Hit me with all the feels you got /b/
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Hit me with all the feels you got /b/
Already a thread going, but it will pronbably 404 soon. What kind of feels you enjoy, op?
Unrelated hot girl webm to bump
picture this:
A man falls in love with a girl, but then she dies. The man then learns he can't love anyone because he worries they may suffer the same fate.
>>672605749
>>672605749
Who is that?
>>672605828
https://www.crowdrise.com/bubbajonesneedsgasmoneyfromyallbitches/fundraiser/bubbajones
>>672606041
Could be, I dunno, I like her.
>>672606044
No clue, lost to the annals of 4chan I suppose. Could try posting your own thread in /r/
>>672605749
All feels but especially feels regarding the scope of your or someone else's entire life. Like reflecting back on your life I suppose.
>>672607576
in the past two weeks my dick has been fucked up, i've had phimosis for about 2 years now (my foreskin literally cant be pulled back over my head) and idk suddenly it hurts to cum, hurts a little bit to pee, i took a lil sneak down on the little guy and it seems i have a red mark next to my urethra, i thought about going to the doctor, circumsision is probably the answer then, but i don't wanna part ways with my foreskin..
wat do /b/?
>>672608695
Dude I've had a red mark next to my urethra for as long as I remember is that not normal?
>>672608695
See a doctor or post on the homepage of /b/, idiot. Nobody in a feels thread is going to be able to offer you good advice about phimosis
>>672609204
but i have a very emotional connection to my foreskin its very serious
>>672609907
Dafuq man, you want advice on letting your foreskin go?
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>>672605501
I'm a 28 year old virgin, possibly bi after being raised by hyper anti-gay family, closet casing hard in fear of losing all friends and family. Fat, no motivation to lose weight, ugly, nose is crooked when the cartilage meets the bone, severe sex anxiety but can't stop fapping to porn.
May also be falling for an asexual girl whose not even remotely interested in me for numerous reasons I'm sure.
Dead end job that I hate to the bottom of my guts, but no where else is paying this much, and it's not even a lot.
Just found out I was suckered into an entrapment clause with a lease for an old apartment so stuck paying for two more months AND they snuck in a clause sayo g I have to pay a professional carpet cleaner for the apartment and provide proof.
Oh, and my dicks tiny and apparently ugly according to rate threads here
I have an abusive drunk father that comes home late nights and breaks stuff. He hits my mom and it always makes me cry and I can't sleep. I want to die
>>672610423
people find happiness trough pain
So many beautiful girls that will never give me the light of day. Will just sit in my room shitposting on /b/ for the time being.
>>672610877
be a man and beat the shit oput of him, even if he beats you, try to hit him with all your strenght, next time the fucker willthink it twice, desperate situations requiere desperate solutions, man up anon...
or call the cops
>>672610897
I doubt it will be quite that romanticized for me.
I've been on a downward spiral for 6 years now, ever since I was medically discharged from the army national guard.
>>672608695
you can have a gentle loosening man
NEVER get it off. I was at birth and it sucks. I have to wear a special cloth to keep it nice and soft. FIND SOMEONE THAT WILL DO A SLIGHT LOOSENING
>>672611328
be strong m8, change arrives when you least spect it, and it not will be something that will come to you, it will be something from insede you that wakes up
>>672611617
I really wish it would wake up soon. My mind and body are going to shit fast.
Happened about 5 hours ago to me:
>walking home in the dark
>it's pretty cold, like around 3°C
>come across busstop
>see a weird shape on the other side of the street
>first I think it's a pile of rubbish
>then I hear a noise from it, like a hiss
>am a bit afraid, but decide to check
>it's a dude
>pretty old, like 60-70, reeks of alcohol
>small puddle of blood around the area of his head
>shitshitshit
>wat do? I decide to check if he's breathing etc.
>Start yelling: "Hello?! Can you hear me?!"
>no reaction
>start shaking him, can barely move him, he's very heavy
>makes a gargeling sound wtf
>"Say something!"
>sound changes to a moan
>thank fuck he's not dead, seems like he was asleep though
>"Do you need help? What happened to you?"
>"leave me here, just leave me on the floor"
>"No you can't stay here, you'll freeze! Where do you live?"
>"I don't wanna leave"
>try to get him to seated position, he's too heavy and unable to sit anyways
cont?
>>672606155
god damnit im 3 years ahead. Fuck
>be me
>fucking loser
>girl says she likes me
>oh fun
>wait for best time to ask her out
>waits a month
>girl tells me she's lesbian
>feelsbadman.jpg
>>672610463
Is this real? Did any local news report on it?
Do you ever think that there really is life in other places? This question has bothered me. People ask it all the time, and the answer always seems to either be yes or no, without an explanation. But no-one really explains why. Does God really exist, somewhere beyond our universe? He definitely exists in another one. He might be the death of all life in another. I hate that question, sneaking into my subconscious thoughts. But it seems that a majority of these stories are about women. So do you think there's a universe where it's something different? Probably. Its a big question.
>>672612280
idunno and idgaf, just enjoy the complimentary feelspasta
>>672610877
I come from a home like that too. One day you'll get tired of it and you'll actually fight your dad. He's been a little better since but its never perfect. Stay tough you'll make it.
>>672612563
This might be better suited for a board like /x/ man.
>>672612563
Ireally wish the mutiverse theory is right and that reincarnation is real. I'd love to be in a universe like some of the fictional ones we have in video games and cartoons. This world sucks
>>672612977
There's no guarantee the world you're reborn into is any better. If multiverse theory is correct, there is an infinite number of different universes. So the chances you get reborn into a better life is immeasurable. Though sorry your life sucks mate. I wish you all the luck in the world
>>672613654
>this
Basically your chances of being born as an amoeba, or as any of the life forms annihalated during a mass extinction, far outweigh your chances of anything else.
Anyone wanna talk about something going on? I'm all ears.
>>672614009
But, if we give up on that tiny ray of hope that life might get better. Shouldn't we struggle to reach that place no matter the odds?
>>672607034
Tumblr gtfo
>>672607739
The end kek
>>672614613
Thx for asking anon, feel like sharing
> Am 24, working a dead end job (went to uni for 3 years but dropped out b/c went off the deep end after gf an heroed)
> diagnosed aspergers, bipolar; don't fit in and prone to episodes of mania or depression.
> sexless for years b/c grew resentful at women and friends and turned into a hermit
> now basically no friends, no gf
> recently met a 17 y/o girl at bus stop (she picked me up, I didn't think to ask and I fell for her before i found out)
> found out she's a manipulative cunt
now alone again drinking at 10 pm on 4chan.
>>672614893
> life might get better
>>672616491
I too am here all alone anon. My ex haunts my dreams. Today I slept for the first time in 4 days. She was still there. I'm sorry for your loss friend.
>>672617649
Well don't drink.
Its what I do. Becomes a habit.
