mental illness thread.
what's your major malfunction?
>>673302879
I'm incapable of panic. I never get flustered or confused by rapidly changing events or terrible surprises, like my wife suddenly giving birth in the bathroom or being hit by a boulder while scaling a cliff. Not sure that's a problem, but it's weird anyway.
BEAAANNNNNNNSSSSSSSSS
autism
>>673302879
https://www.wikiwand.com/en/Twice_exceptional
with adhd
>>673302879
I don't fap to rule 34
I don't know what's wrong with me, I just can't get off to cartoon porn of pikachu fucking ash with frostmourn. Is there medication for this?
>>673303180
i'm the opposite. even just opening the door and seeing a new environment makes me feel ill at ease.
>>673303180
That doesn't sound too bad.. As long as you give a shit about shit..
Cyclothemia
>>673304195
Mostly.
A corollary of it seems to be that my Fight/Flight reaction is permanently fucked. My first instinct is always Fight, even if that would be foolish.
>>673302879
>>673304852
kek
>>673305056
surely there's a name for this condition
I suffer from the disease of addiction
>>673305312
Assuming it even is a "condition." It might just be an inborn personality trait, refined by life experiences. I did have some interesting, high pressure training that probably contributed.
>>673305658
pic related
>>673305797
there's definitely an evolutionary purpose behind getting deathly afraid when something life threatening is going on. i mean, it sounds like it could easily get you killed if you don't run away in certain situations but what do i know? i'm just a crazy guy.
I can't remember anything. For the past 3 years maybe I have not been able to remember anything that happens to me though out the day. I can remember everything from about 2013 and back but if I try to remember anything else new it is like it didn't happen to me
>>673306367
Stop doing drugs, it might help.
>>673306367
isn't this the plot of memento?
>>673306367
That is some serious shit, have you seen a neurologist?
>>673306367
>if you watched primer right now you could watch it again tomorrow and it would be like you never saw it before
ffs, anon, how do i get what you got?
>>673306615
I have never done drugs for a recreational purpose. I have drank before, but I have never even been drunk.
>>673307024
how could you possibly know that?
>>673306089
>there's definitely an evolutionary purpose behind getting deathly afraid when something life threatening is going on.
Yes. But so is destroying a threat. In one case, you die if you can't get away. In the other, you die if you lose the fight.
I guess it depends on how fast you are and how good a fighter you are (and with what weapons).
>>673306780
How would he know?
>>673307359
I have a phobia of vomiting.
Manifests mostly in panic disorder and maybe a little OCD.
My stomach always hurts and I get wicked tension headaches.
Get confused sometimes.
I stopped traveling and now I have to go to bed and wake up at the same times everyday or else I feel really sick.
Therapy hasn't helped (been about a year)
>>673307164
Lol, the point is Darwinism would cull the genes of people like you who couldn't discern when to fight and when to run.
Hope you're never surprised by a bear or an alligator. Or even a faster, angrier human.
>>673307024
I can't be for certain. I can remember some if it has never happened before, like I think I was pulled over in 2014 at about 3am but I don't remember why I was on the road that late at night. Also there are no drugs in my apartment besides some phenergan and some memory pills
>>673307947
Invest in a go-pro and hypnotherapy?
>>673307915
>implying it's better to be a coward than a fighter
Your ancestors are ashamed of you, anon.
>>673306780
No I don't think so
>>673302879
I'm sad and I don't know exactly why. It's been pretty bad the last couple of months, but I think I'm getting "better," meaning I can actually get my ass out of bed and do things. I feel like an asshole for every single little interaction I have with anyone. And I think I'm trans. That's fairly recent. I'd go get like therapy or something if I had money, which I don't.
>>673308349
>And I think I'm trans.
Yep, definitely crazy.
>>673308137
Good idea I have have actually been keeping sound recordings lately to know what has been going on especially in class
>>673308192
I'm no coward, I assure you. It's simply stupidity to fight against obviously insurmountable odds. Even the Vikings feared bears, and would only hunt them with surprise on their side.
Your ancestors would be ashamed of you if you were to bumble around in a less protective world.
>>673304091
Just kill yourself... there's no fix for whatever it is you have
>>673307007
I don't know how I got it I am not the healthiest person in the world I eat what is fast and I spend all my time at school
>>673308556
Where my bipolar people at? No meds, I just ride the cycle and see where it takes me. I got dumped a couple days ago, but I'm manic af right now and barely giving a shit. I've been fighting the urge to hit up this crazy chubby slut because only bad things will come of it, but all I wanna do is slam some ass right now.
