Can we get a feels thread going? feeling kinda lonely
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Can we get a feels thread going? feeling kinda lonely
>>674304774
that hit home anon...
>>674304860
this too.. this is true af
MODS MODS MODS
If you're sad why do you make yourself moar sad with this
Make a wish, anons.
>Fall in love with girl
>She has boyfriend
>I have girlfriend
>Feel guilty, but I haven't physically cheated
>I never wanted to fall for this girl, it just happened
>Figure I can just continue on with my life a normal since there's no way anything's going to happen
>Find out other girl caught feelings for me too
>I will never fucking cheat cause it's a scummy thing to do
>Sometimes it's really difficult trying to figure out which path is the best for your own future
>Girlfriend is my best friend in the world, but the feelings there aren't what they used to be
>New girl is absolutely perfect for me in every way
>Choose girlfriend, I miss out on what could very possibly be the love of my life
>Choose new girl, I lose my best friend
>Shit sucks.
>>674305612
I wish that he had more time to himself so he could enjoy life.
I wish there was a cure to his disease.
I wish that he will live a long and happy life.
>>674305612
I wish that he will be happy again
I wish that I haven't kept him around only so that in the end he will still kill himself because he can't take it anymore
I wish that he can live a normal life again
I wish that he wouldn't have had to suffer through all this just because I was selfish enough to keep him around
>>674305612
I wish that none of you were here, instead of enjoying life, because all of you seem like far better people than any of the ones I know personally. Enjoy something I saved on Sunday night. If pic related's anon is out there: Thank you for reminding me.
>>674306315
How long have you been with your current girlfriend?
>>674307799
What about you, why are you here?
>>674307249
You sound like my current gf
>>674305612
I wish I meat the right girl soon.
>>674308331
It's a small world. Wouldn't have thought I'd find someone with these same problems..
>>674308288
I just worked through some issues I was having, and I want to try and help others out. That being said, while I was in my "mood", I did some writing. I figured that what I was going for would be more "real" if I wrote it while I was in a shitty mood. Pic related. Should I continue?
>>674308890
>>674308915
I'm the bottom anon, and I just realized the irony of the two pictures having to do with yesterday and tomorrow, respectively.
>be me
>have sex with girl
>tells people i drugged and raped her
>got fungal infection in my dick
>>674308915
Yes, continue.
>>674305612
I wish that every person in this thread will recover from whatever it is that has you specifically seeking out a feels thread so that you have people to talk to when you're upset. Even though these threads are meant to be depressing, they've honestly always given me hope because I know there's a bunch of good people on here who, for no reason other than the genuine concern for other people, spend every night talking to people they've never met just to make sure everybody makes it through the night without ending it all.
So for everybody that's depressed because nobody loves them or nobody cares, there are people who love you and care, you've just never met any of us.
This one doesn't hit close to home for me. It completely destroys me every time I see it.
>>674306315
>>674309453
I'll work on it over spring break, so keep an eye out for me during and maybe for a bit afterwards. What do you think of the title "Chasing Tomorrow?" I thought it sounded good, but if an anon can offer a better suggestion, hit me.
Titles are usually given after a story is finished, but I do like that one. Seems fitting.
>>674309935
Here's another one of those.
I always enjoy feels threads. To hear people's stories always helped me deal with my problems. Also it's a good way to see that I can still cry.
So why are you here Anon?
>>674310213
>>674309844
Meant to reply to this.
My life is a joke and i've come to a point where i cant laugh about it anymore
>>674309935
Fucking 9gag watermark
>>674310714
I know, I didn't even get it off of 9gag.
>>674310858
Thats what they all say faggot
>>674310583
Right in the feels
>>674310350
Yes /b/ro.
"Once you're here, you're here forever."
Do you anons ever ponder the meaning of that quote?
I think it can mean any number of things.
It can mean that you created OC that will go down in Internet history.
It can mean that you discovered that anonymity is, like Cocaine, one hell of a drug.
It can mean that you find the Internet more comfortable than face to face relationships, and you isolate yourself.
I think it means something entirely different.
To me, it means that once you are here, you stay, if not on the site, your spirit lives on in the hearts, minds, and sides of the anons you post alongside. I will remember you. I will remember all of you.
>>674308119
4 years. It was a great relationship for a while. Then over the past year or so, I've just started to notice all the shit that bothers me. For whatever reason, even though she's gorgeous and has everybody supporting her on everything she does, she has no self-esteem and feels like she has no friends. This has made her a bitter person who endlessly complains about everything. I used to smile every time I thought of her, now I get anxious because the second I think about seeing her, I know it's just going to be me listening to the same story about why this person's an asshole or why that person treated her like shit. It seems like I'm the only glue keeping her together at all, and I feel like she'd fucking crumble if I left her. She's never been the motivated type, never trying to really move forward with her career and refuses to look for another job, even though she hates the place she's been at for 6 years. I barely even want to be around her half the time anymore. But like I said, she was my best friend for almost 10 years before we ever started dating, and she's seen me through addiction issues, losing jobs, basically starting from scratch and rebuilding my life. Losing her would be losing a huge part of who I am. But again, I'm not sure that I'm in love with her anymore.
The other girl is something else entirely. She's my polar opposite in almost every way, and in all honesty is not as attractive as my girlfriend, but she is attractive in her own right. She constantly finds ways to make me smile and make me feel better when I'm having a bad day, whether it's surprising me with a coffee exactly the way I like it made (after 14 years, the girlfriend still hasn't gotten that down, btw) or distracting me and saying something sweet to make me smile. She's ambitious, funny, and bubbly. I just love being around her and every new thing I learn about her makes me fall for her even more.
I need to do what's right for me, for once in my life.
Ex just broke up with me, I think I'm hurt.
>>674311912
The first relationship honeymoon phase is over and what you are feeling for the second one is just excitement of something new. Most people that have been together for 10 plus years find they are no longer in love with each other you have to decide if you care about her enough to push through the hard times or if you think it is time to move on to something new.
>>674312642
Adding onto this, I just think I need to vent.
It was going well, our relationship. We both liked each other a lot, it almost seemed like the perfect couple.
Two weeks ago, I even felt something different, something changed, but I couldn't tell what it was.
Last Friday, she breaks down, tells me that she's lost the spark or feelings she had for me, that she was just forcing the relationship. I tried reasoning, and asked for her to just try and see if it'll change with some time.
She agrees the next day, and it starts going well on Saturday and Sunday. Monday I text her, she tells me something's wrong, so I call. She says the same thing again, that she feels like she's forcing the relationship and its not working for her. So we broke up.
I guess I have a lot of feelings kept up in me, she tells me that she liked me a lot, that I'm perfect, but she can't be with me and she doesn't know why.
I guess the part that gets me is the not knowing why, why would she just break up with me if we were perfect together? I liked her a lot, I got attached to her, and this hurts.
Bumperino
"My friend just died. I don't know what to do."
I'm old. What that means is that I've survived (so far) and a lot of people I've known and loved did not.
I've lost friends, best friends, acquaintances, co-workers, grandparents, mom, relatives, teachers, mentors, students, neighbors, and a host of other folks. I have no children, and I can't imagine the pain it must be to lose a child. But here's my two cents...