>>672617805
Don't do heroin either. I stopped using for my ex and every day is a struggle. She and I are on again off again but I think this might be it. Just don't do hard shit. It'll fuck you up.
>>672612200
move on ross
>>672610249
Fuck, right in the feels
>>672618166
Stopped using heroin? A fellow junkie, ha ha.
Not much heroin where I'm from, but a LOT of crack. Got on that shit for 3 years... maybe only 6 months hardcore. Tried to an hero on booze, crack, ghb (don't ask). Failed, somebody (no clue who) took me to hospital.
Woke up in a hospital that has a whole wing devoted to sick kids; one of the best in the country. Was bawling my eyes out like a little bitch when this little kid (9 yo girl named Emma) asked me what was wrong. I spilled and told her everything, and this kid was like 9 going on The Oracle (Matrix). She told me exactly what I needed to hear, and i realized that if this little kid could look death in the face and be ok with it then I had no fucking excuse.
Been a hard road back... 2 years later I have a roof over my head and a job, so better than nothing. Kinda burned all my bridges and wrecked my future, but oh well.
>>672618622
Holy shit got me in all ways possible 9.99999999999999999/10
Close to explaining why I keep pic related (kind of the save me expression). Yeah, the "nice guy" thing. Girls trap you by needing to be "saved"
Every 38 seconds in the U.S. someone attempts suicide. 1 million suicide attempts per year. Many more millions with suicidal thoughts.
Approximately 5 to 10% of people diagnosed with depression will die by suicide.
>>672619415
77% of all suicides are men.
>>672613654
Well, thanks anyway.
I know it would be slim, but its gotta be better than this, right?
I am 28 years old. Life is growing tedious. Monotonous. I feel like I have experienced all there is to experience. The sensations and emotions of life are blunting.
I feel like this world is a way-station. Somewhere between two deep dark eternities. I can't stay here long. We all go down into the dark.
It's all getting repetitive. And boring. This world is unsatisfying and surreal and dreamlike and so transient.
Food loses its taste, sex loses its joy, drinking is predictable and pointless. Nothing is permanent, everything is...the same.
>>672606628
Fuck, right in the feels
>>672612071
fuck yeah anon
>>672609540
this kinda fucked me up more than these other posts.
>>672620027
Waahhh waahh life sucks
>>672612330
Fuck... 。・°°・(＞_＜)・°°・。
>>672616600
Life might never be better, life may very well keep going down. But I don't see why we can't continue to search for a better tomorrow. Call me a faggot or whatever but I'll keep searching for that better tomorrow, no matter how long it takes
>>672620693
It does. Pain is constant and happiness, if attained, mutes into boredom very quickly.
Do you deny that in life's balance of accounts, the pain outweighs the pleasure?
>>672612071
lets hear that story anon
>>672610877
call the cops or tell him what my grandmother told my abusive grandfather. he has to sleep sometime. and that there will be a day where she would kill him in his sleep if he didnt go to AA or leave. been sober for over half his life now
>>672606155
Thats bullshit. I can bet my ass there are a majority of people on this board that can manage a normie life and a *chan life.
>>672620978
Well good luck then you optimistic son of a bitch. I would like to suck the optimism out of you and inject it into myself.
>>672612071
continue anon
>>672612071
continue please
>>672605501
I'm going to bed alone again like every night
>>672620027
Then join me in my yearly tradition
>New Years Eve
>Make a nice breakfast
>Walk around a mall or shopping center for a couple hours, buy yourself something nice
>Go home and enjoy it, you deserve it
>Make a nice dinner for yourself
>Put a bullet in the chamber, spin the barrel, put to head
>Stroke of midnight pull trigger
13 years in a row no bang. I can't tell if its punishment or hope at this point but one day it will end. Some days I lay in bed staring at the ceiling wondering:
Why didn't it go off this year?
Will this year be better than last?
Who will I meet this year?
Will they be the one to make me break this tradition?
Until I find a reason not to want to pull that trigger, I will continue waiting for that one moment, good or bad.
>>672612071
cont.
/b/ is classic case of tsundere, its really really mean, then you find out that they are humans too
Start smoking and you'll die in 30 years
Do Herione and you'll die in 10
Love someone who doesn't love you back,
and you'll die everyday
so when was the last time you fell in love in a dream /b/
>>672621576
Optimism? Perhaps, I think it's mostly a promise to the friends and family I've lost.
>>672621567
On this board? Definitely.
In this THREAD? Unlikely.
>>672622393
I can't feel love
>>672622393
ha fuckkkkkk this shit. i have frequent dreams of my ex and i getting back together in usually the best way possible. then i wake up. its TOTALLY FUCKED
>>672622630
at least your ex isn't a random figment of your imagination
>>672622797
Well good luck to you anon, I hope things become brighter for you in the days to come
Not sure if this is exactly applicable to a feels thread but here goes:
>be me
>in love with a grill 3 years younger than me (22)
>she's not interested at all
>but she doesnt know I like her
>every time I hear her voice, which is often, I have absolutely no drive to flirt with her or anything. I never even jack off those days.
>just hearing her voice is enough to make me happy I guess, but I still can't explain the lack of sex drive
Anybody have any answers?
>>672621209
The balance is completly equal. Things are only shit when you get so down on yourself and situation that it makes everything else seem hopeless. I couldn't live with negativity anymore. I'm going to be dead some day, I'm not trying to mope through my entire existence. I found things I like to do and I enjoy life.
>>672622110
Sir, I may very well do this.
Can you describe your emotions when the gun doesn't go off? Relief or disappointment? Any change in your perception of life?
>>672605501
>mfw this thread
>>672623091
Well I'm pretty much at the point where things are going to get better or I fucking fuck off and die. Either way I'm enjoying the atmosphere, thanks for the kind words anon.
Maybe not everybody's an asshole.
Last year was probably the lowest point, multiple visits to the mental hospital, failed out of uni, gf left and I lost 2 grand in the process, dropped 80 lbs in 2 months because I stopped caring about myself. I eventually stopped trying to kill myself because I had to step up to the plate and truly start caring for my brother. Dad left a while back and died of alcoholism a few months later, didn't like him anyway. Currently working in as a line cook and it's not too bad. I know no one gives a shit it's just nice to write out problems
> this thread
this is an old story anon. prepare for a ride
1/?
> be me, in ending years of college academics
> still single as fuck, but doing ok with good bunch of bros
> one day hanging out at the fields far from citylights
> see this qt3.14 across the road with sunset light blazing through her golden hair
> angelic.jpg
> most of the other friends already seeinf someone so they insist i try
> gather courage and approach her
> we get along pretty well and start seeing each other
> start knowing a lot about her
> her favourite music, favourite books, places she likes to visit, fetc
> feels like i'm in a movie, goes pretty well
> she introduces me to her friends group
> a few guys and girls, nothing out of the blue
fast forward from summer to monsoon
> we go out on a date/trip
> lodge a place in countryside near meddows and fields, she loves that backdrop a lot
> we settle our stuff and quickly move out for a walk
> after 20-30 minutes, clouds gather and it starts raining
> never took umbrella, i remove my coat and try to cover us up
> "no need anon, i like rains"
> rains? dont they make you feel down and low spirited?