>>673309299
Go get help
Aspbergers and rapid cycling bipolar here
I am horribly depressed and anxious most of the time due to constant childhood abuse, but 11 months ago I discovered that taking a stimulant (even caffeine) and going to an amusement park or carnival makes me feel utterly amazing (like I'm a god and all of the beauty that is humanity is also a god... not in the delusional sense though) for a week afterward, then what can only be described as normal for a couple of months. Having discovered that, though, has made these last 3 months (the only place accessible to me closed on Halloween) even more unbearably difficult than the 10 years before I discovered that.
>>673309625
Thanks anon I will try to remember to go get help
I care about something or someone, but then just get bored. Nothing really fazes me anymore.
>>673302879
Start conversation
???
Engage in human interaction
>>673309572
I'm bipolar, but it's not that bad.
The avoidance personality disorder I've had since birth that took me 20 years to diagnose is pretty soul crushing though.
>>673309572
>crazy chubby
pics? and i have schizoaffective disorder which i guess is similar.
>>673308788
>I assure you
>bumble
>less protective world
Hah. I touched a nerve. We live in a "protective world," but you still imagine ambushing bears that *compel* you to flee. To excuse it, you see.
What a warrior spirit.
>>673306367
HOW CAN YOU REMEMBER THA THYOU CANT REMEMBER IF YOU COULDNT REMEMBER IF YOU REMEMBERED IN THE FIRST PLACE OR REMEMBERED WHAT REMEMBERING WAS> FUCK YOU TIT DICK POOTY PANTAM POOTY PANTAM POOTY PANTAM FUCK FACE
>>673310054
great post
>>673310267
this
>>673309994
Just become an extreme sports dude. Jump off a cliff and you'll have that feeling on demand.
>>673307007
ants
>>673310472
alright, get in
I am incapable of stepping on cracks. When I do I slowly go into a panic.
I've been diagnosed with ocd, major depression, and gad
i think i'm being stalked except the people doing it are kinda assclowny. oh well. :D
Aspergers, but you'd probably never guess it. I keep it under control.
>>673310267
I don't know
>>673306367
Do you remember posting this?
>>673310079
What's that like?
>>673310109
Sorry, should've punctuated that better.
Crazy, chubby*
Nothing about her is exceptional, she's just hella freaky and I fucked her before when we were both totally wasted years ago.
Also I'm leaving a week from tomorrow to kayak the grand canyon, so that could be contributing to my manic mood.
>>673310248
I've been playing caveman video games lately, you must excuse me.
Now you're just avoiding the topic, though. Would you or would you not run away from a deadly confrontation? Being too aggressive to run from humans is learnable, and thus not necessarily a mental problem. Not using common instincts is something I've never heard of however, so I am wondering if predatory animals or heights or a raging blaze would trigger your flight.
>>673310248
Stick to the whole "these nigger snitches are your friends and will help you commit crimes" setups, dumb fuck cop.
>>673303672
I have never ever in my entire life heard something as pathetic as someone referring to themselves as "twice exceptional" because there is something fucking wrong with you.
>>673309677
I know these feels /b/ro
>>673310267
This is the comment that will stick tomorrow I'd wager.
I'm not sure.
I go to the psychiatrist just to get benzos and Adderall/Ritalin. I lie to him, he thinks I only smoke weed but I also do coke, drink a lot and do LSD and shit like that, I'm currently "addicted" to cocaine. I do it many times per week.
So I think it's addiction, he says I have ADD and OCD too, but yeah, my anxiety is worse now since without benzos I feel bad, sucks.
>>673311162
Farcry Primal is legit.
>>673307641
One of my good friends has that. Might not be quite as extreme. I took it very lightly but I'm starting to understand people's quirks a lot better since I've realized I am prone to anxiety attacks.
>>673308349
Please kill yourself.
Please.
I'm begging you
>>673311162
It would have to be pretty scary.
>>673310733
This is for you.
>>673311591
Bump
>>673309994
Stop breathing.
>>673311591
GOTTA SEE THE FUTURE HOMESLICE
>>673311591
>>673311721
>>673311724
>>673311737
oh wow look at the time
>>673311721
I have mixed feelings about this and it is hurting me
>>673311134
Yeah I do but I had to read it again just to be sure
>>673311721
[silently arranges object on desk]
>>673309572
Hey fellow bipolar
I got dumped as well, last week. But since im having my manic period, i dont give a shit.
