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Feels thread
>>673965807
Holy fuck
I this hit HARD
real hard
Well, that was all.
Feels.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDGuNWu9WSo
My grandma is going to die soon.
>>673965893
almost forgot to breath when i read "murdered".
gosh and i thought i had it hard.
>>673966659
this is partly my life; however, i never got a girl...
but with all honesty and appreciation, thank you anons for everything, the good and the bad.
>>673967330
Anybody knows anymore about this story? I live right next to Ottawa. Could bring some flowers to a /b/rother.
>>673967146
jesus i hope he didnt kill women fir the rest of his life - theodor bundy
>>673967910
My grandma died in december. Hope you'll get the chance to say good bye, I didn't take mine.
damn it, these threads always hit me hard on the feels, keep them comming
Anybody got time to talk? Kinda down and wouldn't mind the company
>>673971452
Sure anon
>mfw you force yourselves to feel bad
>>673971452
hey I'm listening
>>673965426
>Realizing people go on adventures and you spend all your time on 4chan
>>673966490 the feels
>>673971628
Sometimes it's better to feel bad than nothing at all
>>673971559
Thanks, you know the more I go in life the more I realize I'm my own worst enemy. does this happen to you?
>>673966659
You know someone dun fucked up when a significant portion of the world would laugh as it burned.
>>673971908
wtf /b/ being supportive?
>>673971997
why do you feel this way?
i feel like everyone around me is the enemy
>>673972192
nah we're just the especially fucked up and broken, but it would still be a little funny to see it all burn
>>673971997
You're not alone. I have a shit but decent paying job, she left me for some guy she was fucking behind my back for a year, no talent in anything, no education, no friends. And the person I hate most of all is myself.
>>673971997
Absolutely I don't think anyone puts me down as much as myself
>>673967330
i live in Montreal i was literary pulling my hair as i read this
RIP David Higgs.
Any body know the grave yard location...
people dying never hit me hard
my grandpa died in 2013
my grandparents on my dads side arent doing so well
my grandma on my moms side is depressed. they where married for so long
my dad is a piece of shit
my mom isnt doing that well either
and its hard to be honest
my parents seperated in 2013-2014,
the roughest years of my life for my age,
im not one of those kids who just tell any and everyone their feelings. ive seen a shrink and it didnt do shit, i used to pop pills and drink till i couldnt see but it didnt help me. but some of these threads did
they let me know that im not the only one thats going through something, it gives me some hope ill make it through these years, but maybe i wont. well just have to see
but thank you for these threads /b/
they do help me and so many others.
this could very well be my last post so if it is. i love you all and good night
>>673972369
Well the more I think the more I realize it's my own actions causing my friends and family to react how they are doing. I feel in love with a girl of the wrong skin color and my dad flipped and stole my car. I gave my drinking buddy her number months ago and now they are going out right now while I'm eating a pie alone. I just don't know what I'm doing wrong.
>>673973134
>2016
>not using 9gag meme arrows
>>673968748
Shit dude that was "HEAVY"
>>673972724
It's not even self hate it's just a mind fuck that I keep ruining good things.
>>673973134
hate to have to ask, but Dan, is that you? If not holy fucking shit I'm in almost the exact same boat
>>673971628
It helps me realize my life isnt nearly as bad as other people have it, and it helps me feel better about my own life.
>>673973559
Sub consciously sabotaging yourself as punishment for something you think did? "I don't really deserve to be happy" This might seem unrelated but, do you have difficulty climaxing during masturbation/intercourse? And how is your sex drive?
>>673972651
I believe that everyone is talented at something, but not everyone is lucky enough to know at what. You just need to find out something you would really love but dont know yet. Need to try new things.
For example, have you ever played an instrument before?
>>673973578
hah no im not dan
just another anon.
i can talk for a little bit its just another on of these nights i guess. i have some pills next to me i make this decision every night, decide if i should wake up or not
>>673973988
I did play, but i never got beyond average and I lost interest. I just don't know what I want to do in life and it's starting to feel like i don't really want to do anything.
>>673973973
Not bad at all, I love sex and every second is just pure bliss. Only time I had trouble climaxing was with my first real sexual partner.
>>673973559
I know that feel very well.
>>673974173
seriously though man the dates line up, this is a bit awkward lmao. either way, if we are in the same boat, it can only get better, and even though every single thing that happens feels like the world is just torturing you (for me atleast) fuck that shit. live just to scorn em
>>673974524
ya man it sucks, i blame it on my shit love life. I get clingy and then I overthink things
>>673974763
hay yeah man. ive been told it gets better never really believed it, ive been a pretty shitty teen for a while. i try not to let my problems become others problems. im just sad as fuck all day and i can undersatand why. i just feel dumb and i dont wanna be helpless. not another name on a suicide note. not another name on a grae. not a memorial in the street, just anything, i just want some one to care for me and mean it, not say they love me when therre just being polite.
>>673973133
That image kills me fam
>>673971628
i was about to fap but read a few of those and just turned off all the porn tabs
>>673965426
nigga these threds are shit
>>673974927
I feel you I've emotionally ruined my first love but even after we've broken and she fucked her best friend multiple times we're back together still and she still hangs out with him on occasion
>>673965612
ugly as fuck
>>673975285
True, I put up a pretty good act and take care of everyone around me. But I need someone to care for me and it kills me when people just take advantage of my kindness instead
>>673965677
depressing shit right here
>>673975568
I'm young though and I think I'll be given Atleast one more chance. It is just heavy that I could have had it earlier.
>>673975285
it hurts how much I get this, being alone just fucking hurts sometimes and I don't want to disappear, and I can't continue like this. They all say that there is someone out there for everyone, but I've yet to find anyone who I could look in the face and say that I trusted them.