> "no, they're good
> she seems off, she keeps staring distantly at dark clouds, i cannot be sure if she was tearing or not but something was not quite right
> i still let her have her moment
> after a few minutes " come on, let's go back. dont want you to catch cold"
> ok
cont?
>>672618878
I remember this story. You helped me out in another thread man. Thanks.
>>672623175
This! I've been in this exact situation only I was already married
>>672623752
don't bother asking cont. you cunt, just post it
>>672622393
i have a few dreams of finding a girl i fall in love with, but i never could see her face because no one has loved me that way in real life. but whenever i sleep, i always wait for her to show up, that unknown stranger girl. she hugs the best, as if all my broken pieces melt and glue back together and i could manage to live another day in this dreaded world
>>672623668
i heard you bro.
here are two puppies to cheer you.
One minute you're defending the WHOLE galaxy, next minute you're drinking Darjeeling with Marie Antoinette and her sisters....
>>672605501
http://wkbn.com/2014/10/03/video-shows-death-of-woman-during-wal-mart-shooting/
This will hit your feels the hardest. Watch what the minimum wage wal mart staff do.
Remember that Ronald Ritchie caused all of this by placing a bogus 911 call, and then the police took him in to see the videos SO HE COULD CHANGE HIS STORY and evade charges for it!
>>672614613
My father was a musician in Stalingrad. During the German occupation, the sound of his violin filled the air with magnificent music - Korsakov, Stasov - many of the great nationalist composers. To my countrymen, it was a symbol of hope. To the Germans, it was a symbol of defiance. Even now, his music still haunts me. The Nazis slit his throat while he slept. Collaborating with any Nazi is a betrayal, a betrayal against all of Mother Russia. Dragovich and Kravchenko were not troubled by such matters. They looked only to advance towards their own interests and agendas...
>>672624223
Thanks man, nice miss on the trips too.
>>672609315
That is my life...
>>672623418
The first time I was filled with hope. Hope that maybe that year would be better. Sadly it never was which is why I did it again the next year.
Now it's mostly curiosity. Why am I still here? Is it to just continue on? Is it so I can finally meet someone that likes me for me?
Its never relief or disappointment... merely... being.
>Pic semi related...
>>672608695
I used to have the same thing till I was about 12. Got tired of not being able to pull my foreskin back so I gradually tried pulling it down. After about a week of slowly stretching it out I managed to pull it all the way down in a glorious moment of intense pain. Imo I would try that before circumsision.
There is a 7/10 girl who moved in across the alleyway, I've got shit-loads of disorders and I'm 4/10, what should I do?
I realized something the other night and I hope a lot of other anons take this to heart.
I have BPD and very, very severe panic disorder. I grew up with very detached and somewhat later apathetic parents and a sociopathic brother (Just to give an example so you all know im not some edgy faggot, when he was EIGHT. Fucking eight, he killed his cat because he didn't want it). I was bullied physically and psychologically all throughout school up until high school when I was put into a very intensive and rigorous college prep school. From that point forward I did nothing but come up just short of succeeding in anything. I could never make it into any honors courses, and for that my parents scolded me. I could never make it into national honors society, and for that my parents scolded me. I never ended up going to an ivy league or almost-ivy school, and for that my parents scolded me (no im not asian). I have never, in any period of my life, been in control of what happens. I was robbed of friendships and the ability to enjoy my childhood with other kids. In that period, bullies controlled my life. In high school, my parents governed what happened. I understand they meant well, but I missed out on so much because of the incessant push to succeed beyond expectations. And now, BPD controls my life. I'm 24, never once had a relationship last longer than 4 months. I can hardly do anything normal.
And the other night, i considered going an hero. But, the only motivation I have to live now is that there is nothing, no one around to remember me. I don't want to live and die and not have done something someone, at least one person, will remember me for. I now live to help people, and I hope anyone who's depressed here will get what I'm trying to say. Don't let loneliness be a factor contributing to your decision to an hero, let it motivate you to keep moving on. Sorry this is so long btw.
>>672608695
Get it cut dude, and freak out on your garbage parents for not teaching you
here's a story about a guy named anon
>be anon
>meet girl at work, 17. anon is 22
>instantly love girl
>gotta be cool about it, show no affection
>girl always talking about anon to everyone else, always trying to flirt with anon but she's awkward and shy
>one day girl has to quit work. coworkers all trying to set anon and girl up. finally anon gives her his number
>anon and girl start talking
>girl says she's too nervous to hang out with anon outside work, but always visits anon at work
>anon is fine with it and will wait for her to be comfortable
>one day anon must quit work
>keep talking to girl for months
>still too nervous to hang out
>this drives anon crazy
>anon says too many crazy things when he drinks at night
>now girl thinks anon is crazy and anon is just another name in her phone
>anon thinks about it everyday and feels like he ruined the best part of his life
anon is me and i hate myself
>>672625522
If only I knew. Im in the same boat. I have BPD and severe panic disorder so no one wants me.
>>672605501
> be me in high school
> hard crush on qt 3.14 from math class but didn't know how to speak to girls so nothing comes of it
> start trying to integrate with the normies
> go to a party and drink for the first time
> girl i loved for ages in there
> too scared to speak to her, drink more and faster
> wake up the next morning and friend tells me i was kissing her all night
> can't remember
> go to more parties throughout the year that she is going to
> don't get drunk so i remember being with her this time
> couldn't work up the courage to speak to her
>3 years later, left school for uni and I've now lost all contact with her
tfw my dreams come true and hook up with the girl i love but i can't remember it and couldn't re-create the moment
>>672625522
Never talk to her.
>>672625522
Be yourself.
If she doesn't like you for you she was never meant for you.
It's better to ask and not like the answer you receive, then to not ask and not know the answer you might have gotten.
>>672625760
Hey man, we can relate. Difference is, I'm the dickwad that turned a nice girl into a bitch by breaking up with her and breaking her heart.
>>672623752
part 2/?
> we go back to the lodge.
> she seems drained out so i help her with the dinner, made stew and some nice beef
> didnt say a word
> have dinner and go to bed. decide to comfort her and open up
> now this is her story :
> " it was when i was just a child, not even in teenage when it happened
> i woke up like every normal day and mom got me ready for my school
> have a nice pancake and some fresh juice before i leave
> mom said : it's a bit cloudy today dear, wear your raincoat and dont jump into puddles if it is raining whil you come back ok?
> ok mom
> now if you be a good girl, i'll prepare your favorite stew for dinner ok?
> yay! thanks mom!
