Feels thread
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Feels thread
>Be me
>Have 12 year old dog
>Cutest and most loyal dog
>Would always bark in happiness everytime my father came home
>Rewind to last month
>In vet, about to get lethal injection
>Whimpers out in sadness, realizing he won't be with my dad anymore
>Next day
>Dad crying, ask him whats wrong
>Says that the death isn't what impacted him, its that my dog won't be able to find him anymore and bark for joy whenever he eventually sees him...
I wish I had some pictures of him, but I don't. His name was Eddie, and he was the best. I'll always miss him.
eh ill give you a bump op
>>673783730
anon who's to beta to tell a girl he loves her, pretty sure she's into a different dude
>>673784015
sorry to hear about that fam
hate seeing dads cry
Name of the movie?
>>673784071
>>673786474
If you're talking about this one, I'm pretty sure it's a documentary called "Free To Play".
>>673786474
Hey Arnold
Someone was posting stories on Ali, Lenny and Zena before the thread 404'd.
I wasn't done reading. Anyone has these saved?
Yeap that's it.Thank you
I'm sure a few people haven't seen this yet
>>673783730
>black and white instagram filter of a nicktoon
3sad5me ;_; liek dis if u crie vreytiem
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>>673787947
>>673788015
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>>673784071
This one hit home.
>>673788097
>>673788056
>>673788015
>>673787947
Too long, didn't even start
>>673787726
holy shit, that's some tough shit.
>>673787726
Lost
>>673784071
>>673788407
Forgot to post
>>673787947
as if anybody will read that... tl
>>673784071
Artful, didn't lay it on thick
I hope you guys all feel better. You'll make it through the hard times.
>>673787726
I hate this shit.
If you rape your daughter fucking kill yourself.
>>673787726
damn it
>17 years old me
>sad because I'm a fat nerdy kissless guy at friendzone (7/10 brunette called Ann)
>been this way since 2 years
>get into acting class, brunette is there too
>one day we have to dance because acting stuff
>"Anon, Dance with Rebecca"
>fml, i wanted to dance with Ann, oh well
>Look into Rebecca's eyes for the first time
>9/10 15 years old brunette, but with a red tone hair, shiny eyes and slim figure (1.65m , I was 1.80 at that time)
>Holy shit, what a qt3.14
>didn't think too much about her until then
>Some time goes by, and I still like Ann, but Rebecca is growing fond on me.
>We start talking a lot and going out sometimes, as friends.
>One day, 2 months later, she asks me via msn if I'm interested in someone, I answer yeah (thinking about Ann)
>"Who?"
>"Maybe tomorrow I'll tell you"
>I see her at school the next day and she starts bugging me to tell her.
>I said no, just for the keks.
>"Oh well, would you at least walk me home when classes are over?"
>"Sure thing"
>16:00 PM, classes are over for the day, and she was waiting outside the school.
>She was being quite weird, too silent, opposing her bubbly self.
>When we are almost getting to her house, she asks me one more time "Who do you like anon?"
>There was THAT look in her eyes, the look of someone interested in you
>I thought, oh well, she is cute, I'll just tell her I like her.
>I like you
>I like you too anon.
>Spaguettied hard, and let her go into her house
>Went full alpha trying to fix that shit and called her back
>She asks me "What?"
>"What what?"
>"What what what?
>After a few minutes of that I kissed her
>Sweet lord of honey kisses
>I sperged and said good bye.
>That's how we ended up together, since i was in last year, we skipped some classes to get to my apt and play mario kart and some other shit
>One day she was sick
>She lived alone with her mother
>Mother was working, teacher
>Walked to her home to check on her.
Cont? It's quite a long story imo
>>673787947
Thank you! Amazing!
>>673789029
Boy, you would really hate the bathtime one, then
>>673790040
Don't pretend you read that
>>673789029
>hates kiddie rape
>sees comic depicting the trauma of being raped as a kid
>decries the comic for promoting kiddie rape
>>673790594
I think he made a general proclamation and was not decrying the comic or poster
>>673789721
>She gretted me at home
>"You look awful" I say
>"Yeah? I guess not as awful as you"
>I had sports class that day and being a fattard doesnt helps
>She laughs and coughs and laughs and coughs and laughs
>We pass some time
>We kiss
>We watch tv
>We laugh
>She coughs
>Mom is home
>Her mom didn't know I was going to her home, nor her daughter inv me, nor how old I was
>Starts screaming about me being there, that she didn't know me and her daughter is too small, and how old am I.
>I ran like the wind
>She didn't logged on msn
>She didn't answer her phone
>Next day she didn't appear at school
>No info about her for a week
>One message appears on my facebook inbox, is she thanking me for the good times and saying good bye because her mother was going to move her from school in that moment, that she just headed to school to do the paperwork.
>Run to school
>I pretend to apologize
>As I walk into school I see her mother
>She tries to ignore me
>I say that I'm really sorry for scaring her that way, being alone and with her and all.
>She says okay, I know that both of you are young, but what is done is done, and you have to deal with it.
>>673791094
>>673789721
cont. anon please
>>673791240
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>>673783730
Ha, autist
>>673790138
Read it. It's good. No dancing dinosaur ending.
>>673787726
You know, I was watching Enter The Void last night on acid and I was trying to peg the feeling I felt with something familiar. I remember when I first read this when I was new to the internet, that feeling back then was the feeling yesterday.
>>673787044
10/10
>>673791225
go on anon
>>673791225
The rest, anon. The rest
>A girl I knew was a total attention whore.
>Never arrived to class on time and always made sure to make a huge fuss about it.
>Didn't talk to her all that much but i did have a few conversations with her.
>Her wrists had cuts and burns all over them, she wore t-shirts so she never hid them
>I asked her why she was hurting herself like that.
>She said ''No one loves me and my life is painful'' etc etc.
>''No one loves you? What about your parents or you boyfriend?''
>Answer she gave to me was something like ''They don't really love me'' or some shit
>Made a point not to interact with her too much after that, because she's an attention whore
>End of the school year she came up to me and asked if I wanted to go somewhere with her that Sunday
>I'm not good in these situations so I couldn't say no even though I didn't like her
>Sunday came and we went to the top of one of those tower car parks
>Just as we got to the top she told me that she wanted to be here as a witness to her suicide
>Oh shit, I thought, she was going to jump and she was going to force me to watch
>Had I know she was going to do this shit I would never have gone with her
>Not watching unless you do a flip, I said that to try and shock her into realizing this was stupid
>Complete shock was written all over her face. She had thought I'd try to stop her
>Ehh?! A-aren't you try to stop me?
>Nah, go ahead, If you really wanted to live you'd stop yourself
>After a while she got down off the edge
She walked up to me afterwards and tried to hug me with tears in her eyes but i told her I loved someone else, she asked me who and I told her to read the first letter of every line.
>have group of friends
>agree no dating within group so we all stay friends
>TFW the rule is broken
>TFW it won't work anymore
>TFW may lose one of my best friends
>>673792049
took the b8
fuck you 8/10
>>673791225
>She leaves
>I start crying in the spot
>I just noticed that I really cared about Rebecca, fuck fucking Ann.
>I stand at the school's door crying
>Rebecca's guide teacher and history teacher (Took her class and because I was nerd as fuck she loved me) walked out kinda confused
>Asks me what's going on
>Explain yaddayadda
>She says that she was confused too because i know that you are a great student and stuff.
>"I'll try talk to her again" She says
>I thank her and leave back home.
>Rebecca doesn't answer the phone, nor fb nor mail nor msn.
>I die a little inside
>1 week later I glance Rebecca back at school.
>I try to greet her and hug her
>She avoids me
>I ask if there is something wrong
>"Nope, nothing"
>She avoids me for about 2 weeks, she still talks to me a bit but only if she is with her friends
>>673792049
Hey, I saw this one a few months ago, nice paste anon. Thumbs up!
I broke up with my girlfriend almost five years ago because my folks didn't like her and this was back in high school and I thought their choices would be better in the long run instead of for the minute. I break up with her and she never talks to me again and I regret it. Everything I do in life reminds me of her.
I'm going to make one big movie and then end it all because fuck it's been five years so far and I still haven't gotten over it as an adult.
>>673791424
shit this stuff is helpful, got more?
>>673787921
if this guy found love, then im sure we can
>>673791225
finish it please
>>673787726
>>673792339
>I try asking her from time to time what is wrong.
>She avoids the answer
>One day she just drops that she is scared of her mother doing something like moving her of school.