I wish I could say you get used to people dying. But I never did. I don't want to. It tears a hole through me whenever somebody I love dies, no matter the circumstances. But I don't want it to "not matter". I don't want it to be something that just passes. My scars are a testament to the love and the relationship that I had for and with that person. And if the scar is deep, so was the love. So be it.
Scars are a testament to life. Scars are a testament that I can love deeply and live deeply and be cut, or even gouged, and that I can heal and continue to live and continue to love. And the scar tissue is stronger than the original flesh ever was. Scars are a testament to life. Scars are only ugly to people who can't see.
As for grief, you'll find it comes in waves. When the ship is first wrecked, you're drowning, with wreckage all around you. Everything floating around you reminds you of the beauty and the magnificence of the ship that was, and is no more. And all you can do is float. You find some piece of the wreckage and you hang on for a while. Maybe it's some physical thing. Maybe it's a happy memory or a photograph. Maybe it's a person who is also floating. For a while, all you can do is float. Stay alive.
Pt 1/2
In the beginning, the waves are 100 feet tall and crash over you without mercy. They come 10 seconds apart and don't even give you time to catch your breath. All you can do is hang on and float. After a while, maybe weeks, maybe months, you'll find the waves are still 100 feet tall, but they come further apart. When they come, they still crash all over you and wipe you out. But in between, you can breathe, you can function. You never know what's going to trigger the grief. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. It can be just about anything...and the wave comes crashing. But in between waves, there is life.
Somewhere down the line, and it's different for everybody, you find that the waves are only 80 feet tall. Or 50 feet tall. And while they still come, they come further apart. You can see them coming. An anniversary, a birthday, or Christmas, or landing at O'Hare. You can see it coming, for the most part, and prepare yourself. And when it washes over you, you know that somehow you will, again, come out the other side. Soaking wet, sputtering, still hanging on to some tiny piece of the wreckage, but you'll come out.
Take it from an old guy. The waves never stop coming, and somehow you don't really want them to. But you learn that you'll survive them. And other waves will come. And you'll survive them too.
For all of you people suffering from a loss.
Stay strong.
Pt 2/2
Love is a sweet poison, /b/ros.
It's awful, especially for a male.
Hence why I've resolved to never fall in love again.
>>674305612
I wish she'd come back
>>674305612
I wish she was there.
>>674317466
We can make it through this together bro
>>674305612
I was I had nice cuddles in bed with my waifu...
feeling down so I will post ....
>with girlfriend 6 years from age 17-23
>lots of sex. love each other. we were highschool sweethearts
>we fight a lot in our last year over trust issue shit and she moves a few hours away with her good friend (girl)
>I get pissed she didn't move with me and so I move about 8 hours away with my best friend (guy)
>don't talk for 3 years. then she text me and wants to meet up again
>we meet up in her new spot.
>we fuck and she tells me to cum in her so I did multiple times (she told me she was on "the pill")
>next day she tells me she wants nothing to do with me so I go back home 8 hours away
>I try talking to her and telling her I love her but she keeps telling me she needs her space and that she doesn't love me like she used too.
>now im sitting here wondering if this bitch is carrying my child and why she would ask me to see her and bust a load in her and then want nothing to do with me the day after.
>pretty obvious shes into another guy by the way she talks to me when im trying to make things right.
>this girl used to be all over the nuts and crazy for me no matter what ...then all of a sudden she doesn't give a fuck about me and doesn't wanna talk.
>bitches sure know how to make a dude lose his fucking mind
>fuck ... feelsbadman.jpg
Sucks cuz the place where I live is pretty dry on single girls so its hard to pick a new one up and get her out of my mind.... while on the other hand where she lives she has a ton of guy friends. I feel like shes having this great time with all these guys and im sitting here in misery alone as fuck....
>>674311878
The first thing that made me feel in a while... I usually just feel empty inside, but this... I needed this. Thank you, anon. I'm not the one you replied to, but I'll remember you too.
This threads about to 404... Damn. This was something I really needed to see tonight.
bumping again.
Bumping again
Final bump
The last girl I was interested got me pretty down and I was looking in these threads everyday. Only hear for the greentexts, and pictures. Now that I'm over her I still have a certain dependence on these threads.
(But one more for good luck)
>>674319329
>>674319422
>>674319530
>>674319607
>>674319715
Samefag :^)
Hope you find what you need though, anon.
Hell, i'll add in
> Be me in the year 2013, about 20 working min wage cashier job going to school
> life sucks after my last breakup in 2010
> been sleeping around with girls to pick up my spirits
> one day, a girl checks out through my line and she gets my number with the stupidest pick up line
> we start hanging out
> she likes me, and as time wears on, i like her
> soon my atrophied heart beats again and i can see the color in the world
> we date for around eleven months
> break up because she couldn't stop making out with other people
> i still want her back
> seven months pass, and somehow we give it a second chance
> this time she is far into drugs & alcohol, and i feel like some set piece in her life
> i start attracting girls with my woe
> girlfriend thinks i'm cheating on her
> we end up breaking up again, after only four months this time
> its been almost a year since that last break up
> i miss her every day, with all my heart
> i beat my mind to death trying to figure what i need to do
> i love her with all my heart... and i don't know why
> just that her smile could raise me from the grave
Feels bad /b/ros. She recently blocked me from everything in her life, spends time with her friends and new boyfriend, and i get to just sit her... slowly dying from heartache
How do you cope?
>>674319835
Don't worry anon, she's not worth your time.
She's just a bitch who didn't respect you enough to stay loyal. She saw other girls getting close to you and used it as an excuse to pull away so she wouldn't feel guilty.
What was the stupid pick up line?
>>674320106
She and her mom went through my lane, bought some stuff and a pack of gum
She came back later through the line (like five minutes, maybe)
And she said that the gum was defective and that she wanted to exchange it for my phone number
And... i don't know anymore anon. I'm only ever really happy with her, and we have such chemistry when we are together. We just... keep getting something wrong every time
And now that i want to give her 110%, i can't. I'd rant further, but 4chan isn't my personal blog
> pic related, it's what was once "us"
>>674321116
pour one out anon
god speed
>>674321116
God damn, that's not stupid that's fucking hilarious!
I'm not really in the same boat as you, but I'm in the same pond I guess. I had a friend who I got really close to and now she has no interest in me and I can't really get over her. I just want her to be mine, but it won't happen. I told you what I keep telling myself.
>Don't worry anon, she's not worth your time.
>be me 17
>lost a few family members that year
>feeling pretty down for a while
>meet this girl that makes me smile and laugh
>we spend the next few years having fun and loving life
>decide to get married since we are so perfect
>stress, bills, insane hours at work, and arguments drag us down
>fast forward to 2015
>if I'm not working I'm drinking
>wife was getting lazy and complaining more
>start to feel hatred toward her
>eventually I feel nothing at all
>wife packs up her shit and leaves
>I don't try to stop her I don't feel a thing
>I'm not mad or sad or even happy
>about the same time my close friend dies
>didnt cry or feel a thing
>didn't show up to the funeral because I couldn't even fake a year
>his family and friends messaged me asking where I was
>I read their messages
>I never reply
>I'm about to lose my job and can't pay my bills because of my alcohol addiction
>still don't feel a thing
Pic related
Ich habe eine Menge von Reue
Met a girl in a faces of /b/ thread, and she added me on steam. We talked for the past few days and thought we were falling in love. I don't know about her, but I was falling in love. I log on today to find that she blocked me, and I don't know why. The only way I have of talking to her now is if she starts playing Space Engineers, and I join her world and use the chat. I'm sitting here clicking refresh on her profile every 5 seconds like the final scene of The Social Network to see if will start playing Space Engineers. Comfort me /b/ros.