Im not on meds either. The antidepressants i took fried my brain.
>>673310733
Do you also try and take an even number of steps on each color of multi-colored floors? Or take the same amount of steps on each section of concrete on the sidewalk?
>>673311457
>ADD
>and OCD
See a different doc, he's a moron.
>>673311721
>>673311983
I want to keep refreshing the page and stare at that image at the same time. What is this hell?
>>673312240
Yes. I am comfortable as long as I've taken the same amount of steps on each foot.
>>673312166
That's always what I've always been afraid of. Ever try self medicating with weed? Indicas during a manic period slow you down to normal and sativas during depressions helps make everything seem a little better. At least that's how it's been in my experience
>>673312331
Indeed he is. I said I wanted benzos for my anxiety but h said "only if you quit weed" said yes of course and got them.
Later on said I had some trouble focusing and he just gave me Ritalin, said I wanted to try Adderall and he gave it to me.
>>673302879
I have two X chromosomes.
trans and depressed.
if I ever go full tumblr I'm blowing my brains out
>>673312534
Do you also try and do things evenly with both sides of your body? Like if you brush against something with your arm do you have the to touch the same spot on the opposite arm?
>>673313370
Ftm or mtf?
>>673313370
You'll just blame it on society and us bullying you if it goes that far, retard.
>>673313572
The compulsion to*
>>673312067
No I mean do you remember posting this exact thing in several threads before in like the last 3 or 4 days?
I'm stabilizing but if I go back far enough I'll break for a sec
I'm like a jenga tower than you drowned in super glue but the pieces are all lopsided but it's ok cuz they're there permanently but structurally you're not really correct but it'll hold
Sometimes I get bored
That's rlly it
>>673313572
Occasionally. I got really into yoga because of it. It mostly makes me stare for long periods of time until I eventually freak out and tense up.
>>673311136
I can't maintain eye contact, and physical proximity or especially contact with others sends me into a paranoid spiral (similar to schizoid behavior, possibly because my mom is schizophrenic) that may devolve into a catatonic state if stressed past the breaking point. That's only happened after smoking marijuana, but it happens a lot around strangers, so I can't smoke. I have a fear of crowds, so I don't get out often and can't handle the packed roads here in South Florida. I can't handle new relationships or even casual conversation with strangers (I can, but weeks or days of such stress will cause me to hallucinate from audible delusions), so I can't hold any job that isn't either solitary or have a very chill atmosphere with constant coworkers. Alcohol is my only refuge from this, but manic release at say a party sometimes causes me to act too uninhibited momentarily, the shock of realizing that I just grabbed a girl's ass suddenly, for instance, can cause a stark reverse in behavior yet again.
>>673302879
paranoid schizophrenia
I sometimes think I awaken as God and can hear my angels and demons talk to me and have to find a way into heaven. Which always is pretty confusing, because none of my supergod powers seem to work and I act batshit insane until police gets involve and I get institutionalized and on meds.
>>673302879
Diagnosed as Bipolar 1 but I have anxiety too.
Have to go back to therapy because I stopped my meds over a year ago.
I feel an intense heaviness inside of me right now. Almost painful
>>673313033
I havent. Mostly because weed is expensive and not as available.
>>673314273
h-hey
>>673313947
I'm really just cyclothemiac
>>673311494
That it is.
It's rare for me to remember my dreams, but I had a number of them when I first started playing Primal. One devolved into me looking like Conan in a prehistoric post-apocalypse, fighting against the giant sorcerer-head of Bernie Sanders for the fate of something or other. That's how you know something you've been experiencing is memorable I suppose.
>>673302879
Depression, anxiety, self loathing.
Minor OCD. Probably ADD/ADHD, Probably mild autism.
And I'm married to a bitch I can't stand and am too much of a coward to get divorsed. Which feeds my depression and anxiety (not that they needed the help).
Also, quantum wizard.
>>673315378
>self loathing
lol
nah you're too clever to be retarded
Neuroticism. Who else?
>>673315529
All of /b/.
>>673303672
You mean autistic.
>>673309572
every morning and every night i lay in bed wishing i was dead for what feels like an eternity
the only people i tell are strangers on the internet because i don't want to get institutionalized again even though i think it would probably help
delusional obsession with stand up comics. i really want to buttfuck neal brennan.