>I calm her and tell her that it wont happen
>"Would you go and dine some day with us, I'm sure she would be a lot more relaxed if she knew you"
>ohboyherewego.gif
>S-s-sure, when?
>Sunday?
>Sunday
>Sunday comes and so do I into her home
>Before going in, she asks me "Hey anon, it's been 4 months since we are together, what do we are?"
>Huh, I don't know, friends? I sperged
>"Oh, okay", she said, sad
>Wait, wait, want to be my girlfriend?
>YES, I'D LOVE TOO
>Happiest feeling ever
>Oh wait, I have to meet her mother, welp
>We went into her home, she greets me, kind of serious, and we start eating chinese food
>All going good
>She asks me about me, about what I wanna do when i get out, about how we met and stuff.
>10/10 dinner
>And so Rebecca came back to her bubly self and stopped ignoring me at school.
>Some time passed and it's now the end of the school year.
>>673793587
>She knows that i want to study Medicine
>To do so I have to move from the city
>She is sad about that because we would be apart
>One day she says that she will move to that city too, since her sister is living there.
>Awesome!
>Time passes
>I got tested to get into Med school in that city
>I fail by 5 points
>I got instead into another Med school 8 hours by bus away from that city
>Fuck
>>673790098
there is another one of these?
>feels thread
i have autism :(
>got first gf a month ago
>she really likes me, a lot more than I think I like her
>know what breaking up would hurt her a lot
>I like her but I definitely don't love her and since it's already been a month, I'm not sure if I ever would
honestly bros, it's better being alone than with someone who likes you more than you like them. there's nothing worse than having to choose between your own feelings and someone else's
Jessica ya probably aren't reading this but I'm sorry.
No matter how many times I say it, I still can't get it off my chest.
>>673793982
If this is the end I'm going to murder you
>>673788652
So what happened to his friend?
>>673792451
This one really hits home..
Had to put down my best friend for 11 years last year..
>>673794410
>implying its better to feel helpless because you want them more than they want you
What the actual fuck is wrong with you /b/ro you got it made.
>>673793982
>She starts crying when I tell her the good/bad news
>I noticed looking at her pretty face that I loved that girl
>"hey sweetie, I might be away, but I can travel to see you every now and then!"
>"Would you do that for me?"
>"Sure"
>And so I moved from the city to Anonpolis and Rebecca moved to Las QT.
>Chat every day
>Got myself a cellphone with a ton of minutes so I can talk to her
>Things going not that bad
>Until I noticed I was so fucking alone there.
>>673783730
what happened to this guy? he posted earlier
>>673784015
>>673785306
you should be glad you can
>>673794614
>you /b/ro you got it made.
the way she talks to me sometimes makes me think she loves* me, whereas I barely want to be with her beyond friends/sex, but I know if I break up with her, she'll take it pretty hard and I just can't do that to her, she's too good of a person
*I don't know if love is right, but from 1-10, where 1 is just friends and 10 is love, she's definitely at least a 7, whereas I'm a 4
then again, it's my first gf, maybe I'll learn to open up to her more and make the relationship more fulfilling for us both
>>673795214
it's been a MONTH, dumbass; maybe you should relax.
>>673791538
That's kind of interesting, why do you think they evoke similar feelings? I'm curious about whether or not you've ever done psychedelics as maybe both the comic and the movie opened you up to worlds you didn't know existed (namely the internet and drugs respectively) but I could see it being anything
>>673794652
>By that time I was renting an apt for myself, alone
>No one waiting for me when i got home everyday
>No friends in the new city (Social anxiety + nerd as fuck)
>No warm food, just a shiton of canned food
>I started getting sad every and every day.
>I told her about this and she starts crying because I wasn't doing that good.
>I keep ranting on her about my life, I was being quite a selfish faggot, since she wasn't doing any better
>Her mother couldn't find a job
>Her sister didn't help at home
>She was alone too.
>But she took it like a champ
>My only happiness from those days was when I traveled to her and felt her warm arms in my chest, hugging me and telling me everything is going to be all right. (By the way, her mother loved me at that time, she let me stay in her home, and sleep with her daughter by that time)
>>673794535
bowser got him
are you just pretending to be stupid?
>>673794835
Uhmmmm he plays with his daughter and since he left his medications one day he will be with his daughter if you are religious
>>673795635
Please break it down for me cause I'm just not getting it...
>>673787211
Nigger, learn to respond properly
>>673787947
>>673788015
>>673788056
>>673788097
Fantastic. A true feels story that had ups and downs. Whoever wrote this should become a write.
> be me
> be sixteen years old
> have awesome grandpa who I live with after he lost the ability to walk without help
> we were always really close, but we got closer
> he began to tell me stories about the pacific during WWII
> he saw the flag raise on Iwo Jima and fought in the Philippines and Okinawa
> grandpa gets bad dementia
> parents were getting divorced and my cunt of an aunt slowly takes over
> she moved in and started moving her kids in
> kicked me out of my room so we say, "Fuck you, we're out of here. We'll see him on Sundays."
> we find a different place and start seeing him on every sunday
>his health goes to shit immediately after
> dropped from 200 lbs to 150 in a matter of months due to not eating
> fast forward to three months after we move out and he can't speak coherent sentences or even keep his eyes open
> he sounds brain-dead
> I was hanging around outside because I couldn't see him like that
> dad comes out
> "Anon, pop is calling for you"
> I run inside
> he forgets he called for me and forgets who I am
> tears.jpg
> I can't do this
> I run and go walking a long ways
> he dies a month or so later
> go to his funeral and breakdown
> still visit his grave every month coming down from university
I miss him, guys. He was my hero. My best friend.
>>673795518
>And so did my first year there passed away
>Next year I met by accident another girl
>She was a freshman
>8/10 tall fit single brunette called Mary.
>We made friends
>My relationship with Rebecca wasn't going that good since the distance, but I still loved her and she did too, but this new girl was moving my floor, and she was close to me, so my interest began to grow bigger and bigger
>One day I thought "Fuck, I like her"
>I loved Rebecca by the other way
>I was quite confused by that time, and Rebecca was quite jealous since i was spending too much time with Mary.
>Rebecca makes me swear that I have to tell her if someting happens between the two of us, and that I wont do anything that might hurt her
>"I can't swear that" I tell her
>She dies a bit inside, and cries until asleep.
>We go on like nothing happened, the love, the laughs, the sex was good as always.
>I go back to my city and try to contain myself doing anything stupid.
> I really started liking Mary, but I contained myself.
> One day, Me and Rebecca broke up, because some childish stuff, nothing reall serious.
>I tried looking for Mary as a shelter of myself.
>I really liked her, but she friendzoned the fuck out of me.
>One month later I fixed my relationship with Rebecca again, Though I didnt feel like I was too much into her anymore, since the distance and the fact that I could get a lot of girls close to me.
Cont
>>673788489
Read the story, not really sad (has a fucking happy ending for christ sake).
Long story short 1 person dies who didn't even start as one of the mc's (she was like a 2nd act mc.)
(how it ends)Guy gets a job, marries his crush, says she gets bra's bigger than her bust, the end.
Honestly this was more of a "here is my life story" rather than a, "here is an event that happened in my life that was really sad".
>>673796348
Probably not, with all those grammer errors, sudden change in location and time, story structure(4chan structure), and length. I doubt it would translate well without him actually learning how to write.
Also given the fact that every story on 4chan should be a short story, he did a bad job of writing a "short" story. Maybe a brief novel but not a short story.
>>673797134
>One day, at her city, she was quite bitchy because I wasn't being that close to her
>I explain her that I don't feel right, that I love her but the distance might me do stuff I don't want to do (Yeah, Itold her that, idk why, it doesn't makes sence)
>She is sad
>I tell her that I still love her though.
>One more year passes, and she is trying to prepare for the university, she wants to get into Law
>She is stressed as fuck
>I'm depressed as fuck since alone, away from Rebecca and fucked up one class at University.
>She tries to comfort me from distance.
>She makes it.
>Everytime she is sad, I try to comfort her
>I feel like I can't make it, that I can't help her
>Feel useless
>She makes me feel better but I can't
>She starts making a fuzz from small things too, she was in the edge on a lot of stuff, her family, school, university, job (She was working as a model)
>I start thinking that I'm not the one for her
>It grows stronger
>I'm sure that I have to let her go so she can be happy with another guy that really makes her feel good.