>>673975627
i understand . you can call me dj if you want i come on these threads around this time anyway,
i just put a nice act during the day but the night is just the worst and the best. its blissful becasue everyones asleep and i can just listen to music and chill out. i stopped doing drugs and drinking lately but its so easy to do it. i hate my self for that, i just want someone to say hi to me then not ask me for something the next day. just someone who loves me for who i am and not for what i have, and its not even love its just barely anyone even cares about me. and i thought it was my fault but its not, i keep to myself and maybe thats the problem. but in the end its not the pills or bullets thatll kill me
its loneliness
and thats my sad truth
>>673967330
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZOVkYAxHvkk
>>673975976
Listen a lot of people say you'll know love when you find it
Fuck that
Live your life while you're still in your prime no one is ever really ready for these kinds of emotions imo
>>673967668
>>673975319
david higgs story had me in shock.
jesus christ somebody give me this mans tomb stone location, i must visit him.
P.S: it is believed that he changed his name to protect the girl he loved, he still fucking loved
>>673975568
>her best friend
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWcyIpul8OE
this song is too much
I was playing gta and this fucking faggot recorded me without my permission and uploaded it and its been making me so mad...
>>673976416
jesus im fucking tearing up what is this from.
>>673976873
tv show old one
>>673976965
got the name for it or any thing that can help me locate it.
>>673976717
cuck joke, clever
>>673973134
good night, Anon
>>673976410
I'm an old soul man, raised by my Russian mother and grandmother I just grew up quickly. While most people go to party's and clubs I ended up being a regular at a bar and having my picture above the register. I'm a full time student plus I work 45 hours a week. I just wish I could find a woman to come home to and would let me kiss her on the neck then fall asleep in my arms. But they all just need dick ALL the time.
>>673977066
lol for what? its extinct
>>673965426
>sexually abused as a kid
>depression from a young age
>attempted suicide twice
>no friends
>engaged...she cheated...got herp
>no one will touch me
>alone in an empty apartment
>I'm ready to go
>>673976853
Can you guys help me??
>>673976853
dont worry about it anon, i used to be like you... kids in my class used to take pictures of me and laugh but i noticed that "nothing else matters"... its just phase... when you will be in your 20's you will notice how dumb it was...
>>673977293
i wanna know the back story... simply curiousty
>>673977316
https://youtu.be/zIYA1adasKA
But how could he record my voice without my permission??? Its not fiat!!
Get ready to hear the life of a complete pathetic loser:
>I was born in Mexico (unaware that 1 it was a scummy place and 2 I was obviously not planned-like a lot of people)
>I don't remember much other than everyone loved me and I was extremely happy
>Played vidya every morning on the weekends
>Nostalgic Nintendo 64 and PS era
>Parents fought and apparently my mom thought coming illegaly to the US was a great idea(while she was pregnant, and I was 7...)
>Loved mom and still do, she was just very uneducated and irrational which led to a toxic personality
>Crossed the border as a 7 year old child pretending this was a video game mission
>Passed out and literally saw skeletons and shit
>Thought it was cool because "child mentality"
>Left childhood friends who were as I remember the most loyal friends I could have had, they would have been those friends that you could have hung out for days and came back home like it was all cool
>Moved to LA in the shittiest conditions, which I didn't either mind or seem to remember as bad, ppl must have felt bad for me because in school everyone was extremely nice and i got lucky and it had more nicer white people.
>Didn't have friends like back then
>Never even knew about the gangs and whatnot, moved a couple times
>Fast forward to Florida where the diversity makes me vomit, because hispanics, blacks and cubans are all fucking uneducated, loud, rude and fucking degenerates
>Middle school time- learned to cuss like a motherfucker, still had good manners and was shy and polite
>fewer friends, never bullied because when I got picked on I had developed this angry personality, so people like picking on easy targets and I wasn't one
>High School was a new experience and I gaine my number 1 worst attribute: Anxiety
> Could not make many friends and never had a girlfriend
>forgot to mention I had so many chances with girls when I was younger as in 10-15 but was fucking clueless
> started watching porn when a virus
Shit no more space cont?
>>673977467
kids an orphan parents ded. it was a religious show i believe
>>673976292
Here's to you David Higgs
>>673976291
Well dj I'm Nikita. Ya the Loneliness kills, haha but people just don't understand in college. I live for the spring breaks where my old friends are in town and I get to have day long lunches with them catching up.
>>673977273
i was laughed at when i told people i didnt want to fuck her i just wanted her to love me and i to love her...
what has become of love other than sex...
i feel you anon, my cousins used to tell me stop acting like a 40 year old man when i was 13...
>>673977273
Lol I like you anon keep up on fighting I'm sure you'll find her some day
>>673977310
wait anon, tel me more about you... like where are you from ? how old are you ?
talk to me anon
>>673977494
My mom would kill me if she heard me talking like that :(
>>673976291
Shit I now this feel
>>673977494
anon how old are you ?
>>673977989
Old enough to plow your mom!!
>>673977670
college is a funny world aint it, you can either meet the love of your life or the bain of your existince. i just want one thing for when i go to college. just be happy
i just want to be happy
happy about dumbshit
happy about a girl
happy about a person who loves me back
i wish i could hold a relationship but id just hurt them more than i have, i just cant deal with this all. or should i say want to deal with it,., im not trying to be a whiny cunt but someitmes i just need to vent and this is the only place ive felt welcome to in a long time
>>673977823
male/29/cincinnati
>>673977498
might as well finish
>>673977498
please do ...
>>673977989
You'll just get me banned when I need help
>>673977690
Haha of course I'll keep fighting, I actually enjoy life and the trouble. thanks man
>>673978484
can you not troll here, this is really not the time
>>673978120
honestly you are lurking in the wrong thread ano... you dont deserve to be called anon
>>673977678
Ya, its a real weird world. Just need to survive a few more years, then a couple more after that. Then we can decide if it was all worth it.
>>673978551
Night anon I have calc early as fuck tomorrow so maybe I'll catch you in another feels thread
>>673978175
its alright anon i think we get you.
>>673978874
Please help me take it down!!! Its so embarrassing!!!!!!! I hate people making fun of meeeee
>>673978209
ok anon are educated, if you dropped out then when did you ?
>>673979163
it took awhile, but i graduated from uni. have a decent job. make decent money.
>>673978874
harsh shit when you can't even be anon anymore man
>>673978175
We all need a place to vent. I'm actually feeling much better now, idk if it's the pie or you guys. Imma say a combo
>>673978948
try to make the best out of it, i go to clubs and dance to music, i have released most of my energy into education...