>>673316821
joe had a total qt on his podcast yesterday
>>673314626
Is that where one day you're the nicest guy you'd ever meet, then the next you're a twisted fucking cycle path?
>>673317106
>>673303248
Classic bean boy
>>673317106
Unicycle path, silly. There's no room for 2 wheels on my path.
>>673314076
thats sounds a lot like me. i had a doctor said i had manic depression, one said schzioaffective bipolar type two with schzoid traits. this sounds more accurate tbh because i avoid the shit out of people
>>673317011
you mean today? she's definitely qt3.14, but married. she was giving him so many "fuck me" looks tho lol
>>673317324
SO. MANY. FARTS.
>>673317907
>it's yesterday on the west coast
truly the worst place on earth
>>673302879
I have autism and depression
>>673318683
r u depressed b/c ure autistic or about the futility of existence?
Bi polar depression insomnia mild aspergers
>>673318074
it's 11pm pst?
>>673313800
No I do not
>>673318909
yeah, on thursday
>>673317512
My professional help said there was some overlap between the two, and it's possible avoidance personality disorder is simply schizoaffective disorder mixed with anxiety disorders and manic depressive disorder. Not a lot of order going on, huh?
I'd ask about it if I were you. Learning each aspect of my problem (even incrementally) so far has been far better help than meds
>>673316671
Rough
How long have u been doing this.
N why havent u killed urself yet.
>>673319006
oh i forgot there are people from other countries on this shithole. what's wrong with you?
>>673318990
Shit
>>673319025
idk my whole ride has been fucked. i was only like 4 antipsychotics and went through like every antidepressant, i got threatened with ect if i didnt respond to the meds correctly so the last couple years ive had to be really quiet about what im experiencing. it really taught me a lot about the whole mental health system. but what you have i have like 90% except i dont audibly hallucinate or visually.
>>673319025
>Not a lot of order going on, huh?
mfw
i think psychoeducation is really helpful and also rarely done by treatment providers
>>673319188
i'm completely normal
>>673302879
I have hallucinations of myself being stabbed to death and having my fingers and body parts cut off. I don't see this happening, I feel it happening.
You ever sit there and get the sensation that someone was stabbing you through? Makes life interesting.
super narcissist
don't feel connection to others anymore
little to no empathy
>>673318841
Both
>>673305312
>>673305797
its called autism
>>673319392
>stabbing
with their penis?
>>673302879
I'm a tranny huehue
>>673319778
not everything is about penis, anon
>>673308784
Wait what classes are you in? How do you do well in them?
>>673320008
Current Events
>>673302879
>>673319778
With a knife. This knife to be specific.
>>673321105
I don't understand. You hallucinate you are being stabbed and believe the stabbing to be happening with a specific implement... But who was stabber?
>>673321105
I want that
>>673319843
lying liar who tells lies
>>673319277
Science has all but disproved visual hallucinations outside of drugs. As for auditory hallucinations, I've only had them twice. Once after a thirteen-hour work shift at a rowdy, obnoxious, rainy festival where I illegally sold alcohol as an 18 year old, and later during a month-long mental breakdown after months of severely heightening my THC levels. To be fair, the culprit was possibly caffeine. I was ingesting a lot of it, and it's a proven cause of paranoid delusions.
So you probably do have what I have. I'm sorry to hear that, but at least I don't feel like I'm alone with this shit.
>>673321248
I don't know whose stabbing me or why. I just feel like I'm being stabbed and this feeling is coming from this knife.
It's hard to explain, if I had to guess I'd say another version of me is the one stabbing me. So there would be two me's. One getting stabbed and one stabbing me.
>>673321105
That's a really expensive knife likely to be used in ritualistic blood letting killings. Are you scared of Satanic cults?
It was phone
>>673321517
>Science has all but disproved visual hallucinations outside of drugs.
What fratboy in the bar sold you that one, bruh?
I'm always indecisive and apologetic about everything I do. I never know what to say to people about anything and even when I address my own needs my gut instinct is to apologize.
And no I'm not Canadian. I'm an Oregonian.
>>673321564
Not really no. I don't think I am really scared of anything much.
DPDR. Sometimes you can't function, everything feels foggy.. like a dream. Thankfully I haven't had episodes in a while. I've had it since I was a kid.
>>673302879
Ocd and experimenthed depression and psychosis
>>673321563
far out
>>673303180
Your a psychopath
>>673321738
No accounts of visual hallucinations without the use of hallucinogenic drugs has ever been proven, momentary flashes in the periphery not withstanding. It's a pretty divisive topic among professionals, so maybe I crossed the line with "all but disproved."
