feels thread
gay
>>674749609
Fuckin nigger Zombie
>>674749856
dont be so hard on yourself anon
>>674749609
I dont think this pic will work unless your an ant
>>674749609
>she wont remember it
>>674750078
this isnt a library faggot.....take your fiction shit somewhere else
That feels like WTF
>age 3 want to be an archeologist
>age 4 entomologist
>age 5 marine biologist
>age 10 know everything I loved is disappearing or gone
>age 13 want to save the world
>age 16 same
>age 18 same
>age 20 want to die
I am constantly reminded that nearly everything I consume contributes to the destruction of everything I am trying to save. It's all I really think about. I gave up looking for happiness a long time ago, I just want to do more good than harm with my time here. The problem is it is hard to care about myself when I'm so distraught over problems much bigger than I am, and when I don't care about myself it's hard to accomplish anything.
I consider suicide often but that's just not an option for me, it would be selfish. I can't abandon nature, which has given me everything thing I have simply because I am sad. I know I have the potential to change the world but it's hard to live.
http://imgur.com/gallery/CNRHTqe
>>674751215
Another huge reason I don't get anything done is I have severe ADHD.
I was diagnosed when I as six and have been in the max dose of every ADHD medication known to man.
I didn't even show up in high school and now I am paying for it.
I'm trying to get my act up from a 25 to a 32-34, it shouldn't be too hard if I study, I am a genius afterall, atleast that's what they tell me.
>>674751802
So I've been depriving myself of sleep every night for the past couple of weeks.
I get about 2 hours of sleep a day and spend my free time studying, writing or masturbating.
I feel like I think like a normal person when I am sleep deprived, my mind isn't bouncing around all over the place and I can focus on one activity.
>>674751215
If there was a like button on 4chan, this would be the tie first thing I would have ever pressed it for.
Keep up the work mane.
>>674749609
Ah, a generation back when niggers were somewhat respectable humans instead of muh dick
>>674752279
Thanks man, it means a lot to be understood.
>>674751215
silly faggot.......anons dont change the world, money does. kill yourself
>>674751215
Autism?
>>674752279
Same fag?
Grew up in a home constantly full of trash (waist high) because no one cleaned, ridiculed at school cause I always smelled like shit. Parents sold car I was going to take my drive test in when I was 17, 21 now and still no liscence. Sister decided she wanted to move halfway across the country to be a transmitter with some fat chick that literally has autism, this split my parents up and now I'm stuck in this shitty trash filled house all alone.
>>674749609
>>674752550
Not quite, just severe ADHD and giftedness. I have a wide range of interests and understand social norms.
>>674752550
No I wasn't samefagging either.
you sure are wrong a lot
>>674752501
Money doesn't do anything by itself, you retard.
>>674750078
I thought Franklin was going to be his mother, who after leaving her family got sex reassignment surgery and wanted to reconnect with her son years later.
>>674752107
Well I'm going to go put some adderall in my but now, bye.
>>674753508
try again faggot
>>674754538
It can appreciate in value but can it spend itself?
>>674753364
I have great giftedness, so that's wrong, it's just because of big numbers - Eventually you'll just so happen to be wrong twice in a row. Like thinking you're gifted and telling someone gifted they're wrong. See? Fun.
>>674754787
Gifted people are wrong all the time.
>>674754674
>>674755034
"All the time" and "a lot" are relative to the average, which is wrong much more often than the gifted. Good try. Your doctor was wrong, too, despite having studied for so long and likely being somewhat intelligent - You have autism, not ADHD. Thinking you understand social norms doesn't change that, simply because you /don't/ understand social norms, and therefore can't realize that you don't know and understand them. I recommend weed and LSD.
>>674750078
Nice fucking MSpaint skills, that doesnt even remotely look like it was first posted on 4chinz
>>674755146
Nice meme, I'm not to big on dedicating my life to the pursuit of material things, and I believe no one can be happy all the time. so dedicating yourself to the pursuit of happiness is just asking to go unfulfilled the 80% of life when you aren't happy or sad but just alive. So I try to take a nihilistic approach to happiness.
>>674751215
Black rhinos, man.
Fucking selfish cunty poachers literally made the extinct.
>>674749609
I should probably an hero, I just can't fucking win this weekend
> Go shooting yesterday
> Can't hit shit all day
Sure, maybe I just need to practice more
> Me and GF are fighting
> Go over there to apologize
> She went to the movies with some friends
Ok whatever
> Go to MTG Draft
> Don't win a single game all night
> Buy some packs, nothing good
> Friend buys 4 packs, pulls several hundred dollars worth of stuff
Maybe he just got lucky, go home get on normiebook see this
> Make plans to go to the movies with diffrent friend several weeks ago, tells him to make it a friday so I have off from work
> Goes last night
> Forgets to invite me
> Invites my GF (not worried cause he's 110% gay)
Fucking hell
> Get new guitar strings
> Be a retard and string them backwards by mistake ( I don't play much and haven't re-strung it in years)
> Break one of the high strings anyway
also
> Get new tempered glass screen protector for phone
> Clean off phone
> I bend it by accident when applying and it cracks
Should I just fucking give up?