>>674322647
She's a thirty year old from Ukraine. Let her go anon.
>>674322829
She was 21 and lived in Michigan. She was born in russia though. What's your point?
>>674323041
She catfished you. :^) Stranger Danger
>>674310714
what did you expect ? this is a feel thread
>>674323282
No, she was real.
>>674305612
I've decided that it's not worth wasting a wish on my life getting any better so right now, in this moment, I want Danielle form Phototec to want to be my girlfriend. I need good in my life. Please, I'm talking to air. I truly need this.
>>674323836
and how could you have known that
>>674323282
this anon knows
>>674305612
I want you to come back to me, Mikey. The true Mikey, the one I feel in love with. I'm sorry I just couldn't take the cheating and drugs anymore. I lost you to drugs, and it kills me inside.
>>674324916
girl
>>674321757
Well, when i say stupid, i mean it ironically? When that line was given to me, i was smiling all day.
>>674321649
Well it basically boils down to
> instant chemistry between the two of us
> start hanging out a lot, fucking a lot, and generally dating without the title
> decide it just makes sense at this point to be official
> propose the relationship to her with a stuffed corgi from CowBoy Beebop (like it had the collar and everything)
> bitch LOVED cowboy beebop and LOVED Corgis more
> obviously says yes
> dating goes on for around 11 months
> tons of high points, special days and nights together, and unforgettable events
> then... the eve of her 20th birthday
> mutual friends of ours decide to throw her a party, she's never really had a party before (poor, single parent family, lives in nowhere land, etc)
> might as well . jpg
> She gets drunk with half a Mike's Hard Lemonade
> quickie in the backroom
> spend the night flirting and gaming together
> i leave early so i can prepare for her surprise party i'm going to be throwing her at my house, with my family celebrating with with us
> i learn later than she drunkenly made out with one of my friends while i wasn't there
> i would forgive them though, because the two of them were apologizing to me so damn much i really couldn't think of a way to punish them any further... and i love this bitch
> guess the first domino was knocked down
> she would eventually make out with two other guys
> then she tells me we have to talk
> l learn at this point that i've been cheated on... three times.
> albeit just making out
> still it kills me to know this... especially since i cheated on my first girlfriend and it took me three years to get over that
> she says we have to break up. She isn't worth me, and she really just wanted an excuse to punish herself
> i resist, but ultimately give in
> we break up
> for seven months i'm a hollow, void-like creature... with no real drive
[cont]
>>674325586
> she has several flings during this time, trying to find herself. She finds a new circle of friends, starts doing drugs and drinking loads more
> but somehow... through all of this, we start talking after around six months, in november
> we then start seeing each other again, as friends
> and i keep pushing to win her back
> somehow, right after christmas, i win.
> she comes over to my place, at 2 am, and we have sex and begin dating round 2
> but i realize she has changed a fair bit
> she seems to really like drinking and pot, and just sort of treats me like an accessory
> like she loves me to bits and pieces, and is that same girl with that old spark that lights me up like a rocket
> when its convenient to her
> otherwise, i'm just a background character to her
> it hurts me... but she's happy, so i put up with it
> then i start attracting other girls to me (must be that brooding emotional thing)
> i never cheat on my girlfriend with any of them
> in fact, i spend lots of time with these new girls, talking about my relationship with my current girl
> they give me some sound advice and help clear my head
> but it doesn't really matter, girlfriend is all paranoid because her friends fill her head with lies and the pot certainly doesn't help
> she thinks i'm cheating on her, and shortly after my birthday, we break up
> we stayed silent for the longest time, mostly cyber stalking each other to keep tabs on the other
> i was with this other girl at the time, the one that ruined our relationship, because after losing my girlfriend i decided "why the fuck not?"
> i broke it off with new girl, and pined after the only girl i've ever really loved
> we start talking again, start hanging out, and even start getting a little kissy
> start to feel like we can salvage this whole thing
> invite her down to Chico, Ca for New Years with friends that live there
> despite my wildest expectations, she agrees
>>674319080
Anytime anon.
>>674325794
> she recently broke up with her boyfriend she got, and everything was looking good
> We get down there and play drunken smash bros (save me, i'm allergic to alcohol), and other retro games and such
> the ENTIRE time, we are cuddled up against one another
> all those old feels of the better times flush in
> i'm a pessimistic realist though and think i don't deserve any good luck
> sure enough, new years chimes in and no shared kiss
> just what i expected
> i start to rest my eyes, since i'm coming down from my sugar high (ADHD)
> she makes up some bullshit excuse to go out to my car, and needs my help in doing so
> i totally know this is for a "Talk", and i'm worried about what
> did she manage to text up a new boyfriend whilst cuddling me?
> we get out there, and she throws herself on me and we make out for like three literal minutes.
> no tongue, no groping, no humping or anything. Just honest to god emotions and feelings being passed by two lips
> she tells me that she wanted to do this so bad, and decided to just do it
> i'm at a loss for words
> i'm actively doing damage control in my head, trying to not fuck up what just happened
> so... i say little and we go back in to the friends and games
> night rolls on, we are getting tired and decide to hit the hay, so i take her to another friend's place who offered to put us up in actual beds (fuck floor sleep)
> and as i pull up to his place, she jumps on my face and we start making out
> the sensation of her tongue against mine, something i've long since forgotten, almost destroys the last bastion of rational thought i have left
> it ends as fast as it started and we go inside
> get to bed
> and start making out, grinding, and whispering sweet nothings to one another
> professing our love to each other, playing with each other's bodies, kissing the other long and deep
[cont]
>>674325968
> she ends up sucking my off, and i go down on her for like twenty minutes
> she can't cum thanks to female whiskey dick, but loves every second of it
> we sleep together, happy and cozy
> then the following day, she adds crazy distance between us
> starts standing away from me
> avoiding any direct conversation for long
> doesn't want to talk about last night
> i feel horrible now... like i was some kind of one-night stand
> she assures me i wasn't, but doesn't really know what to say
> she says that she loves me, and that it was comfortable thoughts of hers
> like she just did it because we have history and therefore it wouldn't of been weird
> whatever.feels
> drop her off
> can't understand her, or my feelings
> time wears on, we start seeing less of each other
> we talk less and less
> soon she gets a new boyfriend, and we are pretty much nonexistent with each other now
> then, this monday, she writes an open-faced letter on her Tumblr
> basically saying how much she hates me, that she wished that she could scrub every trace of me out of her life, and that the thought that we were ever intimate makes her physically ill
> NEVER. in my life. Have i been so hurt, and i've been shot, stabbed, and in car wrecks
> Suicide sounds like the BEST GOD DAMN THING right now, and i'm rapidly running out of excuses to not
> somehow don't... doesn't make me feel any better though
> how the fuck could she say that? This isn't like her one bit
> And now here i am, writing about my relationship in a feels thread on /b/, fully expecting to be ridiculed or called a cucked faggot or something
> but believe it or not, my /b/ros are among the best family i got
> i love you guys... but i miss her so damn much
> How do you get your soul mate back? How do you fix this? How can i make this work?
