Can we get a goo feels thread going? Almost midnight here and im feeling feely.
Getting drunk on a monday night and I still have work tomorrow..... I wish I was dead
>>672798255
With you there. Except the drunk part. Too broke.
Even in love, I can't get rid of this depression. Dumping my whole folder.
bump, I need this right now.
>>672798436
Shit that hit hard
everything repeats. there are no new experiences left to have. eat. drink. fuck. travel. read. sleep. work.
it's all the same and the emotional impact of living is blunting day by day.
>>672798101
Is that Neil, the guy with OCD?
>>672798422
I keep blowing my money on more and more alcohol. Just when I thought I was kicking my alcoholism it comes back full force......somebody kill me
>>672798683
Yeah an excerpt from a slam poem.
>>672798101
The only girl who's ever actually showed any attention to me or interest in me just stopped talking to me and won't even read my messages all I wanted was someone to talk to and I can't even have that
OC.
>>672798683
speaking of which.
>>672798868
I suffer from the same OCD. I feel the same way about life. Does he get better? I want to know if there's hope for me.
>>672798655
try living for others
>>672798994
fuck
It's getting harder and harder to get out of bed in the morning while the thought of "I shouldn't feel this way" still lingers but doesn't change anything.
Death solves everything. It is a perfect peace.
It is the final sweet transcendence we are all looking for.
It is atonement for your sins and failures.
It is release from all pain.
>>672798651
That's fucking retarded. She left for more reasons that just smoking and you both know it. Get over it. There are plenty of fish in the sea.
I've had my heart broken several times. The first couple times I wasted months, if not years torturing myself over it. The last time I just started working on my self and improving my life and I was in a new living relationship in a matter of weeks.
It's not hard to meet somebody new if you are healthy, look decent and put together, act positive, and are confident.
>>672799079
the logic is circular...i live for them...what do they live for? other people too? there's no intrinsic meaning.
i keep thinking about my girlfriend's ex, it's pissing me off because i can't stop thinking about it.
i don't care that it happened, but i keep imagining a different guy with the girl that i love
i fucking hate myself so much
>>672799316
fuck i was in this thread.
i posted my sad story and got a lot of attention, then someone capped this guys story and posted it at the end.
no movie, book, or comic has made me cry and hurt like this did.
>>672799036
I used to have a tick where everything had to come in even pairs. I've learned to ignore it mostly.
>>672799765
holy shit this got me.
>>672799350
I heard when you die the brain releases a fuck ton of the chemical found while dreaming. I hope this is true. Eternal dreams make death seem more comforting than sudden and abrupt loss of consciousness.
You are meaningless. You are one in seven billion ants on this planet, crawling around, living in solipsism, craving pleasure.
The second you die, another person is born and it starts all over.
You can end your pain with suicide but you can't end humanity's pain.
There will always be more people being born and it will never stop, the cycle will never stop.
So even suicide can't obliterate the source of the suffering.
>>672798737
God just looking at a picture is fucking scary, fears of hights man...
>>672800134
These are crushing me I can only imagine what its like for you anon.
>>672799954
There are ways to end it
It will be the past
and we'll live there together.
Not as it was to live
but as it is remembered.
It will be the past.
We'll all go back together.
Everyone we ever loved,
and lost, and must remember.
It will be the past.
And it will last forever.
>>672800134
>>672799765
>>672799648
>>672799505
>>672798977
Purposely posting out of order.
>>672799030
This ones fairly accurate.
>>672798994
gave me goosebumps
OC, here I go:
>be younger than 15
>Vacations with parents
>Dad saves money so I can spend it in arcades
>SOhappy.jpeg
>My dad plays simpsons and tumblepop with me
>no friends, no gf or drama. Just sand and sea by day, arcade and cotton candy by night
>be me now, 31
>married and 1 daughter
>Do not have enough money to go to the beach because Im a slacker that didnt go to college
>shitty job, paying bills, blah blah
>on vacations
>Can't take my girls to anything fun, just walks on parks, ice cream and such in the city
>at night, play MAME and realize I'm making my girl's vacation shitty
>Cry over the keyboard, while TumblePop plays
That... sorry.
>>672799030
He misses his arms
Living for the rare moments when shit doesn't suck working out for anyone else?
>>672798101
I never exactly understood what this guy was trying to say.
The subject is about thinking about killing yourself. He says it's not like a point on the map, but says this because he thinks that's how some people view it.
Then he ends it by using a not-quite-bad-enough concert as a metaphor for life, and the exit sign representing suicide.
But I still don't get what that "point on a map" shit is supposed to mean. In what metaphorical way could suicide be like a point on the map?
>>672799765
It's been a long, long time since someone has said something like this to me.
I just got out of a 4 year relationship a few months ago but I think I forgot what love felt like long before that.
>>672799765
Delete it. Trust me, just delete it.
>>672798994
>18 times 18 Times
I fear that I'm falling for a girl that lives across the world from me. It's not fair. She's so perfect, why did she have to be so far
>>672801392
I'm already in love with a girl 5000 miles away. Welcome to the club
>>672801392
You think THAT isn't fair? Just wait for what comes next.
>>672800673
that got me
My father disappeared 23 years ago.
Poof, just gone. No one knows where he is.
He calls my uncle every few years.
Just to say hi and let him know he's still alive.
Never me.
Never once.
Ever.
>>672800993
Some people view suicide as a solution. As a "final destination" on the road map that is life. An exit sign at a sorta shitty show is the reassurance that if shit really hit the fan you could. But the show is still going and exit is kinda harsh. Suicide in a way is motivation against itself. Its existence gives you the strength to go on. The glowing sign is always there. But the finality of it makes you want to see the show.
>>672801507
>his dick isn't 5000 miles long
>>672801848
hur hur
I met this girl a little bit ago, and ever since I've met her, it's been more bleak and lonely. That's something I didn't even know was possible. I really want to fall in love with her, /b/.
>>672799452
i don't know what i expect as a response to this, i just want somebody to talk to
>>672801764
>>672799765
>>672799505
>>672798977
4 years.
4 years.
>>672801674
Thank you, anon.
>>672801969
I feel ya bro. Do you know if she's into you? My current situation: Girl visits from another state, stays with my friends. She's real pretty and totally one of the guys. Feel like I can talk to her about anything. She's comes over to my apartment one night and we end up kissing. Next day she doesn't talk to me at all. Find out from her friend that she doesn't like relationships. Don't know what I do from here.
>>672802491
I don't know what to say. Can there really be anything to say about that sort of thing? Maybe it'll go away with time, like everything eventually does.
>>672802491
She is with you now right? Past is past, live and let die brotha
>>672800134
>like like like
>literally
>legit
This males my brain hurt
>>672801392
>>672801507
Sometimes, if you want quality, you have to import.
My fiancee lives in Denmark. I've seen her like twice in the last year, but we're working on a K1 visa now. When it's right, shit just works out.