> dad walked me to school bus and then went to his office like usual
> get called by principal during recess
> he seems shaken
> "look dear, everything is going to be ok.."
> they take me home , i dont know wht is happening
> it was raining as mom said, so wear raincoat so she be happy
> reach home, see police
> they dont let me in
> dad rushed in from work, all sweaty and shocked
> Nobody told me what happened
> Where's mommy?
> police wont let me go inside with dad
> dad goes in, come out crying
> i never got my stew that night, there was an armed robbery and mom...
> we move to a new place far away
> i still feel her in the rain"
> her story ends
> omg im sorry anonette
> hug her as tight as possible and let her go all out on tears.
fast forward to 2 months
> we've finally moved in together, and stuff is going on well
> after that night, things went pretty good for us and we started opening up a lot to each other and can now relate very well
> mom and dad too very happy for us
> was gonna propose her soon
Continuing on about the 7/10 girl across the alleyway, I'm homeschooled and she goes to a school, only time I met her directly was on halloween and I had enough courage to try and talk to her and I was trying to say that I live across the alleyway but I forgot the term alleyway and I'm pretty sure I was almost too damn quite for her to hear, have I fucked up entirely?
>>672610877
Fuck man im sorry. Honestly, if you think you can take him, fuck his shit up. Otherwise buy a gun and threaten him or something
After she died last year nothing has felt the same. I can't stop thinking how I could have done more to stop her from dying. The only thing keeping me from an hero is my doggo
>>672627322
your dog will die in a few years too
>>672627672
Wow, not cool.
>>672627672
I'm aware, I figure if I can hold out long enough then the only creature important to me anymore won't get hurt by what I do
I was going to ask a girl out and pussied out because she was with her friends.
Oh yeah, and I feel all alone.
This doujin legitimately made me cry at the end. It hit home super fucking hard
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDGuNWu9WSo
>>672623175
its cause you feel a love for her not a lust.
>>672626583
part 3/3
fast forward to a year
> a lot had happened, we went on tours, to many place, made a lot of commitments
> finally it's time
> "will you marry me?"
>"OMG YES ANON!"
> get engaged the very next week fine as fuck
> life is awesome
> cant get any better
> our friend circles join too, now we have a huge gang to enjoy and party
> a few of her friends had gotten in to cult stuff they thought it was really cool
> "uh, sorry but i think we'll pass" whenever they usually invite us to their sessions
> i found it childish as fuck
> anonette joined them seldomly just to for the sake of friends
> "be careful anonetter, we dont know how serious it could get"
> ok love
fast forward one month
> she goes out with her friends as usual, i want to go too, but i got some work assignment left to be done, so i stay back home
> 7pm, 9pm, 10:30pm, 12pm, 2pm
> i had done my work quite early before evening but and kept waiting
> she didnt pick up the phone
> something's fishy
> call police and let out a search
> nothing
> none of her cult friends were reachable
> ohfuckno
> go nuts literally shouting out her name in every street hoping for a reply
> it wasnt supposed to be like this
> search goes on to surrounding suburbs
> fucking hell where is she
> week passed by, she still missing
> lost hope to find her
fast forward to a few months
> it rained heavily
> just down the river in the next city a lot of erosion took place and a rotten corpse was found, 70% skeleton
> police call me for identification
> see the engagement ring
> it is her
> she's gone
I still feel her, she's the falling rain. but the rain would never quench the fire of pain it has left in me.
"I still feel her in the rain"
>>672628485
Stupid blonde girl gets sick but then buys an iMac and problems are solved.
Get the fuck out.
>>672628009
Think of it this way anon - In but a few years you'll get her and your dog again.
I'm not going to convince you not to do it - It's your choice alone and I don't know of your circumstances enough to advise continuing to live. I personally feel that if someone is that determined to top themselves, then they didn't really have anything going for them in the first place, and to keep them alive just to ensure some other people don't get sad is a fundamentally selfish thing to do to someone.
I'm personally indifferent about my own death. I don't seek it, but if it were to come, then it will come no matter my resistance. Some days I look forward to it even. Might get some peace and quiet.
Whatever your choice anon, remember that we will be with you. Good luck and Godspeed.
>>672627737
its the truth and its real. Sometimes the best thing for people is to lose everything in order to gain even the smallest happiness that can manifest into a great life. sometimes it takes someone surviving a suicide like another anon in this thread.
>>672628009
real recognize real. find what you enjoy doing in life and do that a lot. thats really the only point to life. since all life ends why not spend it at least doing what you enjoy. even if its just sitting on /b/ with a donut around ur cock. eventually things/new friends/ relationships will fall into place. but you gotta make sure you do something. cause doing nothing will make you an hero
>be me a few weeks ago
>car isn't working at the moment, getting a new one tomorrow
>on the metro, quickly consume a lollipop to sate my sweet tooth (this is almost important later)
>old man gets on
>sits next to me
>see "narcotics anonymous step by step guide" thing
>guy falls asleep on my shoulder
>I let him
>everyone offers me their seat
>"no thanks, I'm fine"
>more people offer, same response
>security person comes to check our cards
>the old man says "I'm transferring from one hospital to another hospital," no card... Goes back to sleep
>as I leave I give him an extra lollipop that I had for no reason
>tell him to stay strong and some other stuff like that
>have car the next day
I never saw him again
not really feels, but it always gives me a smile
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lYIRO97dhII
>>672629184
Poor guy
>>672610654
Now its raining in my room, reminded me of the time i had to take my dog to the ahelter because our apartment complex didn't allow pets. I was 6 when i got her, and i had her until i was 11.
Love you Betty, wherever you are.
I hope they feed you steak every night.
>>672622393
I dont ever remember dreams. My head is too depressed to sort out dreams and reality, what with her being in both, so I just throw all the memories out.
I'm crying now
>>672610249
ohh man the feels mang
>>672631585
Never expected feels from deadpool
>>672631488
>Dubs for you, Maddy. If you're reading this, I mean. Probably not, you didn't like 4chan. Go play some danganronpa, I'll be fine.
I have a knack for engineering and I've been told by many that I was the smartest person they've met but I have a shit-ton of disorders and I am behind in school, I have a lot of skills but I can't concentrate on schoolwork and I'm failing badly, I have a crush on a girl who goes to a different school and I don't know what to do, I know saying this sounds edgy af but I've actually attempted suicide at age 8-10, I'm homeschooled so I don't have any real friends and there isn't much I can do about it. I need advice, and lots of it.
>>672631488
>>672632269
I've tried telling her story before, but my internet is shit and I never fully wrote it out. Would anybody listen?
>>672633116
I'm here, Anon
/thread? why?
>>672622393
This happens to me often, very damnd often.
>>672632953
Just hold on. Don't give up on yourself. That is the worst mistake anyone can ever make.
>>672618016
sauce?
>>672633422
Thanks man. It means alot. No one has really listened in the past year or so.