>>673797134
cont anon
Guy at medical school better hurry up Jesus why you writing like a 98 year old woman
>>673795952
he died now please get the fuck out of here
>>673798405
you fucking cuck
type faster
>These threads
>>673784015
>>673785306
Speaking of dads crying. My dad had a brother who died in a car accident. When I was a kid, we were watching a movie that involved someone dying in a car accident. When the movie ended my dad started crying. It was painful to watch because my father is the type to try to hide his feelings.
>>673798558
How the fuck did he go high school then med?? Wtf happened to undergrad/premed???
>>673798789
is that keanu and yotsuba?
>>673798558
>>673798728
Sorry, trying to translate as a wirte, I keep forgetting some words
>>673798973
No premed here
>>673799128
ok then faget i'll bump for you
let me search for some content
>>673783730
>have first bf
>am not his first gf
>that's fine
>been together one year now
>his ex ruined him emotionally
>bf will not say "I love you"
>pretend that's fine
>hurt deeply each time I want to say "I love you" to him since I don't want to force his hand
petty feels I guess
>>673783730
>Everything was fine until I was 5yo
>At 6 went to primary school
>I only made one friend, both of us like to do stupid things and had fun all the time
>For some reason, others like him, and was popular with others
>I was, the opposite, the perfect target for bullying
>Things were from bad to worse on highschool
>Also, my parents started having serious arguments in front of me.
>At 12, they separated. My mother by then was overprotective with me, but always needed to have me around. Not that I cared, since I didn't have friends and was bullied all the time.
>She was also hyperaggresive when she was mad, or wanted somebody to get things done and that person refused (that is, my father, everytime they went back together, and that was 4 times during my teens)
>She started suffering mobbing at work, I still don't know why or if she tried to be as dominant as in our house, but out there, there are people worse than her.
>On the other hand, I had a group of "friends", but it was hierarchical. The ones at the top could have fun nicely with the rest, or mocking the others below them. I was in the middle, and I started behaving like that with those weaker than me. I guess that was because I copied what I learn both at and out of home. That was despicable, but it allowed me to stay in the middle of the hierarchy.
>That group started to go from bad to worse until one day, one of them did something stupid, the rest run and abandoned the culprit and me, and we had trouble with other people. And since I was vague about to blaming anybody but saying that others were with us, they marked me as a traitor and was expelled from the group. There was one tiny fucking psycho, who I hated the most, that wanted the rest to beat me to pulp.
>Anyway, I got away physically unharmed, but as many other times in the past, and at school, with no self-steem. Always being bullied by others and not knowing how to be respected.
Cont...
>>673799633
that's tough, anon
>>673792578
she wold've ended up a crack whore. you made the right decision trust
bmup
>>673798405
>I tell her that I'm not happy with the fact that I feel that she is not happy with me, that I think that she needs someone else. That I love her but i feel useless since I cant make her smile anymore.
>She cries
>Next day we do stuff like everyday, sex, kisses, walk, laughs. We weren't oficially a couple though, but she loved me, and I loved her.
>Time passes
>We start growing some distance
>I'm dying a bit inside
>One day she says that she is going out with a guy from her school
>I burn
>I tell her that I love her, that I really don't want her to be anyone else than me, that I wanted her to be the one that bears my children, the one that will be with me as we grow old.
>She starts crying because she wanted the same. But she won't leave this guy now because he would be sad.
Sorry guys, just deleted my post by error, going to type faster, I'm a bit tired since I just got out of a shift.
Be patient
where are the faggots with the baaw pics at?
come on /b/ros make us feel some more
>become best friends with really pretty mixed girl
>we relate on every level possible
>hang out all the time
>get high together
>get kinda flirty towards each other at times
>I can read people like a book
>she starts telling me that she is numb and likes it likes being that way
I know that feel
>knew something wasn't right with her
>she tells me that she takes pills that help her not give a shit about anything
>she stays awake until 3 almost every day
>she hates everyone at the school, and rejects every guy that makes a move on her, except for me of course
>I told her I was worried about her
this is when she tells me what's up
>she told me that she has these depression spells every now and then
I knew she was depressed, I just wanted to know how sever it was
>another friend invited me to a church lock in
>she started texting me while I was there
>tells me she can't take life anymore and she feels worthless
Wanted to break down so bad, but I held it in in front of my friends
I care about her more than anyone and it wasn't enough
I failed her
I just want to see her happy, but I can't do shit about it
this is honestly worse than any break up or rejection ever and I don't know what to do...
>>673784071
>life is shit because depression
>tests come back i got some shit at age 13 that causes bone and joint degradation
>got 3 years till wheelchair bound doc says
>fuck you ya prick
>fuck what it want
>smoke what i want
>drink what i want
>parents know its a desperate attempt to experience some bit of life so they let it slide
>5 years later joints hurt but i ain't crippled yet
>lung cancer
>brain damage
>living a hard life takes a worse toll than the diagnosis the docs gave
>depression sets in
>23 birthday this week
>sadness and loneliness are the norm
>can't find work cause i'm an A+ fuck up
>rents are breaking apart and supportive family atmosphere is dying
>planned to give myself to 25 to find meaning
>not sure if i can make it till my birthday 5 days from now
>drinking myself into oblivion To make the pain go away for the past year
>another birthday alone even though i asked everyone i know to celebrate with me
>$500 vodka straight from russia next to shotgun
>vodka then shotgun is my birthday present
Here's some advice /b/: if you ever feel someone could use you support even slightly, step up to the plate, you could save someones life.
>>673799872
Fast forward to the present
>My parents went back together, and during 4 days I thought it was over, and my mother wasn't aggresive any longer. But since friendships didn't last for me, I feared that situation wouldn't last too.
>It didn't, and since they bought and we moved to our new home, they started arguing again, and my mother, as always, being aggresive to be the one dominating the family. I can't stand her, and even if she has her sweet moments, internally I hate her, and myself for not being able to face bullies or abusive parents.
>Recently, I had gotten a new employment, and had good and bad experiences in it, until when I decided that no new employee, with the same rank and experience as me, would treat me as their bell-boy. That started a chain of circumstances that ended with me resigning from my employment due to anxiety crisis. I started having problems with new employees in a new office who wanted to organize everything to their liking and as a team, it just happened the "team" was mostly the three of them, plus me, rarely, since mostly they never wanted to pay attention to my advices. And after that, I started getting pissed off by little things, like them taking papers from my desk when I was using them, with no consideration about if I was using them. That led to me getting more angry and finally telling that I wasn't pleased with that, and they thinking that I had no reason for being pissed off. Eventually, things escalated, and unless I decided to use physical violance (plus they were women, and I was a man, so I was at disadvantage), they started to cross the line freely more often. I argued with them even more and built a very bad reputation at the office.
>The boss told me that either I changed my attitude (the company, by then, have been breaking several laboral laws, with no concern for being punished, since the economic situation in Spain is what it is), or if I didn't I would be fired.
Cont....
>>673800609
She was a neo nazi who loved GTA and got me into TF2 and SFM.
I can't let that shit go easy boyo
>>673801784
>can't take life anymore
Lmao you made her want to kill herself. Nice job faggot; really nice job.
>>673802026
>>673802442
Could've been us but I blew it.
gg me
>>673799633
>>673799633
my ex ruined me emotionally. since then, the following 2 year relationship is burning down fast. by the time i finally pulled my head out of my ass, i'm afraid it's too late. i ruined her. either that, or i was right about this last lady the whole time... in which case, i've been ruined further. i'm pretty sure it's the latter; then again, it could be the deep-seated issues brought on by the ex. it's all too god damned familiar. i think i'm gonna go back to the original plan i had before this current woman forced her way into my life (not exaggerating); i think it's time to find a nice, small, remote town and dig deep into the nearby forest... for the rest of my life, i'll be known only as the smelly weirdo who comes into town to collect recycling and gather supplies once a month or so lol. looking back, i was a really nice guy before all this. i miss that guy.
>>673801290
>She won't bug to leave the guy and be back with me
>I decide that if I wante her back I need to go full power
>I ask her if I can go visit her a last time next weekend
>"Sure"
>I go and buy my bus tickets, and prepare my stuff to go see her. I was into woodcarving by that time, so i made a ring for her.
>She calls me that friday, and says that I can't go to there. Her mother doesn't allows her since i hurted her a ton.
>I die more inside
>I go back and refund the tickets, the cashier gave me a full refund, i guess she just saw my face.
>I dispose the ring
>I keep talking to her
>She says that she needs some time to think her stuff, that she loves me but I did a lot of damage to her. She will give me some kind of answer at holidays, new year, 6 months from then.