Dear, Dead Boy
I've been thinking about you so much more lately, probably because the anaversary of your death is coming up.
I've been crying a lot more over you, too. I thought it was getting better.. I thought time was supposed to make this longing go away.
Everything reminds me of you and us.
Our stupid inside jokes, the talks about life and nothing, the way you looked in the morning, how the cigarette smoke would curl from your lips when we had coffee outside....
I try to find someone or something else to connect with, but it doesn't ever feel the same.
Nothing has ever felt as right as you did.
I blame myself more and more, but I know I shouldn't. You're a selfish asshole who only cared about getting high and you left me all alone.
When I feel so alone that I can't breathe I call your dad to see how everyone is doing. They seem okay.
He probably thinks I'm crazy and I probably just bring up feelings he's trying to forget, but I can't help myself.
I just want to talk about you with someone so it makes you feel real again.
I miss you, baber.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=RZgBhyU4IvQ
>>672802854
Yeah she's with me now. I have moments where I constantly think about it and imagine it and it makes me want to kill myself, I don't know why.
I love her more than any other person I've been with and just the plain thought of another person fucking kills me
>>672802854
>>672803172
I just wish the thoughts would go away
>>672802647
Nah, but she might be? I'm going to do something about it the next time I see her, or at least I tell myself that.
Also for your situation, how long has it been since this happened? Maybe if you can find a way to talk to her one on one you could figure something out but otherwise I'm not quite sure.
Bumping
>>672803058
I meant anniversary* obviously.
>>672803044
The girl I am afraid I'm falling for alsovlives in Denmark.
One day I want to visit her. Just to see if she is as perfect in person as she is when we chat.
If she isn't, fine. Just another disappointment. I can handle that.
If she is, I guess I'll treasure every moment and do my best to show her how I feel.
Talking about this was probably a bad idea because I'm becoming more and more convinced as I do.
>>672798758
My therapist said something similar, too. They mentioned that my depression would probably stay with me. They said, themselves, that it seemed my depression was rooted in rationality, but I'm pretty sure they were just sugar-coating the phrase "You don't want to get better".
I think their exact words were, after I joked "Hey, it gets better in time, right?"
"I'm not so sure. For you, it seems different. A lot of people want to die because they feel bad in the moment, or because they think they'll never feel good. You want to suicide because you think life will be more bad than good, which is true, as far as experiences go".
Guessing he was thinking either "So stop worrying about the good:bad ratio" or "Look at more than experiences". Not sure since I stopped seeing him after that, figuring that meant he had no purpose.
I have a girlfriend
She should be perfect
I have the job I wanted
Life should be great
why isn't it great
>>672798556
>>672798651
This terrible poetry needs to stop
>>672804175
>still wondering who
It was the fucking girl he invited over
Bump
>>672803332
Are you seeing her regularly? If so, try not to plan to make a move. I know it sounds weird, but in my experience if I have a whole elaborate plan it can really mess me up since things usually don't go the way you anticipate. Just try to be present in the moment when you do see her.
As for me, I think that's sound advice. I'm definitely gonna try to talk to her face to face before she goes back home. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, but it's tough. It can definitely feel like she's the only girl I will ever have a connection with, even though I know that isn't true.
>>672800673
this is the reason i won't have kids
i mean i might, if i win big on the idiot-tax, but obviously not
because i wouldn't put a person through what you're putting your daughter through
like how you're dad refused to put you through it by saving up his quarters
step it up anon
this is a whole person you're half-assing
they're going to have to live a whole life where their origins consist of being half-assed
get your whole ass in the game
you made that kid, you didn't abort it, and you're a fucking monster if you doom this WHOLE FUCKING PERSON to mediocrity because you're 'lazy'
if you don't then you're what's wrong with the world
but if you DO step up and treat this person in all the best ways a person ought to be treated, you could be what makes this world great
>>672804433
It wasn't her, she would have said something about it by now.
Still don't know to this day.
>>672804433
Usually, yeah. Just as obnoxious as a cunt that goes "There's no reason to live so obviously the LOGICAL thing to do is kill myself! Now hush while I self-harm and moan about how life sucks".
>>672800134
Dammit richardson
>tfw I got fun of at the bank I frequent in
>>672805246
how?
I joke about suicide a lot to my friends. They know my humor is all over the place so nobody says anything, they all just laugh.
They started off as just jokes. When I told them I would think "I don't think I could ever kill myself".
But it just seems like I'm fucking up an already pointless existence. Not only that, but I'm fucking up others too.
So now when I make a joke about killing myself there is a voice, with ever-growing volume, in my head saying "It would be a lot easier than living the life you foresee for yourself".
The only thing keeping me from it is the thought of how my family and friends would react. I would have wasted my parents' time, money, and love. All of it, tossed down the drain.
I have a friend that tells me he feels awful sometimes, and the things he describes to me sound incredibly similar to what I feel. I don't know what he would do if I set an example.
>>672805479
IL?
>>672804997
Just Richards, that's actually her last name.
>>672805479
I'm in the exact same boat as you are. Everything you've said. Fuck.
>>672805764
You sound exactly like my friend, me being his friend that tells him that I feel awful
Anons help me.
19 M and have had feelings off and on for 1 girl since I was about 15. She has admitted to liking me before and last time she liked me at the end of last year it was obvious but I wasn't interested. Have gotten very close over the last 6 months texting non stop and I have feelings for her but whenever I try make plans she's either busy or dodges the question. She says I'm like her best friend (inb4 friendzone fag) but I know she has liked me before. Do I have a chance?
>>672805924
Just go for it. Say, "I like you as more than a friend and I want to be with you".
Worst thing she could say is no.
>>672804668
Thanks anon, I know I have to step it up. And I know that I have to do it not only for me, or for her, but for the good of the society she's gonna live in.
I will do it, no more half-assing
The last album he made had a lot of themes of fearing death
On that note, to everyone who talks about logic and suicide at the same time, you aren't thinking straight. Honestly, that's great, you want to ensure there's a logical reason for the things you do. But you aren't good enough at logic to do that right.
"Logically" speaking, at the base, there's two choices. Stop doing anything voluntary, like moving, eating, et cetera, but not breathing, or alternatively, only do things to make you feel better in the moment.
"Life has no purpose so why should I live?" Because living isn't an action. Suicide is. There's no reason to start living, but you're already living, so what you need is a reason to do the act of suicide, such as cutting your wrist or sucking helium.
"Life is gonna be more bad than good!"
Oh, absolutely, it's that way for everyone from their own perspective. The rich kid thinks their life is more bad than good because they're used to being rich, so they don't care, but damn it their dad didn't get them another car, making them feel bad. Alternatively, Mr Logic, please explain why "Life is more bad than good" is a reason for suicide. It's not like good and bad are currencies that you spend/pay off after you die, so having more of one or another doesn't matter. Especially when you consider how you're proclaiming "Good and bad are of equal value" without even realizing it. If you're that interested in the quantity of each, change your perspective to enjoy things more. People do it all the time.