>Me, betafag in starting 7th grade in a new middle school
>Didn't really know what love was yet
>Tried some things with some other girls, never got far
>One day around the end of the first semester, I think
>We get into groups for a thing in English
>Me, my best friend jonathon, some twins we knew.
>still needed one more person
>She was alone, needing a group
>About a head shorter than me, I think I was about 5'10 at the time
>Slim, fair skin, beautiful brown hair
>She joined us, and she was pretty fun
>We start hanging out a little, from english to the halls to lunchtime
>End of year dance comes around
>Developed feelings for her, not sure of them yet, and hopes this doesnt go like my other failed attempts
>After a fun time, we were waiting in front of the school for her parents to pick her up
>Ask her if she wants to go out
>L-like dating ya know um.... (Spaghetti production at highest in years)
>She says yes, finally get her number
>aaah holy fuck yessssssss
>She's really shy, says shes liked me too for a while
>WAKEMEUPINSIDE
cont.
Hey girls how good does it feel to have a dick up your ass?.
Man falls with love, girl is taken, sleeps with the girl, cant love her, she's your friend.
Now the man sits alone in front of her, alone in the room, screaming, but no one answers.
And you have to see her everyday
>>672605501
I'm a useless alcoholic autist.
Every field I think I want to make my career turns out to be a bad field to enter.
Pretty sure my life will end with me an heroing with the helium method.
I see the Lemmy. Dear Anon: I am still very thankful for what you said to me last night. And the music suggestion was amazing as well. As a matter of fact, I downloaded their album not even ten minutes ago. Thank you for turning my life into a not so shitty one.
>>672628633
>>672634994
Ofc anon, I'll always try to be here for you
>>672628633
I wasnt prepared for that ending
Right in the feels m8
>>672609315
A friend of mine is like that
Im always trying to make sure that he feels included and good (i kinda like him)
That motherfucker insist in being a little bitch
Dont be that guy /b/ theres someone for you right beside you
>>672628385
Can you link me it?
>>672634994
>we talk over the summer a bit
>get back to school
>All of 8th grade was good times, always eat lunch together, 3 dances, I start to understand that I love her
>Friends are a holes tho, we were both too beta to make it official
>I felt like I was the one being too beta, that I was dragging her down
>IWouldDoAnythingForLove.mp3
>I got depressed a little, fearing we would break up, I couldnt stand losing her
>End of 8th grade, we get excited for high school
>I had no idea if she loved me as much as I did her, but I think she loved me a little
>Find out, come end of next summer, she's moving states
>that summer
>I wanted to be with her as much as possible
>We went to movies, hung out, bbqs at her place, all kinds of shit
>Nearing the end of the summer, a last party at her place with everyone she knew
>Got her a necklace
>Her, her friend kat, and I all ran around the neighborhood
>They went down to some grass
>I sat on a bench thinking
>Layed down and cried
>She came around and tried to comfort me, so I just stayed silent
>Went home later
>She moved, I went to the high school
cont.
>>672635998
awww
>>672621576
Just take the closes rainbow you can find, put it inside a syringe and inject yourself with it. Its not that hard.
>>672635786
>>672636365
thank you guys, for listening my story. i hope i can move on soon
just waitin to die here
>>672614613
The love of my life found someone else and I am pretty much the biggest fucking loser ever. I have 1 solid friend but he has a fiancé and a baby in the way so we barely see each other. I am doing shitty at my uni and no one talks to me. They all think I am some psychopathic serial killer or some shit. Pretty much the only thing that keeps me alive anymore is hope.
Hey guys, I messed up... Nothing as bad as other peoples problems but man do I feel dumb. Any of you guys ever had something you wanted but took it for granted?
>>672638119
so many times
This might not seem like much, some words anonymously posted on an image board, but it's the best I can do for you, and I think it's exactly what you need. You've set all these goals in your life , all these events that need to transpire for you to feel fulfilled. You've placed your happiness at the mercy of other people. I know you feel alone, worse still you feel hopeless, ostracized, you're in pain.
I know. I've been there. I understand.
But you have something they don't, a quality that they in all their success lack. You have faced adversity. You have felt what it's like to weep and no one care. To cry out for no one. To hate yourself more than they could ever imagine. You have hit rock bottom.
So use that. The memories of how you suffered, how you hated and how you cried. Use them as oil for your lamp. Burn brighter than all the stars in the sky. Do not wear your misery as a suit of armor nor raise it as banners upon your palisades. Live. Not for anyone else or for anything but for you. Just live.
Live on in spite of everything you've endured. grow stronger for it. Fight for everything and be proud. Know that you are a human, unique amongst the flora and fauna of our world. You can fight back, you can evolve, you can LIVE.
Within you all is the strength to make yourself happy. But more than that, within you all is the strength to make others happy. Become their beacon and light them through the same waters you had traversed. Live, my friends, live and be happy for it.
I'll be rooting for you
>>672609551
hmm...
>>672636781
>Long distance relationship, never meant to work
>We slowly texted less and less
>I would tell her I loved her every night, but it started to thin out
>I felt awful about how bad things were
>Then she sent the break up text
>I didnt know what I was expecting
>I left my phone, walked out the door telling my dad I would be outside
>It was about 1 or 2 in the afternoon
>I went to the park and sat down, crying for what seemed like forever, until my eyes were dry
>The sun was coming down
>I headed back home, had dinner, went to bed crying
>I felt like shit, hated myself, just wanted to die
>"Youre the one who messed up,anon. Youre the reason it fell apart. She never loved you, youre just a worthless piece of shit"
>stuff like that running on a loop through my head
>became suicidal, the break up tearing me down with home life and school
>Got therapy, was taken out because my dad said it wasnt helping out with anything
>Wanted to die so bad, but was to weak to evr do it
>Stuff happened, we talked again, not much
>Still loved her
>Long story short, I'm still depressed. No one believes me though. I've tried to talk with people but nobody really cares.
>Still suicidal, easily upset by things
>I just dont know what to say
>I might end it soon. Maybe not. I'll never stop loving her though
>Lifes a bitch
>>672638206
Wanna talk about m8? Never had a reason to post in this place till now. Ill tell you my dumb story if you like.
>>672638692
sure bro
>>672634992
The documentary "Free to Play"
>>672625292
Fuck
I'm crying
I miss dad
>>672639001
Here goes. I have this friend, she's amazing the kind of friend you get once in a life time. She's the reason I got out of my shell and became more social. I found out a couple of weeks ago that she had feelings for me. the dumbass me didnt take it seriously and left her in a time of need... after i realised i fucked up it was too late. Fuck dude she loves me mate and I fucked her over... I'm a piece of shit man, she told me to forget it all and get this, my dumbass starts to fool with her ex best friend. What the hells wrong with me... there's more i think. Anyways what about you m8?
I never cry to any of these, hit me with what you got and I wont even feel sad.