"simply" find a goal, and follow it.
>>673978952
See ya man
>>673975589
Dude...
>>673979364
MORE PEOPLE PICKING ON ME!!!!! I JUST EANT THE VIDEO TO GO AWAY I SOUND SO STULID AND I HATE MY VOICE PLESS BE I NEED YOU
>>673979487
thats a great strategy I do that a lot and always end up improving.
>>673977823
It's people like you that really restore my faith in this board. I love you guys
>>673979296
whats your diploma in.
are you paranoid by any chance [i ask that because thats my problem...] as in dont trust people easily bcs of past issues
>>673979646
ok b8 is b8 went a bit overboard on that one faggot
>>673975192
God damn dog stories get me every time. ;-;
>>673979740
political science.
and extremely.
>>673979646
you are still young and your voice is going to change drastically after puberty so your good and safe.
please kid i urge you to leave... check out /adv/ they normally help with stuff like that hacking and stuff...
Cont
>watch porn and become an addict to it all because I was using the internet for the first time and download a virus which redirected me to tons of pornography
>Fuck
Here is where it gets rocky
>I am a high school faggot and barely have friends- its senior year and I finally meet this girl who I could hit it out with
>9/10 and is into interesting nerdy
guys
>Not nerdy but I was sort of funny
> social anxiety heightens
>Not right now bro plz come back another time
>Anxiety doubles
> of course it does- I do shitty in every aspects of academics because Ive skipped so many classes because my anxiety would literally not let me focus as I was so fucking focused on how everybody might think im weird
>Anxiety makes me autistic and anti social and once I've graduated I wanted to become a resident go to college and pay back my dues to this country and then maybe leave.
>Find out im literally I could have entered the Dream Act if I was born 2 months early
> cant get job un illegally
> worked in construction and wanted to die everyday for 2 months
> quit, I really wanted to know if I should go back to Mexico, specially with all the hate against immigrants which I truly understood.
> Nobody likes me in the US and I am a foreigner in Mexico
> I dont belong anywhere
> the only thing keeping me going is my little brother who I had to take care of as my step dad and his dad was an alcoholic
> Literally just want to see him succeed and tell him to not do the things i did
> find out my dog i had as a kid died in a horrible accident where a feral dog killed him
> Find mother dead because she overworked her hearth
> Find out most of my grandparents died years ago amd nobody bother to tell me
> Only reason Im even here is little brother only reason because im probably not gonna have kid
> Want to join military so I can die in combat- have to be a citizen
> its ok its ok my little brother has to succeed
> I cant even type this shit anymore man, you guys know what is coming up next
>>673980002
Really???? I thought it was B that did that??
>>673979647
always keep your head up and remember that sometimes though we anons might be introverted, but then again there are always femanons who are introverted so sometimes you have to make a move...
>>673979704
honestly you are my only true friends, the ones i trust with my excessive amount of mental paranoia.
i don't wanna lose you like we lost David Higgs.
A little late to this thread but I want to get this off my chest.
>be me middle school seventh grade
>little shit trying to be popular
>kid in my first hour class, lets call him Muffin
>we dont talk much
>didnt know him otherwise
>slowly start having more conversations with Muffin
>thisguysalright.jpg
>we talk and laugh in school but I barely know the kid outside of school
>get to school one morning
>weird vibes in the air and murmurs in the halls
>find out from friends of friends that Muffin died in his sleep
>his mom tried waking him up and found him dead
>natural causes I think he choked or something
>Muffin did nothing but make people laugh
>took me a while to realize he wouldn't be at school any more
>took me up until just now to realize that was about the time death meant anything to me
Night /b/
>>673979896
out of curiosity what do you work as, i didnt ask you for the company name so not to cross my barriers.
well guys
its that night
20 pills
maybe itll kill me
then again
it didnt work last time
so you know what they say
3rd times the charm
ive loved you all so much
and maybe ill make some impact on you
but i easily couldnt
this is me signing off
-
-
-what ever people call me
i love this community alot and i guess ive made my decision
but i just have one more thing to say before i go
love someone
or say it
itll mean the world
id know
ive never felt it but i know it helps
so just have fun guys, dont stress about dumbshit.
just love you and everyone around you
and if you read this jade
i love you
im not worthy of you
but if you do read this
find someone who loves you
and if they break your heart ill wait for you
like i always did
>>673980632
mid level business analyst... why do you ask?
>>673980079
Sorry for the shitty grammar guys, I am writing this in a rush on my phone, but I really don't want to continue, oh and.... See ya guys in another life
I've seen things you people wouldn't believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhäuser Gate. All those moments will be lost in time, like tears...in...rain. Time to die.
>>673976680
Jesus man, the feels. It reminds me of a song I play when I'm feeling a bit suicidal. I drive the road in pic related in the rain at very high speeds. I push the limit of my car and my skills as a driver, and for just a moment everything fades away.
https://youtu.be/F3KOnv9MVNY
>>673980688
check em, anon. god speed. im not too far behind you.
>>673980688
cant post suicide note with dubs, its against the rules. Take your own advice, you've clearly loved and theres always a second chance no matter how fucked everything gets. ALWAYS.
>>673980079
plz anon tell us everything and we will do our best to help... dont worry there is always more to life...
we are here for you...
>>673980249
no /b/ died after #OP_Chanology...
lurk on /adv/ its literally advice threads, so people can help you report a video or even maybe hack into the youtubers account...
I just want her back lads. But she doesn't want me anymore. After 4 years I was so easily replaced. And It hurts.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3VjaCy5gck
Does anyone have the story of Lenny, Ali and Zena? the kids who scaped from the orphanage. Yesterday I was reading it when the thread 404'd. I didn't get to read part 4.
>>673980437
don't. that is not home anon... this is your home, we are here for you.
>>673981294
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_PpSizZhoMY
>>673980511
elaborate on your last statement anon ?
>>673966011
I just want to know what happened to him.