There's no reason to live, and living is horrible way more often than it is enjoyable. Suicide is an action that can risk putting you in an even worse position at worst, and result in the only absolute nothingness at best. I'm probably gonna die by suicide, myself, but I'm not silly enough to go "I'm killing myself because it's logical". I'm killing myself because I want to in the moment. The same reason every human does every thing. (Not even getting into deterministic psychology).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sBzrzS1Ag_g
>>672805857
Maybe you two need each other.
The guy I talked about is my best friend and I don't want to leave him like that. Not how he is feeling. As terrified as I am of the future, I'm staying here for him. He's got a life to live. He's a great guy and I want him to have everything. And I want to see him climb out of the darkness we're both in right now. I can't leave him.
>>672805400
One of the employees kept asking me if I had a girlfriend and after saying no she started asking me what I thought of the teller I was talking to. Fucking hell it was a slow day so I was the only customer there and I felt all the eyes looking at me. I sperged out and just kept smiling at her questions. I rushed through the door as soon as I was done with the deposit.
>>672806158
I alluded to it once and she said that we are too close as friends. I think my question shouldn't be do I have a chance, but more will I ever get the chance because i don't want to keep talking to her and become attached just to be left broken hearted.
>be me, 22
>girl i fall for, falls for me, things are great.
>3 months in find out she cheated on me with her exin the first couple weeks of us dating.
>begs for my forgiveness, reluctantly give it.
>"thanks for not giving up on me.."
> genuinely works for me to know she loves me, amazing for 7 months.
> i do anything to make her happy, and she does the same, 100% agreeable.
> she enjoys going out, I close at work.
> I will DD for her most nights
> tells me she has a ride home.
> ask if she wants to stay the night at my place.
> says she's tired and has to be up early.
> fast forward to 3 months ago.
> breaks up with me out of blue
> she's pregnant, and not keeping it.
> "Im seeing someone else."
https://www.dubtrack.fm/join/feelsnight
post feels tunes
password: ifeelit
>>672806158
This
>>672806649
Whitewood-boardwalk
>>672806111
damn that was fucking deep.
also checkd
>>672798994
Who is this?
>>672799030
Well at least half his sixth and seventh birthday wishes came true when he finally got prescription glasses at eight
>>672806649
i click the link and it just re-directs me to the homa page, what the fuck is happening?
anyone play dark souls?
>>672806632
Then you should ask directly.
I got a story if anyone wants to hear it
>>672807675
this is a feels thread, let's go mate.
>>672807079
Neil Hilborn
The whole poem is actually better than the sum of its parts
http://youtu.be/vnKZ4pdSU-s
>>672807496
Fuck it, gonna go for it. A few words go a long way
>>672806235
good to hear
i do kinda want kids, i'd be a great dad, but not in this world of taxes and licenses and rent and all the bullshit layers of society
old school shit, the kind of world out grandparents were born into, where you made sure you kid could read BEFORE they went to school because the only thing that mattered
LITERALLY THE ONLY FUCKING THING
was responsibility
and everything else fell into place after that
you were responsible, so your kid learned responsibility
'western culture' has eroded that more and more until, well
we have this thread.
i only believe in responsibility(not socialism) in the same way that i only believe in science/math(not religion)
but i only ever learned them in the most cursory way,
i had good parents, in so much as they weren't bad parents
but they were really only ever babysitters/roommates, as much as they cared and loved, that's really the extent of the relationship
not like i know how their parents(my grandparents) raised them, in a much harder world
for the last few generations there's been zero reason to be responsible because the nanny-state takes care of all that
and with that there's zero reason for anything to matter at all either
and then we have this thread.
>>672807675
less asking more telling
>>672798880
Are you sure she's ignoring you, Anon?
>>672799452
I'm here to talk. Does she show him any attention?
>>672798994
This "poet" is such a sentimental fucking pussy, sentimental pussy, sentimental pussy, sentimental pussy, sentimental pussy
>>672808794
No, it was 2 years ago and she hasn't talked to him in at least a year
>>672806433
"no reason to start living, but you're already living, so what you need is a reason to do the act of suicide"
but 'already living' is a fallacy because it requires going to going to work
every day
over and over as our bodies degrade
nihilism is a legitimate reason to suicide
everything dies, the progressive generations of stars that gathered and coalesced, formed and grew, died and exploded, to create the starstuff we're made of is proof of that
our star will die, expand and swallow this earth, and long before that we'll all die and be forgotten
life is pointless, there's no meaning to anything except any given sentience is thinking about in that instant
there might be 'good' times, and that can be nice
but the nature of age means that there WILL be bad times,
agonizing torturous miserable times, that continue to decline into even WORSE times
and once it's over it'll be as if it you never even existed
so why bother?
personally i do it for the orgasms, and that'll get me probably another 30 years
just filling the time between them here
but i fully respect the notion of embracing end the pointlessness of it all without putting it off
>>672809078
Now I'm sure you've already said this to yourself, but she's over him. This guy HAD her, you HAVE her. She loves you and you love her. The past is just that, the past.
>>672798255
Just got drunk enough to get a buzz. Feeling good mate.
>>672806632
people go on about 'the friend zone' as the ultmate death of potential relationships and i reject that
my gf is the best friend i ever had, we were friends for years before we decided we should be more and it was the best years of my life after that
like friends sometimes do we had a falling out, and went and lived out own lives apart for a while
back together now, shit is cash
what kind of bassackwards world thinks that it's better to make your partner and significant other out of essentially a stranger?
isn't your spouse supposed to be your best friend? isn't that the ideal relationship there?
so why not actually start with your actual best friend?
>>672807918
>be me
>6/10 skinny betafag
>last year around November
>rarely go out to parties or social events bc anxiety
>friend invites me to this lakeside gathering
>decide fuck it I'll go
>get high with a guy I sorta knew from high school
>stumble around the party with an umbrella acting like a dumbass
>ask two girls who the umbrella belonged to
>qt3.14 8/10 with massive g-cup tits and black bangs takes notice
> she offers to hold the umbrella for me
>let's call her N
>I say sure before we walk around the party together under this umbrella cause it was sprinkling
>we start talking about movies and shit before crashing on a park bench
>I don't remember how but we started making out pretty heavily
>we're kissing for a solid hour before her friends drag her home
>I get her digits before she leaves
>friend comes up to me and says that she was a lesbian and that I converted her or something
>feel like a total fucking alpha
>days go by and I work up the courage to ask her out
>surprisingly she says yes
>we go see mockingjay pt 2 (her choice not mine)
>we make out during the whole movie
>we start dating soon after, with me going over to her house twice a week
>we mainly just did foreplay and showered together
>after a few weeks we go out to another party
>get high again
>notice that she keeps talking to all these random guys
>get paranoid and stay with her most of the time
>she tells me to chill
>ok.png
>she sleeps over at mine that night and we have awkward drunk/high sex
>every time we meet up we have sex multiple times
>I wanna do things other than sex like watch movies or cuddle
>she signals this as me being emotionally distant
>one week after new years she tells me that she's gonna be moving to england in march
>says she needs to further her law career or some shit
>I'm sad but happy for her at the same time
cont.?