>>673302879
I know the truth
>>673322336
You can't prove auditory, skin, smell, or taste hallucinations either! I know visual hallucinations are rare but I've never heard a psychiatrist or any sciency type do anything but affirm that they can happen.
>>673322336
Have you never been a child or ever talked with one? You've never interpreted something as another thing? I'd rather see the articles that back this claim of yours up, because that makes no sense
Some odd kind of depression.
It doesn't go away- I tried to kill myself when I was like 8 or 9 years old and I had no good reason.
I've never had a reason for my suicidal tendencies or depression. It's technically psychosis? I entertain certain delusions that make me want to die.
I don't try to kill myself anymore.
I feel a lot better than I did a few years ago, and its been the first time in my life that I kinda think I won't inevitably kill myself.
Buddhism really helped. I accepted this as the realm of suffering and that it's all an okay thing.
I started eating healthy, getting that little bit of exercise in, and generally focusing on taking care of myself SCHEDULED- none of that new years resolution stuff, I gave myself deadlines for certain tasks and programmed my phone to demand I take a break and apply lotion to my skin and stretch.
Just keeping on track with that changes the whole pattern from bottom up.
I still struggle with my energy levels, and I'm often kinda lucid- which can interfere with work and social interactions.
I bake vegetables, and make sure they're the bulk of whats in my shopping cart. Lots of squash, mushrooms, and root veggies. Saves time and money, its all delicious.
I'm not perfect with it- I still eat meat and some junk food.
I only get around to riding my bike like once or twice a week- but I make sure I get around to it.
I remember to treat myself.
I take myself out to dinner and a movie, alone- I'm an introvert Idk, it works for me. If I've worked hard and I can afford it I'll drop the cash for my favorite foods.
I brew a lot of tea, AVOID SODA, and I'm good to myself- I treat myself to something small every day and something a little bigger every now and then.
I work hard and I make expectations for myself instead of trying to just live up to the expectations of others.
Stay strong all. Hope it helps.
>>673306367
Too much dirty acid, your life is a loop
>>673322698
25 female btw
>>673302879
Manic Depression
Anxiety
Mild Schizophrenia
And mild addiction to drugs
Yeah I wanna fuckin kill myself and I'm pretty much a mess all the time
But I hide it very well so no one takes me seriously or cares very much
>>673322832
FOUL
>>673322893
if we put it off until tomorrow for another thirty or so years maybe they'll cure us...
>>673303180
its autism
>>673323037
uh oh- you're right this is /b/ not /adv/
Hey /b/ros Schizo Aff checking in. I have been pretty stable for the past two years after a LS induced meltdown. Been taking Risperdal but I stopped a month ago as I could never notice the effect anyways. I still smoke weed occasionally but will have acid flashbacks I am involved with NAMI and became trained to lead peer to peer support groups with a partner. I will be doing this then start a group in my county.
>>673322832
you have demons, read the KJV Bible and pray to Christ to remove them
>>673322581
There are plenty of studies going back and forth, check them out. It really just seems like skepticism, which is perfectly normal. Such a small pool of accounts to look through will cause such division.
>>673323399
kek
let's pray for anon's demons together
>>673323430
>check them out
i tired but couldn't find any
>>673302879
Autism
ADHD
Bipolar I
I have felt myself transitioning from manic to depressed the last couple days, and I have been clinging desperately to that high as much as possible. Especially because I get suicidal when I'm depressed and if I reach that point without losing the manic motivation shit will go down.
Also completely unmedicated because it is taking a fucking long time to get anything done.
>>673322096
Hi jerry!
>>673302879
>mental illness thread
>no one posts images, gifs, and webms of traps/shemales
>thread isn't filled with feminine penis connoisseurs
>>673324131
>>673322659
Normal children don't hallucinate in any abnormal sense, so if you're implying that imaginary friends are visual hallucinations, that is EXACTLY what the arguments are saying is not real visual hallucinations.
Hallucinations imply a misinterpretation of information. Imagined friends and events stem from the mind itself, thus not a hallucination at all.
>>673323170
yea
that would make it worth it
knowing my dad and his dad have my illness
both have attempted suicide several times
etc.
kinda fucks me up
I just wanna break the chain and have happy children one day
They can be bronies or yuppies or hipsters or whatever the fuck they wanna be
I just want them to be happy
This is fairly monor compared to others.