>Fast forward
>We both travel to out home city
>We go out a couple of times
>But she was cold as fuck
>I die a bit inside
>It's new year
>I join her at Jan 1
>I ask her what does she think about me
>She says that she can't be with me, it hurts too much.
>It really hurts
>She says that I was a great bf after all that shit and thanks me for eveything
>She leaves
>Deadcannotknowthisdead.jpg
>3 days pass
>She calls me, asking if we can me at that moment.
>>673798721
Oh god...You emotional tumblr cunts would read really deeply into that wouldn't you? In no sense does it say he was dead...You faggots implied it so you could be all deep and emotional suck my little dick and go watch fault in our stars for 30th time this year already
>>673801872
>I couldn't take it, and I was facing my boss (also, a woman with the same rank and experience as me, but being promoted in just 1 month after entering the company because they needed somebody there) and telling her I wasn't going to accept that abuse by the company, no matter how bad the employment was.
>After that argument, I was suffering an anxiety crisis, trying not to show the symptoms to others, but by then, my mood was really bad when I was going to work. I was depressed and felt unable to stop people from trespassing my limits. I fighted though, but I losed.
>That company was a total mess, for that and other reasons, but I resigned, and felt like I was forced to leave another social group because I lacked the teeth to defend me. I needed tools to abuse others or to intimidate.
>Also, at home, I still have the will to defend myself against being ordered to do things my parents don't want to do. I don't mind doing the house chores, because I live there, but they NEVER (they even told me during an argument) were going to be at the same level as me, as adults. I will always have to pay bigger respect to them, than them to me, and that included, not only they could break some rules that I wasn't allowed, if they wanted to, but also my mother can't stand a fucking single day with me being unreachable by phone or others. And I want privacy, and live as an adult, and I'm fighting to not to answer, or to give vague answers. I feell that a man respect others, but also makes others respect his limits, and that's what I try.
>After another argument, I see that my relationship with them is splitting, yet I have nowhere else to go. I have family, and I could spend some days with them, but I know they wouldn't allow that to be permanent.
Cont...
>>673802945
Do you want to take this outside you pompous little faggot? Talk shit get hit, bitch
>>673788652
>saving after losing a player
what the fuck man you ruined everything
>>673802911
>My problem is to set limits, and other people accepting them. Part of it is being to pleasant to others at first, and not knowing when they start crossing them.
>Also, I have plans to go to other countries and try to find a job. I hope finding better people there.
>The most important thing for me, is having a home and a job in which I don't have to fight anymore. That is all I need to live and to start healing my mind.
>I need to find people more respectful that the average spaniard (not that they are not respectful and funny, but only with those they see as equal or above to them), and I'm willing to respect their limits.
>Yet I fear there's no place in the world in which I will feel calmed, since now I see the first signs of somebody taking profit from me even in silly situations.
>Another alternative would be, finding a way to sustain myself in complete isolation. That would do nicely.
>>673803998
The link is wrong, I wanted to point this >>673803286
>>673791424
If I could I would pay the artist as much money as possible so they would make one more cartoon where the dad and the rest of her shithead family get what they deserve.
But that will never happen
>>673792253
Did this 10 years ago.
Still regret it every day.
Guess I deserve it..
>>673794059
Clarissa comic search it up
>>673792763
Clarissa comic search it up.
>>673789721
>16:00 pm
Sorry anon-kun
>>673802911
>I say "Sure, obviously"
>I go and meet her
>I can see her getting close to me
>"Wait, is she crying?"
>She starts running into me, and hides in my arms.
>She is crying uncontrollably
>thefuck.webm
>I ask her what's wrong
>she can't talk
>she asks me to go somewhere else
>we go to my place
>she says that she got into a fight ith her mother because she wanted to make a comeback with me, and her mother didn't approve.
>"That's why i called you, but now, walking into you, I feel that everything i feel is fake"
>She says that she is sorry, and tries to leave.
>I beg her to stay
>She walks away
>We kept talking a bit after that, but it was so forced, that it didnt feel right.
>I begged her to stay with me multiple times.
>She got sick of it and cutted all the contact with me.
>I try to contact her every now and then, she reads my msgs but don't answer
After this i stopped doing my stuff, didn't go out, i felt tired and stuff. Went to the psychiatrist and he told me that I was depressed long before this, but the final separation was the last drop of water.
It's been 4 years /b/, I still think that she is the woman of my life. I'm with a girl from my university right now but I can't love her, I'm with her because I need to feel the void that Rebecca left somehow. I don't even talk with Mary anymore. I really miss her /b/
Thanks for reading this, and sorry for taking so long. I think it's not a good feels story neither. But still, thanks.
>>673787947
read it makes me wish i had family and someone that loved and cared about me
>>673804495
Lol, my bad
>>673787726
That's... That's enough internet for me today.
>tfw I studied anthropology in college, graduated with a 3.8, yet still can't manage to get a decent job
>>673795473
I've been tripping for the past 6 months,
not the most experienced but I'm not exactly a newbie. I think it was kind of like having a psyche broken. The lost of innocence I haven't felt for the past 6 years. Namely the scene where the main character is reunited with his sister.
>>673805057
>I studied anthropology in college, graduated with a 3.8, yet still can't manage to get a decent job
>study of humanity
aint much left of that
>>673794597
>>673804623
Shit man, I may be in the same boat soon. Just haven't left for college, but the whole hidden relationship part really sucks (she can't date in hs because her parents are Asian as fuck). So scared we'll graduate and finally get that freedom only to be separated by distance.
>>673805057
Get out gender warrior
>>673803433
What?
At what point should I see a shrink?
>>673805549
Just be patient fam
Shit will get better with her someday if you are strong and don't screw up.
Though I told her that I couldn't swear that I wasn't goint to cheat in her, I never did.
>>673804765
how new can someone be?
You fags always make these threads
You always mention degenerate actions like smoking weed
You do this to yourselves
I feel nothing for you degenerates
Nobody does.
>>673804623
And, I still dream about her bubbly self, smiling at me and telling me that she loves me above everything else.
Good night /b/
>>673806320
>I feel nothing
neither does we
>>673803869
kek
>>673798976
The internet was really there for Keanu when the whole "Sad Keanu" meme was going around
>>673806632
NEITHER DOES WE IS MY BATTLE CRY
>>673802740
what happened with your ex, anon?
Continuing the crying fathers stories.
>be me, 2 years ago
>16 years old, dad is theater teacher at high school that I went to
>has mother with alzheimers, about four years into it
>wants to go see her, but doesn't have the funds for a plane ticket
>idea.png
>was around the time of the school musical
>talk to all the cast and crew of the show and introduce the idea of raising money for my dad to go see his mom
>tell everyone of cast and crew to bring 5 dollars at least
>friend brings me 5 20s in an envelope
>people continue to bring money over the next couple weeks
>get up to about $245 in donations, not enough, but it would lighten the load of cash needed to be spent
>a few days pass
>meeting after musical is when we decide to give him the money, both he and the other theater teacher were receiving gifts as they usually do after musical
>I walk up on stage with two other students, and walk over to him with them
>handshimthemoney.jpg
>explaines that everyone contributed to the cause
>father begins weeping like no other time I'd seen him do it
>voice escapes his mouth and says "Thank you.. My mom hasn't been doing so well lately and I haven't had the chance, nor the money to go see her. Thank all of you for this. It means a lot to have students care about me."
>I began to cry with him
>goes to see her spring break after the musical
My grandmother passed on January 12th of this year, after a long hard fight with alzheimers. It's been difficult. I loved her a lot, and so did everyone else. But this story will always be in my head. Always.
>>673802417
No, he didn't. Probably he allowed her to feel a connection with at least one human being, but probably not enough.
Also, some side effects of mental drugs increase the chance of suicidal thoughts.
>>673792049
Fuck you anon
>>673783730
this is how I actually feel, and it doesn't make me feel
that's because it's how I ACTUALLY feel
and I'm ok with it
if this makes you feel then you don't really feel this way, you want something else.
Ugh enough with the fucking stories, post .gifs .webms .jpgs. not a fucking life story
>>673809728
You'll take the feels we've slaved over all evening or you'll go to bed without
>>673794410
I had to do this yesterday. Even though we were just casually having sex, she got too into me and I wasn't into her, and I had to break it off before she got into deep.
She thought it would be better if we kept on doing what we were doing until the end of the semester and then have a break in the summer, but I know that I'd just never be able to connect with her on a personal level. Feels bad man.
> Be me.
> See feels thread.
> Read Clarissa comic.
> tfw I don't feel anything anymore.