>>672804010
>>672804112
>>672804175
>the plight of the dindu
Literally can't keep himself from fucking everything in sight.
>>672809746
>but 'already living' is a fallacy because it requires going to going to work
No, it doesn't. All it requires is not dying - Which is achievable in lots of ways. You can sit on the ground and watch the sky until you're shitting your pants, and keep watching. Then you're about to die from dehydration, which is where you attempt to find water.
>nihilism is a legitimate reason to suicide
everything dies, the progressive generations of stars that gathered and coalesced, formed and grew, died and exploded, to create the starstuff we're made of is proof of that
That's an example of "Everything dies", not an explanation of how nihilism makes the act of taking your life logical.
>>672798880
Tell us more m8?
>>672810873
>you can sit on the ground and watch the sky until you're shitting your pants, and keep watching. Then you're about to die from dehydration,
suicide is preferable to that agony = logical
>the nature of age means that there WILL be bad times,
agonizing torturous miserable times, that continue to decline into even WORSE times
"everything dies" the the freedom from the only anchor - purpose
after that it's logical to escape the inevitable agony
>>672809837
I know it's the past. For some reason that doesn't help me stop imagining what they did
>>672809078
Bruh she's not with him anymore, she's with you
>Be me
>Be going though a normal day, work, talking to acuaintances, etc.
>Go home.
>Sit on your bed, and let the nothingness of today sink in.
>Slip off the mask I've been wearing all day.
>Start talking to myself
>Question every decision I'm making about life, work, relationships, etc.
>Thinking about how none of it really ever matters.
>Start talking about death.
>That feeling of wanting death so bad, but it never comes.
>Feel a presence.
>It's unimaginably cold, but also comforting.
>Take a guess that it's Death.
>Start speaking to Death.
>Give Death an ultimatum.
>"I'm gonna go outside and smoke this cigarette. When I'm finished with it, I better be dead on my porch. If I'm not, then you don't exist."
>Light up.
>Death follows me to my porch.
>Talk about bullshit, can't really remember because it wasn't important.
>Finish my cigarette.
>"Well, guess I'm not lucky enough to die on my porch."
>Step back inside.
>Sit on bed.
>A feeling of nothingness creeps up my legs.
>Can't feel them at all.
>Continues up into my torso, breathing becomes shallow, then stops.
>Everything is gone.
>No thoughts.
>No emotions.
>No sights, sounds, nothing.
>It's perfect.
>Eyes open, lungs start to work again.
>Death is still there.
>Still lingering now.
>It's very comforting.
Not really a feels story, but I wanted to share it.
>>672801969
>Pic
I understand this perfectly.
>>672806111
I love this.
>be 14 year old me
>be bullied all my life
>finally can be happy with life
>feelsgoodman.exe
>move to new jersey
>move
>life goes to shit
>starts hurting others because don't ever want to feel hurt
>try to get closer to others.
>failhorribly.jgp
>become depressed
>start to hate everyone
>be me, now 18
>life is horrible
>bad friends
>parents don't care anymore
>no matter how hard i try nobody wants to be my friend
>i have never had a gf
>i cant speak to others anymore due to social scarring
>no job
>doing okay in college
>still get harassed, used, and made fun of
>whylife.png
>>672811699
well shit
saved
A few years ago I used to go into these threads and just bawl. I had a bad relationship with my father, severe depression, and bipolar disorder. I attempted suicide twice, which is a thing absolutely nobody knows (thankfully I failed so drastically there was no way for anyone to know it even happened. Attempted OD.)
After spending years going through these threads just to cry and hate myself, I decided to try and be happy. I made a conscious effort to be happy. I saw enough posts saying "Things can get better" so I tried.
I started working on talking to my father and got a therapist for a little while. I go a job, started trying to be more friendly with other people, and convinced myself to accept myself more. It took time, but I made myself have some level of self esteem.
I had feelings for a girl so I asked her to go do things with me, we went to museums, got coffee, et cetera. I decided to ask her out and accepted that she could say no and that I'd be fine staying friends, or even fine with her never wanting to speak to me again, because life goes on. Life is short and meaningless and the only thing we can do is try as hard as we can to be happy.
She said yes. I talk with my father more often. We have a good relationship. I love him. He's actually proud of me. I'm in a happy relationship with a woman I love, and I love myself for the first time in my life.
I know people said this sort of shit when I was at my lowest point, but it gets better. Speaking as somebody who has dealt with some terrible things (abuse and neglect as a child, several traumatic experiences) I swear your life can turn around. Sometimes you need more than will power and believing in yourself, and there's no shame in that. It isn't easy and you can't just will yourself to be happy. But I just really want to say that. No matter how stupid or unrealistic it might seem, things can get better.
Seeing enough people say that sort of shit in these threads eventually convinced me.
>>672811602
>suicide is preferable to that agony = logical
Subjective feelings. It's not "Feeling nothing instead of feeling bad is logical", it's that it's desirable. It's the same as going "Liking spicy food instead of sweet food is logical".
Again, you're just saying "I feel bad/am scared and want to kill myself because of that". It's not "Suicide is a logical course of action", it's "I don't want to feel bad so I'll kill myself".
Suicide isn't related in any way to objective purpose or value, itself. Regardless of how people twist it. It's "I dislike X so I avoid X". Which is certainly /reasonable/, and most people do it, but it's not logical. Avoiding something you dislike isn't logical, it's reasonable and desirable.
>be me sophomore year
>sit next to quiet cute chick
>She has beautiful Brown hair
>rosey cheeks and adorable braces
>we don't talk for like a whole year
>find her on fb and decide to add her
>"oh your anon from English!"
>"yeah that's me"
>we talk on fb constantly over fb
>we get really close in junior year
>we're really close
>we talk about how one day we can run away from everything and star gaze in the forest
>she tells me she's had a bf since middle school
>fuckmeright?.jpg
>says things aren't looking well for them
>THEREISHOPE.JPG
>"but i still love him"
>goddamnit.jpg
>cont?
>>672812148
You know I've been coming here for about 5 or 6 years now and that's like literally my second dubs
>>672798101
Life is such a fuckin joke. Isn't it?
>be me
>be 19 kissless virgin
>meet pretty girl.
> don't like drama and neither does she.
>Finally ask pretty girl out.
> First girlfriend
> first kiss
>Go out for a week.
>Then drama about the group I'm in.
>"it wont work out anon"
Whys it hurt so much?