>>673981781
he lost everything
his family wenjt broke it seems
I'm feeling pretty down, if anyone wants to chat it'd be cool to get my mind off shit
>>673981488
>>673981534
>>673981584
>>673981624
Thanks! at last I can finish the story,
>>673980843
since i dont know much about political science and i met this politicians son and he had studied political science so i thought it was politicians who did that...
anyways do you go to bars places people hang out do you have a facebook or any sort social networking account people or friends may contact you with....
>>673981763
Death seemed like a far away end. Of little importance to me at the time. Then Muffin died and it hit me like a fucking truck that death is right around the corner. Looming like a storm cloud waiting for you. Up til then I never truly considered death. Or what happens after. After that I couldnt stop thinking about it. Funny how times have changed. I used to fear it now I want it.
>>673980274
Are you giving me hints that your a femanon?
>>673980882
anon wait this isntthe end ok.
please wait i know the answer...
are you still here?
Dont leave your younger brother...
dont be as bad as your step dad and father.
stay with me.
need some advice /b/ros
>>673982076
its just a bull shit degree. i go to bars alone. woo!
>>673982075
no problem
>>673980894
what kind of car you got anon ?
you got somebody you love ?
>>673982382
Whats up anon
>Be me
>Be certifiably mentally ill
>Poor touch on reality, borderline schizo, bizarre perception of the world
>Genius level IQ, smart enough to realize Im crazy
>Fully aware that the things I perceive aren't real and my perception of the world is totally insane but powerless to stop it
>Non-existent social skills, can't interact with people, noone understands what I'm talking about half the time
>Having trouble even expressing this dilemma in words
>Spend every day questioning whether or not anything I've done is really how I remember it
>>673967622
>
The onions.
>>673982209
when i was a in a third world country i live in a village that had a Nationalist Socialist ideology (Party Name: SSNP), and i spoke to man who seen the horrors of death and how one can truly lose a friend in a second. Its not a storm looming in the corner for them; however, it was starring them in the face.
Nevertheless, when he finished his story i asked him and how where you able to defeat your enemy. To which he replied:
The difference between us and the enemy is that they feared death, where as in our case death feared us.
To live life we must have hope anon, whether it is to free your country, to find the love of your life, to achieve greatness in terms wisdom and knowledge... you "simply" have to have hope and goal.
never let go anon we are here for you.
I dreamt about her last night.
I thought I was over her by now but I think about her every day.
I'll never forget how there wasn't a single second that went by that I was always happy and content. Even when we'd argue, I was never really 'angry' and I never wanted it to be over.
My heart still skips a beat when I think about her.
It's been 7 months
I just want to move on but I fucking can't..
>>673982596
I drive a 2012 Volkswagon Passat Tdi. I know it's not a race car, but I had to have something good for commuting (100 miles a day). It still grips the ground very well considering its size. I even though I shouldn't, I still can't resist the urge to rip the streets. I can't stop. I feel like no one understands how I feel. Out of all of my friends, none of them can know that I'm a weak person. I have to stay strong for my squad because they too have issues they deal with and turn to me for support. I also feel like I wasted my youth or my Highschool years at least. I missed many opertunitues because of lack of self confidence. All I feel is regret and pain. My friends say I'm the best looking guy out of them, but what person would wanna be with a monster like myself?
>>673982248
no anon far from it. a man in his 20's
>>673984179
Haha the dot dot dot threw me for a curve.
>>673982520
today as i woke up to go to work at 3AM , when i got there i noticed we had a new employee... i asked the manager who he is, to which he replied poor guy cant find a job, hes a electrical engineer, we passed around his CV around to see if anyone can find him a job...
I work at fish distribution company, i still smell like dead fish.
so maybe a shitty degree, (if you say so), but one musn't forget that somebody worked twice as hard and still cant find a job in his domain.
Next do you talk with people at the bar ?
do you now people at work ?
what your ethinicity ?
>Be 18 in 2001
>Me and my 3 best friends join Marines
> inb4 "nationalist hype"
> One friend drops out of boot camp, decides to go to college
> The 3 of us call him a bitch for not defending the country
> still anger about 9/11 and shit
> Complete boot camp and deploy for first tour
> First tour went fine
> Come home learn that one of my friends had lost a leg and arm from IED
> feelsbadman.jpg
> During time off the 3 of us hung out, but my wounded friend was clearly depressed
> He had just gotten married to high school sweetheart and wife was pregnant
>He was medical discharged and began working as a social worker to support family
> Find out our friend that went to college was stabbed and died during a mugging
> We all go to his funeral, only my wounded friend cried
> It was his cousin as well as our friend
> After the funeral we all drank a ton together and remember our friend
> Late in the night wounded friend passes out and begins to start sobbing in his sleep
> We think its because of his cousin's death
> Next day I drive him home, he is still way to drunk to drive
> Later that day find his jacket in my car
> Bottle of antidepressants in the pocket
> Run them to his house
> His wife answers the door
> His is asleep
> Give her the bottle and ask her if he is okay
> " Anon, he has not been the same since the accident"
> " Finds him in the middle of the night crying and saying names she does not know"
> Friend doesn't tell wife who they are
> Leave house and drive home
> His jacket still in the car
> Decide not to ask him about the names
Cont?
>itt everyone complains about how hard life is.
>whines
>im about to blow your beta tits off with some knowledge you weak fucks
the concept of suicide or 'hopelessness' is a construct of the mind; chemically. either by nature, a chemical imbalance out of control of a person, or constantly reinforced by a person that leads to themselves re-wiring their brains into a false reality, which is more than not, the case.
here's some shit for you faggots, nobody who doesn't have an actual physical deformity, by appearance or a physical cognitive defect, is actually beta. every fucking person has the ability to achieve whatever they want. ive seen people excel at school who weren't intelligent, but put the work in to study. ive seen people who weigh 120lbs turn into greek gods.
the only thing that separates alpha and beta is how bad you fucking want it. 'oh i cant get a girl because im awkward'; then go to the fucking gym and get shredded so your physical appearance is enough to get the attention of decent looking girls. there's no excuse. take time from sitting on your ass for 1 hour a day and do some fucking work. stop fucking around at school and take time to actually study.
you people think you know what suffering or pain is, you know nothing. your mothers didn't die of aids and left you on the street starving. funny, i dont see any children starving to death actively trying to kill themselves, when in their situation they are much more dire and their lives much more bleak. think about it. you don't see it because you have allowed yourself to construct a false reality in your mind. parents divorce, grandparents died? hey guess what, if you're an adult you have the ability to shape your own future for your own children.
no sympathy for any of these feels, not a shred; except for those who genuinely have a chemical imbalance through nature, not nurture, and those people are not going on /b/, for a variety of reasons.
tldr; everyone has the ability to be alpha
>>673982382
whats up ?