> these are always the questions in my head, and they hurt me more than any physical wound ever could dream of
Thanks /b/, i feel a little better with this off my chest
>>674305612
I wish I hadn't fucked it up and actually noticed the hints she did.
>>674326215
I know that feel... Sometimes subtlety slips right past me. I missed out on a great girl because I never saw how much she really loved me until she finally gave up and moved on.
this shit gets me every time, and it hurts.
>>674305612
I wish for you, Jess. Always will.
>>674305846
This was my girlfriend's favorite picture. She sent it to me without the third panel at the bottom. We broke up less than two months ago. This picture just fucking wrecked me. I never cry without being drunk.
>>674322647
You'll find someone anon
>>674310367
So, I had a wonderful day. I just started a new school. Was slightly anxious, but it went well. I fell asleep as soon as I got home. Woke up to my mom bitching at me for not being ready to go out for dinner. I quickly threw on some cargo pants and a shirt that was on my floor. Fast forward. It's 9 o' clock, showered my girlfriend with a bunch of different "I love you" things. Goes good she's happy, she goes to bed. Day has been great so far, I got over my depression 9/17/15 the day I first talked to my girlfriend, three days before we got together. It's been slowly creeping back up on me. Tonight I felt so alone, messaging people, having 3-4 texts back and forth with about 4-5 people. Feeling terribly alone right now. I decide I want to desensitize myself, because fuck empathy, so I was like let's hit up my /b/ros. Turns out there's feels here and I feel so sad and alone but at the same time all these feels are amazing, and I want to help all of you and support all of you because you all seem great. You all are doing something amazing. You're sharing your story. You're helping the ones who just needed to know that they aren't alone. And that is the best thing you could ever do.
>>674328233
Thank you.
>>674326151
You should write a letter back about how much you used to love her and about hoe much it hurts the way she emotional uses you. I would include your storie as a couple like you did in the green text. Im also a beta fag so good luck.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oNIJAUVC7sQ
Planning to do some writing, here is the plot
Recorded phone calls and emails of a killer who was neglected love for all of his life, became a basement dweller up until his 30s, stops a bus jacking by killing the gunman and then develops a euphoric high off killing, and gets aroused by torturing girls and forcing them to love him, never gets caught up until his death where he confessed everything, in the end it is just a simulation for a test, the narrator explains whether the reader should have feeling towards the characters because they were never real, just lines of code on a screen, the killer toys with the victims in different ways, for example he rapes a highschool senior while her boyfriend is forced to watch, making a fat ugly teen commit suicide just by harassing her through the mail and chat rooms.
Everybody always asks what the most painful thing is, and in my experience it's loving someone so much that you'd set yourself on fire just to see them smile or make their life a little bit better, and then realizing that they didn't love you even half as much.
It's being treated like fucking shit, having the person you love most use their knowledge of you to push all the right buttons and make you feel less than shit, and still hope to a God you don't even believe in every time you get a text or a phone call, it's them.
I wish I could say I hate you, you fucking bitch, but I can't even do that right. I love you.
>>674305612
I wish she has another feeling for me other than disinterest. I wish that she would will engage me in conversation soon, because when I try to talk to her, I mess up and the conversation fizzles out eventually. I wish there was something about me that she would like; with my lack of skills or interests or personality, it would be a real change. I wish she loved me, because I love her a lot.
>>674326724
>>674328233
It doesn't help that I'm so picky about girls.
>>674305612
I hope that he'll be with me again. And that someone will actually care about me someday soon.. And that he'll talk to me.. tomorrow.
>>674303926
So, I can't really greentext this, at least not well, not chronologically.
>I'm a college student
>engineering, for what it is worth
>much as people say i'm a 'personable' guy, i'm not
>I might act like I can walk around and make connections, but most people, well I can't stand them
>and i've made connections, and lost them, and made them again
>outside of my family, there are five people I know in real life that I have what I feel like is a genuine understanding of each other, a real bond, a bond which goes deeper than my superficial connections. There are one or two that i'm not sure if they will make it, but they are close to such a point, anyways.
>and there are a few online, though those are more fickle
>but that's it. Five. Sure, I know people, I speak to people, but they and I will split at some point, and it really won't be there again. Oh hey, I'll say. Good to see you, sure... but that's it.
>and I wouldn't say I'm alone.
>long story short, one of these bonds is a girl
>and for the most part, I can't stand girls
>its not that I try to be sexist outwardly
>its just that girls and I... well we don't have a lot in common.
>>674331120
Is your name Natalie?
>>674305612
I wish I could be better for her.
I wish I knew what to do with my life.
I just wish I had some answers to something.
>>674331597
Nope, sorry anon. kek, that's the first time that's happened to me in any of these threads..
>be me
>be 2008
>be girl (shh, no tits, not gtfo-ing)
>play AdventureQuest Worlds, as it is a new game at the time
>meet guy on it
>hes pretty cool
>get to know him
>find out he has family troubles, and money troubles
>not too weird, dont think much of it
>play together for atleast 5 months, getting into the same guild, us being the only ones in it
>find out he loves cowboy bebop, as do i
>talk about it
>find out he has some cancer, cant remember what kind
>because of money problems, ha cant get that good of treatment for it
>he starts playing less and less
>i offer to send money, but he denies
>he changes the guild message of the day (how we left notes for eachother when the other wasnt on)
>he includes date on it
>he hasnt been on since
>"see you, space cowboy 8-22-9"
>cry my fucking eyes out
>havnt left guild
>havnt invited anyone else
>havnt changed motd
>go on every day just to look at his name
>>674331358
same way bro. Mom always told me to just become friends with a girl or find a girl in your circle of friends and go from there. Problem is I've never had any friends that are girls. Me and girls just don't get each other. It hurts so much too because for some reason I have an innate urge to protect a girl and take care of her.
>>674332088
That last bit is probably the biological imperative anon.
worth the read
>>674331358
>They don't really like a whimsical bastard that spends his weekend crawling under cars
>and who goes into trances trying to figure out the reversing mechanism of a steam locomotive at a museum for hours
>but who can't sit down and watch television
>I straddle this line between being disassociated with things like people getting hurt, everything is mechanical in my world
>and lets face it... in many ways, this girl was more than the ideal companion for me.
>I wouldn't say she was the perfect girlfriend for anyone, not even me... but the concept of perfection is an odd one.
>Truth be told, she is just as disassociated, and maybe even more self loathing than I am
>and our first 'date' was at an Industrial surplus store.
>We kissed in between two forklifts that were for sale, though for the life of me I don't remember which ones.
>And she prefers classical, and I prefer electronic
>but at least in terms of getting along, things were great
>and maybe I should have just stayed her friend
>But we both liked each other, and we still both like each other.
>And that's the problem
>she is incapable of having sex with me
>These problems really started to manefest themselves after we got moved into an apartment together
>and things got worse, things got better
>There was a time she broke up and tried dating another guy to spite me, he was a friend of mine (a genuine one - i thought), and that REALLY backfired on the both of us
>Which is pretty funny now that that event is in the past and the other guy is being a total fag.
>But alas, we broke up, we made up, we broke up again
>We tried to patch things up in the past few months, and it was going alright
>But I got a job offer
>and I asked her if she wanted to come with me
>because I could support her while she looks for opportunities at least
>and she wasn't sure
>and so we talked about this...