I compare myself too much against the achievements of others. Mostly those around me. I'm a pretty serious programmer (7 years now) and would consider myself very well-educated in the field. I've written some pretty interesting software and get a lot of good remarks on it. However, whenever I look at it or other peoples' code, I feel pathetic.
Its lead to me being very judgemental of my own abilities. Right now, I'm in university, but often spend 6-7 hours a day programming. I'm also losing sleep from it and not spending as much time on things I find fun, like playing video games, watching movies and having a social life. It just seems like no matter how much effort I put in, I'm always going to be that lesser person. And for someone just really starting my adult life, I find it hard to accept that this might be all I can do.
>>673302879
No fuck you
sage
>>673323744
I'm not gonna go looking, but if you really care enough to find some, work your way through the studies (they reference each other often) starting from Wikipedia's citations on the matter of skepticism in Visual Hallucinations page or something.
Personally I couldn't care less on the matter. So few people report visual hallucinations that it's easy to just brush it aside as nonsense. I don't believe in aliens either.
>>673323866
i'm on a year long waiting list to see a psych. fucking health care system, man.
>>673324528
you don't want to see the world through sane eyes again? the way we did when we were kids? i can't even remember what the reality is like. i don't want to die like this, man.
chronic masturbation. I fap all day everyday. I wake up and fap, shower, eat, watch something, fap, go out, come back, eat, play video games, fap, browse 4can, fap again, shower, eat, then fap three or more times till i fall asleep.
>>673324700
Sounds normal, or perhaps depression. Nothing unordinary based on that. Give yourself even a little more time to yourself. Every bit helps, boredom causes stress, overworking causes stress, and stress causes unhappiness .
>>673303672
>https://www.wikiwand.com/en/Twice_exceptional
nigger who knows his father, has no siblings, doesn't like niggerfood and studies is fivefold exceptional.
woah. it's like a black unicorn.
>>673322698
Solid way to go about shit actually
there's no such thing as mental illness, op, just retards and drugs.
>>673326549
yeah yeah yeah
THIS
>>673325769
Mental problems often simply go undiagnosed in children. Children act erratic at the best of times. Chances are you never saw the world with sane eyes, but innocent ones.
>>673325769
You know, while manic, I have had a few moments where suddenly everything snaps in to place and I feel just like when I was a child. No worries, no stress, no dissociation, all that exists is the moment, 200% real, exciting, and anything could happen. It was a feeling I hadn't felt in so long I didn't even remember missing it.
Terrible Social Anxiety
Mild to severe depression
Terrible self confidence
I can find myself perfectly content with staying home, in my room doing noting day after day. Maybe after a few days or a week I'll feel bad about it, but then its back to normal. I can't function well in larger social situations, and whenever I do go out I'm always very reserved and unable to interact with people I do not know. I would like to get into drinking socially, but whenever I find myself in the situation to do so, my hands are tied because I'm stuck chauffeuring my drunk, non driving friends around.
I'm just lonely. I have tried to change that but I always end back up on square one. I hate it
>>673325760
>waste my time doing research because anon made an outrageous claim he won't even support
some anon in another thread said aliens exist and there's evidence so i gotta go look up his bullshit first.
>>673316671
I think you should do what i do. I plan on killing myself when i get the chance, but do this. Do everything you've ever wanted to do and then off yourself. I'm talking about crazy stuff. Fuck all the woman, go to a museum and ruin a painting, take a shit in the fountain at the mall, LIVE ANON ! LIVE TO DIE
>>673326449
This did not make sense. You ok?
Pretty sure it's been posted before,severe anxiety.had to drop out of school and start home schooling in my last year of school due to not being able to handle it anymore.im open to try new environments but the moment I'm in them I just want to get out,it makes me feel nervous I'll and panicky even if it's just taking my dog for a walk or going to the store.Also fuck those "oh my God I got nervous once I so have severe anxiety" people they need to fucking kill themselves,God what has this place done to me
there's so many bipolars, maniacs and depressed ones that it's probably a natural state of mind.
How many go undiagnosed.....
>>673327007
Huh, who knew Mister Bond had such afflictions?
>>673302879
I have just finished my first week of clinical rotation in a psych hospital. I have concluded 2 things. Number 1, most people love being defined by their 'illness' and being taken care of by a system they sustain instead of accepting the fact the world is shit and working. Number 2, even the most mentally ill bitches can still get boyfriends. Yet I have seen so many guys struggle to even have a girl look at them let alone touch them.