>>673984962
always cont
>>673982686
did you go to a psychologist ?
if so did he diagnose you with a specific name for the disease or illness?
also is it new or did it happen after something specific, if so how old were you ?
>>673966390
this is the depressing shit right here. the earth is dying.
>>673984962
Please do..
I've asked out 3 girls within the past 6 months and all have indirectly rejected me
>oh uh, I'll give you my snapchat tomorrow
>my mom's going to Mexico, she wants me to hang out with her
>my friend's birthday party is this weekend
Just say it. Say "no" already and save us both the trouble and me the humiliation
>I can't I'm not a mean person, anon.
You might as well.
I wish I wasn't indifferent to things that I probably should be worried about.
Like finding a better job. Dating. Finding friends. Exercising. Learning how to cook instead of eating out.
>>673980894
WA? I think I've seen you fly past me once.
>>673975014
>>673975118
>>673975192
With my dog in my bed next to me, and leaving for college next semester... I don't know what I'd do if something happens to him when I'm gone. Maybe I should stop over thinking it and just see what happens.
These stories kill me
https://youtu.be/8vrKmQegFp8
>>673967622
Damn similar thing happened when I was a kid
>>673982686
>Poor touch on reality, borderline schizo, bizarre perception of the world
>Genius level IQ, smart enough to realize Im crazy
>Fully aware that the things I perceive aren't real and my perception of the world is totally insane but powerless to stop it
>Non-existent social skills, can't interact with people, noone understands what I'm talking about half the time
>Spend every day questioning whether or not anything I've done is really how I remember it
>Having trouble even expressing this dilemma in words
sounds like you didn't have trouble there since you just described your issue pretty damn clear. some food for though; a vast majority of people who are genuinely psychotic aren't aware that they are.
>>673965426
i used to have this girl in my life.
she'd come over sometimes while her boyfriend was away after school.
once the door would close she'd almost instantly get naked. most times she'd put on her favorite song and start sucking. then she would cry. her tears and makeup would drip down her face onto my dick. its surprising how cold tears are. eventually i finally asked her what was wrong. in between licks she told me that her favorite song was also her bfs favorite song. so even though she loved hearing it and it totally got her pussy wet, it also made her think about the fact that she was cheating on her boyfriend. i dont think i ever came harder down somebodies throat then right after she told me that. she was beautiful. we dont hang out anymore. wanna get lunch?
this was the song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XYyZJCD49U4
>realize I have no plans for my future
>no idea what I even want to do out of college
>good social life but still feel completely alone
>developing addictions to shit
>pretty much about to be fired from my job
>parents think I'm nothing but a disappointment
>hate myself for being one of those kids who hates themselves.
I'm anti-social to the point that can't even keep a conversation. When someone says hi to me I just say "hey" and that's it. When I do manage a conversation I just want it to end because I have nothing to talk about. Every topic seems boring. I decided I was incompatible to any relationships long ago. Just watching other people socialize keeps me from going insane.
I lost the girl I love more than anything else on this planet and my unborn kid 2 weeks ago. I have no other thought than suicide. If killing myself means that one moment of flashbacks to her, to us. I'd do it.
>>673967295
I remember seeing that back when I played TF2 and it hit me hard. Cut to now where I stopped playing it and jesus it still hits me hard.
>>673986626
uploaded 13th
lol dude wut ya talk bout
>>673965612
Is that Jason Voorhees?
This happened getting out of my single bed
Since healed with fuzz and shit in it
>>673984101
I used to do the same; however, i left Canada once and lived in a third world country, had to go with my family.
I was really depressed. I remember the country had no laws at least were i lived, so i used to take the car blast the radio to max and drive on those roads... no security meassures were ever set by the government. so if i take a wrong turn i fall for my death.
If your buddies tell you are handsome then that means you are very good looking... very rare for men in a squad to say that [i say that with very little experience]; nevertheless, you have to find a trust worthy friend within this squad that you can talk with; however, you must trust him and he must trust you. Don't throw it all on him, because he will feel burdened by your problems. So tell him your problems slowly.
-Also make sure hes not the type of guy who says all his secrets when he is drunk or mad at you...
this video shows how the leader breaks-down infront of a good friend of his. Chris Chambers is the leader...
link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-4_rMqeyOJY
Next you are lucky enough to have friends, so they can help you meet girls, you have a group to go out with... buddy you are on the right track.
build your confidence and stay strong.
anything else you wanna let off your chest say it and i will do my best
I feel so alone
>>673984735
sorry it wasnt my intention, its just become a habit of putting the three dots.
femanon doesnt have t mean she browses 4ch, but maybe once you meet the girl of your dreams then you can show her 4ch... though beware.
> be me 21
> Never had any real problems
> graduating college a semester late, not a big deal
> have great freinds
> play vidya, go on walks/runs
> i still hate myself and can never sleep without crying
I hate that I always feel like shit when I'm by myself and i have no reason to
>>673987494
>>673984962
do so please.
>>673986355
true story; few years ago my dog was getting sick, was old, would get sick with something but then get better again, basic old dog shit.
one day i was at work, and i got a call from my dad, was told dog had a massive stroke and would probably never recover. still alive and had personality, but could barely move and would basically be a veggie.
dad was at vets, asked if i wanted to say bye because he would have some time to live, or if they should just put him down because the quality of life would be 0.
told him to put him down.
i put the dog before my own desire to say goodbye, so i never had that with a dog that got me through some hard times.
everything dies eventually; dogs dont live long. enjoy your time with him, and don't waste your time doing anything else, because that time will have been wasted.