>>673792253
>Shitting where you eat
Never again
>>673798908
Your dad's a pussy, bro. And btw, you have pussy genes too if men in your family die from car wrecks and cry in the movies, bitch.
>>673811895
Found the cuck
>>673811895
Damn bro you told that dude!!
>Be me 17
>Meet little 13 year old twat on CoD
>He annoys the shot of of me, but it's persistent, joining my matches, trying to make friends.
>Actually talk to this kid, find out he has had it kinda rough, divorced parents, mother is alcoholic ect
>connect with this kid give he the best advice I can.
>Fast forward 5 years
>Closest friend I've ever had, my confidant, he was my brother.
>St. Patrick's day last year. Get a message on Facebook from a friend of mine; "have you heard about Anon?"
Cont?
>>673792451
Pretty sure there is a longer version but i can't find it
ITT:
anons trying to find solace b4 bed
and
anons who want to slap that solace right the fuck down.
could you hateful needle-dicks just make your own thread where you just shit all over each other or spam a trap thread?
>>673811895
>Heh,just tellin it like it is kid
anon says as he turns around and adjusts his tribly
It's been a year /b/. And I still haven't felt anything remotely comforting as this girl.
>Be about 15 years old
>lonelyasfuck.png
>Somewhat charismatic, moderately good looking, but can't get girls to like me
>Meet a girl through a mutual friend
>Gorgeous blonde, blue eyes, nice figure
>Names katey
>Fall for this girl pretty early on, but my luck with girls is pretty bad since I'm such shit at talking to women
>Invite her and our friend over to my house one day to go swimming
>laughing and joking and horsing around, me and katey eventually go inside while friend makes a phone call outside
>Eating blueberries and she eats one out of my hand and laughs
>We lock eyes and kiss, best kiss I ever had.
cont
>>673812820
fuck man
this one got me
>>673783730
>my only friends are a bunch of sexist racist homophobic social retards on a Malaysian noodle-making forum.
>I'm just like them.
>>673813661
>calling out griefers makes me edgy
>mfw
>>673813690
Another one 4u ;)
>>673812405
>>673813684
Why haven't you continued? Keep going lads
>>673813918
too close to home anon.
>>673813918
>Malaysian noodle-making forum
post link pls anon
>>673813918
>That feel
>>673813684
>End up dating, turn 16 and we start dating and stuff
>Going to the movies, hanging out with friends, normal teenage stuff
>Connect with her on every level imaginable, very little things we don't have in common
>is this what love feels like?
>Tell her I think I love her, she tells me she loves me too
>Summer continues, start to learn more about her and her family
>Her family seems really nice on the surface but they have some pretty fucked up things
>She was molested at 5 by classmates, half-brother was a meth-head, half-sister was pregnant as a teen
>Father was fine up-standing person who raised 5 siblings by himself, went to university, worked for big banking companies
>Mother was...different
cont
>>673814047
every time
>haven't been in love at all
>wouldn't say that I love anyone in my family
>fuck around with girls for first three years of University after I broke up with my first and only girlfriend when I graduated High School.
>go to High School Class Reunion
>meet some chick I had a thing for back in the day
>we hook up
>I realize that I actually want a relationship with her
>she wants it to
>I manage to fuck it up hilariously over three months and she now has no reason to believe that I want anything more than FWB or just friendship
So, I've been through quite a bit. Death, violence and absence of love were normal things of my childhood. I actually thought that I was done with my fucked up childhood after my psychotherapy sessions, but here I am.
I just pushed away a person that I have feelings for, because I just can't do anything else. As soon as I should do something important I just run away from it.
We're in a club and she wants to seperate from the group of friends?
Fuck it, I'm off flirting with random women.
Man.
>>673798976
>filename
>>673784015
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0rN30TgxK4J
>>673814323
>Her mother was always watching over her and looking at her phone and checking her MSN conversations
>Literally was a helicopter mom who was a nazi, also pretty abusivve
>Bother were type A so tehy just yelled at each-other
>Supported my GF since she wasn't a wild child by any means, but the more her mother kept a short leash on her the more she would act out
>Often times she would cry to me on the phone or on skype about how abusive her mother was
>Tried my best to comfort her
>Idonotknowthatfeel.jpg
>GF was also pretty weary of me since my former FWB always wanted to talk to me and hang out
>started to spread rumopurs around the school that I had sex with her when me and my GF were dating
>Kept telling her to ignore it and not to worry about it; we even went to different schools so it shouldn't have that much impact on her
>guess again
>enraged if this girl even crossed my path, started to lie to her so she wouldn't get mad at me for shitty things like that
>had some ups and downs, but other than that things were pretty normal
cont
>>673812405
>"He killed himself."
>Shocked ,i didn't believe it. I went to his Facebook page, and it's littered with "we miss you"
>Send his mom a message; "Please tell me this is a sick joke!"
>She tells me that a couple of hunters found his car on the side of the road, and that he had shot himself in the head.
>Go into shock.
>My psychi breaks.
Cont.
>>673814047
Sorry got caught up in my sadness
Ive never shared this before.
>> be 17
>> have labrador that lives with dad
>> dad lives alone apart from dog
>> i loved going to see dad on the weekends and to see my dog
>> he would get under the house and sleep underneath my floor so i could hear him snore at night
>> dog becomes increasingly sick with cancer
>> dad picks me up from school one day, doesnt say anything in car
>> get home to mums (dog lived at dads)
>> in kitchen, turn around, dad just breaks down.
>> dog died
>> Long drive home to dads that night, in tears the whole way.
>> get to dads, walk into lounge room and go to open back door to let dog in
>> lost it
I miss hearing him sleep underneath me at night
>>673806188
My thoughts exactly. I almost closed out of all of 4chan when i read his post.
>>673789721
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0ZBWvNq7kX4
>>673815126
>School; year progressing, she's slowly loosing friends because of her shitty attitude
>Not submissive in the least, always thinking that people are against her and stuff
>support her through it, telling her that people are just immature and that things will get better
>She tries to kill her self one day due to the cumulative stress of her mom being a bitch, friends leaving her, and the rumors about me and this other girl
>Goes to counciling to try and resolve all these issues, nothing gets resolved
>Mom is still a bit of a bitch, but she's getting better, rumors stop, everything is good
>Summer time we start to fool around more, having sex a lot and she's on the pill
>Her attitude is much better, always happy and wants to fuck (thanks estrogen)
>Something is off though
>She is complaining a lot about her joints hurting, tell her to stop the pills because it may be that
She was on accutane and almost had liver failure so I thought it may be drugs
cont
>>673791225
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0bzPRZmfK83
>>673815713
son of a bitch. I thought Id finally read something nice on this site. Why do you people sit in these threads throwing a pity party every god damn day?
>>673812756
that's pretty harsh.
haha. i just had my birthday like 4 days ago and all i did was eat lunch with my mom.
>>673815168
>I never knew
>He didn't distance himself from me, he was fine the day before.
>I get put in a crisis center. Makes things worse, can't even light my own cigarettes there.
>Lose my job.
>Lose my apt.
>Lose my car.
>In 3 days it be a year that's he's been gone.
>I still expect my phone to ring or Skype to light up.
>Can't believe he is gone...
If it weren't for my few friends, I'd be gone. One in particular, if your reading this Jon, thanks for be there when I was broken.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=CK4TUP0VKLY
If you have 11 minutes watch this. Its called bus 44 its a short chinese film. Dont google it till after you have watched it
>>673813376
i like the art, what's the sauce?
>>673815940
>Start of my final semester in HS
>One day get a text from GF in last period english
>"Anon...it's bad news...the doctors said I have something called drug-induced lupus...."
>fuck
>I know exactly what that is and I know how badly it can fuck up someone life
>She stops the pills immediately and starts to take drugs for it
>She gains 40 pounds, her hair starts falling out or thinning, she is vissibly stressed, becomes depressed as fuck
Might as well mention that she had like Farrah Faucet hair. Big and wavy blond hair, kind of reminded me of a lions mane.
>Tell her I still think she's beautiful and love her through all of it
>She hates herself and wishes it will go away
>Tell her that it will eventually, you just have to not loose faith in the good things that will come
>Eventually both get accepted into university, within really good distance of one another
>She starts to become very tired and short with me a lot of the time
cont...
>>673789721
>>When we are almost getting to her house, she asks me one more time "Who do you like anon?"
>>There was THAT look in her eyes, the look of someone interested in you
>>I thought, oh well, she is cute, I'll just tell her I like her.