>>672812419
Same shit here anon but I'm bout to be 21 I've literally just given up
oc here:
>be me
>be third born/youngest in my family
>Depression runs in my family.
>my dad kills himself when I'm 7
>I attempt suicide and paramedics take me via ambulance to a mental health center tied down to a stretcher so that I can't kill myself
> get sent to a mental hospital for a month.
>struggle on and off with depression for the next decade.
>have virtually no friends during this time
fast forward 11 years.
>be 18
>my mom informs me that she and my father originally planned to have only 2 children, but the rabbi who married them talked them into having a third child to make up for the 6 million jews that died in the holocaust
>mfw 6 million people had to die just for me to be born.
>mfw I'm alive to compensate for their deaths, yet I desperately want to kill myself.
No good ones tonight, just a bunch of angsty entitled teenagers whining about life.
>>672812190
it's not subjective, it's the nature of life on this planet
a death like that is no different than a wolf in a bear trap chewing it's leg off when the starvation and thirst becomes so intense that it overrides the instinct against chewing through your own leg
but an animal has no concept of death, it's not chewing it's leg off to 'survive', it's chewing it's leg off to satisfy the hunger and thirst
it doesn't know that chewing that leg off is essentially suicide, but given the comprehension of the choices: to die of thirst/hunger, or to die of a chewed off leg(presuming no possible medical attention), or simply to end life
suicide is the logical option, the others are needlessly masochistic
>>672812881
careful with that edge
>>672813009
Ok, kill yourself right now please. Post pics
>>672810621
fuck it I'm continuing anyway
>I start getting more and more depressed around her because I know that she's gonna leave me at some point
>she takes notice and starts getting more and more annoyed at me
>I decided that I was gonna make it up to her on Valentines day
>promised her that it was gonna be romantic af
>she says that she couldn't wait
>a few days before V Day
>N breaks up with me
>says she doesn't wanna be in a relationship immediately before she leaves
>sad but understand her reasoning
>a few days go by and I'm feeling okay because I knew it was inevitable
>check snapchat
>see her story
>there's a picture of her shirtless with another guy in bed
>messaging her asking what the fuck was going on
>N says that the guy she was with was just a friend
>let's call this guy J
>J is a nonbinary tumblrfag
>I don't take any of her shit
>stop talking to her
>feel like a complete piece of shit
>cry myself to sleep
>it's two days before valentine's day
>decide to get tinder because I don't wanna be lonely when the time comes
>organise two dates with two different girls
>one on the 13th and the other on the 14th
>next day I meet up with A
>9/10, nice tits, nice ass
>we decide to go over to her house for a "study sesh"
>she keeps texting some guy called "Brandon <3" on the bus ride over
>A seems to actually want to study as opposed to doing what we were implying over text
>try to close her bedroom wall but she says that she isn't allowed to close it
>20 minutes in and her mother comes in and tells me to get out of her house
>it takes two hours to get back home because I had no idea where I was
>feelsbadman.webm
>next day
>V Day
>sit at wharf for over an hour waiting for date to arrive
>it takes an hour to get home
>ask her what happened
>"lol what u talkin about?"
>block her
>check N's instagram
>V Day post about how she loves J
>cry myself to sleep
cont.?
I guess this is the best thread to get this out in. My family consists of my mom, brother, grandma and grandpa. Last October My grandfather died from cancer, and I still miss him so much. I didn't grow up knowing my dad until I was older. So for all of my life my grand father was my Male figure, he was the man who I looked up to and learned from. Me and my grandfather every time I spent the night there would watch a couple movies. During the movies we would sit and talk about everything from religion to politics. He never treated me like I was dumb or my opinions were wrong, and he always gave me advice. So when he started really going I couldn't have these talks anymore, and the last time I saw him I don't even think he could even tell I was there. I couldn't tell him how much I loved him and how much all of those talks meant to me. My biggest regret though is I never asked him if he was proud of me, and I'm trying so hard but everyday I feel like I'm falling behind and I want to be the man that he saw in me. I want to talk to him again , I wanna hear his advice, I want to know what I should do, and I feel so trapped.
>>672811602
>>672812190
To clarify the difference, it's about knowing the variables, making a goal, and efficiently, quickly reaching that goal. That's what logic is.
Generally, when people decide to suicide, their idea is "Stop feeling bad as soon as possible. Suicide stops bad feelings. Therefore suicide" but that lacks awareness of other variable. Esp, why you want to stop feeling bad.
You want to stop feeling bad for the same reason you want to /start feeling good/. You want to stop feeling bad as soon as possible and never feel bad again - And start feeling good as soon as possible, and feel good for as long as possible. Along with other variables.
When you consider all that information as well (Unless you're the childish type that goes "Feeling good is for stupid people, I just want to stop feeling bad"), the new goal becomes "Be happy". Which most people accept as a normal human goal.
Then the logical course of action is "Make positive changes, improve your mindset so that even negative and sad situations are as bad, take note of the good things to help me remember them more easily, et cetera".
Pretending "I want X and go after X" is, somehow, all on its own, magically logical is silly. It's as logical as "I like feeling good and meth makes you feel good! When I run out, I can get more! It isn't THAT expensive!". (Perhaps a bad example with how many kids pretend they'll do meth for a month before suiciding).
>>672798101
>goo feels
When I cum all over my hand with goo
>>672812190
Not anon, but why are you quibbling over semantics with someone who's simply trying to convey a perspective. So the other anon just discovered Schopenhauer... give him a break
>logical, reasonable, desirable
Whatever, they can be interchangeable concerning these matters
I'll bet you're one of those pugnacious assholes who feel the need to assert yourself every chance you get -- try not to be such an insufferable faggot.
>>672798101
Hi all, who else is thinking about her tonight? I miss her so much.
>>672813283
if he respected your opinons and respected you, he probably was proud of you.
>>672807290
Dude, fuuck
>>672813009
I regret wasting my time typing out the few messages to you, seeing as how you're more interested in being edgy and dark and deep than actually thinking. Maybe I was wrong when I said 'it proves you value logic'.
"It's not subjective, it's the natures!"
"A dog choosing the best option to help it survive is the same as choosing to dies!"
>>672813520
lol, you're pretentious af
>>672812870
damn anon... that fucking sucks!
>>672813578
You really don't need to be so verbose, anon.
>assumption
>deduction
>conclusion
That's logic
>>672813609
Are you upset there's someone in the thread not stroking your "Your life is horrible and sucks, how do you do it without suiciding?" cock?
>>672812116
It gets better anon. I felt similar during my hs years. 22 now and life isn't perfect or even great but it's good enough to be worth it.
>>672813224
Fuck
;_;
>>672812870
How many children are born because of "muh six gorillion?"
>>672813446
Let's hear more about her. Is she with you? If not, why?
>>672813891
People have trouble with skimming over ideas quickly, thinking they're smart enough to understand it with just that (Or not being interested in learning something new), so verbosity is useful.