>>673987715
Thanks man, you're the first person I've really told this. I'm glad someone can sympathize with my plight. I need to just go. I need to act. I think you might have given me the push.
> be me, 2005, 16 in high school
> have some friends
> don't want to kill myself
feels good man
>>673973133
Witness
>>673988876
anytime anon good luck and keep your head up.
>>673988919
That sounds great, anon. I hope your happiness is contagious.
>>673989502
i want to witness and flowers to witness David Higgs Tomb Stone...
>>673988832
Sorry to hear that
Thanks, anon
>>673981624
wait, so it ended happily?
>>673984962
> Second Tour comes around
> Me and other friend end up both getting deployed in Ramadi
> whatarethechances.jpg
> Second week doing door to door searches
> I am number 4 in squad, the breacher
>Most dangerous job during these searches
>Breach door
> ohshit.jpg
> See multiple bodies mutilated in a pile
> Squad enters home
> Friend notices my shock
> Says that these people probably provided the military with information
>His voice phases out
>All I can focus on is this young girl, maybe 6 dead and face torn up
>Her eyes were removed as well as her tongue
>Friend notices walks over pile
>He finds a bracelet with her name on it
> Name is Issia, to this day not sure
> Friend hands it to me and says use it
> Compose myself and continue on as normal
> 3 weeks before tour is up, we do one last sweep of neighborhood
>Breach door, enter home
> Standard procedure
> Start to leave home and get back to work
> Suddenly taking fire from adjacent corner
>Return fire, constant thought of Issia in mind
>Throw away all training and unload clip towards them
>Dumb move have to reload, friend takes firing position to cover me
> Loud thud on the ground
> 2 squad members drop
> Pull them back into house
> Come outside fire fight over
> Call for medic and evac
> Realize friend is one of the wounded
>2 gunshot wounds to the gut
> Medic said he was suffering from internal bleeding
> Evac was 30 minutes out
> He had no chance, realize he got shot because of my dumb mistake
> He looks at me, with a sad look in his eye
> Says " We knew what could happen, Issia did not."
> Yell at medic to tend to him
> Medic replies other wounded squad member has better chance of survival
>Sit by him waiting for evac
> He is not responding, just trying to keep him awake
> He grasp my hand with the bracelet on it
>Tear come to his eyes
>They close, he is gone
>Evac comes load his body on
I've been in New York City for 4 days now and I'm in love.
I bought a ticket to NYC a couple months ago on a whim. Kinda like how Forrest Gump "just felt like runnin'," I just felt like coming to NYC. To me, the city was just always an idea, a fantasy; something I'd see on TV and movies to idealize and romanticize, but think of it only as such. Now I'm here and it's a real, like, thing. It’s all it’s cracked up to be and so, so much more.. The things I've done, things I've seen, friends I've made since I've been here. Just...I can't even begin to explain. It turns out I have a cousin with whom I wasn't close until I came and visited. We hit it off and he's willing to post me up at his place in Park Slope, Brooklyn until I get on my feet here job-wise. I have a job back "home" (South Side Chicago and Champaign, Illinois) that I love, but I know I could easily move just drop it and move here.
(cont...)
>>673987922
but why?
>>673990976
When I realized I wanted to be here, I felt all these crazy emotions happening all at the same time. I was happy I’d found a place where I feel really, truly at home, but sad that I wanted to be here and all my friends and family are in Illinois. Mostly, though, I’m absolutely terrified of what’s gonna happen in the future, but terrified in the weird, curious, good way. I have no idea how to explain it.. I was texting my dad (I was going to leave on Sunday..) and the conversation went like this:
>Dad: What time does your flight arrive tomorrow?
>Me: Yeah…about that.
>Me: This might be a whole one-way thing...
>Dad: Staying in NY?
>Me: Yeahhh. Hahahaha, just joshing around, though. Idk Let me look up my flight times.
>Dad: Wouldn’t have surprised me!
>Me: I got a lot to talk to you about when I get “home” Hahahaha.
>Me: Very, very seriously considering living here.
>Dad: Go for it. Seriously.
That conversation happened on 3/12 it’s 3/14. I didn’t actually get on the flight home..
(cont...)
>>673980885
Greatest movie ever made...well, The Final Cut is..
>>673990975
lol u sound like a little bitch
>>673990976
born and raised in NYC, so many amazing people, lots to do, but I hope your not like me and take advantage of all of it.
>>673991217
I called my ex gf of 5 years (she’s still one of my best friends) and told her all about it. About how I don’t think I’m coming back and she kinda responded with something like, “Duhh? This doesn’t surprise me at all. You’ve been talking about this ever since I met you. Do it, but be careful.” I called my childhood best friend about it, he told me to do it but be practical about it. I called my boss and roommates about it, they all told me to do it. And not only that, but the opinions that actually matter to me the most were of all the new Yorkers I met…
I’m sorry to have to toot my own horn here, but here goes. I have an old friend who lives here who works in investment banking and has a salary I could only dream of. He told me he knows I’d make it here. He was sitting down with my cousin while I was outside and apparently all they talked about was how much they believe in me and wanna see me here. I was at a French restaurant where an Australian bartender, waitress, and African, French-speaking busboy all told me they’d never met anyone like me before. I had a conversation with at least 7 people at a bar two nights ago. All of them, within 30 seconds of meeting me, told me to move here and that they knew I’d make it, giving me their phone numbers to grab lunch sometime. I'm done with school, (I studied French for 3 years at University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign), I'm 21, I'm single, I don’t own a dog, I could easily switch jobs, I have one month rent-free stay in Brooklyn to find a job. (I honestly don’t care what job. I’ve worked such shitty ones back home. Being in NYC would be enough).
I started smoking meth again, and now I blew all my money that I needed for going to my brothers wedding.
I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do.
>>673990975
keep it going
>>673965426
I'm a newfag, don't know when thread dies, hope someone reads.