>and she asked me, what a normal person would do
>>674332361
I know, I wish that could kill that part of me because it pains me so much. Whenever I start to like a girl, I don't think sex or anything like that. I think of getting married, taking care of her, buying her things. I hate this.
My dad abused me to the point where my mental state suffers to this day. But when I finally could leave I couldn't help but get revenge and now I feel fucking awful about it.
I'm a shitty person.
>>674332067
Kek_Kats on steam if you want to talk.
>>674332830
Same anon. Yeah, I'd like that too. Even if I'm aware that it's hardwired into me, it doesn't make me not want it.
>>674332730
>All I could think to tell her, was she either had the gut drive and love for me to do it, or she didn't
>and she told me, she no longer did.
>Its not a really exciting story, no...
>the sad thing is, I'm not entirely unsuccessful in the dating scene either
>I've had a few encounters
>but to be honest, I just can't find interest in most people
>sure they are nice and all, but I just can't speak to them the way I can with my friends...
>and it all comes out fake
>Sometimes I wonder if i'm a pathological liar, but I don't think so. I can't control it, really.
>Through a long period of my life, I trained myself to not let loose. bad things happened when I did.
>I'm not going to go into those bad things, but they were bad.
>so, the few people that I can really be open with, well they are really really special...
>and this girl, was (is?) the most special of them so far, I think.
>but the forces of nature just had to drive that wedge between us. I have a sex drive. She can't hack it. The more asinine part of me just chalks this up to prudishness, but it isn't true. She really doesn't have orgasms, or an enjoyment of any stimulation like that. I don't know what the cause is of it all, but she just hates every moment of it.
>So, I guess it just feels good to share.
>>674308436
I'd meat you in the ass
can't let this thread die
>>674326151
Unfortunately, you found a girl who hid her red flags from you. You did nothing wrong, she's just crazy. Move on as quick as you can.
>>674332088
That's a huge part of my issue. I don't mean to be so poetic about it, but I really don't think like other people do... well, about anything. Hell, I don't even think the same way. I don't really have normal human interests. My empathetic pains happen when I am in contact with machines and circuits, not people. I have feelings for people, deep ones, don't get me wrong, but they don't manifest themselves in the way that people seem to describe them...
Morality, Empathy, all that.
People don't really make much sense, honestly... and very few people understand why I become so unmotivated about a lot of things, and then so intensely motivated about others. The lot of them chalk my infatuation with cars as 'just a guy thing' or something like that...
They don't really see beyond the metal... and when I try to talk about the things I see...
Well, the things I see, sometimes the things I hear... or feel.
Yes, i do have hallucinations regularly...
Well, they think i'm a nut, a well meaning nut, but I think a lot of people just keep their distance too...
The worst is the fucking bitches that try and make themselves seem wierd on online dating profiles, then turn out to be incredibly boring, average ass people that don't like me. I hate them.
I have been seeing someone who I love, and they don't reciprocate on and off for a few years. I'd rather keep seeing him than be alone. I'm crazy about him.
Does anyone have the story of the guy who had a childhood relationship with a girl who eventually had to move away then they got back together after?
In the story they would meet up at a large tree and talk
plz anons
>>674335548
i remember that, let me look
>>674305612
I wish I didn't make them all kill themselves :( I feel bad about it now
>>674335548
>>674335811
That one was the first feel story I read, it gets me everytime
>>674335811
omg thank you anon
I've been looking for this for ever
>>674335811
Stories like this never happen to me. Why can't I live in a story where me and a girl fall in love? Why am I curse to live in reality and be hopelessly alone?
check em max
Can anyone lend me their steam account so I can just talk to the girl who blocked me and see why? What if it was a steam glitch and she is wondering why I'm not talking?
>>674311912
The guy in the first reply know's what he's talking about. In all honesty the best relationships arent easy. The best relationships take the willingness to put work into them from both parties.
You're through the honeymoon phase. Everyone goes through it. It all comes down to whether or not being with the person in your life currently makes you more happy than it does sad.
My father has been through 5 separate marriages in his life, each time taking a younger and more attractive bride. But when he was an alcoholic (currently recovering) and when he was at his drunkest, he would always mention in passing how his first wife of 10 years was, in retrospect, the truest love of his life.
Being the child of one of the later wives I dont feel bad that he moved on, but I know he does. Could be the same situation for you.
Again, it all comes down to how much happiness you are netting out of the relationship. If it ever becomes negative for a protracted period of time, you might want to consider choosing a different path.
don't leave me alone
>>674316631
This is the first time I find myself wishing this site had somekind of upvote system.
I dont know of that was copypasta or not, but it says a lot more than what is just in the words.
Thanks for this
>>674311077
Can't you let him go this time /b/ro
>>674332067
tits or gtfo bitch, you know the rules
>>674336212
if there's anything that calvin and hobbes has taught me, the universe is a pretty big place where kids can maybe find each other again...
>>674336520
lambloogie
sean7
you can play my games but dont steal me id
>>674338055
It doesn't work. Which one is pass and which one is user?
>>674321949
I just got out of rehab. Alcohol cost me my job, my friends. Almost lost the love of my life. Please anon go to AA
>>674338055
I figured it out, it says it sent you an access code at your email. what is it? Please bro, this is what I need.
Trying to expel all the harsh, negative thoughts I hold towards myself and those around me, but as I grow older I become a little more detached and isolated.
I can't decipher appropriate reactions for the life of me, and socialization has become a gangly, piercing mess.
Also infaruated with the image of some girl even though I've never held conversation with her, can't even maintain a relationship for that matter, basically let all my social connections dissolve.
All for now.
>>674338907
gotcha 1 sec
>>674337620
Kitchen sink bro?? Idk if this is you, that posted the video a couple months ago, but if so...I hope you're doing alright.
>>674339901
No, I just said that because the thread was about to prune and I didn't want to be left alone. What's the story of kitchen sink bro?
>>674305846
fucking hell I've never seen the third panel before and now I'm crying
>>674305612
I wish everything will be alright...
>>674338907
P2WMH
I intentionally destroy relationships with women because of a toxic ltr.
>fall in love after a long string of dates, one night stands and drama
>destroy relationship with a few well placed words
>cant let anyone close to me ever again
>want to die
>>674305612
i wish that i will become the greatest rapper of all time
>>674340739
Oh my god thank you bro, I will friend you on my real account.
>>674305612
I wish for the femanon who cares
>>674340991
nice! I'm rarely ever on anymore but that's appreciated
>>674305612
I wish I could remember.
>>674305612
I wish I will become the best mathematician & computer scientist the world has ever seen.
>>674304937
Fuck man....
>>674305612
I wish I could sever roots and slip through cracks.
>>674305823
HAHA ONLY IN EUCLIDEAN GEOMETRY YOU FUCKING FAGGOT.
EAT SHIT
>>674342292
I feel it will happen anon
>>674314916
>read first line
>Read eve as Evie
>Evie was my first love
>am cri now
>>674341495
once I told her who I am, she blocked me with saying anything. Fuck... I don't understand women man. She said she was falling for me too. We had common interests. What did I do? Why the fuck can't I ever win? Anyway, thanks man, I logged out with messing with any of your shit. Fuck.