>>672813326
That was just gay.
>>672811958
I don't want to think like this anymore
>>672814065
>verbosity is useful
Overcomplicating matters is not
Anyway, I don't think you know what that word means
>>672800673
>
That's bullshit, you are crying because you have no money to pay some arcades? Be creative, your daughter just need to spend time with you, with you and arcades is just a way.
I don't know, be creative, be funny, be her father and she will never forget.
>>672798880
You don't need her. The longer you focus on the fact that she's the first, the more opportunities you'll miss for the next.
>>672814411
It's not over-complicating them, it's detailing them each, one-by-one.
Do try telling something they're not being logical by going "Logic is start with an assumption, deducing from it, and concluding something new. You're not being logical because your assumptions are wrong or contradictory" and tell me how many seconds it is until they respond "There is no assumption, it's just obvious".
>>672812277
cont please
>>672799401
That's part of the problem. He realized there were more reasons than that but she was the one who kept blaming it on him, on his smoking. He seems to have realized exactly what you just pointed out, he called her out on her bull shit lying by saying she was the bad habit, and walked off? That's not retarded.
>>672813224
Yeah cont pls
>>672799350
Its an endless sleep you never wake from. No more chances after death. There's nothing there.
>>672813224
I'm getting hit with this story
>>672813224
Im listening bruh
>>672814628
Well there is faulty logic, and the person who is guilty of faulty logic obviously doesn't see it that way; otherwise, they would have taken a different approach.
If you had an objective definition of intrinsic, foolproof logic, then you would have the key to intrinsic truth -- good luck with that.
>>672814555
I agree with is but I think that Anon needs to be sure she's actually ignoring him. Your mind races when you think something bad is happening.
>>672799452
I guarantee you it fades man. Get back into life no matter how hard it seems. Sunrises and sunsets become pretty again.
>>672813224
>a week passes
>grill messages me on ig
>7/10 qt3.14
>let's call her E
>she says that she thought I was cute and that that we wanted to message me for weeks but she was too nervous
>we talk about films and politics for a few hours
>notice that she has a picture of J on her ig
>ask her how she knows him
>"oh we used to date, he emotionally abused and manipulated me for over a year"
>hatred for J rises but lol bc N is now stuck with that faggot
>we talk for about a week or so
>generate feelings for E bc she's actually nice to me and seems genuinely interested
>check her ig
>see pic of her in cute dress
>I compliment how cute she is
>J comments a bunch of love hearts
>she responds with "thanks babe <3"
>start getting paranoid
>ask if she's still with J
>she has a massive rant about how it's none of my business
>J messages me
>tells me how much of a fuck up I am and that I should E nicely
>tell him that all I want is for her to actually feel loved and happy
>J continues to call me a fuck up
>E says that J shouldn't have said that to me
>she calls him an ass-hole
>thereishope.gif
>few days later me and E start sexting and exchanging nudes
>she has a 10/10 body, nice perky tits and skinny
>tells me how much she wants to fuck me
>next day she tells me to leave her alone
>E says that it was a mistake to lead me on and that J was right about me
>J messages me again to tell me that I fucked up
cont.?
>>672815509
Always Cont.
>>672803764
>You want to suicide because you think life will be more bad than good, which is true, as far as experiences go
>>672815394
You're stretching that beyond my original statements. I'm not saying *tips*, but pointing out that fact that the people thinking suicide is the logical course of actions for animals aren't even considering half the information. With the hopes they'll agree - that they'll try to see it that way, realize it might be right, and possible change their views over a few months.
>>672815486
Thanks man. I have to sleep now, it's almost 2am
>>672798862
kek
>>672815822
It is 2am lmao
>>672815509
Dont worry about asking, everyone is following you now
This is the most civilized thread I've witnessed
>>672815989
Fuck off, edgy faggot. Either get a therapist to talk to about suicide and depression or kill yourself. Stop getting these threads bumped.
>>672799765
Young love...
Trust me, this won't last, nor should it. Get serious.
>>672815509
I want this shit to not be true
Why are women so mean
Same shit happened to me a couple of days ago
>>672798255
checked
exact same shit man
>>672816073
Thanks for the kek
>>672816073
The abuse is like a drug man
Thanks for the hit
>>672813995
well, probably eventually enough to counteract the 6 million that died. So, the final total will probably be 6 million, eventually.
>>672806111
>>672816152
But she's the love of his life!!!
>>672813520
>"A dog choosing the best option to help it survive is the same as choosing to dies!"
what beast has any awareness of 'survival'?
it can have depression or joy, but it can't know 'why'
it's can't plan out outcomes of potential actions.
but a person can
i suppose you failed to interpret the subtext there, but i probably wasn't clear enough about that
my point was that your proposal of dying from dehydration and starvation would inevitably lead to a level of suffering equal to that which would drive a beast to engage in actions, that it's biology has wired into it to keep it from death, are preferable to "sitting on the ground and watching the sky"
when examining a logical progression of events from any given point of time you're faced with either: going through the motions to keep alive(job, rent, eat) as your flesh degrades into pain and struggle, or
choosing not to do those things
then your 'watching the sky' is an entirely masochistic consideration
suicide is the logical option compared to your suggestion given any consideration of the progression of events
you keep trying to shoehorn in built up 'logic', but i keep breaking it down and now you're just gonna flip the table?
i'm not being 'edgy and dark and deep' (though i'd argue that it's you who's desperately trying to create depth)
>>672815989
Agreed. A calm mood has befallen /b/. Dont stress for as sure as the sun rises /b/ fall back into yhe gutter. Lol
>>672798755
Eh..just manage it
long time booze habit here...as long as you don't drink before noon and can take a day off once a month you'll be fine...
>>672816308
also
>>672813609
>>672813937
not me
>>672816253
Death is an edgelord.
Best feels music: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERyGfknU104
>>672799338
The only feel
thank u gf
>>672799338
fucken gets me everytime man
>>672799929
I put my dog down a week and a half ago. I watched her go, not the first time I saw something die. It doesn't seem so bad, if it's not violent they just stop moving and struggling slowly, a little less fight each moment. And then they're still. When she finally died, she just looked heavy.
>>672813224
do it man
>>672802570
fuck
>>672815509
>feel like shit for days
>contemplate suicide
>both E and N are fucking J and I can't do anything about it
>all of them hate me
>they all post about how much they love each other without realizing
>J is at the center
>laughing at me
>calling me a faggot
>saying that I forced E to do all those things
>saying that I should stop being so immature
>try to cut but can't bring myself to do it
>try to move on but I can't
>don't talk to anyone for days before N contacts me again to apologize
>she said that she made a mistake and didn't want me to hate her
>forgive her because she acknowledged how much of an ass-hole J is
>probably figured out that he was using her for sex
>start to trust N again
>we talk for a while
>I ask her why she really broke up with me
>tell me it was because I was "too immature" for her
>that I was too sensitive
>explain the reason I was so sensitive was because I have a long history of being cheated on
>she says to chill
>k
>few days go by and we're still friends
>she says that she's gonna be meeting up with J and a few friends in the part to chill
>feel anxious but tell her not to do anything with him
>guess what she did?