>>674750078
rip in peace frank
>>674755291
Thanks for letting me know I have autism.
I just got over a 7-14g/day weed addiction. Substance abuse is another big reason I'm a failure. i trip hard and I trip often.
>>674756437
weed addiction? now i KNOW youre a kid thats full of shit.
>>674755881
Dude. That was years ago. We've killed off hundreds of species before that and will kill hundreds more. You only give a shit cos it popped up on facegook a few months ago. Go save an orca whale.
Let me clarify that I do think the fact that these things happened is awful, but why focus on the rhino when we have killed soo much other stuff?
>>674755881
Black rhinos
Pangolins
Bluefin tuna
40% of all species resistered on ICUN are endanger of extinction
150-200 species go extinct every 24 hours
>>674756772
You haven't smoked enough weed. Any drug can be abused.
Enjoy highschool.
>>674751802
Nigger I'm in the same boat as you, start lurking /r/nootropics and you'll pick up on some good shit Adhd drugs, I'm going to order some Memantine and Semax among other things next week. Also look into reboxetine at brandmedicine.com
>>674756229
>http://imgur.com/gallery/CNRHTqe
You whiny bitch, why does your happiness depend on chance occurrences, social trifles, and manual dexterity? Go get an identity and some core values or something.
>>674757384
Will do, I've been interested in nootropics lately. A friend of mine began to take this weird Russian nootropic and he doesn't seem to be so brain damaged anymore.
>>674749609
how many times has he raped her in those 60 years.
>>674757649
Do you remember what the Russian drug it was or at least what it sounded like, I'm curious. If you don't already understand dopeamine, serotonin, etc. I'd recommend researching. Fasoracetam is actually in trials for ADHD too, I'm on it now. Haven't made any conclusions on yet though.
>>674753011
ever heard of cleaning it yourself?? sorry your life "sucks" but it sounds like a pretty easy fix you lazy bitch
>>674756229
1st world problems. not taking anything away from you but some people would kill just to be able to fail at the things youre complaining about.
>>674758553
No idea what it was called, my memory is shit. Especially since I've been sleep deprived. I get neurotransmitters. But I don't get the method of action for any nootropics, I haven't researched them at all.
>>674757764
after you reread this post, be honest with me...
it wasnt as funny as you thought was it? Kinda feels like you tried too hard
>>674758878
(you)
>>674759626
They'll hurt me bad but I won't mind,
They'll hurt me bad they do it all the time
Alright this isn't MySpace circa 2009 lets go be emo someplace else
>>674759308
Are you sleep depriving yourself for the neurotransmitter effects, there was a thread about that a couple days ago
>>674758553
I hadn't hypothesized exactly why I get the results I do but it is self medicating my ADHD.
If that is the case, yes but not consciously.
>>674761059
Wrong post>>674760665
>>674757273
MOTHER FUCKER ISNT LYING
"Somebody ought to draw the line
Having you next to me.
We were both afraid to say what we think,
It's part of the poetry.
If I let you go and I walk away it's done,
But isn't it enough to say I won't?
Isn't it enough to say I can't?
And I just keep away for you."
Pretty much my story lately. After 5 years of being with my girlfriend, I fell in love with someone else. She's in a long term relationship as well. I thought it was a one sided thing for a while, but recently realized she feels the same way. I've been keeping my distance for a while because I didn't want to interfere in her relationship and the more I was around her, the more I fell for her. I couldn't completely stay away from her, and she's been making every effort possible to catch my attention and spend time with me. I've never been in this situation and I've just been pretending everything is normal when with the girlfriend, but I feel guilty as hell, even though I haven't cheated. I didn't want this shit to happen. It isn't a good feeling at all.
>>674757649
I took Piracetam for a year, that was pretty helpful during a time when I needed focus. About to start taking Noopept + Choline and will see how that goes.
Her name is Javiela. She cheated on me for a few months before I figured it all out. It hurts like a bitch and it's my time for payback. I am here by today releasing all her videos( bitch loved getting in the ass , jesus that pussy) She is also legal I promise. http://www31.zippyshare.com/v/O4qVcs25/file.html Will be removed in 5 mintues. /b/ OP is not a fag <3 33
>>674763304
you should break up with your gf. and its great that you dont cheat on her, youre a nice guy.
Does any anon have the story about the guy who found that his uncle and aunt were abusing his nephew and her got custody of her?
>>674763488
bait