>>673327385
huh?
>>673303672
>twice exceptional
This is just something that your mom told you so you wouldn't feel bad about failing 3rd grade
ADHD inattentive and recurring depressive episodes. Insomnia often is a byproduct of these disorders. Also have anxiety and ruminate on unpleasant memories and thoughts which induces and feeds depressive episodes. Tried to kill myself twice, once impulsively but got scared and stopped and once planned but half-assed.
Therapy and learning to cope better with the ADHD has helped. Weed used to help with insomnia and depression, but lately have noticed it makes it worse and i feel numb or slightly sad when high. Only thing that seems to help now is staying on top of my thoughts and behaviors instead of just 'being'.
>>673327482
> >>673327007
> 007
>>673322698
I believe soo much in you anon. I went through depression for no reason too and i've even questioned why my reflexes kick in when avoiding a car, but i'm alive, i can't do much yet i strive to continue for some reason. I used to be motivated like you so be careful because that drive doesn't last long if you don't have the will. I'm saving this as motivation. You being alive made a difference anon and i thank that you did not die
OCD. Also Insomnia.
>>673327069
Alright, I can toss that right back at you.
If you can find studies that prove visual hallucinations I will certainly be interested. But neither one of us care enough, so why bother. The irony is this is quite like an armchair version of those same studies I read through refuting each other. There is no proof one way or the other, so give it a rest.
>>673302879
replying to this thread
Depression, general anxiety, very mild OCD
• Type 1, Paranoid Schizophrenic
I hear and see shit all of the time.
• Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
I have been violently attacked from behind three times in my life. Once in my own home. I react very poorly to sudden loud noises and people screaming.
• Dyslexic
Yes, I idiot like a sound.
Lead a "normal life" but sometimes you get low and have to take a moment for yourself to gather your shit together and "man up". Tried for twenty years to just "get over it" before I had a mental breakdown when someone started screaming in my face at work. Went on meds, it helps. Still see and hear shit ... doubt there is anything anyone can do to get rid of that at this point.
Shit sucks. But whatever, got to live.
>>673327939
dude, hitchens' razor, you're the one asserting the absurd here.
>>673327472
>first week on the job and i got it all figured out
i was "defined" by paranoid schizophrenia when you were wondering what to wear to prom... and you think i love that? you fucking retard, you should be nowhere near the profession.
9/10 anxiety
2/10 depression
Probably slight schizophrenia due to smoking while developing. Drugs'll fuck ye up man
>>673320008
They are computer science classes and I just work on the material all the time. I don't know if other people find cs to be hard or time consuming but I used to study chemistry and biomedical engineering and those aren't near as difficult or a time sink
I still have audio and visual hallucinations but I don't want to talk about them with anyone because I don't want to seem histrionic.
Probably depression.
Insomnia.
I might be a sociopath.
I feel next to zero pleasure during sex.
Thus I have a very low sexual drive.
It makes me even more depressed.
I'm undiagnosed. I'm scared it's a tumour or something.
I cannot get any pills or so, because my kidneys are shit. I fear and abhore hospitals due to past events.
>>673328504
Maybe you just don't have the aptitude for it?
I love math but a lot of proof techniques make me wtf hard and I simply cannot get my brain to understand them.
>>673328787
i feel you
assholes like
>>673327472
are all over the mental health industry
meh
>>673302879
I constantly commentate everything I do, every second of every day. As if there's someone else that could hear my thoughts. It's weird and hard to explain. Don't know if it's a diagnosable thing. Probably some low form of paranoid schizophrenia.
you're all autistic fags with made up illnesses. go on a fucking hike. pussies. or make a tumblr.
>>673329010
already posted
>>673326694
>>673328933
you can feel whatever you like doesn't mean you have everything worked out.
>>673328272
Just came back from Wikipedia, and it turns out the studies I read some time ago were about Schizophrenics not having visual hallucinations, not that they don't exist. My apologies. Almost everyone has seen phosphenes, as I alluded to previously.
>>673329222
not like you...
>>673329311
and we know that for a fact because that's your belief.
>>673329376
what are you talking about? are you the med student asshat?
>>673328909
Yeah that makes sense thanks anon
>>673329501
Oh I think I misunderstood you.
I read your post
>(Reply to me) I feel you assholes like (reply to med student) are all over the mental health industry
Instead of
>(Reply to me) I feel you. Assholes like (reply to med student) are all over the mental health industry.