>she fucked him
>again
>find out because a friend told me
>tell her that I can never forgive her for what she has done
>say how much it hurt to see her disobey my trust
>again
>explain that I had lost all respect for her for going back to him
>"you're a fucking cuck N, and you don't care about anyone but yourself. if you truly cared about me, you never would have fucked him in the first place"
>her response: "lol chill fam"
to be cont.
>>672815779
>aren't even considering half of the information
>from your perspective
Maybe that "half" of the information is being taken into account, and leads one to a conclusion that differs from yours.
Is life predicated on suffering? Certainly. And every philosopher worth their weight would agree.
Are notions of happiness, joy, and contentment, predicated on suffering, despair, and boredom? This would logically follow the first deduction.
Postulating that life is "good" or "bad" is an abstract matter of perspective, but as far as suicide being a logical thing to do, there's certainly a good case to be made for it, given certain circumstances... maybe ALL circumstances.
This may sound a bit angsty and juvenile, but I think it would be in posterities best interest to end the cycle and embrace antinatalism.
>>672817390
This is getting hard to read.
>>672807150
TUNNEL SNAKES CAME!!!!
TUNNEL SNAKES ARE HERE!
>>672817390
Cut them all off and find a hobby. Make some music, that really helped me when I was going through a tough time a while back.
>>672799929
Mate a huge, sudden dose of DMT is anything but comforting. It also hasn't been proven that DMT is released while dreaming.
>Be me
>Father became Architect
>Fam always pressured me to become an architect like my father
>the pressure went to my head
>did terribly in school
>father never went to any Teacher conferences because he was embarrassed of me
>senior year comes
>he tells m at end of the school year he's going to cut me off
>I struggled, I didn't have great twenties had to struggle to get to college
>estranged for 15 years
>I'm an Architect now and I bought out his office through pseudonym
>I made sure to fire him
>>672817540
You're right that they might already have considered it, but in my experience they haven't. And regardless, it's still best to point it out - Especially with how depression, like any mental illness, is about affecting the way you think.
No stance on antinatalism. Personally I'm a fan of any species learning as much about the Universe as possible. If humanity screws up and dies off, another species could take it up, and if not, we'd continually progress until we know a nice whole bunch.
Everyone looks at me and they think.
"This guy has it all figured out"
But I don't...I feel like shit all the time.
>Be me, 23 years old
>I'm an actor, pretty well known in my eurofag country.
>You wouldn't know me though. Mostly Arthouse films that no one sees.
>I have a beautiful girlfriend. 9/10 face 10/10 body. not even kidding.
>Everyone that meets me tells me I'm so lucky, I get to do what I love as a job, I have money and everything that I could hope for.
>Good friends.
>still feel like shit.
And the worst part is that I know I shouldn't feel like shit.
I know I should feel good and be happy.
but I'm not.
I just come home and pour myself and drink and cry or browse 4chan.
>>672817390
yeah dawg, highschool was a lot like this for me too
was one of the 'nice guys', got me lots of tail, way too much feels, always ended in heartbreak
just stop. it's hard, but do it. move on, meet new people from completely different places,
and the most cathartic thing for you is to spill EVERYTHING you know about it to either of the two
but ONLY if they contact you first(otherwise you're just being catty)
and tell them they're whores for how they go about it
and that you don't associate with whores
live life
craigslist can be a good place to find a qt3.14 cuddlebuddy that's great for sexiteims and chats and movies etc
>>672818027
damn dude.
dads can be such fucking pricks
>>672818213
fuck
you
>>672818213
Sorry you feel like that, anon.
>>672818512
Thanks,
Depression isn't picky.
>>672818444
I'm sorry if I angered you.
Just trying to share.
>>672818035
At the end of the day, for most of us, it's ingrained in our DNA to survive and persevere, so it's not like suicide is going to catch on. And no matter how pernicious our desires may be, what we really desire is desire itself.
I apologize if I'm being too pedagogical, I'm just kind of thinking out loud.
>>672813326
>>672798862
>top rattle
>>672817390
>now I really wanna die
>cry myself to sleep every night
>only a few days before she leaves to go to england
>N starts to turn my friends against me
>people start messaging me telling me to leave N alone, and that I should apologise for hurting her feelings
>even J comes back to once again tell me to fuck off
>try to defend my case to people but nobody takes my side
>E starts spreading rumors about how I raped her
>can't go to parties anymore because everyone there hates me
>N leaves for england
>find out that N and J are in an online relationship
>all E posts on instagram is about how much she loves J
>can't fucking take this
>I'm trying to cut them off but they keep coming back
>my depression, anxiety, and paranoia has worsened because of them
>but they don't care
>none of them do
>no remorse for their actions
>I'm trying to start something with a really nice and caring girl but all I do is doubt myself
>I look at myself in the mirror and all I see is someone I hate
>fuck, /b/ I need a god damn hug
>>672819015
All my hugs to you brother.
>>672819015
Hey man, its alright. I'm here.
>>672800858
I relate heavily to this. I want a drink right now but I'm broke. Got fired from a job i love a few days ago so i don't have money to even empty my piggy bank to even get a decent small drink.
>>672819244
>>672819228
>>672819323
Did that line actually come from that vapid fucking television show??
>>672819537
I hate that show so much
>>672819537
yeah
>>672819015
Come here my friend.
>>672819890
Hmm... they probably got it from a meme or some shit anyway.
It is a good line though
>>672819015
>caring this much about roasties
just end it kill yourself faggot
>>672818822
Oh, no, it's fine. I actually got something from it all, which is rare as fuck on internet debates.
>>672798101
Recently found out I have this kidney disorder that runs in my family. Everyone who had it died before they were 35. My only match for a kidney that could prolong the disease is my cousin's who doesn't want to give it to me.
>>672819015
Message the first girl your IG info
User name and password and tell her to look at j activities
Or do it to the second girl so they can see
Overall.. Sounds like you're a bit trusting and sensitive
/hug
>>672820341
ayyye ive basically got the same thing
just dont breed
>>672807150
Why are those punk ass faggots picking on a homeless man?
>>672819015
do both girls know they're both fucking the same guy?
do you have chatlogs of all this stuff you're talking about?
do up a big fancy thing with everything you can get your hands on and post it it everywhere you can where all those "friends" who've sided against you will see it
had the same thing with an ex cheating on me(i caught them in the act on MY couch) after 4 years, kicked her out and she moved in with him
all 'our' friends became her friends
i don't really know how that works
still extremely vindicating and cathartic to post everything i had on the topic everywhere i knew that everyone we knew would see it
so they'd know
lots of super personal stuff about myself, but as much as i'd want it kept private i'd rather them all know i was a stand up guy in all of it, and that she was the whore, and the guy was a shitheel,
than just keep it 'private'
life goes on, there's people that are WAY more worthy of your affections, and who will appreciate yours
and srsly, the types of people you're describing...
you're better off without them
>>672804010
>>672804112
>>672804175
Im almost at that point. Except Noone will save me.