>>I like you
>>I like you too anon.
>>Spaguettied hard, and let her go into her house
>>Went full alpha trying to fix that shit and called her back
>>She asks me "What?"
>>"What what?"
>>"What what what?
>>After a few minutes of that I kissed her
Will never be innocent EVER again
I don't know what to feel
damn these feels...
>>673792451
Made me cry man. Reminded me of my dog, Brutus Maximus. Except we didn't have to go to the vet. He lived to be 18.
>It was June 22, 2013 exactly 2 days before my birthday.
>I had a swim meet that day so I had to leave really early in the morning and I would not be back until late afternoon
>I was sitting at the swim meet more worried than usual about Brutus (my dog) but I just brushed it off like it was nothing
>The meet ended and we started coming home and I remember being even more anxious about Brutus but this time I just couldn't shake the feeling
>We all get home about 4 and we go in the house looking for him
>We left the back door open and so I thought he was just using the bathroom outside
>I will never forget what I saw next
>Brutus was collapsed on the ground next to the fence, I ran over and scooped him up and carried him inside.
>We all knew this was his time, but my mom called our vet anyways hoping there was something they could do.
>They told her that he was dying and we needed to just hold him and make him feel okay
>Brutus laid in my lap and his body continued to shut down, he lost control of his bowels and shit on my pants, but I didn't care.
>My entire family was gathered around, stroking his fur until he breathed his last.
>We went outside and dug a hole near our flower patch.
>Just before we laid him to rest, I took off his collar and put in in my pocket.
>I still carry it to this day.
>>673816754
>She has no friends from HS there with her and it's difficult for her to make friends
>I'm not doing well in my classes because she's always needy of me to come and comfort her and her insecurities
>Tell her I can't, she gets mad and suspecting that i'm cheating on her, I assure her i'm not
>'Well then why the fuck can't you see me?'
>Because I'm studying for my classes
>'Yeah well a degree isn't going to love you back anon'
Fuck, guilt trip complete.
>Go over and comfort her becuase she says she doesn't feel pretty enough around all the girls that she goes to school with (it's a very typical party school)
Cont....
>>673816245
Its good to feel the sad times
Makes you appreciate the happy times just a little bit better
>>673815044
>2 hours later someone takes the bait
wew lad
>>673817544
>>673817312
>>673817224
>>673817171
>>673816991
>>673816897
>>673816754
>>673816648
>>673816583
>>673816468
>>673816247
>>673816245
>>673816184
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xHgZOMQQTDA
angry music pls?
>>673813918
>malaysian noodle making forum
kek never heard that one before
>>673816897
fug
>She will never know how much i cared
>>673806320
>>673815921
lost the crying game right here
>>673817996
>1080p
>780x439
>1080p...
>>673817224
>School year ends, all ym marks are in the shitter
>Absolutely devestated
>Never faiuled classes, never done so piss poorly
>My grades are all the merit that I have due to the lack of any other outstanding qualities that I may or may not have
>Feels like my life is over
>Spiral into a deep depression, GF says it will get better
>Tell her that I need to focus on school for it to get better
>Not the answer she wantged to hear, is reluctant to accept that as an answer, but eventually does
>Second year comes around, girl friend is becoming more aggitated with me and my lack of attention to her
>Starts insulting me and degrading me at any chance she can get at a fuck up
>Even the smallest of things she gets mad at me for
>Starts to verbally abuse me, emotionally, and physically
>Feel like a fucking faggot for being abused by a girl
>Feel like a piece of shit for not being able to stand up for myself
>So tired, so lonely, thinking about killing myself constantly
>Start talking to this other girl as a friend
GF finds out and tells me that i'm emotionally cheating on her
>Degrades me some more
>Relationship is rocky and I want nothing more but to go to sleep and never wake up
final bit coming up...
>>673817996
>>673818131
u8 da b8 m8 ;)
>>673817976
Why must you remind me.
>>673817312
I guess.
idk Im emotionally fucked up and numb most of the time. I didn't even realize that I was in a feels thread. I just clicked on a bunch of shit from the catalog.
Im out
>>673818385
..l.,
>>673818245
finish pls
>>673818289
just bit it to make you happy anon
My crush and also my old best girl friend texted me today telling me she cares for me, misses me and has some feelings for me and im ignoring her cuz I don't love her anymore.
2 weeks ago she sent me how's life going and I didn't respond.
I stopped talking to her since April 2015. Every time she hook up with someone, she hid it from me until I figure it out and then tells there's nothing official.
back story:
>We used to be friends in high-school.
> told me she liked me, then loved me.
> ended up loving her, told me she has some feelings for me.
> told her I love her, said she loved me too.
> kissed her, are we moving from friends to couple? told me yes
> the day after, she was hooking up with someone else. Found out after 10 days. Told her wtf, she told me she was just trying to make me jealous. Changed her relationship status to "in a relationship with me" on Facebook and I was the only one able to see it.
> fast forward, she's in a serious relationship with the other dude and I'm her "Facebook official bf"
> found out later that everything was fake. told her why you did that, she told she didn't want to break my heart.
> stopped talking to her. fast forward 3 months. her bf dumped her, came to me asking for forgiveness. been friends for another 3/4 months.
> are we a couple? idk are we? yeah. I don't wanna called it couple. let's keep it without a name.
> later, i found out the bitch is hooking with another dude. so I told her fuck off.
A little late to this thread but I want to get this off my chest.
>be me middle school seventh grade
>little shit trying to be popular
>kid in my first hour class, lets call him Muffin
>we dont talk much
>didnt know him otherwise
>slowly start having more conversations with Muffin
>thisguysalright.jpg
>we talk and laugh in school but I barely know the kid outside of school
>get to school one morning
>weird vibes in the air and murmurs in the halls
>find out from friends of friends that Muffin died in his sleep
>his mom tried waking him up and found him dead
>natural causes I think he choked or something
>Muffin did nothing but make people laugh
>took me a while to realize he wouldn't be at school any more
>took me up until just now to realize that was about the time death meant anything to me
Night /b
>>673817312
>implying there are times when people are happy
Or is it just that the blindfold we work hard to keep over eyes falls a little and we get sad until we fix it.
There is no true happiness other than short burts from focusing on one thing and ignoring everything else. When it's all considered the best you can feel is just less sad.
>>673792451
Thank you
>>673818488
>..l.,
you what?
>>673818245
>Summer starts, she drives a wedge between me and my family
>Family hates her and they hate me because she controls me
>It will get better, just 2 more months until school starts
>School year comences, things are getting better, my marks are improving.
Find out one day my long time friends brother had slipped in teh shower. Severe brain damage. Life support. One week. Pulled the plug. Went to the funeral, so I was back in town
>While back in town, GF asks if I want to have dinner with her and her family
>Sure katey, but I don't know when teh funeral will end. I'll let you know.
>'Okay anon I love you!'
>Tell her I can't make it for dinner
>'Anon what the fuck? Are you serious? My mother had the fucking god damned courtesy to make you fucking dinner and you're just not going to come? Fucking great. Fuck yiou'
>Okay I'll come..
For a frame of reference, this was typical shit. If things didn't go her way she would through a fit. She literally got mad at me for not coming home ontime from my university town since there was traffic.
>Have literally done nothing wrong to her
>tells me when I get there that "we need a break anon. You clearly don't know if you love me'
>Is this what you want katey?
>'Yes, you need some time away from me'
More to come...
>>673819318
it's L, not i
>>673792451
Miss you rhondy :)
My best bud
>>673818603
woa...woaaaah th-thanks
>>673791424
we should make a comic to make this little girls life better.
>>673805549
I was just like you, but be young enjoy life, enjoy college don't let 1 out of 3.5 billion females put down your life. I went to college and struggled with it for 2 years and finally it ended and I didn't think I would move on. I'm not say you guys don't love each other, just saying that sometimes things don't go as planned. I ended up then going to Japan as an exchanged student my senior year having he fucking time of my life and I met my wife at the University.
Smoke away the pain, and just fucking live
Killing self
Like falling asleep, Don't force it, just let it come over you. You'll find yourself extremely complacent one day, with not much of an opinion on if you lived or not. It's on days like that you're able to slip into a mindset of lethal action.
I dance on the ledge on days like that, loosely mindfull of where my foot may land. But just before I place a confident step onto false ground, I look down ..... and can only reverse my step back into the life that brought me up onto that ledge.