>>672638116
Can understand all these feelings. I hope things look up.
>>672605501
>be me
>have super rare fucked up bone marrow disease
>i've known horrible pain for my 22 years of existence
>only thing keeping my motor skills somewhat functional is expensive ass surgeries that make me feel horrible for weeks after
>my only social life is on /b/ and church groups
>>672640700
You don't need to feel sad anon. We'll do it for you.
>>672640856
Thanks but I want to know what its like to cry. I haven't done it since I was a kid.
>>672608269
Fuck. I hate stories where the dogs still follow routine after the owner is gone...
>>672609991
More like this?
>>672640700
maybe you're numb to other's stories because you have been through much more than that and no matter how hard someone's life is, you feel no less sad because you still feel they have hope, compared to where you've been in life, compared to how cornered you are. you wish people could be more optimistic about their lives no matter how bad because you know that if youve been through worse, they can surely make it through
somewhere between being happy in the past and your present numbness, you lost something. something that broke you to such an extent, you couldnt mend yourself back and you gave away the broken shards of your heart to anyone who needed.
you feel numb because there's nothing else left to feel. and that's what makes you feel, the long to be more than a numb biological machine.
>>672640958
Well think about it. Have you been too happy to cry? Or are you just so sad yourself because you know nobody would care if you cried? I care if you cry anon. If you cry I'll ask you what's wrong. Because I've cried when there was no point in doing so anymore. I think I might know that feel.
>>672641069
like Hachi ?
>>672638485
If he really was able to make it travelling 170mph without getting pulled over and the chicken was literally just cooked at 350f or so and wrapped in foil....eh. Its not too weird. You can also get the hang of long distances if your work requires travel.
>>672641364
Made my eyes water a little bit. Especially because of how true it is. I think my knowledge of my numbness as made me even more numb.
Ive been bullied since i was little and told i was ugly. As a kid id look in the mirror and i didnt see what they saw. I was pretty and i refused to let them change my mind. Then my first boyfriend came along and he was the first boy to say i was beautiful. It really meant everything to me. Overtime though he changed. He started beating me and saying i couldnt get any better than him. I believed it. I believed it with all of my heart. I finally broke up with him but the damage was already done. After him i grew more into my looks but i still felt ugly. I started fucking and dumping guys. I wanted them to fuck me because it made me feel beautiful but i didnt want to be hurt so i dumped them before they could.
I did this for years and now ive finally met the man of my dreams. A man i honestly thought could never make me feel this way. He tells me im beautiful all the time but it kills me that i cant believe him. I want to believe him yet i cant see myself as pretty anymore and it hurts. I feel that slowly im going to lose the love of my life because of my negative thoughts towards myself.
>>672640793
scratch that, apparently even /b/ stopped talking to me
>>672641687
That's a little how I feel.
But nobody finds me funny.
Thats why I feel empty
Every joke is to cheer myself up, not them.
And it just makes things worse
>>672640793
Bone marrow disease?
>>672641874
It's a long thread brother, I can't hold all of you close.
But I wish I could
>>672610463
This fucked me up
>>672641874
We were just thinking about ways to cheer you up. We havent forgotten. We just didnt want you to forget us. /b/rothers for life
>>672641801
dont you feel a bit happy now? you had a good start here. after years of wait, your eyes finally watered a bit. the shell is breaking anon. you will born a fresh. the water is still a proof the world hasnt lost you completely. please come back anon. just try a bit more and you'll be there where you want to be, feeling, happy, sad, angry, alone, and what not. today you took one step closer to where you want to be
we'll be waiting to hear more from you in more threads. we'll keep trying to bring you back
your past is your problem, but your future, is ours to take care of
>>672641963
Whoever you are anon, you have people who care about you here. You are home here /b/ro. They aren't the friendliest bunch, and will call you faggot at the drop of a hat. But it's home.
>>672631322
I saw the name Rusty and just immediately stopped reading it because this one gets me every time. I hope your dog is in a loving family. I had to give my dog up 3 years ago and i still wonder if she's alive... I'm losing my two current dogs soon as well because the house I'm moving to has a pitbull ordinance. Hang in there /b/ro.
>>672618016
That gets me every fucking time. I feel his pain, I almost feel as if I AM him.
>>672640223
I've just missed opportunities on multiple occasions with girls, and looking back is just... Ughh
>>672642077
this hit me.
>>672622234
sp00ky
>>672642405
Thought about writing my suicide note just to see what i'd put in it and how it'd make me feel. I mean im definitely not going to kill myself but I think it'd be a good experiment.
>>672642898
You sound like dane cook in Isolated Incident
>As I started writing, I realized what a suicide not written by someone who isnt suicidal is called. An autobiography
>Im on chapter 53 now
>>672622393
I don't sleep well enough to dream anymore
>>672623752
>>672626583
>>672628633
i dont know if this is too much to ask for, but i cant write this everytime in every thread coz of it's impact on me, so can some anon help me with a screencap of this?
sorry to be so demanding,
>Be me, 20 and living at home
>Working full time to help out with rent and food
>Mum drives me to work. Usual stuff.
>She's on all sorts of meds for physical and mental problems
>She's really tired tonight, new medication recently
>Small argument, usual family stuff
>No real hard feelings
>Get to work, tell her I love her
>Work 8 hour, night shift
>Buy 2 coffees, one for myself one for her
>Go home
>She's asleep in bed, place coffee at bedside table
>Go to bed, sleep 8am-3pm
>Go upstairs to talk to mother
>Still asleep
>Coffee undrank, cold
>Try to wake her up
>She's cold
>Freaking out a bit, trying to wake her up
>End up screaming, tripping down stairs
>Laying on kitchen floor completely broken
>Brother goes to check on her
>She's dead. Long dead. Already cold.
>Rest of the night pretty much a blur
>3 years ago as of Feb 27th
I miss you mom...
>>672642898
dont do it anon, it'll distant you more, you're very close to life again. dont go the wrong turn
>>672643202
Well im going to go write my fake suicide note thats actually an autobiography. I'll keep watching the thread as it goes.
Newfag doesnt know how to greentext but here i go
Me and my friend are pretty close and i come to realized i like each her. So i set out trying to impress her in hopes she gets a cue that im interested in her. It doesnt seem like she does but im still trying . After weeks of trying i give . And we still talk. One day she tells me about her new boyfriend and i flip. I breakdown and just leave. She texts me later whats wrong . And i tell her everything ive done leading up to that day. Turns out she was trying to impress me as well . I just never noticed . I asked her how come she never told me anything. And she said . A few weeks ago i said i might be gay .
Flashback to two weeks ago , i was hammered and watching a movie with johnny depp.
We still talk today . She just makes my life a living hell . Shes still with guy and she leads me on but never going past anything close to cheating. Says i love you and everything. I should just not talk to her . But shes my only friend.