>>673329905
yeah, i use line break as a full stop.
i need to stop doing this, people complain.
>>673307641
oh my god are you me
how do you deal with it anon? traveling usually helps me get over that phobia but i cant really eat outside and i never eat before classes because i always think i will throw up... this is awful, and i also get lots of panic attacks even tho my life is perfectly fine and i worry about nothing
>>673330114
It probably wouldn't have been a problem had I not been paranoid and cynical and thought the worst of everything I hear and what happens to me.
Sensory processing disorder. It's basically diet autism
>>673330297
>paranoid and cynical and thought the worst of everything
right in the feels
sometimes i get really sad over nothing for days and then one day ill wake up and feel fine but its been happening more and more lately.
also i dont really like other people and tend to think im better then most of the people i see during the day with no real proof that im any better. if it were not for my girlfriend i would not even socialize with strangers at all.
>>673330440
It's hard because I feel like if I talk about it the only people who are going to be left in my life are people who only care about me because they have to.
>>673311457
It's like there's a lesson to be learned here, but what!?
I have soem kind of extream sleepwalk the other day I woke up running barefoot in the streets at 1 oclock where in the winter so it wasn t pleasent I also wake up bagnign on walls and dores thinking im trap btw whene i was outside it was during winter anyone got the same thing
>>673313300
Underrated
>>673330722
>people sticking around because they have to
long story short, nobody has to put up with you at all. the homeless population is mostly mentally ill men.
>>673330865
i was starting to feel like nobody would check 'em.
4chan is my only friend
http://flockdraw.com/f1xczj
>>673302879
i love hillary clinton!!!!!!!
>>673321517
>science has all but disproven
Check your facts, jack
>>673327744
I understand actually...
I know derailment is probably going to happen, and I try and focus on an inner endurance to grit through things- even if its only hanging onto that last thread.
I used prozac to get where I am.
It's not what I asked my doctor for- but he prescribed it- I did a lot of research before taking it, but I did take it for about three months until I had developed the pattern I described before.
Once I felt confident I discontinued, and braced for a two week dive in my moods as the SSID wore off.
It worked, I got through the med dive and came through with a healthier system and a plan.
I would never want to remain on Prozac.
I watched my parents get it years ago when I was young, I saw their prescription go up from 20mg through the years and to date my mum needs 70mg and never wanna rely on medication like that.
I'm hoping that when I derail in the future I can do this again- get a prescription and slowly work my way off it with a plan...
But legit tell me, what are my chances? Because in truth, that feeling of inevitability WILL always still be there on the very very back shelf.
>>673331243
he did
>his facts were from wikipedia
but let's not rub it in
>>673329243
Pretty sure I have Dysthymia, mild OCD, anxiety issues, and PTSD. Have never talked to a doctor. My foolish pride prohibits a more enjoyable life. I really should see a psychiatrist.
>>673331587
>Have never talked to a doctor.
this post is so tumblr it drove me sane
ptsd from shit early life. lived in the ghetto, i panic at the sound of loud noises because of shootings near me. i panic at the sight of syringes and the smell of beer.
sometimes its an anxiety panic and other times its a violent panic. depends on the situation
my girlfriend once yelled at me jokingly and i had an anxiety attack.
i also have an irrational phobia of pills because of shit mental hospital care.
dont like going into much detail. but ill answer questions to the best of my ability.
>>673332143
tell me about the time in the mental hospital. what was so bad about it?
>>673325846
most of /b/ is living like that
>>673327744
Don't answer that about my chances if it's not too late.
That's the wrong question- and I have to know the both of us have the grit to pull through.
>>673330779
Yeah, just stick to the grass.
>>673332272
they put me through a fuck ton of meds i didnt agree to taking at all. alot of it fucked my head up. at one point i couldnt stop looking up at the ceiling for some god awful reason. and the people with me where actual maniacs. ome woman just sat in the hallways laughing and occasionally screaming uncontrollably until they tranquilized her.
i was tranquilized once because one of the other men started clawing at my face.
found out they had given me quelludes, abilify, and some other anti psychotics. they put a bucnh of mental disorders on my record without telling me.
i sued once i left and had them take of all unrelated disorders so i could actually get a job
>>673333376
interesting. thanks.
I'm not sure, but I should probably see a psychiatrist. Let's leave it at that.
>>673332330
Yeah, that's not mental illness. You're just a fag.
i don't get out much
>>673333954
go outside, you fucking bum
>>673321105
arent these illegal