>15 year old loner, nobody likes, looks 3/10
>depressed for 2 years, suicidal
>plays video games literally almost all day
>only hope is going to gym, don't even enjoy it
>suddenly start talking to 8/10 girl
>girl recently spent a night with my best friend (Call him Fred)
>they kissed a lot and cuddled
>he wants out, no relationship
>i come up with great plan to mess with her to get her off of him
>convince her that Fred is depressed (thinking its a turnoff)
>Fred agrees, goes along with it
>I get close to girl, start planning a date
>Fred reveals truth, girl gets extremely mad
>she cancels date, stops talking to me
>I feel god awful, she said she thinks her problems are coming back
>i can't get over what i did
>tell friend im going to kill myself at 3 am
>he convinces me to go to sleep
>go to sleep, wake up next morning wishing i was dead
>cops come to house at 3 pm
>spend 10 hours in hospital, lie to get out easily
>cops told parents what i said and how i feel
>Lie to parents, they believe im ok and it was all a misunderstanding
>started drinking over what i did
>girl still won't forgive me, i dont forgive myself for making her problems come back
>Few days after hospital: Text girl, she deleted my number, tells me indirectly that I should have done it that night
>Still wish i did it
Story isn't as sad as other things, just wanted to get it off my chest.
>>673991064
ignore anons like that ?
they get bored and leave.
>>673991407
(continuing...)
I’m not trying to be a famous actor or musician or business executive or whatever. I just wanna be a hard-working, tax-paying, subway-taking, etc. etc. citizen of New York in the most cliché way possible. I wanna be in the hustle. Work the hours. Pay the bills.
Honestly, that’s the dream. It always has been. And I’m making it come true.
I have a job interview for a marketing position I once held at a chicago office. I'm gonna fucking kill this interview and live the rest of my life.
Fuck it, I'm doing this.
>>673965426
>>673988664
yes,
>>673976135
get in here faggets we're raiding twitter #maledominance
cheer up, we're raiding twitter get in here
>>673991347
I'll try.
>>673991407
im 21 and live in the city, and man, you at least have real life experience, I'm doming at school, I've had jobs and able to pay loans, but I have no life experience, other than my programming skills, i have nothing to bring to the table as a person, You seem to know what it means to hustle in life which I envy and find extremely respectable. Good luck anon
>>673991283
what movie is that anon
>>673980381
Yes. All of this. Jesus christ I miss her.
>>673991711
uhhhhh ...
bro? youre 15. this aint the only bitch in the world. calm down man
>>673991711
That's fucking horrible bro
Shit like that fucks with you so bad for the rest of your life
>>673991331
no hes not a chris kyle or in other words a savage psychopath. hes a true man a true soldier.
Now i urge you to go back ito your mothers basement and save post apocalyptic boston on your fallout 4 account.
why am i the only one that cant see im a good person, and deserve to be happy.
>>673991711
That's fucking horrible bro
Shit like that fucks with you so bad for the rest of your life.
>>673991711
That's fucking horrible bro
Shit like that fucks with you so bad for the rest of your life, don't let it get to you bro
>>673992250
Yeah i know, she isn't the only reason, but slowly things push me further and further
>>673991641
are you addicted.
>>673991711
That's fucking horrible bro
Shit like that fucks with you so bad for the rest of your life, don't let it get to you dude
I get mentally snd sometimes physically abused by my girlfriend but i dont want to hit her back because ive never hit anyone in my life.
>>673992088
dude, just do web development? That's my side hustle while working in marketing. You don't have to be smart to do that shit, just creative. And with a background in coding, it should be the easiest thing in the world to pick up. HTML/CSS/and JQuerey will land you an easy 75k/yr.
>>673981781
>>673965426
Alright story time
> Be me, middle school
> Had these two friends, one named Zach the other Jenny.
> Zach was the crazy kid, the one to want explosions and fire. Everyone liked him though
> Jenny was probably the sweetest person you could know, her laugh and smile was beutiful.
> Anyway, talking to Zach one day when he starts talking about asking Jenny out.
> "Go for it man."
> I was really excited for him, he seemed to really like Jenny.
> This was in October.
Continue?
>>673991711
My god I'm so sorry my friend
>>673986313
Naw CA. I'm locally hated. I think they put up new speed limit signs on my street because of me. They even brought up cops from Sacramento because of the rampant street racing. No one suspects me because it's a family car.
>>673991711
Only 2 years worth? Kill yourself faggot.
>>673993256
I wouldn't feel sorry for me, I made someone's problems come back, and after dealing with those problems for 2 years, i cant live with myself.
>>673992885
Go on
>>673990975
>Fly back with on plane with his body on it
> Retire from military can no longer take the guilt and pain
>Military funeral for him, he had no family left alive
> Me and wounded friend last ones to leave, I cry in silence
> He ask me what happened
> He understands, does not blame me for it
>feelsgoodman.jpg
> Few years pass, get job selling insurance
> Move away from everyone
> I live in FL now
> Friend came down 2 weeks ago to Disney with family
> Bring me and my family as well
> We both meet up at the park and let our wives take the kids
> We catch up and talk about the family
> I happen to be wearing his jacket from all those years ago
> He says it looks familiar
> Tell him about the time I brought the pills back
> He gets anger, not at me just himself
> Tells me his wife filed for divorce 2 months ago
> This is the last trip that they will have as a family
> Explains that he now has a pill problem because of his PTSD
> He wants a quick divorce and that she can have it all
> Ask him how he became addicted
>Explains he can see their faces at night
> The faces of the innocent he could not save, not of his fellow soldiers
>Yesterday found out he hung himself in a motel room
> Empty pill bottle next to bed
> I lost 2 of my best friends trying to protect my country
> It was worth nothing
> mfw I see the eyeless mutilated face of Issia every night
> Have been on antidepressants for the last 2 years
> Do not want to kill myself, but I can barely function due to my PTSD nowadays
>>673992793
yea I've only done web dev jobs over the summers, but I do want to try other fields things like data mining, software dev, etc. I honestly don't have a great passion for coding or web dev, I just want to live life, but i suck at that lol
>>673992885
Y u no rit al of it men
>>673991711
Don't lie about wanting to an hero to medical staff. They can get you meds and give you people that are better to talk to than a bunch of autistic weeaboos on /b/
>>673993755
Not looking for help, only lied cause dad was in room at the time.
