Have you ever fully planned a suicide that you know will succeed? Please tell me how you will/would kill yourself. I'll go:
>live 5 minutes away from welding supply
>go buy 5ft industrial cylinder w/ two-stage controller and flow meter
>buy oven bag, tubing (may look around for a cpap mask)
>???
>goodnight
I've only been around thus long because It wasn't even a thought in my mind that welder suppliers carry inert gases for sale. Thank you to the kind anon who pointed that out.
>>674559700
Speaking of this plan, I have a choice between 3 gases. nitrogen/helium/argon. Which seems least suspicious for a twenty something to buy a large quantity of?
>>674559700
Valium overdose. Nice and sleepy.
Either that or heroin but I can get valium easier than smack
>Read books on suicide like Final Exit or Peacefull Pill Handbook
>Pick one of the described, reliable, peaceful and proven suicide methods
>Acquire necessary meds over Darknet markets
>???
>Profit
>>674560950
Heroin OD is something I looked into closely. You can buy that shit ez pz on darkweb and you'll have some kind of a time dieing.
>>674560950
>Valium overdose
Kok tep, good luck with that
You'll fall in a coma and that's it
>>674561041
I looked pretty long for a reliable Nembutal retailer on darkweb, I got discouraged when I couldn't find any on the more notable vendors
get a shotgun
aim it into mouth
instantly pull the trigger so i dont have time to change my mind or have doubt
It's so relieving to have an off switch.
ive always thought quick and painless would be best. That way you dont have time to be scared, no moments of regret, nothing to reflect on.
with that said, I've often imagined "death machines" such as:
-X Foot long spike, inside Y foot long tube (where y is much shorter than x, so each end of spike is very exposed) with a large weight (google what it takes to penetrate human skull and build accordingly) that drops down onto spike upon push of button. stand under rod, push button, instant lights out.
then I realized theres a potential that spike would highly damage brain, but not kill, so:
-mechanical "sword slicing motion" arm, complete with sword attatched at head level. have it slice through forehead horizontally, again at push of button. would need to be braced against something so you dont fall backwards and thus degrade the cut to a non-lethal situation.
also thought about the hesitation taht would come at the push of button. Interesting thought: make the device mobile and on a "random number generator" timer. device is armed and will release the killing blow at a surprise moment. spend the last moments you have playing videogames or watching tv, or whatever.
>>674559700
Buy a gun and a bottle of scotch.
Go for a walk in the woods.
Finish the booze, blow my brains out and hope that no one ever finds my corpse.
>>674561239
There used to be a guy on the original Silk Road, and one on Evolution, but since both of them don't exist anymore, it's gotten difficult unfortunately
But there are more drugs than ever on Darknet markets, so I'd assume that eventually someone will start offering Nembutal again
There are other options like amitriptyline or chloroquine that are easier to get the ingredients for, anyway
>>674561249
make sure you don't compensate the recoil and blow your face off, which is not uncommon. aim for the brainstem.
>>674561249
>aim it into mouth
Not specific enough.
Barrel up, and as central as possible, something like Budd Dwyer
The brain is relatively small in size compared to the head, you do NOT want to survive shooting yourself in the head
>>674561567
Like mixing my own cocktails? idk man I need my exit to be rock solid no chance of failure/recovery.
>>674561410
I like your brain, anon.
>>674561701
Well, all it comes down to is swallowing a bunch of pills in the end, you don't need to be a cocktail bartender for that
>>674561693
exactly, you can pretty much live just fine without your entire front half of your brain.
>Slavfag
>Don't have a gun
>Don't want to kill myself in any fancy way
>Just go 500m to railway tracks, put my head on a rail, wait for a train
>???
>fag is kill
Also maybe will buy myself a snack on the way there because there's a market so that's a win.
>>674562161
You'd have to be so so so so fucking determined to die in order to keep your head on that rail. so determined that you override you bodies natural instinct to live.
Once a year, my family vacations at a beach. It's not uncommon to go for a walk at night and there aren't lifeguards that time of year. I have a very heavy white dress from a period costume I wore once, and a shit-ton of depressant medications for a heart condition.