>>672798651
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay
>>672820500
I feel bad...
So what do you do when your best friend of 10 years stops talking to you and refuses to hang out or play vidya games because he suddenly says he's depressed?
>>672820607
What's going on, anon?
>>672820879
You make a real effort to pull them out of it. Show up at their house and force them to be outside. Why are they depressed?
Bump, come on guys
>>672820901
I feel like I'm losing everything. My family don't mayest besides my niece's. Ill give anything for them. Even though they're not my kids, i raised the oldest for 3 treats while in high school, alongside dealing with my moms extreme alcohlism, my dad hating me and being on cocaine, my sisters being on heroin, me being a complete social wreck. That's just high school.right now, i lost my first job of two years out of high school and i was happy 90% working. Pay was shit but i was happy. Because i was working with kids, stress is a guarantee so i started drinking. That eludes to my current alcohlism. My moms a piece of shit, my grandparents are about to keel over in a form of succession. I can't trust none of my family besides my grandparents. Tge fucking list goes on man. ..
this is only a scratch on the surface
>>672821581
Fucking stupid tablet.
>>672821040
I know from experience that taking that approach can seriously backfire.
I struggle with depression (wah wah wah) and I used to have friends who cared deeply about me, and some of them thought that they could "will" me out of it; it ended up making me feel like even more of a piece of shit, because I felt like I was letting them down. Unfortunately, it's an ongoing struggle, and I don't have friends anymore.
Anyway, I suppose it's different for everyone, depending on the type of depression (situational or chemical)
>>672821581
Are you in any relationship? It seems like you need someone to talk to and be with
>>672820879
i'd say give him some space, but it's hard to say
sometimes there's people, like has been mentioned way above, who're starting to resent being the one who has to make plans and seek out others
people in that position might appreciate someone shoving their way in to their dark cloud
>>672821772
Ivr never had someone like that in my life but i never trusted anyone. Haven't been in a relationship since my sophomore year. Now 22. Being anonymous or silent had always been my thing since i always have solved my own problems since no one showed me how to do b anything. I probably won't be in s relationship anytime soon
>Go to West Point
>Get paid 400$ a month to got to school and have a job immediately after graduation
>Medical Shit
>home on 4chan at 4am
>mfw
>>672820879
He might be distancing himself so you don't have to see him depressed, or won't be worried or burdened with his emotions. I do this, I just stay away from anyone and everyone because I think it's not fair that I push my emotional problems on them.
I hope that someone get my message in a bottle
>>672821040
No clue. In the 10 years that we were friends he never once mentioned or acted depressed. It was a gradual breakdown of the friendship that spanned the course of 1 long year. Back in the day we used to hang out all the time, eating junkfood, watching TV, playing vidya games and going to the nearby casino to lose money. First he stopped playing vidya games. Then he stopped wanting to hang out. Then he stopped talking altogether. We haven't spoken in almost a year. All ties have been severed and I can't think of anything to try to bring this friendship back from the dead.
lol most of you are acting like you are 15, you have weak genes and you should die
God, why do I come here
Turning 21 on the 10th, and next week is spring break. Literally the only thing I'm looking forward to is going out and buying booze so I can just forget about all this shit.
>>672798737
ill show this pic to my girlfriend during anal sex. It will be like a donkey punch except without the prison time.
>>672822213
Depression isn't age-specific, anon. Anyway, thanks for the input.
>>672822325
Take this from an alcohlic. Don't go to far, and moderate how much you drink. I can't control myself regardless of what i buy. Itd gone before sunrise
>>672821895
Funny thing is I was the one who had to always make the plans to hang out and play vidya games. he's much lazier than I am, and that is saying a lot.
>>672807150
God, this is how I die...
I found my virgin slut, /b/
Pray that I don't fuck this up.
>>672822535
>>672822325
Feel. I'm 22. I can't go more than a few days without drinking, a lot. I no longer have any friends or relationship.
>>672822535
I mean... my dad has worked in pretty nice liqueur stores for my whole life... I have a respect for booze, and don'e really drink just to get drunk. I drink what tastes good. Also helps to get to sleep...
I don't know. I guess it just makes me feel like I'm at home. Really hating college.
>>672822682
Currently how I'm feeling
>>672801675
You're probably not his seed then.
>be me
>21 yo attractive guy
>been locked away in my room for 6 years
>sever social anxiety
>gf nearly finished uni
>been together 6 years
>everyone is doing well
>no education
>starting to dabble in thoughts of suicide
>gf could have cheated 3 years ago
>still denies it to this day
>have felt crushed since then
>can't leave her because she is all i have
>poor as fuck
>no friends
>fucked up sleeping patterns
>slowly putting on weight
>haven't had a check up in years (doctors, dentist etc)
>living off health benefits cuz crippling anxiety
>gf will probably leave me when she finishes uni
>will probably an hero
>will be forgotten
>kinda feels like i already am
>>672822885
Me too.
>>672822833
I drink for taste (single malts and vodka mixes) and to forget everything and try to be dumb like everyone else. I hate being an analytical thinker
>>672822571
have you said any of this to him? "dude, we haven't talked in a year, no more vidya or chills? i'm coming over now with games and beers'
and if no then try again tomorrow
and every day for a week, or a month if you're not too prideful to seem like a weirdo
cause why not?
>>672822885
I'm getting there. Was my fault I guess. We're trying to stay friends... I don't know how well that's working.
>>672799030
this gave me feels#
>>672807128
you gave me chuckles, fuck you, good job
>>672823088
I know that feel all too well. Try adding being in college for some stupid fucking art degree on top of that. I will go to my grave despising the American public education system for forcing the idea that a seventeen or eighteen year old is capable of making any major life decisions, let alone ones that cost tens of thousands of dollars.
>>672823278
Its been 8 years since i bsd a thorough idea of what i wanted to do, every year for a careet was different. I studied about every subject to the best i can, but got bored every time. Right now its cars. Last year was being a high school teacher.
>>672823099
I've tried more times than I care to count. Calling, texting, even messaging on Steam never got a single response out of him.
>>672822942
yeah, i know that feel, above i said about catching gf cheating
part of that was a long history that stretched out before that about how far back it actually went...
that feeling is horrible
save your pennies, cut back on spending, start branching out your own life
i know it's not easy and there's pretty much zero will to be uppity about starting a new life and such after she's gone
but honestly once you accept that you have nothing with this non-relationship you're at a blank slate
single life is GREAT!