Anger turned out to be a lack of control and afterwards life seemed to plummet me into a gnarly abyss.
Feels like I'm battling the hydra with zero footing, man.
Would seriously slay a man to cuddle with perfection at the moment.
>>674341495
wait man, she started playing hearthstone and blocked me, but she's come back online. I've already logged out and need a new access code. Check your email?
guys check this out
>>674339863
I'm drinking again. I finally have a job that does more than get me by. I finally make enough money to be comfortable. It doesn't matter. I am crippled by loneliness everyday. If anyone knew who i really was they'd disown me. They'd leave me more alone than I already am. My only friend is a parasite. When I was in college I was popular. I had tons of women. And now, for all that, I am alone. I will never be whole. The only thing I can do is retreat into the woods and look for solace that I can never find save for the bottom of a bottle. I skipped work today. I fear it's happening again. And this time I won't come back.
>>674332510
Not worth the read 2bh
>>674344895
FWFJB
sometimes people over the internet are a bit slippery... it could be cat fishing too
sometimes it's best to move on. take a 15 minute walk outside and look at trees. i was feeling lonely today but all that evaporated when i just took a simple sit outside. another time it took me 20 miles of walking to get through some heartbreak. best of luck bro.
>>674305612
i wish i wasnt tired all the time and i wish i had the motivation to get my life together so i wont flunk college and fuck up everything
>>674345620
Fuck, still blocked. I give up. I don't know what happened. Whatever, better move on. I hope I'll find someone someday. All I can do now is bawl.
>>674307159
edgy, m8
>>674346229
The worst part is she introduced me to a band called streetlight manifesto, and I really liked it. Now I don't know if I can enjoy that band without thinking of her.
>>674307323
>because someone suicidal has the motivation or means to do any of these
Why do I fall in love with every girl I have the slightest contact with?
>>674347373
Because you're a blackhole.
>>674348308
What do you mean by that?
>>674348482
Do you think you'd give anything in a relationship anon? You'd just suck up what she gives until she leaves you or you suck her dry.
>>674346614
My ex introduced me to several bands, or songs by bands that I already knew but hadn't heard. It'll be hard as fucking fuck to listen to them, sometimes I can only do it while drunk and there are still some songs I have yet to listen to since we broke up in January. If you feel too much pain from listening to them or you don't want to be blindsided when your music is on shuffle one day, either put them into a tucked away folder or permanently delete them. you can always get them back after you heal.
>>674347373
Because you're searching everywhere for the validation your mother should have given you, but didn't.
I've been though a tough time lately. I know some people have it worse but sometimes it gets hard. I'm in a minimum wage job, at a place similar to what I want to do But not really. I feel like I'm not going anywhere. I can't leave or do something because I'm broke. Shit is getting real and I am hating it.
>>674318086
zach?
Should I get in contact with her anons? I only ever had a crush on her and it might have went places if she hadn't had moved away due to her parents splitting. She was also my best friend so even if it never goes anywhere it might make my life less shit.
Its just its been so long since I've really interacted with normies I dont know if I could do it now.
>>674305612
I wish that I could get my act together.
So that whenever I see my parents they don't look at me with disappointment
What's worse is that the only reason they're disappointed in me is because I've done nothing to make them proud
Been feeling really really guilty lately.
>be me a few years ago
>started dating girl named laura
>started dating laura because she likes and she's depressed so idk i felt like it'd be the right thing to do to date her for a while to make her happy
>2 months later
>laura is the most negative person i've ever met
>constantly berates herself
>makes me feel terrible for never being able to help her...
>unable to handle the guilt of wanting to break up with her
>meet another girl named elizabeth
>kindest, most loving girl i've ever met in my life
>admit i like her, without breaking up with laura first
>started going on dates with elizabeth, she has no idea im dating laura
>already start to feel like shit for what im doing but i dont want to lose elizabeth.
>2 months later, i break up with laura
>break up with her in person in private
>the next day, she cries at work and begs me to take her back
>i feel like a total piece of shit
>still dating elizabeth to this day, she has no idea about laura. (2 years later)
>the guilt is fucking killing me
what do i do? i don't want to lose elizabeth...
>>674350409
Part of me wants to say do it, because if you don't you'll forever wonder. Part of me wants to say don't fucking dare, because I don't want you getting your heart wrecked by some bitch. Do what you think you should. Just don't give all of you to anyone. Ever.
>>674351720
Laura is gone you faggot, you already walked out on her two years ago, unless you can go back in time there isnt anything you can do other than put on your big boy britches and get the fuck over it
>>674351720
You fucked up, but damn if that doesn't sound familiar. My advice? Don't say shit. Yeah you'll feel guilty, and you should, but you will remember the guilt as heaven if you really love Elizabeth and she leaves you if you tell her about Laura.
>>674305612
I wish things could have been different. Maybe if I had done somethings different in my past I could have ended up in a better place than where I am. I don't like it here. Things used to be so simple I want to go back...but I can't.
>>674305612
I wish it would get better.
>>674339228
Readable version?
>>674353151
>>674347329
Having had depression, it's a bit like being stuck in the middle of a vast ocean. All you can see for miles around is water. You're using all your will, all your dwindling strength just to stay afloat. You can't swim anywhere else, you're stuck, and one day you know you won't have the power to stop yourself going under.
Then you see it. It could be small, it could be uncomprehendingly profound, but you see it. A quote, in a situation like this, can mean many things to people, it could be a simple life jacket, helping them to stay afloat. It could be a fuck off yacht, ready to take them back to dry land.
Never disparage the power of words. They are man's greatest invention, so cherish them, revel in them, never use them in haste or anger. One day something you say might just change someone's life.
>>674306315
Tell girlfriend that you feel like the spark that you two had is going out, and that you wanna take a break before it goes away forever. Say you still wanna talk and be friends and hang out because she's the best thing that ever happened to you or something like that. Date new girl, stay in regular contact with old girl. If you end it with new girl and you catch feelings for old girl again, say that you're falling for her all over again and that you wanna give it another shot. This whole thing will probably hurt her in the beginning, but knowing that you dont hate her will help
>>674305612
i wish i took more care of myself, i wish my dad would stop being so mean, i wish my mom loved me, i wish i didnt have cancer, and i wish to be someone else.
>>674305612
I wish i could love her as much as she deserves.
>>674307323
God thats stupid, most people who kill themself see no reason for living wether you're living a cool james bond life or not. Such a simplistic normie view.
>>674322647
She's a bro..
>>674308742
fuck you and fuck that i was a rock for a while help yourself and stop relying on others
>>674332067
JUST FUCKING LEAVE YOU DONT BELONG HERE, WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE US ALONE IN PEACE YOU FUCKING SUCCUBUS CUNT DO YOU NEED TO FUCKING RUIN EVERYTHING FOR US JUST STOP IT PLEASE JUST STOP WHY DO YOU NEED TO FUCKING RUIN EVERYTHING REEEEEE GTFO
>>674311878
saved, thankyou anon
Well /b/ I'll tell you my story...