I have a plan to just take all the pills, put on my best dress, and walk out into the ocean til I drown. I'd be too weak and uncoordinated/half-conscious from the pills to properly keep myself above-water. Since we only go once a year, it's not something I can do on an impulse, meaning if I decide it's worth it then I have to have really decided it's worth it and I'll be fully committed to the act.
Plus, if I come back as a ghost it'll be a damn fine classy one, old-school.
I worked at a pool shop and when I was out in the work van I made chlorine gas but I got the quantity wrong and it didn't work, I just passed out for a few hours instead of dying.
If I ever get to that point again I now know how to do it properly.
>>674559941
Id go with Argon if you were gunna do it. It sinks to the bottom of your lungs and gives you a drowning feeling. You'll go nite nite quick.
>>674562641
You're not bothered by drowning? I've always been terrified of drowning so this is unthinkable for me.
>>674562674
wow you must have been one determined mother fucker to gas yourself with chlorine like that.
>>674562498
I guess so.
But that's the only sure option for me to get killed.
Actually I'm at really low point in my life that I thought I'd never be there for that long and still haven't decided to end it definitely; I know I will do this at some time, maybe even in a closest few month, and I'm sure I will not step back then.
>>674562962
Helium was most common for exit bags because it was available to anyone with an internet connection. but they started mixing with o2 to stop people killing themselves. I haven't heard of argon being used but N2 is pretty notorious for alternate exit bags
>>674563115
Yeah lowest point so far. As a method it's pretty cheap and straight forward. Unfortunately for me it was rather impromptu so I didn't have enough of the chlorine and hydrochloric acid ratio I needed.
>>674563035
No, the few times I've been happiest in life were in the water. Not drowning, obviously, but I'm more comfortable in the water than on land. It's fitting. I'm sure there will be panic, but with the amount of drugs I'll have in me, it wouldn't be as severe as going in sober.
>>674562641
drowining is one of the worst ways to go.
I once watched a documentary about drowning, had lots of interesting info:
You only temporarily go unconscious and will have a second spurt of life in you, moments later if still underwater your motor function will be gone but you will be fully aware. You will feel the burning of hell in your lungs due to them filling with water, if your eyes are open (they probably will be since is normal relaxed state) you will literally see everything going on.
To make it worse, youll have (up to) 20 minutes of that burning hell and realization that you can do nothing but float helplessly in the water until your brain finally dies.
I can honestly say I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy.
>>674563419
I hope by the time your ready there will be more peaceful options available to you. truly.
>>674563619
I heard drowning was actually quite peaceful way to go
Your lungs fill with water and is actually quite soothing.
From drowning victims who were resuscitated they said it didn't burn until they tried coughing the water back out on land.
>>674563619
>>674563711
I've done all the research about it; I know how horrible it can be. But I don't want to do this because I'm lonely. I've laid on the bathroom floor for two hours, delirious and sick as my heart rate raced and slowed between 50 and 170 because my brain couldn't control it, expecting to die any second. I've had two strokes, one incident of actual cardiac arrest, a broken spine with permanent nerve damage. I don't remember what it's like not to live in pain, and I pass out after I use the restroom.
Is drowning worse? Hell, yeah, I'm sure. But it's worth it to me. To die in a place that means something, in a way that means something - that's more important to me than just getting it over with. If it was just wanting to get it over with, I know about five different ways I could persuade my body into killing me on its own.
But fuck it, and fuck the pain. I choose the sea.
>>674564699
im going to assume youve somehow never accidnetly gotten water up your nose / in your lungs
beach...pool...bath...hell even in the shower.
its not pleasent.
>>674565546
how would dying in any way "mean something" unless it was like...taking a bullet for a loved one or something?
drowing somewhere you like in a dress isnt "meaning". its just artsy show for those who find you.
>>674565556
No I have....
But you coughed it back or snorted didn't you?
>>674564699
Getting water into your lungs makes your brain go full panic mode