out when I could, 'ya know?
Took a piece of metal through my eye through a tool-related accident that was entirely my fault. That happened the day before I was going to sign the paper with my recruiter. Three surgeries and eight months of extremely light duty left me weak and poorer.
Tried college, but the mix of household shit and money issues meant I had to choose between eating or dumping money into a degree I never really wanted.
Now? I've no job, all my friends moved away and now I only talk to some people online and you Anons.
I'm probably going to be homeless just in time for my birthday. I want to die, but I can't even have that.
>>675068184
Lol I don't really game a lot plus I don't have steam and I'm rarely on my laptop mostly on my phone I'm always on the go
But if there is something I must say is that it's extremely tough letting go some of the girls I have at my disposal I don't know why it's just I can't let them go but it's like as soon as they finish me off I just want to be with my girlfriend I don't know it's all so strange this cheatin' lifestyle
>>675068331
Picsof the wound?
>>675068623
Sadly I hate people who cheat it's like you have a perfectly fine girl with you already but you risk loosing that relationship by engaging in other ones. Why am I so hypocritical...
>>675068331
Tried selling drugs? Male prostitution? Robbery and mugging the elderly? If you truly wanted to succeed you would pursue these options and you would rise above your shame a new, notorious, self-made man.
>>675068281
I'm obviously unknown to what your situation is.. but i guess keep bre as a gf and try get the other to like you more.. I'm pretty lost for words
>>675069003
what the fuck is wrong with you?
>>675069037
I'll try, thanks bro
I can't jerk off without thinking about my ex
I need new physical contact but lost all of my confidence when I got dumped.
Where does a guy at community college that has no sports and no clubs worth joining meet people?
>>675068914
But you don't understand In the Heat of the Moment any intimacy of any kind between two people that have felt that tension and have that tension can break any bond that you have with your significant other it's incredible how powerful lust is in these minuscule events, see anon you have never experienced anything like it so you would not understand the circumstances and what the brain goes through when lips from a separate significant other meet with yours and then it just escalates and escalates
>>675069126
Everything
Now go out there and be somebody you fuck you're waiting time, stop being a puss and rob that old lady that walks in your neighborhood at night because she thinks it's safe!!!!!!
>>675068641
Don't have any, but it wasn't that bad on the outside. Just a thin line in the middle of my eye.
Destroyed the lens, fucked up the micromuscles that allow for the eye to focus and scarred the retina heavily. Left particles of lens and eye structure in the optical gel layer that they couldn't remove. I've been advised to avoid strong magnets or anything that outputs (relatively) high levels of radiation.
I can still see out of it, sorta, which one of the top optical surgeons in the US said was a miracle. The initial doctors said that most people get blinded by small injuries or debris, while I could count their finger with the half of my lens that was still in place.
>>675069381
That wasn't me responding.
>>675069155
hope all goes well for you, all good.
>>675069164
The library, fast food joints, grocery stores, plant shops, Hallmark, Walgreens, especially the park
The park never fails anon
>>675069504
My eyes hurt
>>675069504
Does that mean all my options are still up for debate? If you're truly a whiteknight and can't bring evil upon your town then I suggest you learn a trade fast. I'm talking mechanic, electrician, basically a blue collar job and work your ass off until your eyeballs start peeling. You can do this anon.
It was great talking to you guys, glad I got to talk, I'm going to go to sleep now, good night people and my twin bro I will probaby never see again.
Im a huge faggot
I love you all stay safe
>>675070187
I love you too anon, be safe and play it smart and cool
Gn twin
>>675069815
It didn't hurt at first.
Just kinda felt like the pressure you feel when you put your finger a little hard on your eyelid.
It also felt like panic.
Then it started to ache. And it just kinda kept gradually getting worse.
Then you're in one medical center and they give you pain meds and tell you to stay calm and don't eat anything.
Then you spend hours getting asked question, but it feels like minutes and days while you wait for these military-grade, massive pain pills to kick in.
They explain the situation, and each time it turns out to be much worse than they expected, and they have to prod your eyeball with these pressure sensors and shine the fury of a million suns into your eyes until you can see the blood vessels and nothing else.
Then you get stuck in DC traffic and you're just a little bit more panicked and the pain meds never seemed to kick in and you want to claw your face off just to move the pain somewhere else at all.
Then you wait another hour or two while they prep the OR. The doctor makes a joke and you laugh, but laughing makes it worse.
You wake up, something something hospital, then home, there's blood all over your face and an eyepatch taped in place. Then you go to bed.
>>675069815
Almost forgot, it turns out they make stitches that go in your eyeball.
They take them out the same exact way as normal stitches.