One day, I know I'm going to take that step forward but just not now.
good night /b/
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYsMHZdOmoA
>>673812756
i wanna smoke weed and listen to miles all night with this guy
>>673819415
>I have no contact with her for a month practically
>Very little communication, we used to text all the time, and now nothing
>Head is clear enough to think and do work, at least that's a plus
Side note, she wanted constant communication. So much so that we ran out of things to talk about and I was always the one to create conversation. And when I couldn't, it was my fault that the relationship was boring.
>Come home every weekend to see how she's doing
>Try and spend time with her to win her back, thinking i'll be welcome with open arms
>Instead I get the following
>'Anon what the fuck is wrong with you? You never want to talk to me.
>Do you not love me? I bet jesse loves me. >Why don't you care? what will it take for you to care about me? Do I have to fuck jesse to get you to care about me?
>Those were the conversations of three consecutive weekends that I came home for.
>Every time I tried to comfort her or show affection, she'd push me off, then ask why I wasn't showing affection.
>At this point i'm heavily drinking and thinking about killing myself.
>The first girl I loved, who told me she loved me and wanted to grow old with me, tells me i'm a peice of shit
>One weekend she tells me she fucks jesse
>Absolutely devastated
>Cry a bit, she pitty fucks me and tells me she misses me
>Go to florida together on a vacation her family brought me on (we had already planned it before)
>Nothing has changed really, although it's getting better slightly
>Get back home and she says she wants to be with me, but needs more time
>Week later I find out she's in a relationship with jesse on facebook.
From July 16th, 2010 to Janruary 15th, 2015, I never stopped loving her.
>>673820050
Here is a picture of my dog, Clark. He wants me to stay alive, had has been my reason to stay alive many times.
Clark wants you to stay alive as well.
>>673819492
... what the fuck does "..l.," mean
>>673820838
If not for mine, for Clark's sake.
Thanks anon.
>>673820753
Through all the degradation, the name calling, the emotional and psychological trauma she inflicted on me, I never stopped loving her. Although she occasionally hit me and spoke down to me, I knew deep down that in some, twisted way, she loved me. She couldn't cope with the fact that she was suffocating me, and thus she held on more and suffocated me more.
And when I faltered and broke down, went into a deep deep depression, her answer for me to love her was not to support me and help me and encourage me with whatever I did, but it was for her to get me back to normal so I could cater to her every need and whim. I was her servant in a world that revolved around her. And then eventually, she destroyed the person who created her perfect world. I think about her all the time /b/. I think about the life we could have lived. The places we'd go and the things we'd see, the things we'd do together. Grow old, have kids.
But sometimes, sometimes love is not enough.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=oMBMgxUw6YQ
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=BpqOWO6ctsg
Here ya go anons
I don't want to live /b/. But I don't want to die either. I don't have a story or anything, really. My life is just a boring, mundane slog through life that gets worse and worse. I compare myself to a backround npc in a rpg. Has a short backstory, but is meamingles and could not be in the game at all and nothing would change. I feel alone in this world. Hell, I can't even fucking show my goddamn emotions properly. I know this post won't mean anything to anyone, but I don't care. I just don't want to be alone anymore, /b/...
Shit eventually gets better just work twords it, and also suicide is for niggers.
Heres something that happened to me this month also I've never done a green text but here it goes
> be me senior 17 years old
> junior friend dating sophomore let's just make his name John
>his girlfriend solid 8/10
>this is John's new girlfriend I've never seen he sends Instagram screen shots
>one picture is her and her friend
>she's really cute not some smoke show but 10/10 in my eyes
>fast forward to a week later
>at party John calls me over
>walk across room he's with gf
>says hey my friends interested in one of ur friends Let's call her friend Sarah
>says she'll try and hook me up
>few days past John gives me her number
>says "don't fuck this up"
>talk with her we hit it off have a lot in common like music, movies, books etc
>she says we should hangout with my friend John and his gf
>score double date and we only been talking for a day
>go on double date goes great
>go back to John's house we all watch a movie
>put my hand out waiting to hold hands but nothing
>night ends she text me saying she had a great time and we should do it again
>>673822080
This one has always stuck with me.
"Everything that I thought in my life was invisible was fixable - except for having just jumped"
>>673822555
Shit ain't gonna happen right away nigga
>>673823206
Except I quoted it wrong.... I can't edit to fix it. AHHHHH
>>673806617
Good night
>>673823381
the irony
>>673783730
>Be me surgeons assistant
>About 2 years going on 3 years ago
>EMTs and paramedics barge into the hospital with a dying 6 year old
>Her old man is bad shape along with the mother
>What happened?
>Hit by intoxicated driver
>FUCK
>Little girls got a broken glass and piece of a bumper lodged in her abdomen
>Get to work right away trying to save her
>anesthesiologist prepares her
>DO IT NOW WE ONLY HAVE A FRACTION OF TIME TO SAVE HER
>Apparently pain killers Paramedics gave her didn't cut it
>Little girl keeps saying; "It hurts... I don't want to go to sleep"
>Team is trying to keep their composure but her talking is just making it worse
>Lead knows she won't make it
>Her father tries to barge in
>Dude is leaking blood like theres no tomorrow
>Hallway is drenched in his blood
>"Its ok sweetie I'll see you soon"
>Guy was threatening nurses and security he had hepatitis and he'd purposely infect them if they touched him
>Hear word his wife didn't make it
>Little girl goes into shock and starts convulsing
>Old man finally passes out
>Managed to remove the bumper
>Flat line
>Try to revive her
>Doc gives up
>Nurse however doesn't
>Goes on for about 20 minutes
>Nurse breaks down and whole rooms goes dead silent
>Everyone leaves with that depressing failure look
>I'm stuck in there finishing the report
>Her corpse starts to twitch
>Cover her up
>Throw up in the sink
>Father ended up making it but he lost 30% of his blood and has his own car keys lodged into his chest
>Unable to remove due to it being extremely close to his heart
>Turns out his wifes teeth are lodged into his neck as well
>extended family arrives
>Deliver bad news
>Family breaks down
>Police then advise us the drunk driver was their son
Found out later the oldman tried to kill himself a month later. Guy had a severe mental break down and ended up in some mental hospital. Last I heard he settled down and has another family and is doing good now.
>>673822555
>comes Monday I leave classes to go see her, I show up late to class just to see her I basically do what I can just to talk with her
>we text after school and she says that I should come over her house and hangout
>score.jpg
>say ok can't wait
>realize this is my moment to see if we can be more than just friends when we hangout
>fast forward to that Friday notice Sarah's not there
>text her says she's not feeling well and that she won't be able to hangout tonight
>rip whatever say we can hangout some other time
>next day ask her how she's feeling says good
>ask if she wants to hangout tonight says she can't cause she's already with friends but next week we should
>ok whatever go on with my day
>come School everything's going as usual just waiting for the weekend to hangout
>see her in the halls the same we talk still nothing strange
>fast forward to Thursday going to class
>some of here grinds pass by me during passing period
>over her on of them tell the other "she says she likes him but doesn't want to date him"
>whet ok I just ignore it and go on with my day
>talk to her about hanging out she says sure but she's really busy with ballet
>I didn't realize how busy ballet was until I started talking with her she has this shit every day so was like ok understand
>later on text her saying what's up and is everything still good for this weekend
>>673792451
First time I cried in 6 years thank you anon
>>673823766
Welp, I guess that's it for me
>>673816648
Its a manga called Vagabond totally recommended not just for the art, the story is great
>>673824225
>and she text me these exact words also in this order that seems like it was pre texted
>"We can still hang out as friends but I'm just not ready for anything serious"
>"Hey I was actually just gonna text you, I'm sorry but i don't think I can hang out this weekend :( things are just really busy with ballet and you're really cool but I don't think I can date anyone right now"
>hits me like a brick wall cause it was out of no where
>say I understand and that's the end of convo
>next day Friday I don't leave class to see her I don't get to class late nothing basically ignore her
>kinda sad but the real feels haven't hit yet
>so hangout with my friends to get my mind off this friends say it's all good and whatever
>great time next day Saturday some of my friends get back from college for spring break
>great way to get a girl off ur mind by getting smashed do that but they don't know about girl
>so great cause they don't know so it doesn't exist I have her on snapchat it's around 8 pm check her story see that it's a pic of her friend really blurry cause flash was on
>but notice it's a kid I recognize not well but we played soccer together for a couple years
>am like in head thought you couldn't hangout and thought u were busy with ballet
>pissed get home around 12 am listen to sad/depressing music for a couple hours
>now Sunday yesterday still depressed not on the fact that she doesn't want to date
>but the thought that I'm going to college so that I will literally be erased from her life
>also since prom was coming up I was going to ask her but now idk what to do
>>673783730
police officer's dog saying goodbye, dude was ambushed on the side of a road
>>673792451
What does it mean when he hears the music and runs off?