>18 yo me, still a virgin and never had a gf
>Bored and on fb, see this girl just liked a song I posted, talk to her
>Use the lamest excuse to talk to her, she seems funny and responds to my lame excuse
>We end up talking everyday for 7 months, met irl at around month 6
>Spend afternoon together and night gets rainy, too far from home to take my car so we end up running to her place
>We get all wet and stay at her place until her dad arrives and gives me a ride (she frantically asked me to stay until dad arrived so I didn't get more wet)
>I realize I developed feelings for her
>At around month 7 she tells me she does have feelings for me too
>HellYes.jgp
>Start going out more, ask her to be my gf
>I do love her sweet body and her qt face, but what attracts me the most is her personality and how she treats me, man I'm crazy for this chick.
>3 months in, I'm the happiest fucker alive, everything is going sweet, sex included
>November comes and she tells me she really loves me, happiest fucker alive
>End of November, she starts acting weird
>See her chatting a lot with new guy
>It's ok, I'm not the jealous guy, I trust her
>She asks me for some time, we end up "breaking" for a week, crappiest time of my life
>See him posting on her fb wall
>Got together again, tells me she did it cause confused
>Feel like shit
>Fast forward 1 month, we are working on re building this relationship
>That faggot adds me on fb, tells me all about this situation and how he didn't knew she was with me
>Both meet up with her, she tells him to fuck off, starts crying for me in front of both of us
>Anon, I never realized that I was betraying the best guy I've ever met, the only person that has showed me true love and I fucking blew it
>Decide to keep going, she is now loyal to me
Cont?
>>674330113
my heart broke again reading that
>>674351766
>dont even have to message her first
>add her and get a "I missed you!!"
My heart pls
>>674356005
Keep going
Just posted this in another thread, got me thinking how fucked up i am.
>4thish grade, very sad all the time(not gonna pull a tumblr and self diagnose depression) and tried to hang myself. No idea how the fuck my middle class 4th grade lide was so bad that i tried suicide.
>later, proboly middle schoolish i was a faggot who wanted attention, so i shined a light jnto my eye every night hoping i would go blind. Eye is a bit fucked up now, it sees in a oarngeish tint.
>used to have a pet lizard, would essentially torture some of the crickets and mealworms that i had for his food.
>all through high school had a phase where i contemplated being a serial killer(2edgy5me)
I dont want to be fucked up like this, i have shit i want to do in life, not be a sociopathic edgy faggot.
If anyone wants to talk about anything.
Skype: pipnetskype
>>674356877
sure you maybe on /b, one of the most fucked up places on the web. I may not know where the fuck you are, but you sound like you have good intentions to bring to the world. Sure, you maybe fucked up. We all are. Reason why we are here. But you're on this thread for a reason.
Keep the mentality that you want to bring good into the world, and that's exactly what you'll do
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2_TSMmwGylU&list=LLA_8HGeB_FA6FVT9nTZbPJw&index=1
"Hold it down boy, your head's getting blurred
I know you cant stop thinking of her
By all means you can vibe with this girl
But just don't mug yourself, thats all don't mug yourself. "
>>674356877
I'm the happy guy that's always joking around.
But sometimes, when I'm alone mostly, I think about killing myself, make plans to kill people without getting arrested and desiring to inflict pain to my beloved ones.
It really turns me on but not in a sexual way, it's pure emotion. I also like to feel pain.
But I try really hard to contain myself and smile, think about nice things and help others.
I feel like a monster in disguise. I don't want to be like this neither.
I got hit hard, I'm on the ground
And if you swing again I'll duck
But I wish you the best of luck
You deserve yourself
And I'll return from my trip to hell
As a headless horseman
Cause, oh what a loss
I went back to get my stuff
And it was tangled up and tough
I stood there and stared you down
And I walked aimlessly around
With a flaming pumpkin head
Oh what a loss
My soft hands replaced by claws
You turned me into a stray dog, from mighty human man
Oh what a loss
Oh what a loss
I miss my closest friend
And now I cling to rocks and wind
It's a precious thing we lost
>>674357797
Yeah, kinda the same here. Im not reallly interested in friends, i just dont really give a fuck about people. I just fuck around and make stupid jokes around people enough so that i can call them friends. Honestly, im mostly just doing it so that my family dosent think im a loner depressing faggot.
Contributing
The thread has slowed down quite a lot.
>>674356005
relationship
Btw, I forgot to mention this:
>She had what I would call a parallel relationship with him, he asked her to be his gf like 10 times and she always said no, but didn't tell him to fuck off
>They met twice, they kissed on both times, second time he tried to grab a boob, she told him to fuck off and left the place but still kept talking with him.
Well, cont here:
>She is loyal to me now
>Feel like shit, never been this low on life before, but I really love this girl and want to try again
>I study at city 1 hour away from homecity, she stays there
>I do mean it when I say she's loyal to me now, she refuses all the guys asking her out (I saw her fb messages once without her noticing)
>Studying and feeling like shit, 9/10 qt I met starts showing me she has feeling for me
>Thought in my head pops: "If I cheat on my gf maybe I will stop feeling like shit"
>Decide to go out with 9/10 qt, she cooks for me, she takes me to all kind of places I've never seen
>She knows about me and gf and how she cheated, we're both drunk at my place and she tells me: Anon, if there's something I can do for you, just tell me
>This grill wants my dick and makes me diamonds, drop her at her house
>Next day I'm at her place, I'm sleeping at her bed while she's cooking, suddenly she lays next to me, hugs me and takes my hand and puts it over her boob
>Ironically, all I'm thinking of is my gf, decide I can't really do this, I'd hurt them both, leave qt's house and never really talk to her again, hoping she finds someone that can give her a better and complete relationship
>Gf eventually finds out about this, explain it to her
>We get in fights over 1 year until we fought for the last time yesterday, she tells me this: "Anon, I'm really sorry for having turned your life into this shit you're living because of me, what I feel the worst of is that after all the shit I did, you never did the same to me, I don't really deserve you"
Cont...
>>674353439
Holy shit
>>674305612
I wish my heart wasn't disintegrated, I wish he could have relationships, I wish I could have relationships, I wish my eating disorder would fuck off and not come back, I wish my scars were go s, I wish I had a purpose, I wish I was whole, I wish that I had enough guts to speak up and get a therapist
>>674305612
I wish I never existed.
>be 30 years old
>well off ($80k/year)
>have gf who adores me
>empty inside
>push my friends away
>ignore my family
>want to die lots of the time
>>674305612
I wish she was with me instead of him. I wish I could stop resenting her. I wish and can talk to her normally again
Once again, if anyone wants to talk about anything at all.
Not even just sad shit, just talking back and forth.
Skype: pipnetskype
>>674358987
Cont:
> "And I try my best to try to fix you, but I always end up blowing it up"
> We both cry and wipe tears off each other's face
> MFW I can't really leave this girl, even after the shit she did
> I still feel like shit for all she did, I tried leaving her before, but everytime I try I really can't
> The only thing that makes me feel good after this shit is spending my days with her, I can't really be genuinely happy any other time
> She has really improved as a person and as a gf, she now has goals in life, wants to really make me happy
> MFW (even if it sounds like a cliché romantic movie thing) I can't leave the person that made me feel like shit (and the memory of it is what makes me feel like shit) because she's the only one that's able to take away my pain, not even doing my favourite stuff works anymore
And, that's my lame story /b/ I'm trapped in a vicious vortex of crappiness, I always wish that someone hits my head so I forget the shit she did so we can be together, I really hope a new day comes with forgiveness of me to her.