>>672643390
Or possibly not, I'll take your word and not do the autobiography.
>>672643592
To green text use >greentext
>>672643354
I'm sorry, this really hit me
>>672643592
>>greentext
>>672642767
Yeah, m8 me too. Its just her, I had the chance too that's what I hate. Now that I think about it, I fucking love her... I'm only fooling around with her friend because I get jealous. You'll find someone mate, just be confident in yourself even if you might not be all that.
>>672643600
the past haunts you to numbness, you need to look forward in life, meet people, try to be helpful to them whenever they need you and sometimes even if they dont, make others happy and you'll find your happiness in how wonderful life can be when you let go of what has happened and cant be changed
get involved with other's lives, try to be a part of it, and you'll live a life you never imagined to exist
>>672643600
Same person, I have no idea what to do to see if I can even feel sad feels anymore.
>>672643788
Yea, I can only do better in the future I guess
>>672644307
in order to feel sad, you need to experience happy first. it's all about the balance. you dont feel sad, you'd stay unimpressed of life.
I want to destroy the Monsanto company. I want them gone. I want to fry them off planet earth. I was an enormous tornado to eliminate every single fucking motherfucking science lab they have. I hate them. I want them to gtfo out of my food. Get out you fuckers. Go to hell and fucking burn Monsanto you fucks. Fuck you for fucking up my garden fun. The only fun I can have you fucks. I hate you Monsanto. Why is your website even still online. Why haven't people destroyed their entire computer system. Fuck you Monsanto you fucks.
Ok I'm done now.
>>672644453
Yeah always be optimistic. Thats what's gotten me through everything it's how I met her. I know I'll be with her, just not now... need to be patient. Thanks for hearing me out I feel better. I wish you and you all anons a brighter day. Anyone want someone to listen to them I'm here.
>>672644480
Got a story, sure. Not feels at first, but, here goes.
>Be me, 8th grade
>1st period woodshop
>Got out of scoliosis correction surgery earlier that year, was forced to skip school on doctor's call for about a month because of it.
>Am forced to take everything really easy, don't strain yourself, etc.
>First day of woodshop class, I'm paired with a group of three or four other people
>One person in group is a girl in the grade above me, 7/10 even then
>She is really shy, but is really interested in talking to me
>Tells me she wants to be a doctor later on in life and wants to know my experiences in surgery
>End up talking to her nonstop in my 1st period class
>Mostly about my hospital experiences at first, but eventually open up more, us talking more about our interests
>This goes on for the whole year
>feelsgoodman.jpg
Cont.?
>be me
>sophomore year new highschool
>bad family issues in the previous year, "friends" never supported me
>make new friends
>made it my personal mission to be there for them 24/7, no matter what
>become everyones shoulder to cry on
>mediate problems, comfort in times of need, etc
>beginning to take its toll on my grades
>keep doing it
>fastforward to 2nd semester finals week
>desperately studying to pass classes
>2am, friend messages me
>"anon, can i talk to you? shits going down"
>completely tanked, ignore him for the first time, figure ill give an excuse during school
>he doesn't show up for school
>absent all week
>oshit.png
>doesn't respond to calls/texts
>find out later that he killed himself
>police find out he jumped off a bridge because of family issues
>the same ones i was always there to fix
>>672645610
Go on..
>>672645610
go on
>>672645714
Sorry to here that anon. Its always the little things that can make a difference, but you didn't know.
>>672643592
Hey anon, just tell her to stop playing with you. I have been in your position as well, it really sucks when you are just a considered a play-thing
>>672645610
Cont.
>Final exam day, which means sit around and do nothing in woodshop
>She tells me that her parents are going to move back to her home town
>Tells me that her dad is going there for his job, and that he'll be there for a good five years or so
>Decide to ask her for her number
>She giggles at me
>Fuck
>damagecontrol.webm
>Try to derail, act like it didn't happen
>She giggles more at me being flustered
>She writes down her number, then gives it to me
>Tells me to text her some time
>Wait a day, then text:
"Hey, Anonette, this is Anon."
>Don't get a reply for a few hours
>Think it's a bogus number
>Am about to ask if it's a wrong number
>"Hey, Anon! Sorry, phone was dead when you texted. How are you?"
>Score
>We start up a conversation through texts
>Begin to text her almost every day
>Amass around 2k messages a month for around 6 years or so
>Phone capacity reached once every couple of weeks
>We tell each other about literally anything that has happened or is happening in our lives
>We know each other like the back of our hands
>She will call every so often when she needs to talk to someone for any reason
Cont. (Damn these character caps)
>>672647916
>Fast foward to my junior year, her senior year
>About April, so year is coming to a close
>She calls one night at about 4AM on a weeknight
>Normally would be pissed if someone else called, but this is my best friend, so I answer it
"Hello?"
>"Hey, Anon..."
"What's wrong?"
>"Nothing really. Worried about my grades, as usual. I don't know if I'm good enough for [dream college]"
"ACT grades not back yet?"
>"Not yet. But, I don't feel like I have it good enough even now"
>This goes on for an hour
>Eventually, there's a lull in yhe conversation.
"Hey, Anonette?"
>"Yeah?"
"I've been thinking and...Would you like to go out? Maybe some time when you're in the area?"
>Silence.
>"...You're serious?"
"Yeah"
>WHYMUSTYOUDOTHISTOME.WAV
>"...Anon, I'd love to, but...we're states away. I don't think long-distance would work...Sorry."
"...But, that's not a no?"
>"I'd have liked it if you'd have asked me in woodshop, honestly."
>wow ok
>"But...If I'm ever in the area...Sure."
>Celebrate by myself about this
>I have a date eventually
Cont.
>Update
>This thread has been pruned or deleted
nothing hits me more than this, the feeling of losing the group of people who, even though have just met over internet but still get along so well, the feeling of being sure that even if there's another thread, it wont be the same people as before, the feeling of how life cant be undone..
It's not the feel-iest feel but it got me down because it happened today
> be me, weeks ago
> go to the club for the first time even though high school loser
> my friend gets me talking to a girl, have a sneaky kiss at the end of the night
> talk to her on facebook every day for weeks
> massive messages, that are paragraphs long
> we like so much of the same stuff
> go to the club more and more just because she asked me to or because I was out doing other things
> spend all night together
> everyone asks if we are together and says we make good couple
> even random people would come up to us and say it
> listen to a song about love and she comes to mind
> start thinking of ways to ask her out and get more serious
> she stops replying for days, which was really uncommon
> See her posting pictures on snapchat with her friends, one guy I don't recognise
> log into facebook
> femanon is in a relationship
> ouch
> No explanation or nothing
> She finally replies to me but acts like nothing happened
It wouldn't have hurt so bad if she just told me it was over because she found someone new. That would have been millions of times better then just seeing it on facebook and snapchat.