My feels are killing me
I posted this in another thread, if anyone is wondering about the repost.
Going to try to make a long story really short.
>Meet girl who has a huge crush on me
>made rule earlier in life that I wouldn't date anyone, to avoid getting emotionally attatched
>feel bad for her, go on a few dates.
>Fall in love
>she's small and shy and incredibly nice
>She works out the courage to ask me out, takes her months apparently
>fuck yes
>Date foe awhile
>Courage dwindles
>feels like I'm getting jealous too easily
>I get the idea that I'm really clingy
>Try my hardest to keep everything together
>She ends up just breaking it off
>She wants to stay friends
>what the fuck ever, man.
>Make small talk sometimes
>She tells me how she has a crush on someone else
>The pain is unbearable. I still love her so much
>I want to tell her, but I'm afraid I'm being clingy, which I'm trying to avoid so that I can try to get back together with her.
I don't know what to do. I'm too afraid of being distant, but I also need to avoid being clingy. I want more than anything to tell her how I feel but I don't want to scare her off. These small comments about this other guy is killing me inside and I want to tell her to just stop, but I don't want to hurt her.
>>673792451
Fuck man this one hit me hard
>>673816648
Vagabond
>>673825088
Honestly find someone else or seem like your trying to find someone else get her back with her own medicine find one of her good looking friends and ask her about her and try to hook you up with her and say things like "hey your friend *blank* is really hot is she single" etc
hey, anons. I'm not necessarily upset with my life, but I still lurk feels threads because I always feel more appreciative for what i have when I learn of what fellow /b/ros are going/gone through. I'm sorry I can't relate you guys on most things. I'm sorry these things have happened. Keep fighting.
Goodnight.
>>673792253
Or you could do the complete opposite approach.
My old neighborhood college group was hella incestuous. Like the more attractive popular charming slutty whatever of us all had like 10 connections to everyone else in a web of jizz
people have since settled down a bit but it was easily one of the best two year periods of my life
>>673783730
>be me
>Around 16 years old
>Sophomore in high school
>Lonely retard edgy angst teenager xD
>Meet qt3.14 girl
>Call her Emily
>Noone this year has shown any interest in me whatsoever
>I slowly begin to make friends with this girl
>We are unsettlingly similar
>3 months go by
>Now best friends with Emily
>She's texting me one night
>"My boyfriend says I need to stop texting you, but I can still talk to you in person"
>tfw you're so lonely you don't even realize the cuckage of this situation
>Time goes by where she goes through multiple periods of being with him, breaking up with him, and repeat
>She always comes crying back to me
>Eventually she stops talking to me in person
>She is just getting over her third break up with him
>I text her later asking what the deal is
>She says that she can't live without him bla bla
>I sperg and tell this bitch that she's taken me through hell and back dragging me around while fucking this nigger (not actually black)
>Tfw she gets sad and stops talking to you in person now too
>For her bday a month earlier my friend and I had made her a bday cake that had a really shittily drawn pepe on the front
>It was supposed to be cringe
>Tfw the day she stopped talking to me was my bday
>I legitimately loved that girl
>Thought about her constantly and the worst part was that we had classes together
>I still think about her wishing that we could still just be friends
>Tfw I could've just not sperged and still been her friend..
>>673792451
>>673787726
Fuck dude...
>>673824656
What field are you going into anon?
Got a story about me being a total idiot and coming out in the worst way possible to my previously closest friends, anyone want to hear?
>>673826522
Going into biology
>>673784071
replace cig with oral tobacco and thats me
>>673788691
Read whole thing and saved. Shits cash
>>673825079
Please?
>>673787726
>>673827087
I think the strip is longer than just that. Sorry, I can't tell you more. It's really bothering me too.
>born
OP has aspergers
>>673826889
Ah, I'm a senior too anon. I'm hoping to go into comp sci or software engineering. Whenever I feel sad, I teach myself stuff to keep my mind off things.
Maybe you could teach yourself more about homeostasis? That unit fucked me in the ass. Fucking adrenal medullas man.
>>673827318
Thanks anyways. It's really getting to me not knowing. My little dog is right here next to me :(
>>673827599
I never could get emotionally attached to animals, and I really envy those who can. Enjoy the fact that you feel anything at all, my friend.
>>673783730
That's a good cartoon there.
I feel the same way.
People suck. Just lemme be with my waifu.
>>673827830
I'm sorry to hear that anon. I'd kill to see the rest of that strip. I've not been this close to tears since I was a kid.
>>673827455
That's some cool shiet anon wish I was good with computers also thanks whenever I'm sad I over think shit so I could put more of my thinking time on other new things like you said
>>673825728
I've already tried.
There legit are chicks who are interested in me, one of whom I fooled around with and told her about afterwards, but not only did it not work (she's bi, and asked for details and seemed happy about it) but it seemed petty.
>>673827830
>>673828031
http://www.anythingcomic.com/comics/2225211/good-boy/
>>673788825
Thanks anon. That's very sweet of you c:
>be me
>now 22
>in elementary school I had a reading disability
>when I did't understand I would cry
>I was then put in special needs classes
>I would be locked in a dark small room when I cried
<This happened for nearly 3 years till middle school
>in middle school I was an outcast for not knowing anyone
>I was always picked on, I remember crying in class and nobody caring
>in high school I was still picked on, nobody cares
>in the long run I drop out
>Here I am now drunk regretting never finishing school...
>There is a lot more too it, but the story is just to long and painful t go through
>I'll never be successful
>Nobody will care
>I wouldn't say I given up, but I've let go
>Crying helps though
>>673828194
Then idk anon she seems like she's already moved on or maybe she hates it as much as you but ask and listen like she actually likes it my advice is to move on keep her as a friend and play the waiting game if she gets a boyfriend and breaks up she'll come crying back to you
my boyfriend just told me he slept with another man.
and it hurts...........
>>673828809
>if she gets a boyfriend and breaks up she'll come crying back to you
Kind of what I'm thinking.
Think actively trying to get her back is a lost cause at this point?
>>673828824
I'm sorry to hear that anon. nobody should ever have to go through that.
You can make it, though. I believe in you.
>>673828127
All you need to remember is to not delete system23. It's getting late, goodnight anon.
Good luck with whatever you're doing, I wouldn't be too worried about the girl. If you really wanna learn something cool & useful about computers though, maybe try learning a basic programming language like JavaScript.
'night all
>>673828661
You can still get your life together anon take some online courses or get a community college and get an education again and finally be something I believe in you
>>673828661
Sucks anon, do you still have a reading disability?
>>673787726
poor sweet baby, she needs someone to protect her... weeb drawfags i got a shitty aspie idea if youre willing to listen.
>>673829087
Don't put so much effort into it just go on and do your own thing she wants you as a friend cause she likes being around you so kinda "drift" a little do your own thing then she'll realize what's she's missing
>>673829206
This. Depending on what you want, you could teach yourself pretty much anything right now. I taught myself differential calculus with my spare time reading books at my local library. When I was 12, I read books on HTML and CSS. Right now I'm 18 and developing a social media website. Nobody helped me. I taught myself everything.
>>673811049
The later ones are even worse, but they enter TL;DR territory for most
>>673828661
That sucks, Anon, but you don't need school to be successful.
The Zuck never finished college, for example.
Just pick up a book on web programming, get good into it, and then launch a good site.
I recommend:
http://smile.amazon.com/gp/product/B00QUBHNFI?redirect=true&ref_=docs-os-doi_0
I originally only had the second edition, but I just bought this one myself to pick up the stuff I was trying to get elsewhere.
Give it a go, dude. Get rich.
>>673829670
Alright, I'll try to do that dude.
And thank you for the advice, I really do appriciate it, anon.
>>673829496
Do tell, anon
>>673830000
No problem anon good luck and checked
>>673828661
There are a lot of jobs that don't require as much education as you think, anon. I know this doesn't sound like a glamorous thing in the slightest, but labor jobs pay enough to live off of, and in the long run you might be better than many who do peruse education because you aren't risking debt to get a job that might not pay as much.
Jobs look for experience over education anyways.
>>673792049
I've now read this twice. doh.
b8/5
I suppose
>>673829463
if I never found the internet, I probably would...
>>673830090
well i say we make an initiative of clarissa's old man getting the shit knocked out of him.by various badass characters across media.