I'm even thinking of having the balls to really leave her, I can't really give her the relationship this new person she has become deserves, I'm fucked up and I'm bringing her down with me, even when she brought me down first.
>>674305612
i wish to finally get hired
My roots are strong and deep
I'm swaying in your breeze
My limbs stretch out to meet you
You've got me on my knees
I stand tall
My feet are on the ground
But compared to you I'm small
The things you need you just surround
You rocked around the earth
You circle it with air
You're trapped inside the core
With hot lava hair
I wish you could sprout
But you can't stick your neck out
I want you climbing on my limbs
But I'm just stumped by your whims
Some dank motivational and feels papes
>>674360800
>I can't really give her the relationship this new person she has become deserves,
this is bullshit circular reasoning, you stayed with her when she was shit
Look at this guys.
A thread all to ourselves. Whadda ya wanna do?
>>674361435
Looks like it's just me and you man.
>>674305612
I wish there was a cure for this disease and if not, that I'll die very soon.
>>674361560
That is fine
Maybe people on this board is feeling fairly happy today, which is a good thing
>>674305612
I wish I could be happy with what makes her happy.
>>674338631
Got me
>>674361904
What kind of illness that you have man?
>>674361922
I like that pape. Looks like three more have joined.
Welcome to the Lonely Hearts Club friends. If you have any questions about our hierarchy, shove em up your ass cause we're running this bitch off of anarchy.
>>674361904
>>674362042
>>674362183
>>674361316
Can you explain it? Trying to see things out of the box.
>>674305612
I wish I could make true friends.
I wish I could be happy again
I wish I could find someone that truly loves me
I wish I could find someone that sees through the aesthetics to the true me.
I wish I wasn't so alone
>>674362042
>>674362284
Im just here for a bit. Im sick and i have to wake up in maybe 4 hours. Im a little dumbed down from meds but if anybody wants advice or maybe just to talk, I'll be here a while longer.
>>674305612
I wish I die without suffering. That would take the relief out of it.
>>674305612
I wish I never knew what it was like to feel things anon, that way, at least I wouldn't be able to have a reaction to all the shitty things in my life.
>>674305612
I wish I could find someone that will care for me the way I've cared for girls in my past. The last girl I was in a relationship with left my life as if I was valueless. Broke me to fuckin bits. I put so much effort, and time into what I thought was going well, then one day she tells me that she doesn't feel anything for me anymore. Fuck. I miss her.
>>674362769
Nigga u stealin my job
tryna fight?
>>674362224 the diabetes shit
>>674362991
Nah just bored and too depressed honestly.
>>674338504
Fuck anon u got me tearing up
>>674305612
I wish for unlimited wishes. HAHA FUCK YOU, BEAT YOU FAGGOTS, THEGAMETHEGAMETHEGAME
>>674305612
I wish for her.
>>674363336
You never win. Not until you realize how pointless wanting is.
>>674363210
I was just kiddin man. You wanna talk about why you're sad?
That's sort of what I'm around here for.
Here's my skype if you want to chat privately: pipnetskype
>>674362769
i fucking digg those joints man. good shit my man.
>>674305612
i wish humans learn to love each other
>>674363025
Must be going through painful treatment or something like that?
>>674363210
Good shit m8
>>674363336
But you can only wish
bumping thread. i know there's more of you guys out there
>>674363591
>>674363612
small world, friend. small world
>>674362662
you stayed with her when she was shitty, you should not feel guilty about staying with her when you are shitty. It is just reciprocation.
Also, it is her responsibility to decide whether you are "good enough", not yours. Never conclude you are not "good enough".
>>674305612
I wish she would finally go out with me
>>674363591
Not exactly, just ignored it completely for the past 3 years and now I am fucked
>>674311878
Some anons are actually pretty chill. Sometimes there are Omegle threads and I just beat the shit with another anon fag. Talking about dumb shit in life and whatever.
>>674363888
Trips get
>>674363748
Me too anon,me too...
>>674363496
I dont care really. Nobody will know who I am except maybe one guy. Anyways. Im just at a confusing place in my love. I tell this girl I love her day and night 3 months after we break up. And the day she tells me she been thinking about going back to her ex, I break down in front of her and put everything ive ever felt into words. After maybe 4 more days of this, she says that she loves me and nothing will change that, but she doesnt know whats best for her right now. So she kissed me and drew in my sketchpad while i slept in her bed. And recently shes felt distant but shes assured me nothing has happened between them although hes pressured (she lives with him and his mom). And i feel like i should go down there in person. (He said hed kill me if he saw me again.) And my heart burns with the desire to tell him everything weve done behind his back. (Fuxked on his bed, ive stayed there multiple times without him knowing, snuck into his car while he slept). So yeah. How about you?
>>674363518
>>674363591
>>674363612
Theyre ok they burn the fuck out of my throat though. I have to stay sober until my job interviews are over.
>>674363721
Small world indeed
>>674363776
Three fucking years man, that doesn't sounds so good. So, how bad is it now?
>>674364105
Sorry about the long post i almost hit word cap.
>>674364324
No idea, got an appointment tomorrow so I guess I'll find out
Hell I'll try to write a short story.
>be me at (I want to say 15)
>virgin but idgaf
>in air cadets because dad use to be in it and told me I should join
>fuckit.png
>basically all dudes, don't really care too much cuz I met some really cool ppl there
>anyhore, this year we got 2 females who were bffs before they joined cadets (I'll call one Becca and the other Tegan)
>so they were both 13 and I soon find out that Becca's fam and mine are close and I had played against her older brother in hockey (Canada, fucking eh) before
>I was part of the biathlon team for cadets and decided to encourage both of the girls to join the team
>mfw Teagan joins the team and only one spot for females on the team
>w/e had a great time but constantly thinking about Becca
> it's obvious that I am interested in her by now
> decide that I shouldn't bring it up for 2 reasons; one because cadets would kill us if they found out (some stupid rule about dating in the program) and the second being my anxiety teenage mind thinking that I'm not good enough
> fast forward a yearish
> admit my feelings toward Becca
> tells me that she feels the same way
> fuck yah
> can't spend too much time together because our schedules don't match up too well but still get to see each other at cadets
> we are not "official" which really crushes me because I am really scared that she has other interests than me
> reassures me that she only likes me
> not really buying it but ok
> a few months later she is interested in a different guy (one of my friends at the time but not directly in my friend group)
> she dates him in a heartbeat and that really crushed my ego
I should state that I honestly felt that I loved her and it was horrible, as most of you know, that it wasn't mutual.
> so they end up getting to a rough patch and are both talking to me about it because he has no idea that I love her so they are both talking to me about their issues and I'm holding them together
>>674364401
Wish you all the best man
And remember, you're gonna live through it
>>674342837
Fuck, you beat me to it.
>>674364695
I think everyone died m8.
>>674312746
Ahhh... fuck... my heart just dropped.
>>674364105
I don't talk about my own problems really.
I just let people talk about their own to me. Doesn't seem like anyone wants to tonight though which is fucking me up a bit.
>>674364907
Yeah i feel you. i just play my emotions off usually, but tonight im feeling em crash in on me again.
>>674365127
I fucking ran out of Headless Horseman pictures.
What the fuck am I now, a faggot?
Anyways, whatcha doin besides feeling like dog doodoo