Didn't lie to cops and they recommended pills and help. Honestly I dont understand how I got out lying like that, but my parents are awful with problems. They only make me feel worse. I really really want help, but don't want my parents to know.
>>673966390
Cheer up motherfucker!
http://www.radiolab.org/story/galapagos/
>>673993503
do use your anti depressants and use the entertainment to forget it.
listen to music, watch movies, sit with buddies and dont speak of the war.
>>673990976
>>673991217
>>673991407
>>673991896
Honestly underrated post. This shit sounds like a novel. It sounds like you're gonna be living a Friends/How I Met Your Mother/Seinfeld lifestyle of being in your 20's and 30's, living life, getting into schenanigans and life troubles. Good luck, anon. I believe in you.
There's gonna be friends from back home who, after they come home from work at their jobs in a place they've lived their whole life, sit down and turn on the TV or netflix and watch one of those shows wishing that was their life. And that's gonna be your life. You're gonna be living somebody else's fantasy. All those people you went to high school with? They're gonna be seethingly jealous of you. They only wish they had the balls you have to go out and do something like that. Mad respect from someone who actually played it safe. And regretted it.
Godspeed.
>>673994409
sorry meant to say dont use your antidepressants or slowly diminish their use.
>>673993508
well go out and live it, man. That's all the advice I got for ya, lmfao.
>>673992885
Back, continuing
> Come around November
> Zach still hasn't asked out Jenny.
> Keep trying to push him to, could really see him getting close to asking her.
> Thursday night, I was in the kitchen
> Get a call from the school, it was a message sent to all students of the school by the principal.
>"We're sorry to report that we lost a fellow student as of early this evening..."
> The student was Jenny.
> Call Zach right away, to see how he was handling it.
> Answers in his usual goofy way.
> Oh god, no one told him.
> I had to break the news.
>"Bro, it's Jenny..."
> We talked and probably cried like little bitches for hours.
> Come school the next day.
> Learned it was a suicide.
> Zach leaves school
> Haven't talked to a child hood friend in about 10 years.
> Still see Jenny's smile.
>>673992584
you aren't going to trust a stranger but i'm telling you that once you grow up it's going to get better. you'll figure things out
>>673994453
thanks man. :,) fuck, that means a lot..
>>673992793
how do you do that without experience or certs
>I'm alone
>I failed all but one class
>I don't do the work I was supposed to
>I lied to myself friends are a waste of time
>I acted like an Autist
>I stated going online again
>I even began to play video games again today
>I will never get friends or a gf.
>be me in middle school
> 1 best friend
>i hated 1 person from being so dumb and annoying..
>plans to kill her
>i kill her
>turns out the be best friends gf
>they haven't been out for long and he didn't introduce her yet
>returns to school next day after kill
>friends was crying at break and when he found out she died
>he an hero
>was my only friend
He was getting more useless anyway
>>673992096
Blade Runner
Yes greatest movie ever made
>>673994308
Which is better though;
Your parents knowing you have a problem but that you're getting help or one day your parents finding their son dead with no idea why it happened or what they could've done to help you
>>673994861
le edge lord
>>673994725
freecodecamp.com
w3schools
code academy
You build a portfolio by for shitty restaurants/small businesses/friends/musicians/photographers/artists. and host it all through go daddy. After that, once you've got a portfolio, you're golden. There's such a massive shortage in web devs that they don't even care if you're a college dropout (a.k.a. me) just as long as you can do what they wanna see.
I finally asked my friend/crush on a date type of thing. We went to the trump rally in chicago for the fun of the chaos. She brought vodka in her bag because she was spending the night at her cousins. As we are waiting in line she realizes she cant bring it inside the rally (no shit). She has her cousin come pick up her bag. She has to walk a bit to her cousins car and I stayed in line with our friends. She ended up ditching me and left with her cousin. She says she started to walk back but ended up leaving because she was cold. It was obviously bullshit and she just left. Things seemed to be going well before that. Im really down because of it. That was my first real "date." On one hand, I think she does like me but, left because she was a bit socially awkward or some other reason. Either way, it hurt. I should probably just give up on her because she acted like a bitch but its hard
>>673995630
by building websites for shitty...****
>>673980079
do not give the fight my friend
>>673993479
Everyone makes mistakes and I know it's hard to move on because I was on kinda the same boat with you my friend, drinking and shit man but I moved on because I was hurting my friends, my family and even myself, I hope you could make out of this situation my friend.
>>673968748
I wasn't ready to feel this
too many feels
>>673995110
That's a nice perspective but i feel i'm getting better recently, if i get worse, ill tell them
>>673973514
God damn Carlos
Bump?
this was a good thread thank you everyone see you tomorrow. We will all meet each other someday somewhere somehow
i feels like i want to throat punch a midget
Getting close to 999999
How did you learn that your (ex) gf/bf cheated on you?
Get into the details!
Pic not related.
My ex cheated on me with her ex bestfriend's ex boyfriend, then I fuck a friend of mine without protection (I know but nothing bad happen to my weenie) Then get to her house the next morning and she suck my dick and I came in her mouth (didnt shower) then we broke up.
>>673997094
Meant for a thread sry
>>673997030
don't give up
for everyone here that is going to kill themselves don't do it. Fight to live fight to survive
"To love someone is to see them as how God intended."
- Fyodor Dostoevsky
Im gay and hopelessly in love with a straight man. We had slept together wgen he was bi-curious, but before that, before he knew, the moment I met him I loved him. I saw deep into his eyes and saw the universe. I saw the mysteries of life for that first brief moment. Hes so beautiful. But he now will have none of me, and has forsaken his love for me for a woman, and one I know will hurt him. I will he would come back.
I hope hes ok.
Pic related: him
>>673967146
holy shit
i wish hookers were legal in new jersey
>>673997559
You sound like a fart sniffing, pretentious poet.
>>673967146
This is why murder should be legal.
>>673997793
Close, im an attention whore
>>673997333
IT WILL HAPPEN IN THIS THREAD, WE GOT THIS
Wwwwww
>>673966121
Holy shit.
welp good thread guys hope to see another feel thread in the future and guys lay off the booze and have a glass of water