>Went with my girl to a party last Friday
>Im having fun and end up getting hammered
>Letting my girl do her own thing and have fun
>She ends up fucking my friend
>I broke up with her and dropped her immediately the next day
>Tfw I miss her like crazy but Im trying to keep my ground and not talk to her because shes a cheating bitch
>Tfw it hurts bro.
>>672649150
move onto the next hoe already
>>672649150
yfw youll end up texting her back to root.
>>672649303
>>672649414
Nah guys I'm really not trying to talk to her. Ill just drink until I end up not caring anymore. It's all gooood
>>672649150
We know it hurts, anon, but you did the right fucking thing and kept your dignity. You should focus on your hobbies/job/studies and hang out a lot with friends, and see other girls.
>>672649712
>Return
>im not trying to talk to her
>drinking
enjoying calling her in the morning of the hours to hear her saying that shes probs fucking the same guy
>>672648104
>Fast forward again to that summer
>My birthday in June
>She surprises me by showing up to my house when there's no one else here (Still in high school, so living with parents)
>Greets me with a hug at the door
>I invite her in, ask her if she wants something to drink, etc.
>She sits on a couch, starts telling me of the recent news
>Hands me a letter, it's an acceptance letter to her dream college
>Can't help but feel happy for her
>After a miniature celebration right there, I ask her if she'd like to go out on that date she promised
>"That's one of the reasons I came here, actually!"
>Good.
>We end up going to a local restaurant
>She talks about how great it is that she's going to go to her dream college almost all day.
>Asks me about my plans, don't have any yet, only ideas
>She assures that I'll find something some time
>Go back to my house after the date, no one is there still
>She eventually gets pretty quiet
>Ask her what's wrong
>She avoids it for a little while
>I place a hand on her shoulder, and ask again, more assertively
>"Well...It's that...With my going to this college and all..."
"Yes?"
>"This will probably be the only physical time we'll be together in a long time..."
>She starts to tear up
I just sit there for a moment in silence
>"I'll be farther away, and you'll be in college soon, too, and we won't have any time together"
>She almost falls into me while talking
>Slowly wrap arms around her, not entirely sure of what to do
"Don't worry...We'll still talk often, won't we?"
>"Yeah, but...you don't understand..."
"Then help me understand."
>She leans up and kisses me on the spot
>I stall in place, not knowing what to do
>Melt into it, we start to make out for a while before she pulls away again, tears streaming
"I...understand now."
>She nods, curling into me
>We sit like this and just talk about our feelings for a while
Cont.
>>672650193
seeing you guys...make me sad... I feel like i'm not connected to 4chan anymore. you guys were my last front. now I cant talk to you guys in the feel threads anymore about my problems... it's weird i can tell you this but i dont really want to go into anything else
>courtesy boot
>>672650193
Dude chill. Just cause I'm drinking doesn't mean I'm going to call her. I've done it to another girl before and I know it doesn't work so I wont be making that mistake again.
>>672650553
goodnight /b/
>>672650432
>She tells me how much she's wanted to kiss me, amongst other things
>She tells me how much she'd like for her to be nearby
>And, at the end of all her spilling, she stops and tells me four words:
"I love you, Anon"
>I freeze
>Don't know what to say, just look down at this girl that's known me for so long, the person that would call me at 4 AM with something to talk about, good or bad
>And it surprised me that she would say that
>She looks up at me for a moment when I don't say it back
>I lock eyes with her, my face as red as it can possibly be
"I...Yeah...I love you, too."
>She smiles, and just lays back onto me
>Silence for a long while
>She eventually gets up, says she has to go, doesn't want it to be too late when she gets home
>I make sure she'll be fine and whatnot
>She kisses me one more time, then takes off with another "I love you"
>Go to bed almost immediately after, happy.
>We consider ourselves a long-distance couple from then on
>A year passes, and I enroll into college into MusicEd.
>We still talk as often, go on another date at some point, which goes almost the same way
>The first semester goes by fine
>We
>Late into this January, my second semester of college, rolls around.
>Get another call at 4AM
>"Hey, Anon..."
"What's wrong this time?"
>"Nothing...Just wanted to hear your voice."
"Well, here I am."
>We talk for a while.
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>>672650824
goodnight you self loathing weak faggot
I'd like to keep this thread alive
>>672605501
>24
>lost my job to lay offs
>three college degrees
>broke as shit and cant find another job
>dont know what to do
>started selling pot to get by
>i hate my life
>>672652158
>February 9th comes around
>I get a call from her number in the middle of the day
>It's not her voice
>"Are you Anon?"
"Yes...This is he...What's wrong?"
>"I'm Anonette's father...I noticed you were regarded as her boyfriend in her phone."
"Yes, is something wrong?"
>I'm ready to defend myself for her
>"Anon, I...There's no real way to say this..."
>His voice is shaken
"What?"
>"Anon...She's dead...Anonette's dead..."
>I go numb
>There are no words to describe my feeling
>"Are...Are you there?"
"Bullshit...I talked to her a week ago!'
>"Anon, please. She died in a car crash, a head-on collision with an 18-wheeler..."
>I stall again, tears falling from my eyes
"...When is this funeral?"
>"We had it already...I'm sorry...I'll send you some of her things in the mail...Anon, I just...I'm sorry..."
"...No, no, thank you for letting me know..."
>"If you need anything, just let us know at [phone number]...Again...I'm sorry you had to find out this way."
"Alright...Thanks..."
>I walk back into class, grab my things and walk home.
It has been a month since then, and yet, my life feels so empty now. That's it now, /b/. First girlfriend I get, and she dies a year after we get together.
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>>672652538
what
if u got decent education why cant u find a job to atleast get by
>>672652745
Completly bullshit. Nice pasta tho.
>>672644826
you sound like an uninformed teenager or 20 year old burn out, maybe you should actually look into monsanto before you like a de-credited documentary tell you the devil is real.
Girl told me that I was an alcoholic who loves to party and make poor decisions. Except I'm just any other guy in college trying to make memories. Thought we understood each other but obviously my beta ass didn't.
>>672652837
My degrees relate to fabrication, and because its a slow time of the year, factory jobs arnt hiring.
>>672653044
Believe what you want, man. I'm done telling my piece.
>>672653750
>>672605501
seen this the other day... single father was so proud.. I wanted to tell him if it was nentendo he should hit the reset and try again. She lives life as a vegetable
>25
>NEET
>Only friend died last month
>Lose insurance in a few months, wont be able to afford meds.
>Started sucking dick for pills and blow
>Planning to OD at the end of the year.
>>672653364
Its not believable if the girl always die in the end. Try to invent a different ending next time.
>>672654166
Good luck sucking dick.
>>672605501
im hungry, dats a feel
>>672628633
so the cult "friends" killed her? wtf kind of cult was that?? I'm super sorry to hear about that
>>672657278
could be, that's what i speculate. but again, nothing could be found from the body coz it was rotten to the bone. those guys vanished too
